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Who did I select????? The last part

2012-02-14T01:36:00.003+05:30

Please note once again :- This is purely FICTIONAL.

Read the first part HERE!

"I ignored the times I yearned for him and just him....
I let go of the memories I had with him....
I made my heart and brain sign an agreement attested with a LOT of guilt and remorse...."

I called Anay to meet me on 14th February and as we came face to face I greeted him with an instant hug.
Somehow I could not stop myself from doing that.
May be my spinal cord reflexes were used to doing that everytime I saw ANAY...

I hugged him but it was just me "hugging" him... He was perhaps not with me in that moment...
I did not wish him a happy valentines' day and neither did he...All because of the distance which had come between both of us...Blame it on Anay,Aditya's interference or call it just "my mistake"...

"Anay, I was hurt so many times by you.You unknowingly hurt me but you have no idea how much it made me cry.It made me despise my own self.I want to confess a lot of things today...." I started....
"I had been hiding them and lying to you just to save our relationship.I was very scared of losing you.That was the only reason I said sorry even though it wasn't a bit of my fault.I always gave up while arguing with you 'cause I gave more importance to our relationship than my ego and "WIN" over the argument.There have been so many instances when I put my self respect aside just because I loved you.I still love you but now I'm strong enough to let you go.I don't want to settle down for someone who was never into me..."

Anay patiently listened to all this and then suddenly he said - "I knew this was coming...This is all because of Aditya,isn't it ..?

I already knew Anay would say this..."Anay, you know what?Aditya doesn't even know about this.I have not talked about this to anyone.Anyone else is not questionable to me regarding this except you...and I am pretty much sure of the fact that Aditya would have persuaded me not to do this..."

"Avina, your main problem is you trust people immediately.Say a few sweet words,that's it. Avina gets flattered and puts blind trust on him...."

"I agree...I spontaneously make friends.I believe in the quote *Strangers are friends waiting to happen*...."

"Life cannot be solved with quotes and quotes don't always prove true in real life.You need to get real and have a glimpse of a world outside quotes..."

"Yes but they sometimes help forget the bitter realities and hope for a better future.They show a silver lining to the clouds....Our relationship cannot work 'cause we both think alike.I think about you all the time and you think about "YOURSELF"...Your priorities were always "YOURS".My priorities were more of "OURS".That is where our distance grew more and more with each passing day.It was I who always gave you a call.I wished you would call me up but you never did without not being asked....I always watched soccer matches with you despite the fact that I never understood a single rule of the game...Did you ever watch any romantic movie with me just because I wanted to?Tell me one such movie you watched because I,the one you claimed to love asked you to watch...Or Lets keep that aside.There're not many other things too which you did for my sake.During all the good times,you said something which ruined my happiness.I never mentioned about it to you but there have been times your words have made me cry.You might have said it casually but you have no clue how deep those words pierced me...."

Anay was expressionless,speechless and motionless for a moment.Perhaps I had hurt the ego guys usually have.The astonishment,or rather SHOCK was clearly visible the way he looked at me.I had perhaps hurt him beyond repair.People get closer together on Valentine's day....I was going to drift apart from my "valentine" FOREVER on that day...

For the first time,I felt Anay made an effort to save our relationship.He pulled me closer to him and said- "Avina,you could have told me all this before....And we can still work on our relationship,sweetheart.We can dream of OUR future yet again forgetting everything, start afresh on 14th February...And I always argued with you 'cause I loved it when you said "Fine jaan,you're right.I did not watch romantic movies with you 'cause they made me recollect a past which I never wanted to look back to.You could call it a phobia or psychological disorder but I did not want the reminiscences of my bitter past ruin our beautiful present,which I thought was PERFECT.It was beyond words,explanations or reasonings according to me.I never thought you were with me despite my shortcomings.I never thought about all this...I insisted on you to watch soccer with me 'cause I liked being with you all the time.You always were my priority and you still are.It is just that I was stuck in certain situations in life when I could not sort out my priorities and I did not realize I was missing out on the most special person in my life-AVINA..."

"Anay, Remember when I used to hold your hand,show you our pictures/text messages/chat conversations/presents ,you always called me "OBSESSED"..Yes I was obsessed for "US".I was always scared of losing you.. .I still am.I still re-read our first live messenger conversation which lasted exactly 4 hours 29 minutes...I am not moving on from you because I want to.In fact,I hate myself for this.I am obsessed for "US" so I might even go home and regret.It is not a rarest of the rare occasion for me to cry for you or our relationship.May be today will be no different.some more tears will be certainly cried for US.. but I can't take it anymore.I won't be happy with you.I tried to make things work but they just don't seem to..."

"Avi, Look Aditya is very much aware of our distance.He knows how vulnerable you are and our relationship is almost on the verge of breaking.He might just be pretending to be nice and sweet.I'm a guy and I know every guy does that..."

"Anay,Aditya is not at all in the picture.why do you think this all is happening because of him?Let me make it clear to you - I am not breaking up with you to officially start off an affair with Adi,damn it!!!!He doesn't mean anything in front of our relationship.It is just that I need some time alone.To introspect,to retrospect,to know where WE went wrong and what brought our relationship to this...I believe I started off a relationship when I was "lonely" and not "in love"...Walking away is not justified in any case,not even with me.But there're certain reasons which I cannot overlook or ignore.I have had people walk away without explanations so I clarified with you the reason of my walking away.Unanswered questions hurt a lot more than this.I am not being selfish but few years down the line you'll realize I was never THE ONE for you....I don't wish to say anything else ...but please don't wait for me to come back.I won't come back to you....And this is not a movie where the guy and girl stay friends after their breakup.I won't lie that we'll be friends..You were and still are always MORE THAN A FRIEND...A LOT MORE THAN A FRIEND...You can never be just a friend for me..."

I stood still and watched the guy I loved or still love , walk away with a heavy heart.His eyes were perhaps moist...
I obviously let my tears loose only after I reached home...

Perhaps I AM guilty of bringing him to the darkest Valentines' day of his life and the worst reality of his life....
But it is more like I've betrayed my own promise to myself - the promise of never leaving Anay.Before betraying Anay,it was myself who had been betrayed by me....

Who do you select???? Part 3

2012-01-17T16:37:00.009+05:30

Read Who do you select Part 1 and 2 HERE!
It is not a sequel of "Who do you select". Part 1,2 and 3 are INDEPENDENT posts. This post IS NOT A CONTINUATION of either of them!!!!
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Anay and Aditya...
I was kinda lost between the two "A"s of my life...
Anay was my boyfriend so I was supposed to be with him,but Aditya was the one who made everything alright by just BEING THERE!
His presence brought a smile to my face.His phone call made me forget Anay.It wasn't right.I know it isn't right. . . . . . . .
But as long as Anay was around, nothing seemed wrong...

There was a time when I was ready to fight for Anay.I had fought with all obstacles to be with him.I was even ready to confront my family to spend my life with him.It was not that time any more.

Aditya ruined everything.He came along and spread so many smiles and gave me so many moments of happiness that Anay was very much put aside.I did not care for Anay anymore.I had turned into a selfish girl who cared only about herself and her smile.That was perhaps because I did not have to fight with anyone to be with Aditya.I never had to persuade him to be with me.He was always keen to meet me.He insisted that I should stay with him.He knew I was with Anay and he had even warned me regarding that.He had told me that I would forget Anay once I become friends with him but I had never paid heed to his warning.Anay had started to feel my indifference.He was drifting apart from me.I knew that. Nevertheless Anay did not matter any more!!!!!

He had made me wait.He had made me cry.I had to literally plead to him to be with me.There was a time when Anay did not care a damn about me.It was not that I was taking a revenge of that cold behaviour.I just did not feel like seeing Anay anymore.He had gone a lot too far from me than I had from him

There were moments when I introspected and found myself guilty of breaking someone's heart,playing with Anay's feelings,lying to myself and I found myself spoiling Aditya's life too.I felt like going upto Aditya and telling him to go away from me and Anay FOREVER but it couldn't happen.It wasn't so easy.Yes,I still loved Anay deep down 'cause he also had given me some of the most amazing moments in life.He had completely owned 3 years of my life.Aditya on the other hand was with me since 6 months.However, there were certain other things which made me even more distant from Anay!

