what is about love?

爱·

2014-02-08T15:48:00.002+08:00

今日语录：

至：

从开始写部落格到现在，这里记载多数是自己“悲惨”的回忆。

开心是有的，不过我只能把不开心的事情以文字发泄出来。

今天有感而发：就算我没有情人不要紧，我有朋友。
就算没朋友陪我也可以自己做自己喜欢的事。

只有一个我不行，也不想去面对。
就算爸爸不爱我，我还有妈妈。
妈妈是世界上不会遗弃我和兄弟姐妹。

有一首情歌，我喜欢他的情感。但是是英文，妈妈不会。
但我想把它献给您。

YOU ALWAYS BE MY BABY~ BY DAVID COOK.

从小，妈妈就把我们当宝。有什么事情都会替我们着想
等到我们长大了想要飞了
她还是相信我们的爱是不会变的。

对我来说，爱情是变幻无穷，不可靠的。
妈妈的爱是永远不会变的！

妈妈我爱您！

送旧迎新

2013-12-25T17:58:00.000+08:00

25 December 2013

Dear Christmas,

I make a wish...
Last 2 years there is someone ever special in my life spent the festive with me.
This year he is having a new 'present' from Santa Clause. He was saying this is his last one. * Please let this come true*

Finally I found my life is more fruitful after I left the 'dream' since he request. Even though sometime loneliness might appear, I handle it with focus on some activities I like. Well, that much more meaningful than keep recall the past.

The past were lessons and experiences I got to get rid of.
The past were the moment we cannot get back.
The past were the processes of growth.

Its time to RING OUT THE OLD YEAR AND RING IN THE NEW YEAR~~!!

Bye bye my past~~

Grave of love

2013-12-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

15 Dec 2013, Sunday

... I tried to control my emotional after I get to know you are really into a new relationship... ( bit sad but know you were happy with her, everything is doesn't matter anymore)

Before this, I thought I am already settle down my feeling towards you. Matter fact, I was so damn wrong!! I'm so pissed why I feel upset and tears down when I knew it!

Maybe the reason is you were giving a lame excuse for the broke up.. I dont blame you.. just I hope you be more brave when facing this kind of matter... I was telling you once we broke, we never be friend anymore... I meant it, because its not necessary you keep me as a "friend", why so weirdo... I want be cool la wei hahaa

I was thinking, can I delete you from FB? aiyoo sound childish hoooo :P (my mind telling me, leave it la. Let him sometime miss you also not bad. hehe) I'm thinking too much.

My baby ever asked me: "will you back to him if he wanted?"
My answer will never be YES, even I ever think about it...
This is because I believe once he got the courage to say break up, there will be next time.

Sayonara~~

When the one start a new relationship mean they already left the EX behind. Well, human being always chase after things come better with them. But what I hate is sometime people like to "share" about their 'previous' story. Hope this time you know what I felt last time and avoid to do so.

Sincerely hope all the best for you!
There will be no another Katherine Teoh who treat you like shit in your life anymore.
Really GOD blessed you lo :P
Hopefully your new angel always standby you, lead you to the brighter future. ^^

I have a plan... Get a place and bury all the memory! (Any suggestions?? Hmmm, google search ! (n.n)

Really thank you for those friends who concerned about me.
When u know me, U know I will emo sometimes. After that I'm gone crazy and did something surprising~!

As my believe again, I BELIEVE THERE IS SOMEONE WAITING ME AT SOMEWHERE! ^^

缘尽缘灭

2013-05-16T15:06:00.000+08:00

11 May 2013. This is sad to write this article here as the previous article was talking about how sweet of our anniversary trip and now this is to story about the end of our love...

Me, myself had been struggled for few months because of the happens that make me realize there is many things u treat me so different. That were not about how good or bad u treat me but I feel your heart is getting away.

As the moment u told me that u are going to give up the relationship, seriously I cant take it because it sounds a lame excuse. My heart was broken and the time u keep avoid to communicate with me to this matter. U began impatient, avoid and totally unclear when respond to me.

I was clueless...Maybe during the period I was too emotional.. but what's wrong for a woman to chase for love? U weren't giving the correct answer and u was hiding something from me too.

I was lonely... When my heart broke into pieces, the one who always standby me is not you anymore.. but its the time and space..

I was nervous... The moments u ignore me more the more insecure I get.

I was depress... This is the worst situation I ever face in my life! I cried everyday when u ask me stay at your home but u insisted that we sleep separate room that u wanted to focus on your work. I understood but this is not u anymore... last time no matter how busy u are u like to grab me into your arm embrace together into dream. One thing U show me u're hiding something is U get mad when I try to help u see the map (WAZE) while u're driving.. ( Did u remember this/?) I guess u was not remember at all...

I am really depressed!! I cried because I know I'm losing u gradually... I become mad, hatred, and even negative as u said! When the woman u love is crying, u wont come to comfy but u blaming her... I am on the edge of depression... I was wake up with the anxious mind, losing my positive energy, affected unhealthy conditions... BUT WHO CARE?

