Mary English

The Homeopathic Proving of Vanessa Cardui : The Painted Lady Butterfly by Mary English D.S.H.

2023-10-15T14:28:00.004+01:00

The Homeopathic Proving of Vanessa Cardui : The Painted Lady Butterfly

Introduction

BIG THANKS to all the 17 lovely provers and the two super supervisors: Usha Pearce and Anna Woodhead.

And to John Lee at homeopathic pharmacy http://www.helios.co.uk/ for actually creating the remedy according to homeopathic principles.

This remedy wouldn’t exist without your help :) xx

“In the silent chrysalis state then our Psyche sleeps away awhile, unaffected by the vicissitudes around it; and, at last, when it’s appointed day arrives, bursts from its cerements, and rises in the air a winged and joyous being, to meet the sun which warmed it into new life. Now it is a butterfly, ~ bright emblem of pleasure unalloyed.” *

Painted Lady Butterfly
Photo Credit Hulki Okan Tabak

The Intriguing Origins of the Painted Lady Butterfly Remedy

We started with the beautiful Vanessa Cardui butterfly, commonly known as the Painted Lady.

The Painted Lady butterfly is a migratory butterfly that originates in North Africa in Morocco. They weigh less than a gram and can fly a 9,000 mile round trip to the Artic circle at a speed of 30 miles an hour. 1.

The remedy was created from five caterpillars that I bought and hatched in my home office.

We included the caterpillar sheddings, silk & pupae cases.

Four caterpillars hanging from the lid, one buried in the frass below

On the final day of release I captured the essence via their sugar - water.
NO butterflies were killed in this process, and they happily flew off into the sun.

As is always the case in Homeopathic provings, the provers weren't told what the substance was made from before they started. This was only revealed to the provers at the end of the proving.

More info on how provings work is here how homeopathic provings work

The 17 volunteers ingested minute amounts of the remedy, then meticulously observed and documented their physical, emotional, and mental experiences.
During the proving, provers noted certain physical effects. Some experienced sensations of feeling ‘lighter’ echoing the delicateness of the butterfly.

“I feel a rush of euphoria and a wave of chills. My heart feels lighter.”

Others reported over-eating resembling the caterpillar phase of development:

“I continued to eat loads in the day.”

“I got into the chocolate pie after dinner which is something I never do, and ate two slices. Now I feel food drunk, sick”

“Have thought more about junk food, don’t know why I am craving this. It’s not my normal go-to. “

More interestingly there were experiences of being focused:

“After class I turn into Mrs Tittlemouse - cleaning, doing washing and feeling the sun pour in. I want to scurry through admin this morning so I can seize the day outside.”

“Delving deeper, because I’ve taken the remedy and am being very analytical of myself: sometimes I feel a clarity in my head that makes me happily busy (writing, making things, contacting people, anything to do with connecting). I feel that strongly this afternoon. Energised and focused are probably the words I’m looking for.”

And/or being distracted.

“The same mad brain being pulled in all directions feeling.”

“I finished working at 9:30 p.m. that night. I just could not stay on task at work. I kept getting distracted and doing other things.”

A Glimpse into Emotional and Mental Shifts

Beyond the physical realm, the proving journey revealed profound emotional and mental shifts. Many participants described a heightened sense of liberation and freedom, reminiscent of the butterfly's carefree existence. Some found themselves overcome by a newfound wanderlust and a strong urge to explore.

Others shared how the remedy seemed to enhance their adaptability in the face of challenges, much like the butterfly's migratory nature.

“Energised, motivated and feeling clear headed. It is polar opposite to how I was feeling since the start of the trial. I am so grateful that an obvious corner has been turned.”

“Feeling like I’ve shed yet another skin and seeing more patterns & paths that I no longer want to go down or act from….Especially remembering the transformation I had laying in my bed feeling my full grown body- I’m an adult now. What a realisation.”

“Whatever the remedy is, it has been a life changing experience regarding my heart pain and trauma which were unbearable.”

Painted Lady Butterfly on Flower
Photo Credit Hulki Okan Tabak

Discovering Energetic and Natural Connections

A particularly fascinating aspect of the proving was the deepened connection provers felt to nature and the environment.

“Leaving work this morning I took a shortcut though a meadow and felt so blessed to be in nature - every aspect of it felt good.”

“Went to the garden in Oswestry. Rained a lot, but it was lovely. Loads of butterflies in the garden, really amazing to see them all. Massive buddleia bushes. Lots of different species.”

“Whilst out in the garden with the dog I saw the most beautiful peacock butterfly, it was flying around me and then landed on the fence, it was so beautiful I took a photo of it with my phone.”

Potential Pathways to Healing

Early indications suggest that the Painted Lady Butterfly Remedy may have therapeutic applications for a range of physical, emotional, and mental issues. It may be particularly relevant for individuals feeling emotionally stifled or burdened by life's demands. With lack of concentration and/or feeling ‘flighty’ or ‘distracted’.

Video the Provers saw on "Reveal Day" demonstrating how the remedy was made and what happened to the butterflies.

For more information on other butterfly proving, I've put some links at the bottom of this page.

You can also read more about them in Patricia Le Roux's book : Butterflies, An innovative guide to the use of butterfly remedies in homeopathy https://amzn.to/45z1Wo3

The Homeopathic Proving of Vanessa Cardui : The Painted Lady Butterfly

There were 15 female provers and two male.

As I am also an Astrologer I like to include this information.

Their Sun Signs:

2 x Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, 3 x Virgo, 4 x Scorpio, 2 x Sagittarius, 2 x Capricorn, Aquarius

7 Earth Signs, 2 Air Sign, 3 Fire Signs, 5 Water Signs

CODE

C- child of prover

P- partner of prover

S- sibling of prover

F- friend of prover

W- work colleague

D - dog of prover

Proving Background

I specifically recorded on this blog how I felt about this proving while it was happening during the first week: My Proving Blog Post

Provers were sent three tablets of Vanessa Cardui 30c in small sucrose pillule size.

The three tablets

They were also sent some Sulphur 1m incase they wanted to anti-dote at the end of the proving

Provers chose if they wanted to take their tablets on Day One, Day Two, Day Three or once a week.

One prover misread/misunderstood the instructions and had all their tablets on Day One. I sent them some more.

There were lots of problems & delays with postal services, for the remedies to arrive in time for the proving to start on the 1st July 2023.

As numbers of provers were in different countries, I spent extra energy keeping track of who had got what and when.

Two US provers didn’t receive their remedies until quite late into the proving, but they carried on writing their journals and keeping me updated on non-delivery.

Even some UK provers had remedies that didn’t arrive on time, so I re-posted to at least two UK provers

One prover didn’t manage to keep much of a journal as they were doing Jury Duty, so we spoke online and I went through their symptoms with them.

They told me that usually they’re quite a scattered person and one of their friends noted that during the proving weeks, they were even more scattered than ’normal.’

Their symptoms are included from their supervision session, not from a journal.

Crazy Start

The proving was due to start on the 1st July 2023

At the beginning of the proving, all the provers had a ‘crazy’ time, things were happening good and bad all at once.

After a few days, things settled down a bit and got less hectic.

Central Theme

Prover 7 Day 18 sums up a running theme during this proving:

"It all feels chaotic, hilarious and joyful.
I am motivated to organise social things. Not so motivated to organise work things…."

One prover started the proving while recovering from a virus infection.

One prover started the proving with a broken ankle.

One prover knew that the remedy was a butterfly but not specifically which species.

Primary Symptoms

Prover 1

Day One

10.30am I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open so I closed the curtains, got into bed, and then took the remedy, & lay there half attempting to sleep again.

I didn’t notice any immediate reaction. Wondered if I felt a kind of tingling in my limbs under my skin, like I was alive under my skin - in a nice way, felt sort of hard to explain. But I wondered where I was just imagining feeling that way i.e. was I just thinking about how that would feel? I lay there for a while then for up + dressed for Zumba class - but I was so tired I didn’t go.

Prover 2

Day One

9AM. Took remedy as instructed and sat in my car quietly for 30 minutes. I was parked outside the house of a friend that I help on a Saturday hence being in the car.
When I closed my eyes there seemed to be movement behind my eyes as though on a train or moving vehicles. Felt odd but felt quite real.

When I did visit my elderly friend I ended up feeling a bit impatient with her repetitive story telling - this is unusual as I usually encourage her to chat and am enthusiastic about her stories no matter how many times she tells the same one, but this morning just left me feeling a sense of ennui which is quite unusual. Wondering if this is due to lack of sleep.

Otherwise a normal day. Forgot all about the remedy for the rest of the day

Prover 3

Day One

Took first dose of the actual remedy tablet at 9:00 am. Before the remedy, I was working and I went right back to work after I took it. It was a good productive day overall for me. I finished my work at a decent time of day and then I decided to clean and organize my vanity. I had just gotten myself a new earring holder and got that all set up. It felt so good to have my vanity all clean and looking nice again! It had been out of sorts for a while. I had buttered pecan ice cream for dinner, which is my favorite. I’m feeling pretty good about myself and things.

Day Two

Took second dose of the remedy at 9:00 am. Had another good productive day at work and finished earlier than normal. I got lucky with a job that paid triple and was able to stop work by 1 p.m. (usually I stop around 6:00 p.m.). I’ve been less irritable this week, probably because camp is no longer disrupting my schedule and I’ve been on track at work. I’m feeling good about things and focused on what I need to get done.

Day Three

Took third dose of remedy at 9:00 a.m. Did not feel any specific way after taking it. Things were sort of busy in my house as I was getting C ready to go to her dad’s parent’s house for a sleepover. I had woken up really early for a call with Supervisor this day and I started having trouble concentrating at work. I was restless in my chair, so I decided to take a break and see if that helped. I ended up taking a nap for a few hours and not finishing my work for the day.

Prover 4

Day One

9.03am Took the remedy (-sneezed x 3)

Restless & tired - want to go to sleep, can’t.

12.05pm Got up, hungry - marmite sandwich. Headache worse. Feeling tired/sickly

1.10pm Back to bed. Asleep until 4pm. Headache better.