Aditya called me up more often than Anay did.Anay had other priorities which he put before me.Aditya always had me as his NUMBER 1 priority no matter what!!!!

If I could not get sleep at night,Aditya was always there for me!!!
If anything was bothering me,it was Aditya I could look up to!!!
Anay just claimed to love me.He hardly proved anything of that kind.
I wished to change Anay and start anew but Anay had his own terms to live his life.I could never ever change that.Aditya always cared about my smile more than anything else.

I would rather prefer apologizing to Anay and asking him to forget me instead of losing ADITYA for Anay.

I don't blame Anay for anything but this is how things are.I don't love him anymore the way I did and the way he expects me to!!!!

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-----------------To be continued on 14th February------------------------

P.S. You can drop in your suggestions for the girl... and for Anay/Aditya as well :D :D :D
Note: It is purely FICTIONAL and if it resembles your life it is a COINCIDENCE ONLY!!!!
:)

Please talk to me!!!!!!!!

2012-01-15T15:47:00.001+05:30

It was the second sunday of the cold month of January!!!
I was anxiously waiting for his call.We were supposed to meet up that day.
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Time was ticking away fast as it was a winter day.It was almost dusk.He did not call up.
I waited till 8 PM but no call-no text-no fb message-NOTHING at all...

He had asked me not to call him as he had "SOME WORK".

This wasn't the first time that he had kept me waiting for his call.It was the 5th consecutive time that he was not going to meet me....!!

There was a time when he met me on every sunday.There was a time when we could talk for hours together on NOTHING at all.However, his approach towards me had changed a lot since the last few times.

He was not talking to me the way he used to.
He did not call me up frequently like he did few months back.
He is not my boyfriend,so obviously I don't have to ask him the reason for his cold behaviour.

I remember one day when we were BEST FRIENDS in the real sense and we fought over something.
He had told me "You'll miss me the day I stop talking to you.You'll realize my worth the day you don't see me on facebook chat anymore.You'll understand what I mean to you the day when I won't tease you on gtalk.Perhaps you won't know all that now but once we stop talking to each other and I stop teasing you on skype video chats you will come to know the importance of BEST FRIENDS.Don't take me for granted sweetheart.I might not remain the same in the time to come...."

Saying so he winked at me and gave me a huge smile.For a moment I was speechless but then I burst out laughing just to break the silence which was a bit tough for me to handle!!!!

After coming home that day I had imagined a time WITHOUT him in my life and I had tears in my eyes....
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Today I was feeling something of the same sort.The only difference was the tears today were for the reality which was slowly coming towards me....

Now playing : Rehna tu hai jaisa tu...thoda sa dard tu,thoda sukun...

Who do you select????? Part 2

2012-01-10T19:02:00.001+05:30

Read Who Do You Select Part 1 HERE! ----Click HERE!
It is weird what kind of crossroads life brings you to!!!
You have to choose between two people who are very close to your heart.
It is tough to decide,whether you break the heart of your best friend who has been with you always or the other guy who claims to STAY WITH YOU ALWAYS in the time to come..!!

Don't think too much.Just be thankful if you're not in such a situation!! :D :D :D

Awesome beginning of a new year??? Kidding???

2012-01-09T14:13:00.000+05:30

I got to learn some most important lessons of life on 1st day of the year 2012...

1) Don't judge anyone.You might not be knowing what life is at someone else's end....

2) Some people are plain impossible...!!! and that too inspite of being strangers/acquaintances!!!!!!!!

Read on to know details! :)

I honestly did not want to write about this.This isn't a matter of pride for anyone but still I thought of sharing it with you..! :)

On the first day of 2012[1st January 2012] :-

I received a message on facebook from a random person which kind of ruined my first day of the NEW YEAR!!!!
I did not even care a bit about him and I obviously still don't!
Let us name him "XYZ" [Read : loser] for the sake of convenient conversation! :)

The message was as follows :-

"Has anything positive ever happened to you or your life?Always blogging and updating about all the sorrows and hardships you've been through!There was not a single moment during the whole 2011 in which you smiled?"

There's still more to this but I won't write it here! :)
[Note : This is a direct copy-paste.No language has been changed]

I have no problem with this person telling me such a thing.Everyone has AN OPINION.There are so many of my friends who don't read me and even tell me "I hate your dark poems".
I am absolutely fine with it.
Even I don't like reading on certain subjects so it is natural for everyone to have a flair for certain types of articles/write ups!
But no one gave a stranger the right to judge me.

Let me tell you something.
I have people in my facebook friend list who update moment to moment occurences in their life!!!!
A friend of mine was using facebook before 30 minutes to her wedding and during the dinner time of her wedding too...What I wish to convey is it is her life,her wedding,her account,her family and entirely her space.
I'm no one to intrude in that.

similarly if you don't like what I write,just ignore...
Why the hell do you come to me,humiliate me and then on the top of it delete me from your friendlist!!!
I have no issues with me being deleted.Actually that made me more than happy!!! :)
It is better not to have such useless fellas in the friendlist.

But he should have done that without telling me all that crap!!!!
Oh ya..
What else did that person tell me...!!

"I'm sorry I can't stand all these things and just told you about it!But a guy like me would never like to see on the darker side of anything...A guy like me would findout something positive even from death! LoL"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Well,if he is so GREAT that he can see positive in everything, then why not MY DARK POEMS?

Answer this, XYZ!!! :P :P :P

It is my facebook account,my laptop,my hands,my blog,my space,my words,my thoughts and MY LIFE!
It has no resemblance to your life,so please take care of your own life and don't interfere in mine if you don't know what it is like or it has been like!!!

DON'T STALK MY BLOG AND MY PROFILE IF YOU HAD SO MANY PROBLEMS WITH IT!!! :)

P.S. No GRUDGES! :P :P

"You" are IMPORTANT!!!!

2012-01-08T22:44:00.013+05:30

You are important in my life if any "one" of the following holds true...
Yet another post for the ones who missed out reading the previous post/who were not mentioned in it.

I want to begin 2012 by writing about all the "NICE" people of my life! :)
So this one's yet another effort to reach out to them who were disappointed on reading the previous post...

I consider you awesome if :-

I reply to your text immediately.
I appear online to you on facebook.[Most of the people on my facebook friend list are in the "AVOID" list] :)
Some details about my AVOID list :-
My avoid list is updated everyday :.P [mostly additions are only made]... I am offline most of the time these days due to exams..You can enlarge the images and check it out! :)

And best part is it suggests me new people everyday to add in that list.... :) :)

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Okay continuing with the main subject of my post..

You're AWESOME if :-

You knew this secret of mine before I blogged about it and you know the names of the persons too,who are to be avoided !! ;) [No hard feelings anyone]
I have ever blogged about "US".
I have a picture of you and me! :)
I don't write on your facebook wall to wish you but CALL you up or TEXT you at 12 AM on your birthday.
No matter how busy I am,I receive your call. :)
I don't care about the time while talking to you...! <3
You know you irritate me.Even after that if I talk to you,you must be amazingly SPECIAL to me....
You hate Ahmedabad?Well,if I still talk to you politely,you are important.[but still not more than my Amdavad :P].
If I am invisible on gtalk/yahoo/skype and I am still talking to you,I LOVE YOU! :)
If you reply with a "K" and "hmm"...and if I still make efforts to make conversation with you,you perhaps have no idea how much you mean to me...
I have ever liked/commented on your status/photo/any other update.
I have ever smiled/laughed/cried when I talked to you.
I have commented on any of your blog post.[Some blogs of "FAMILIAR" strangers hold an important place in my life.They cheer me up and console me and make me realize I'm NOT THE ONLY ONE]
I have shared ANYTHING personal with you or anything which ruined my day!
I have placed sleep as a second priority and put "YOU" as the FIRST!
I have ever tagged you in a photograph! :D

I appreciate[Read "LOVE"] you a lot if you accidently hang up on me, and I immediately call you back! :)

Attested and sealed with "LOL" ... [Lots of love] ;)

To the VERY VERY special people of 2011

2012-01-01T00:00:00.057+05:30

Prescript: Wishing EVERYONE a very happy new year! :) Do not feel left out even if you are not featured in this post! :) :) Leave a message here in case you wish to tell me anything or simply comment on this post...

