who took my crown

2012-02-20T22:49:00.005+08:00

i think your drawing reflects what you are in some ways .
my dad draws. comical drawings. ooh, paintings.
my mom sketches mostly. simple sketches of anything.
that was when i was younger and they'd help me out for art projects and stuffs.
these days, i see my dad playing with the pencil only when he talks on the phone
and mom drawing out the layout of a frog's inside for brother's science class.
anyway i got them to sketch me stuffs, ( i rejected the frog's anatomy) to understand their minds.

mom's superman minus the logo. no copyright issues here.

me: pa what is this? dad: *shrugs

bro, D.P

i failed interpreting though.

i3p0 - makeover

2012-02-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

Tweaked my lappy.
Changed the logon screen from plain blue to swirly blue.
Later, customized google homepage with splashes of colors.
and the best part is the desktop makeover
played with the desktop dock and created multiple wallpapers to make my Polaroid animated.
I used tweak.com, rocketdock, startskins.com and polyvore for the designs :)
ooh and if you want to make your desktop cooler,
you should totally check out rainmeter. awesome stuffs
i feel soooooo good right now.

no friggin task bar!!!

no boring windows icons :)

2012-02-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

It’s just one of those days you start questioning yourself with unfair questions.
Sit in a corner of the room and shamelessly sulk all day.
What bothers me most would be how easy my exam results, an intimidating email and lack of coffee can so very effortlessly compel my own self to loathe at my physical existence on this planet
The voice inside of my head (weird it sounds like a male, and I’m going to name him jimmy) constantly keep saying these shitty things about me. Like how I’m such a loser for not doing anything about everything. Jimmy told me that I could’ve just cycled out to get some frothy coffee and quit whining like a kid. I told jimmy a humiliating truth about myself; that I can’t control a bicycle. I simply don’t know how people do it and wiki how did not work. Jimmy told me to go bang my head repetitively on a brick wall. Don’t worry guys, I didn’t. Even if I wanted to, I was so bella-swanified sitting there near the window still that my motor skills were malfunctioning.
Now my results were average and the email was pretty courteous to say the least.
SO WHY THE HELL AM I CONSUMING MY MIND WITH SO MUCH REVULSION?
I’m totally sorry about the caps guys, Jimmy kind of annoyed me there for a second.
It’s the lack of caffeine. That’s it.
Good Coffee could’ve managed to distract my head from the reality of
how average is not good enough.
how I simply cannot take critics.
how jimmy is right

but it just irks me...
like what if i have been delusional all along
and I AM NOT THE CHOSEN ONE.
oh my ..

here I go again, freaking myself out.
Shut up schizo and just fall asleep will ya..

that was jimmy. he took control of my brain for a sec there

i just need to get things sorted out.

it's kinda cute the way you poison my coffee just a little everyday

2012-01-25T15:22:00.001+08:00

shits i find romantic: the lyrics to "weird Al" Yankovic's, you don't love me anymore.

We've been together for so very long
But now things are changing
Oh, I wonder what's wrong
Seems you don't want me around
The passion is gone and the flame's died down
I guess I lost a little bit of self-esteem
That time that you made it
With the whole Hockey team
You used to think I was nice
Now you tell all your friends
That I'm the Antichrist

Oh, why did you disconnect the brakes on my car?
That kind of thing is hard to ignore
Got a funny feeling
You don't love me anymore

I knew that we were having problems when
You put those piranhas in my bathtub again
You're still the light of my life
Oh, darling, I'm begging
Won't you put down that knife?
You know I even think it's kinda cute the way
You poison my coffee just a little each day
I still remember the way that you laughed
When you pushed me down the elevator shaft

Oh, if you don't mind me asking
What's this poisonous cobra
Doing in my underwear drawer?
Sometimes I get to thinking
You don't love me anymore

You slammed my face down on the barbecue grill
Now my scars are all healing, but my heart never will
You set my house on fire
You pulled out my chest hairs
With an old pair of pliers
Oh, you think I'm ugly and you say I'm cheap
You shaved off my eyebrows while I was asleep
You drilled a hole in my head
Then you dumped me in a drainage ditch
And left me for dead

