When our eyes met at that moment,

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2012-01-27T21:21:00.001+08:00

Currently at Little Ice Cream Kafe with Sherm & Wen Jun.

Ohmahhhgeeee,

I am soooo sleepy :(

Was supposed to do my work, but somehow I don't have the mood to do.

MEH...

I really must stop procrastinating ugh?

I like this module called Understanding Relationships.

6 weeks of lessons only, but it's really good.

I think this module is interesting as we begin to unveil many different things each lesson.

Class is always fun w BFS people, ahahah.

Out of 20 people (?), almost half or 1/3 of the class is from BFS.

HEH^__^

SIGH.

Anywz, damn sian.......................

Last semester, I struggled with having 5 back-to-back papers while this semester, I struggled with having so little time to study for exams.

Why o why?

Wai so many projects, wai so many things to do, wai so fast?!?!?!!?/

Received an e-mail from GIC to go for an interview.

Honestly speaking, I am quite nervous.

I don't really know how will I fare... plz don't let me fail my interview.

NEXT WEDNESDAY:/

Photos that I took on CNY:

Baby Em, the coolest kid everrrrr

My brahhhhder

My cutest and fatest "husband" ^^

I really love my fam <3

ONE LAST THING BEFORE I GO,

BCOMM LONG REPORT.

WHOOOOOOOO.

Our pride, our joy, our hard work paid off!!!! ^^

Got an A, omgeeeeeee.

We were really happy about it because we thought we did badly (as we asked our teacher the day before we get back our long report results)

LOVE MY PROJ MATES - Jenise, Wenjun & Eddie.

Doing our long report @ Coronation plaza starbucks till late REALLY PAID OFF.

HEHEHE K BAIIIII!

If only

2012-01-26T18:42:00.001+08:00

If only you still remember that the heading of this blog was written for you.

I thought it was magical.....the first time we met, when our eyes literally met at that moment and how everything turned out. Heartwarming even as I think about it every now and then... :')

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2012-01-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

Short post before I start on my UR assignment (or rather continue) and Idea Launchpad power point slides.
Meh.

Me and my 2 beloved people in my life, baby Em & my sis

Watched 'We not naughty' w Kim last night, and it was a goooood movie!!!
It was so touchinggg :')
AND SHAWN WAS SOOOO HANDSOME!!!
The small boy in the movie also damnnnn cute hehe ^^v

Studied at Starbucks at United Square just now.
Quite a good place to study! :)
But, all hail to the one who forgot to bring her laptop charger (conveniently) and her laptop battery was dying...when she was halfway through her assignment.
Why didn't I thought of bringing my charger eh...
Ughhhh totally didn't have the mood to study >:(

Anyway, so much random thoughts,
that the world is actually quite a scary place to live in, with so much judgments, so much hypocrisy and so much pretense.
And, yes I am afraid.
Sometimes I just feel that perhaps being alone ain't a bad thing.
Fuck this emo shit. I'm not being emo or anything...
It's just that I began to see things in a different light, and that it's just that sudden realization?

Apart from that, this too...."Work hard for your future because no one is going to do that for you..."
Yes, I have to, I have to work hard for my future.
The only determinant of my future is myself, I have to start working hard, and fight for my future.

But, sense of urgency, where art thou?

Happy Chinese New Year

2012-01-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

Herrroooo everybodey!
Happy Chinese New Year alll!!!
Whoo, shall do a short post before I go and prepare to go bai nian.
Anyway, for the past 2 nights, I have been sleeping at 7.30am (IN THE MORNING -.-)
But finally, last night, I slept at 11pm & woke up at 7.30am. (went back to sleep obviously)
HA HA HA. Finally!!!!!

Was soooo tired :(
Sent Phoebe off on Sunday morning, she's migrating to U.S for good.
Though I wasn't thaaaat close to her, I really enjoy hanging around w her in church!
Really hope she'll do well in U.S :)
And, she's staying there A.L.O.N.E.

Wow, it must have been tough on her, to leave everything behind.
Sigh, I wonder if I will be able to be like her?
Strong enough to leave everything behind?

Sigh, alright! I guess that's all I have to say.

