LiVe LifE to the FulLest

Why does it always have to end with 'Happily ever after????

2012-02-03T13:46:00.001+08:00

I had this teacher who taught me Chinese in JC. All i remembered was he was a very impromptu person. He said, dun make appointment with him. He hates appointment.

He's a very impromptu person, he feels like it, he go.

I kind of like get what he means because it really feels good to do what u want. Feels good to go where you want to go. No inhibition. Life has too many rules and commitment, sometimes it's good to do what you want to do.

Sadly to agree, hate to say, marriage and children is the biggest commitment one has to make. Why do fairy tales always end with 'and they live happily ever after.'

Have you found your prince in a shining white armor on a white horse? If yes, does it guarantee a happily ever after?

Realization

2012-02-03T12:43:00.001+08:00

I know why. It's a pent up feelings I bottled inside me this week. I kept pushing the feelings and tell myself it's ok it's ok. I denied myself of letting out my feelings.

So today, it all blew with a powerful force and I wasn't able to handle myself.

But then again, if I have let my feelings be shown at that time, be it angry, sad, what good does it do? It could have hurt the people around me or worse still, backlash.

So in conclusion, I'm still no good at handling my emotions. I still got lots to learn.

Help

2012-02-03T12:27:00.001+08:00

I think I need help. I juz spiral into feeling down and I can't stop myself from falling further. Then I just stare into space and I just cried.

I must learn to detach myself.

Doesn't help

2012-02-03T11:54:00.001+08:00

Shit, just realise retail therapy doesn't help. In fact, now I'm more depressed. Not because of the money spent, (no money Liao). I think my heart just feels so empty suddenly. Why? What is happening?

random thoughts

2012-02-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

actually i do not have any random thoughts. no thoughts, no feelings, don't know why, don't feel like blogging recently. rest in peace, san.

online shopping

2012-02-03T11:48:00.001+08:00

Oops, i did not do anything productive... been shoppin online and guess what, I just had some retail therepy. lao gong is so going to make noise at me.....

silence

2012-01-27T07:18:00.000+08:00

not in the best of mood. feeling lousy and just holding back. hold back from revealing feelings as i'm afraid i say the wrong things.

and hearing max cry over the phone, already want to cry out, but max tears really broke me down.

CNY

2012-01-27T07:01:00.000+08:00

CNY came and go.... so happy? sad? glad it's over? ordeal to go through? too much to eat? fat? why must we wear new clothes, shoes on the first day of CNY? does it make you a better person? does it make you a different person?

after CNY, during CNY, i actually felt empty. empty, no life, no meaning in life.

Not been blogging

2012-01-25T23:06:00.001+08:00

Pardon me for not blogging. Chinese new year came and went, time to get busy.

Max dunno part what

2012-01-20T12:07:00.001+08:00

Max thinks that when he is in primary 6 , he will be dragon. We kept telling him, he's born in the year of the dog, but he just thinks that when he is in primary 6, it will be year of dragon again as Marcus was born in the year of dragon.

Max is sick

2012-01-18T18:03:00.001+08:00

Max fell sick yesterday. Fever, sore throat. Yesterday he looked tired. Today, he seems to be ok, back to his usual self and energetic.

New clothes

2012-01-18T17:52:00.001+08:00

I think I was crazy. Yesterday I went to shop for clothes, in a span of about an hour, I shopped for 18 pieces of clothing. 4 dresses, 2 pants, 2 skirts and 10 tops. Each clothes average $32. Yup, cny only 2 days, how to wear all the clothing?

Tired feet

2012-01-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

Soaking my tired feet, and max has to kpo and put his legs in too.

Sunday

2012-01-16T06:59:00.001+08:00

Brought children to swim, arranged to meet up their cousins for swim. Actually, it wasn't kind of arranged, it was like we r going to swim, will u be swimming too?

The weather was great for swim. The children enjoyed themselves and max showed his sweetness again. He shielded me from the splashing water

Then in the evening, brought mum to eat Taiwan porridge.