Oh, you know this really isn't like you at all
You never acted this way before
Honey, something tells me
You don't love me anymore
Oh no, no
Got a funny feeling
You don't love me anymore

: this guy is a keeper.

seriously piranha resistant love. hard to find.

ps: randomly came across this guy's idea of a perfect marriage proposal and his outlook on other bizarre proposal I was LMAO. definitely worth checking out.
http://tremendousnews.com/2009/09/09/the-5-worst-marriage-proposals-ever/

Looking For Holiday Apartment In Langkawi

2012-01-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

I’m finally done with my finals and semester break is on. Yay and all I can think of right now are good holidays. I’m done with my constant boring trips to Kuantan, and Pulau Perhentian is still top list. Since I’m studying there I’ll probably go on a vacation on one of the short breaks when I need to de-stress. So, darling roommate suggested Langkawi this time around. I heard that every soul has to go to Langkawi at least once in their lifetime. Okay, maybe I made that up for my own benefit, but still. I’ve never been to Langkawi and my roomie’s suggestion got me calculating my budget holiday. You know budget holidays can be sucky but if you plan it well, they are pretty awesome.

My main concern is the rooms were staying in, hotels or home stays, be very kind to my fussy alter ego. So I checked the rooms online, this site called; ibilik. Awesome stuff, basically it’s a Malaysian travel website. I like how it states all the available places to stay throughout Malaysia. They have a list of rooms to rent, homestays and other accommodation, with the prices. I need a decent place with a reasonable price. I mean why even pay killer prices when my actual fun is out at the beach and all I need is a good place to shower and sleep. I checked out the Langkawi apartments in the site and they were pretty good deals that came with pictures. Since I’m probably going with my bunch of friends, I guess sharing the cost helps too. Easy details and information are provided in ibilik. You can even set the preferences to find your choice faster. I guess the actual good thing about this site is that, there are not much crazy ads popping out from god knows where disturbing my peace of mind and tranquility. I really hate pop out ads, so very misleading and evil. I found a cool place to stay in Langkawi, through this site but you know what they say on plans; ‘men propose and god disposes’ (No I did not create this one) you might think I’ll probably just stay home and read websites and get all imaginative with my plan ) But what if you were on the road and you saw the ibilik ad on a taxi when you were down sipping teh tarik on a road side stall like me? Now that is definitely a sign from god shooing me to Langkawi, dontcha' think?

2011-12-12T12:43:00.000+08:00

so it begins,
tests,
coffees,
eye bags
due dates,
finals....;

embracing it like a boss.
...cheers :)

teh cun movie lines

2011-12-05T11:22:00.001+08:00

to live by :

"Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering."

- Yoda, Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace

"I don't know who you are or where you came from, but from now on you'll do as I tell you, okay?" - Princess Leia, Star wars

“Unghuhuhngawurhrhrharrrarrrrh!” - Chewbacca, Starwars. ( inspiring quote for those days you don't have a proper comeback.)

"This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill -- the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill -- you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes." - Matrix

"What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad." - Matrix

Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do You want? What do you Want? -The Notebook

You shut your mouth when you're talking to me! - Wedding Crasher

We accept the reality of the world with which we are presented. - The Truman Show

I will not die a monster.- Dr. Octavius, Spiderman

It’s the scariest day of the year. Yet only one thing scares me, that we might never have met.- Autumn in New York

I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone. - Lord of the Rings

2011-11-10T15:39:00.000+08:00

join me :)

so i did bombay toast and frothy hot coffee

( the sprinkling art gone wrong.. :s )

but yea it was yummy nonetheless :P

2011-11-07T16:26:00.001+08:00

so let's lie in the grass, stare at the stars and only make our separate ways at the sight of dawn

but if that's not gonna happen since you are there and I am well, here.

let's just lie on our amazing beds that is a lot itch free from grass

and put our lappy facing up to this site called photopic sky survey

iris goo-goo dolls can be the background music

or if you don't wanna fall asleep, perhaps stars come out can help

while we stare at the universe

lets be on the phone talking or not talking, it doesn't matter

and only face the day when our hearts are ready.

