When I started my therapy and healing practice many years ago I bought a Peace Lily for my office.

I placed it by the front entrance because according to Feng Shui the plant would absorb the noise from the outside corridor so not to bother those of us in deep work inside.

Plants are also believed to create peace and calm in people, facilitate healing and absorb negativity.

My Peace Lily went through hell.

With all the releasing happening during Core Belief Engineering Sessions my plant, full of unconditional love, absorbed negative energy from my clients during transformation.

When I went away on holiday and forgot to give the plant to someone for care it fell to the brink of death on more then one occasion.

When I worked with clients helping them bring victory and joy into their lives, my peace lily visibily danced with excitement.

Over three years ago my peace lily stopped blooming. It was stagnant in growth but remained a living green plant.

I never gave up on it because it wouldn’t let me.

Despite growing up on a farm surrounded by greenhouses and people with green thumbs I am a plant killer. But this peace lily stuck with me.

Last fall during meditation my lily asked me to repot it into a bigger more beautiful cask. 

I listened and found a beautiful pot for it to grow into.

Once the repotting was complete. The peace lily told me that it needed a friend. And so the same afternoon I received its request, I went out and bought a money plant to be its companion.

Over the last six months the two plants have flourished.

A couple of weeks ago I noticed that my peace lily was sporting a bloom.  I was thrilled because I knew that it was feeling loved and nurtured and ready once again to bring more beauty into my life and into the lives of those who would gaze upon it.

Today as I watered my plants I noticed that in fact there are three flowers on the lily.

Three the number of the holy trinity.

Definitely a sign that a blossoming is happening in my life and in the lives of those  with whom I am connected  personally and professionally.

Signs from the Universe Come In All Shapes And Forms.

What signs are you receiving?

~Love, Esther

PS. February comment contest continues…

• Place a glass jug of water in direct view of the Sun and allow the golden rays to purify and charge your water with its activating life force.
• Keep the jug of water in direct sun for at least 5-6 hours
• Set the intention that the rays of sunshine will activate the molecules of the water and fill them with the light of God and the Universe
• I like to do a short meditation/visualization and or prayer asking the sun and the Universe to place light, love and healing energy into the water for the highest and best good of all
• Once the jug of water has been charged use it for drinking, bathing, watering plants, cleaning your crystals or in anyway you desire
• While I drink the living water I use my imagination to visualize the solar frequencies filling every cell of my body with God’s light and love.

Every relationship you are in has a purpose.

Whether it is an intimate love relationship of husband and wife, boyfriend and girlfriend….

The relationship between siblings, cousins and friends…

The relationship you have with your workmates, the people you gather with to drink coffee, play sports with, meditate with or do crafts with…

The relationships you have big or small with the clerk at the grocery store, the man who issues you your lottery ticket, the ticket taker at the parking garage all have a purpose….

Every relationship has a purpose.

Yes some are deeper then others.

Some are longer then others.

Some involve conflict and others involve love, affection and camaraderie.

When you begin to see everyone moving in and out of your life whether they bring joy or a scowl to your face as a relationship with a purpose, then you begin to see the magic of life. You begin to see how everyone and everything is connected. You begin to see that nothing is by chance and that everything has a purpose……

Including every relationship you have ever had and will have in the future.

Each relationship provides you with an opportunity to heal old wounds, learn about forgiveness, propel you forward in your own growth, bring joy and love into your world.

Bless those relationships. Be grateful for them even the trying ones for they teach you the most.

Be okay with releasing relationships when their time has come to end.

Every relationship has a purpose. Place this belief on the filters of your eyes and you will begin to see everyone and the world around you in a whole new way.

~Love, Esther

Last night my controller part raised its ugly head. I was checking emails and a note popped up from an acquaintance who wanted to change a meeting date.

As I read the words I could feel my controller part start to rise inside of myself. (what is a part? click here)  This is the part of me that always wants to be in control, wants everything my way and doesn’t like to budge for other people.

Ten years ago my controller was my biggest self saboteur for it was fully present in all areas of my life.

At the time it thought it was helping by protecting me, making me feel safe and  keeping me comfortable by getting people to do things my way. Yes it thought it was showing me love by honoring and watching out for me. The is controller part had a real, “I’ve got your back,” attitude.

But what my controller part was really doing was creating havoc in my life. It sent an energy eminating  from me that people didn’t like; keeping them at distance. It created an energy of force, resistance and hardness in my body and in my life. It made me rigid, unaccommodating, selfish (not a good way), prideful, arrogant and at times belligerent.

This controller while it thought it was helping me created unease in my life. It sabotaged me in friendships, business connections, meetings and at work.

The controller and its effect resulted in behaviors such as arguing, overeating; a militant attitude towards exercise. The result was that I was often tired, depleted, unhappy, unproductive, lacking friends and had a strain on my face and body which was very apparent.