Till I found out that's a MIRACLE appear in my life... I was doubted whether should I tell you the truth or not? What's the reason u take the responsibility?? What u had respond to me cause the truth been swollen back into my throat... I was really clueless... Are u still loving me or not... Till I saw the evidence.. Everything is end...

Even the promise that u gave me is ruined! Suddenly I feel my life is meaningless due to my jobless, our failed communication, our lost, my giving towards our love... everything became a nightmare...

I cant either feel you or myself... I'm getting weak while I got to know the happened... I cant feel my heartbeat and its heartbeat... The bleed was hell seriously flood over my consciousness... I know it getting worst of my condition.. I cant even protect myself...

I don't know how many time had called and shout on u.. Im going crazy and even you too !

I shout to GOD, am I deserved all the thing ?? I got nobody can help me... HOPELESS!

Once the despair attack me again and again... the worst thing happen...

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10 May 2013-- Everything start mess..

I purposely come back here again to collect all my stuff and ready to move on my life...

What make you to feel reluctant to me when I start packing my stuff??

The last sweet moment u gave me is you try to grab me and embrace me hardly. I almost let myself lost again . I can feel tonight u're so care bout me. But ur attitude still the same.. U don like to express what you really think of...

From the days I know u, U were the person who is kind, need to be care, need to be understand. All the sweet moments and love u gave me will become memory soon. I told myself handle thing smoothly... but end up we're like enemy,..

Your ignorance really killing me. I feel like I'd been abandoned. But when U try to be good to me, I doubted. I cant differentiate the mess. I don't know what you want. I got my answer to be steady and to solve all things peafully...

BUT!!! My heart melted when you trying to pulled me back.. I don know whether I feel wrong or not. U miss me, but u never want to mention now.

Again, all the negative thinking come to remind me whats wrong wit h us.

I cant take the pain and sorrow anymore... I lost myself...

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Few days past...

I still miss you. I told myself to let u go for what u want to chase for..

U deserved better. I told u again. Just don let yourself to mess into some unfair relationship.

I understand if I were the right one U love, U will never sacrificed me, U will never ignore me again and again.

This our destiny, U start care of other, I m become nobody for u. I controlled myself not to interrupt your life. That was hard, I believe time will heal me. What I lost also what u lost.. U also being upset when I was being mad and accused you.

One thing, don ever ask me to not think too much while the thing happen to me that u don care. Everyone told me to stay strong included u. When I need your care is not possible to happen anymore. The only thing I can share with u is just that one. Nobody can...

I was reading the SKYPE conversation history... U may lucky to not think of that coz ur pc was lost...

I love the way when we beginning. its all about caring and understand... Till we stay together, we just know the reality happen need to be communicate always.

My failure to the be one who can accompany u the rest of life.

I am sorry for everything.

The end of our love.

Brand new journey for our anniversary

2013-01-18T12:19:00.002+08:00

I'd like thanks to my dear for this planned so long trip. We bought free & easy package at MATTA Fair, but there is unpleasantly happen between us & the travel agency. So for the next trip, we decide to book hotel by our own.

10 Jan 2013 we wake up on the very early 3am to get ourselves prepare before heading off to LCCT for our flight to Phuket. There is only 3 bags for hand carry because we believe it must some extra stuff we bring back from Phuket. I'd like thanks to my dear for this planned so long trip.

self capture while waiting my soh zai buy the McD breakfast, sleepy face~~

Blur blur soh zai hehehe

When we arrived Phuket airport, the local tour guide Mr Sakie was waiting us at the entrance. He start introduce himself & gave us his 'sexy' name card with half naked photo, LOL. He was kind of friendly & telling us our half day tour will begin with shopping in Phuket town.

Our first station was the small T-shirt factory. When we step into the shop, there is one staff perhaps the shop owner asked for our attention for a little while introduction. He explained that we could not get a good quality T-shirt by 150 baht at Patong beach after all. We found there are many design of the T-shirt with the kinky sentence & logo such as :" Good man go to heaven, bad guy go to Patong". We decided to buy some of them for our collection. ^^ (* We found the quality of T-shirt at Patong beach area was totally different with this shop & price are more higher unless u bargain with them).

Next station will be Cashew Nut factory. We did not buy the cashew because the price is much more higher than what we can get in Malaysia.

3rd station is the bee farm. We met a Malaysian Mr who declared he spent almost 40 years in this industry. He invited us into a meeting room & start story about the benefit of honey & pollen. Both of us feel so bored because the end of his purpose is to persuade us buy the product. We refused because we also can get good quality of honey in Malaysia. We can see the respond of the old man after we reject his approached :p Thats fair enough because consumer got the right to not buy something they don't need.

Last station of the half tour is the temple. In Thailand, temple is 'Wat' There are many foreign tourist came here for worship as well.

