Janelle.

BIGBANG ALIVE GALAXY TOUR 2012

2012-11-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

You jelly yet? HEHEHE. Got myself bigbang's ticket with Jo. Went down Stadium Merdeka in the afternoon and it was already crowded as shit over there. Waiting under the hot sun with a bowl of ice for 3 hours. Then it started drizzling and we were under the rain for an hour i guess. What for? To see my oppa! Mickey was working there with his bunch of friends. My tomato head Mickey somehow turn into a broccoli head Mickey.

The concert start at 8pm and it's pouring like shit at 7pm plus. And the worst part is, Jo throw her raincoat away and we only have one raincoat to cover the both of us. Both of us are wet, really wet. But the waiting pays off when my oppas came out! This baby girl scream like shit omfg.

The concert was awesome. SeungRi is so cute! He even pointed to me, okay fine, my direction and smile! I feel so like fainting omgomgomgomgomg. GD is full of swag. TaeYang tear off his clothes. And my oppa T.O.P is soooooo cute. All of them look so freaking hawt! The love of my life omg. LOL.

I don't want to brag much so yea, that's all. Here's some pic taken from the web on that day! :)

Untitled.

2012-10-30T15:23:00.000+08:00

It's a blue moon again i guess. And i'm back here blogging. Well, the last post is a month ago, so i guess it's time to do a little update. I am out everynight, like EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Thanks to my bosses and lady bosses lol. Watched 4 movies in a week. Sinister, Ted, Silent Hill and Paranormal Activity 4. Shisha-ing 7 days a week. Okay maybe not 7 days but let's make it 6 days a week. And guess what, clubbing 0 days a week. This clubber cut down on clubbing, like seriously. Imagine, just last month i was drinking 4 days a week. The club is like my second home lol. I couldn't go a week without drinking for at least 2 days. But now, you couldn't see be in the club, or even in a pub. What happen to this alcoholic? :o

With my baby girl Kelly!

Alot of complicated things happen in this month. But luckily the month is almost over and Christmas is coming! And when Christmas is here, New Year is near! But i'm gonna spend my new year countdown at Taiwan with my family. So no party for me i guess. OR, i'm gonna be partying at Taiwan. Hehe :b

Life in college is still the same though. Just there's much more assignment and presentation coming in. And my final is coming in 6 more weeks! I haven't even did my revision yet. Or i could say that i haven even understand about the first chapter in some subjects. Thinking about this makes me stress like shit. Seriously have to cut down on the limteh session and movie session. Have to start studying. I don't wanna fail my final and delay my intake for next year degree eh. :(

Friends are somehow changing. Am not really close with my secondary school friends no more. Guess they say that i changed alot. Even my babes no longer find me no more. Urgh. K. Fine. Whatever. Don't really wanna talk about it. Well, in the bright side, my bros are still here. But there's two people i really miss being with. But what the heck, those two Tauruses won't talk to me if i don't talk to them. So just fuck it. I'm sick of being the only one that is trying to hold on to us. This time i won't fucking care.

You won't usually text me first. But when you do, i'm fucking sure that something happen. It's either you're not in a good mood, or you're unhappy. But you never did tell me any reason. You never did share your feelings. Whenever i'm sad, you're always there to listen to me whining and crying. But whenever you need me, i couldn't do anything to cheer you up or help you. Do you even know how useless i feel at that very moment. You said you just need me to be there with you, but you never even did notice that i have never left you. I did not give you up, you're the one who pushed me away.

K. Done with the emotional stuff. It's 3.20pm and i haven had my lunch. Craving for McDonald lol. Missing my two baby bitches too. :(

Stay tuned for updates about BIG BANG ALIVE GALAXY TOUR 2012 MALAYSIA!

A week away from alcohol!

2012-09-28T19:21:00.002+08:00

Well, i've been drinking for at least 2 times a week since July. So my babe decided to persuade me to go Genting with her, away from the alcohol. HAHA. I was kinda in dilemma at first but then i'm like what the heck. Maybe a week away from alcohol wouldn't be that bad, it's just a week right, mehehhhh.

Head to Genting at a Friday afternoon. The first thing after we checked in our hotel, me and YiSin went jumping in the swimming pool. Woohoooo! Wearing bikini at Genting like a lady boss. Lmaoooo. Dint do much at the first night, but i immediately went swimming and sun tanning the next morning. I feel so cold but then so hot at the same time, if you know what i mean. LMAO. Pictures below.

Went to Genting outdoor theme park after a swim. Damn it's freaking crowded that day. The first thing we went to play is the "jumping machine". *Forgotten what it's call* And i was like shivering lol. Was freaked out when i suddenly drop lol. Wanna scream but then i had no voice at that moment. And my butt feel so insecure when it left the seat. Urgh. Scary. :<

Theme park was fun but then i spend half of the day shivering lol. So freaking cold omg. Went back to the hotel to have a good night sleep and head back ro KL the next afternoon. Not much updates cause i'm kinda lazy, but stay tune though! Loves!

Janelle's Sugar18!

2012-09-28T02:06:00.003+08:00

Sorry for disappearing for quite a long time. Quite alot of things happen the pass few weeks. This September baby just had her birthday party a couple of weeks ago with all my beloveds. You wouldn't want to know how much my daddy spent on my birthday lol. Was at Beer Factory Setia Walk at a Monday night for a countdown to my birthday. The babes, Mickey and his friends and of course my drinking friends came to celebrate my big day with me. But most surprisingly, the one that i thought wouldn't came because he's too busy or he forgotten came with his cousin and friends. And the even surprising part is, i know his cousin and his friends. The world is too small, like seriously. Pictures from that night below.

Desmond Tan Mickey & Janelle Wong Minnie. My Mickey.

My best friend, Isaac the annoying one.

There's more photos in facebook, do check it out if you want to. Janelle's Sweet18 Album
That night i was like fucking drunk. I don't know how i went home and how the fuck i got into my house lol. I don't even remember that i cut a cake lol! Seriously amazing. Still, a big big big thank you to everyone who made an effort to come celebrate with me. Appreciate it much! And sorry to the guys and girls who got drunk that night HAHA. I was so freaking happy, but then i remembered i did cried. But it's not because of I'm sad or something, it's just that it's touching to see that the someone actually did came. Even if we din't got to talk nor have time alone, i'm still glad to see him.

The miracle part of my birthday was i was so drunk but i still could wake up at 7am to go for class lol *round of applause*.Went for Jogoya with my uni buds for a birthday lunch. Arthur went nuts after eating too much lol. Here's some photos.