Yes a controlling part can have all of these effects and more on individuals.

I spent much time working on my control part using the Core Belief Engineering technique and have shifted it to a place of camaraderie rather then of distress.

You see there are times when having a controlling attitude or part is good. Like when there is a crisis and everyone around you is falling apart and you rise to the occasion and take control of the situation. Or when you are hosting a workshop or meeting and all eyes are on you to lead the group. To have a part that can assist you in controlling the atmosphere, the agenda, the result of the day is a big thumbs up.

Last night when my control part surfaced,  it was the controller of days of old. I felt the familiar hot flash move through my body which signals to me that it is raising its ugly head. I can physically feel it moving from my stomach up into my throat and then peer out of my eyes. It moved fast and it was ticked off.

As it emerged I was conscious enough to know that I needed to step away from the computer and refrain from responding to the email. I knew that a quick response would have been sent with the wrong tone and vibration and would have done more harm then good.

For 24 hours I restrained myself from response and during that time I looked at the beliefs which were anchoring the rise of the controller.

Digging deep to the core I saw that I didn’t feel valued in the situation. I felt taken advantage of, that this commitment was something I didn’t really want to do in the first place. I didn’t honor myself by saying No the first time around.

And so my controller was coming to the rescue ready to tell this person off and save me from doing something I didn’t want to do.

But I knew that letting my controller loose was not the way to go. It would only result in damage and it wouldn’t have lined up with my purpose and intention of being kind, helpful and moving people forward.

Once I identified these limiting thoughts and beliefs and had a CBE style discussion with my control part it simmered down.

The next morning when I went back to my computer to respond to the email my eyes and mind read the words differently. In the email were words like, I would greatly appreciate it if… I know you have a busy schedule and you are doing this as a favor but would you consider, if you are unable to accommodate us we understand.

I missed those words the first time around when my controller raised its ugly head.

A Controller is an important part of our psyche. It can be a good helpmate and as you can see it can be destructive.

Perhaps you have controlling tendencies or you are living with someone with control issues and it is time to do something about it. Getting to the core, which is at  the the level of belief and making change at that level will create a deep transformation from within which will greatly ease or release your controlling issues and bring peace back into your life.

~Love, Esther

PS. During the Month of February 2012 I am holding a contest. Winner gets a free 30 telephone channeled reading. All you have to do is leave a meaningful comment on this or any other blog post on my site. Good luck!

Sometimes we hit wall when we have done everything we can and know how to do and are clueless as to what the next step is. It is at these times that we often throw our hands up in the air and say to ourselves, “What do I do now?”

In this part two post (read part one here) I would like to offer to you the second course that I take when faced with this exact situation.

2. Do something off beat and/or radical.

What do I mean by this?

We have all heard the advice if you find yourself always turning left then turn right; see what heading in a new direction brings you. There is great merit to this advice.

I remember several years ago during a very cold and snowy February day I was in the midst of a  deep bout of the winter blah’s. I had lost all motivation for my business, hope was waning, joy was no where to be found and I was dumbfounded as to how to get myself out of this emotional state.

Being a Core Belief Engineering Practitioner I knew that a CBE process with my Part that feels Blah was the best action to take but until I could book a session I needed to do something fast to move some energy.

In the last post I talked about being still and letting Universe sort things out. Now I am going to offer to you the opposite approach and say, “Do something now!” Anything!

That snowy day I created a list of five things I was going to do or set in motion by the end of the day.

1. Call someone I needed closure with and let the conversation play out.

2. Head down to the waterfront and take a walk along the beach–yes in the snowstorm–to ground myself and allow the wind to shift my energy.

3. Buy some health supplements that I intuitively knew would be beneficial but I had put off purchasing.

4. Head to the library and get some books on raw food and nutrition. My body was craving raw and fresh at that time and I wasn’t feeding it properly.

5. Call a friend and arrange a lunch date at a restaurant I had been wanting to try.

All of these action steps had nothing to do with my work dilemma and being stuck but they were all things I knew intuitively I needed or wanted to do and  had been putting off.

Spirit was telling me that taking these steps would shift energy and  my vibration.

Once the list was made I began to take action. By the end of the end day all five items had been addressed.

I felt accomplished. I felt vibrant. I felt that I had taken steps towards something good. I went to bed that night feeling great about myself and life.

I could feel the energy shift and I knew that as I shifted my energy I would be able to see the challenging situations in my life with new eyes and perspective.

Did it work?

Absolutely! I pulled myself out of the funk immediately. The next day  I woke up inspired to meet the day and yes I addressed the deeper core issues with a CBE session.

So the next time you come to that point of “I don’t know what to do,” consider these two options.

Be still and let God/Universe

or

Do something completely offbeat and radical.

