Weeklys or Monthlys?

My Coming Out story

2013-11-13T11:05:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/v/RTjxW-6x_7o?autohide=1&version=3&autoplay=1&autohide=1&attribution_tag=80SPjL3sMkzAXm5c2butYQ&showinfo=1&feature=share

What have I been doing?

2013-04-23T15:53:00.001-07:00

Hello Homosapien... So 1st April I had a mini photo-shoot to help promote a web-series I've created. To tell you the truth I'd call it more of an undiscovered head gem of mine. Anywhoha these last few weeks/months I've focused on this project so much that I've neglected the blog, but lets face this too, I never really blogged around one thing now did I, I am very erratic with how and what I post, which in turn I guess it is the reason I titled it "Mind of Rogue".

Funny how now after so long people around me are now calling me either Rogue, Marbie or Marbs , just what I wanted they've understood Scott is my actual surname not that "Scott is a rogue" lol. Yes Rogue really is my Middle name, deal with it.

Drunk Dialers in short, is about a group of men that attend one hour group therapy sessions with a Doctor who has some problems of her own (which involve some sibling rivalry). All of the DDs (Drunk Dialers/diallers) have a problem with alcohol one way or the other as well as one having a problem with drugs and another struggling with his sexuality.
For more watch the Making of: Drunk Dialers video via YOUTUBE.

So for you viewing pleasure here are some pics and videos of the Drunk Dialers so far.

Rogue Marbie Scott (I'll explain later)

Carlos Castro

Justice Inyabuutaiswa

Ashelly Goldman

Dr Jungal Juliajuice

Foreste Fern Evergreen (Dr Jungal Juliajuice's Twin Sister)

And here you can watch the entire series so far on my youtube PLAYLIST DRUNK DIALERS

So thats what I've been getting up to. Spread the word and Subscribe to my YOUTUBE channel for updates on the series and linking videos from Ashelly with his makeup and healthy living tips. Or you can watch we rant on there too.

Come and visit me on Facebook Rogue 'Marbie' Scott

and Twitter @RogueNScott

And a big thank you once again to those of you pushing me to keep creating, only Goddess knows, I'd probably snap and get locked up like Angelina Jolie in 'Girl Interrupted' if I didn't get all creatively spill out.

Drunk Dialers Update

2013-04-01T02:35:00.001-07:00

Hello Homosapiens, so if you haven't seen much of my lately here's why, I've been working on a webseries called 'Drunk Dilaers' (Yes spelt incorrect as we all know when you are drunk you can't spell when using a phone lol) And today they will all be together in the same shot.

You can check out the first episode here.

Don't forget to share and like if you want to see more from these DD'ers.

I look in the mirror and don't see what others see

2013-02-17T23:29:00.002-08:00

Hello Homosapiens, so I have embarked on a little project that I told you about Drunk Dialers and I'm enjoying doing it so much. My only question is, Why don't I see my work like others do? I wish i could appreciate it. Being creative is like body dysmorphia I guess, seeing what others don't see.

Any way below are episodes one and two of drunk dialers and I'll be taking a sexy picture of Dr Jungal Juliajuice later on today too. TTFN
P.S Drink responsibly.

Forgive and forget

2013-02-15T15:07:00.001-08:00

Last post I am drinking hardcore, no fucking Dryathlon thank fuck!!!

My life is youtubed

2013-02-15T15:06:00.001-08:00

So I haven't really write a proper post in the longest while and I'm blaming that in a certain somebody, who directed me on. New oath I didn't know I'd love. But have no fear I will be back... Hope you've been watching true vids. Xxx Marbie smile

Scripts.... How to?

2013-02-03T07:48:00.001-08:00

Hello homosapiens.... Straight from my phone, a quick post. Meet some of the cast from post I'm working on. DD. p

28 days later, Dryathlon update

2013-01-28T14:48:00.003-08:00

Hello Homosapiens...... So the month has been a cool one, we even had snow here in the UK which me and my Husky baby played with till, well when the arthritis in my hands kicked in. No seriously when it's cold my hand always seem to freeze in what ever position they're in (Good for a guy I'm helping out I suppose, shhh!)