I know I've missed out on some very important moments of 2011 in this post.I will post it on 8th January! :)

This post is for the people who occupied most of the thoughts I had in 2011...

5(plus two) people became very special for me in 2011...

They made me smile, made me cry and were responsible for most of the posts I made on my blog in the year that was... :)

I am not going to name anyone, but I'm sure they would understand what I mean...

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Starting with first week of June 2011(11th June), a random add request with "1" mutual friend...He doesn't read my blog but he is a great friend! :) I won't say more about him 'cause he doesn't read this! :P :P

He considers me his sister-in-law! :P :P I don't even know who my sister is ;) [That's 'cause he is not married yet! :P]

He is the one who gifted me my DREAM on my 23rd birthday(21/11/2011)!!

:) My domain name "wherethoughtsarewords".No amount of gratitude is enough to thank him for that! :) I am still grateful and will always be! :)

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Going to July 2011....Mid July.. :)

I came across a girl who was like another me!!!!!!! :)

Crazy in love, obsessed with the one she loved, JUST LIKE ME! :)

She wrote love poems, love quotes, posted romantic status messages on facebook targeted to the special one in her life...The only difference is she has been lucky to have the one she loves LOVE HIM BACK! :)

Whenever I feel low and crib in front of her, she always says "Everything would be okay, sweetheart.I'll pray for both of you...." and it makes me have an instant smile...

She's just like a best friend!!! :)

Cheers to my sweetest friend of 2011 and lot many years to come!!!!! :)

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The third person is the one who showed me "Not all guys are the same..."....

July 29th 2011...The day I came across this wonderful guy...!! <3

The guy who showed me that all guys are not jerks and players.There're decent and sober guys too ! :)

He's the one I wanted to fall for, but couldn't! :P

Yes, that's 'cause I knew he would never fall for me. :)

No doubt, he irritates me a lot.He gets on my nerves sometimes...But he's an answer to the question-"How a guy should be"....! :)

So this is to thank that special guy who was the first one to wish me on my new year[27/10/2011] and the last one to wish me on my birthday...or rather third last !! :)

He is the one who sent me the cutest text of my life so far and obviously the cutest one in 2011...

On 11th September 2011,we were texting each other and it was around midnight ... I simply asked him :-"When're you planning to sleep?"

And he texted back :- "While talking to you..."

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Note :- This might not mean a lot to you/ he might not even remember it, but to me??? Well, it meant the WORLD for a moment! :)

We actually chatted with each other through smileys and three lettered acronyms like DNA,RNA etc...Forget it,you won't get it! :)

He called me up on 27/10/2011 for the last time but I still remember exactly how he sounds like and his cute way of talking! :)

I have a simple wish this year.I just want to see him once at a place other than my laptop! :)

Okay,let me cut this short otherwise I shall keep talking about him...BUT

वो ORIGINAL PIECE है..पैसा लगने चाहिए उसे देखने के लिए!! :)

A special song dedication to him :- ♫ ♪ कहने को जश्न-ए-बहारा है..इश्क ये देखके हेऱा है....!! :) ♫ ♪

वैसे तो तेरी ना में भी मैंने ढूंढ़ ली अपनी ख़ुशी...तू जो अगर हा कहे तो बात होगी और ही..!! :)

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The fourth person is my world in this world! :D

Confused?

Well,he is the one who makes me look forward to TOMORROW...

He is the one who is the first person to flash before my eyes when I close my eyes.

Be it for praying, Be it blinking or be it closing eyes before going to sleep,I never forget to think about him! :)

I miss him with eyes open and see him with eyes closed.

He is a lot more than what words can say about him! :)

He has lots of posts for him on this blog so I need not write anything else! :)

I guess he likes this song:- ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ तेरी दीवानी...दीवानी..हो गई मै मतवारी..मोहे सुध-बुध ना रही तन मन की...के मैं जाऊं वारी वारी.. तेरे नाम से जी लूँ , तेरे नाम से मर जाऊं...

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The fifth person is .......ummmmm...He is the one who can make me read "long" ...really long posts without waiting for it to end.He writes awesome and besides,I simply love talking to HIM!

Skype,yahoo,gtalk,facebook,We've tried it all! :)

Yahoo doodle also! :D

Late night phone calls,late night texts,texts while he's traveling and what not...

I love it when he sings "Why this Kolaveri Di....Yempty life, girl come..." ...

:) :) :) :)

2011 got me pretty attached to him! :)

I don't know about him but I surely miss him if we don't get to talk! :)

"Close to his mother tongue" kinda song dedication for him :- ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ Why this Kolaveri Kolaveri Kolaveri Di...

Soup song...Flop song...

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The next person I'm going to talk about is my only college friend I miss!!! :)

She's so adorable and sweet.I like sharing things with her.Yes,she sometimes gets irritated 'cause I over react and always tells me "Disha, you exaggerate everything..." But still she's a great friend.She always tells me "Disha,why do you keep posting pessimistic stuff on facebook.What makes you do so all the time...?"

And inspite of her telling me so many times,I don't listen to her! :D

She's the only girl who actually encouraged me to pursue what I am good at, by saying--"Others don't come to breathe for you,do they?"...That was the most genuine remark made by anyone among my friends.When things were not quite right in her life,I felt REALLY BAD!!! :(

I would have never hurt her the way "SOMEONE" did...Nevertheless,I won't talk more about it.In a nutshell,I miss her a lot.I hope she reads this! :)

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Last but not the least, I want to talk about the one who is like a sister to me! :)

I am not quite close to her yet but I'm pretty much looking forward to that!

She is the one because of whom I could watch Breaking Dawn on the third day after its release.

I'm not mentioning her in this post because of that as the sole reason;She's even a great company to be with! :)

Hope I can write more on "ME and HER" in 2012! :)

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This one's to the five(plus two) most special people who I came closer to, in 2011...

Thank you 2011...!! :) :)

I have a small wish to be a part of all those five(plus two) people throughout their life, just like the way they are going to be a part of me even YEARS DOWN THE LINE...

I hope they remember me & say..."Oh that girl...She is my friend and I miss her sometimes..." :)

Fingers crossed- I hope I don't have to say - "He/She was( used to be ) my friend! :(

I love them! :)

They'll always have a BIASED place in my life! :)

....and anything they do is FORGIVEN and FORGOTTEN!!!!! <3

TOUCH WOOD!

I would like to mention about my sister's mini-engagement ceremony on 06/10/2011which made her smile and wait eagerly for the rest of her life! :)

I hope my dear sister gets all the happiness in the world and she has a fairytale story in her REAL LIFE! :)

I am glad she has the man of her dreams with her through the thick and thin.

I wish they continue to be "love birds" throughout their life!!! TOUCH WOOD again!!! ^_^

I compliment her with all the best wishes and heartfelt congratulations for the beginning of a new journey on 11/02/2012....

May you have lots of memorable moments with your life partner all your life! :)

The little princess of her father and always a kid to her mom will finally make her way to a new home and step in a new world waiting to warmly embrace her! :)

On this note,I would like to thank my sister,Ankita for being a special feature of this post! :)

And not to miss out the five(plus two) people who are still on my mind... :)

Why don't you ever leave my mind?? :P

Wishing everyone a very happy new year.I hope 2012 has some surprises waiting for me...SOME PLEASANT SURPRISES! :)

P.S. Sorry I talk a lot! :( :( :( I can even talk more about them and even write volumes on the amazing moments I have had with them

P.S. If you've realized that I've talked about you in this post, Please accept my heartfelt gratitude for being the person you are! :) I really adore you! :)

[I don't know about their perception about me, I simply hope I occupy a little corner of their heart]! :) :) :)

WELCOME 2012 :)

Disclaimer!!!!!!

