Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Day 8 Consistency and Commitment

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 22:51:00 +0100

I love the Scientist video cause I love the message of experimenting until things finally click into place. There is so much info in the programme and it works on so many levels to help us achieve our goals.
It's not about getting some magic but unsustainable answer but about finding solid practical things to help you find what works for you. What is it that's enjoyable and fun, what motivates you to keep going.
I never feel I've done enough whenever I try each day but my thinking turning around to look at what I did do not what I didn't. I think the jar has helped with that. I'm going to have to get a bigger one as my first one's nearly 3/4 full of beans.
I haven't had the weight loss I would have hoped for but I thinks as all the pieces of my jigsaw start to fit together then when it does start it will be consistant. One by one I'm breaking the habits that are holding me back. This is getting easier as I have more energy to want to do more in a day.
When I started the programme I would have seen a person who had done the 21 days a few times as a failure but now I see it as a person who is extracting every last ounce of info and treaching out of the programme and who will have got ALL the different levels of meaning that come with repitition and learning.
I have gained more confidence, self-belief, happiness and self esteem.
I have no symptoms of depression. fear, anxiety.
I want to start to make more of myself.
I have less lethergy, apathy and general slobbyness!!
Not bad for something that could be seen as just a weight loss programme!!!!

I am learning to question myself more but in a kind and caring way. To ask myself is this the best thing to eat or do or spend my time on. Is this thing fun and enjoyable and if' it's not then why do I have to do it . I am making decisions and choices that will make my life better.
As Pete says we might not get the results we wanted or expected straght away but thats what is great about experimenting. There is no hurry about this process, this is changing for life, creating a better life and being the best us we can be.
Phew!! Not quite sure where that came from but I am feeling really passionate about the changes that are happenning to me just now as I can feel the momentum building within me.

Did weights and measuring today 2lbs down and 8" lost from all over. Not back to my pre break stats yet but heading back in the right direction.
Food
Museli Mix with Banana
Earl Grey Tea
Water x 2
Chicken Caeser Salad - lunch out - best option available!
Water
Coffee
Earl Grey Tea x 2
Cheese scone, butter and jam!
Water
Redbush Tea
Chicken with raw crunchy veg
Apple
Actimel
Pkt of Snack a Jacks

Had a haircut. Got four new tops for starting back at work. I put all the clothes that were too tight for me up in the loft a few weeks ago but now I have to go back out into the world I've not got much to wear. I made the decision to only wear clothes that fit me properly and that I feel good wearing .
Had a lovely romantic lunch out and choose the healthiest option, not becasue I felt I had to cause I WANTED too!! Picked up the first bit of my gym programme today and judging by how much my core aches today I am in for a challenging time. Bring it on!!
Did a lot of window shopping as well, trying to get some ideas for Christmas - great fun and we had such a laugh trying on big furry yetti hats in Marks. One of them was the exact colour of my hair and it looked so funny on.
I think also that logging the energy levels has also helped me this week cause it's making me question habitual negative thoughts. I have never been a morning person and always have to drag myself out of bed. When I actually tried to feel what my energy level was first thing I realised it was higher than I thought. Also as I was asking myself the level through the day, in the past if I had a busy day I would feel tired etc, but when I examine it my levels are higher than I would think they would be. Not sure whether it'd because I'm eating better and doing more exercise or it's a perception in my head that I should be tired if I've done a lot. I don't really care cause I am just enjoying the feeling.
Anyway enough of this marathon blogg. Just needed to get it all out.
Love to all
Shoana xx

Day 8 - the bubble burst

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 20:52:00 +0100

I had considered not to blog. But this is probably the best time to do so, so I can record what's going on.

This morning was really nice. Drove to my parent's house, met up with Dad, sister, her partner and my 2 neices. They live a couple of hours drive away and had stayed there overnight. We all walked to town to a lovely cafe for an early brunch, it's not a greasy spoon, all good food. The others had all day breakfasts and the kids had pancakes for novelty value. I chose scrambled eggs on 2 slices granary bread, a sauage and a cooked tomato. I ate it slowly and didn't have extra toast. Did try my daughter's panacake and knew that it wasn't worth it. Drank tea and water. Went to M&S and the town museum with the family walked back to Dad's. TIRED could have slept on the sofa!

Felt full for the rest of the morning and had porridge at 1pm. Thought that this was a good move as had already had the equivalent of lunch. However, I just kinda didn't do much this afternoon. Sister came over with the girls for a playtime before they went home. Drank herb tea. My Mother in Law came to visit too.

