What Do You Do To Mend A Broken Heart?

Sungguh Comel

2012-01-14T08:40:00.000+08:00

I will play this clip every time I open You Tube. Nina, kamu sungguh comel.

Praying for one day to have a lil daughter with me as well. For now, lets have a good time with my boys first =)

Pichas

2012-01-13T07:26:00.000+08:00

loves to see him smiles

main train dgn blok town safari park

main susun kereta dalam bekas

tgk blue's clues dkt tab lah pulak!!!

main color-color

@ 1 Year & 11 Months

2012-01-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

loves to color2, conteng2 tp dkt buku jerla. mmg akn alert @ all time when he's holding the colors so that he wont make his artwork else where.
loves to kacau his ayah, pull his father's hand and asked for a clue a clue awwwhhh
loves blue's clues to the max!!! bangun2 jer a clue a clue awwwhhh. i feel like throwing the tv away evrytime he asked for the show. dkt nick jr. boleh rewind2, so rewind jerla sepuluh kali tengok. arghhh, kenapala minat sgt tgk abg steve tu? x pahamla. klu xde dkt nick jr. kitorg akn bukak through youtube. tp byk sgtla pulak parodynya. i guess mesti ramai x suka tgk blue's clue. bilela fasa BC nak habis ni?
evrytime dah siap lps mandi, mesti lari2 cari ayah dia for some kisses and compliments. comel sgt. tp a bit sad bila ayah dia keluar, and he seek for his father to no where to be found. tp lps ayah balik, mesti akan kisses n hugs sambil panggil ayah dgn sweetnya.
bila la nak panggil ibu ni sayang? ibu tunggu jer ni. no, i'm not sad or jealous for his manjaness toward his father. i'm more than welcome. cuma it will be nice if he could call me ibu or mummy or mama once in a blue moon. it's ok, ibu will wait for your words kay.
and evrytime i sang da i can cook song - show from cbeebies, he will end da song with i can cook. comel je zairil sebut i can cook. and tgk dia nari2 lagi, that's why i loves to repeat the song over and over again.

nxt month is your birthday hunny? lets see what ayah gonna give for your birthday this year =D ibu sayang sangat zairil, nanti dah ready, sebut ibu hari-hari tawu. i just miss for you to call me ibu, that's all my love =')

Happy 1 Year & 11 Months

2012-01-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

~~ Happy 1 Year & 11 Months Hunny Bunch ~~

~~ Happy 2 Years & 7 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

2011-12-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

Sesi membaca buku

Sesi bermain komputer

Sesi bermain basikal

Sesi bermain laptop

Sesi makan

The Other Language

2011-12-17T07:41:00.002+08:00

I stumbled upon this video while bloghoping @ http://kumakikaeamelyn.blogspot.com and find it really useful in understanding babies. With zairil, his first few days were such a blur because we didn't know exactly what he wanted and it took us quite sometimes to figure him out. Hopefully with lilo, we can understand him better and won't be upset with him that much. It is because, it is so frustrating when I couldn't calm my own baby and with that I will label myself with the IABM title right away.

Lilo's arrival is quite around the corner. To be honest, my feelings are all mixed up. Scared is ontop of the list. I am not sure what I am afraid of the most, but that's how I am feeling right now. Anyway, there will be a post on the scan, but that will have to be on hold for a while. I will write about it, but not now I guess. Take care everyone, have a nice weekend =)

@ 1 Year & 10 Months

2011-12-16T17:49:00.001+08:00

knows most of his body part such as bila tanya - mana mata? tunjuk mata. nose, mouth, teeth, ears, hair, fingers, toes, dgn pusat. all in english except for mata dgn pusat. he learned it from your baby can read cd. mata from his atok and pusat definitely from me =D
i like to make him sayang muah before doing something that he wanted. contoh kalau zairil minta susu, suruh sayang muah dulu baru i made a move to the kitchen. seronok bila dia sayang muah sbb he will say muahhh comel je dgr =)
dah pandai ckp susu bila nk susu. thank god for this, yela sometimes bila dia nangis2 xtawu nk apa. rupanya nak susu. sekarang dah pandai ckp susu, its like da greatest thg ever!!!
still loves to dance-off. i should put a video of him dancing. comel tgk dgn tangan2 gerak. lembut jer, switfly dance to da wat ever music =)
bila nak buat something wrong, i immidiately ckp heppp, heppp, then he will stand and cries his heart out. i let him cries for a while before hugging him. then terus senyum. manjanya ini budak =D
so yes, he will respond to heppp, a sign for him not to mess around too much.
loves water, which kid doesn't right? susah betul nk keluar dari bilik air. and yes, he loves puddle too, saje je pegi lari2 dgn lopak air dkt taman. abis basah baju sume.