Prover 5

Day One

10 mins after taking 1st dose of remedy, I started brushing D’s hair and feeling very connected with him, played games with him .

I contemplated all the things you had said to me re astrology and my conversation with my friend earlier also.

I realised my indecisiveness and became a bit more aware of my behaviour/thoughts and my inactivity this morning, clarity and awareness.

Noticed how much time had passed , but that I was not involved in that time ,if that makes sense .

I continued my day by having my C and his friend over and then taking my dog out to our usual secluded walk up in the hills ..

I felt disconnected from reality a little, but couldn't compare this feeling with any other experience, like I was not "there " on the walk but totally present with dog...quite a pleasant sensation, not comparable with a hallucinogenic but a little strange like that ...

My extremely low mood ,when I had taken the first dose shifted a gear up , and I went to socialise in the evening with safe friends ,not noticing anything massively different than usual good honest open conversations, all shared.

Day Two

I slept well and woke prompt at 6 am, an hour later than usual...not in a low sad mood or head or heart space ...and completed my 20 min meditation, my body pain ,which I have worse after a griefy week ,was particularly bad on the left side and whole base of skull like a nagging toothache ,dull ache and stretching and moving, doesn't really help ,even tho my body craves the movement, the pain still resides.

Felt no emotions ,which is a relief for me , not particularly exhausted as I usually do after sleep.

Will take second dose today.

Definitely feel subtly different but not sure I could put it into words. Feel like time has stood still and I'm not actually partaking in being involved with anything, anyone .

Have been highly irritated with the cat and more so, don't want him near me but that's not new.

Prover 6

Day One

-9:00: 1st Remedy dose

-10:30: I was pondering some of the conflicts I’ve been having with a friend and seemed less bothersome.

-11:14: I feel a rush of euphoria and a wave of chills. My heart feels lighter.

-11:35: feeling as if I have had a bit too much caffeine. Haven’t had any more than normal. One cup of tea this morning.

-12:20 feeling like I’m coming down from a caffeine high. Really hungry. Didn’t eat. I normally would have eaten by 9:30 at the latest.

Day Two

-9:00: 2nd Remedy dose

9:30: My hearing seems heightened.

-No caffeine because of how I felt yesterday. I feel a sense of heightened awareness.

-12:48-Didn’t eat until now because I have no appetite so I made myself eat. Had a banana.

14:44: had to make myself eat a salad because I have no appetite. Not like me.

16:35: feeling like I’ve had a bit too much caffeine. Drinking extra water. We played music and danced for about an hour!

Prover 7

Day One

9am

Recovering from a weird flu bug where all the symptoms are back to front and round the wrong way. So as far as I can tell I am mending but who knows. Decided to start the proving anyway as it may frighten the last of the flu away!

Immediate observation within 5 mins of taking the remedy is a shift in my perception of my depth of field in my vision. Sitting in my bed I look out the window but the trees across the other side of the garden feel closer and more important. The shrubs between me and the trees seem blobby and not important. It is like the bones of the garden are now clear cut which I am sure would thrill Vita Sackville West. I can see all the very tips of the trees with raindrops suspended.

I cannot see the wood for the trees.

And then the moment is gone and I feel quite relaxed and the garden reverts to being in normal perspective.

Had an unusually long hypnogogic phase going to sleep - flashes of driving on a quest with a group of people, dancing, flashes of moonlight over water, colours of red and green. Slept well.

Day Eight

Took 2nd dose of the proving at 9am.

Didn’t notice anything dramatic physically but did feel more organised. Sat down and got all the admin stuff done so that I could get out into the garden. Realised that I would normally potter and procrastinate a bit.

Prover 8

Day One

Bit of a tension headache, felt a bit dehydrated.

Evening: slightly more aware of my thoughts than usual, but more focused perhaps.

Had a call with colleagues in Wales (garden), saw lots of birds and flowers, bees, butterflies. Really therapeutic.

Prover 9

Day One

9am

I have taken the remedy, it’s noisy outside my 3 year old grandson is being loud, he is amazing though. I don’t feel any different at the moment but very thirsty and looking forward to a good glut of water. I can hear the crisp sound of the stream outside the tent and the morning tweeting of the birds.

I feel it is going to be a better day today. I feel calm, my chest it a little tight and I have a headache but I feel good.

Prover 10

Day One

Woke excited for the day & start of the proving. Day has slowly started to unravel and has included petty squabbling which has left me feeling tearful and xxxx. I am aware also that the full moon is coming so not sure if that is linked but do know the tears are coming faster than usual.

Prover 11

Day One

9am took first dose

9:15 Feeling a sense of my entire body feeling grounded and heavy in a good way.

9:30 A sense of the load of life has been lifted from my shoulders.

Prover 12

Proving taken at 9am

Been up sims 5:45 would love to go back to sleep!

Feeling like I can accomplish decluttering, ready to cull the items we have here at home. Feeling like my focus is sharper like I can see the bigger picture rather than what is right in front of me.

Overwhelm has calmed.

Took 2 h nap in the day 11-13 relaxing

Went to gig (Pulp)

Had a few beers

Day Eight

Took another remedy. about half an hour later started to get a headache though I do get them when weather is thundery (which it is). After 15 mins I started to feel weak and fluttery.Took a paracetamol and hope to …

Prover 13

Day One

Swam in pool from 12.40 to 2:00pm enjoyed the sunshine & floated peacefully listening to nature. Took a nap with husband from 5pm to 7pm. Had (3) 32 ounce drinks of spring water today with strawberry-kiwi flavor. Fell asleep around 9pm.

Prover 15

Day One

Took remedy at 9AM sharp. Woke up to take it and decided to go back to sleep afterwards because I was already tired. Maybe a little dehydrated.

Will log dreams. Have not drank any water: waiting until 915 to drink water

10am

Went to my garden for 2 hours dug into my raised beds. Had a chat on the phone. Got really hot from heat: no noticeable symptoms yet…

6pm

I have not ate today….barely any hunger???

No other symptoms

9.20pm

Only ate one piece of pizza and drank water and Gatorade. Talked on the phone with my sister. Napped for 1 hour- cannot recall dream…..?Can’t go back to sleep.

First bit of hunger 11:50pm

Seems like a neutral day. Set reminder to take remedy at 9AM.

Prover 16

Day One

Got ready to take the pill at 9am exactly, took pill out of small bag, picked it up with my nail and it pinged straight off… onto the floor (marble tiles) and under my big heavy desk. The desk has a large bookcase on top of it, filled with books – so moving desk was impossible. I tipped the second pill into my palm and used my tongue to get it into my mouth. Much safer.

We often go out for a drive…Today, we ended up at XX, a town and beach we didn’t know, about half an hour’s drive away. Sat and had a drink in a restaurant/bar on the seafront, then decided to just have lunch there. It was very pleasant. Hot. About 32°. Lunch was lovely. I felt absolutely fine, though definitely a bit hot.

Came home about 3.30. Today, I also felt sleepy and decided to just sit and shut my eyes. Woke after about 40 minutes and felt refreshed.

I have tinnitus (manifests as a hissing in my head). Today (first day of taking remedy) it felt particularly loud in the morning around 10/11 am and around 4pm, after I woke from my short nap.

Delving deeper, because I’ve taken the remedy and am being very analytical of myself: sometimes I feel a clarity in my head that makes me happily busy (writing, making things, contacting people, anything to do with connecting). I feel that strongly this afternoon. Energised and focused are probably the words I’m looking for. After that short nap I definitely felt energised rather than what I had felt only yesterday when I slept a bit longer (2 hours?) and felt dopey, wishing I hadn’t napped for so long. Since this afternoon, I feel focused on what I want to do, whereas procrastination is usually my middle name.

I definitely feel as if I want to get on with things, and get things done. I’m off to write another chapter now.

Prover 17

Day One

Took proving at 9am, had to go in the cupboard to take it away from the children. Skipped lunch today but had some fruit. Nice afternoon at work spending time shadowing W, (tried to listen and remember not to talk too much) who is leaving next week.

Day Eight

Took proving. Feeling organised and wanting to sort things out, not unusual for me at the start of the Summer Holiday. Whilst out in the garden with the dog I saw the most beautiful peacock butterfly, it was flying around me and then landed on the fence, it was so beautiful I took a photo of it with my phone.

Themes

Sensitive

Prover 5

Day Two

Felt very sensitive, didn’t do much but the time’s just gone quickly. Felt I’d been a bit of a victim.

Mind and heart not in pain or turmoil so feel I can breathe again a bit more with ease and relief.

Time

Prover 5

Day Fourteen

Me and D went up to nearly the top of the White Horse in the wind today. We were out playing for nearly 3 hours. I didn't take my phone,and even tho I could not capture a photo, I'm thinking about it now, that that is a memory, as soon as that moment happens it’s happened and reminded me to try be present, as time goes by so quick.

I've just realised we are on borrowed time, and to make the rest of my time full and rich in experience, my mind is full of wonder now ,it stemmed from anxiety creeping in...and I managed to change it to magic.

Prover 7

Day One

My mood feels chirpy - I get in touch with my sister in law and we organise upcoming matariki plans. Somehow an hour flashes by and then another flurry in the world of family menu planning on messenger. It all feels chaotic, hilarious and joyful. How could 8 people need this much food?

Day Two

Time keeps slipping through my fingers. I focus on getting ready and feel that at any moment I could lose days, hours or even a week at a time. I need to keep checking clocks, my diary and looking at the date on the computer.

Day Ten

Time goes backwards at one point when I am teaching. 9.36 and then 9.34 and then it stays on 9.38 for a really long time.

(Later) Want to stay up all night sewing. Lost track of time and day.

Day Eleven

Time is stretchy all morning, I seem to get lots done but there is still more time.

Day Thirteen

Last class of the day - weird time thing again. All my classes today have run out of time for my usual length of yoga nidra at the end and yet everyone has mentioned how spacious they feel. I have felt that too. That time can be so stretchy in even a 10 minute window. I really have to watch myself as I can slide into that liminal space of yoga nidra so easily during this proving.