So yeah.... I used the ticket. I'm such a bad person (But it's not like I'm Lance Armstrong, it was a couple of hours not bloody years), it was for a cause though that in my head was a perfect reason to add £15 out of my pocket for. Now I'm thinking maybe just 4 nights month I should have a drink (Yeah I drunk, drank, drink a lot) Or just special times. I mean it hasn't at all been hard and I may just keep on going. On no wait!!! I have a 40th Day Of Establishment party to go to and this is going to be big, on who the person is, (A friend of a friend, who I've become somewhat friendly with, not like that, I'm In a glass chamber waiting for the right one)

If you haven't noticed I been getting familiar with YOUTUBE lately, just something I thought would add a little more Marbazzle to you all. I really need to let you all know when a new word is going to pop your way.

TTFN and I STYS (speak to you soon)

What it feels like for a girl

2013-01-22T09:02:00.001-08:00

Hello Homosapiens.... So for a while now I've been getting responses from women from all backgrounds, ethnic groups, ages and social backgrounds that I could get my question to. Some spoke to me in person, during meals and at parties, some emailed me, left a message on my phone or facebooked instant messaged me.
I've heard from the dawn of my sexual awareness, men don't like condoms and girls always want them. But then I've came across some girls that seem to think THE MAGICAL PILL is just as effective (No that just stops babies most of the time dudettes, not STIs), I always assumed they were under pressure to have unsafe sex, so I went in to dig a little deeper and feed my hungry mind. Girls, you shocked me. So my first girl, Tracey sent me an email, here it is:

Tracey, 26 year old

Condoms word association:

Gross. Unnatural. Mood killers. Stinky. Sticky. Saggy. Baggy. Delayers. Messy. The negative list is endless.

Basically, it's this. Uve liked this guy for ages. Had a bit of a flirtationship going on and FINALLY he's back at yours. You drink some wine. You giggle. The suspense is killing you. His hand brushes yours and you get those "fuck-me-now!!" fireworks in you belly. He senses it. Your eyes meet. He gives you that look then BAM you're kissing. Its better than you expected. Its sexy, sensual, erotic and you're instantly wet. Hands start wandering. Every touch is like electric. You find his cock and it's HUGE.... you know the rest. The amazing foreplay. The multiple orgasms. The sweat, the screams, the shakes. You want him in you right now and he wants to be in you too. Then he asks "you got a condom?" You rummage around in ur orgasm induced coma... both getting impatient... you find one (YES!)... you place it in his shaking hand... he's taking ages... the moment is slowly dying... you're getting cold and increasingly selfconscious about your naked body... now your not thinking about his huge hard cock, ur thinking of your lumps and bumps that he's had too long to analyse between the HOT-HOT-HOT foreplay... he's finally got it on and you can finally get that good hard fuck u needed do bad.

So he's in you and it's ok... he's got all the right moves, it should be great but the full sensation isn't there. He cums and ur not quite sure cos you can't feel it in you. His cock goes down and flops out of you, leaving the condom in you. So now you have a plastic bag in you, a dribble of cum down your thigh and ur feeling good but not 100% satisfied... then there's that awkward moment when he's gotta remove the saggy johnny from inside you. Least attractive moment ever.

Condoms... although they are potentially life savers, they fucking ruin EVERYTHING!!!!

And I obviously had to put this into video form so check it out!!!! xxxx Stay tuned to hear more from other dudette readers and contributors, or even tell your own in the comments below.

What are your thoughts on condoms, girls?

Mighty Morphing Power Marbie

2013-01-21T11:45:00.003-08:00

Hello Homosapiens.... I had a lovely start to my weekends, dinner with Harley Quinn on Friday fro her day of Establishment and then dancing the night away on the Saturday getting her on stage at the Black Cap with Miss Loll Lasagne. But all ended so bad, Just metres away from her door step we were attacked by some drug crazed, mentally disturbed dude, (I'd like to call him something else but hey). I told her to run to safety, whilst I became this macho style Marbs, fending him off another one of our friends. He wouldn't back down, I still feel as if it was some sort of movie? Any way Police investigations are out, apparently this guy has been doing this for weeks now, getting all the more brazen with his antics.
So my shoulder that got busted out it's socket a couple of months ago is busted again, my face is soar and beaten (So glad I'm not of the paler tone), jaw clicking, legs bruised, But guess what your Marbie did not go down, I fought him off and although I slightly battered, I've stood up and claimed my Mighty Morphing Power Marbie Medal. Never thought I'd have to fight for life, usually it's men doing that for me. (I guess watching dudes fight really helps, cause that round house and drop kick I gave him help a girl escape.)

Marbie's dudettes are safe and sound, the collective is stronger.