Wat in Phuket

After we reached to the APK Resort & Spa, Mr Sakie bring along us to the reception table for check in. There was a small conflict due to what I research of the hotel. What I see is some difference from the photo that posted in the hotel. The APK hotel got some buildings & the block that we check in is what we actually request for. U may find the attracted spot in the hotel was the roof top swimming pool.^^

Our hotel location was good enough from those attraction such as Jung Ceylon shopping mall, daily night market & fresh market, bar street & 15 minutes walking distance to Patong beach!!

After we settle down our luggage to the room, we walk to the Jung Ceylon to hunt for our lunch. My dear was looking forward try the Mcd Pork burger in Thailand. So we decided our 1st meal in Phuket at McD.

See how much we eat at McDonald ^^

After onward, we get ourselves sightseeing at the shopping mall. The shopping can be said as one of the attraction for tourists. We can see some of them are half naked and walk around the mall. Perhaps they went to beach side & try to cool down the heat of their body:P. Instead, both of us enjoy "wash eyes" while hanging around, hehehe~~

Eye-catching -- Pinky Lucky Star

Kawaii~~

30 years accumulated wires at Patong. Kind of massive & dangerous~

Snack time ^^

The night in Patong, damn crowded~

Please don't only drink beer during your Phuket Trip even though the alcohol drinks is much more cheaper than H20 :D

11 Jan 2013-- Our day begin with a very excited feeling. We get ourselves ready for the Patong Beach & city tour! After breakfast, we rent the motor from hotel for 300 baht per day.

Buffet breakfast in hotel

Vroom~ vroom~ vroom~

The sea & sky are blue, Love them!!

During sun bath at Karon beach~

Cooling down after hot sun~!

Excited till eat metal LOL

Our blue ocean cocktail after sky pool~~ :)

Time to grab dinner!! 3 for 100 baht (Chicken, beef & pork)

Satisfaction~!!

We enjoyed the day so so so much. After dinner, both of us fall sleep of the tiredness... Ouhh, din go enjoyed our last night in Phuket...

12 Jan 2013-- Huhu, we got diarrhea in the early morning. Maybe of the salty sea water... Somehow, today is the last day for our vacation. After breakfast we went back to room & pack our luggage with unwilling mood :(. Lets talk about the hotel service... We were looking for the person in charge who assist us in the motor rental. But she was not there & the staff told us to be return on around 10am. When the time is almost there, we went down again & yet the staff was not there. We look for the other staff and he tell us that the table was closing by today... WTH~~ the previous staff was suck la.. Anyhow, we manage to get the passport back which put for the guaranty of motor return.

Finally, time to say goodbye to Phuket. Our driver reached the hotel on time. We also manage arrived to Phuket airport before an hour departure.

Our brown skin after got sun bath *.*

The most least I like during this trip is the local people always raise the price to tourist. Somehow we also got the way to spend wisely ^^. We're looking forward for next time to Phuket again!!

War= No mercy

2012-11-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

Perfect moment

2012-10-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

I've been finding the meaning of true love, true relationship, true partner for a long time.
I never stop to learn these in my life.

I had conflict with my family because I choose to seek job in KL. My dearest mom, she called me almost everyday to make sure that I get job. Even though I was in Penang, she repeatedly asked:" what ya had done today? Already call to make interview appointment?"

Before I get my current job position, I facing the frustration. Finally, I 'ran away' from home~~
One of the reason I make the choice is because of you... My dearest Anthony.
'U gave me strength to decide my thinking'
'U gave me encouragement while I lost my direction'
' U help me analysis what I had confused'
' U make me smile when I'm unpleasant'
U make me laugh always~~

We met each other.
We fall in love.
We hold hand.
We hug.
We made up.
We argue.
We slapstick (oftenly)
We hit each other butt.
We battle.
We solve problem.
We drunk.
We tickle each other.
We tease each other.

There are many things we had experienced together.
In the future, we will experience more.

The day when we both go meet my mum was the day I felt the blissful ever...
My tear drops because you finally declare that you will take care of me to my mom...
I really cant control the tear that drop happily... Mom was asking y I cry, I lagi cry LOL
I love u mom, no matter I'm still your daughter... Thanks for everything.

Till now, I still got a question inside my deep part of my heart.
I couldn't ask. What I can do is explore more between us.
Since we have the commitment, I believe we can make ppl surrounding us proud with us & share our happiness.

Because of you, I learnt to be loved & giving... Seriously u are the elf who be with me & my guardian, light up the road when I meet the dark... Thanks so much my dearest~~

Robber case !!!

2012-08-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

First of all, I would like to remind all of you whoever read my latest please be alert of the housing safety. There was robbery happen 2 days b4 Hari Raya in Seri Kembangan, LEP area.