2011-12-29T13:36:00.002+05:30

DISCLAIMER :-

I am revealing the secret behind everything I write...!! :) READ THROUGH and get to know ABOUT ME in my own words... :)
For everything that you read on my blog or facebook profile...
you need to know that...

It is a matter of a spontaneous thought,a random outburst and a momentary feeling.

I might not totally believe in what I have written.
I might not be able to relate to everything exactly the way I,as the author of a poem/story/write-up, have written it.
I want to make it clear that do not make any assumptions based on the things written by me which you happen to read.

For a moment, YES I believe in the thing I have written..But it is just for "THAT PARTICULAR MOMENT"...

If I have written a post on "Life is indeed beautiful", I might not necessarily be obliged to believe in it.

If I write a dark poem, it is not at all true that someone has broken my heart.

If I write a love poem, it doesn't imply that I am in love.

Please,please, please do not ASSUME.Yes, you can ask me directly.I would be more than happy to answer that!!!

I am not answerable to anything I write as the AUTHOR, but I,as your FRIEND would definitely answer if any doubt arises in your mind regarding what I have written.

If possible,I will even tell you the name of the person for whom it is written,if at all it is written for someone special.

BUT PLEASE DO NOT TAKE IT FOR GRANTED THAT MY POSTS RELATE TO "MY LIFE"...

The post below is exactly opposite to what I think! :)
http://www.wherethoughtsarewords.com/2011/11/life-is-indeed-beautiful.html

P.S. I have written a poem on someone FORGETTING my birthday...Yes it's a true thought but it lasts just for a moment.
I do get hurt very easily, but it takes just another "moment" to heal...Just a few words of consolation and concern cheer me up and make me smile and look forward to "another day" and a new beginning...!! :)

P.P.S. I write broken hearted poems but they are just spontaneous thoughts which flow in the form of a poem!!!!

DON'T JUDGE ME PLEASE!!

DRIFTING APART from 2011...

2011-12-21T17:40:00.003+05:30

People drift apart for unknown reasons...
They drift apart for NO reasons...
Once so close,now far apart
People go away from each other.........

POSTMORTEM of 2011...! :)

2011 ----->

The year which came with lots of surprising moments...:)

I am going to miss 2011...
I feel like I'm slowly drifting apart from the moments I had with 2011.
The memories I have of 2011 are really awesome...
I met lots of adorable people who made my year awesome!!!! :)
But I'm a bit sad about 2011 leaving so soon!!!!
I want to make some more amazing memories in 2011... :( :( :(
Read about those special people of the year on 1st January 2012...!! :)
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तुस्सी जा रहे हो?

तुस्सी ना जाओ..

:( :( :(

Now playing:

ए जाते हुए लम्हों,ज़रा ठहरो ज़रा ठहरो..मैं भी तो चलता हूँ ...

ज़रा उनसे मिलता हूँ ...जो एक बात दिल में है ..उनसे कहू..तो चलू , तो चलू...

You always were my most lovable one..!!! :)

2011-12-15T20:14:00.002+05:30

14/02/2011...
It was her fifth anniversary...
The beginning of 6th year to her marriage.
It was a fairly happy marriage...
Yes, "fairly happy"...
It was the 2125th day of their journey together!!

Nimit and Riya.....They were the PERFECT couple for everyone around.
Nimit's business colleagues envied the understanding they had.
Riya's girlfriends were jealous of the bonding they shared.
Nimit and Riya's life was the best example of an ideal wedding.
It was more than even perfect...

However things didn't mean the same to Riya.She had come a long way, a really long way from her life, her PAST...
Of course,they were a happy couple but Riya could never leave behind what she had actually left behind...
She could never forget what she had....
Besides a loving home of her parents,she had moved away even from a loving heart of the most special person in her life.
He was Riya's confidant, her best friend..not just a friend actually!! :)

Same ol' story...Their love was somehow not acceptable to destiny.............
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!! I HATE THIS DESTINY...
Riya and Yash were forced to get separated.
There was a time when Riya used to smile to herself thinking of their wedding card.
RIYA WEDS YASH....
She used to doodle their wedding card in her diary and proudly show it off to Yash and some really close friends of hers...
Yash would tease her saying "We would name our kid "Riyash" or "Shriya" according to its gender and wink cutely at her..."

Things changed a lot between both of them
They went their separate ways.
They followed different dreams.
They walked different paths.
Yet they were both kinda lost without each other...
They both missed each other.
Riya longed to see Yash.
Yash felt like a little bird who had forgotten his way back home.
Riya was the girl who had his heart since the day they parted ways.
Yash was the one with whom Riya wanted to be.
Perhaps they both had a world woven around each other in their dreams...
They both wanted to give each other a chance and live like they used to...be with each other like they did in the old times...
Nevertheless, Riya was "HAPPILY" married.She never complained about anything or put the blame of her compromise on her husband.She never vented out any outbursts on her family for the sacrifice she had made.She had willingly chosen that life due to certain "incomprehensible for me" kinda reasons.I witnessed everything right in front of me.I even tried to explain Riya and persuade her but she did not listen to me.Yash too did not realize what he was going to lose, and that too FOREVER!

Riya-Yash....RiYash as I used to call them...had to make the tough decision of their life.
They were now no longer the two people who did not dream about anything else except marrying each other.They were no longer BEST FRIENDS who everyone saw as a COUPLE.

They were just two "JUST FRIENDS" separated by destiny, torn apart by God perhaps but for me, they are still meant to be.Nimit is a nice guy but ...Yash ...He's just AMAZING.He's just right for my Riyu.. :)
They had an adorable past...No bitter memories,no sour fights,no unwanted intrusion in each others' space.
Everything was so so awesome while they were in love!!!!!
Lovers give up on each other because of the world....Does world give up anything for "LOVE"?
Then why do two people let each other go because of the world? You have to live with each other, DAMN IT! Not the WORLD!!

Riya and Yash talk on four occasions only now...
Their birthdays,Riya's marriage anniversary- Valentine's Day and Friendships' day..
Yash isn't married yet...
He hadn't found anyone as amazing as Riya.
Riya was just lost in her moments with Yash, in her memories of Yash teasing her "Riyash's mom... ए जी सुनती हो..?",when suddenly the clock struck 12...It was 14/02/2011..00:00:00 and Riya's phone rang...
As always,As every year, Consistent and just at the right time..It was Yash calling...
"Hey Riya" He exclaimed...
"Hie Yash...You sound so mature"
"Do you mean to say I've grown old,Riya"?
Despite their distances, they managed to share some light moments whenever they talked...
"Haha...no Yash,you still are the same for me.You always were and you still are my most lovable one"...
"Happy anniversary,Riyu..Hope Nimit and you are doing great..Wish him too from my side"...
"Yes Yash..I'll..Thank you so much..."
"ummmmmmm...Happy Valentines' Day too... "
"Wishing you the saammmmmeeeeeee"
"Anyways Riya, Seems like Ananya is calling me.I just proposed her today and she said YES"...
"Oh my God, Yashhhhhh.."
"Riya,she's not like you even in a bit but I'll never get another you,so I gave up hoping..I still love you, my jaan..Byee..."

...........Yash did not stay on line to hear Riya say "I love you too..."

Nimit knew Yash was her best friend and trusted Riya with everything.He held her close,whispered a sweet "I love you,sweetheart" and wished her a warmest wish for the sixth year they were going to begin together...

REMINDER of how it used to be...

2011-12-14T16:16:00.001+05:30

Shit shit shit shit!!!!!