you are soon to be a big brother now sweety pie. dah rasa besarnya anak ibu nih. be a good abglong to adik k. ibu sayangkan abglong nonetheless k sayang, muahhh =)

Happy 1 Year & 10 Months

2011-12-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

~~ Happy 1 Year & 10 Months Hunny Bunch ~~

~~ Happy 2 Years & 6 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

2011-11-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

mari menulis-nulis

baca his baby book

cheese time

bananana time

surfing @ ayah work place

@ 1 Year & 9 Months

2011-11-16T17:03:00.001+08:00

suka menari2 comel2 dgn gaya yg comelnya. geram tgk ayun2 tgn. x kesahla lagu pape pun, asal dgr lagu je goyang2 nari2. sungguh comel =)
masih sukakan buku. suka sgt amik buku dari rak buku, lps tu selak2 gigit2 lps tu lari tgk cbeebies
paling x suka cerita lunar jim dkt cbeebies. dgr lagu pun dah nangis
dah ada dua gigi geraham belah kanan tumbuh. hence da drooling
susah betul nk gosok gigi sekarang.
susah betul nk potong kuku sekarang.
super friendly dgn budak2. suka peluk2 dgn buat geram2 ketap2 gigi.
suka sepah2 mainan lps tu masukkan balik dlm kotak. dats how he played his toys. sepahkan, masukkan balik dlm kotak.

i guess this is some of his behaviour this month. still baby talk. susah nak faham. xnk ckp, tp more toward pointing to what he wants. i don't want to worry his speech delay, nanti bila dah pandai bercakap for surely i'll miss his baby talk.

Addicted

2011-11-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

I am truly addicted to cocoro. It's like, everything is all right when I have it in my mouth. Unlike when I am pregnant with Zairil, I used to like berryl's chocolate so much that is a must every time we went shopping. Nowadays, Cocoro is a priority in our shopping cart.

Can you see I placed it right here next to the PC? We just bought it yesterday, and it is half empty already. Gosh, this is truly addiction!!!

Thirst

2011-11-10T19:07:00.003+08:00

Climbing the stairs while we watched from far

Climbing the stairs with ayah

Si kecil going for a slide

Yesterday was a lovely evening after continuous pouring rain for days. So we decided to go to the park again. I like going to the park on weekdays because there aren't many people around compared to weekend. Before we left, i had a tiny voice inside saying 'hmm, i should bring zairil's drink', but my head went 'it's ok,we're going for a bit, zairil can have a drink after we arrived home'. Off we went without bringing the drink that is.

There weren't many people around, zairil played happily; running, climbing, sliding, run and climb some more. Boy, he played with all his heart. He did slipped once on the stairs, but it didn't stop him from playing again and again.

After one hour, it's time to go home. But we stop for roti eskem and then continued to the car. Forgetful hp forgot to shut the front door. Luckily everything was in place. We offered some of the roti eskem to zairil but he refused and cried for a little bit. So i thought he was sleepy from playing too much.

On the way home, we suddenly decided to make a stop at carrefour for some grocery shopping. Zairil showed sign of discomfort, but again i dismiss, still thinking he's tired.

At the carrefour, this little guy cries some more. The tears streaming down his face, made me sad and frustrated not knowing what he wants and what should i do to comfort him. Later, i found out how thirsty he was when he wanted to gobble the fruit can, thinking that it's a drink can.

All we can think off to shop hurriedly and i did took the vitagen for zairil to drink. After we paid, zairil drank four bottles of vitagen in one go. Imagine how thirsty he was at that time. I am so sorry sayang for discarding your thirst. Poor zairil, all he wanted was some drinks, yet i thought he was being cranky for no reason.