Eating/Appetite

Prover 2

Day 14

If over eating biscuits is a symptom then I have that. Having bought a packet to tide me over for days I’m almost finished - no one else had a crumb.

Day Nineteen

I have packed away all the biscuits and items which are less than healthy. Then later found them and ate my way through half a packet of biscuits.

Prover 5

Day Five

5 days not diary writing due to going to a festival, bit I remembered on arrival being hungry and eating in the queue a macaroni cheese vegan pot...

I continued to eat loads in the day

Friday 13th

Not as tired today and still eating loads and really enjoying food .

Monday 24th

I feel quite unwell, not eating really until lunch ,then it's homemade soup or cereal, still craving yog and strawberries and honey .

Its 2pm and I'm only eating my breakfast now..

Not felt hungry or felt like eating at all, then get to the point of not feeling well and have to eat for necessity.

Really enjoyed my food again today , even tho it started late.

Prover 3

Day Two

I feel a lot more thirsty this week and have been drinking water faster than normal. I’m trying to get in as much as I can while I’m feeling this way since last week I didn’t want to drink much at all. I’ve had more of an appetite still too and have been productive at work so far. Off to a pretty good start this week!

Day Three

I picked up F to go to our favorite bar for food and a drink. We had tickets to see the Barbie movie that night and the storm wasn’t going to stop us. I got a quesadilla and tater tots, my two favorite things on the menu. I could’ve eaten all of it, but I saved some room for popcorn.

Day Four

We ordered burritos at 10:30 p.m. because I couldn’t stop thinking about eating something with rice in a tortilla. My mouth was watering thinking about it. I ate almost the whole thing even though I wasn’t that hungry.

Day Five

I’ve just been snacking all day rather than eating anything substantial. I can’t seem to stop snacking lately. I’m eating mostly salty things like pretzels, crackers, and chips and drinking a lot of water because I’ve been super thirsty.

Day Seventeen

I ate SO MUCH food at this party. I could not get enough of the street corn dip she had there. I was telling everyone there how much I loved it and kept going back for more!

Prover 7

Finally feel like eating and all I want is carbs. Mashed potatoes with cheese on top, my sister in laws mach cheese that she cooks in stock ( sounds disgusting but I am now converted) leafy greens and pumpkin in ginger.

Day Five

Craving carbs again and hurrah for big feast leftovers to deliver the goods. Not craving chocolate like I usually do. Ate some out of habit and it didn’t really thrill me. Didn’t feel like snacking at afternoon tea time.

Day Twenty

Ate big servings of veg shepherd’s pie. I seem to want potatoes with everything.

Prover 13

Day Ten

Ate naughty food, a cupcake & nutty buddy.

5.10pm

Been craving cheese lately? What I call “naughty foods” ! (i.e. processed & sweets) not good!

I got into the chocolate pie after dinner which is something I never do, and ate two slices. Now I feel food drunk, sick.

Day Twelve

Woke up feeling funny, like I am spinning. Must be all that naughty food I ate in the last few days. I call it “food drunk”. Will be fasting for the next 2 days to get this crap out of my body.

Prover 17

Day Ten

I felt quite hungry today. Had some crisps and cheese, which isn’t usually something I have.

Day Thirteen

P and C out playing golf and watching cricket with brothers. Nice chilled out evening I had a craving for Cheese this evening and I remembered about paying attention to things like that and to just go for it. I really enjoyed it.

Day Fourteen

My stomach was sore today (not period, current gut issues) and although I am not having Carbs I decided to have some organic basmati rice with my home made curry. I really enjoyed it and ate it all, my stomach felt instantly better. I have noticed that I am listening to my body more.

Day Twenty Three

Woke up in the night, not feeling too good. I really should have listened to my body and not had the Curry and Wine it obviously isn’t suiting me at the moment. Went back to bed to listen to a meditation as not feeling very well. Just took it really easy today.

Eating/Craving Fruit and/or Sweet Things

Prover 7

Day One

I so want to eat mandarins - little juicy nuggets. This is significant as I have not wanted to eat anything with this flu for a week.

Prover 12

Day Nine

I also had a lot of sweet stuff today but definitely due on very soon.

Day Twenty Eight

Have opted for healthy meals with sweet snacks in between :)

Day Thirty One

Barbie in the evening was great. Got some salty and sweet pop corn and some honeycomb chocolate. Delicious!

Prover 16

Day One

9am took proving remedy.

12.30: sitting at sea front had a scoop of Rafaelo ice cream (white chocolate lumps with coconut in vanilla ice cream) and Peca2 (like vanilla with raspberry through it)

2.30: back home, had one slice of seeded bread and small can of tuna. Glass of water.

3pm: some more ice cream (vanilla with toffee and pecan)

Glass of water

Craving anything: ice cream

Day Twelve

2.30pm Finished off the toffee and pecan ice-cream

Day Twenty Three

2.30: Magnum Almond.

4pm: two pieces of brown, seeded bread and butter and cup of coffee (too hot for a proper dinner)

6pm: another Magnum Almond ice lolly

9 pm: another Magnum Almond.

Day Twenty Four

Craving anything: I could eat an entire packet of four Magnum Almonds in one sitting. But I resisted…

Day Twenty Five

Craving anything: ice cream

Prover 17

Day Three

I felt quite hungry for sweet things today so had some Green and Blacks chocolate with almond.

Day Twenty Three

I got P to pick up some Chocolate as I was feeling the need for something sweet. Felt much better for a rest.

Anxiety

Prover 5

Think I've noticed a slight reduction in my usual feelings of being smothered in anxiety,

Certainly feel less anxiety...

Monday, 17th July.

Just noticed my Spotify radiant grace playlist has changed since the remedy, all the songs added are slightly more up and bouncy, still with emotion, but it feels lighter…I’ve not had heart pain or anxiety (a tiny bit ) or big P trauma symptoms, I’ve still kept myself safe and aware of who I let in and befriend...a girl I met who knew P wants to meet up. I only met her twice and she said how beautiful I am..

Emotions

Prover 5

My emotional pain has gone into my body as physical pain...its been a lot of pain...huge gratitude emotions, tears of joy, dreams, I don't usually dream. Realisations about me, nice one's,

Decisions

Prover 4

Day Fifteen

A Tug of War. Time to make important decisions but unclear where to go.

No Energy

Prover 4

Day Two

Low mood - no energy physically/mentally tired. Better eating.

Dressing-Up/Colours/Wearing Coloured Clothing

Prover 4

Day Thirty One

Went to Devizes, bought sea weed and a pink jacket.

Prover 7

Day Two

I look horrendous but wear pink to cheer me up…

Wrapping presents for my nieces I get very particular about the paper and the colour of the string.

Day Twelve

I buy lipstick - I have not bought lipstick in YEARS. It is slutty bright red and I love it even though I look like a toddler who has got into their mum’s make up box.

Everything with me is full throttle with colour today. I have been wearing head to toe pinky orange. My deaf neighbour Noel who always comments on my clothes bellowed at me about my wooly hat. I yelled that it was my PUSSY POWER HAT but he didn’t understand. I have been ranting at him about patriarchy for years and it always falls on literally deaf ears.

Day Seventeen

Over the last week I have been so attracted to deep rich colours - deep blue, purple and magenta. I have been wearing these colours head to toe. I feel like I want to be INSIDE the colour. I want to bathe in it. I feel like I want to BE the colour. I can be easily distracted by a colour when someone is trying to talk to me.

Day Twenty One

Fell in love with a magenta African Violet when at the hardware store. Just had to bring it home to be loved. Really intense and velvety colour. So delish.

Getting Things Done/Focused/Being Busy/Tidying

Prover 2

Day Two

Even though a Sunday today I felt the need to get things done: gardening, correspondence and posting items, catching up with study, and making lists. It felt good to be doing these various tasks - a tidying up in life.

Day Three

Went into the garden and started pulling out more weeds - first thing even before a cup of tea….It feels good though - a feeling of clearing.

Day Four
Feeling much more focussed. Organising and getting things done.

Day Six

After work today I ended up in the garden again weeding and clearing - yes it continues. Bins filled with dead wood, old foliage, leaves and weeds. Now I’m beginning to feel that it is a metaphor for my life as I have been ‘treading water’ for a while, and perhaps there is some clearing to be done in my life....

Day Twelve

Today was spent catching up on jobs to be done. Feels good to be getting up to date.

Day Fourteen

The clearing continues. Now it is clothes and I’m mending what needs mending (small sewing jobs) and putting items in a bag to go to charity. It just feels that this clearing needs to be done.

Day Fifteen

Today was a full day between work and social life and so busy that I haven’t noticed anything.

Day Twenty

Still on a clearing out phase - now going through kitchen cupboards with all the cleaning products etc. at the end of the day. Normally at this point I would be meditating or winding down.

Day Twenty Four

Still on a clearing out phase - now down to deleting 100s of photos on devices.

Day Twenty Six

So today I cleaned out the garden chalet. At this rate there will be nothing left to clean or clear.

Day Twenty Nine

Busy day but all as normal.

Prover 4

Day Seventeen

Came home renewed and refreshed, determined to tidy up the house and move away from sentimental holding on to things from home, from Mum, Dad. Appreciate the new fluffy energy.

Day Twenty

Intention - find the courage to clear my space.

Prover 7

Day Five

Came inside when it got dark and wanted to clear up and clear out stuff. I feel this urge to move the whole living room furniture around. However I settle in by the fire to watch a terrible action film with P.

Day Eight (after second dose of remedy)

Day Ten

Rattle through my work and record nidra for the radio show - everything flows so easily. Pootle into town and manage to find all the bits I need for my dance costume in the op shop. Come home to clear up potting bench which has been a fright for months.

(n.b. Yoga nidra or yogic sleep is a state of consciousness between waking and sleeping, typically induced by a guided meditation)

Day Seventeen

Up early for class and getting everything ready for a busy and fun day.

Day Nineteen

Slow start to the day - reading in bed and then the sun warmed the world and i felt ready to get up. Got into domestic mode with loads of washing and ironing and bed making etc I was really enjoying the cleaning and tidying. It felt like something of an achievement rather than just a chore.