Made a healthy fritata for the kids and me while hubby had a nap. I felt I wanted something else to eat but didn't fight hard enough. I wanted something more SUBSTANTIAL than the lovely apple on the shelf. An hour later CRUNCHY NUT CORNFLAKES x2. Ate that ALONE, kids busy playing upstairs.

I felt TRAPPED at home by the rain. I had hoped to get to the supermarket this afternoon. Hubby suggested it wasn't fair dragging the kids out at 5pm so we all stayed home, he went to work for a late shift. LONELY.

The kids asked for sandwiches. I WASN'T HUNGRY, but had half a cheese sandwich and JAM with spread on TOAST x2. Followed by another bowl of CRUNCHY NUT CORNFLAKES. I was feeling defeated. Grabbed the box of CHOCOLATES that I'd got to take to a baby shower. Shared these with the kids.

Overall I don't think I drank enough WATER today. I didn't watch Pete's VIDEO.
I am TIRED. At least I've tided the kitchen already. i'll go to bed to read soon.

I have capitalised the above to try and find why I did this. It's upsetting as this week had been so good. Tomorrow is another day. I'm eating nothing else tonight for sure.

Day 12 and I'm Having a Moan!

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 08:04:00 +0100

and I'm still here and that is a big wow.

BUT I haven't lost any weight - grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I know I'm re-educating myself but I do need to see some results and I thought I would have by now.

Today = FRUSTRATION

sorrry for the moans
emtee x

ps. why do children disappear and then reappear only when you're either trying to watch Pete or write your blog.

Here's hoping the day gets better ........

DAY 37

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 01:02:00 +0100

Friday's food:
Brekky: swiss granola with berries+coffee
Lunch: ham salad sandwich with spinach and rye bread
Tea: homemade chicken soup+water+++++
Snack: 1 satsuma
Supper: 2 weetabix+milk+water
and lots of painkillers as my root canal work is wrecking. Although it does aid eating slowly, very slowly. Totally motivated despite toothache. Checked out my homework websites. Very interesting will do some more research tomorrow. Nite all :-) xx

TGIF !

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 23:58:00 +0100

Well, thank god it's Friday, as it's been a long week.

Work is manic already, as I work out the truth from the lies and identify all the things they have forgotten to do, as they are incapable of following a procedure&.. And now today something has been pushed to the fore and they want me to work extra time and complete a 4-6 week job in 5 days ish! Not sure how they expect me to do that&..and I don't want to be full time at the moment, as I have too much to do as it is.

My ex has stopped paying me the money he owes me. Well, his company has. Chased today; but he has a trick for everything and a charismatic personality that ensures everyone falls for all of his lies. So back to court probably. It angers me that I have to pay a fortune to get back what is owed to me, yet he can lie and lie and the court allows priority to be given to recent credit card debts over my 4 year outstanding loan.

Reading a Tony Robbins book on the train today. More personal growth stuff. This week is immersion into new business ideas and project planning. (I refuse to use the word positive as it really winds me up how over used it is&.).

Have a manic weekend ahead, so debating whether to catch up on sleep tomorrow morning or endeavour to get up early (as I have these last few days) and crack on with chores. Either way I will be tired.

Energy this morning was 1/10 but at work picked up to 4/10 by necessity really.

I do hope that the rain eases off, as I have things to do in the garden and the garage&&.and house viewing&..and food shopping&..and chores for my mother. All before I can even consider housework, laundry, bills, taxes, my other business and thoughts of Christmas&.. Exhausted just looking at the list if outstanding tasks, which need to be prioritised and then just started. Oh, and I also need to actually stop and sit down to watch something on TV at some point so that I can finish knitting a Ben 10 scarf ! Mum would be doing this but her arm is still healing from the op and she already did 2 hats, scarves and mittens for the kids for the shoe boxes (with my help). Not that my sister will be grateful, buy the wool or even say thank you! She's already moaning about having to buy people Christmas presents&..

Baby bels and banana for breakfast.
Apple and banana for snacks.
Lots of water.
Veggie burger and orange juice for lunch.

Too tired to cook any supper..............

Not so great a week...