This year, no more CNY stay over, no more companion during CNY visit...
Yep, hard truth, and yes I have to brace myself up.
First year of CNY w/o you..
I guess I can do this a.l.o.n.e!! *inserts muscles*

The Notebook

2012-01-22T22:24:00.003+08:00

Just watched the movie - 'The Notebook' on my laptop w my lights off. (DIY cinema experience)
It was a great movie, absolutely love the plot and the storyline and how they made it go so smoothly!
I know I may be a lil slow, as the movie came out in 2004 (8 years already)
BUT HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!!
Can't stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks, that's how touching it is.
Especially....
"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah"

& "Despite their differences, they had one thing in common - they were crazy about each other"
- The Notebook

Wow.... this got me thinking about these few questions.
Love? Can it last forever? Will it last forever?
Or should we think in this way, why do we bother if it lasts?
Cherish the time? Cherish all that you have now?

Every single relationship is a different relationship, you can never make it to be how your previous relationship was like.
Yep, that's that.
If ever one day you meet your old lover with each of your new lives, just smile and reminisce those old moments. Keep those happy memories in your mind and leave those bad memories away from your mind.

"What's going to happen if I can't remember anything?""I'll be here with you."

Sorry, but this was just some random thoughts of mine: Obviously, we all know which friend is worth the fight, and which isn't. And, we have a choice to do so, or not.

This.is.life

2012-01-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

This.

Yeah, what's wrong?

What complex the mind even further isn't the surrounding or people, it's the feelings.

Is it a good thing to have feelings or is it better to have no feelings?

As the saying goes - The opposite of love isn't hate. It's indifferent.

Sigh, to think I even gave a...fuck about it? #help

I guess....it's time....to...be....different.

This time round, I.WILL.BE.DIFFERENT.

For the sake of Jesus, I will and I should and I must and I would.

This random thought came to my mind: If only we had the chance to clear every single misunderstandings by people around us...the world may be a better place for us to live in.

It's time.

I've learnt my lesson. Let this serves as a reminder for me. X

I see your true colours.

2012-01-21T13:13:00.001+08:00

What a night, and perhaps after this, I saw your true colours.
Seriously? How could someone I thought I was close to do this to me?
I am disappointed in you, I am so very disappointed.
Thanks, you taught me the true meaning of friendship.
And this shows how easily trust can be destroyed, within seconds, within minutes, within hours...
This world is full of superficial people.

GIC

2012-01-18T19:29:00.002+08:00

Helloooooo,I am finally back to blogging!
Shall make this a quick post, because I've to go back to doing UR assignment & IV project...
The past few days were really hectic, had to chiong treasury project :/

My life for this semester has been rather......mundane.
Every single day, there's at least 3 projects on my mind #truestory.
Why this sem seems tougher than the previous sem when I thought that last sem was quite crazy enough??

So, now I've 5 more projects to complete, 4 more weeks to exam, and 4 more papers.
THIS IS THE LIFE OF A BFS STUDENT.
Warning guysssss, if you wna go BFS in NP, be prepared to be real stress EVERY semester.....

ON A HAPPIER NOTE, Internship placement is OUTTTT!!!!!!
ANNNNDDDDDDDDD..............
I got inside GIC (Government of Singapore Investment Corporation Private Limited)
Really super unexpected lehhhh!
I thought I wouldn't be able to get in, because my GPA really ain't that good...
Plus, there's only 3 slots available!
Hmm, maybe not many people chose that...because of the pay -.-

I was really really scared I couldn't get in!
But actually, thank God I am in laaa, because I know I definitely won't be able to get in my 2nd and 3rd choice.
Now that I am in GIC, I'm having mixed feelings about it.
Yes, I know I chose that but the thought of waking at 7am turns me off plus the pay really quite low :(
Everyone's telling me that it's not the pay that matters but it's the experience that matters the most.

I guess they are right......
OKAY THEN, SHALL LOOK FORWARD TO IT ^^
6 MONTHS OF INTERNSHIP, starting from 5 March, LET'S GO.
Damn ready!!!!*inserts muscles*

However, they mentioned that it's subjected to changes, GPA for this semester plus interview.
Plzzz this semester GPA don't drop :((((((
Shall not lose focus of my goal, the end I have in mind.
VERY WELL.
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So firstly, I spent my first day of the week really well!
(which is Monday)
IT WAS VAN & WENJUN'S B'DAY!!!!
Okay, I shall make a blog post on this the next time round :)
(have to upload the photos first!)