So from now on, every time we want to go to the park, please make sure you bring along zairil's drink ok?

Happy 1 Year & 9 Months

2011-11-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

~ Happy 1 Year & 9 Months Hunny Bunch ~

~~ Happy 2 Years & 5 Months For Us ~~

Buku Si Kecil

2011-11-05T10:37:00.001+08:00

During the last playgroup, hp bought this cloth book for zairil. i fell in love with this book since the first time we used it in the class. It really is a good book with benefits for lil one. Teacher watie had explained the details about this book. So i think i will say only a lil bit about it.

This is the front cover of the book

This is one of the page zairil likes.

He likes the finger puppet

Also the shoe string and the snappy thgy

He likes to pull the hand of the clock

This is how he read it =)

...Reading some more...

Overall i would say it is worth buying. All the activities inside stimulate his senses and i will sit with him while reading the book. Some of the activity he didn't master yet, but hopefully in time he can do it =)

The Checkups

2011-11-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

We have been to three check ups for our lilo. The first one was on 9th August 2011 and with a bit of uneasy news. Like ive mentioned before, lilo is a bit smaller than the LMP date, so Dr. fazlina said probably ive mistaken about the date. So that is why we were given with two EDDs. However, hp said probably lilo is going to arrive sooner just like his/her abglong, we just have to prepared for all possibilities i guess.

The next appointment was on 8th September 2011. But this time lilo was progressing well, the growth is similar to the fetal growth scan. I felt relieved at that point because I'm anxious from the last visit. The Dr. said everything looks good insyaAllah.

The last check up was on 25th October 2011, a day before hp's flight. This time around, we received the blood test result. It was all good, HB was on track, Rubella antibody detected but for Hep. B antibody is O IU/L, meaning that i am not protected from Hep. B. I asked about the Hep. B but dr. said it's ok, after delivery i could take the shot for Hep. B and not now that is.

Hmm, last check up really tested my patience limit as it took so long to see Dr. Fazlina. I even shed tears as well since Zairil is a bit out of control and quite hard to handle. Later Dr. Faz said she had to handle two deliveries so that is why it took a tad longer. Since the check up went smoothly, I'm fine afterward.

The next checkup will be on 22th November 2011 which will be the detail scan involving the 4D scan. Ive never done this before with Zairil and I'm really looking forward to it. Only that, Dr. faz said the detail scan will tell lilo's condition and progress. If nothing goes wrong, the Dr. in charge will only explain how's the baby is doing and will not schedule asap appointment with Dr. faz. I'm praying everything will be well for lilo in me tummy, please let everything will be alright.

Dr. Fazlina schedule the next appointment with her on 13th December 2011. I'm anxious about our 4D scan but excited as well. A bit of a mix feelings, I'm praying for everything to be well for all of us, amin...

Together Again =)

2011-11-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday was the most awaited day for both of us; Zairil and I since it is the day hp came home. after leaving us for 5 days, he's finally here again with us. how I wish he never leaves, but since it is job related, how could I say no to that. In fact, I am the one who encourage him to go despite of his hot and cold decision about leaving us behind.

Any way, we manage the five days without him. Zairil is being such an angel for four days, but a bit tricky on the last day of hp's arrival. But I didn't mind, because my heart is blossoming with love that what ever Zairil did, I just look at it with one eye and told myself to find my happy place so that I wont be so upset with him.

So as we've discussed before, Zairil and I will pick hp @ the LCCT. I'm questioning and in doubt of myself; can I do this? can I drive with Zairil seriously? I never did it before, and I never intend to do it, but putting that aside so that I could finally see hp, I just said to myself; YOU CAN DO IT!!!

I really hope I could do it. I have prepared mental list of what to do on Sunday. Upon waking up, I will take care of the house first. Do all the chores; clean, laundry, vacuum and mopped with Zairil's help of course =) Then we had our meals. Later, played with Zairil just to kill the time.

The clock start ticking really fast when it strike 7 pm. I bathed si kecil, put on best cloth on him, then it's time for me to get ready. The clock keep ticking away, and now it is about 8 pm. I made Zairil's milk and let him drink it while I packed all his stuff to the car.