Prover 12

Day Nine

Had a positive day. Actually prioritised decluttering when C had his nap and sorted through the many boxes and bags I’d put to one side ready to sort through. Mission accomplished, I will be taking it to the charity shop on Wednesday. Lots of energy for dancing and playing with C which was great.

Prover 16

Day One

Delving deeper, because I’ve taken the remedy and am being very analytical of myself: sometimes I feel a clarity in my head that makes me happily busy (writing, making things, contacting people, anything to do with connecting). I feel that strongly this afternoon. Energised and focused are probably the words I’m looking for. After that short nap I definitely felt energised rather than what I had felt only yesterday when I slept a bit longer (2 hours?) and felt dopey, wishing I hadn’t napped for so long. Since this afternoon, I feel focused on what I want to do, whereas procrastination is usually my middle name.

I definitely feel as if I want to get on with things, and get things done. I’m off to write another chapter now ☺

Day Eleven

(After second dose of remedy)

By 5pm today I was still feeling alert, and writing. Better than yesterday, when I ended up having a 2.5-hour nap because of the heat!

Feel quite energised again, and want to get on with my own writing. My workroom still has a lot of crafting stuff on the bed (cards, dies, piles of nice paper, folders…) from when I made some cards about a month ago. It is ridiculous that I haven’t tidied it yet. Every day I look at it and think, “I’ll do it tomorrow. Today, I’ll write…” :D

Day Twelve

Just getting on with my own writing, which feels good. I’m at the point where world building and characters need focused attention, to make sure it all gells, and I’m not veering off the plan (i.e. the plan that’s in my head). I end up going off at tangents but I can spot this now. So now I let myself write it all down, especially if it’s a character’s back story. Then I cut and paste what I’ve written into a file called Cuts and Expo, and I carry on with the story. Most of that exposition will not be put back into the story, but there might be a few gems in the exposition I’ve cut, and I can add that later.

Day Thirteen

Wrote for hours, which was great. Felt good. Feel good about getting on with my writing. Even to the detriment of tidying and cleaning the house. Tsk tsk.

Prover 17

Day Twelve

Went into work, to sort out office and have a bit of a clear out and do some preparation for Sept. Really lovely to have my own space, am aware of the transition to full time and want to prepare well for this. At home did some jobs in the garden and demolished the old shed (Have been wanting to do this for some time so just got on with it). Ordered a nice new flowery tablecloth (I haven’t brought a new on for years).

Day Fourteen

Had a good sort out of old paperwork this morning and trying to get the house organised and doing a bit of gardening, love being outside in the garden, but haven’t spent as much time as usual due to the weather. Tomatoes and Cucumbers are doing well, although not sure how the tomatoes will turn red as there is so much rain. It comes to me in fits and starts.

Day Eighteen

Spent a few hours sorting out the garage late afternoon/early evening.

Day Nineteen

Great day sorting out the garage and reorganising. Really productive day very pleased as I haven’t always been able to get done what I planned, have been distracted not necessarily by me but those around me.

Day Twenty Four

Felt so much better this morning, had lots of energy. Got some jobs done but it was really raining so couldn’t do too much outside. Mm When I got home I had a continued sorting out things it was a nice feeling to get things done.

Procrastination

Prover 8

Day 4

I did feel a bit less inclined to procrastinate and I was more aware I was doing it, but I also wasn’t so fretful about it. Didn’t feel as worried about my mind wandering, bit less anxious perhaps.

Overwhelmed/Too much to do

Prover 7

Day Three

Feeling the overwhelm of what I need to do today and what I would love to add into the mix of today.

Day Sixteen

I somehow can’t get my head into the space to work during the afternoon. Feeling flat and uninspired. I remember how poor sleep really affected me throughout perimenopause. How did I ever survive that? I feel like I am in a space of a slow decline, that work in unravelling, that there is too much to catch up on and sort out in my home space, the ceiling is leaking again. I used to be so efficient and organised. Now I feel like I am just plodding through my day - sometimes in a contented fashion, sometimes in this flat space. This is not really me at all. All the strands are pulling apart and I can’t find one to hold onto.

Decide to work on a nidra to feel grounded in the hope that it will help me too!

Tired

Prover 13

Day Nine

5.21pm

I hate it when I feel this way like not wanting to do anything. So sad

Extremely bored!

10pm

I’m bored and tired. Wish I didn’t feel so sluggish. I’m satisfied but bored. Going to bed now! See you in the morning.

Day Ten

Relaxed in the pool for an hour today. Been feeling kind of bleak. Wish I had that energy back. All I want to do is sleep lately.

Day Eleven

Woke up feeling tired again even though I’ve had plenty of rest, actually too much for me.

Work

Prover 4

Day One

Thinking about work - “not interested”

Day Two

Anxiety in the evening: A little about seeing people going to work tomorrow.

Day Three

Reluctantly went to work.

Distraction

Prover 4

Day One

C gave me a butterfly bag

Last night had overnight visit from C2 (middle one) so this morning she was in an out of my bedroom, chatting. This prompted C3 to come in too, sat on the end of the bed-was a brief reminder of having the kids all at home. Needing my attention, help. Bittersweet thing. Miss them being here to help me focus on what’s important. Muddle head, trying not to worry.

Day Nineteen

Am battling inertia, disinterest and great difficulty connecting. Putting pen to paper. Accessing the internet. Accessing Word on computer. Remembering dates + times? Really can’t be bothered - don’t care - not interested in writing anything down. Chaos in the amount of things that have been happening - and any attempt to put them in linear order thwarted.

Prover 7

Day Two

My brain is a birds nest pulled in all these directions.

Day Three

The same mad brain being pulled in all directions feeling. Trying to just focus on one thing.

Day Eighteen

Today has been such a mental struggle to get anything done. My brain is so spacy and all over the shop.I need to write everything down so i don’t forget to do stuff. Discovered all these bills that I forgot to pay when I started the proving. OMG. I have totally lost the plot. Been driving without car rego!!!

Over the last week I have become aware of an inner statement rising up again - that had gone away while I had the flu and in the early days of the proving. It is one of those statements that plays out when I am feeling overwhelmed, tired etc “I am so sick of cleaning, study and work”

I was surprised that it had gone while I had the flu - in fact my body seemed very relaxed while I was ill. It is such a naggy, habitual statement and actually not true as I feel that I am doing very little of any of those things at the moment.

Prover 3

Day Five

I finished working at 9:30 p.m. that night. I just could not stay on task at work. I kept getting distracted and doing other things.

Day Six

Hard time staying on task at work.

Day Seven

Stressed about all the stuff I have to do, can’t stay on task at work, keep getting up from my seat to pee every 5 seconds because I’m drinking so much water. I’m starting to get a headache from all the yelling my son has been doing and stress I’m under. I’m overwhelmed by how much work needs to be done constantly to maintain my life. It makes me wonder what’s the point of all of this? No progress is ever made when it needs to be redone every day.

Prover 17

Day Sixteen

Up early, despite planning on having a lie in, wanted to sort out meal plans and lunches look through a few cookbooks to get inspiration, I got distracted and didn’t end up getting this completed.

Enjoying Peace & Quiet

Prover 2

Day Twenty One

A quiet day as not working, so decided to take it easy and read. Consequently an uneventful but pleasant day. Enjoyed the peace.

Prover 7

Day Four

There is so much love and quietness and love in the quietness. My sister in law is normally so big and loud but even today she is holding back and letting the quiet ones make their space.

Socialising

Prover 4

Day Seventeen

Re-visiting old friends, unexpected + lovely seemed reassuring that it’s possible to see another way of life with loving friends who have travelled and spent a lifetime together - moment of love. Conversations all interesting. £ of affairs. Came home renewed and refreshed.

Prover 7

Day Two

Evening. Lots of messages from friends and arranging things - get togethers, appointments, lots of organising around food. Heard from people I haven’t heard from in ages and everyone wants to catch up and eat cake with me.

Prover 6

Day Four

14:22: My day turned around after a shower and playing in the water with C. my friend K from Texas messaged and said she is in the nearby town of Cxxxxx Then my friend E showed up. I haven’t seen either of them in a few years. We talked for a few hours and it was soul energizing! I needed it. We talked about projects, traveling, property prices increasing, work, exploring nature, E’s son who is a few months older than C. I felt home. My mind was sharp and quick. I felt stimulated. I didn’t want it to end!

Day Six

9:00- K and her friend K arrive and want to go into Cxxxx and meet up with K. We all get into my car and go together.

10:00- we hang out in the cafe where P works. There’s a band playing and we all sit down. K and I both bring our dogs in. We end up realizing we have been here talking for hours and it’s noon now.

Day Fourteen

Then we run into my friend X, who was walking down the path with her friends from out of state who also happen to be from New York. I haven’t seen X in a long time. She said that she was just telling her friends about me about the time I got bit by the rattlesnake. I laughed and said that you must’ve manifested me here. It was really good to see X. She’s a Scorpio. I had a flash of remembrance of all the things I really liked about her and all the things I didn’t as well, but it was really good to see her. She’s a powerful woman.

Prover 17

Day Eighteen

Excited for today as it is C’s birthday. We met with C and his girlfriend and X and her boyfriend for Brunch. It was really busy and we had to wait a long time for our food but everyone was in good spirits.

Temperature

P got back from his tournament and we got ready to meet up with his friends. It was 71 degrees (Fahrenheit) outside and while walking to the restaurant from the car, I was painfully cold. I wore a long sleeve shirt and a mid-length skirt, but I was so cold that all of my muscles were tensed up. I get cold like this in the winter time, but I thought it was a little ridiculous to be THAT cold in 71 degrees. I’m always the coldest one in a group anyway, but my reaction to being only a little cold tonight seemed outside of the norm and I wondered if something was wrong with me.

Photo credit Mary English

Feeling Alive/Smells/Nature/Being Outside

Prover 2

Day Eleven

I felt much more present when walking in the woods later and everything felt more alive.

Day Twenty Five

Leaving work this morning I took a shortcut though a meadow and felt so blessed to be in nature - every aspect of it felt good.

