Untrusted Theory

Serenity

2016-01-12T18:50:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I write something in here. It's feels like a long time ago. Hehe. Yeah, lot of things happened and I'm not gonna write it down here. It's such a shame. But I'm gonna mention it now,

The first one is PIMNAS, it's a while ago, I mean, it's something that we should be good at. But God turn it sideways. Everything is went wrong at that time when we came around, like someone girls that taking my attention. And lose me my focus. The presenter of our group had a problem with her voice. It's indeed something bad. And the fact that UB contingen is taken down by some judge. Um uh, never mind.

Since then I'd think that those problem, will not be any burden for a winner, a winner will take up his courage and fight. I learn a lot of things from my friends there. Like Fathir that has a lot of achievement, even though his attitude is not saying so (Hahaha). Vanda, really good at write, hardworker, and have a good manner as a competitor. Yeah, indeed she is. Oki, a boy that at the first glance I'd think he's a nerd. But then my friends told me that he was 'competition maniac'. What a boy!.

Yeah, but then our group were gutted. But we proud. We can make it through this. And this is indeed a good idea. So, I told myself this ,

"You're still young kids, you still have time. Take your time and prove it. Prove that you can make it before the end."

Alright, PIMNAS, that was emotional, indeed. The next one is Expo that held by campus as a one of the series event of Dies Natalis. I'd think it's nice to think to show off my things. But then, it's was always be like this. "I'm not yet prepped anything. Not one". Hahaha, it's a bad thing, so anyone who read this, told this to yourself "A good boy never proscinating". Yeah, I mean I did it sometimes, and I regret it. It's something that you shouldn't do to yourself. Working by deadline, it's something that I currently avoid. Heheh.

Back to Expo. At the first time I'm coming down there. I saw so many Electronic Engineering boys (and girls) down there. Oh god, so I was like "Is this a reunion?". But I got myself a reunion, I met Dafi and Falach, those guys are my friends since we're in SD, never miss a spot we still be a good friends a have a good time together at my place until the three of us are not in the same high school. So it's really nice to see that we could be together again.

Never miss my chance, I took it as a fact that I could make some more friends. That's for sure, and also I could look around, and see, what's the potential of UB nowdays. I'd look around, I saw Fish counter, a good counter device (working principal?, same as mine). And now this is something remarkable, detection kit for diabetes, and thyroid from your blood. Oh god!, who's the one bring this idea come alive? It's prof. Aul of course she is. She's such amazing woman. Indeed. Only with one-two drops of your blood, and it turn into something like this. Brilliant!. Next one, is uh something that I like. Cyanide test kit, formaline and boraks kit, ASMAT, SPAK, X-Flem, JUPE, (a lot of things I did interested. But I'm not gonna mention it here) hehe.

Yeah, that was a good time spent there. But nowdays, I've got nothing to do except I've got skripsi to work on, and final semester exam. Which will determine my IPK now. So to kill my bored times, I do something like customization for my phone. Heheh. I mean yeah, It was inspired by some goods by tokems, kisanagii, and quantumIB.

And here's the shot

That's for today, hope you've got yourself a good day to spent.

See ya!

City Lights

2015-11-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

City lights, take me away
Now it's time, we never ever head down
Don't be scared, I am for real
Hide away and we will never be found

It's alright, we never look back
Birds will sing if we fall
It's alright, with memories inside
Midnight, passed on the floor
Watch it turn into gold

And I don't even know what's real
And I don't know what to feel
I'm the truth in the sky, so I'm in love with your light
Set me free and settle down
And I don't know what to feel
No I don't know what to feel

3th Friday

2015-08-21T09:37:00.002-07:00

It's Friday,

I'm really exhausted,

But I'm actually glad because of my proposal is accepted,

And then I should get myself into a bigger competition

PIMNAS

So it means that my program should be really good at processing bacteria image

It may be cool to have something like to 'show off' on my CV

eh?

Good!, and now I'm working on duplicating novoo's (aka Torsten Schneider) work.