But, Tuesday was really a bad day....PMS day.
Sigh. I even cried....in the toilet. wtf.
I really hate PMS-ing, hate how I have no control over my feelings....................
Did project at Coronation Plaza from 5pm-10pm NONSTOP.
Situation at 10.30pm: HUNGRY + TIRED + FRIED BRAIN.
-.-

Seems like my entire poly life is all about these few things:
1) Texting Jenise every single day before school starts
2) Eat meepok at Sixth Avenue
3) Do projects at Coronation Plaza
4) Do projects in school library till late
5) Eat Buddy Hoagies
:D I really love my poly life, and my poly friends!! x

AND,
Today's a Wednesday, went for lunch w my girl @shermzkim after school.
At Eighteen Chefs, it was quite goooood^^
Enjoyed my time w her laaaa, forever laughing & entertaining her.
Laughter is indeed always the best medication.

Went for facial aftermath, & guess what?
I did a facial that costs $214, & the best part: I DID NOT PAY A SINGLE CENT.
HEHE
So blessed to have such an awesome aunt^^ whoop!!!

I have been rather blessed recently, blessed by those good friends I have around me.
I am forever thankful towards them, thank you for not giving up on me.
In short, just thank you for being my friend.
I am learning how to be more appreciative....

OK ONE LAST THING,
Things I am going to do to IMPROVE my complexion:
1. Drink PLENTY of water
2. Do not eat sweets anymore
3. Cut down on fried food!!!
4. Try to sleep earlyyyyy (actually this isn't really a problem for me, because I tend to feel tired at a certain timing.......like 10.30pm LOL. But I like ittttt, this shows that I have a healthy lifestyle)

Is there any other things I can do to improve my complexion??? Need help here plzz....
This is really one long post...hehe I like ^^
Okay, one more video:>
Raining Diamonds by Ricki Lee, quite nice!!
BAIIIIII EVERYBAADEHHH!

1 more month

2012-01-17T09:13:00.001+08:00

In CFAS tutorial now, and I have no other alternatives but to rant on this space.
This morning, all of a sudden, I felt so stressed up.
That kind of feeling where you just felt like crying, regardless of your location.
It could be in the mrt train, at the bus stop, on the road, just anywhere.
I am so disappointed in myself.
And, I am sorry if I disappoint any of you...
There's just so much thoughts running through my mind and I can't exactly type down my feelings.

Also, I don't feel like talking today, how rare...
Solitary moment. Need a hug badly :(

Superbassssss

2012-01-14T14:51:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA this is one crazy video that we did during DPA orientation. Heh
It's like the 2 girls who danced to superbass in the apple store!!
Don't judge plzzzz.....

But anywzz, it was really fun!! We were reallyyyy exhausted after our first try & we did it for 4 times.
HAHAH WTH?
Craaazyyyeeeee.

Last night was pretty good, with my partner CZH ;)
Trouse brahhhderrrs....but sian only saw them for 2 mins.......

OK LAH, BACK TO DOING MY PROJECT, must do it & I can do it (Y)

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2012-01-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

So damn sick of projects, and the endless things that I have to do.
Helpppppp...............

Watched Sherlock Holmes w the best friend just now & the movie was GOOOOOD.
Brilliant, intelligent, omgz... I'm really in awe of Sherlock Holmes' brain (Y)
Wish I was half as smart as him.

UGH, REALLY DAMN SIAN TO BE SOMEONE WHO HAS LOW SELF-ESTEEM. :(
Ya....typical girls...not smart enough, not pretty enough, not slim enough...
Why are we all living a life that always envy others?
Or, is it just me?
I know we all have our own strengths, but seriously...what's mine? I have no eyedeeer....
This is quite sian actually.

Sigh, one more event tomorrow, gonna miss CFAS lecture.
Kinda worried for my studies, that I've decided to prioritize my studies over anything.....emotional. :)
Oh well, instead of blogging my feelings out, I should just start doing my work.

At times like these, I really pray for more of His strength and wisdom.
Only one I can rely would be none other than God, Jesus, Holy Spirit....
That's all that matters I guess..

& I've decided to go for 1st sem internship. :)

Sometimes, it just feels like you've been waiting for nothing. Because nothing is going to happen. And eventually, we will all get tired of waiting.