I actually went drinking for 4 times a weeks. Damn. I feel like an alcoholic omfg someone take a gun and shoot me in the head. Some small incident happened on a Sunday night when i'm drinking at Sunway Giza. Got my heart broken once again and went off like a cry baby. What happen? Well, this is a secret. SHHHHH. ;)

Lifeless.

2012-08-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

Back to uni. It's been so long since i came back. Omg missed Taylor's so much. First week of class is kinda, urghhh, ~~boring~~! I have been sleeping in every lecture class. Like seriously, especially in English lecture. Omg the lecturer take us as babies, she talks like a kindergarten teacher trying to teach us uni student to spell A, B and C. Lmao.

Selca during lecture to pass the time is what we always do. HAHA.

Although uni life is back, and i'm back as a full time business student. But drinking had never been left out. Was at Sunway Giza Beer Factory at a Wednesday night to have myself a free flow drink. My driver took me there lol. It's kinda awkward how someone is so willing to fetch me from Puchong all the to Giza without joining me to drink lol. But still, a special thank you to my driver that night. :)

Got my Beer Factory limited singlet and start drinking. Saw him there although i don't know who he's with. Drank 5 bottle in an hour time lol. Don't know how i do it, guess that i drink alot when i'm angry. But then i left early, with him to watch a movie at Paradigm Mall. Finally, got a chance to watch Spiderman. It's a nice movie, but then i feel that Batman is much more better lol. Reached home at about 2 something. Gave him a goodbye kiss on the lips and left. The end. No more story to be told.

Realized that i club twice every week. Like seriously, this is never a good sign. Was at G6 and Vertigo the previous weekend. And headed to Genting with my babes. Saw Singapore's Lamborghini Team. Like omg, i'm guessing that there are over 50 Lamborghini there. Beautiful omg.

And was at G6 both days this weekend. Wasn't really having fun at both days. Pissed like shit the first day. And bored like shit the second day. I don't wanna say much, but you can't imagine how fucking pissed i am. Gonna cut down on clubbing. Had enough of this fucked up scene. Fed up with all those fucked up people. And i gave up on this fucked up love life. Fucked up.

Feeling so lifeless. It's like i have nothing in my life except for drinking. All i know how to do is drink, drank and drunk. All i know is how to be fucked up emotional about him. Fuck my life. I miss the old days. I miss the old me.

Bitter-sweet.

2012-07-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

It's the middle on the night, and i'm here blogging about how miserable my life is. Lol just joking, not miserable, just sometimes i feel sad with my life. Long story so i'll just skip it.

Was at Pacific Coffee at a Thursday afternoon. Had a lil' tea time alone with a cup of mocha brownies and chicken pie. I enjoy being in coffee shops, idk why but it make me feel kinda better. Guess it's because most of the people there came alone, and when everyone is alone, i somehow feel better. Because i know that i'm not the only one feeling lonely.

Then i was at Paparich. Somehow Jolene then asked me to Beer Factory to have some one on one girls talk. And Arthur came to pick me up, no, he din't came to pick me up, he came to scold me lol. Went to Beer Fac and have ourself 12 shot of Strawberry Long Island and a tower of Heineken. Was enjoying ourself and then suddenly a bunch of old man, seriously old, came to so call "make friends" with us. I was like omg you can be my dad already lol. Awkward much. Hit the road and left Beer Fac without finishing the half tower, wasted. Thanks to the old man there. -,-

Was kidnap by Arthur and JiaWei to have a lil' business with them. Went to JiaWei house and his mommy let me eat like alot lol, salad and cheese cake HAHA! JiaWei bed is like so comfy i feel like sleeping there lol.

Watched Ice Age 4 with someone at night. Wanted to watch Spiderman but then there's no more slot. Aiks. But Ice Age is not bad too, kinda cute lol. Head to Aquasonic after the movie. It's a new club located at Sunway Pyramid. Idk why it feel kinda like Mist Club when i went in. Went home at 2.40am, lol, still kinda early for me.

Ugh i dont know what to update. Feel like life is tearing apart.

My loved one left me because both of us tried to keep out pride and dignity, leading us to the worst stage of a relationship, breaking up.
My best friends kinda left me because they are too busy with studies, and of course, having one on one time with the boyfriend. Lead me hanging dead here when i needed someone's shoulder.
Someone that i noticed seem like he's not noticing me at all. Watching him on the line but having no guts to talk to him, because i feel like i'm annoying him or something.
Working always seem to be so easy, but then it wasn't. I have to face up with all those crap and nagging, putting up with all those nonsense. But for the money, it's a must to work.
Sem break is almost over, daddy haven paid my fees, i haven got my textbook, i haven even prepared anything.

Tell me how my life could get worst. But there's always good to know someone still cares. Like my classmates that still cares and encourage me. And my family. Was so busy with things i feel like i forgotten my family. Until i got a little present from daddy yesterday morning when i woke up. He put it on my desk right beside my laptop. A perfume from France. It's seldom to see my daddy buying me stuff, because i'm kinda a spoiled brat and daddy used alot of money on me. Not mentioning my uni fees, a car that he's gonna buy me a few months later, and of course my daily entertainment. Sometimes i feel guilty, for using so much of my parents income. But then my daddy never did complained at all. Hehh. So lucky to have him as my daddy. Although i don't really spend time with you, although i don't hug you anymore, daddy i still love you always. You were always my king.

Parties and Dinner.

2012-07-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

Was at Vertigo after the day i came back from Redang with my babes. A late celebration for my Beatrice birthday. And i bumped into alot of Taylor's people, eg, Gary and Danny. They was at Vertigo with their friends too. And i bumped into Senson and Oscar lol. Senson was like "Wawa? How did you recognize me?" Lmao.

Been pulled out of the club at 2am sharp because they think i'm drunk. But to tell the truth, i'm not drunk, my legs are just too tired because of wearing that freaking high heels. I even fell down 4 or 5 times while walking. That's why they thought i'm drunk lol.

And tonight is an early birthday celebration for my wifey ZiYi. Arthur picked me up because he was bored and it was raining heavily lol. Thank you Thur Thur! Had dinner with the wives SinYin, ZhiYing, Brandon, ZiYi and Warren at V1 Concept Restaurant and Bar at Bandar Puteri Puchong. And i guess i'll let the picture do the talking. :)

My dinner, grill rib eye. Yum yum!

The random couple. Idk what is she doing there lol

He said he look much more skinnier in this photo LOL!

Birthday Girl!

This kinda disgust me. :/

My gorgeous baby girl :)

Take 1 without flash. Look so much better.