Called DSCNT (is it an abbreviation of 'Descent'? I don't know)

It only at one shot, but it was really amazing!

Sometimes I wondering how could he create something like that

And one again, this afternoon I go to my lecturer's room

and find out that she's gonna get me a new project to work on

And it’s on designing a tourism website (which is actually really good!)

I'm really glad to have a good lecturer like that

And I could called her a 'descent' lecturer

Hahahaha

Pretty good!

And my KKN will be over very soon, since I leave it to ghenniy and let him finish it

Just one big problem waiting ahead, 'SKRIPSI'

I'm expecting it would be something good like more 'religious' on my head

But I don't know, some friends told me that it would be good if I'm use my PKM as a SKRIPSI

I'm confused

…

Yeah, I'll figure that out later

But something sure is I'm not gonna let solor ends in PKM, I'll make it going through

And make it my bussiness :)

Pretty good eh?

Teenage Dirtbag

2015-07-25T05:59:00.000-07:00

Her name is Noel, I have a dream about her
She rings my bell, I got gym class in half an hour
"Oh how she rocks, in Keds and tube socks"
But she doesn't know who I am
And she doesn't give a damn about me

"'Cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Listen to Iron Maiden baby with me"

Man, I feel like mold, it's Prom Night and I am lonely
Low and behold, she's walking over to me
This must be fate, my lip starts to shake
"How does she know who I am?
And why does she give a damn about me?"

"I've got two tickets to Iron Maiden, baby
Come with me Friday, don't say, maybe."
I'm just a teenage dirtbag, baby, like you

Oh, yeah dirtbag,
No, she doesn't know what she's missin'

Afraid

2015-05-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid

Yes indeed

I'm afraid of what I will be

I'm afraid of what I should become

I'm afraid to fail my father's heart

I'm afraid to fail my mother's heart

I'm just do what I think that's right

I did my best

I do whatever I can

But, these things...

Is disappointing

I know it's not a simple thing to lift this thing on my back

This burden..

It becomes heavy

It makes me suffer

It swallow me

Just like what linkin park says on their track

Want me quote it?

All right then

[Sitting in an empty room, trying to forget the past,

This was never meant to last

I wish it wasn't so...]

Ha, these words is right for me

And another one

[I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got...]

Yeah, it makes me

Aaahh.. Feeling guilty

Guilty about my life, suffering

Desperate, anything..

It's just I cannot describe it into words

Yeah, at least,

I still have strength to move on.

Down

2015-03-03T06:11:00.001-08:00

Hello there!,

Since was the last time I write?

Hehe, it's been awhile since the holiday closing

I'm really sad because it was because of my laptop is down for a couple of days

Yep, I don't know how could it be happen, but when I'm ask someone at the front of my boarding house

He told me that It was because of my harddisk is broken

Yeah, I should say that this laptop that I use is an old stuff

And a bit creaky, when the first time I used it.

AndIt took a week to get it fix, so

I'm dying that week, and also I feel that I'm more closer to God that days

I tahajjud every night, praying, and sleep at the proper time

And all the good things that I should do at the moment

But now I'm not.

You know, I come into conclusion that this thing (laptop).

Is become my obstacle to Allah

She took me away from God

I think it was true what I hear on some lecture long ago

That to be close to God,

You should release, willing your thing that you really loved, you fond

To become more closer, and closer to God.

Yeah, I'm feeling guilty as well

The only reason that it took so long (a week) to fix it is money

I don't have money, as well as my sister.

Oh it's a bad thing!

I desperate at that time, and try to borrow some money to my friend

But, It was not that easy, especially the money is not a few

But then,

Desperate again

I always think that all I want is something important and should be accepted

But at that moment

I realize how not-thanking I'm to all the one that fight for me from the start

Lik emy mother, my sister

You know, they always do something to get money, when I say "I need money"

And they don't think about themselves, (I'm selfish)

They just think that what I need is more important than what they need

And God, should be mad at me, after all the things that He given to me,

I never thank him once.