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:54:00 +0100

Looking back I have really bombed out on exercise thorugh fitting in the test and the interview at the agency earlier this week. I had to leave work early three days on the trot to do it what with chidcare. I've managed to get all of 20 minutes of Turbo jam in since Monday. Shocking! I've also managed to mess up my plans for sunday - I was going to do a Vets race but I really don't think it's a good idea as I need to be back for 1 o clock as my friends husband is dropping her twin sons off - She's in Rio ( lucky thing) and He needs to be at a conference somewhere else.. I'll take them to the pool so I can get some lengths in myself. Oh and it sounds very technical and I don't fancy being in the mud on a technical race after the main pack has gone through...

Foodwise I've done well - I made a vegetable chilli inthe slow cokker yesterday and it was very very good for somtehing that was essentially beans - I haven't noticed any horrid effects the night or day after from any of the families backsides so that recipe might be a keeper. I'm trying to do at least one slow cooker meal a week to free up some time at night.

I'm still tired - very stiff in the shoulders - far too tense - work is awful - my role is to question and challenge things but inthe present climate any questioning is seen as negative. This makes it very difficult to cast an objective eye over things. - It's interesting that people are starting to resign from where I am out of principle - don't usually see that these days.
I hear about the next interview mid week next week. Can't wait. Feel I did well as was one of 350 applicants.
Wii Fit told me that I'm about the same wieght as I was before - but it doesn't account for the positive comments I am getting on a regular basis. ( I won't get any soon if I don't get my backside into gear on the exercise front though!)

Day 7

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:10:00 +0100

Normal work day. Walked to drop off kids and then onto work. Did well with ignoring the biscuits. Popped to the cafe late afternoon and got a small pack of dried fruit and nuts to sort a hungry spot. Walked and got the kids. Popped to the corner shop for bread, newspaper and snack for the boy - but not me! Walked to get daughter then home. So exhausted. Had cuppa tea with the paper and read internet on news from the Old Bailey (see previous blog entry). So sad for what happend. Daughter made a fruit flan at the childminders, the three of us shared it, it was good. Got the kids in bed without too much fuss. Hubby came home from work with a chinese. I did think about having something else afterwards, but reminded myself I am full.

Sooo tired, I'm off to bed. I'll catch up with reading blogs tomorrow.

Day 7 - Commitment and Consistency

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:59:00 +0100

Another piece of my jigsaw came together today when I had my first complimentary personal trainer session. My trainer was brilliant and really knew her stuff. She understood about rehabing from my hip replacement and we went through various assessment exercises and she is writing up a programme for me to pick up tomorrow. We did a lot of Pilates type stuff as well which I had never tried before and I really enjoyed engaging my core!!
There is a class on a Tuesday night that would finish before our last seesion this week so am going to give it a go. I met the instructor as well today as it would seem I would be ok for the beginners class.
My instructor also was impressed with what I could do considering I was only 9 weeks post op so at least the physio and walking and swimming have paid off in that respect.
I did 10 mins on the treadmill and cross trainer and it was so good to be able to use them again. I so never thought I would say that!!
Came home and had a bowl of soup and then it was off to the opticians for a free eye test. That was fine. So another wee piece of the jigsaw completed.
Walked over to the Opticians and had a walk around the shops and then back home so walked for over an hour.
Just pottered about for the rest of the afternoon feeling very happy and glad to be getting back to my new self!!
I was extolling the virtues of the programme to the trainer who also runs a weight management 6 week course at the club and she was very interested to hear all about petecohen.tv!
Can't really believe just how happy I am at the moment. It's a lovely feeling.
Food
Museli mix with blueberries
Bowl of soup
Apple
Banana
roasted veg and Bolognase sauce - strange but eating up leftovers.
Greek yoghurt and red grapes
Timeout finger
Starting to feel hungry properly now which is good as it means I can't be stuffing myself quite so much!!
Energy levels throught the roof today which is great.

Going for a swim tomorrow and getting my hair cut so looking forward to that.
Anyway off to chill now. Keep up the good work girls and guys. We can and we will suceed
Love to all
Shoana xx

New Entry

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:18:00 +0100

I have had the most awful cough and sore throat so have had no problem drinking water but haven't wanted to do anything else. I have slept most of the time and feel really apathetic. I am theorectically on day 4 but think I need to go back to day 2. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed but I think that being ill is sapping my positivity and I should probably concentrate on getting better rather than feeling bad about not properly being on day 4. I think I will pause and start back when I'm well.

Day 7

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 19:23:00 +0100

I can't believe it is already a week - it seems like it's been a very long one! am finding keeping to calorie limits a bit of a struggle at the moment, but trying to hang in there and definitely keeping up with the exercise.