Take 2 with flash. Take 1 look better cause you won't focus on my face lol. :S

Lovessss. :)

Guess that's all. Haha not much to write anyway, so i'll spam my blog with photo to look much more longer lol *guilty face* Lastly, hope you have a blast and i love you my baby girl Louise Ting Zi Yi! Goodnight & Take care! ;)

Redang Day 2

2012-07-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

We are freaking late for breakfast! I woke up because i was too cold, and when i grab my phone to see what time is it, it's freaking 9.12am already! And i thought it was 4am in the midnight dafuq. Woke everyone up because we are late for breakfast and breakfast end at 9.30am! And when we reach the canteen we were late. But luckily they cook a lil' things for us to eat and we went snorkelling straight away. What a rush. :/

Here's some photos for that day. :)

Off to snorkelling!

Take 1, look at Arthur's hair.

Take 2, look at Arthur's hair. MAGIC! hahahaha

We were cheated to go snorkelling by the crew working there. They said that they are going to take us to see some sharks and maybe even sea turtles! So we went with them but eventually we only saw some corals and fishes. But the corals there are much more beautiful and colourful than the places we went yesterday. After snorkelling we had a lil' shooting around the beach.

I haven't pose yet okay. :(

The water is so clear!

After having fun we had out dinner and then have our bath. We met some a couple named AiLing & Benny and idk why we suddenly sat down and drink together lol. We were at a bistro at Pelangi resort and there, we bump into the bunch of crazy guys in the bus! They were playing a game and the loser have to lick their armpit or feet! Some loser even have to take off their pants and show their butt. And there one guy, omfg i can't forget this scene, he went running around the bistro NAKED. I was like omfg this is not happening lmao.

But they are a bunch of friendly and fun guys. We actually sat together and played games and loser got to drink liquor. I like the taste of Vodka but Tequila is just too strong for me. A guy from their gang came challenging me to a game. Loser got to drink tequila and long island. And guess what, 3 batch we played, 3 batch i won. HAHAHA! That guy, named Kenny have drank 2 cup of tequila and a cup of long island. Omfg i feel so guilty but yet so happy HAHA! They played some volleyball *in the middle of the night, so random lol* and then Kenny collapsed. He even pee beside AiLing and Benny when he woke up HAHA.

The bunch of gang is a dance crew named Project Elementz PEZ. The runner up for the dance competition 8tv Showdown! Wowwwww. It's like so cool to meet some awesome new friends. We settled down and talk about stuff like college and then we went into the topic illuminati. A very interesting topic that kinda freak me out a little but then quite logic. We spend the whole night together to wait for the sunrise. It's also kind of them to accompanied 5 of us until the sun rises. Too bad that there's a lil' rain so we actually failed to watch the sun rise. How sad. :(

But still, it's a fun night playing cards, drinking liquor and talking crap with them. Nice meeting you guys, Jackson, Jacky, Angku, Kenny, WC and Uncle Jay. Too bad we don't have a chance to took a photo, but do support them and by liking their page. Just click the photo below to go to their facebook page. :)

Project Elementz

Check out and left Redang. Awww, how i miss it now.

A group photo with the new friends we made at our villa :)

Bought a lil' souvenirs before we left the jetty and went into the bus.

Reach KL at 8pm plus, sleeping in the bus like we're in a comma lol. Took the taxi back Puchong and daddy came to pick us up. Went for dinner with parents in an old folks club lol. It's kinda weird to see some old lad dressing up like a teen and dancing and all. Awkward. :/

Drop dead when i've got home. HAHA. Great memories with my buds and new friends in Redang! Hope to see and hang with our new friends again and i can't wait for the next trip. ;)

Bye take care! And hope we meet again! ;D

Redang Day 1

2012-07-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

Finally it's the time i've been waiting for, it's the day we head to Pulau Redang! Met up with Hwan, Mag and Arthur and have out dinner before we took off to PWTC to sit the midnight bus to Kuala Terengganu. Obviously none of us sleep well that night cause the bus driver is like speeding and the bus is like so unstable. Non to mention someone puke inside the bus, dafuq. -,-

Reached Kuala Terengganu at 6am. Had out breakfast - Magee cup. And wait for another bus to arrive. When we got into the bus, we met some funny kinda crazy peoples that i thought their from Taiwan or Korean cause they look freaking fair unlike a Malaysian. :/

Reached the jetty and we did a lil' selca while waiting for the ferry to come. Wanted to do a lil' shopping but nothing caught my eyes. :/

Rock&Roll girls

Rock&Roll boys

Take off to Redang! :D

Arthur's face is always like a tomato

Caught some amazing view. Tell me how beautiful is the sea and the sky? Tell me please. :b

And finally, WE ARE HERE!

Vivien look so cute!

White sand, blue sky, heaven!

Group photo! :D

We are staying at Redang Holiday Villa. Check in, have our lunch and we went snorkelling! The fishes there are shoooo cute but then the coral are mostly dead. Hmmm. It's sad that i dint rent any underwater camera. How stupid i am. Had tea time after snorkelling and took some photos, again! :b

Best view!

I look fat huh. :S

Chubby Arthur & Siow! :b

Janice & MeiHwan! :D

The supermans and cutie has landed at Redang lol!

Look at the colour, from light to dark, amazing.

Flying man!

Arthur's butt. -,-

Kay done with the selca. Now some serious game. They started playing volleyball and let's introduce our team.

Team 1 - ChunLoon, Magdeline, Jay

Team 2 - Siow, YouJin, Arthur

Let the game begin!

And.... The victory goes to Team 1! :D

Loser's get punished by getting buried! HAHA

Cheeseeeee! :b

The winner & The losers! HEHEHEHE!

Finish fooling around and have our dinner. Head to bed at 12am. So early lol. Guess that everyone is tired because of the bus trip. Stay tuned for the next post, good night. :)

LG, life's good. ;)

2012-07-08T17:11:00.001+08:00

HEYYYY. Watched the movie "First Time"? Awesome and touching movie that actually made me cry, like seriously. The song of the movie is like omg, matches my feeling after i lost someone. Recommended! But the bad news is, the movie isn't showing at all cinemas. Only selected GSC cinemas is showing this movie and mostly there's only 1 or 2 show time. So yea, go buy a DVD to watch, it's much better hehhh. :b

My goddess - Angelababy. Sweet and beautiful! Omgggg. Feel so jelly while watching the movie. Why other people have such sweet relationship but mine is like a failure. Jelly-nya >:(

This is the song that i was talking about. Damn touching you know?! :(

Okay i'll stop with the movie. Went to celebrate my wifey ZhiYing's birthday this Thursday with my girls at Station One. Had a great time but SinYin wasn't here, so yea, i miss my beloved. Happy birthday baby girl! :)

Just reach home not for 30 minutes Darel call me up and remind me to celebrate Beatrice birthday. Omfg i almost forgotten my bitch's sweet 8teen. Darel rushed to pick me up and then Jo pick me up and we were ready at Beer Fac for my bitch surprise! Wasn't much of a surprise but at least we had fun. Happy sweet 8teen my forever bitch! :D

Had a lil' incident while we're leaving but fine, it's not important anymore. Was working for 2 days at Hits Garden located in Scott Garden as flyer girl. First day was with Elisa and the second day with someone i just met. An easy job and the people there are nice, but wearing heels for 5 hours really did killed me, seriously. But at least i got paid on the spot and now i'm ready for Redang oh yeahhhh!