(sigh)

Yup, from now on,

I want to start my laptopless days.

When I should never use laptop when I'm not really need it

All right, I think it's already Ashr this time

And I have quiz to be done

Wish me luck

Bismillah

Bye!

Holidays's Closing

2015-02-11T03:00:00.000-08:00

Now holiday's is nearly come to an end

I'd still feel that this holiday is never long enough to satisfy me

You know there's still many movie, games that I'm not yet play

There's still so many books and manga that I'm to yet read

There's so many days that I'm not yet spend to entertain myself

But there's no worry on it

I still have a time to do it on Malang

I always have a time if I spare it myself

You know, it's just all about time management

And money management

As I know, I have so much debt to my sister

I have to hold my purse string before it becomes mad (You know that I'm already)

Oh god, I have PKM to complete

Oh just work on it roman, don’t waste your time

We're here to support you

Hoping that you will make a happy ending on this struggle

Make it work

Walk the talk

Smile and be nice to everyone

David Guetta - Nothing But The Beat 2.0

Holiday's Kickstart

2015-01-20T17:49:00.000-08:00

Today, is really different.

Right at the morning for the first time I washed my clothes

And then listen for Ed Sheeran's songs all day

Then, I have an exam, which is really sucks after all

Followed with my presentation for the last task / project for Software Engineering lecture

And closed with my trip with my friends from F class

It was great and amazing times with you guys!

Ed Sheeran - Photograph

Dr liza - Sulum Heros

2015-01-16T21:11:00.000-08:00

Angel of the forgotten
Dr Liza is steadfast advocate for people who others have give up on.
By Olga Moldavskaya

It was a story about a doctor that choose a life to be a volunteer that go to the railway station, and helps many people there. The homeless, ill, and sad.

"Dr Liza! Dr Liza!" their shout, showing off their injured arm, leg or face, trying to get doctor attention. The noise, smell and crush are intense. But in the doctor eyes there is neither fear nor disgust. she identifies those who are in the most need; she stops the bleeding, fixes a broken nose, gives an injection...

September. Very soon the day will become much sorter than the night. And everything will come: leaves, favorite autumn flowers, and a bit of sadness, and stars in the night sky, and the light in a window across the street. and everything we wish.

Source : Reader's Digest Asia Magazine

Initium

2015-01-15T06:36:00.000-08:00

Today?

What's your story today roman?

Is it great? Is it something special happen?

Alright, I'll answer it,

Today is the day when our himpunan jacket is being distributed to everyone from Informatika UB

Himpunan's jacket meaning that 'we' the one who use it is one family

We are one family,

And every each one of us should be careful to bring that name on our back.

Should show a good attitude when we use that jacket

Should be proud, that every each one of us is part of the family of Informatika UB, family of Himpunan Mahasiswa Informatika

And then I did it, after that ceremony we've got that jacket. And we're allowed to use it.

Great!

And one another good news is RPL presentation is not gonna held tomorrow,

It's postponed until Saturday morning at 9 AM.

Aaah.. At last..

I could get one day rest…

After all of those things…

At last I could..

Oh my god, this is so great!

Um, maybe that's for today.

As long as I'm good to write,

Oh!, maybe it would be great if I could read book and write some quote here

Hahaha,

Just like what Resti does..

You know, a good kickstart is imitate the pro's one :9

(Avicii - Shame On Me)

Ordinaria

2015-01-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

Just like other ordinary day I think,

Or no..

Haha, I just have a good day this day

This morning I'm at the UB IT Innovation Solution

Which is actually A Grand Opening of new studies in PTIIK UB.

That was magister, a master level for Informatics/ Computer Science

Do you know who's the head of that Program Study?

Mr. Tri Astoto Kurniawan

He was a great man, if you're a software engineer

He's someone that you should meet and learn some of his lecture.

He's got Ph.D. title in outside of Indonesia (Sorry, I have no idea where).