The case happen during dinner time at my boyfriend house. There were 4 Chinese guys with mask and glove holding their 'PARANG' invade into the house. These action was totally destroyed the peaceful of the housing area. They order all his family members to stay at the dining room. One man was looking at the downstairs and the rest of 3 going up to the room and grabs their properties!! (Unfortunately, mine property also included~~~)

While the incident happen, the was a witness calling police for assistance. That was really upset to said that:" IGP had upset us & make us hopeless about the crime!!!" All those BULLSHIT --POLICE WILL REACH WITHIN 5 MINS-- were just HIJK (he is just kidding)... The policemen came after 45 mins while the witness already make the tele-report~~ And the policemen had shown the KOPI signs to make the police report~~~~!!! FCK~~ Another BULLSHIT happen is the MAJESTIC-- IO (Investigation Officer) make the victims waits for 5 HOURS!!! They came to his house with 4 person and just do their duty which take time not even 5 mins!!!! HOW SARCASTIC IT IS ???!!!

What I going to speak out is we were still lucky there is nobody get hurt in this crime. We all lose our properties, nevermind. But~~ We're totally lose the confident of what the HIGHEST IGP had announced the empty policy to people...

For the priority of IGP, I'm here willing to know is it u think this is small case or ur downline thought so?? I know major of u think that there were many cases haven't settle, but why not u take the REAL FAST action or even come out best and effective ways to solve the present crimes? If the police enforces (the routine teams) reach the place within 5 mins, I believe they will caught the 4 motherfuckers robbers) but end up what????

Seriously, we're lucky to not get hurt. Otherwise, I become ghost also wont let the robbers and the non-effective officer to live well (translate from one of the Chinese phrase) Please la, if u really wan make it efficient, please ask your ppl rajin jugak tau??

By the way, robbery crime wasn't that easy to prevent. I really wish & pray to God & Goddess to prevent all these human disaster will be reduce, reduce & disappear!!! I curse those MF robbers get diarrhea all day long LMFAO~~~ other than that I got nothing do with them coz they already runaway~~~

All of my fren, please be aware and close your house door all the time. Be alert ya. Please share it out to your fren especially to those stay in this area... Ang gong popi popi~~

Journey Of One

2012-07-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

2 -5 July 2012-- This is the day that I had planned for so long to travel but almost cancelled because of some matter.
Flight time: 0710
ETA: 0910

Thanks to my lovely brother send me to the airport in the early morning.

This is not the first time I took flight alone but I go to Kuching with the first time. :)

The first sight of Kuching was amazed me with its natural geography.

Humm, kind of lazy to tell a three days story here. :P

A short story-- I'd been welcomed by the good day and my lovely fren who came from Sibu. He has became my tour guide during this 4 days :). Give him 100 marks, hehe... In these days, I think I'd already visit the Kuching city centre. Next time I will probably planned for the natural part.

I had taste the famous food-- Sarawak Kolok Mee, Belacan Mihun, Kuey Chap, Laksa, SugarBun Burger... emmm yum yum ~~

My accommodation is located at the city centre as well, walking distance to waterfront, China street, India Street, Muzium etc.

The tribes culture had attracted me seriously, especially the tattoo. Fuyoo~~

This time I not really got the chance meet with the orang asli, maybe I do not able to recognize :P. Hopefully next time I can get to know more about it.

After this trip, I know I have to go back to the reality, keep going on my job searching, facing mom's thousand same question- "when did u get a job yet? Why not here and get any kind la??

A journey of one (actually not really one) make me realize that travel is another meaning for people to feel life.

“No one realizes how beautiful it is to travel until he comes home and rests his head on his old, familiar pillow.” – Lin Yutang
Even though u read a tour book, still, u will not know how is the place really look like. U gotta feel it, taste it, touch it and sense it by your own.

FEEL the weather, local culture
TASTE the food, they are really special.
TOUCH the road with your barefoot. Walk it out.
SENSE the day and night, find it different with your city.

Never give up to discover the mystery of life.
Do not complaint when u have something that other doesn't has or vice versa.
“One’s destination is never a place, but a new way of seeing things.” –Henry Miller
Never scare of getting lost but U find the path to reach your way back home.

After Uni life~~

2012-05-29T04:35:00.002+08:00

Finally, my study life completed on 24 May 2012! This mean I'm going to step into a new life which is working life.

After the Redang trip with four of us (me, Theresa, JH Wong and Shevonne), I had move all my stuff from the peaceful place- Kampar. My mind still can't left out of the memories that we had spent on 3 days 2 nights even though there was long journey which make my back pain. That's really make me reluctant and wanted to travel back to there for sure.

Things that make me nostalgia:

~snorkeling and view the marine life (even though I don't know how to swim, but with the life jacket and encouragement by sweetie Shevonne, I gave myself a 1st step for try ^^)

~the wave (me and Theresa felt the wave even we're landed LOL)

~the starry night (the sky is full of twinkle!! LOVE IT!!)

~VODKA that we took 2 nights to finish, hahahaha

-1st night, we play UNO and the loser drink

-2nd night, we play card games and also loser drink lol

1st day at Shah bandar jetty, Kuala Terengganu 13May 2012

~there was no MILO in Redang Bay Resort, so please bring for your own :) otherwise u need to drink it for RM3

~do speak Chinese to the some people who look like Malay or Indian but actually they're not~~ :P just kidding, u will know what I mean-- those friendly staff who take care of customers really doing their job ^^ give a hand to them :)

~ there is one funny thing that we found-- there were also 4 guys went for the trip, their action already showed that they are photo-shooting hardcore as they take photo from the beginning day till the day they left :) we should learn from them, take good pictures and we can show to our next generation :P

Isn't she look 70% like Gigi Leung?