Day Twelve

Still feeling a little spaced out - although I felt that it was more about being in tune with the world rather than out of touch - when in the garden I was basking in the delight of watching bees on the lilac - and I was unaware of time or schedule.

Prover 3

Day Six

I’ve been sitting outside on my porch more often lately and started working outside for a little bit now too.

Day Eight

I’ve been sitting outside pretty much every morning lately. It feels really nice to be outside because I know I won’t have the luxury of doing this in a few months. I like to listen to all the sounds of the world – the birds, wind, cars, etc. It feels like I’m zooming out of my own life and problems and expanding my awareness. Something about this feels good, but I can’t put my finger on why. It’s something along the lines of feeling like I’m a part of something bigger. Like my awareness is so narrow and constricted to my life and my problems and listening to the world makes me feel like that awareness is relaxing and loosening and widening, maybe? Also, nature and the world are so loud and I’m in awe of it sometimes! So many bugs and animals are constantly making so much noise and we hardly ever pay attention to just how loud it is. That’s mostly what my awareness expands to and focuses on – all the sounds of the world. I guess this is my way of de-stressing? I didn’t intend for that, but it’s working like that.

Prover 7

Day Two

I want to be outside, I want to garden.

Day Twenty

I feel more like myself again - more energy and more grounded. Brilliant sunshine and it feels so good to be outside. We chopped down some trees that were completely strangled with wisteria. It was a huge job but we both loved the endurance and the satisfaction of catching up on neglected jobs.

Day Five

Got out in garden for first time in 10 days. I am a weak puppy after the flu but managed to weed, plant out some veg and prep the site for new camellia hedge.

Day Twelve

Home to garden in howling southerly gale with shards of ice. Determined to dig up some dahlias for F who is dropping in for apple wood for pruning.

I go back to the garden centre to spend my birthday voucher on a beautiful magnolia tree. My spending gland is very activated today! We chop down the bastard black locust tree that has vicious thorns and spikes. This magnolia has huge purple blooms. It is called royal purple and it will be majestic. I am planting it so I can see it when I am washing the dishes and doing domestic drudgery and it will be up-lifting.

Prover 8

Day Eleven

Went to the garden in Oswestry. Rained a lot, but it was lovely. Loads of butterflies in the garden, really amazing to see them all. Massive buddleia bushes. Lots of different species.

Day Thirteen

I also noticed the huddleia bushes walking to and from work more-they’re all around the train station.

Prover 13

Day Two

12:20pm-2pm

Floated in pool. Felt really calm. I could hear all of the wild life around. Very soothing. Contemplated life while floating. Enjoying the sun, even though it is crazy hot outside. Heat doesn’t seem to bother me this year.

Day Ten

9:01am

Made coffee and sat on the porch with my husband enjoying the birds singing.

Day Twelve

9:02am

Having my morning cup of coffee and my humming bird came back to the feeder with the new homemade sugar water I put in it! She loves it!

Prover 17

Day Two

Popped into town and then did some gardening, liked being out in the wind.

Day Three

Good today, energy ok did some lovely gardening.

Day Eleven

Had a nice day sorting out the garden, went to the Garden centre and really enjoyed looking at the different plants. Took a nice photo of the Russian sage in flower and thought about buying some more (I already have this in my garden so resisted).

Day Sixteen

Took the dog out after the window cleaner had been. Felt better for a walk and enjoyed looking at the trees and flowers and the changes in nature.

Day Eighteen

Then came home and went for a nice walk with the dog, love being outside and great to have D and to have to do it everyday, I always feel so much better when I have been out for a walk.

Day Twenty

I was a bit unfocussed but felt better for the walk with my Mum we went for a lovely walk where my Mum lives, I was really surprised at some of the lovely trees and flowers, it is a new build but has some lovely nature around it.

Photo credit Mary English

SUNSHINE

Prover 7

Day Two

Classes go well and afterwards the sun is shining. I fall asleep in a pool of sunlight and feel it seep into my bones.

Day Four

Such a beautiful sunny day and yet lacking the energy to be out in the day.

Fall asleep on the sofa watching the sun fade.

Day Eight

Fell into death like sleep on the day bed in the sun with cat. Maybe 2 hours? Tummy definitely upset but don’t care as I just want to be in the sun outside.

Day Fifteen

After class I turn into Mrs Tittlemouse - cleaning, doing washing and feeling the sun pour in. I want to scurry through admin this morning so I can seize the day outside.

Day Nineteen

Slow start to the day - reading in bed and then the sun warmed the world and i felt ready to get up.

Prover 8

Day Seven

Quite a sunny day, not always a fan, but did like it today.

Woman Smelling Flower
Photo Credit Shot By Joe

SMELLS

Prover 1

Day Two

On the bus on the way home I noticed things out of the window that I hadn’t before. I feel alive to my surroundings but not bothered by them. In the greengrocers before I went south I marvelled at the lovely smells, the tactile pleasures of the paper bags to put fruit in, the sensual delectable air of the perfectly ripe cherries - not too dark purple, more reddish -

I kept noticing nice smells. So that would be something new - sensitive to and appreciation of nice smells. Linked to feeling ALIVE

Day Three

I would describe it as a greater appreciation for the freshness of fruit and a desire for fruit to be even fresher than normal!

Day Seven

Noticed smells again -not all so nice this time.

Prover 4

Day Twenty

Sense of smell very acute. Don’t like the smell of the bed! Been wearing new perfume + had lots of compliments.

Prover 6

Day Ten

18:00- we get to the Airbnb. It smells like dog pee. It’s difficult to get comfortable in so we go to a park with grass down the street. The yard smelled so much like dog pee. I was just so ready to leave and downstairs smelled like dog pee in the Airbnb

Day Thirteen

14:00 we hang out in the RV for a little bit, but it smells like them in it and it kind of grosses me out because they just don’t take care of themselves and they don’t want to be in it so I don’t hang out long.

Prover 7

Day Nineteen

Some dog has pooed in the hedge in front of our garden. I am so sensitive to this stench and can even smell it around the back of our house. The vile smell follows me everywhere so I decide to find the offending poo and bury it. When I do I can’t believe that this tiny turd has such potent power. Either my nose is super sensitive or this dog has a very bad diet.

Prover 8

Day Twenty

Spent ages going around the allotment bit with the gardeners, trying lots of different herbs and veggies, and smelling different herbs and veggies, and smelling different flowers (one that smelled like Coca Cola)!

Prover 12

Day Seventeen

Monday 17

Noticed my rooibos tea is different again. Very strange as this time it’s not the taste, but the smell. It is almost vanilla/floral smell. For a moment feared I may be pregnant with heightened senses!

Sense of Self

Prover 7

Day Nineteen

I keep having these feelings that I hardly exist, or I am transparent.

Day Twenty Two

I have noticed that since starting this proving that I have trouble getting the computer or my phone to write I with caps, even pressing the shift key still initially makes an i. I have to go back again and again to change this. It is not a problem with the keyboard, maybe just my hurry or faffiness. Anyway it seems that i am not important enough for capitals.

Mother/Mom/Mother-in-law

Prover 6

Day Fourteen

We stopped at the hardware store to get sand at when we were heading out of S. My mom is really proud to find some sand and I was really glad that I could accept something from her for C. That was good for both of them.

So today I opened all the bags and dump them in the front yard where we had already been making this magical fairy play area. So the sound was just like this magical addition that finished it they made me really happy and I hope that my mom can find healthy ways like that to connect in the future. Feels successful I feel calm and neutral and super tired still. But the tiredness feels good because I feel like it’s all been an accomplishment.

Prover 7

Day Twenty Four

Set a massive boundary with my mother in law and feel like I have set a whole new tone in how the family communicates, how emotions are allowed to be expressed etc. Even though this was all done on email, the air felt like it crackled with sparks of fabulous energy. It felt like a major breakthrough and I give zero fucks about how it plays out.

Prover 17

Day Two

Mum and Ross came over, P was grumpy/snappy and my Mum reacted (this happens a lot, my Mum thinks that P doesn’t like her because of some of the things that happened when I was a child, I personally think that P is just what P is like sometimes) I have learnt not to get too upset by this as it is not me and I can see if from both sides, they seem to take it in turns to be the victim. Step-father treated P’s painful leg (S/F is a retired Physio) whilst they did this Mum and I took out the dog but my Mum wanted to come back as it was raining too much, the rain didn’t bother me I could have stayed out in it.

Air

Prover 1

Day Twenty eight

I still find myself needing constant AIR. I’d rather be cold then stuffed up and in fact I have experienced feeling cold and not minding, even enjoying it

Prover 8

Day Nineteen

Farm was really sunny. Enjoyed being outside and the smell/feel of fresh air.

Senses Heightened

Prover 6

Day Two

9:30: My hearing seems heightened. No caffeine because of how I felt yesterday. I feel a sense of heightened awareness.

Dreams

Prover 1

Day Two

In the dreams part of one of my top molars had fallen out, leaving some of it still stuck/rooted. The tooth part that had come out had black patches on it, and on the inside of it, looking closely, I saw tiny maggots moving. I felt as one normally could in that situation, remembering that half the tooth was still in my mouth. I was standing outside my childhood home, which I often cream about. Anyway, I carried on panicking and revulsing, is that a word. And then the maggots which I knew were in my mouth grew and grew and were writhing around, so many of them (and so large) that they filled my mouth, which was obviously open, and they were coming out of my mouth but there were still more of them and I couldn’t breathe..and then I woke up.

Day Twenty Eight

Basically dreams were very mundane - friends (a couple) moved to another area of London, or at least I realised they had been living there already. At the end of the dream I looked at a map or the US from above/maybe satellite and found the beach from a TV series I’ve been watching (in my waking life)

Day Twenty Nine

I had another dream similar to the maggot one except instead of small ones they were HUGE. Massive moving white TUBES in my throat, EURGH!! The giant maggots thing happened in the passage way of my childhood home.