Fri the 13th

2012-01-16T06:56:00.001+08:00

Was your fri the 13th unlucky? For myself, the paper got jam in the photocopier, I almost trip and fell. I guess that's pretty much it.

And not to mention, the guy in pink shirt almost made me puke my lunch out.

Marcus

2012-01-12T06:30:00.001+08:00

For the past three days, Marcus has been attending this Adam Khoo workshop which was organized by the school.

Last night, went for the closing ceremony where the trainer told parents what the children were taught and also a bit of parenting workshop.

The trainer was animated. It was interesting, didn't feel the 2 hours was long and boring. At the end, he allowed some of the children to come to the stage and talked. Most of the children apologized for being naughty, rude and said they love their parents. And most end up with a hug. I felt like I was in a motivational talk.

Well, Marcus volunteered too. Quoting from the trainer's closing words, most parents want their child to be able to take care of themselves when they grow up and most of all, to be happy.

Max again

2012-01-10T21:23:00.001+08:00

Max said he wanted to be an astronaut when he grows up. He said he want to earn a lot of money, so that he can buy me a Ferrari, he is so sweet.

Then when I tell him, astronaut has to go USA, he was a little reluctant. But after I tell him, I'll go with him, then he reluctantly say ok lor.

Spring cleaning

2012-01-09T21:40:00.001+08:00

On Saturday, I decides to spring clean the children's toys and some cupboards. Felt good after spring cleaning.

SMRT CEO Saw Phaik Hwa resigns - Channel NewsAsia

2012-01-07T16:27:00.000+08:00

SMRT CEO Saw Phaik Hwa resigns - Channel NewsAsia

isn't it a little too late? probably she found greener pastures before she resigns.

International Headlines vs Local Headlines about Ministerial Pay Cut

2012-01-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

International Headlines vs Local Headlines about Ministerial Pay Cut

Really seriously, make a comparison between the headlines. Seriously, our media is tongue tied. That night on the news, they spend 16 Mins talking about the ministerial pay cut and even worry if can attract talent into politics. What the fish! Come on,a talent would have made comparison, being a minister here beats being US president. Where got talent dun want to come into politics?

random thoughts for the day

2012-01-06T09:12:00.001+08:00

1) i woke up late this morning. i went back to sleep after turning off the alarm.

2) managed to reach at the same time, minus my make up and all the what what cream, plus the gulping down of coffee in three big mouth, minus watering plants.

3) i finally finish july 2011 issue of reader's digest! (applause) can't wait to start on aug issue.

4)was reading about sex slavery in USA. the young girls were made to have sex with more than 20 men a day, that average out to 1 per hour.....mmmm thoughts......

5) my fortune cookie (given by a colleague) says i'm going to have the best day ever! it better be true.

6) i experienced a bout of STM just now, almost scolded people wrongly. They were baffled, so am I. (at myself) sigh, well, this is me.... take me as i am and appreciate me.

Taxis

2012-01-05T07:01:00.001+08:00

I know that taxis have poorer business now and they tend to drive slower to try to catch passengers by the road.

But u want to drive slow, u drive on the left lane lah!!! What the fish! And I had to meet two of such taxis!

Max

2012-01-05T06:56:00.001+08:00

Max had to remind us, it's six thirty. Because we leave at 630 am and we were all still doing our own stuff. Actually I know why he tell us the time, it's not that he is sweet to remind us to go to school, it's because he's waiting for his Gor Gor to go to school so that he can take over the place at the sofa.

He's still cute.

3G service down

2012-01-04T19:27:00.001+08:00

Read article below, if u can. yeah, can sue Singtel.

1st post for 2012

2012-01-04T16:29:00.001+08:00

It is the 4th day of 2012, how have your 4 days been?

I thought I have so many things to say, but apparently, I'm dumbfounded now.

Really, keep deleting. Mayb I'm just not in the mood. Sorry I have to start 1st post on a sad note.

Really sucks feeling especially today is 4th. The 4th day of each month is
Important and special to me.