:(
Not again...
I don't want to write this !! :( :( :(
Don't read through please and if you do, please don't ask me anything regarding it! :(
I just watched a movie and all I could do in the movie was miss him...
Yaaa..I'm not lying.. :(
I still miss him and what we had... :( :( :(
I'm feeling so bad..I'm reminded of the old times yet again..
I read somewhere..."Face your problems, Don't facebook them"...!!
Well, in that case..I'm not complaining!!!!!

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I miss you.I miss you.I miss you....
[No,I did not copy-paste that... I miss you a lottttt] :(
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I'm in a horrible mindset right now and the following paragraph is going to be really rude and sarcastic.If you don't have the heart to read it, just skip this part....
DISCLAIMER : I am not responsible for anything that you feel after you read the following paragraph.
Do not read it if you wish to ask me questions after reading it.
I AM CERTAINLY NOT ANSWERABLE.
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You keep pulling me back...
You keep tearing me apart...
You get my hopes high...
And then break them down...
You say things you don't mean...
You break me and you make my heart cry...
Yes, you keep pulling me back...
Back to the times of "you and me"...
Back to the times of our love so free...
I have a request to make to you...
If you don't wish to hold on to me,
Don't even try to pull me back,PLEASE!!!!
If you don't wish to love me back
Please don't even make me love you a bit...
'Cause I am strong enough to fight for the one I love
But perhaps you will never love me that way I expect you to..

Tagged by Chirag...!! :)

2011-12-12T11:59:00.003+05:30

97 truths about me!! :)
Couldn't find 3 more questions..
Tagged from here----> Click HERE!
:)

1)Last Drink
Coffee
2)Last Phone Call
Dad
3)Last text message
A college friend Neel
4)Last song I listened to
Why this kolaveri di
5)Last time I cried
October 2011
Have you ever
6)Got back with someone I broke up with?
Ummmmmmmm.. Not really..but yaa as friends for a few moments thereafter!
7)Been cheated on?
YES!
8)Kissed someone and regretted it?
It made me smile for a moment so NO REGRETS!
9)Lost someone special?
YES!!!!
10)Been depressed?
Yup.. I get momentary spontaneous depression fits...
11)Been drunk and threw up
Nah!
12)Three favorite colors
Red
13)Red
14)Red! :P
15)This year I have
Learned a lot..
16)Fallen out of love
No..I wish I could! :)
17)Laughed until you cried
Yup...4/12/2011
18)Met someone who changed me this year..
A bit of yes..A bit of no.. :P I change but then rebounce back to my own self 'cause it's good to be original! :)
19)Found out who my true friends are
On 21/11/2011
20)Found out someone who has just been talking about me?
Yes!!!!!
21)Made fun of someone?
That's a good timepass, if it doesn't hurt anyone..So YES!
22)How many of your fb friends do you know in real life?
All..EXCEPT ONE! :) who never granted me an opportunity to know *him* :) !
23)Eye Color
Black iris.. :P
24)Pets
I love them..I've had 2 rabbits, a parrot and 2 tortoises but none at present! :(
25)Changing name
Nah!
26)Last Birthday
The BEST!
27)Time I woke up
7:30 AM
28)At midnight
Sleeping! :P
29)Something I can't wait for
14/02/2012 and 12/12/12
30)Last time I saw my mother
A moment back! :)
31)One thing I could change...
SECRET! :)
32)Listening to
My heartbeats! :)
33)Talked to a person named Rahul..
Not in the recent past!
34)Getting on my nerves
LIES and BETRAYAL...!! :( HIS indifference...!
35)Most visited web page
Other than facebook??? :P :P
www.wherethoughtsarewords.com :)
36)Real Name
Disha
37)Nicknames
Dish, Dishu,Di according to the place I hold in their life..
38)Relationship Status
Taken....
For Granted by someone I love! :) <3
39)Zodiac Sign
Moon sign: Pisces
Sun sign: Scorpio
40)Gender
Female
41)First best friend
Parita
42)Book
TWILIGHT series..only...
43)Movie
Jab we met
44)Hair color
Black...
45)Length
I love long hair
46)Height
4'9"
47)Skin
Wheatish
48)What do I really like about myself?
"I CARE!!"
"मैं अपनी favorite हूँ"
49)Piercings
I would love to have one except ears! :)
50)Tattoos
NO!
51)Right or Left
RIGHT!
FIRST
52)Surgery
Sounds scary! :( No!! :(
53)Best Friend
Can't be biased and name just one! :)
There are lots of friends who have stood by me...
54)Hero
My mama
55)Love
It was awesome while it WAS !!! <3
56)Heartbreak
Not really.. My heart is a muscle..It doesn't break..It just gets torn ! :)
57)Piercing
Ears :) I answered it before, didn't I? :P
58)Death in the family
My paternal grandmother in 2004...I still miss her! :(
59)Time I got grounded
Not yet! :P
60)I'm about to....
check how many more questions to go :P
61)Listening to
Dhinka Chika !! :P :P
62)Waiting for
These questions to end! :(
63)I'm feeling
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
64)Lips or eyes
Eyes which never LIE! :)
65)Hugs or kisses
HUG!!!!!!!!!! :)
66)Shorter or Taller?
Shorter
67)Older or younger
Younger ANY DAY! :)
68)Romantic or spontaneous
Spontaneous
69)Stomach or arms
Arms
70)Sensitive or loud
Sensitive
71)A hook-up or relationship
Not just a RELATIONSHIP :) A RELATIONSHIP WORTH DYING FOR! :)
Have you:
72)Kissed a stranger?
NAAAAAAAA! :|
73)Drank hard liquor?
I don't drink!
74)Lost glasses or contacts?
My eyes are quite healthy.I don't have glasses! :)
75) _ _ _ on first date?
Not on any DATE! :P
76)Broken someone's heart?
NO, 'cause I know how it feels to be broken! :( :'(
77)Been arrested?
No!
78)Turned someone down?
Unknowingly May be..
79)Cried when someone died?
YES!
80)Fallen for a friend?
YUP...but I wish I hadn't ! :)
Do you believe in
81)Myself?
Yes...!
82)Society?
I am forced to!!!! :|
83)Heaven?
Yes
84)Santa Claus?
Yes...I love Christmas. I respect my Indian values but I believe a lot in Lord Jesus and Mother Mary!
85)Love?
I used to...
86)Angels?
YAAAAAAAAAAAA!
87)God?
Hope my belief is not "BLIND" :)
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
88)Had more than one bf at a time?
Never had the courage to deceive HIM! :)
89)Did I sing today?
Nah...Not yet! :)
90)Did something illegal?
No!!
91)Go back in time...
I wish I could !
92)The biird is the woorrd...
Whattttttt???? :P पंछी बनूँ ...उडती फिरू मस्त गगन में ...आज मैं आज़ाद हूँ ....
93)Afraid of falling in love?
There was a time when I wished to fall in love but not anymore! I am damn scared and don't want to fall for anyone! I've had enough in the name of this intoxicating thing called "LOVE"...
94)Last time I lied?
10/12/2011
95)Late, early or right on time?
Early..Punctuality is certainly a virtue! :)
96)Give my life for others?
"OTHERS"? No.. but yes for just 3 people !! :)
97)Am I afraid to post this?
I am never scared to say the truth...As such, It's rare to find real people these days! :) My blog is definitely not fake 'cause it's a place WHERE THOUGHTS ARE WORDS...

I wish to pass on this tag to everyone who is truthful enough to say the TRUTH! :) :)

Life is indeed beautiful......!! :)

2011-11-26T22:40:00.000+05:30

Life is indeed beautiful in its own little ways...

I don't say life is fair...but it is certainly amazing the way it is.

Smile at life and life will smile at you... :)

Certain things are not in your hand, so why worry? Let life handle it the way it wants to and just sit back and accept things the way they are.