Stressful night

2012-01-11T22:00:00.001+08:00

UGH TONIGHT IS ONE STRESSFUL NIGHT, most stressful day of 2012......................yet
REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT... :(

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2012-01-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

For the first time of 2012 (on a school day), I am back home before 6pm!!!!!

Actually it ought to be this way laaa, since my school on Wednesday ends at 1pm.

Anywz, I am loving my project mates more and more each day :>

And my classmates, yepppp this sem is quite cool because I am in the same class (FOR EVERY MODULES) as Jenise and Wen Jun. ^^

And, we didn't even choose our CDC module together! It just so happened that we managed to get inside to UR (Understanding Relationships)!

YAY ^^

Headed to town w Jenise after school today,

and guess what have we been doing on the entire bus ride....? ;)

I LOVE THIS A LOT LAAHHHH^^

We took more than 2 gifs (shall upload the rest the next time)

And I think we practically annoyed the person behind us :/

Look at the first gifs! The guy behind me held up his iPhone...... OOPS.

HEH. But it was a good bus journey w her ;)

Lovin' poly life and it's all because of her.... heh

Alright, time to get back to reality.

Things to do today:

1. CM presentation slides

2. Survey

3. Treasury project

COME ON, LET'S GO!! *inserts muscles*

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2012-01-10T21:34:00.001+08:00

I rather not get emotionally attached to anyone than getting hurt. Because I can’t afford another heart-breaking experience.

Humans

2012-01-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

Omg, like seriously....?

You are so damn selective!!!!

And worst still, you don't even practise what you preached!

So much for showing care and concern towards you.

I GUESS THAT'S WHAT YOU MEAN BY FAKE FRIENDS.

Omgz, I feel so disgusted by your actions, by you.

And sorry, I wish to have nothing to do with you!

Hmm, perhaps.....that's what they all say - "you are afraid to show care and concern to others, for fear that they will not appreciate it."

So I asked myself this: WHY DO I FUCKING CARE?

Judgmental creature!

Wtf, if you don't even cherish this friendship, why should I even bother??

OHWELLZ,that's life, that's life.

Yep, I need to wake up from reality and realize that such people DO exist.

Humans are such pretentious creatures, welcome to reality I guess.....?

No point showing care and concern to you. Don't worry, I won't do it next time. :)
Don't take anyone for granted. Only take them for granted when they take you for granted.

Just gtfo from my life, kthxbye.

5.40am

2012-01-10T05:51:00.002+08:00

I asked myself, was the decision made right?

It feels rather different now...

Perhaps, I was wrong.

Things were so much different a week ago..

Oh well...that's life.

Miss you, x

8d,207h

2012-01-09T21:33:00.001+08:00

Shall make a quick post before I start my busy night.
I have quite a number of things to do tonight.......ugh
And, the thing is I'm feeling rather sleepy now, #help

So...anyway, this post is just for me to rant.
Not a need for you to read this.

School
Sometimes I really feel like giving up on my studies.
I feel stupid, yes, and why are all of my poly friends so much smarter than me?
Yes, I know I chose to walk this road, the road of a poly student...
I could have chosen JC, yeah now that I think of it, maybe I should...
Perhaps I'm much better at things which are more standard...like physics etc etc.

Thinking back, I've always wanted to get into a JC...even up till the day I got back my results.
But when I was ranking my 12 choices, I chose poly....wow
Till now, I still didn't dare to believe my choice...like how I changed my mind so easily...
Told everybody that I wanted to go into a JC since sec 3....(2 years of perseverance)
But in the end, I chose a poly. Hmm..

Maybe, things do happen for a reason..
Maybe, this is the route that God wants me to go.
I don't know, I really don't.
Why am I not seeing the light yet?

NTU; SMU

This is the end I have in mind at the end of my poly life.

"Always keep the end in mind. Don't lose sight of it."

I do not wish to lose sight of it, my aim has always been to enter NTU or SMU.

I believe I can do this.

Need extra strength, wisdom, need more of God's intervention.

I guess...even though this sem seems to be passing by so quickly, I know I can do this.

Not on my own of course, but with God. X

Yep, 4 more projects to go, 6 more weeks to final exams.

And I'll be done.

I will be fine. I will be fine. I will be fine.

Hopefully.... :(

THOUSAND OF THINGS TO DO.