~u can imaging we eat thorough-out the journey... the resort provided us full meal package and we eat, snorkeling, tea, eat, sleep, wake up, eat... (n_n)

The 3rd day- leaving day

See, how come I will not miss there le??

Now, its the 2nd week that I back to Penang. The reality is I have to start looking job. No job, no money, no travel!!! OMG~~

Next trip ~ Sarawak~ :D

感觉爱

2012-04-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

是多情还是多心？

是冲动还是理智？

是浪漫还是实际？

是诚恳还是虚伪？

是真实还是假象？

是认识还是诱惑？

是寂寞还是借口？

是空虚还是充实？

是操控还是关心？

是等待还是拖延？

是大愚还是大爱？

是冒险还是娱乐？

是未来还是梦想？

是开始还是结束？

是喜欢还是爱？

The Hidden Sentimental

2012-04-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

It is very hard to describe Love between friendship... Is it? I doubt... Once there is changes between friend and friend, normally people tend to avoid this happen... Sentimental is part of the feeling when u experience the sadness alone

Once upon a time, there were five teens.. 2 teens... 3 teens... 2 teens.. one or more...

We make the laughter when we make joke.
We share whatever the happen surround us.
We drink the same drink when we are close.
We sleep, we hug, we kiss, we tease each other...

Friend make joke that u don't like, coz they know u won't angry them long.
Friend show u shit face when they not in the good mood, coz u're the only one they can do so.
Friend keep mumbling on u when u stick on bad habit, coz they care of u.
Friend rely on u sometime coz u're the person they trust.
In the front of friend, u can just being natural like making fun like clown, laugh like psycho, cry like baby, mad like witches...

No matter what happen, they still standby u... Even a single word that care about u or an action u can feel the sincerely..
Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

Everything change if u din say out the problem that u felt~~ Thing go worst~~
Misunderstanding happen when U act improper, people judge.
When u act too impulse without considering other's feeling, people hates.
Don't live in your own world, talk to friends and share your thinking.
Maybe both have different point of view, but its not a big deal.
All actually depend on how people communicate, how people persuade themselves, how people set their mind.
We couldn't force people to think what we think, feel what we feel & act what we act...

Human are the most complicated creature in the world!!

p/s: especially for all of u... things will become alright~~ No worry, be happy ^o^

Current life~~

2012-03-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

My name is Katherine which origin from Greek with the meaning of 'Pure Maiden'. I gave this name by myself when I was young.

I founded that the more day I grew up, the more chance of trouble I had to faced.

Life is not that pure once we had to handle our giant demand.

Too much wants will cause extra frustration in our life.

Just like the Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.

Once fulfill the basic needs, people will tend to ask for more and thus work hard for the higher needs.

The more we demand the more effort we have to do.

In my opinion, these all depend on the person's perception toward life.

The society background, family background, working environment could be the critical reasons for people take action for something they want.

Why am I talking craps here? Thats all everybody know but not everybody can work out without greater motivation or even desires.

Like what people always said: I want slim down my body, and everyone does delayed at the after day.' LOL

This is somehow very common in our life.

~Labours do work everyday, their duties seems never end.

~Mothers do feed children, their duties are more than responsibilities.

~Pupils does study for the sake of getting excellent careers offer on future...

What am I doing in life now?? Study, sit for exam, get a degree certificate for my future career's qualification. Other than that, eat, sleep, play... One more thing that challenging my spirit is the 'SPIRIT OF GIVING' campaign.

This is my first ever campaign that we all 33 members in a group and wanna work it out for the good sake of environment.

First time feel like become 'cheap labour' by doing heavy work such as lifting the 'very solid' pack of red soil around, lifting don know how many 'extra heavy' canteen table...

Don't really enjoy this part but more likely on the mud ball making part, haha!

By the way, after being 'kuli' I ate more to produce the energy...

In the end, GAIN WEIGHT !!! (Goshhh~~)

The only thing that motivated me now is the coming BIG DAY on 31 March, Saturday which located at Kampar Hawker Center lakeside...I believe we all wanted it be credibly successful!

Other than that, this is my last semester in UTAR, Kampar. It will be the most memorable moments in my life!!

Our in campus pic~~ huhu ~~ (Spirit of Giving 14 March 2012)

p/s: My name not pure anymore but being painted with colourful matters :)

Smile with lovessss

2012-02-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

I'm just an ordinary lady who loves to see my loves one smile with happiness.
When we first meet, I smile to show I'm friendly.
When the second meet, I smile coz I feel happy to see u again.
When the third meet, I smile coz I know I'm going to see u soon.