Life is made up of all super awesome moments with friends, family, your boyfriend/girlfriend, your wife/husband, your kids, your grandparents, your pets, your students or any close person in your life. It is about the memories you never want to forget with the people who have made you what you are...

Life...Life..Life..!! The question unanswered, the mystery unsolved.
Don't make any efforts which are not going to work in trying to solve this enigmatic thing...
It is perfectly perfect with its imperfections.We take easy things for granted,Don't we??

So life should be difficult,right??? Otherwise obviously we won't value it the way we do!!!!!

Be thankful that you're still alive. Everyone doesn't have a chance to see "tomorrow"; so be glad that you are able to wake up every morning.

You might be fed up of life, certain people, ways of destiny and lessons learned.But "LIFE" is totally worth it, isn't it???

If you don't think so, look back at the amazing times you have had in your life and look back again at the people you have had them with....

If you still are not convinced, look back at the one person you value the most. Had it not been for LIFE, you would have never really had that person. Even if that person's not with you, be grateful that you had that wonderful chance of atleast coming across him/her!! :) :) :)

That person could be your best friend or anyone else who taught you how to love and share the most important part of your LIFE!! :)

Happy Birthday Disha....!! :)

2011-11-22T00:00:00.030+05:30

Now playing...
"पहले से लिखा...कुछ भी नहीं...

रोज़ नया कुछ , लिखती है तू..

जो भी लिखा है, दिल से जिया है..

ये लम्हा जी लेने दे...

ये लम्हा फिलहाल जी लेने दे..!! :)"

A special post for the most special day---->

21/11/2011...

The day I had been waiting for since so many days!! :)

It finally arrived and quickly went away..

I would like to thank all the people who took out special time and called me up to wish me, to everyone who messaged me on facebook/ sent me a text message and who made some time from their busy schedules and remembered my birthday!!!! :)

Thanks a lot for your precious moments and most valued wishes. A simple "Happy Birthday" wish means a lot more than you think it does!!!! :)

Thank you to everyone who wished me-To HIM, HER...to all of THEM!! :)

.....and I'm really sorry to the one who wished me despite the fact that I could not wish him on his birthday!!!

:) :) :)

To the wonderful two decades of the thing called "LIFE" ....

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I had a super awesome time with my parents...because of whom I'm able to see these beautiful 2 decades of my life..quality moments with the most genuine and the most valued people of my life.. :)

I wish few years down the line I've someone who will do this for me... :-

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or atleast say this to me :-

Wishing you a very happy birthday , sweetheart!! :) <3 no matter what I'll always love you...even if no one else does, I always will!! :)

P.S. Please don't judge me on this post, not atleast my birthday post!!!

Happy fourth anniversary to US...!! :)

2011-11-14T00:00:00.000+05:30

Four years and still counting..

14/11/2007 to 14/11/2011...

We have had so many memories and looking forward for still more...!! :)

Yes..I've lost many friends I had
Many people left me when I needed them
In the middle of all those chaotic relations of my life
There was one who never changed
Inspite of the differences in perceptions and differences in thoughts
There was someone who was always there
How other friends and stupid guys irritated me
How they played and lied to me
He knows it all
How things are in my life
What kind of losers he has in his life
We know it,we care,we share everything
We love each other more than lovers do
He values me more than perhaps my boyfriend would
Through the good & bad times
We stand by each other as the best of friends
He is one special person I want to forever have and will always have
Forever won't end like it usually does
We don't need to tell each other any "I love you"s or "I miss you"s
It's all in the heart, It doesn't need to be proved
I can be myself with him
He doesn't judge me , try to change me or expect anything from me
No complains, no demands is the kind of bond we have
We're the best of friends,he is the most special friend I've ever had..

Love :- Disha... :)

We meet
We talk
We smile
We laugh
We cry
We share
We care
We joke
We tease
WE LOVE
We don't expect
We don't complain
We don't lie
We don't cheat
We don't play
We don't break hearts

I'M GLAD WE MET ALONG THE WAY...!! :)

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER...!!

2011-11-05T19:09:00.003+05:30

This is how two best friends talk ;)
The most amazing part is they can act as lovers and best friends!! <3

Her :- Heya!!! :)
Him :- Hie sweetheart! :) <3 How're you?
Her :- I'm good. You say ! How're you?What is your current relationship status? ;)
Him :- Me too... and I don't even know what is going on! :)

Her :- Hahaha! :)

Him :- What about you? Is that guy still the same or did he realize who is he missing on?

Her :- Don't ask.He doesn't even talk to me. LOSER!

Him :- Why do we both fall for losers? :D

Her :- Hahaha..Good one ;) May be because god wants us to know what kind of a person we should not be! :)

Him :- May be..!! :) You know you are not just my "sweetheart"..You're my "sweetest heart" ... <3

Her :- Awwwwww.. <3

Him :- Seriously if we don't find the ones we deserve, we shall marry each other..

Her :- I swear..That would even make my dream of marrying my best friend come true! :)

Him :- I guess I'm falling for you... <3

Her :- Hehehe..ya lets forget those losers and talk about us..

Him :- I would indeed fall very hard for you if you keep telling me that you would love to marry your best friend... :) :) I really love youuuuuu..

Her :- I love you too and that too a lot more than I love those losers in my life..! :)

Him :- Missing you, darling.. :(

Her :- I miss you too..We shall meet up tomorrow for a long drive in your Fabia... <3 ;)

Him :- Sure deal..Chal ab call karta hu teko.. <3

Rest of the conversation :- PERSONAL!! :)

Those crucial moments at night...

2011-11-01T19:51:00.000+05:30

The most difficult moments are the ones at night when I can't really help but miss him.

I feel like dialing his number, making him a call and asking him to talk to me throughout the night.
I feel like going to sleep after hearing his voice.
I wish I can run upto him and giving him a warm loving hug.
I really want to text him so bad right now.
I wish he would call me up in the middle of the night and say--"Hey, I was missing you..."
I hug my teddy bear but sadly it doesn't hug me back!! :(

I want just one guy who would stay awake just because I have not slept yet...
I want one special person to be with me all my life and stand by me all the while..

I really want to get out of this horrible feeling at night when the four walls of my room suffocate me and make me feel so lonely ..!!!!

What do you do???

2011-10-24T01:20:00.000+05:30

What do you do when you feel there's no one for you???

What do you do when you walk away and no one would come after you???

What do you do when you cry and quit and no one would be there to stop you???

What do you do when you share it with your teddy bear and hug it but it doesn't hug you back and you have no one else to look up to???

It's actually brings tears when the person who promised to never let you down and still promises to never hurt you has already done it???

What do you do when the one you love tells you that he misses her and has fallen for her???

What do you expect from life when the one you can die for doesn't even bother to be with you???

What do you do when you scroll through your phone book and find that no one will wipe your tears???

What do you do when looking back makes you cry and looking through the present scares you???

What do you do when the person who can stop your tears was the one who brought them to your eyes???

What do you do when you send a smiley which is smiling but inside you're dying every moment and crying???

What do you do when the person you thought would stand by you is the first one to go away from you???

What do you do when the only person who can make everything alright by just being there leaves you alone???

What do you do when life tests you every moment and you're not strong and you're not even enough prepared to take those awful tests of fate and God's ways???

What do you do when you let loose and no one holds on to you and fights for you???

What do you do when prayers are unanswered, letters to God remain unsent, your words remain unread, your screams are unheard and your silence is misunderstood to be acceptance, ignorance and indifference....

P.S. This is a momentary outburst.. I would be fine by now..!! Atleast I hope to! :)

I have had enough!!!!

2011-10-21T16:40:00.000+05:30

I'm done chasing you,
I'm done trying to have you
I'm fed up of praying for you
I've done enough of dreaming,wishing and hoping for you
It isn't working and would never work
I'm tired of writing poems and posts just for you
Those unsent letters,Those unheard words...
I'm tired of giving you hints
I'm sick of showing you that I care!
I'm done with your "This won't work" approach
I've had enough of your cold behaviour
I loved you and perhaps still do
If you don't love me, let it just be
I don't want to say this,but you've lost me...!!