Prover 2

Day Four

Awoke refreshed after a good nights sleep.
I have to mention a vivid dream of a music event in the Greek Parthenon, in the modern times. I was with a star - who I’m fairly sure was Freddie Mercury. We were walking about together like old friends, enjoying the atmosphere and music. He was trying to keep a low profile amongst the crowds, but only wore sunglasses as a deterrent. He was dressed in leather jacket and jeans and looked exactly like himself. The music and atmosphere and happy crowd all quite vivid and I can still see it now. It was a happy time and felt completely normal. Later when typing up notes I realised that this image is slightly like the doodle I had made on 28 June when chatting to my supervisor for the first time.

Day Five

Last night I had a dream that I was trying to persuade some friends that we needed to go to Yorkshire. No idea why, but it was important enough for me to really try to convince them to go with me. This stuck with me because I still remembered it when awake. (No intention of going to Yorkshire nor have I ever wanted to go there before for any reason).

Day Nineteen

Last night’s dreams were so much that I woke up several times. Not nightmares, but vivid and quite real. Now of course they have faded into a muddle of voices so I cannot describe more, but am aware of an active dream life last night. I may have been talking/making a strong point to someone or more people - just feels that way.

Day Twenty Two

I woke up this morning realising that dreams last night were all about looking for something specific - a type of bee at one point. When I’m tasked with something I will do my best to complete the job. This was tiring as the particular type of bee was not easy to locate.
Then this morning I heard very clearly “I’m in charge” - as if letting me know that I can change what is happening and can direct proceedings - my life. This stayed with me as I went about my morning’s work.

Prover 3

Day Five

Dream: I went to my mom’s house to hang out and then decided to walk home for something really quick. While walking, I was texting my ex-husband about us working things out and a woman just came up and started walking with me and telling me about the tattoos her and her partner got when they opened up their marriage (which is ironic because the last time ex and I tried to work things out, it ended when I asked him if he would consider trying an open relationship). In the dream, I was annoyed that this lady was talking to me while I was trying to text ex, but I also thought what she was telling me was ironic and I was eager to text ex about it when I could get back to my phone.

Day Ten

Dream: I can only remember snippets – I was going to the store for something. I was in an argument with either my brother or my boyfriend. Something was happening by Friday, but I can’t remember what.

Prover 4

Day Eight

Dream. C3 falling into water. Twice his normal size - like a mummy - I saw him falling he was weighted down.

Dream Part 2. C3 falling into water, wrapped like a mummy weighted down. Large, strapped up cocoon, pupae shape. Blue + red - falling in. Dive in? Take clothes off first> Leave him to float?

Day 13

Dream of being in a busy house - lots of entities like old spirits/people all around me. I was looking around saw a toilet that was under a worktop, so all boxed in. White. I flushed it - and there was a squeal of evil laughter from a small sprite that was crouched in the gap between loo and cupboard. I had done something bad, people around were missing. Felt scared, under attack. Embarrassed. Need to get away. Not pleasant.

Prover 5

Day Fourteen

Just woke at 6 am with alarm SO MANY dreams, mean ,Mary on a skate board, F and F about, my Citroën 2cv.,not sure how they made me feel...

Day Twenty Four

Really weird ,had a dream the immersion had been left on by C woke annoyed. Shower broke same day as dream!

P.M.

Dreamt I’m at a club with my old friends just about to take a MDMA pill, woke me up as I wanted to but thought of consequences, of taking it in the morning. Had quite few dreams, reconnected with old lost people.

Day Twenty Eight

Woke at 6.3o with alarm in an alarming dream of my tattooist trying to kiss me and I was in his studio, felt repulsed and NO sensually or sexuality at all , kiss disgusting , intrigued to where dream would take me but relieved I was out of it ..it was raining in dream and we were in a high building, looking out window down below at rain and metal steps and surroundings a tad like Manhattan film , metal and rain .

Prover 6

Day Twenty One

7:00- woke up. Had really weird dreams about getting pulled apart in different directions in the sky.

Prover 8

Day Seven

Had dreams that I was flying on a plane somewhere, long haul, got bored!

Day Fifteen

Dreamt I was on a plane again, no idea where I was going but P and C weren’t there.

Prover 7

Day Four

Had a dream that I was back in childhood but my parents had censored my childhood. We were now living in a completely different town with a different landscape. I kept asking them why we were living in this place when I grew up in Napier. They kept telling me that I did not grow up in Napier and to stop telling tales. I reminded them of all my memories of places, events etc and they denied that they had happened. I felt confused, as if everything I understood was no longer real. As if I was an alien coming in my whole world and sense of who I was being squashed into this pretend world. The whole dream was outdoors, in weird streets and dark grim skies. It felt like a west coast mining town. Woke up feeling a bit hot and confused. And then back to sleep.

Dream I am a teacher but I am also a student at the same time. My class is something like maths. I really connect to my students so that I feel what they feel. I am them. They are me. One of the students starts having a seizure that largely affects their legs. I keep shifting into their experience so that I am having the seizure and then I am back being the teacher observing the seizure. Teacher me runs off to get help and I am also having the seizure. It is getting larger and larger and my head explodes and I am gone, I am dying and I am watching myself die and I am alternating between being the teacher witnessing the death, and being in the process of dying at the same time.

Day Six

Dreamt of a friend Charlie flying down in his small plane to pick me up and take me to visit my mother. For some reason he brought Mum with him. She was in a critical mood, telling me my clothes were awful, that I was running late and holding them up. That there was no need for me to light the fire for Dad who was going to housesit. I explained that the house would be cold if I didn’t and I like housesitters to be comfy. She sent me off to repack my clothes and while I was doing that she moved all the boxes of kindling and firewood into a stack close to the fireplace. She put blankets in the boxes of wood and lit matches so that the blankets were slowly smouldering and would eventually create an inferno around the firebox. I was so angry with her and didn’t understand why she would try to set my house on fire. I refused to go with them.

Day Nine

Dream - Bali Ecstasy healing. I’m in Bali with P. At the beach and everyone is in diaphanous Bali glam outfits. I’m in my flannelette pjs and fluffy dressing gown but I don’t care. It suddenly starts pouring with rain and everyone disappears. P and I find an old shack to shelter in. It is very primitive with ancient bunk beds that are short and narrow. There is a fire pit. We settle down by the fire pit to sleep. Beside the fire pit are some old school type paper lolly bags and inside are little heart shaped ecstasy tabs. We decide to take one each. I really only want to risk taking half but I can’t be bothered trying to work that out so take a whole one.

I decide I want to go to sleep and let the ecstasy heal me in the dream world. P wants to stay awake and feel it all.

I go to sleep and don’t have any dreams but I wake up and my body is completely healed and I feel great. P is wide awake and prattling about the texture of the wood in the beach shack being amazing, the sun on the water etc.

People are coming back to the beach as the rain clears. We decide to go and find a deli/cafe. The woman working there takes pity on us looking all soggy and bedraggled and gives us some pastries to eat and tells us where we can find food supplies and a place to stay. We feel cared for. We both feel healed - me through sleep and P through his visions through the dark night.

Day Fourteen

Dreamt of ceiling leaks everywhere in our house - our bedroom, kitchen, down through a glam chandelier that does not exist in our house. I am running around with buckets and taping over light switches so that nobody electrocutes themselves. P is very blase about it and I am furious. Why is he not taking this seriously? I wake up to heavy rain and turn on the light to check the weird intermittent leak we have in our roof that nobody seems to be able to fix.

Prover 8

Day 6

Had dreams that I was flying on a plane somewhere, long haul, got bored!

Day 14

Dreamt I was on a plane again, no idea where I was going, but P & E weren’t there.

Day 22

Outdoors dreams again. Had a dream that I was running around in the park.

Day 29

Had a dream we were in a hotel on holiday, there were huge waves breaking (like tsunamis) but nobody was bothered. It was sunny everywhere else and I was indoors. We had a little plane come and carry us home. It was fairly warm (muggy)

Prover 9

Day Twenty One

Strange dream of being on trains. It’s dark, then going to big open space of house, people who were friends but looking different. Helicopter thing that was a huge pigeon, felt wind from the rotor, then woke up.

Day Twenty Four

Dreamy of driving as a passenger through crazy high roads with land slides, driver was just powering through them and we made it through. Ended up in a harbour with pretty boats + blue skies. Felt good.

Day Twenty Five

Lots of crazy dreams but last one was ex trying to get me back in family home being all charming. Luckily it didn’t look like him but was the vibe. Woke up with son blood sucker going through my head. Don’t even try to get into my head you monster of a man. Vampire.

Prover 13

Day Two

Had a dream about being back at a mobile home, and my father in law was there, this time I got to see him and he met C. His hair was all white and he seemed to be glowing! Then we said our goodbyes and C and I were off to find P. We drove a car with a chopped off roof, down the road a piece, then C and I pulled a car tire out and out of that came 2 floats. We blew up the floats & floated down this river to where my husband P was at. We floated face to face and we were both younger in this dream. We actually enjoyed floating down the river, good dream !

Day Twelve

So I had a dream my old boss was going to blow up a high-rise. People still in the building but everyone got out to the parking lot. I found the bombs & disabled them. Then we all went to the 22nd floor and stepped out onto a lovely garden area. People that didn’t know the alarm went off were in the movie room (theatre) of the high-rise having sex. I went in and told them how stupid they where that the building was under xxxx and to get the hell out! What a weird dream!

Prover 16

Day Two

A few people in my dreams, but nothing I could hold onto. It was bright, sunny, with trees around, as if in a park, listening to someone holding court and talking about politics. They were raising their arm (not in a threatening way, more like for emphasis). That’s about all I remember: that, and that we were all (though I’ve no idea who the “all” were) discussing and arguing (civilly) about politics.

Day Three

I felt as if I’d been awake at least six times through the night but perhaps my perception was skewed with being so tired and restless and warm.

The dream was hard to hold onto when I woke.