Finish work and head to second round at Paparazzi. Was kinda bored there. Came back home have to listen to my daddy and neighbour talk some big stuff about life and relationship and all. He even drop by in the middle of midnight at about 4am to see me. But my daddy held him as hostage and talk lol. Feel kinda sorry but still, i still have nothing to say. Daddy kept on asking me to don't drop it, that he's a nice guy that actually deserve to have an option. Maybe not boyfriend girlfriend but still friends. He even asked him to drop by for dinner and say that he is always welcome to our home lol. Okay it's official, daddy is drunk. -,-

Photo of the day:

I am shoooooooooo ready for Redang! Bikini! Sun! Surfing! Okay maybe not surfing but Snorkelling! Here i come! :D

Back with a smile!

2012-07-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

HEHHEHEHEHE. Good news! I am back with a smile :). Am not gonna let myself waste my time on some pathetic peoples that tryna bring me down so yeaaaa, round of applause please! *clap clap clap clap clap*

Friday was our lovely classmate MeiHwan's birthday! Happy beloved birthday babe! :D
Arthur and the boys came to pick me up at the afternoon and we went to Arthur's house to be bored together until it's time to fetch the birthday girl lol. Had a great BBQ party with them. The mash potatoes is delicious and a special thank you to my beloved Thur Thur that prepare the chicken just for me and MeiHwan. HAHAHA. :)

But i made Arthur worry i guess. I went to club with Elisa and her friends. Choco, Vivien joined us for a while but then they changed to Vertigo. And we were at G6. I was fine, at first. But then.. I died fml fml fml fml fml. I was drunk, drunk like shit. And i don't even know how the heck i went out the club, how i get in the car, whose fucking car i got into. Steph bought me back but my bag, make up, phone and key was in Jay's car. So yea, i was fucked like shit. ~~Fuck my life~~. *face palm*

Went back to the same club G6 at Saturday. Another birthday party. But i was a good girl and din't drink any alcoholic drinks. Okay maybe a little, but not much hehh. Had fun tonight but i was a lil' lil' lil' tired that night lol. But still, i enjoy yelling at Brandon, a way to release my emo-ness? HAHA. Took some photo with my baby Jayce but she din't upload it yet, so yeaaaa, no photos sorry.

Arthur's birthday on Monday! Accompanied him to Sunway. We wanted to watch Painted Skin 2 but there's a issue, we don't wanna go for the Beanie Plex lol. So we were wondering at Sunway for nothing at sunway for an hour, how ~~LIFELESS~~ lol. Went back home and went out again for the dinner at T,G.I.F Sunway. Lucas came to pick me up, and i was like "Lucas ahhhh. That day hor, i hor, drunk liao hor, what happen liao har?" And after he told me the things that happen. And i compare it with what Elisa told me, i was like "~~WTF SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE~~" Arghhhhhh. Can't accept it. Please shot me with a gun.

Had a great dinner with my beloved's and watch Painted Skin 2 in the midnight. Hehhhh. Went back home at about 2am in the midnight and something scary happened. Some motor was following us and we were like "Omg i don't wanna die". But luckily we reached home safely. But please do bear in mind to be careful at the midnight, our country isn't safe. Owh and yea, Happy Beloved Sweet 18 Thur Thur! :D

Went to do a lil' shopping with my babe today, Tuesday. Went to Sunway and we were like walking the whole Sunway for at least 3 times lol. Babe bought a dress at a Taiwan's lady shop. And we were like talking shit and watching the lady lil' baby at the webcam for about an hour HAHAHA. The lady is too friendly, over friendly till we couldn't walk off and was caught by her to chit chat lol. I bought a couple of shorts from Cotton On and a bikini, a colourful one HAHA. Arghhhh, feel so shy. But i'm still excited and looking forward to the Redang trip with my classmates. Hehhh. Can't wait for it! :b

Want the photo of my bikini? HAHAHA. But i'm not gonna take any photo with it till at Redang. So yeaaa, goodbye! :b

Love left us.

2012-06-29T13:13:00.001+08:00

I guessed i finally did realize what had just happened. None of us choose to leave, none of us choose to gave up, love left us without a sign, without a reason to tell us why.

Everything is like too dramatic. The dumped woman, the heartless man, the jealous ex. What else? The dead cat? I don't understand why things turn up this way. I don't understand why love could turn into hatred. Why human could let go of all the things that made them happy just to remember the things that made them angry. They say that if you love someone too much, you started hating them. Cursing them about their soul that betrayed you, cursing them about their heart who left you.

But yet, i still don't understand. Why hate someone you love so much? Why forget all those happy moments and remember those moment where anger and hatred is spoken out accidentally? Why?

我不明白爱会怎么变成很。

爱会变成很，因为另一半深入自己太深。然后侵犯了自己的死穴。在爱情里，自己的心房越容易被深入，而那道防线因为爱情而被破坏。因而让对方在自己的心房自由进出，那样也会造成对方不小心就会侵犯了自己心里那些不赞同的事物，事情和态度。

因爱成恨的感觉要怎么变回当初的爱。

通常是不会再次变回爱的。人其实很奇怪，一旦自己认为被侵犯，就会无论如何坚持自己的恨。除非这个恨，不是自己想要的，而是被某种事情或环境所逼的。又或者，那个人过后发现其实被侵犯的原来没有自己想象中的恨，那样就有可能变回爱。

为什么好记住那人的不好而忽略他的好。

因为差不多 97% 的人都带着种想法。就是我可以负所有的人，但没有一个能负我。

那么恨会走吗。

答案未有。

Us were never a dream. Those laughters, those days, that love, it really did happened. We just let the anger carry those memories away. Daddy taught me not to speak when i'm angry. I guess now i know why. When we're angry, we speak without going through our mind, we raised our voices, and that will eventually lead one into an argument. And the argument yesterday was the worst of them all. We kept our pride, gave up the argument, and lose each other. But is the love gone? I don't know about him. But mine was never dead. Maybe because i hold on to those happy memories but was hurt from the argument. But i'm clear that i wouldn't let love die because of some silly argument that we both claimed is each other fault. Yes i admit i am stubborn. But what do you think? If you're married and you had a major argument with your spouse, are you gonna just asked the lawyer to prepare the divorce agreement? Think about it.