Now I just need to get back in to normal life and get some damn dewrinkling in.

(PS Thanks for the smile that almost came across my swollen fragile face with the video titled 'What gay boys do during sex' and showing your support, your sweet.)

Liebster award?

2013-01-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

Hello Homosapiens.... I've just woken up and already I've had to tell one of my closest and oldest friends he may need to be a little more sensitive in the way he speaks to sensitive and self-conscious people. I guess I should have been a little more sensitive in how I delivered it to him because he too became self-conscious about his cut-throat, blunt ways.

So a lovely lady has nominated me for the Liebster Award, Lia Minneapolis and up until now I didn't know what this award was. So I've decided to take part in the nominations process.

Rule of the Liebster Award:

Each person must post 11 things about themselves
Answer the questions that the nominator set for you plus create 11 questions for your nominees
Choose 11 people with less than 200 followers and link them in your post
Go to their page and tell them
No tag backs

1) I'm a Leo (Western Zodiac) I'm a Pig (Chinese Zodiac)

2) I was 3 months Premature and am thankful for that.

3) Naturally I'm a shy person

4) I got my first ever proper job 6 years ago (The shame)

5) I get told I'm creative and talented, I see it as I'm still struggling to find something that I can do for the rest of my life.

6) Gaming on consoles is dangerous once I've started, I'm not a complete addict, but I have phoned in sick to work because I've played 19 hours straight and need the sleep.

7) I absolutely adore animals and have been surrounded by them all my life. I've had horses, a donkey, dogs, cats, a pig, a hamster, a gerbil, a snake, birds (including chickens and ducks), Preying Mantis, a rat, Mice, goldfish and a Dolphin I used to feed daily, crabs and an Cayman (or crocodile)

8) When I'm alone I love nothing but the silence of hearing my own breathing and the tapping of the keys on my keyboard when I'm typing. It's the time where my walls are down.

9) I love watching Horror films and find comfort in them before bed. Reality check, it's happening on TV not my life, which i should be happy about.

10) I'm the Second/Third of 5/6 children but get treated most time as the only. (I say guilt issues their)

11) I'm attempting at writing a book of my life growing up in the UK and Dominica. I have a photographic memory

Answers to Lia Minneaplois' Questions:
1.) What did you do/Where did you go for your first date?

I was taken to a restaurant by the River Thames and walked along it, where I had my first kiss with this person on the pier (we're no longer together)

2.) What inspires you on a day to day basis?

The people that say I won't and can't

3.) What's a guilty pleasure of yours that you're normally too embarrassed to divulge?

I like to sing on Singstar naked when I'm alone

4.) What's the name of your first child and why did you pick that name? If you don't have children, feel free to answer this question if you have kids in the future?

Boy- Luciean Girl- Demonica

5.) What was the last compliment you got from a person? (what did they say)

I was complimented on the way my jeans fitted me. "You've got a cute little apple bum, don't you"

6.) What's the most drastic/desperate thing you've done in an effort to woo a past crush?

Nothing, apart from get to know them.

7.) If you had a magic lamp with a Genie, what would be your three wishes?

1- for floating buildings so that animal life can go back to how it was years ago, to many extinct and endangered species right now. 2- To be able to breath under water. 3- Travel back in time when i wanted to visit myself and people I've loved without disturbing the timeline continuum.

8.) If there is one moment or one event in your past that you would redo, which would it be and why?
I'm not sure I would, that would mean regretting something. Everything happens for some reason helps something else happen. Regretting causes negative energy and theres enough of that already.

9.) What was the last thing you watched on Youtube?

Mile Jai videos I think

10.) If you could be room mates with any person (dead or alive), who would it be?

Frank Sinatra

11.) If you could be fluent in any language, which would it be?

Japanese (including writing, which is even hard for the Japanese so I'd be a pro lol)

My 11 Questions to you.

1 What was the last thing you ate before you answered this question? (If you're eating now the meal/snack before)?

2 What other big event happened on the day you were born, what is that date?

3 You're given 5 tickets to live on Mars. It's now able to sustain organic life, who would you send and why? (I send send so you obviously won't be going)

4 What are you thoughts on CGI and hand drawn animations?

5 If you're man would you like the experience of being pregnant? If you're woman would you rather the man becoming pregnant? (Seahorse style)

6 What are you most afraid of when you are travelling to a destination? Examples: work? school? Uni? another country?

7 Where was your Great Grandmother born?

8 What do you do when you're alone, that you're not necessarily embarrassed about, but have the feeling no-one else does the same?