Not only that, Mr. Sutrisno as a dean of PTIIK officially change PTIIK (Program Teknologi Informasi dan Ilmu Komputer) into FILKOM (Fakultas Ilmu Komputer)

Great!

Yeah, you know, I also have a great moment with my friends

Faisol, Ovan, Ubaid, Ucup, Khoir, Rayan, Ozi we spend the days together,

Have a lunch together,

And even at the break time,

we take a selfie photo with the Master of Ceremony for this event

Hahaha.

She's beautiful.

Yeah, you know, my friend Faisol cannot hold his desire with girls

And then he take the chance to attract her by helps to take her (disengaja) falling clothes.

Anyway, she's hot too. :9

But, that's all for now

Bye, tomorrow I have a network security exam

Good bye!

Desperatio

2015-01-13T07:22:00.000-08:00

Into the bridge

Into the edge of rain

Into the dark deep of desperation

Into a remarkable sign

To wipe out all the happiness in those eyes

To clean up a mess that never made

In a cold and frosty morning I sat firm in front of mirror and saw the other of me

In a road to school where I felt so desperate about future, and my fault

In a school where I felt worthless, and choose to sat in corner and blame myself

Then come into conclusion that I'd never deserve to live and continue blame myself again

and again…

Tired to blame, I'd fell asleep

And then awaken by the wrath of teachers

With a long-stick in his hand ready to swing it into my skin

I desperate

I give up

I'm…

Pathetic

Admonet Me

2015-01-13T06:59:00.000-08:00

Actually I don't have something to write, but I just want to write

Umm, I want to make my writing skill is better

You know, when you write on something you learn to express your feeling

In other word , 'curhat'.

But actually in fact, you learn to make your heart open.

To make your feelings comes out. And not buried deep inside your heart.

But instead comes out into something that could be read.

Something that you could remind

And,

Something great (One Direction - Something Great) :9

Hahaha..

On the other hand, (maybe) you could be like Resti.

Ahahahaha..

You know, write a book, tell your story to everyone

And get money for your written experience..

Ah, what could be better than that thing?

By the way, this place is getting cold each day.

Rain every day, cold every night.

But I like it!

I love rain!, especially rainy night

It always bring such a bliss moment to me

O Dad, I'm sure you'll told me something tonight

You're always have something to remind me

You're always warned me before I'd do something bad

I miss you.

Tonight, I think I'll pray for you

(AVICII - Hope There's Someone)

Pluvia

2015-01-12T22:58:00.000-08:00

Today's all day raining,

I like it!

Simply I like when it was rain, instead of hate it because makes all my clothes wet or another reason.

I love the smell of rain, the wind, and the granted wish ( mustajabah pray time ).

From the first time I always hate when it was rain, I have a pair of fabric shoes for my daily outside activity. Bu when it rain, I get all my shoes wet, and soak my feet.

And sometimes if it takes a long time to walk, my feet soaked and numb.

Uh, and there's another thing!, just when it becomes an obstacle for my agenda or lecture.

But then I felt something that I have to understand

Something that I should know...

That rain,

Is Rahmat from Allah.

It’s a miracle that given by allah to give mercy and grant a pray form every single creature in this universe. It's simply give water, the source of life in this world. Without it, this world would become mars and any other planet. There's no water there. Very small gravity, and less of creature. But here, we live together, breathe together, drink fresh water together with grace from Allah Subhanahu Wa ta'aala

And it becomes more love when I watch Kotonoha No Niwa Movie by Makoto Shinkai. It's a great movie!, it's a movie that becomes one of the best movie on my disk. Hahaha :9

The story is about the boy that loves to sit and enjoy the rain with his drawing book in the morning. Instead of go to school. And then he met somebody … umm. Better you watch it on your own. Hahaha.. :9

Talking about Makoto Shinkai, He's a great animator and anime director. The movie that written and directed by him is usually has a 'sad ending'. And that's makes it good!.

You know, everytime you see his masterpiece, it's like an eyecandy, every movie he made is always treating the watchers, not only the has a good picture, the storyline is awesomely hurts :9

I've heard that every single frame in his film is drawn manually with hands.