I was so into you. I will try anything to have you back. But then the argument made me realize, love changed. The person in the other end of the line, wasn't the person i was so in love with. I'm in love with the person that he used to be, i was holding onto the pass. And then it stroke to me, i forgotten the reason that i hold on for so long. I forgotten why was i blinded by the pass, and overlook my future. If love isn't there, there is no reason for me to wait for the love that have left us. Like they say, Lord will tie those couples that are fated together with a red string in heaven, as the bridegroom will tie the bride with the wedding ring.

But there's a truth that i have to say, i really did loved you. And i could tell my family did liked you too. How proud i was when friends said that you look like a great guy and i was so lucky that i owned this guy. How joyful i am when my family thinks that you're someone to rely on, that they hand in their child for you because they trusted you. And it's sad to say that ~~we let everyone down~~. Our relationship had disappointed everyone that think we're perfect, that blessed us with their sincere hearts. We failed. One of my regrets in life.

Could have love you all my life if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold.

Rainbow.

2012-06-28T02:05:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking these few days. And i guess today i finally did get through all the things that happened. Thanks to some help from my babe and her sister. :)

Was sleeping like a pig from 12am to 2pm lol. The sleeping pills really work wtf. (Don't take sleeping pills, i'm throwing mine away.) Got off from bed and went to get ready for some serious talk with them. Settle down at Sense Cafe and then they told me they wanted to head Genting and i was like "THEN WHY THE HECK WE ARE STILL AT PUCHONG?" Cause of the stupid weather laaaaaa damn. :(

Sense Cafe is going bankrupt, i think. They use plastic and paper cup for food and drinks. I'm like wtf why my hot mocha don't have cute lil' cartoon on it? Disappointed much! Had some talk but i dint really listen much. All i know that is i don't understand the reason, i don't understand what happened, i don't understand. But then there's a question, do you think you don't understand? Or do you just simply don't want to understand?

They took my back to their place to play with some cute lil' rabbits! Ahaha i like the one with the whole white fur. So adorableeeeee! And guess what! They shit while they're eating HAHAHA. It's like the food just went in their mouth and the shit came out from their butt lol. Weird, but cute.

This is the big fat one that jumped out from the jungle. JUST KIDDING HAHAHAHA

After that we went to Cheras night market. Arghhhh so crowded i don't feel like eating or buying anything. And in that few hours, i kept on thinking about what her sister just told me. Maybe we both were wrong. Maybe it's time to let go and move on to a better one.

BUT, WHAT IF I WASN'T READY TO LET GO?

They say, live your life to the fullest, do things that made you happy. And there's that thought. If i'm happy loving him, why not wait? Even if there would be a little pain along the process, a little tears may fall. But if i'm happy, there's no harm going through a little pain. No one said that life would always be perfect, life would always have it's ups and downs. It's just how you see it.

I know that i've been too desperate and emotional these few days. And that everyone is worried sick about me.

"Where are you? Why aren't you replying my message? I'm worry. Please reply me. From SAD :-( MUM" My mum.

"Where are you going? Why aren't you telling me and mum where you are? Who are you with? Reply me please." My dad.

"It hurts me to see my child to not eat, not talk, and crying the whole night." My house maid.

"When i saw your pale face i don't know what to say. Where is that girl with full of confidence went to?" My babe.

"Be happy. You always have us by your side." My college friends.

"You're always the best friend who kept on scolding me and yelling at me. But now to see you with tears, even i feel sad because of you."

"It's not your fault. You're just not strong enough, not cruel enough." My best friend.

Words that made me realize that i'm not alone. That someone still loves and cares about me. Thank you guys for always being here whenever i'm in a good condition or bad one. And maybe because of these words, these people, i finally woke up. Guess i just need a little knock on my head like this.

Ouch that hurts. But no pain no gain right? I decided to not move out anymore. Living with a house full of guys wasn't the best option lol. Don't wanna be raped and get myself in the newspaper. And i'm gonna try to quit smoking. No more Malboro Mint, Dunhill Light or whatever brand of cigarettes. Won't want my asthma to come back.

I guess waiting is kinda a stupid decision. To wait for someone who might and might not come back is like betting all of your money on a game. If you win you got everything back like you wanted to, if you lose you lose everything that you had and you're left with nothing but empty handed. But i guess i'll take the bet. I wouldn't want to let this relationship slide off my bare hands without doing anything. If this relationship have to end, there must be a reason to convince me to raise my white flag and declare that i gave up. But i'm not going to give up so easily, not now.

I want to hug you to sleep, to hold your hand like how we used to, to own you. Although there's no promises that you'll be back. But there's no harm trying i guess. Maybe if i worked a lil' bit more harder, changed a lil' bit of my bad habits, he'll come back to me? Idk. I hope so. I pray so.

Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain.

But you can't make a rainbow without a little pain. :)

Ouch.

2012-06-26T00:45:00.001+08:00

I was telling myself to think positive the whole day. I even smiled when i bought the bread. Wondering what reaction would he have. Wondering if it could just make things a lil' better. But i guess thinking positive doesn't work. Things doesn't go well like i pray it would. And from that moment, from the moment he raised his voice, from that moment the hatred in his eyes, his eyes was always gentle to me, till that moment, it changed. Till that moment, ~~i gave up~~.

All i can do is run away. Heart is beating like it's having an earthquake, eyes full of tears, fist full of anger, heart full of fear. I dint even look at the cars when i'm running across the road. Idk wth i'm thinking, almost had an accident wtf. Sat down at a coffee shop. And there's goes the day.

No phone calls, no texts, nothing. Guess that's how it ends huh. Ever regretted? Yes. I regretted for being angry. I regretted that i let go in the first place. I REGRETTED THAT I LOSE YOU BECAUSE I WANTED TO KEEP EVERYTHING I HAD. UNTIL I REALIZE YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING. Yes, i regretted, alot.

But sorry doesn't works anymore. Crying doesn't save out relationship anymore. It's gone, ended, ~~dead~~. I tried everything, but everything doesn't work. And there's the thought, maybe i should just leave, leave the house, leave my family, leave my friends. And wonder to some new place to get my heart patched. But where? How? If i have a car i would leave. If i have the money i would leave. But i don't. Guess things can't always works like i wanted it to.

How i hope that there's a time machine. I'll give out everything just to have that chance to go back and change the things i did, the things i said, the love i lost. If there's still a chance, i would rather lose everything i had, rather to lose the one i love.

R.I.P.