Absolutely shattered, but I have about 1000 words to write in the next 40 mins before going to fetch houseguesls from the station.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Friend's murderer sentenced

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 17:10:00 +0100

Back in May I had terrible news that a friend had been murdered. He was sentenced to life in prison today.

http://www.buryfreepress.co.uk/news/Mary-Griffiths39-killer-jailed-at.5823412.jp

It's shocking and upsetting to read all the details from the court because I knew the murderer too. I had even been at his 40th birthday party with Mary earlier this year. May he rot in hell.

Training starts today..

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 16:47:00 +0100

I ran just over eight miles today with Biker.
A bit of a challenge given the weather but we actually really enjoyed it.. I`l let her tell you why here feet hurt though. LOL

I am training for the Brands Hatch half marathon and in my mind my training started today..
I have been running regularly but mentally I have this goal and I started today.
I am so excited about doing a half marathon. Its as far as I will go so I am on a high with the thought of it.
In December I up my distance to ten milers. Got some great advice from my guru running friend so feeling very focussed...
Bring it on!!
Have a good evening everyone
PP XX

I have said no to friends for once

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 14:47:00 +0100

Had a very up & down week
I think the weather has a lot to do with it

Enjoying learning a lot more about nutrition

Exercise - been to the gym once, pete's class & weights at home
Could not get on a body pump class

Not really cooked much this week, pasta & rice dishes.
Must do meal plans for next week

Really annoyed with myself that I have not really eaten slowly at all this week
I know I cant focus on that
I am just soo used to feeling like a failure, so I always focus on what I have not done
Yes I still struggle to give myself credit - just feels weird

Group of friends are out tonight
I have said I will go but drive, I would only stay in on my own otherwise
Normally I give in to them nagging me to drink, just to keep everyone happy
We are meant to have 70mph winds in brighton - I dont really fancy walking around in that - too old
I still felt I had to say I busy tomoz rather than I just dont want to drink

We have all been friends for 14yrs - 12 of us always used to go out
few of them have had babies this year
Their lives are wonderful & perfect in everyway, they think we must be unforfilled without kids - I know I get a lyin at weekends thats for sure
They were all there for me when my mum died, I really miss it
But all they want to talk about is their kids

I dont really talk to them much about me anymore

I have my nephew on sunday, god knows what I am going to do with him in this naff weather

Have a good weekend all

Friday 13th great day to go to dentist!!!

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 12:03:00 +0100

I have had a rotten couple of days, raging toothache monday and tuesday, tuesday evening my face and roof of my mouth swelled right up, so i took myself to doctors wed morning and he put me on antibiotics, Its been horrible, the roof of my mouth is all swollen and my eye is nearly shut with the swelling on my face... when i picked the grandchildren up from school yesterday my brilliant grandson said i looked like i have had loads of botox and had a major allergic reaction.. dont you just love these kids ha ha !!!
The great news though is no apetite, infact on Wednesday all i had was tepid water all day, I bear anythng else, yesterday i juiced apple and orange, had a mashed banana and 2 eggs scrambled , what a state to get in, !!!!! My business is talking on the phone and that has been hard too, still i am being so brave and going to the dentist at 12.30..... I know this is poison and i need to get it seen to properly then i will hve to get my dentistry sorted out....I would rather go through labour than visit the dentist, but i know this is serious so must get it seen to,
Hope you are all having a much better friday 13th than i am !!!!!!!

DAY 36

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:06:00 +0100

Food diary today:
Brekky: homemade granola - love this stuff!
Didn't need a snack
Lunch: soup and oatcake.
Dentist break - had next root filling appointment today, 1.5 hours in dentist chair and fortunately it hurt too much to want a biscuit to cheer me up so there's a silver lining to everything !
Supper: Pete's Mum's chicken soup ! good as it ever was and has been a very regular feature on our menu for a long time.
Late supper: 2 weetabix+milk. I don't usually eat supper but thought I'd try it to see if it helped my early morning migraine. I don't have protein shake as suggested.
Another exciting live session tonight. 3 nights with Pete - it;s becoming a habit Pete ! a good one though. Lots to think about so am going to collapse into bed and have a good old think. Found the energy to wrap my friends birthday present tonight, as I always leave it till last minute and would probably have ended up taking the roll of paper into work tomorrow. I'm hopeless! Less procrastination - that will be my challenge for next week.
Good to meet everyone tonight and I'm looking forward to our new ventures very much.
Nite y'all a happy but sleepy Annie :-)) xx