Oh God!. And that makes sense if he's become one of the best and become a great animator right below Hayao Miyazaki.

One Wish

2015-01-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

In this very rainy night i play Evbointh - One Wish (Daniel Kandi & Mark Andrez Mix)
I feel bliss today, i don't know..
I just feel free, free to roam, spend the night alone in a lonely place like this
You know, cold wind blow my face, warm food is prepped and set, and then magical and fantastical movie wait to be watched
Great!

Oh ya!, i almost forget,
I change my blogger theme, the old theme is not supported or someone doesn't like me to use it.
(Oh please?) but, then i search for other, theme and i get this theme.
Hope you like it :9

This is the song

Open Up Your Eyes

2015-01-10T21:23:00.001-08:00

Daughtry - Open Up Your Eyes
After all of those project, I accidentally got this
Enjoy!

Rain

2014-11-07T16:42:00.000-08:00

The new morning we've finally found

is being hampered by the past.

What we chased after wasn't the future, but the past so full of remorse

The ruthless memories won't stop playing,

they seem likely won't forgive me.

It's about now that a teardrop

begins to roll down my fatigued cheeks.

Will this rain ever stop?

I've been cold for a long time.

Why does the rain continue to dampen me?

I wonder if blanket could embrace me.

Today, the rain falls again, endlessly, it falls knowing no end.

Human?

2014-08-30T13:46:00.000-07:00

The thing that should be questioned is,

Are we ready to get through it?

Or we just lying underneath it all and pretending to be the one

Pretending that all the things that should be learned is already learned

Pretending that all the things which unfinish is already done

Pretending that we already reach our limit of power, intellegence, and strategies

To be the ultimate one?

Is it us?

I think it's true what homunculus says on Fullmetal Alchemists stories

That

"human is weak, and they just pretending to be strong.

it looks like they’re strong enough to get through all of their problem alone.

But at all, they never do something worthy at all.

They always making mistake, and never learn after what just happen to them in their past

They're always dreaming, but never think about the risk of their dream,

Pretending to be the stronger, smarter, attractive of all creatures,

Look at icarus, and what happen to his wing,

that's all because of his reckless dream to reach the sun

Don’t he ever learn? "

(Sigh)

The limit of power, is it really exist?

If you believe in god, you should never believe it was exist,

Because if the God is almighty there's nothin' he couldn’t do

And so as you, there' s nothin' you couldn’t do if you're zealous prayer to Him

Human, I want to change the perspective of human

And the way they do.

Code?

2014-08-24T11:08:00.000-07:00

Sunday, 24 August 2014

My holiday will come to an end

But, I tought it was a great holiday

You know, I've spending whole time in front of my laptop

Great!

And that's why it makes me geeks (Geez)

Yeah, I've spend it for reading comic, books, drawing and other

And what other thing that I always loves to do

Coding!

Yep, I learn an unknown language

It's a code for 'litestep', it's an alternative shell for windows (browse on google If you don' t know)

It feels like a HTML and CSS for the desktop

Yeah, it's design your own desktop and your shell!

Doesn't it looks so amazing!

First I know about litestep, was when I browsing deviantart for a visual style

And there's more beautiful than a visual style,

Yeah, that is litestep (Build your own desktop)

After browsing, and collecting many beautiful theme,

I start to make my own litestep

Hahaha.

But, I cannot make it spontaneously, I learnt it autodidact

And modding another litestep

Ah, hahahaha… (Lin Yao laughter)

Here's the screenshots

Yeah, you know,

Hehehe..

That's all for now

Bye!

Fear (Sternritter F)

2014-08-09T10:57:00.000-07:00

All people..
have things that make them feel safe and things that they fear
When someone enters a place that make them feel safe
And asked abot the reason
They always reply that they don't really know.

However,
When they enter a place that they fear
Even the most stupid person knows the reason
Its 'dark', 'cold' 'high' 'narrow' 'painful' 'dirty'.
They enumerate the reasons for their fear.

