tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49949128272104346172011-12-21T12:04:38.236-06:00A collection of poetry and thoughts on lifeAbandoned Poethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16330552303444362938noreply@blogger.comBlogger45125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4994912827210434617.post-53023730744372006662009-10-20T14:58:00.002-05:002011-06-23T10:46:08.298-05:002011-06-23T10:46:08.298-05:00 <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/JBZFVRUi-01H6CAoSJKGwnalmQA/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/JBZFVRUi-01H6CAoSJKGwnalmQA/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/JBZFVRUi-01H6CAoSJKGwnalmQA/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/JBZFVRUi-01H6CAoSJKGwnalmQA/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p>Falling down the upward staircase.<br />One step at a time, each moment of my life.<br />The harder I try, the faster it all slips away.Why do I try?<br />Why do I continue to fight?<br /><br />Marvelously bright light at the top and vast darkness at the bottom.<br />And here I am, stuck in the middle.<br />Constantly fighting and falling.<br />Struggling to survive.<br /><br />Damn you staircase!<br />If only you would stop moving, perhaps I might be able to catch my step!<br /><br />How do you find balance in a world that won’t stop moving?<br />How do I make this downward spiral stop?<br /><br />Maybe I should just let go.<br />Give into the darkness and all that it hides.<br />Let it consume me and end my pain.<br />Accept that resistance is futile and my future is lost.<br /><br />But alas, I cannot give up.<br />I am bound by this staircase, this never ending nightmare.<br />This vicious cycle that is my life.<br />To proud to give up, yet too weak to break free.<br /><br />And so I remain.<br />Trapped for eternity.<br />Falling down the upward staircase.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><script type="text/javascript"><!-- google_ad_client = "pub-6262585772647894"; 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