Another trick the car played on me. hp told me on how to use the child lock at the back seat, but I didn't really listen to him thinking, he can do it again next time. So here i am, trying to turn the lock button. But when i tried to shut the door, the door wont close. Arghhh!!! what did i do wrong this time? In my mind, I was thinking of calling hp saying that I couldn't pick him up. Then, I took a very deep breath, thinking what if I pull the door's handle before I shut the door, it might work. So it did, thank god.

Later, I ran upstairs and perform Isyak prayer, then we made our move. For ten minutes, Zairil did well in his car seat, the rest of the journey, not so much. So i distracted him by offering baby bites and air ribena, and that kept him busy at the back.

Umm, i thought the journey will be smooth till LCCT, but we did face a lil bit of heart pounding moment where this huge trailer lorry shifted to my lane in a sudden and at the right lane there's this speeding car honking along the way. Thank god i sped and pass the lorry. Only god know how hard my heart was beating and my knees are shaking.

Then, alhamdulillah smooth journey ahead and when we reached LCCT, hp's plane had landed. So we have to wait for a while for hp. Thank you Zairil for being such a darling at the airport.

Afterward we had McD at KLIA just because i think their strawberry shake is the best. But we didn't stay long as it is almost midnight and by the look of hp's face, i can tell how tired he was. But he drove us home anyway because i don't think i want to drive after such experience.

Anyway, this entry just to let my thoughts out, out from where ever it came from. It is such a long post for something not so extraordinary ( to me it is ). Now he's here, so don't you ever run away from me again young lady?! - quote from Monster Inc.

Expecting =)

2011-10-29T00:45:00.001+08:00

i have been meaning to write sooner about this little lil one in my tummy. but i guess, time waits for no one. i always find it difficult for me to sit down and type something. i rather spend my time on game and more game before si kecil pull my hand and demand to play with him. but now, i think it's time for me to write about our little lil one, or i shall call him/her lilo for now =)

it begin with, hmm... let see. for the 1st month, i missed my period. but hp discard it as it's my hormones imbalance and because i am sick at that time. (my period will skip if i had a bad cold or sick) so this month it skip, the next month it will come. so i took hp's words because at that time i don't feel nauseous or any symptoms of pregnancy. then i waited for the next cycle to come...

later came next month. again, no sign of the cycle cycling around. hp still didn't take my words, saying that we're possibly are pregnant. he still insisted to wait for the next cycle to come. I'm like, ok I'll wait. but one day, while we went for grocery shopping, i sneak off to a drug store and buy the stick.

after we reached home, i couldn't wait to get tested, but before that i told hp that i bought the test kit, and i want to use it now. hp just nodded, and said nothing more. so with trembling hands (i don't know why i am so nervous), i did the test,waited for the stick to be absorbed, and i could see two lines are formed. i'm speechless and scared at the same time. cried is a must and hp couldn't believe what he's hearing, that we are expecting!!!

we set up an appoinment with dr. fazlina and she still remembered us. she said that it's a good planning to have a 2nd child now, asked the LMP, and did the scan. but she said that the baby was small from the given LMP date. so she said i probably mistaken the LMP date and wrote down the date according to the lilo's size and wrote two EDD. i am all worried at that time, thinking that probably it's because i'm fasting and didn't eat proper food (we went for the checkup during fasting month) but she said 'baby x puasa, so it's ok for mummy puasa, xde pape, teruskan berpuasa'

we were given folic acid but didn't get the pink/red card yet. i guess our pregnancy didn't reach three months yet at the time and was set up with the next appoinment.

our other check up went smooth, lilo is progressing well in my tummy, in spite being roll over and jumped and bumped by abglong. takut jugak sebenarnya, tp x sakit sgt so i just avoid zairil went he wanted to jump on my tummy.

so this is the introduction of our lilo. i prayed that everything will be fine and i do hope our pregnancy goes well all the way. thank you Allah for this blessing, for giving us one more miracle of love =)