If you investigate further,
all safety places is connected to life
And all 'fear' to death.

Even people that don't know 'why they want to live'
Will be able to tell you 'why they don't want to die'
Not only 'the creatures who have feelings'
All living things

Instinctively

Try to avoid 'Death' and thus 'Fear'

All living things live to escape fear,
Grow up to escape fear,
There is no way that fear doesn't work

As long..

As you are alive.

Poem for Father

2014-03-29T17:11:00.000-07:00

Keadaanku semakin memburuk,

Aku malu akan diriku sendiri sebagai anak ayah

Aku tak mampu untuk menampakkan mukaku di depan ayah

Semua yang kulakukan akhir-akhir ini benar-benar buruk

Semua yang kulakukan sama sekali tak berguna

Mungkin benar ini semester neraka

Tapi, seharusnya aku mengendalikan emosiku dengan satu hal yang baik

Bukan bermain-main dengan hal-hal yang tidak bermanfaat

Atau bahkan berdosa

Aku sama sekali tidak berguna

Lagi-lagi aku terlihat lemah di depanmu ayah

Aku sama sekali berbeda denganmu yang begitu hebat

Kau, benar-benar jauh di atasku

Aku perlu banyak belajar, mengkaji islam lebih dalam

Dan memperbanyak ilmu yang kumiliki

Entah kenapa, aku selalu teringat padamu di setiap malam

Dan entah juga kenapa aku akhir-akhir ini sering nonton film

Seperti yang kau lakukan di malam hari sambil menunggu anak-anakmu pulang

Meski kantuk melanda, engkau senantiasa menunggu hingga anakmu yang bungsu pulang

Ditemani dengan perbincangan ringan dengan Ibuku tercinta

Atau mungkin diskusi seru bersama dengan anak-anak lelakimu

Aku sama sekali merasa berdosa atas apa yang kulakukan selama ini padamu

Sejak aku kecil, aku selalu melukai hatimu

Mengatakan kebohongan, menyentak dan bicara kata-kata kotor

Atau bahkan membuatmu malu akan tingkahku

Dalam firman-Nya memang disebutkan bahwa anak adalah fitnah bagi orang tuanya

Tapi kau mampu untuk menanganinya dan tetap mengasuh kami semua dengan kasih sayang

Terkadang,

Aku iri pada mereka yang masih punya ayah

Mereka yang masih punya orang tua untuk berbagi cerita

Aku juga marah pada diriku sendiri,

Aku yang terlalu tertutup untuk menceritakan kisahku

Aku yang terlalu sombong untuk merasa bisa menghadapi semuanya sendirian

Aku yang ceroboh dan tidak berpikir jauh ke depan

Aku benar-benar menyesal tak sempat berbagi waktuku bersamamu

I can't help myself out of your presence

Brain's fact-checker located

2014-02-26T07:22:00.000-08:00

A bit of brain tissue near the top of the head may be the body’s fact-checker. Called the supplementary motor cortex, this brain region monitors the body’s action and sends an alert when a mistake is made, scientists report in the Feb. 21 Science.

By eavesdropping on neurons in the brains of five people who were being treated for epilepsy, French researchers found that neurons in the supplementary motor cortex were active when people made a mistake. In this case, the participants used the wrong thumb to push a button. The results suggest that another brain area thought to spot areas, the rostral cingulate zone, may instead be a middleman that carries out error-correcting orders issued by the supplementary motor cortex.

Guest post by Laura Sanders

Drizzling Night

2014-02-26T07:00:00.000-08:00

Malam yang indah,

Yah, mungkin itu yang bisa aku katakan untuk keadaaan malam ini

Begitu sunyi dan sangat tenang

Angin dari barat bertiup dengan sejuknya,

Ditambah dengan rintik, air hujan yang mengiringi langkahku

Dan entah bagaimana lelah dan penat di pundakku seolah sirna

Kurentangkan tanganku

Kuhadapkan wajahu ke langit dengan menutup mata*

Dan kurasakan suasana indah nan permai di hatiku

Gerimis ini benar-benar satu hal yang sangat indah bagiku

Air yang menetes membasahi bajuku

Angin yang berhembus lembut melewati punggungku

Serta uap yang tersembul dari mulutku saat bernafas

Satu pengalaman yang sangat jarang kurasakan

Kuteruskan perjalananku

Kulangkahkan kaki sambil tersenyum

…

'Semoga kau juga bahagia di sana Ayah'..