We were in love so fast, but it doesn't bothered our feeling to each other.
And now, I smile because u make me smile.
I feel happy when u feel happy.
I feel reluctant when u feel emotional.
I try my best to protect u as my king.
I finish my assignment earlier so that I can spend more time with u.
I'm pleasant when I could get time to meet u on Skype, even that is just a few minutes.
I love to be your 'sha mei' and I knw u are not even my 'soh zai'.
U also my precious angel who light up my life.
I miss ur hug, ur warmer kiss and also the way u look at me..

I don knw why I behave so crazy... perhaps U're the reason make me do so :P

World become colourful when I know I'm in love with the one who really care of me, give me his love sincerely, wanted to protect me from dangerous...

Emo emo

2012-02-15T19:26:00.000+08:00

This recently, there are lots of stress attacked my emotional. I felt lucky because I got U to support me.

Things come a bit 'climax' when this morning we planning our vacation.

During our conversation, U suddenly tell me u angry of what I had spoken.

I start 'set the fire' flame up because I wonder what U mad of...

Everything seem floating from me, I 'attack' u back from the previous thing.

After the words were out, I realize those are over for u too...

I'm sorry really, both of us got stress. Mine is about study and urs even bigger than mine.

I shouldn't spoiled ur mood as well. I don't meant it.

But we both try to tolerance to each other.

What I faced is too much 'radiation' of the technology.

Yours is get heated by the natural heat- Sun.

This is our first time argument. That's a bit funny now when I jot it down and think back our conversation.

I called and feel u still feeling 'emo'. Well, its time to make the effort to cheer u up.

I said and I meant it, I meant it coz I care.

Love,

Katherine.

Perfect moment~~

2012-01-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

This is my perfect moment with you
when I cry, even u feel sad but u try to cheer me up.
Everyone did have some bad life experience in their past, u said to me: I Love Sha mei, not her past, we can learn from past time, and now I want to go on with u in the future.
(U know how sweet am I when I heard these words from u?)

When u asked me did I love u, and I told u 'NO'
NO... but impossible NO I said from my heart, hehehe~~

When I think negative, u asked me think positive or ever ask me look back the funny pic that we had took.
I hope now I can give u a big hug~~!! I miss u my dear~~
I feel better coz u are there to standby me~~
U're able to calm me down... I'm sorry that my 'fountain' sound so loud and make u worried.

I love to stay with u whenever, wherever we're together...
I love to feel ur arms with me... its make me feel secure
I love the way u act fool, but for me u're definitely LOVELY
I love the way u talk to me... I believe u will talk to me in this way compare with other.

The perfect moment is when u're beside me not only physically but also mentally.
U feel what I feel, U care what I care...
I'm really happy to have u now.
I will stay strong no matter how hard of our future.
As the chess game showed, QUEEN will always protect the KING :P

Lovely Sunny day at Bagan Lalang

2012-01-08T18:14:00.000+08:00

Wuhoo, I was excited for the event which Anthony san brought me to the beach- Bagan Lalang which nearby Sepang Gold Coast Resort.

8 Jan 2012, today is a hell good sunny day. Me and Anthony san woke up at 6:30am to prepare the food for picnic. We've tuna sandwich, mushroom pancake, potato salad, butter veges, bananas, cucumbers and also green tea. (Sound gonna have a very great picnic huh? hehe)

We arrived here around 10:25am. There were some people already set up their tent and camps at the beach. They are family, friends and couples sitting there enjoy their gathering moment. Oh man, that's what I want for the schoolmates gathering as well!! Everyone prepare some food and drinks, do some fun time BBQ as well...
Isn't it sound great?? Having those relax time, chit chatting with LONG TIME NO SEE FRIENDS, playing beach games and so on~~~

Next, we were walking around the beach sides even though there was a hot day but we did enjoyed the warm wind... Its not so hot but come along with a bit cool, because its still morning time...That's amazing too when you can the edd till sea-water tide. There also a lot of little tiny crab moving around the sea side!

Little Hermit Crab

Little tiny crab^^

The creation of crabs~~

Beach boy

Different angle of shooting

FOOD!!

12 noon, its food time!! We brought out the Tupperwares from bonet but realize we didn't bring along carpet la... Aiyoo, luckily there was a stall selling carpet especially for people who came to picnic... The carpet is around RM 7-RM 15. We fast fast set up those food and carpet and makan lo~~ That fellow keep saying pancake is nice (=.= coz he make the mushroom pancake). However, we enjoyed the sunlight, food, drink and the sea view so so so much !!

After finishing lunch, I just feel so so so relax along with the windy weather... Feel like going to lay down and sleep, :P Our Mr Anthony was so brave and playing sand under the hot sun! Gosh, he didn't apply sun block+.+

Keep chewing the pancake LOL

Peel off the banana skin 1st

then Bite it ~~ :P

enjoy the sea view with green tea

Eating la, hungry jo

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Around 3pm we move to the other side and the water game is begin~~!! I really so excited of the sea~~ wuhoo!! I LOVE BEACH~~ We did sand tunnel there, use pail to catch JELLY FISHES, use spoon to dig the sand and try to dig out the clam... We were playing in the sea about 3 hours, in the end I was the person who don't wanna come up haha... coz I get so less clam... Aigoo~~

Beach boy playing sand, ^^

Sun burn skin

Comment to Bagan Lalang Beach: Not so clean, coz many ppl leave their own 'property' and forget to put the accurate place.