2012-06-24T23:47:00.004+08:00

Haven been eating for days. And guess what happen. Diet plan succeed! But to tell the truth, it wasn't a plan at all. I never thought of dieting. I guess all the things that happen around me made me lost my appetite at all. Even if i'm hungry, i couldn't eat. I guess i have anorexia.

Went out with family to had lunch. But i dint eat much, no appetite lol. Was at Redbox the whole afternoon. Crying alone in a dark room with beer and cigar feel so pathetic right now. Until my babes came storming in and took my cigar away and scolded me like i'm a fucking bitch that doesn't know better. Words from their mouth stroke into my heart like i'm being stabbed. Painful, but real.

Life sucks. Relationship is even suck-ier! How i feel like hanging myself up and forgot the shit you gave me. But i can't, couldn't and wouldn't. I would be letting everyone down. Family, friends and myself. Families are worry because i don't talk, i don't eat, i don't even sleep anymore. Friends are sad because i look pale, i don't smile nor laugh anymore.

I guess i'm nothing but dead.

Revived.

2012-06-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hola. It's been a long time since i blogged. My apologies, i was busy with college, friends and also final. Good news is my final has ended and i'm back blogging. Bad news is there won't be much thing to blog anymore. Well, i guessed. Something happened, and i guess life wasn't that perfect and happy like what it had been back then. But what the heck, life goes on.

I finished my last paper at Friday. After the last paper everyone face goes like this.

5 weeks of holiday, FINALLY!

Went Sunway with my college buds to watch Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter. I sat beside Janice and we were like "AHHHH!" "OMGGG!" and "NOOOO!". LOL. Enjoyed my day with them.

Having 5 weeks of holiday. I'm not gonna waste it. Going to Redang with my buds at July. So i guess i'm gonna find a part time job to earn some lil' money for myself. Kinda bankrupt lol. Any job recommended? No promoter job. But maybe Bar of Club ambassador? Idk yet. I need a highly paid job with short working time. I need $MONEY$.

I'll post more at my next post. About relationship, heart breaking moments, touching love and of course, clubber's life. Stay tuned!

Last week of April.

2012-05-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'm two weeks late but don't ignore me please. Been shooooo busy. But idk wtf i'm busying so yea, fml. But for today i'll cut down on the words and just let the photo do the talking HEHE.

25th April, 2012. Wednesday.

Looking red yea hehehehehe. Had some fun with the girls after class. Went to Loud Speaker to sing our head off. Arghhhhhh i think i went to the bath room a million times already because of the free flow drinks. :/

Rush to dinner with 3 of my wife at Star Village too. Arghhhhhhh long time no see. Miss them lots. (:

26th April, 2012. Thursday.

Taylorian in red. Fuyoh!

And here's a lil' video i watched on Youtube. Touching much. :)

27th April, 2012. Friday.

Driving lesson. Damn nervous than the first time ehhhh. Uncle kept on saying i'm not in condition like the first time. How sad aiks. Surprisingly, i met a primary school classmate, Henry while i'm on my way back home. He's taking driving lesson from the same Uncle too. HAHA. Coincident much?

Went to watch the Avengers with my boy and the boys. We bought the tickets 3 days before it show so yea, smart us haha. There's 18 of us but only 3 girls, me, Seven, and Arvil lol. Awesome movie! Captain America is hawt! The hulk and iron man is awesome hehhhhh.

28th April, 2012. Saturday.

Happy Beloved Birthday my brother Isaac! He's birthday was actually the day before but he's busy yesterday so i choose today to celebrate it. Went walking at ioi and stop by Padini. Damn the clearance sale is shooooo messy. I don't likey. But here's a picture. :)

Went to FullHouse at Sunway to have our dinner. We talked, we laughed, he camwhore, i nag. HAHA. I dint got the chance to buy him a birthday present cause idk what he wanted. But wait on, i'll buy it, eventually hehehehehe. Wanted to pay the bills as a lil' present from his lil' sister but he paid it first. Awwww thank you hpy, love you muchhhhhh! :)

Had a great time with my hpy. Although i hate him sometimes, seriously "HATE". But i still love you as a annoying, stupid and ego brother hahahhh. Thank you for the day and being with me, cheering me up whenever i'm down. You're the best bro i ever had. :) Once again, HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAYYY! ♥

29th April, 2012. Sunday.

Ran out to Pacific Coffee to find my wife. Some talk talk and then we went for a quick lunch. After lunch, i followed her back home and SinYin came to join us too HEHEHE. Ladies talk mehehhh.

Wanted to go for dinner at Harbour but then our last wifey don't allow us. She was like "Why you three go out dint call me?! Come my house there eat dinner laaaaa." When we said "Don't want la. It's too far." She was like "YERRRRRRRRRR". Hahahahaha! So yea, we ran all the way from Puchong to Seri Kembangan just to find her for dinner. Benny came along cause he wanted to take me back home lol.

30th April, 2012. Monday.

Last day of April, and i decided to skipped class. 8am to 6pm and only 1 hour break? You've got to be kidding me. Classmates went to IOI Boulevard Geographer without me that night! Damn why you guys so cruel? You know how fucking hard i tried to find someone to accompany me drink that night? Damn you guys. :(

Happy beloved birthday Mickey. Thank you for listening to me whenever i wanted to speak. Hope you have a blast. :)

I had a feeling that i just spammed my blog with pictures lol. But to tell the truth, there's more that i dint upload it. :b

Weekend.

2012-04-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

April 20th, 2012. Friday.
The biggest day of my life! This is the day. The day i sat on the driver seat for the first time. HAHAHAHAHA. Okay i sound dramatic but really, my first time! Was like shoooooo nervous, terrified and excited at the same time. For the first time i hold on to the steering wheel the uncle asked me to drive from Puchong to Klang. I'm like "Warafak?!" I have no experience at all and you want to risk your life sitting in a lil' kancil with an idiot on the road? You have guts man. But fine, i came to learn. But when i'm on the road, i feel like a lil' tiny ant comparing to all those lorry beside me. Arghhhhh. Pressure like shit lol. But i think it went smoothly though, hehe. The uncle even asked me if i bluffed him on not knowing how to drive and said i catch up quick and can proceed even further. Hehe. It's a gift i guess? :b. Kay i'm joking HAHA.