Like what I've mentioned, I have tons of things to complete....
1. Bcomm business message
2. Treasury project
3. CFAS E-learning
4. IV tutorial
5. Proposal for DPA orientation
6. IL reflection

I FEEL SO SCOOP, FEEL SO DEAD.
I wish there's more than 24 hours a day!!!!!!
And that I won't be so tired...at this hour.
I BETTER START MY WORK NOW, it's 9.30pm already.........
Okay bye!

Trying to get used to your absence... And I'll do fine, I guess?

It's okay not to be okay

2012-01-08T18:57:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I feel I have so much to say and can't put it into words..
Is this the price I have to pay for letting myself in too deep?
I know one day this will end, only thing is just how long will it last....
Or perhaps, it's gonna end soon.

So much thoughts running through my mind right now..
You broke down the walls of my heart...and left w/o a word.
Wow, and now I've got to start re-building the walls around my heart.
Well done, thanks for doing that.

Now, I just got to stop and pretend all of this didn't happen.
"And we are all just pretending nothing happened"
Like as if it even matters to you....ohwellz, that's life.
Those texts, those random phone calls. Getting shorter and getting lesser....
Just need some time alone, to think through it.
Pretending that you don't exist in my life, could be a way out too...
I miss you, a little. And I'm not even supposed to feel this way!

Jessie J - Who You Are

2012-01-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

Who You Are

2012-01-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

This question has been popping up in my mind recently - what if one day you die, how many people will be crying at your funeral?

Who are your true friends? Who are those who genuinely care? Who are those whom you call your 'friends'?

I guess people only realized what they have only when it's gone.

Recently my mind is filled w this kind of nonsense thoughts..

I find it hard to concentrate, what am I doing about my life?

Question after question. Day after day.

I still prefer life when I was in secondary 4, when my life was kinda organized and not so messy.

I should start re-organizing my life, get back on track...be who I was when I was in sec 4.

Why are we pretending this is nothing?

6 JAN 1PM

2012-01-06T04:21:00.000+08:00

OMG IT'S 3.55AM AND I AM STILL AWAKE?!
Doing this stupidddddd CM project w my dearest girl - Jenise.
Yep, it was an impromptu stayover that was decided at 11.30am of 5 Jan. (Y)
Before I left house, to go to school.
Well done laaaa....

Anywz, I seriously seriously am very tired.......
Have been sleeping after 12am for the past 3 nights, this is bad :(
AND ALL FOR THE SAME REASON: CM PROJECT.
Sigh, there goes my complexion, there goes my health...

PLUS I am very hungry right now.
Fun fact: I have been sitting on this chair @ Jenise's house since 8pm to now. (8 hours straight)
WTH,I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.............................
And, we really struggled to compile this report.
Thank God I made the right decision to stay at her house tonight.
Where would I be if not for this girl, always fighting along w me tgt for projects? @jenisething
:>

And yet, next week is going to be another hectic project week.
HELP. No time no time. Holy shit....

Anywz, we took photobooth using her Macbook air... (de-stress okkk!!!)
Let the pictures do the talking~

FINALLY, ALMOST DONE W CM.

I NEED MY SLEEP.

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP.

I NEED MY ULTRA BEAUTY SLEEP.

K BYE.

Turning Tables

2012-01-05T09:49:00.000+08:00

I guess the actions speak for itself. That's it. Do not think about it

2012-01-05T00:27:00.001+08:00

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2012-01-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

And now when all is done/ there is nothing to say/ you have gone and so effortlessly/
Perhaps it meant nothing to you at all, should have known..

Does it bother you like how it's bothering me?

And we all want to know, how it ends.

This is crazy...

And I'm still thinking how is this even possible...

I can't find an answer to this.

Oh well, it's just a pity.

If only, if only...

That call..
Just wondering how long would this last...

12.12am

2012-01-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

OKAY DAMN READY TO FIGHT CM PROJECT @ THIS HOUR.
Shall not let anything distract me & shall not let my thoughts drown meeeeeeee.

Damn ready, damn ready....but need some food now. :(

THIS IS HOW I AM FEELING FOR CM PROJ RIGHT NOW: WTFSJDADABXZJHJZFEKFJANCJNFUCKAJSNCAJFUENCALCKCNCUNTAJDNAJDN

>:(