2011-10-28T02:05:00.001+08:00

You're like hot milo in the middle of a cold night. Almost like my amazing furry blanket too that I cover myself in cold nights like today, where I sit on my bed in depression mode. You are also like that pretty night lamp that's keeping me company tonight since it's darker than ever. and I think you're also like the soft music that is playing on my phone now. I can't really get the lyrics but then whatever, it sounds delicious. Oh and that reminds me of the yummy jam tarts beside me, just like you. You are probably the moon and the stars outside my window too, I get so perplexed just staring at them, I forget other crappy things. I guess you are just made of the best things about tonight. You're not here yet you're everywhere.

2011-10-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

I'm back in klang for diwali.
awesomesauce.
meeting the people u love
and no matter how screwed up things get
if you're going through it with them
Easier. life is. :)

I won't worry my life

2011-10-23T18:05:00.004+08:00

i know i haven't update in awhile.
and it's unfair for my blog that i only resort to blogging
when i am depressed or lonely or sick or trying to be happy
or just plain philosophical trying to make a difference.
right now i am depressed ...
cuz i feel like a loser.

enough said because if i go through with
- why do i 'feel' like a loser
- what do i do about it?
- how will i improve myself?
i will lose my mind, seriously ..
so i am just going to leave all my insecurities
in this post and go to a mamak stall,
drink up my depression with a nescafe tarik and a roti canai pisang...
and sing mr. mraz remedy to cure this disease in me

2011-09-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

blogging from terengganu.
I don't feel settled
my mind is definitely not, but when has it ever been.

inside the library
the best place ever
if only they serve coffee
this would be my permanent home.

2011-09-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

5 things I fear heading back to Campus.

1. how I constantly have to be on budget. you can either choose 3 months of paradise and 3 months of living on bread crumbs or 6 months of well planned lesser outings and balanced food. (gah who am i kidding)

2. my subjects are crazy. landlaw/company/equityandtrust/islamicbankingandetcshit/cyberlaw/and finally the non-stressful one credit hour koko subject, choir. so u guys get the picture of me loading these horrible boring law subjects into my head throughout the weekdays and finally on Saturdays I get to sing away my pain and stress along with janet, wei li, su yin and pris. I really don't know what to expect, but I fear the sanity of other choir mates.

3.my hostel, from the apartment to a real creepy old hostel that has a rumah panjang system where i'll have to walk through a narrow pathway to just visit the loo. the loo is gross. and there were rumors of pontianaks.

4. the shifting process ..from the fourth floor of my previous room to the third floor of this old hostel. oh my. the amount of things I have. oh my.

5. the weather ,... it's either too hot to the point of spf 130 as the sole protector or it rains and rains and rains till there is flood and I have to swim to class .

apart from these stuffs all is good.

all good things must come to an end, or just a shortbreak

2011-09-03T13:24:00.000+08:00

the longest semester break I am enjoying
is about to come to an end

so the news is, I'm leaving to terengganu this 13th sept.

2011-08-10T21:46:00.001+08:00

For starters, I have too much to update from my work experience in maxis call center , my one 1/2 day job at baskin robbins,the people I have met, the different relationships I have made (emphasize different ) , the neverending awkward situation I have boldly faced and just every single piece of crap I went through. helluva ride.

Today is my off day. had a haircut. dyed a strand of hair red. watched captain america. shopped. on the midst of writing my resignation letter. it's pretty long. perhaps I should I delete the 2 paragraphs of suggestion to improve the call center and my one paragraph bitching about the stupid system I should work with. they might not even read it and if they did it may effect my salary at the end of the month .so yeah.

anyways ugh work tomorrow.
but hey look at the bright side.
GSG.

heading to bed.

ps : GSG, poem otw.