Break Down

2011-10-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

it was such a lovely evening today, so i decided to throw out the piling garbage and move the car from parking under the tree. later on, i said 'why not we take the car for a spin?' so we did, both of us; zairil and i went round the carrefour and then turn to the playground.

by then, i saw black clouds coming towards us. it was so dark, but i said 'alang2 dh smpi cni, mehla kita main jap' so zairil pun main2 slide, lari2 sket, climb da stairs, then it started to rain. more like a shower. so i jst let him have some more slides.

out of a sudden, it rained heavily that we have to rush to the car. at a glimpse, i saw double rainbows at da horizon, i don't know why, but it gave me a shiver. the rain became heavier.

zairil protest at the back of the car, still wanting to play at the park. i tried to comfort him, but he kept on crying. so i let him be. i insert the car key and tried to reignite the engine. nothing happened. i tried to change the gear, nothing happened.. i started to:

panic
freak out
cried hysterically
scream
take a deep breath and cried some more
thinking that this is some kind of a bad dream and tried to wake up from it (stupid thinking, great ain!!!)

i did all the above. at the same time, i checked the phone and the battery was dead, great!!! thank god there's a charger inside the car. i waited for the phone to charge, then i don't know whom to call. hp is thousand miles away, and zairil kept crying and crying ='(

the solution i could think of is:

left the car at the park
call a mechanic (but i don't have any number, it's always been hp who dealt with them)
asked for someone to help
walk home in the heavy rain with si kecil (since i don't have any money with me to take a cab)
pray to Allah, please please please help me ya Allah

later, i switched da phone, tried to call hp but to no avail. i sms him and told him our situation hoping that he could help from far. then i cried some more ='( at dat moment, i felt so angry at myself and regretted, why am i in dis situation? kan bagus duduk diam2 dkt rumah je, xdela pape terjadi. but instead, i went out. good job ain!

zairil is still crying out of frustration, and i cried with him. gosh, i am shakey all over and i have a baby to calm. i gave him a tight hug, and he stop crying for a while, but later vomited over me. as long as he stop crying, muntah pun muntahlah.

suddenly, my phone rang, and thank god, hp called. i cried while talking, then hp calmed me, asked me what happened. so i told him, there's this emergency light coming out which i didn't switch it on, then the gear won't budge, and i couldn't start the car.

the 1st problem is, it is concerning the alarm. so hp told me the step to switch off the alarm (a bit complicated step,so i won't elaborate, only will remembered it by heart) i did exactly what hp told me to do and now the emergency lights are off. and the engine can be reignite. later, the gear wont budge a bit. so hp told me to move the car back and forth so the gear can be at the right place. i did that, in spite of the car is so heavy and i felt powerless against it.

alhamdulillah, the gear is in place and the engine is running. and zairil is now calmed. no words can describe how grateful i am to Allah, sending me help even from far. thank you Allah, You've always been there for me when i need You the most. and thank you hunny for your hunch (came back to the hotel to check on the phone and saw my distress message)

overall, it did gave me a shock and i am traumatized from this experience. i know that this may be nothing to many of you, but to me it is such an ordeal. first, i seldom drive the car, so i don't know much about the car. later, i never face this kind of situation in my life, (i never face car break down on my own before) yes it became a shock to me. next, hp is away from me, so i don't know what to do, as i rely on him 1000%. then i have a toddler with me which make it impossible to calm him and work out the problem at the same time. finally, pregnant woman can't think straight! well, this is my own excuse, so yes not all pregnant woman can't think straight right? scrap that, i can't think straight when i am in trouble, so that my final excuse =)

what an evening, despite of what had happened, i will still drive the car and try to master it. hopefully the car will be at his best behaviour when i'm the one whose driving it. so escape, be nice to me all the time ok?