April 21th, 2012. Saturday.
Went to watch Dark Flight with boyfie at night lol. Scary to the max. My hand is covering my face from the beginning to the end of the movie HAHA. In the end, i end up sleepless. Damn it. Scare me like shit i don't even dare to sleep. :(

April 22th, 2012. Sunday.
Breakfast with the boys at a charity restaurant named "We Are Family". Then meet up at Ck's house with the boys for swimming. Guess what. I'm the only girl damn it. 10 boys around me, i feel like a mother of 10. LMFAO. Just kidding! The boys are, err, violent. Watching them play was like, err, painful. HAHAHA. Here's some photo to end the day. :b

April 24th, 2012. Tuesday.
Nothing much for the day. Just went for a quick manicure. Dint know that it could be this cheap! But it's also because i'm lucky to have knock into a specific store that is having a promotion on manicure so yea, tadaaaa! Gonna have my pedicure done too this Friday. But not sure if i have the time. Arghhhh! Have to go do that pedicure before the promotion end this month! Fyi, the store is at First Subang, the 2nd floor and the name is "Vernice Tina". Look for a lady named Sharon. Do go give a try! :D

The end.. for now. ;)

Post of the week.

2012-04-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

OMG Late for 10 days?! Sooooooo sorry lol i'm quite busy. But idk what the heck i'm busying so yea, forgive me and don't hate me. :(

April 11th, 2012. Wednesday.
Public holiday! Went to celebrate Benny's friend Joon Keat 18th birthday with their gang. Went to Espress Cafe at Kota Kemuning. Idk why they wanna go have dinner sooooo far away from Puchong. It's like there's no more cafe at Puchong LOL. There's about 20 of us lol. Here's the prof lol.

TADAAAAA. One big family lolololol. (Y)

Second round! Beer factory at Setia Walk Puchong! Ordered 6 tower at first, but then birthday boy's mother came along and she opened another 2 tower for us. LOL. There's more photo but idk where the hell is the photo is. Maybe they dint upload it so i just manage to get this. :/

Went home early because that i have class tomorrow morning. But i heard them say after i went home, his mother opened another 2 tower for them lol. And i heard that everyone is drunk HAHAHA.

April 13th, 2012. Friday.

Went for breakfast with boyfie and then drop by Tesco to meet my classmates for grocery shopping. Picking up some stuff for the BBQ later on at night. Went to Arthur's house to do on out IT video project. Done our video and start with the BBQ-ing. Dint eat much but had fun. Should do this again. ;)

April 15th, 2012. Sunday.
Early in the morning Beatrice called me said that she's drunk ytd night and wanted to come to my house cause she couldn't went back home. I'm like "Wtf you drunktard?!" But what the hell, she's my friend so yea, she came here and took a bath. Then we went to KLCC for the PC fair. 6 people in a car lol. Took the LRT there and hell yea the place is crowded like shit. Walked around for an hour plus but we only bought one small lil' thingy, a pendrive lol! (Y) Me and the boys, 4 of us having the same pendrive, 8gb for just RM18. Shoooooooo cheap. :b

Went dinner with Benny and his family but both of us are late. And we reached the restaurant, everyone already finish eating except for us lol. Awkward much. :/

April 16th, 2012. Monday.

Finally went for a movie. Battleship! Boyfie and I went to ioi cinema at Fridat, Saturday and Sunday to watch the movie but apparently it's always been sold out. Now, finally, we get the chance to watch it lol. :b

Awesome movie! Not regretting that i waited 3 days for it but still kinda grumpy when i think about the 3 days lol.

April 19th, 2012. Thursday.

It's White Thursday! Hehhhh. Went for a 2 hour class and went back home. Wanted to go for sushi bonanza but can't find anyone that's free to accompany me. Even my hpy Isaac couldn't. Sigh. #ForeverAlone :(
But i did went for the sushi with my boy at night. Then barkarth with the guys. Saw Brandon there with his gang too. But dint get to talk much cause his gang is looking at me like i'm some kind of alien and we're gonna leave so yea lol. Camwhore photos this morning before class HAHAHAHAHA.

Tata for now! (:

Marriage.

2012-04-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

I got this article from facebook and i think it's a meaningful yet touching article. Do give some time to read it. Thank you. :)

Married or not you should read this.

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office, jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind. I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son — I’m a loving husband.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Quick update.

2012-04-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

Told you i will update it soon hehehehehehe. Okay maybe not that soon but better than nothing HAHA. Round of applause thank you! Went out with my babes the last two week ago. And also out to dinner with ZiYi, SinYin and ZhiYing. The others couldn't make it so yea, only the four of us. And ZhiYing said that it's ladies night so yea, all of our boy dint follow lol. Had a nice dinner, but the food is errrrrr.. you know what i mean. :/

Dint went to club at the 24th March. WASTED! Brandon and the gang opened 11 bottle damn! Too bad dear wasn't around and he won't let me to club without him so yea, missed out all the fun damnit!

But i did went to the club at last day of March. And guess what, for the first time, i'm drunk. Drunk as vomiting. Damn idk what the fuck happen to me. I just remembered that i drank alot, after the pure shot i collapsed. How i went to the toilet, went out of the club, get in the car, went back home, i totally have no idea how i did all this. And now, officially, i quit clubbing. HAHA. Everyone was like "OMFG! Seriouslt? You can mah?" And i'm like "Seriously la HAHA." Soong even laughed at me saying it was the "Joke of the year" Damnit why you so underestimate me?! :( But seriously, i have to quit club for a few week, maybe for a month. Have to get going with the assignments and also be a good girl cause daddy tend to complain nowadays after the "incident" that happen to me last week. #Fmlttm

And everyone is doubting me when i said i'm gonna quit club. Take a look at this. I almost faint LMAO.

Photo for the week.

Having lunch at Sunway Sushi Zanmai with the girls. :)

JiaNee's Bday. :)

Dating with baby boy. :)

Dinner at Star Village. :)

Spend my weekend with my boy and currently trying to find a part time job so yea, tiredddddddd. Owh and yea, dedicated to someone, i know what you did there and you know i'm talking to you HAHAHAHAHA. *wink* ;)

SPM Result Revealed!

2012-03-30T03:08:00.001+08:00

Tadaaaaaaa. Another delayed post hehe sorry. Skipped class and went back to my secondary school to get my result and see my long lost buddies! But unfortunately, not really satisfied with my result. It's good but i expected it to be better. Texted daddy and mummy and also called up my grandma. So freaking disappointed although mummy said that it's good enough already. But then daddy is kinda frustrated and say that the scholarship is now gone. *SIGH* Because of the frustration and disappointment, i'm not gonna reveal my result here, soooooooooooo, you've been fooled by the title of this post! MUAHAHAHAHA. *Laughing dramatically like this*

Went to Chatime with my damn freaking frustrated heart. But i kinda feel like hitting some of my classmates. They got 6A's but then still cried because they think it's not good enough. Damn it pokai if i got 6A's i'll be laughing my ass off not crying my soul out laaaaa. Fine whatever. Some photo taken and that's all.

My sayang ZiYi. :)

LiangHan after being in NS for 3 months.