Copyrights :- Where thoughts are words.

I wish I could steal the moments from his life...!! :)

2011-10-19T08:14:00.000+05:30

Inspired from HERE!! :)

आज सोचती हूँ थोडा और जान लूँ तुझे..
तेरी बाते बहोत मानी , आज कुछ मेरी बाते भी मनवा लूँ तुझसे..
ज़िन्दगी कब कैसा मोड़ ले नहीं पता मुझे..
कभी साथ दे तो किसी का साथ कभी ले लेती है ज़िन्दगी
आज हमेशा के लिए मेरे तरफ मोड़ लूँ तुझे..
प्यार के एहसास की लेनदेन करके
आज उसी प्यार भरे एहसास में ढाल लूँ तुझे..
आज थोडा सा पा लूँ मैं तुझे..
तेरी ज़िन्दगी के कुछ पल चुरा लूँ तुझसे..
आज सोचती हूँ थोडा और जान लूँ तुझे....

I can't imagine my life without you!!!

2011-10-14T08:13:00.000+05:30

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તું છે એ એક માત્ર વ્યક્તિ જેને હું ભૂલી શકતી નથી

બધા જાણે છે જે વાત એ હું તને કહી શકતી નથી

તું છે એ નામ જે હું તારી સામે લઇ શકતી નથી

તું છે મારા જીવવાનું કારણ,તારા વિના આ જીવન હું વિચારી શકતી નથી..!!!

Now playing :- Heaven by Bryan Adams..!!

Who do you select????

2011-10-05T22:07:00.002+05:30

Note :- This is to the girls out there who play with the one who loves them and loves the one who isn't even going to play with them....!!! :P :P :P

Its indeed a high time you stop playing with your life and decide what's right for you....

Or rather "WHO" is right for you..!!!

Is the guy who you love the right choice or is the guy who loves you even more than you love the other guy the one made for you??

Is the guy who never talks to you but still you love him, better than the guy who always makes you feel alive and makes you feel special?

Is the guy who doesn't love you but is the sweetest guy ever, better than the guy who actually expresses his feelings and "says it loud" ?

Is the guy who is never going to fall for you, better than the one who has already given you his heart?

Is the guy who is never going to understand what he means to you, better than the one for whom you're his world?

Is it fair to leave the guy who loves you because you don't love him?
Is it fair to wait for the guy who doesn't love you and who is never going to love you back and miss the one who already does?
It isn't a good thing when you wait for the text of that someone who doesn't love you and ignore the text/call of the one who really does and you don't even answer his call.
That's exactly what that person who doesn't love you back, is doing to you...
Strangely, you stalk his profile and there's someone who stalks your profile, but you don't care!!!!

What do you do when someone loves you but you cannot love him back?
What do you do when you love someone who doesn't love you back?

Love is not at all easy. We always love the one who we cannot have and have the one we don't love...!!
But the best part would be loving "BACK" the one who loves you 'cause atleast someone in the world would get the one he loves and who would not have to look back, regret and say - "Damn, I did not get my love"....

He'll be able to tell your kids "Your mom's the answer to perfect love and the only one I gave my heart too"...and your kids would actually be able to believe in a happily ever after....!!!!!!

So isn't it great to love the one who loves you and forget the one who never did, who was never worth anything that you did for him, who was never worth the wait and who never deserved your heart...!!!

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2011-10-01T23:14:00.008+05:30

This is an exclusive post in three languages.

Gujarati...

Now playing :-

"પેહલા પ્રેમ ની પેહલી એ નજર..કોઈ કેમ ભૂલે જીંદગી ભર..

મીઠા દર્દ ની મીઠી એ અસર કોઈ કેમ ભૂલે જીંદગી ભર...!!"

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શું તને એહસાસ છે જે એહસાસ મને છે?

શું તને કદી મારી યાદ સતાવે છે?

શું મારું સુંદર સ્વપ્ન શક્ય છે?

આ ઘેલછા નથી, આ મારી લાગણી છે

આ સવાલો ના જવાબ માં છુપાયેલ મારું જીવન છે

આ જીવન બહુ ટુકું છે માનું છું હું

પણ તું છે તો ટૂંકું જીવન પણ મને મંજૂર છે

તારા વિના નું લાંબુ જીવન બી વ્યર્થ છે

તારી તકલીફો માં તારી સાથે છું હું

એ આશાની કિરણ બની જે તને રાહ બતાવે

એ પ્રેરણા નો સંચાર બની જે તને હિંમત આપે

શું તું પણ આપીશ મને જીવન ભર નો સાથ?

તને મેળવવાની ઈચ્છા તો ઘણી છે

પણ એ થી વધુ ચિંતા તારી ખુશી ની છે

તું ખુશ રહે, સદા મારી પ્રાર્થના છે એ

શું તારી કોઈ પ્રાર્થના મારા માટે છે?

શું તારા જીવનની કોઈ પળ માત્ર મારી છે?

આપણે બંને બે જુદા વ્યક્તિ છીએ

પરંતુ તારા તો એક જ જોઈએ છીએ ને?

ચંદ્ર તો તું પણ એ જ જોવે છે ને?

એ પાંચ તત્વો માંથી તું પણ બનેલો છે ને?

તો આપનો પ્રેમ નથી એટલો અશક્ય .. હે ને?

તું મને ગમે છે, એ ખરી વાત છે

તે છતાં તારા જીવન પર તને પૂરો અધિકાર છે

તને પ્રેમ કરું છું પણ તારા પર કોઈ હક નથી કરવો મારે

તું બસ તારા જીવન માં એક ઓળખ આપ મને.

પ્રેમ નથી આપતો કોઈના પર અધિકાર ની મંજૂરી, સમજું છું હું..

તેથી તને તારું જીવન જીવવાની પૂરી છૂટ આપું છું હું..

તું માત્ર મારો છે, નથી કેહતી હું..

પણ તારો એક અંશ બસ મારા માટે રાખ તું..

મને સ્વીકાર્ય છે જેવો છે એવો તું

નથી બદલવા માંગતી કોઈ રીતે તને હું

તારા જીવન માં મારું અસ્તિત્વ માંગું છું હું

તારા પર પૂરો વિશ્વાસ મૂકું છું હું

આ જીંદગી નો ખાસ ભરોસો નથી કરતી હું

માટે હું છું ત્યાં સુધી તારો સાથ ઝંખું છું હું..

માનું છું સાત જન્મો ના વાયદા માં હું

પણ એવા કોઈ મહાન વાક્યો નથી બોલતી હું

બસ, શક્ય હશે તો સાત થી પણ વધુ જન્મ તારી સાથે જ રહીશ હું

મારા બધા જન્મો માં તારી પડખે રેહવા માંગું છું હું

જીવન નથી કોઈ પરી કથા અને નથી કોઈ પરી હું

પણ આપણા પ્રેમ થી રચવા માંગું છું એક પરીકથા જેવું વિશ્વ હું

આ જીવન માં બધું શક્ય છે, અશક્ય છે એવું...

પણ તારા જીવન માં મારી ઓળખ ઇચ્છુ છું હું..

શું તારો પ્રેમ બની શકું હું?

શું આપણા પ્રેમ ના તાંતણા થી એક વિશ્વ નિર્મિ શકું હું?

English

Now playing :-
"(Let me feel you)

It's been about a month and twenty days...
And we're going round and round jus playing silly games...
Now you're saying, slow it down, not right now...
Then ya wink at me and walk away..

let it be, let it be, let it be known...
hold on, don't go...
Touching and teasing me, telling me no...
But this time I need to feel you..."

___________________________

Do you feel what I feel?

Do you ever miss me?

Is my beautiful dream possible?