BEACHING always is a good activity for people to spend their leisure time. U may spend a whole day time to kick off your pressure and thus gain some natural energy to overwhelm this.

For people: please mind your action that may increase the pollution, Don't FORGET to send the papers, plastic bag, waste to the dustbin. DO NOT throw them into sea~~ THANKS to YOURSELF that u did love the natural creation. May GOD bless u!

HOliday ah

2011-12-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

Aigoo~~~ what I can express now is 'aigoo'~~ again...

My wishlist be mess up after my new purse get stolen...
Bad luck 'fai fai' leave me away, don follow my back when the new year is coming ok?
Wish list have to delay after I lost all those bank cards, member cards ...
One card that make me unwilling to redo is my student card, even though I replace it, the 'nerd student' look still remain... Aigoo~~~

In the other hand while I'm complaining, I want to thank to my friend whoever trying to give me a hand.
Appreciate this.

There are still 2 weeks holiday for me to spend... What I plan to do are those hiking and riding activities...
I love beach, hope can get time then go to beach with frens... I meant it, who ever interesting on this pls do contact me then we make a plan to picnic on beach hehehe

HOLIDAY ah~~ Do something meaningful before the year is end~~

A letter for Xmas

2011-12-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

Dear Xmas,

How are you? Its been a year we didn't met each other. You're just near the corner, I cant wait and say Hi to u ~~ Ur coming makes me so excited to welcome the new coming year as well.

For people, its time to review what you had achieve during 2011, and what ya going to develop after these.
Now, its time to do clear list before the end of the year~~

List out those thing u wish to change within this month as the movie " New Year Eve'' character had done.
Its kind of thankful when there is someone help you to achieve your dream.

For my wish list as below:
1) Spend a happy holiday with friends and family.
2) Finish exam (check)
3) Lose some weight (check, even though just a few kg :P)
4) Bought myself a Xmas gift (check)
5) Hiking with friends (going to do this on Xmas ^^)
6) Meet my net friend, Cecilia (check)
7) Own a badminton racket (going to buy when back to Penang)
8) Ride out and travel a peaceful place, perhaps SP will do
9) Blood donate (check)
10) Ride bicycle around the island ~~
11) Plan for future career~~

Currently, I had met someone who is really meant special for me.
I have faith that I can live better with this happiness.
In this early stage, we need to build a strong base for the future.
I had tried long distance relationship before, but this time I make up my mind that don ever make the heart distance far away. Do u think so ? :P

Lastly, before the end of the year...
Hopefully I can pass the exam without the breaking down marks because of the bloody paper tips.
May God bless all of the student whoever take OC will 'dai bo lam koh'.
Otherwise the lecturer surely been cursed badly LOL
May GOD bless her too

Dear Xmas,
I wan to meet u full with meaning~~ Even though there is no snow in Malaysia, but I had saw it on Google: Let it snow... its beautiful, thanks Baby Q^^

美丽的恶魔

2011-12-06T12:44:00.001+08:00

纵然你有美丽的外表，但本身就是恶魔的化身，终究还是会被人拆穿的！
很多人就是喜欢看外表，一旦他们遭到美丽外表的欺骗，才懂什么叫做‘金玉其外，败絮其中’
就拿恐怖片来做个比例：
1）为什么恐怖片里的女主角往往都是美女？
Qs: 是不是她们的外表可以吸引观众？
A: 绝对是啦！

Qs: 既然他们可以演绎看恐怖的角色，那么现实中又是怎样的人呢？
A: 这可能不能相提并论吧！那只是演技，证明演员们都是靠他们的专业来取胜。

Qs: 为什么外表漂亮的演员可以演得那么真？
A: 可能人的内心总有一股不可小看的意志力，还有潜意识里不为人知的爆发力！

2)现实生活里，会不会有比演员更好演技的人出现？
A: 看新闻就有咯，骗子一大堆，尤其是骗财又骗色的混球！
A2: 还有facebook都有得看啦，到处都有人share骗子的profile与故事。

Qs：要如何才能避免这些人？
A：很抱歉，这是很难的解决方案。我只能说：“执生”叭啦～就连亲人都有可能背叛亲人的时候。
在这里奉劝几句吧！
河水不犯井水，我不犯人人不犯我，是假的！
有些人就是命中注定克着你。唯一求生的方法就是随机应变。
要么你大人不计小人过，怀着宽容的心，原谅别人。
要么你怀恨在心，找对时机回报他人，但这事儿弄惨的是自己！
冤冤相报何时了啊?