In the dream, I was back somewhere in one of the places I lived in my childhood, and was interacting with people but I can’t remember in what way. It was sunny, I remember that. And bright. The overwhelming piece of information that was being relayed to me (via the people? I’m not sure. It may be I just “knew” it) was that the sharp and dull pain I sometimes get in my left side of my head is a tumour and I should be thinking about what to do about it. But I was ignoring this, and just carrying on interacting with the other people. Also, something was going on that was secret. We were all aware of it but no one was talking about it. Dream faded fast when I woke but the big part was the tumour. I had no fear or anxiety about this in the dream; it was just a fact I should be “considering”. So, I didn’t seem over-concerned about it. I woke late, about 8.15 and dozed till 8.30 then got up. Still felt tired about 1pm.

It's worth mentioning here that about 30 years ago I had a dream suggesting I had a tumour in my head (I still have the notes on it), so I’m not overly concerned about this dream, or think it’s prescient in any way. The dream 30 years ago was much more graphic and horrifying (something between wrought iron and briar branches were growing in my head and really hurting me :D ) I remember worrying about that dream for a while. But nothing came of it.

Day Five

There was a quick dream through the night, where I seemed to be somewhere in the Scottish Highlands, on a hillside leading down to a road. There were boulders and long grass I had to clamber over. And there was water in front of me – a bit like marshland, but it was very small. As if there was a ditch at the side of the road and it had long ago filled with stagnant water and spread to be about four times in size. I had a scarf and I didn’t want to walk into and through the water and risk it getting wet, or lost (I didn’t know how deep it was), so I threw it, thinking it would easily reach the other side and land on the roadway.

Of course, it didn’t. It was far too light to go any distance. And yet it almost made it. It fell into the water, just before the road, and it began to sink, and spread out. It looked much larger under water: more like a veil than a scarf. It was a pale colour under water, and I remember thinking it didn’t look anything like my scarf.

(Oddly, I think a scarf figured in one of my other dreams, when I was going up to the till to buy one. Maybe it was the same scarf ☺)

There were no houses around, just a pale watery sky, the murky water in the (large) ditch, and the green of the land around me. Strangely, though, the green wasn’t the vibrant beautiful green you usually see in the Highlands. It was pale and watery, too. A bit like one of those Polaroid photographs we used to take back in the 70s and 80s, which lost colour very quickly and over time look washed out.

Day Six

Few dreams, but nothing very clear. All a bit hazy and jumpy. In one I was outside, in a field, a bit like when you have sports day at school. Weather was okay, pale clouds, dry, warm. I think it was summer (but summer in the UK). There were quite a few people there. I was winning. I have no idea what I’d done to win, but I had. Someone wanted to raise my arm in the air the way they do for some champions, but I didn’t want to do that, and pulled away. It seemed crass. I think there was a small argument about it, but it wasn’t angry or anything like that. It was just that they were saying “you should do it” and I said, “No, really, who cares.”

Scene changed. I was with a friend of ours – F. I was friends with his wife, who died in 2021 and it still hurts me thinking about her. She was 49. F was on his own in the dream. His daughter C wasn’t there. (She’s 18 now, and is special needs. He had to give up work when wife died so he could look after C).

In the dream, I was giving F a hug hello, and just asking How are you. Like, how are you really? The first time I visited after wife had died he looked ravaged. Like a man who’d been lost for months at sea and had just managed to crawl ashore. In the dream, I was aware there were a lot of white marks on his face, almost like the way some black or Asian people get when they have a skin condition, and the skin turns creamy and flakes off. F had lumps of this all over his face. I knew he was better than he was, but was still very ill with grief. I wanted to take it from him, to make it better for him. But I couldn’t. He hugged me back and said “I’m fine. I’m fine.” But I knew he wasn’t. Felt deep grief in the dream. It’s with me yet.

Day Seven

Dreams got away from me this morning. I couldn’t hold onto them. I know I had a supermarket trolly, and was peeking round a corner. No idea what I was looking for, but I was definitely being careful…I didn’t want to be seen. That’s it!

Day Eight

I was being given something important, because I’d won something.

Day Nine

Was handed another kind of chalice/trophy in this dream, but this one was very odd: it was all glass/crystal, and two-pronged, with a shallow base. I’ve never seen a trophy like this, it was like something out of a science-fiction film, the key to some amazing machine, or something the heroine needs to Make It All Work… Make of that what you will! :D But even as I was being handed this trophy (by a man? In a field?) I was simultaneously really delighted, because it was such a nice gesture, and equally perplexed because I didn’t know why I was getting it. I felt I didn’t need it. But it was lovely all the same.

Day Eleven

Very clear dream this time, clear surroundings and feelings:

I’m in a sandstone building. It’s low, like a long open-plan bungalow, with lots of rooms off the main one, but I’m in the main one. The ceilings are low, too. It reminds me of a kind of “mission” building in the American / Mexican desert. But I know we’re in Spain, even though the landscape is biblical.

I’m sitting enjoying being there. D (our beautiful big black dog who died many years ago) is there, too, but not for long. He’s just “around”. I know he’s still there so I don’t worry about him. I’m just kind of “experiencing” being there. I feel as if there is something I should be doing. Suddenly I look at my watch. It’s 11.23am – I should have been at Spanish class at 11 (interestingly, this is exactly when class does start). I know I have to drive there, so I’m going to be very late. I’m annoyed at myself for this. I really want to go and I hate being late.

There is something heavy I have to take off first. Big coat or something. It’s restricting me and is too warm. I take it off, and start looking for my car keys and for my school satchel with all my Spanish class stuff in it (in real life, I don’t have a satchel, I use an ordinary blue hold-all bag, but in the dream I was definitely looking for a nice, leather satchel). I can’t find it. This “mission” / house is almost entirely devoid of furniture. There is no clutter. It’s pristine – monastic – and it’s all sandstone. Even the seats! They’re all part of the fabric of the building, made from it. All one colour of stone.

In fact, there is no furniture other than the bench-type seats, build into the walls. I’m sure there are built-in cupboards etc behind the façade of the wall, but I’m not sure. I certainly can’t see them. There is nothing. So why can’t I find these things that I need? What have I done with them? Did I not bring them with me when I came to visit this place? I’m frantically looking for them, going into every small room off the living room. They’re all pretty much empty – no furniture, nothing. Certainly no books and notebooks.

I decide I’m going to go to Spanish class anyway, without my textbooks and notebook. I can borrow some paper to write on. I’ve found pencils, but they’re only wee stubs, they’re horrible. They need sharpened. I’m annoyed at that, too. Nothing is ready, or prepared. I’m cross with myself for not having thought of this earlier.

I can’t find my car keys either. I need the car to get where I’m going. Emotionally, I’m getting anxious. I wonder has S left already? (the sister I’ve just had an argument with.) Or was it S who left? (my other sister, who died in 2010). There’s a man there, too, but he’s on his mobile phone and walking up and down in the sandstone living room talking on it. He’s about 30, dark haired. He does not seem to be aware of me. It’s not that he’s being rude. It’s as if I’m not there.

I need to get his attention to tell him I have to go right now, otherwise I’ll be even more late. But I think (feel) I’m a visitor here, and it’s difficult to just interrupt. (Because I was thinking of my sisters, I wondered after I woke up, if the man was my brother, who died when he was 23, in a car crash almost 50 years ago. He had dark hair. The fact I couldn’t communicate with him made me think it might be him).

There is somewhere else I want / need to be, too — calligraphy class — and the times clash with my Spanish class. This is really frustrating, and distressing for me. I don’t like having to choose between two things I really love: Spanish and calligraphy. (In real life, I did calligraphy back around the 1990s and loved it). And I’m annoyed that I didn’t realise I had arranged to take these two classes at the same time. That was really stupid, and (in the dream) I think it’s not like me to be that stupid. (In real life – not so unlikely )

I go outside. Still a biblical landscape of rocky sandstone, sandy-coloured dunes, and a pale sandy road leading godknowswhere. That’s the road I know I need to take. There is a big cardboard box in the road. I realise my car keys, which I was going mad looking for, are actually in the front pouch of my bag (my normal bag in real life that carries my purse etc). In the dream I think, well, at least I’ve got them now. I feel better about that although I didn’t manage to find my bag/satchel with Spanish things.

I’m still concerned about my calligraphy lessons with Mr T (that was our teacher’s name). The big cardboard box in the road falls over and seems even bigger. The road is all dusty and desert like, leading to small rocky outcrops, undulating with dunes and things. There are no other cars and no other buildings or people around. I am completely alone. I decide / realise it must have been me who knocked the box into the middle of road and so I should pull it off the road so it’s safe, in case anyone else needs to use the road, or drives along and doesn’t see it.

The closer I get to the box the smaller it becomes, until eventually I realise it’s not a danger to anyone. So I leave it. Turn round to go get my car (which I’ve never seen) and the landscape has changed. The roadway has gone. Everything is still the same pale sandy colour but everything is much more rocky. There are small mounds of rocks, but they’re all fused together – like the way terrain changes at the bottom of a mountain, where it starts to be slightly more rocky, and you have to start being careful about where you’re going because you can’t just walk up it, you actually have to bend forward and begin to climb. To be clear: there is no mountain here. These rocky outcrops probably only go up a few metres high. But it’s enough. There are, I think, mountains in the distance, but only way over on the horizon, far away. Barely discernible.

I realise this is going to take some real climbing to get over this rockiness. And it’s a bit steeper than I’d like. Easy to fall. But worse than that – there are rivulets of water all running down the rocks. Lots of water, coming from somewhere. Making it more dangerous to climb. I won’t be able to get up this rocky incline. I try anyway, a few times, but I can’t do it. Too slippery, too wet, too steep, too rocky. I’m going to be so late and can’t even get to my car.

But the road is gone anyway. I can’t see the car, or the road, and even if I could get to it…I can’t drive on rocks. I’m not going anywhere.

I woke up.

Landscape: inside: sandstone building that I knew was only one-storey but with many rooms, and perhaps a small tower (or bell?) on top. Lots of windows (no glass; open to the elements) letting in daylight, sunlight and heat; the intense heat of the desert. The interior of the house was monastic in its simplicity. One person other than me (man talking on a mobile phone and not acknowledging me at all). I felt I was a visitor to this place.