9 If it was possible would you ever consider cryogenically freezing yourself, for a later date?

10 What are you thinking of my Questions right now?

11 What do you love to watch and could watch until the end of time (whenever that is)?

My Nominees:

Carl Matthew Edwards Art

I write Thing I read things (no idea how many followers but love the blog, she's so sweet too)

Predefined Taste

Gay Men (18+)

Anton Maurice

Dryathlon update (day 12)

2013-01-12T12:01:00.000-08:00

Hello Homosapiens.... So here an update on how I'm doing, I haven't really said how I'm doing just why. But I'mdoing fine with the no drinking. Last night I had a dream I was with a particular person on this little journey with me. It was freaking crazy, we were swimming naked in a ocean of alcohol and drinking the the alcohol, we noticed it changed to what ever we wanted to drink at the time. So weird. Any way here's a video I've recorded where I get unexpectedly emotional, talking about the death of my Grandmother who passed in 1992 from Cancer.

Do you know what it feels like for a Girl?

2013-01-07T15:59:00.000-08:00

Hey Homosapiens... (Hey? Not Hi?).... I just had one of those light bulb moments and well I think it's gonna to make my mum wished she had put me under the water in a church that day (Never was gonna be possible I was a child from hell apparently) So a little mini series is one the way. I'm just waiting for a few girls I know and have no fucking clue who they are but am happy they are participating, to get back to me via email. Tell then Homosapiens TTFN

Bad Kissers

2013-01-05T09:15:00.002-08:00

Hello Homosapiens... We've all had an experience one way or another I'm sure. What I failed to say is I really do believe homosapiens with thin and I mean, try Matching up Jay-Z's lips to Cameron Diaz..... Yeah that thin, these homosapiens have no clue on how to kiss IMO!!!! and then there's those people who just weren't taught by anyone, kissing is an art not a battlefield get it right.

Looking out of the box and climbing right out

2013-01-04T09:59:00.001-08:00

Hello Homosapiens... I've been looking into videos lately as you can tell probably and find them that bit more personal in reaching you all. My personality seems to come out differently in videos. So I've decided to as the title of this blog suggests do weekly or monthly videos. Hmmm, this could be fun.

TTFN Dudes and Dudettes.

Marbie ditches alcohol for a month

2012-12-31T08:43:00.002-08:00

Hello Homospiens, so I decided I was going to help raise money for the Charity 'Cancer Research UK'. The fun part is, I won't be drinking for a month (The whole of January 2013) whilst doing so. Hopefully I can get a my local Police station help me out with a breathelizer thing on a daily basis so I can prove to you all I'm doing good. But here's my page where you can help raise funds.

>>>>>>>> Here <<<<<<<<<

I'll start my new Year with a a good cause, I intend to give to monthly, will you?

Please help.

'Happy New Year Dudes and Dudettes'

OPERATION: MARBIE START OVER

2012-12-23T09:00:00.000-08:00

Don't hate me Homosapiens!!!!!! Marbie has been deployed back into the world of angry people.

Operation: Marbie Starts Over

2012-12-22T15:39:00.002-08:00

Hello Homosapiens.......... As the new Year approaches, I have made a trend for myself to start over. New interests, newish style and lets say curls no more. I'll keep you updated on the mixed and curly front, but for now, remember how I am.
What have you chosen to do for the New Year?

As one life seems to end, another Blossoms

2012-12-22T02:00:00.001-08:00

The Orchid flower is one of the most beautiful flowers in my opinion yet can be very temperamental without the right care. Blossoming sometimes for months in my experiences until the flowering season ends. Trimming the ends making the plant look like a tough leafed shrub lacking any beauty as it did once and caring for the plant as if nothing had changed, is your best bet for it to blossom over and over again.

Being newly diagnosed HIV positive does not mean that life has to end for you, just like the Orchid a new life for you too has started to bare its buds and is striving to blossom, you only need let it.
Speaking to a friend of mine who in 2003 found out about their status and was understandably devastated, they told me once they had found out life to them became more important than what they had thought of it. In their words “Life was just a play it day by day sort of thing. No real meaning, but now there’s so much I can see that I didn’t before.” They said that life before being diagnosed was in fact one big party, never sticking to a job and stumbled from city to city in the UK. Finding out forced them to become in their words again “Grow up” and take charge of their life. That same friend is in a relatively well paid job and has being climbing up the ladder in their industry, bettering themselves for years now, they live alone, party with friends and now is planning on having a child, biologically, so you see life for them has blossomed and continues to.