Its time to change

2011-11-21T10:39:00.001+08:00

As Obama said, its time to change what ya never change toward the good.
Feel some sorts of guilty to myself and fellow friends whoever care of my conditions.
Really feel thanks to y'all.
I also wanna change for my own good. Build a healthy image of myself.
As Mr Leong said, he hates girl who drink and smoke, hahaha.
But he should also change a bit lo. :P

Its time to change bad habit, reduce them and get improve of own self healthy life..
I do like clubbing coz i like the environment which pub provided the music and can have fun with frens.
Not only about drinks and hazard smoke... I like MUSIC... everyone does...
I just wan to enjoy music... No more hazard to my body~~

Cultivate myself to be more healthy girl. Should start planning the future for sport!
Something I had long time din really take part. I wan hiking, I wan cycling, I wan beaching~~

Not only these, friends told me I should aware of my bad habit such as I have no image.. +.+
What I can say is this is my nature... I will aware of them and remove bad one gradually..

Its time to change!!
Life is short, why don't we make it more meaningful?
Contribute to your family, contribute to your life~~

In friend's sight, they might think I'm crazy sometime, no IMAGE, din behave like a girl..
I admit sometime I don't care of what other think, because I thought too much restriction make myself so tired and inactive LOL.
Aigoo~~~ have to say such lame sentence again " this is Teoh Jia Ning" lo
Siao Cha bo lai hahaha
OK, right now, what I shud do is become more serious on everything especially my education.
This is my final year to fight for myself lo..
Should be more hard work geh~~

Fighting~~ Aza Aza !!!

Another stupid love

2011-11-15T14:27:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! Why women are always stuck with their emotional thinking when they meet the one they ever loved before?
Another case happen that she knows he is no longer belong to her, but still she did close with him. Sigh~~
But why that guy never stop her? Even she knows he has in a relationship now. From the day he came to her, she can feel that and even know from his behavior. He talks on phone with someone so sweet, sms non-stop, and even talk in the toilet while she was with him!
What a pity woman that doing stupid thing that she knows it shouldn't happen.
Yet, she act as normal but in her heart she felt heartbroken...
She never want to blame on the guy, just because she loves him. She just want to be nice with him. I am so empathy on what she did for him.
People might think this so-called stupid love, because of one party is giving. The guy should never come to her and left her alone again.
She will not make this over... He will just left and enjoy life with the other one... Is it worth?
He is just not into your heart but to fulfill his desperation.
Speechless~~ COW

this MV really reflect those people who are really blindness when they are in love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ0UyXsniz8

A peaceful day

2011-10-29T22:42:00.002+08:00

26 Oct 2011, Perak- the day is very hot with 34 Celsius. Omg, once getting from the indoor, already get sweat after one second !! I brought my new friend hanging around Kampar and these photos was taken by his camera. Thanks to him for the nice pictures ^^
Anyhow today i feel very peace coz finally can get out of the moody depression.

this one look slim haha

inside the car

heading to the Tempurung Cave

feel like inside a underworld

the lake at Tempurung Cave

Kelies Castle

This is what I can do for you

2011-10-27T14:09:00.000+08:00

I believe that this happen around in our life.
First we know someone, always contact each other, wish to meet he or she when fall in love.
Therefore it might happen gradually that one of the person who suddenly ignore you or maybe said will call u back when u call he or she. In the end, the one will keep waiting for the call like an ass.
From this we already know he or she might not into you.
So, please be rational or even mature in handle this. No need upset for this.
But, some people who really care of the other they will definitely feel upset.
Let's imagine how if one day u face this situation?
For sure, u will feel the same. Start worry bout that person, call them like hell even though they never want to pick up...

I was looking my phone and keep telling myself don call or send sms to that number~~
Its really difficult to ask myself insist of this...
I was analyzed this situation as he can call my number whenever he want.
This proved that he doesnt want to call me.
Instead of being bothered of this, facing a lot of pressure and being emotional, what I can do is stop thinking of this.
I hate call u like thousand times in a day... I don wan become a freak...
Ironically, I did it coz i care of u, i'm just into u...
I think u ady get my message... I will just go away, let u go after your better life.
I might not the best one, but I wish I can make u feel u are the only one for me...
Be happy for who you are, what u chase for...
I let u go because u deserved better one...

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

Where is my soul????

2011-10-17T12:29:00.002+08:00

Feeling kind of down because I got so much expectation that I could meet someone I miss...

I was satisfied when he call me after his busy hours... (Is it really enough??)

Human always greedy huh?

Just a small wish but seem no way to be fulfill...

Never promise coz we scare we cant make it.

I dont know what is my feeling now, its suffocated me, worried me, a bit upset...

What is this?? I dont ever dare to ask u, 'are u serious with me?'

coz no matter who will say : "Yes, of course I am", 'What do u think?'

I am confused with this matter... What i act right now seem very naive like a kid who being emotional when she couldn't get what she want...

Any better way to keep going on? Move away quietly?

I got a body WITHOUT SOUL.

I cant be tough, cant be strong~~

However, I'm strong enough now to handle my damn dumb feeling now.

You are everywhere, but right now I wish u were here...

"Where are u?

Everywhere but not in ur heart

I hate u. LOL"