~Love, Esther

PS. Don’t forget I am holding a month long contest for February 2012. Leave a meaningful comment on this or any other blog post and be entered to win a 30 minute telephone channeled reading. Each meaningful comment counts as an entry.

This is a fabulous question and I have asked it to myself and others many times over the years. It pops up frequently when you feel you have done everything you can think of to move  forward or resolve an issue and nothing seems to be working.  At this point you most likely plop yourself down in a chair, sigh and say to yourself, “What do I do now?”

When I have reached this point there are two courses that I take and I use my intuition and Universal guidance to help me decide which one.

1. There is a beautiful Bible verse that says: Be still and know I am God. Psalm 46:10. From my church days to my current days I still rest in this verse when I don’t know what to do next.

My interpretation of this verse is: relax and take a breath; stop working things out in your head and allow God/Universe to figure it out. Universe knows the desires of your heart and what you are wanting and working on. God can see the bigger picture and knows exactly what you need not only for today but also for tomorrow and the next day.

To me this verse means stop being so hard on yourself and go have some fun. It doesn’t mean giving up or throwing your hands up in defeat. It means take a breather, step aside and let God/Universe take over.

This course requires strong beliefs of trust in the Universe and the unknown; being okay with not being in control and knowing that all things work together for good. Stepping aside and letting Universe do its thing means surrendering to God and believing with all your heart, soul and mind that the Universe is conspiring on your behalf to bring you the people, resources and information you need even when you can’t  feel or see it.

Surrendering in this way requires deep faith and trust in all that is.

When I take this route I find that the pressure in my chest releases.

My highly charged emotional state neutralizes.

I am able to think more  clearly and joy begins to seep back into the situation and into my life.

Then in Divine timing the answers come and the next step is clearly laid out for me.

There is a second course that I sometimes opt to take and I’ll address that in my next post.

~Love, Esther

Many people I talk to on a daily basis ask me this question: ”How do I find my purpose? and/or What is my purpose?”

The Tribunal my channeling guides often answer by saying, “Your purpose is whatever has been presented to you at any given moment.”

I tell people that my purpose found me. I wasn’t looking for it.

And yet many continue to stress about their life’s purpose which is an energy that only keeps your purpose bay.

But there is good news!

On February 3rd the planet Neptune shifts into its home sign of Pisces and will stay there for 14 years. This is very significant for all of us. I encourage you to find a good horoscope and see what this means specifically for your particular birth sign however there are some general aspects to this change which will effect everyone across the planet.

Neptune rules the subconscious. As it reconnects with Pisces it will help all of us on planet earth to explore our inner world. For some this might be troubling as issues rise from the depths for change and transformation. For others who have been doing their inner work and embrace the spiritual journey, this move will further aid in the cleansing and purging process.

The new position of Neptune will help us to explore the worlds of dreams, spirits and mysticism. On a global scale it will influence many areas such as spirituality, the arts, music, charity and entertainment.

For us holistic healers this is fabulous news because finally we will get the recognition that we deserve as more and more people will be open to and drawn to spiritual and holistic modalities for healing.

Neptune in Pisces will also assist us in connecting with our higher purpose as individuals, countries and on a global scale.

Universal love will be a focus along with a push towards greater self love and acceptance.

This shift that is happening  February 3rd is a big one. We will notice the effects immediately and they will linger and stay with us for 14 years.

Is it any wonder that so much attention has been placed on 2012 as being a time of a great change on planet earth?

For those of you still struggling to find your purpose, be open  there is a message for you in this energy.

~Love, Esther

Friday 7:30 pm EST.

I just received an email alert that  an X Class Solar Flare, the strongest one this year has erupted from the same area of the sun that experienced solar flare bursts earlier this week.

Remember how we all felt just a few days ago? Most of us experienced extreme fatigue, loss of concentration and a general feeling of being zapped. There were a few who felt energized. The effects of the flares hit us all differently depending on our needs and where we are in our ascension process. Some people might not feel a thing and that is perfectly normal as well.

Many people and businesses also experienced problems with technology and more then one person I know had some of their electronic equipment completely fizzle out.

More of the same is heading our way.

Again I tell you this not to frighten you for fear is an unhealthy and unproductive way of being. Rather my intention is to inform you so that you have an idea of what is happening in the world around you and how to deal with it.

I believe that these solar flares are very significant and an essential part of The Shift  and the 2012 transition.

The Tribunal my channeling guides tell me that the energy from the flares are assisting us in the ascension process, changing our DNA and lifting us into higher consciousness and dimensions.

Good news for those who are ready and wanting the change. Uncomfortable for those who continue to hold onto old, outdated and limiting ways of thinking and being.

What can you do?

 Go with the flow and allow the energy to help you to release what you need and want to.

