Procrastinating and slowing down are different.

Procrastinating because of indecision, fear, lack of momentum.

Because you wait for the right moment,

because you let money and other factors decide for you.

Slowing down because of determination, confidence, and passion.

When you are passonate about life,

You are passionate about living every single second

like it would be the last second of your life.

You have to decide.

Not making any decision is also a decision.

Being procrastinating is also a decision.

But don’t choose that, because it’s the most terrible decision ever,

worse than any decision.

Now slow down first,

decide what matters to your life.

Not the money, not the fame. So what is it?

Life is not temporary, it’s a true happening.

Every moment of life is too quick to capture.

You can’t afford making no decision.

Slow down and make a decision,

so you can experience

what really matters to life!

Passion is something I am willing to do no matter what.

I sit in front of the computer writing and designing. Is it because of passion?

I prepare and cook tasty and nutritious dinners for families. Is it because of passion?

I walk by the beach enjoying cool breeze over my face. Is it because of passion?

I exercise and practice to be fit and healthy. Is it because of passion?

What are my passions?

I don’t know. I haven’t figured out.

Or I shall say I have too many passions.

But I realize this:

To live a good life, I need to be passionate about life.

Because of this mind, I can think, imagine, understand, calculate, memorize, feel… I am enjoying these wonderful and powerful faculties which only human brains are capable of.

But when I put down my body and mind, I realize that I don’t own this body or this mind.

The universe is being so kind and generous to allow this life to use this body and this mind that this little piece of life is able to experience this vast multifarious physical world.

When I put down this body and this mind, five senses fade away, life and this true existence reveals themselves.

Only at that moment, life and death merge, dark and light merge, past, present and future merge… and become one.

Ah… Everything does come from one and only one. Life source, Qi, Onenergy… is the One. And the One comes from none, zero, nothing, Dao, Shiva… which is infinite!

When you start to wonder what’s right and what’s wrong,

Stop looking around,

Start looking inside.

The inside is not inside your body or mind,

The inside is what’s really happening outside,

Which can only reflect what’s happening to…your existential being.

Not your thoughts, feelings, or emotions,

Those are just your psychological being.

Between vagueness and clarity,

There’s one sheer layer which most people couldn’t or wouldn’t cross,

From being psychological to being.

Darkness is at the background of all lights.

Death is at the background of life.

Truth is at the background all the time.

People are just too ignorant to see the truth.

Truth is neither beautiful nor ugly. Truth is truth.

People are reluctant to face it because it takes enormous courage to do that.

It’s painful to face the truth. Now it’s time to face it. Storm is upon us. Be brave and be true.

It’s our awakening time!

I went to the nursery and bought a pack of seeds. Happily I came back and planted the seeds in my backyard.

Everyday I watched that area of soil and wondered how and when they would sprout. I did nothing but watered that area. Finally one sprout popped, and one after another I got many sprouts coming out of soil. I was so happy!

Was it me that make them sprout? Was it the watering? Or the sun, or the soil?

None of those. It is simply because of life, the possibility of life in those seeds. Given the proper environment, the water, sunlight, soil, the rest is taken care by life itself. I don’t need to worry about how to make those seeds grow. I literally didn’t do anything.

Same for anything happening and growing in this universe. Human, animals, plants, businesses… all we do is planting the seeds, and providing the natural environment. We don’t need to worry about how they will grow. Let life take care of the rest.

How wonderful it is! Thank life!

Accept, completely accept

The idea of self builds a boundary

Which blocks this from all other existences

But life can never be separated

There is just one life

Break that illusion of self

This one shall return and find its true existence

Begin with unconditional opening up and acceptance

Exactly like when having sex

Only when we open ourselves up and embrace the other

Can we experience the ultimate joy of sex

If you can see it with clarity

Sex or meditation, they share the same process of spiritual practice.

I ask myself, why do I feel so much tension than before?

Because I become more sensible with deeper meditation practice.

I ask myself, am I bothered by that?

It’s definitely not a comfortable sensation. However it doesn’t bother me much. Being comfortable is not my reason to meditate, to practice, or to live. Being uncomfortable is a sure thing travelling in this unknown territory.

I ask myself, but why do I care to look at that sensation if I wasn’t bothered?

Good point! It seems that I do care and am bothered. But why? What made me to care?

Because of “me”. The existence of “me” keeps me in the loop of my feelings, my thoughts, my likes and dislikes, my purposes, my values…

But actually “I”, “me”, “self” never exists. How do I know?

Because when I meditated this morning, once I realize that I am just part of the process of everything. It doesn’t matter this me or many other me… There is no such thing as tension. Tension exists only because of me. It’s just a happening, and this me define it as tension.

Surface of the conscious mind? I don’t know. Maybe.

The conscious mind is neither inside, nor is it outside. That I sense.

That absolute stillness, that being, that existence is always there. It’s rooted somehow in all the existences. That I sense.

It watches thoughts and feelings come and go. Never care and never be bothered.

I sit, I stand, I am motionless, I move, I meditate, I practice… whatever, it never changes or moves a bit.

But I can sense it… so subtle but so dramatic… tears came down. No, there is no emotion or feeling involved.

Pure shocking and overwhelming, in silence.

老子曰: 无为。Lao Tze told: Wu Wei.

366, it’s just a number. It simply records 366 times that my body and mind has been safely cycles along with the earth. It does not mean anything significant.

It’s a celebration of my one year and continuous commitment that, I am willing to take this journey to seek who I really am beyond this body and mind, with full awareness, without any expectation.

The past enlightened beings had discovered and experienced it and tried to tell people in words, verbally or written. Because human logic mind can only perceive words.

Unfortunately, whenever our logical mind is involved, we lost its truth, no matter how deep we think we can understand it.

The first sentence what Lao Zi (Lao Tzu) had written in his Dao De Jing (Tao Te Ching) is: 道可道，非常道；名可名，非常名。

What Lao Tzu really meant was, the moment he tried to explain and describe it, he had failed…

I am not in a hurry to get the answers. Because I am pretty sure that the answers are within.