Happy Birthday To Me =)

2011-10-12T22:35:00.001+08:00

me with the cake =D

Pichas

2011-10-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

saya suka makan roti dgn air milo

sambil vacuum, sambil menyiasat apa sebenarnya yg berlaku =)

mari membaca pula

sesi mencuba selipar, harap2 muat =)

saya suka main bola, hari2 saya main bola

@ 1 Year & 8 Months

2011-10-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

dah pandai minum straw! lambatkn zairil terer minum straw. dari bulan lps lg dah boleh minum pki straw, sekarang dah expert, xdela tersedak2.
suka cbeebies, smpi boleh tergelak2 tgk. x paham apa yg kelaka sgt, tp kelaka sgt tgk zairil ketawa.
suka main jengga, tp suka taburkan sahaja. lps tu baling2, gigit2.
suka cokolat. suka air ribena.
suka main dkt playground. suka tgk dia main slides.
one thg about him, if he didn't get what he wants, he will show his frustration right there. but when he gets it, only for a lil while, he will walk away with a smile on his face.
semua benda nak buat sendiri, especially time makan. bukan semua pun masuk dlm mulut, byk tertumpah. satu hal nk kemaskan balik.
suka datang lps lari2 lps tu hug kaki hp or mine. rasa sgt priceless. comelnya.
suka sgt sblm buat sesuatu utk zairil, suruh dia sayang muah, zairil akan sayang muah dgn bunyi muahhh. comel jer...

dah besarkan si kecil comel ni. you are soon to be abglong sayang. still ibu sayang zairil ok hunny =)

Happy 1 Year & 8 Months

2011-10-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

~ Happy 1 Year & 8 Months Hunny Bunch ~

~~ Happy 2 Years & 4 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

2011-09-20T22:15:00.001+08:00

hello, hello... nak cakap dgn ayah boleh?

jomla pegi tgk cbeebies ibu!

main skooter mcm ni yea =)

zairil main kereta mcm ni, suka sgt susun2 kereta

mari check out buku pulak

@ 1 Year & 7 Months

2011-09-15T16:48:00.001+08:00

on vocab - kick for kick ofcoz, car for car, bard for bird, cat for cat, sssttt for kasut, sese for susu, but yg paling clear dan berulang-ulang kali sebut dgn comelnya adalah ayah ayah ayah. comel jer sebut ayah. still many gibberish words are coming out, susah nak paham apa yg dia nak kekadang. tp thankfully he will point or tarik tgn kita to wat he wanted, so kebarangkalian utk tantrum adalah kurang.
susahnya nak duduk dkt car seat these days. he likes to push all da buttons, siap nk tolong tarikkan gear lg. dahla gear dkt stereng, lagila senang budak kecik ni nak tarik. evrytime zairil buat perangai, kitorg ckp, klu mcm ni kena duduk belakang. automatic behave.
suka main dgn all da plugs and switch. tetiba pc ter-off, tv tertutup, kipas pun off. ni nak jimatkan elektrik ke sayang? tp jgnla time ibu dgn ayah ngadap pc, zairil off kan. nanti kena time-out duduk dlm baby-cott baru tawu.
still kena time-out bila x behave. letak dlm baby-cott, lps tu baru ok sikit.
faham bila suruh tutup pintu, suruh pegang, salam, baca doa and da usual sutff like arms-up, muka comel, muah, pum-pum, abis dah. simple instruction dat babies can understand la kan.

i wonder how it will be like when adik is around, how's zairil gonna be with his adik. but i'm sure he'll be one good brother for sure kan sayang =)

~ Happy 1 Year & 7 Months ~

2011-09-06T16:41:00.003+08:00

~ Happy 1 Year & 7 Months Hunny Bunch ~

~~ Happy 2 Years & 3 Months For Us ~~

What Do You Do To Mend A Broken Heart?

Sungguh Comel

Pichas

@ 1 Year & 11 Months

~~ Happy 1 Year & 11 Months ~~

Pichas

The Other Language

@ 1 Year & 10 Months

~~ Happy 1 Year & 10 Months ~~

Pichas

@ 1 Year & 9 Months

Addicted

Thirst

~~ Happy 1 Year & 9 Months ~~

Buku Si Kecil

The Checkups

Together Again =)

Expecting =)

Break Down

Happy Birthday To Me =)

Pichas

@ 1 Year & 8 Months

~~ Happy 1 Year & 8 Months ~~

Pichas

@ 1 Year & 7 Months

~ Happy 1 Year & 7 Months ~

Happy 1 Year & 11 Months

Happy 1 Year & 10 Months

Happy 1 Year & 9 Months

Happy 1 Year & 8 Months