2011-07-24T18:14:00.001+08:00

I had this awful dream..
A man with fangs,
chasing me for something i did not have.
I didn't have the courage to explain that he had the wrong girl
instead I kept running and running
and I finally woke up when I almost failed
I called out for someone. anyone
but nobody was home.

I just read the news
and found out about Amy Winehouse's death. I really liked her :(

2011-07-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

only the play and stop button.
no pause.
when i get up in the morning. let it be a new day.
not of yesterday and yesterdays of unfinished business.

I have not post my report to the law faculty yet.

2011-07-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

8 pages of report.

itu je yang saya mampu.

2011-07-11T20:58:00.001+08:00

sipping coke and lazing at my favorite corner in my room with i3po, trying to complete my report. tumblr is a major distraction and so is my mind. work today was boring and i drifted to the bermuda triangle within my head.god, inside the train, i was sandwiched by two gigantic males for few minutes and thanks to livita i have survived my train ride. the-guy-with-the-graphic-shirt finally wore a non graphic shirt today. Lololol. the complete transformation of the punk to nerd. cute. and dev's fascination with my dad is unrealistic. further investigation will be conducted next week after my report/duedate stress.

off to microsoft word.

2011-07-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

One drop

I stare at the cut

Two drops

I squeak a little.

Three drops

I feel it sting.

Four drops

Disappear, will you?

Five drops

It looks fine.

Six drops

Don’t stop. Till there is nothing left.

2011-07-05T21:12:00.001+08:00

I went through my brother's exercise books. And, no I don't usually snoop on his stuff. But seriously his relationship with his teacher is nothing like I ever had. For starters, I never commented on their personal remarks on my homework. When I get cute tiny stars , or a well done I just nod to myself and boast to a friend nearby, anyone actually. And that's about it.

2011-07-03T22:45:00.001+08:00

Report on my attachment at Shah Alam High Court due 15 July 2011.
I'm on page 3.
So I'm never finishing that today, even if I could, I wouldn't
because well, I ......*I'm never finishing this sentence either

I've got some sort of training tomorrow at this call center. A job. I forgot to update this very crucial detail that explains my MIA status here, So yeah I decided to move out of my comfort zone on my bed in front of i3p0 for my mental and physical health.

2011-06-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

On the edge of giving up on all sorts of human contact to avoid these situations :

Talk to a person, befriend this person, stalk this person because apparently they are sooo awesome and you just have to find some bloooody fault. and finally give up and delete this person for the sake of your sanity

Deleted person obviously resents you and the making up for the dumb action message that states " hey wanna be my friend again?" clearly labels you top psycho.

Meet a random person. Face so familiar. Stare at them for about 60 seconds.Your friend starts talking but you keep staring as if you have found the love of your life. Clearly person-stared-at feels otherwise and now remembers you as a freak.

And so you feel really stupid about it and try to find this person again once you recalled who is it,so you can apologize for being such a freak. and obviously this person does not want anything to do with you.

Decide to get a life and not be nauseated by the opinions of mere mortals and...well, get a life.

Heading optimistically to god knows where, see a friend who isn't really a friend, someone with no defined relationship. Confused on how to react. Camouflage with two arms on the wall . Works, sometimes.

Plan to head home where your existence is never really mocked or frowned upon. Ever. To a certain extent, at least because they are your family. *background: heartwarming instrumental violin*

Enter train, sit beside a person who smiles at you and once you sit, spot another comfortable seat but continue sitting there not to offend this person. Spend your entire journey aching for that seat.

Home sweet home.lock yourself in the room. Cry for 15 seconds dramatically on the bed, then come out of your self-made prison .Drink coffee and blog about how amazing life is and search online about the human population in North pole and the job opportunities there.

my renewed resolution

2011-06-13T11:44:00.002+08:00

my renewed resolution by shamvi featuring tying shoes

Tying shoes
60 GBP - lkbennett.com

Again floral shawl
65 GBP - theremedi.co.uk

Frame, Wall Words and Decals by Trading Phrases
$26 - tradingphrases.com

Damsel Wall Paper - Aqua Grey
$78 - urbanoutfitters.com