Father's Advice

2014-02-20T03:23:00.000-08:00

Yah, aku tidak tahu

Entah mengapa hari-hariku menjadi semakin kosong

Aku seperti sendirian di dunia ini

Tak memiliki apapun yang berarti bagiku

Tak memiliki satu motivasipun untuk hidup

Ataupun memperjuangkan bahwa hidupku ini berarti

Kejenuhan yang memenuhi hati dan pikiranku

Aktivitas kuliah yang bagiku sangat datar,

Sedikit demi sedikit menghancurkan semangatku

Setiap detik menjelang tidurku untuk kuevaluasi kegiatanku hari ini

Tak ada satu kegiatan yang menurutku berarti

Dan mampu untuk menjadi alasanku untuk hidup

Ini sebenarnya sudah pernah kurasakan beberapa bulan yang lalu

Aku benar-benar putus asa menjalani hari-hariku yang kosong ini

Sampai akhirnya aku menelepon ayahku

Untuk menanyakan apa sebenarnya yang terjadi padaku

Dan apa yang harus kulakukan,

Dia mengatakan, bahwa sebenarnya posisiku saat ini adalah posisi rawan

Dalam umur hidup manusia

(sebenarnya ada tambahan kata-kataku sendiri sih :) )

Posisiku saat ini bagaikan kertas putih yang siap ditulis,

Apapun yang tertulis di dalamnya itu akan menentukan jalan hidupku nanti

Dan jika sampai tertulis hal yang tidak baik,

Maka hancurlah hidup dan masa depanku

Oleh karena itu, beliau mengatakan bahwa

Sebaiknya aku banyak-banyak membaca istifghfar

Beliau mengatakan bahwa sebenarnya hakikat manusia hidup di dunia ini

Merupakan hukuman Allah SWT terhadap Nabi Adam AS

Yang tidak mematuhi perintah Allah dan akhirnya dia diturunkan ke bumi

Jadi bisa dikatakan bumi ini adalah tempat hukuman (penjara) Nabi Adam

Kita dipenjara kan berarti kita bersalah, (mulai baris ini, ini pemikiranku sendiri)

Nah kalau kita salah berarti kita harus banyak-banyak istighfar

Setalah perbincangan itu selesai

Aku bahagia mendengarnya

Aku merasa lega dan aku menuruti apa yang dikatakannya

Dan 1 atau 2 bulan setelahnya

Ayahku meninggal

Dia dipanggil ke rahmatullah

And I'm getting' insane

Quote's from A Thousand and One Arabian Night

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Hidup punya dua hari : yang satu kedamaian, yang satu kelesuan

Dan punya dua sisi : kekhawatiran dan kebahagiaan

Tanyalah dia yang mengejek kita dengan kemalangan

"Apakah takdir, kecuali yang patut dicatat, menindas?

Tidakkah engkau lihat bahwa badai yang mengamuk, menghembus

Hanya menyerang pohon-pohon yang paling tinggi,

Di antara banyak ladang yang hijau dan tandus,

Hanya yang berbuah lebat yang tertimpuk bebatuan,

Dan dari bintang-bintang yang tak terhitung di kolong langit,

Tiada yang gerhana kecuali bulan dan matahari?

Pikirkanlah baik-baik tentang hari-hari itu, ketika sedang indah,

Lupa akan keburukan-keburukan yang ditakdirkan untuknya.

Engkau terperdaya oleh malam-malam yang tenang,

Namun di tengah ketenangan malam kesedihan mencekam"

(Story of Merchant and an Elf)