This is not obsession, This is what I feel for you

The answers of these questions have my life hidden in them

Life is too short,I understand that fact

But with you by my side, I love this short life too

Without you, a long life is also waste for me

I’ll be with you in the hardships of life

I’ll be the ray of hope which will show you way

I’ll be the source of inspiration which will give you strength

Will you too be the support forever in my life?

I do crave a lot for you

But more than that I crave for the happiness of you

My prayers are for your happiness

Is any of your prayer for me too?

Is any moment of your life solely mine?

Both of us are two different people,I know

But we both are under the same stars

We both see the same moon everyday

We both are made up of the same five elements,

So it is not quite impossible,the love story of me and you ! ?

I love you,that’s true

But you’ve all the right on your life

I don’t own you and love doesn’t give the right to own anyone

You’re only mine,I don’t say that

But I only long for a part of you

I accept you the way you’re

Never do I want to change what you are

I ask for an existence in your life

I pine for an identity in your life

I put all my trust on you

It’s this thing called LIFE which I don’t trust

That’s why I want to be with you forever till I am

I believe in the promises of seven rebirths

But I don’t wish to say such out of the world lines

If possible,I would live more than seven incarnations with you

I want to be with you all my lives

Life is not a fairytale and I am not a fairy

But I want to create a fairytale world by the magic of our love

Everything is possible, that is impossible

But Can I be your one and only love?

Hindi

Now playing :-
"तुम मिले..तो मिल गया ये जहा , तुम मिले तो जादू छा गया..तुम मिले तो मुस्कुराना आ गया...!! :)"

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क्या तुझे एहसास है जो एहसास है मुझे?

क्या कभी मेरी याद सताती है तुझे?

क्या संभव है मेरा सुन्दर सपना ये?

ये पागलपन नहीं, ये मेरा प्यार है तेरे लिए

इन सवालों के उत्तर में छिपा मेरा जीवन है

मानती हूँ मैं कि ये ज़िन्दगी के दिन बहोत कम है,

पर ये कम दिन भी तू है तो मंज़ूर है मुझे

तेरे बिना लम्बा जीवन भी व्यर्थ सा लगे

तेरी तकलीफों में तेरे साथ हूँ मैं

वो आशाकी किरण बनकर जो राह बताये तुझे

वो प्रेरणा का स्रोत बनकर जो हिम्मत दे तुझे

क्या तू भी देगा मुझे ज़िन्दगी भर का साथ?

तुझे पाने कि इच्छा तो बहोत है मुझे

पर उससे भी ज्यादा तेरी ख़ुशी कि चिंता है मुझे

तू खुश रहे येही सदा प्रार्थना है मेरी

क्या तेरी भी कोई प्रार्थना मेरे लिए है सही?

क्या तेरी ज़िन्दगी का कोई पल सिर्फ मेरे लिए है?

हम दोनों दो अलग व्यक्ति है

पर तारे तो तू भी वही देखता होगा ना?

चंदा तो वही तू भी देखता होगा ना?

उन्ही पाँच तत्त्व में से तू भी बना है ना?

तो हमारा प्यार इतना असंभव नहीं..है ना?

तू मुझे अच्छा लगता है, सच है ये

पर तेरी ज़िन्दगी पर तेरा पूरा अधिकार है

तुझसे बहोत प्यार करती हूँ पर तुझपे हक़ नहीं जाता सकती मैं

बस तेरी ज़िन्दगी में अपनी एक पहचान चाहती हूँ मैं

प्यार नहीं देता किसी पर हक़ जताने की मंजूरी,समजती हूँ मैं

इसीलिए तेरी ज़िन्दगी जीने की तुझे पूरी आज़ादी देती हूँ मैं

तू सिर्फ मेरा है,ऐसा नहीं कहती मैं

बस तेरा एक अंश मेरे लिए रखना चाहती हू मैं

मुझे पसंद है जैसा है वैसा तू..

नहीं बदलना चाहती तुझे किसी तरह से मैं

तेरी ज़िन्दगी में मेरा एक अस्तित्व चाहती हूँ मैं

तेरे पर पूरा भरोसा है मुझे

इस ज़िन्दगी पर नहीं ज़्यादा विश्वास मुझे

इसीलिए जब तक हूँ, तेरा साथ चाहती हु मैं

मानती हूँ मैं सात जनम के वादों में

पर ऐसे कोई महान वाक्य नहीं बोलती मैं

बस संभव होगा तो सात से भी ज़्यादा जन्म तेरे साथ बिताना चाहती हूँ मैं

मेरे सारे जनम तेरी बाहों में रहना चाहती हूँ मैं

ज़िन्दगी नहीं कोई परी कथा और ना ही हूँ मैं कोई परी

पर हमारे प्यार से बनाना चाहती हूँ एक परी कथा जैसा जहां मैं

ये ज़िन्दगी में सब संभव है, असंभव है ये

क्या तेरा प्यार बन सकती हूँ मैं?

क्या हमारे प्यार के धागों से एक हसीं जहाँ बुन सकती हूँ मैं?

Things which hurt so much...

2011-09-29T20:10:00.001+05:30

NOTE :- This post is purely fictional and imaginary.Do not relate it to any realistic situation!

It hurts when people update their relationship status to "committed" or "engaged" and all you can do is congratulate them and wish them HAPPINESS.

It hurts when your best friend holds her boyfriend's hand and kisses him in front of you and you can do nothing but smile and miss the one you love.

It hurts when you go out with your friends and see couples all around and tell your friends "Are we the only singles left?"

It hurts when your facebook news feed is full of the pics of your friends with their boyfriend/fiance/husband and you feel so left out.

It hurts when you love someone and he has no idea about your feelings.

It hurts when you long to talk to him and all he has to do is murder the conversation with an "okay".

It hurts a lot when you actually take out time and gather courage to text him & he doesn't bother to reply and even if he does he makes you look stupid by replying the next day or 3 days later and makes no efforts to talk to you or make any conversation going.

It hurts when he writes a status update on facebook and you get so tempted to like/comment on it but obviously you don't 'cause you don't want to look like an "obsessed stalker".

It hurts so much when he puts up his super awesome photograph on facebook and all you can do is download it to view later when you miss him when all his other female friends get to compliment him and you envy those lucky people of his life.

You can naturally not write "I love this pic"/"I love you" as a comment 'cause he doesn't even take the trouble to "like"/"comment" on your convocation pic/graduation ceremony pic which most unexpected people had liked and commented on.

It hurts even more when he asks you who is the lucky one for whom this post is written and you can only change the topic or take some random name "XYZ" instead of "*******".

It hurts when your friends blame you for him not loving you and tell you"Obviously he doesn't care you exist" instead of being a good listener for once.

It hurts the most when everything you do,you do it for him but it is just not good enough and nothing he does seems to be for you 'cause he's just not into you...

To sum up this post,it hurts really bad to love someone and not be loved back!!!!!!

Hearts united and souls connected!!!!! :)

2011-09-28T11:28:00.000+05:30

Dear *******,

This one's for you...!!

It feels awesome when a simple random facebook add request gives you a forever relationship.

It's amazing how those "one-line" "Hie,how're you"? questions become "How much did you miss me" and "How much do you love me".

It's very sweet when "What time do you usually sleep" changes to "Please stay up and talk to me.I want to fall asleep while talking to you."

It's absolutely wonderful how "Hie friend" changes to "Hie sweetheart";how the first thought of "Why did you even add me"? changes to "Thank God, you added me.";How those late night long conversations become the most amazing conversations you've had, wherein all the secrets are very comfortably shared;How the sleepless nights and the texts throughout the night with someone you thought was just a friend becomes the one you want to spend your entire life with;how the person for whom you spend all your free messages becomes the one you want to wake up next to;How the person for whom you fall somewhere between all these moments is the one who is deeply in love with you.....

...............And all of a sudden daddy's little girl has grown up to be someone's dream come true,someone's better half and someone's reason to live for.....

................And mum's little boy has stolen someone's heart, become her Prince Charming and someone for whom that little girl would give up anything...................................!!!!!!!!!!!!