How does one living with HIV have children? I asked myself that same question, but where there’s a will there also may be a way, the way is treatments. I came across the term ‘Sperm-washing’ and had no clue what that meant, in fact I thought if the male partner was positive then he’d ejaculate in a cup and somehow washing the sperm in a soapy substance. Sperm washing rests on the premise that HIV-infected material is carried primarily in the seminal fluid rather than in the sperm itself. The technique which is used separates sperm from seminal fluid. When the sperm has been washed, there are many ways it can be used. The simplest of these is to perform a technique called intra-uterine insemination (IUI), where the washed sperm is placed directly into the uterus of the female partner. This is done when she is most likely to get pregnant, so around her ovulating cycle. If there are any other fertility problems that may occur there are procedures that you may be familiar with like IVF (In vitro fertilisation) eggs are inseminated with the washed sperm and ICSI (Intra-cytoplasmic sperm injection) where they directly inject the sperm into the egg. However if the female is the one which is positive, she would have to carry on taking her treatments as normal or be advised to switch treatments for the health of the baby. I also heard that having a cesarean can lower the risk of transmission to the unborn baby. In all scenarios the viral load of the person would be advised to be undetectable before and would be monitored throughout the pregnancy.

The future gets brighter everyday and as most people walk through life, they find themselves in relationships too. Find another Orchid to make a lovely hybrid is not an easy task, but when you find the right compatible partner life for you can have new blossoms of joy.
Rushing into things is not advised, too many young people have done so and without the right education and protection have received news they did not expect. Take your time and by all means be honest to yourself about what you intend to gain from a partnership. As many good well intentioned people there are in the world there are those that would, I would say be “The snakes in the grass with the venom on their tongues.” I’m not saying keep your status to a minimum, but you don’t particular what to start a journey with someone that understandably you don’t want every Tom, Dick and Sarah knowing about your HIV positive status, because yes it is still an untalked about issue amongst many whom may not be as educated as you, the last thing you want is added stress in your life. On the positive look on your endeavours of find a possible partner, you should be honest with them once you feel you can trust them, get to know them before become physically intimate.
Many social networking sites out there especially amongst the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgendered communities (LGBT), social networks allow you the option to disclose your HIV status or not.
Because you are becoming more knowledgeable of the virus and you now know that just because a life you thought you had has ended, another and many are about to begin, remember the most important thing is to take care of yourself, love yourself and through doing this you inturn will be able to protect others and hopefully find your partner you decide you want to have a life with.
Life as you know it, has not ended, it’s just found a beginning to a new path you can enjoy once again.

You're human, so they say but inside we're more Animal

2012-12-12T08:21:00.001-08:00

Hi Homosapiens.. So couple of months ago I had to get my Husky Kiara spayed, due to the fact that I didn't really want a house full of puppies and nor did I really want her to bleeding all around my house and I was not going to have her wearing sanitary towel and also I don't actually trust any of the locals in the area in which I live to have vaccinated their dogs. She was becoming of the age where she would've secreted that oh so lovely smell all horny dogs want a bitch to make, thus I had to give her the snip. You see that's how animals operate they give out a scent for the others to know that they're ready to procreate letting all those around them know that they are ready to fuck. Sometimes animals give off another scent, to ward off other animals as a defence mechanism but the mechanism that I'm talking about is the mechanism of lust, the mechanism that she drives others crazy sexually. (Random thought, the only other mammal known other than man to have sex for enjoyment is the Dolphin, I'm sure apes do also as it has been recorded they masturbate in private or in groups, surely that's for sexual reasons I mean why else would they do it?)

Let's talk about pheromones, so I'm assuming that you know what pheromones are if not let me break it down for you, pheromones are a chemical secreted by animals especially in insects and yes mammals too that influence the behaviour or development of others of the same species, commonly used to attract the opposite sex however I'm sure it works the other way round also.