Long lost susu HAHA. :b

Benny came to pick me up then picking up joy and their friend for tea. Not really in the mood then. Thanks to the fucking result that somehow makes me wanna cry damn it.

Went for dinner with my boys and girls at Shabu. Damn it. Kena boycott by my classmates say that couples should sit the couple seats (another table away from them). Need like that meh sayangggggg. Kick me, Benny, ZiYi, Warren, SinYin and PushLee to the other table. So hate me mehhhhhhh? :(

I'll say no more and let the pictures do the talking. :)

AhHoi! Hamster back from NS :b

LiangHan. LOL. Same jeans? :/

My sayang ketua tingkatan HAHA!

My crazy woman. :)

My stupid woman. :b

SinYin and Miawwwwww. :)

My boyssss. Where's LiangHan? :/

Da girls. :)

My girlssssss. :)

My dear. ♥

Thennnnnnn, we went up to Puteri Hill to celebrate our Nicholas the chicken birthday! Happy Beloved Bday! :)

I think that's all for the day. Had a great time with my sayangs. It's been soooooooo long since we had so much fun together. Miss them alot and love them more. Hehhhhhh. Waiting for the class trip to be confirm. But.. Hoping i have enough money to go instead lol. That's all for now,. Stay tuned! I'll be updating soon. And this time, i meant it! :b

Post for the week.

2012-03-23T20:34:00.003+08:00

Hello holiday! Got myself a week away from coll, but not away from all the assignments and homework! Damn it, have to get my ass back to the chair and start studying. But, here i am updating my blog. Don't wanna let it rot here like my old one HAHA.

March 16th, 2012. Friday.

Kay there's good news and bad news. I passed my undang test like finally! Yay me! But then i have to go for the theory and driving lesson omg. Lazy ttm. But imagine if one day i can drive, so awesome. But not so awesome cause i don't have a car, YET. Hehe.

March 17th, 2012. Saturday.

Went to G6 with my bitch Elisa, Jolene and her cousin. Was trying so hard to find someone who would let me join their table and then finally, Elisa decided to join Kelvin and YuSoong's table. Met Wendy and her friends that i went I-Club with. I'm looking at a direction and then suddenly there's two hand waving at me. I look harder and saw them and screamed LOL. Over excited i guess. But not as excited when the club played BigBang's Fantastic Baby! Too bad i'm i the toilet that time, damn it, totally wrong timing. :(

My baby bitch got drunk and turned into a big baby tomato. She kept saying that she wanna drink but don't wanna go back into the club and asking me to bring the drink out for her. OMGGGG, drunktard baby lmao! Kelvin took her back home early but me and the others are still in the club. Tried the flaming lambo HAHA. Was so worrying that the fire would burn my hair or even go in to my mouth and i'll be like.. err.. burning? Went back home earlier than the usual. Dint really had much fun that night, the club was crowded like shit, table is small like shit, and we dint really have the chance to dance on the dance floor, crowded like hell.

March 18th, 2012. Sunday.

Went to Putrajaya for the Hot Air Ballopn Festival at the evening. Caught in the jam for an hour, found the parking, walked for 10 minutes and poof! Going back to Puchong already damn it. Dint even had a picture of the hot air balloon omg. I feel lifeless.

Got this picture from facebook. Wondering why the heck i dint saw so many
cute hot air balloon and only saw a ble, red and white one. Damn it. :(

Kay i guessed that's all. The post about the spm result release date will be updated later on. But here's some random photo. Stay tuned! :)

Classmates in Taylor's. :)

Party people.

2012-03-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'm currently fucking sick, maybe i should call if "FICK" ? Fever, sore throat and ps i'm also half deaf now. My right ear can't even listen to anything. Thanks to the bloody water than accidentally get into my ear while i'm bathing. Niama i feel so dead. Okay. Let's begin. MUAHA.

March 9th, 2012. Friday.

Went out with my beloved hpy Isaac. He dint forget me and he find me up the night before saying that i forget him bla bla bla bla bla. So yea, we have a last minute plan to go for din din. HEHE. Then he said that both of us going to dinner is kinda, err, awkward. Damn we always have lunch and dinner for two now you're telling me you feel awkward? Fine. So we decided to go find Denice out for dinner too. Went to the shop she's working at and waited for so long. Why the customer never stop one?! :(

Isaac bought me a hair band cause he said that it looks nice on me and a lil' present after so long not meeting up together. Awwwww, thank you sayang. :) Went to Star Village to had our din din. Benny drop by and ta-daaaa my boyfie and my bestie meeting each other. I feel awkward idk why.

Went to Mist with the boys and their gang to celebrate Kevin 19th birthday! Happy beloved birthdayyyyyyyy. :) Alot of people attended but the seats are shoooooooooo damn freaking small. The seats could only fit 20 people. How do they expect us, 40 over people to sit there? And they call us the VIP's. LMFAO. And the biggest problem is, some of the guys couldn't even get in. Problem: not enough age. Including Benny! Damnit. Who treats VIP's like this? I get into the club first. Took a couple of photos with Jayce and XiaoGua. :)

And guess who i met there. I met my freaking college mates! Jasreel and YeeHung! Lol they were celebrating their friend's birthday too. Have a lil' chit-chat and then to the dance floor with the girls. Benny came in late. Some lady bring him in and he came rushing in to find me cause KarFai and the boys said that i'm missing in action. But actually i'm on the middle of the stage lol. The liquor finish up damn fast! They ordered 10 bottle but i only have about 4 or 5 cups. Benny dint even have a cup! Damn it, someone took our drink i guess. Went back home after the party ended.

That's all. HAHA. Wanted to go G6 the next night but dint went. One, i'm freaking exhausted of drinking every week! Two, i'm lazy lol. So we just went to Barkath to have some tea for the next two night. So yea, that's all for now. Will try to update soon. Bye&Nights! :)

Life.

2012-03-08T22:45:00.003+08:00

YELLOW. So busy with assignments. Marketing, IT, Economics, Malaysian Studies and also English. Not mentioning that there's gonna be a test coming in 2 weeks omfg. So damn freaking stress. Everyday wake up at 6.20am and reached home at the afternoon or sometimes even the evening. My condition getting worst and to tell the truth i feel fat. DAMNIT! Blame the delicious food in taylor's. :(

I saw me inside HAHA. But only my hair :b. Purposely turn away cause i shy shy. LMAO. Okay idk what to talk about. Life routine is as usual. Wake up, class, eat, class, home, eat, play, sleep. HAHAHA. Lifeless piece of da bian. Kay here's some photo with my classmates. :D

And here's another special song that i like very much. Watch it and you'll see the other side or Arvil Lavigne. :)

Arvil Lavigne - Goodbye