Stop arguing for your limitations. Rest, hydrate and ground yourself. As I mentioned earlier this week on a face book post, walking barefoot on the earth is highly beneficial.

News Report on the solar flare–click here.

~Love, Esther

Just as a good wine needs time to breathe in order to develop flavors, a steak needs to rest for five minutes before serving in order to keep the meat juicy and a cake needs to cool before frosting,  you too need to take some time to breathe, rest and cool off.

Sometimes in the busyness of life and the quest of reaching for goals we forget to stop and rest.

A nap in the middle of the days seems like an indulgence.

A free afternoon of play feels naughty when there is a pile of things to do stacked up by your computer.

A short meditation seems like a nuisance when you have a deadline to meet.

But sometimes we need to stop and recharge in order to get the results we seek.

Rushing creates mistakes, missed opportunities, accidents and slips.

Slowing down to breathe, rest and cool off allows new ideas to pop up, clarity to surface, confirmation that you are on the right track to emerge and allows you to enjoy the journey.

Often just a short five minute break can alter your day in a positive way. Whether you close your eyes, take some deep breathes or simply gaze out the window a pause in your busy routine will return you to a state of presence and well being. It is here in this more calm and collected state that the pieces fall into place; the magic surfaces.

If you find yourself challenged to take even a short break in the middle of your busy day may I suggest limiting beliefs and perceptions are at hand. Beliefs such as: I don’t have the time to take a break. People will think I am lazy. People will think I am not responsbile. Taking a break won’t do any good. Or you fill in the blank ________ as you know best what you have been telling yourself.

Change those beliefs and you’ll find  the freedom of a breather in the middle of the day to be a blessing rather then a curse.

In fact start now. Close your eyes. Take a breath and for just a couple of minutes day dream about something fabulous.

~Love, Esther

PS. My eyes are closing now……

sometimes in the quest of living life and reaching for goals you need to rest too

One of the most frequently asked questions I field is:

What does it mean when I see double and triple numbers especially

  1-1-1 and 4-4-4.

Seeing doubles and triplicates of the same number is not a new phenomena but more and more people are taking notice and want to know the significance. And yes there is a significance to this occurrence which is unique to each individual.

When someone asks me the above question they typically check out a website or a book which outlines the meaning of a specific number. This is a great place to start. Numerology is a fascinating arena and I use it often in my life. In fact I used it when coming up with the name of my new website You’re Almost There Girl.

Once that step has been taken I encourage individuals to go deeper and discover what the number or sequence of numbers means specifically to them. To learn what is their own private message. Generalizations are a nice jumping off point but I believe and utilize in my therapy practice and beyond, the practice of guiding each person to an understanding of what something means specifically to them.

Allow me to give you some examples from my own life.

Previously whenever I saw 11 or 444 or 5678 it was a signal to me that everything was lining up in my life.

Last year around November 11th when I saw 11-11 it was a sign that I needed to take notice of the significance of that date in regards to the The Shift of consciousness around the world.

Now when I see one’s lining up it’s my inner self telling me that what I anchored and shifted during 11-11 has integrated and I need to take time to reflect and validate the changes.

Previously whenever I saw 444 or 44 it was a sign to me that angels were close by. I took great comfort in this sign knowing that the angels had my back and were working on my behalf in challenging situations in my life.

Now when I see 44 or 444 there is a whole different meaning attached. Currently my spirit shows me these numbers to tell me that I am fully anchored in the 4th dimension. Then within a couple of hours somewhere, somehow I see 55 or 555 and that is my inner self saying, “And you are catapulting into the 5th dimension.” I feel this jump even though it is a bit wobbly at times. The confirmation that the jump is happening is encouraging.

The number five had always been my favorite number and I associate magic and mysticism with it. I still do and now with the added bonus of the message of 5th dimension living,  I find the number five a very magical number.

The number eight to me is the number of abundance. I love seeing those digits.

Nine is my life path number and according to numerology is the number of completion. When I see that number pop up in my life I know I am completing a cycle or a pattern.

Seven, well I was born on 07/07 so this number has always had a special place in my heart.  I associate the collective conscious belief of lucky number seven with it. Seven is also referenced at times to being God’s perfect number.

When I see a series of three’s to me that is a sign of Divinity.

As you can see in my life when I see double and triple numbers they hold a variety of meanings. Some line up with numerology and many meanings are unique to me and my life journey. The significance of these numbers is given to me  by Universe, my inner self and The Tribunal help out when I ask.

If you are one who also encounters double and triple numbers in your daily life I suggest that you move beyond the books and the websites which talk about such things and check in with yourself  to see what the numbers mean specifically to you. I guarantee there are unqiue messages at hand which will encourage you and continue to gently guide you forward in life.

What is your special number and what does it mean to you?  Please leave a comment and let us know.

~Love, Esther