There has been huge debate about the existence of human pheromones, whether they work on humans, and how strong they are. I'm going to bat for the team that says pheromones are up on full force, simply for the fact that when one goes out and is feeling quite sexual I find I get a lot of attention and although body language may play a part in my feeling sexual and getting attention, I'm often with my friends laughing and drinking so the body language there is not saying "Come and get me boys" as if I was Nicole Kidman gliding down from centre-stage on a swing in the movie titled 'Moulin Rouge'.
So when one is seeking a partner and they're not wearing any fragrance (because we all know that fragrance/ odour can play a small part in the selection of a concubine or what have you), do they secrete these pheromones? I'm absolutely sure they do, because most chances are when seeking a partner they attract many partners often enough maybe not the partner they want but inevitably they got that attention. I find that when I'm out with my friends after a few drinks I often do feel quite sexual and want some harmless, flirtatious attention, then attention comes, from a greasy looking guy that I wouldn't go for or a girl who has obviously not caught on that I'm gay yet, so you just have to politely say "Sorry not interested"and depending on how I'm feeling and how annoying they're becoming it's a simple, turn my head away and continuing with my night for a proper suitor to come my way.

It is said if a dude and dudette are in a relationship and he is secreting enough pheromones he can have an effect on her menstrual cycle, which would accelerate and increase fertility leading to pregnancy in the likelihood that she is able to conceive. Whilst there is no say how a dudette's pheromones would affect a man, given the reputation of the male species of the homosapien race, it wouldn't matter anyway if they did have any effects, men are so-called more hornier and then females anyway (So not true I know so randy dudettes as I'm sure you do are are one yourself). There has been some studies set out to see if pheromones are sexual orientation based and whilst I can say the gaydar is possibly the best pheromone that domains I'm not too sure it is sexual orientation based, women talking to gay men sometimes assume a man is free, single and most of all not gay, not getting signals from him in the conversation or body language, but his pheromones. So his pheromones obviously are on but are not triggered for her, so I don't believe in the sexual orientational based pheromones, unless of course scientists come up with a reason to say in these circumstances the human brain is now malfunctioning and scrambling signals (Which is why we get fag hags).

So are we more alike and more in tune with our animal counterparts? Yes, we can sniff out the perfect partner (or partner for now) by sniffing out the genetics which we do obviously without knowing, just like the heart beating we are unaware what we are doing and when. In my line of work when I don't know when an item of clothing belongs to someone i.e a child I sniff it, they all have they're own smells, not pheromones but (little piece) proof that we are closer animals than you'd think.

Apparently Dolphins enjoy threesomes also

Pheromone parties fancy that.

(Wont' you) Spin around on my little middle finger

2012-12-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

Marbie smile, I was feeling a little tense.

7 syllables that will change your life

2012-12-10T07:01:00.000-08:00

Hey Homosapiens... After listening to some peers of mine drone on about their sweet lives and how good they are, I couldn't help my smile inside when two in particular peers had not such great lives due to breaking up with their partners or wanting to break up. Yes I'm somewhat of a big pessimist at time when I'm not being the full fledge optimist, most people have grown to know. When you hear those 4 syllables that could possible turn into 3 more that you'd might want to hear but only 3 defining ones come parading your way like a herd of elephants, you heart must stop, right? "I don't love you anymore"
Whilst someone has never broke up with me in such a graceful way, the first and only guy that broke up with me, did it in the harshest of ways. Lets just say, keys left behind, clothes taken, numbers were changed and the birth of a single black male hell bent on revenge was born upon the world.
I vowed from then, if I ever break up with someone it has to be done right, graceful and sympathetic to the other's feelings, because they really might not have seen it coming and I'd hate someone to feel as shitty as I did those many years ago (Plus anyone seeking non-physical harm revenge on me is in for a long battle).

So are there really signs that a break up is right around the corner and if so should you look out for them? Yes and No. Whilst we all know everyone is different biologically and emotionally, what you do need to look at is how they are socially. I'm not going to bullet point what to look out for, I think real life scenarios are better to pick at.
Everything seems to come down to social factors in one way or another.
This one friend, scared, bored, excited me with months worth of stories and events that had gone on in their lives and as a friend I was there for them, I wouldn't be much of a friend if I wasn't. Events of there partner sexting other people, relocating the Ex-files and attempting to rekindle some burnt out flame, being with other people at social gatherings that they should really have attended (in all sense of being in a relationship) and the constant remarks of being bored with the sex and the relationship. Dudes and Dudettes, I tell you now if a homosapien ever becomes bored of my kitten play, I'm going to have to go back to the ball of string and see where I went wrong.
So I kept telling, this friend, leave. Their response was always that they were in love and that they thought they'd be together forever, life can be a bitch and I know I can, but thinking that way is too optimistic, kind of like hoping, that one fat guy about to jump in the pool is not going to make the biggest splash and wave so you stay there and watch. Now I see my ways were wrong, I should never had told them to leave, especially if I knew they still wanted to be with this other that was obviously parading their advances on Facebook and had changed relationship status, blocked and unfriended them and lastly became involved with another person with very clear almost nude pictures, they were an item. I should have just let them make up their own minds. Which I did later, but can't help but wonder did I help with the decision.

Now another one of my friends is on the other side of the fence. In the sense they want out, just they don't know how to get out. A very strong willed individual has found themselves trapped like a mouse underneath a cats paw. They have been with their partner for years now and live together. Living together can't be easy, but to want out of a relationship must be worse. Do I think their relationship is perfect? No, did I ever? Yes. But when one comes at me with the thoughts they have and words been said to them I have to wonder 'Why don't you say something?". It seems year in a relationship is harder to get out of than just a few months, bonds have bound, sealed and are harder to detach from.

"You'd be lost without me", "No one else would want you." "No one else would put up with your shit." all what one will say to my friend.

The many nights being left alone at home and wondering when the other is to return only really seeing them on the weekend and if seeing them is, silently watching TV in each others company, reading books, passing each other in the hallway and short brief conversations just to add some noise into the silent wilderness, well then yeah, they see each other a lot and seem happy. I'm not entirely sure they were ever happy, as the years in description from my friend, has always been like this. I really have no advise for my friend who is bemused by the thought people are now giving them attention. Did it ever occur to them, they were getting attention, they was just too happy to notice it. I love to tell, what I really think, but it's not my place and so many others in this relationship will be affected.

So all I do now is wait for that day when I have to face, those 7 syllabled words, I know it's a pretty morbid way of thinking, but I have come across too many stories that seemed to end happily ever after when in fact, it happened never after.

Stay true to yourself and those around you.

Good riddance to my pet allergy

2012-12-10T03:36:00.002-08:00

As Christmas sets itself upon us, year in and out families and lovers seem to always want to get some furry animal as a gift to an other. Now I don't have any qualms with that but I do have to say as many have often said "A pet is for life not just for Christmas, Hanukkah, or a Birthday", yet pet shelters see animals coming in every January, February and so on. One of the top causes for this, allergies to the new family member.

Cheatara Monroe

So some years I adopted a kitten (In December) and she was the most beautiful kitten I've ever had, well probably just, maybe the only I've ever had. Anyway I was allergic to her, terribly allergic to tell her. My eyes would swell up and form a weird like-crustacean over both lids sealing them closed, hard and crusty. Not only did she have an affect on my eyes (I suffer from Asthma) my breathing became clouded by her furry love, when she touched me I developed rashes on the site of where ever her nose or cat-claw had got me. My GP said I'd have to get rid of her. So I decided this had to stop. What I did next is not to everyone's taste and if so should be done with extreme health caution.
I hated the fact that I could not show her the love that she so wanted to share with me and took matters into my own hands. I purchased some antihistamines coming in oral and eye drop form and began the battle with my allergy to my love. I no longer kept my door closed in fear she may suffocate me in my sleep (I sleep deep, so much so I slept through two Hurricanes) and I allowed her to sleep on my bed or under the covers with me. It took time for my theory of 'Over exposure and the immune system will find a way, a loophole for me to win over the allergy' My methods were of course, idiotic and hazardous to my health, if she didn't suffocate me in my sleep, my asthma surely could have. Did I care? No. (The things we do for love)

Pythonic Fireayra

10 years on my beautiful girl Cheatara Monroe, is alive and kicking (I'd like to say 'And so am I" but that's apparent), I have no problems with her in regards to my allergy, in fact I did get her a lil sister but they hated each other so she had to leave out of safety for the younger Cosmopolitan Monroe. She is the eldest of three, Pythonic Fireayra (My snake) is 3 years and Kiara Wilhelmina Biitch (my Husky) is 7 months going on 8.

Kiara Wilhelmina Biitch

I'm an extreme lover for animals and as stupid as it is, it's them before me, they're my children and I don't intend in putting them in the system.

So remember a pet is for life not a second in time.

Further readings and websites:
Pet Allergy
Battersea dogs and cats home

Fountain of Youth

2012-11-28T13:16:00.000-08:00

(Herbert Draper: Water baby)

Walking down the banks of life, some not wanting to leave this life with strife, they’re looking for the fountain of youth. They say “Seeing is all believing”, I’m pushing many to not having to need that reality, they deserve to have a fountain of youth. So I plead them to talk to a stalk and a cabbage patch broker, not to go anywhere and sit and loiter, because the final results can be a son or daughter and drenth them with new water.

Someday I suppose it would be nice to have my own children, but right now at my age and frame of mind having a child or even children wouldn’t be the best thing for me, I’d be constantly broke trying to have the best for my child and forgetting that I do have a life to live. But thats just it right? Once you’re willing to give up your life for another growing one, you are mentally ready to have a child. I’m not saying I’m showering in £50 notes, nor am I seeking help from the government (Not that there is a damn thing wrong with that). I just know that even though I’d give up my life for a new, growing one, I’m just not ready and being ready is the key, to opening up that sacred garden finding the waters that give youth.
Financially and just my personal belief, one should be fully able to support a household of 3 if single and maybe a household of 4 if partners, just because and this is my opinion, I would want to go everywhere with my child and give them all they needed and maybe wanted, I would never spoil my child to the point they became Verruca Salt, but why wouldn’t you want you little budle of joy to have the best that you see fit.

The world is over flooded with people attempting and wanting to have children of their own that in some the worst of cases, their fountains have failed them giving them only dried up muddy pools that unfortunately can not sustain life. The many treatments and drugs such as IUI, IVF and ART just to name a few do work, but for those unlucky seekers of that fountain that beared new life to us all can still not conserve life. So families and those wanting to start a family will try speaking to a Stork and Cabbage patch brokers (Adoption agencies and surrogate mothers) in order to finding a key to that gate that holds their wishes.
But adoption is not all that it seems to be, you don’t just go in and say you want a child and expect that son or daughter you’ve always wanted. There are trials, many, the biggest being patience. Trials become even harder when you’re in a same sexed realtionship or just that way inclined. It’s looked down upon by religious bodies, government bodies and worst could be looked down upon by your family and friends. If you plan on having children being, gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered, be prepared to be swimming with some seriously hungry sharks.

"If you couldn't look after your child and you had to put them up for adoption would you honestly want your child to be adopted by a gay couple?" Some guy named Winston Mckenzie asked a reporter. "Would you seriously want that or a heterosexual family? Which would be more healthy for the child? A caring loving home is a heterosexual or single family. I don't believe a gay couple is healthy for a child." he went on to say. People like this in the media need to be, dare I say it ______ sectioned. Does he not remember what it was like for his fellow black ancestors and possible himself to even think of interracial relationships? What a fucking moron, someone go punch some sense into this dudes head, no wait, they did that, just knock him fucking senseless leaving him with detached retinas.

A loving home is a loving home full stop. No questions about sexuality, ethnicity or anything cut the crap.

Adoption agencies make it so hard on prospect families, running physical check, mental stability checks, family checks (Including pets if you have one, dangerous goldfish alert) and only the stars know what else they must check. I understand why they do it, the vulnerable children and circumstances and all, but so much in depth into one persons life is like being at the so called Pearly gates explaining your life. Sop much information I do feel is a tad bit too much, I mean you never hear of a Midwife or Doctor asking expecting mothers, if they intend to abuse or allow another person to abuse their unborn child or if they can actually handle having a kid (Well obviously if they are already in the system, but I’m talking about normal cases now), no questions of mental disability or past partners nothing. So why should years past affect adopting, oh safeguarding, the same people that saved baby P and he was with his birth family. Point made. My opinion and I have many, I do think everyone should be evaluated when considering a child just because you waters are stagnant does not mean you should be held back in getting to a new fountain

Financially and just my personal belief, one should be fully able to support a household of 3 if single and maybe a household of 4 if partners, just because and this is my opinion, I would want to go everywhere with my child and give them all they needed and maybe wanted, I would never spoil my child to the point they became Verruca Salt, but why wouldn’t you want you little bundle of joy to have the best that you see fit.

Go seek those Storks and Cabbage patch brokers, because The Fountain of Youth truly does exist.

Interview with a so called Vampire

2012-11-27T14:25:00.000-08:00

Hello Homosapiens..... In hows to come GMT, I shall conduct my first interview/informal discussion with another homosapien for a post I'm working on. I've been reading up on interview techniques and etiquette and only hope all goes well. Writing is what I love and I do it because many listen to the stories others just don't tell. I'll keep y'all posted through out the day (Wednesday) Night'all