Outside: sunny, pale blue sky, biblical colours and wide sandy, rocky terrain as far as the eye could see. The only building was the low sandstone house / “mission” which was monastic and as simple outside as in. Lots of windows. From the outside, the building had an abandoned look to it, but was still sound.

In general: this dream was super-clear. Not difficult to remember. It was as if I’d watched a film and could remember lots of it. Still, when I woke up, before I did anything, I came into my work room and typed it all up, typos and all and just battered it out, then went for breakfast and tidied it up later. I think I’ll always remember it. One of those dreams.

Day Twenty Five

Being in the sea, swimming to Australia, thinking it would take such a long time, but being prepared to do it. I was swimming with a group of people. Someone was helping me. At first, I was weakened for some reason – I think my arm was damaged? But I get stronger and soon I don’t need any help. I’m swimming well. I don’t bump into the people who are swimming nearby (I’m consciously aware of them and consciously manoeuvre myself away from bumping into them). I manage to swim further on my own.

In the sea, at first I had the impression someone was helping me, but also that I was helping someone, too. My friend Christine? She’s in my head in this dream; I know she’s there. I’m trying to drag her along with me in the sea, so she’ll make it to “Australia”, too. I know she has difficulty because of her weight (in real life, she is seriously obese). Seems to me we were all helping each other. It feels like I’m with a good group of people. Soon, because we’re in the water, Christine is swimming okay and her weight isn’t too big a problem, and so I could then let the person who was helping me, help me. I accepted their support for a short time, and then I was okay, too. And I was swimming along on my own, getting stronger and stronger. And loving it. I loved the water, I loved that I was a very competent swimmer, I loved that I was “getting somewhere”… all of it.

I’m enjoying this. I know we’re aiming for something: Australia (!) and I know we’re all doing okay. I think we’re going to make it. I’m not tired. I like swimming in this beautiful bejewelled, sparkling, deep blue sea. Soon, I’m swimming close to what looks like the edge of the sea (!)

The edge of the sea curves downwards and I start to get swept down a waterfall. It’s full of spume and froth and it’s moving very fast. I’m still swimming, but the current – and gravity – have caught me. I think Uh oh … this isn’t good. It’s a sheer drop. I can’t see what’s at the bottom. And I don’t want to!

But, I just turn around calmly and start swimming back up the waterfall. I have to make more of an effort and I have to swim a bit faster, a bit stronger, but I make it. I swim up, crest the curve, think wow, that was amazing, I must tell Christine! (Christine is my very close friend in real life).

The sea horizon changes from just deep blue (it was a beautiful deep, jewelled blue sea. It’s important to note that the colour was intense, deep, beautiful and everywhere; it even merged with the slightly paler blue of the sky), to the outline of buildings and high-rise multi-storey buildings in the distance – we’re within sight of our arrival. It’s almost like the silhouette you see of a city like New York, but I’m fairly certain it’s “Australia”. There are still lots of people around, and they’re all swimming with the same aim: to reach that far shore. Apart from at the very beginning when a few swimmers were heading straight for me and I was worried we were going to collide, all these swimmers keep their distance and don’t bother me, or each other. But there is a real sense that we’re all in this together. Unspoken support.

Apart from at the beginning of the dream, I don’t need any more support. I’m swimming well and know I’ll make it to shore. I’m delighted I can see the shore. If I were to analyse this a bit deeper, I feel almost as if we were a pod of sea creatures. Dolphins? That sounds weird, but it’s what jumped into my head. In the dream, I was in my own human body, as was my friend and all the others swimming with me, but something about the “group” suggested we were all part of the sea and being out there swimming for thousands of miles was natural. We did it all the time. It was part of us, and we were part of it.

Prover 17

Day Five

Didn’t sleep very well as thinking about the interview, had a very vivid dream that I was preparing for the interview and it was time, the clothes I wanted to wear had gone and I only had a big red jumper and leg warmers with jeans/leggings, X the Science Teacher came and got me and my interview was to take the Science lesson. I took the Science lesson to the best of my ability and at the end asked X when I would have the interview for the Family Support Worker, she replied ‘oh sorry (prover’s name), Lea has been given that Job’. I woke up feeling a bit confused as it was really vivid.

Day Ten

Woke up after a strange dream I had noted didn’t work with people in the office, didn’t recognise an important person/director something happened on my day off and X (Previous staff member) had to come in and sort it out.

Day Seventeen

Slept really well again, have noticed this since taking the remedy. Was woken up by the alarm at 8.30am which is unusual for me. I was dreaming that I was pushing something (Electrical trolly) whilst on an electric skateboard and I didn’t know how to slow down, someone (I think my Mum) showed me arm movements to pat my right hip to slow down! I was in a park with trees and flowers.

Day Nineteen

Had a strange dream that I was living in a tall tower type building, made of red/brown earth or sand. It was really high up and very sunny I was aware that I was high up by the sky.

Butterfly/Moth/Insect Mentions

Prover 1

Day Two

Had a really nice afternoon in my friend’s garden…There were plums growing in the garden and butterflies and fuchsias, and we could aww The Shard to remind us we were in London.

Prover 2

Day Three

Went into the garden and started pulling out more weeds - first thing even before a cup of tea. Highly unusual but felt good - saw a little beetle scurrying away - which pleased me as it is a sign of metamorphosis. When I went indoors there was a message from a friend arranging for some friends to meet up to share a Metamorphic Technique session. Synchronicity

Day Seven

Tonight I saw a little white moth diving into a hole in the ground, then back out and off into another hole in the ground - until on closer inspection saw that it was being pulled in by an ant and really struggling to escape. I couldn’t let that happen so “saved” the moth. Now feeling (and hoping not) as though the moth could die anyway if it is injured, and the ant got killed in the rescue mission.

Day Twelve

When in the garden I was basking in the delight of watching bees on the lilac

Day Twenty Two

Prover 3

We went to a cute little nearby town on a lake and got ice cream before lunch. We walked to find a bench to eat our ice cream at but were getting chased and attacked by bees the whole time! It was miserable and we couldn’t get away from them. The kids got so stressed out and were throwing more fits while we were out that day. One of F’s kids spilled their drink, the bees started chasing us again, the kids were crying, and I had just had my fill of this trip by then. I was ready to head home to my own house.

Prover 7

Please note this is a TYPO, but an interesting one considering the source of the remedy

Day Four

Homeopathic clients keep contacting me as they are sick with this weird fly bug that everyone has at the moment. Usually I would drag myself to help them. Today I say “No I am sick, I am sorry I cannot think clearly enough to help you. I will be in touch in a few days” I don’t feel bad or guilty about this.

It should read flu bug, but they’ve written fly bugDay Fourteen

Feel body dysmorphia tonight - I have noticed this creeping up over the last few days. Yes I have put on some weight maybe? But that does not normally bother me. But I feel all flabby and rolly skin like a maggot. Skin feels all crepey and pallid and I feel there is a mismatch between my face and my body.

Prover 8

Day Nineteen

Went into bug house that was really hot and humid. Enjoyed that.

Day Twenty

Back to Midlands garden again. Even more butterflies.

Prover 13

Day Ten

11:42am

Floated in the pool for an hour and enjoyed the sun ray. Lots of butterflies and dragonflies today!

Day Twelve

11:29am

I did see a beautiful Monarch butterfly at my friend F’s house. It was black and white striped with a touch of bright red on its body. So beautiful. I’ve seen more butterflies this year than ever before. Or maybe I just am noticing them now?

Prover 16

Day Thirteen

Very drawn (like everyone else, I guess) to everything that’s going on with the missing 2-year-old, Émile, in France, missing since Saturday pm. At first, I thought they’d find him quickly. Then I thought, it’s too long, he’s in trouble. Felt quite worried on his behalf and kept checking the news every half day to see if there was some good news. Then I thought they’re missing something; someone has taken him. It’s interesting they’ve given no surname, and nothing from his parents; not a word. I thought it might be someone famous. Then I read they’d called off the search and I was like WTF, and outraged on his behalf. Then I read someone (a former “Family and Children’s Minister”) has stuck her head above the parapet and said his father has “a very worrying profile” (which I suspect is not paedophilia, but may be gang related). Something very bad is going on in that family or because of its business. Now, I just feel very sad for the wee boy who liked chasing butterflies.

Link to news story Metro News Story

Prover 17

Day Eleven

I popped in to see my Mum and she had got me a card and small present for getting the new job, Really kind of her and really weird as she got me a beautiful bumble bee on a flower coaster, strangest thing is its exactly the same as one that X had in her office and I commented on how lovely it was when she was packing things away.

Butterfly/Insect/Flying Expressions

My italics

Prover 3

Day Four

“I wanted to suck it up” and just get through weekend, but I felt an irritation I couldn’t shake.

Day Seventeen

It’s also harder to keep paying attention to the little things that normally “fly under my radar” (for example, my appetite and what I’m eating and craving).

Prover 6

Day Three

He bopped C on the head lightly with his little note pad. “That bugged me.” I didn’t say anything. I kissed C on the head.

Caterpillar into Butterfly experience:

Prover 11

Day Sixteen

Feeling like I’ve “shed yet another skin” and seeing more patterns & paths that I no longer want to go down or act from….Especially remembering “the transformation I had” laying in my bed feeling my full grown body- I’m an adult now. What a realisation.

Day Twenty Five

There is no magic wand - You have to go thru - “shedding” so much right now is exhausting & so freeing at the same time.

Prover 13

Day Nine

I did what I call ‘cocoon’ for a few days. Been feeling sluggish and tired again. I went through a bout of insomnia a few days back.

Day Thirteen

I saved a blue dragonfly from drowning today. It seemed so very grateful.

Physical Symptoms

HEAD

Prover 8

Day Three

Tension headache still, and a feeling like sinusitis/weepy eye, pain over eye. Lots of pressure in my head.

Prover 12

Day Eight

Took another remedy. about half an hour later started to get a headache though I do get them when weather is thundery (which it is).

EYE

Prover 1

Day Three

Developed a stye, woke up with it yesterday - left eye, lower inner corner - & got worse during day & looks even redder today. Not terrible though.

MOUTH

Prover 3

Day Six

I feel like I’m getting a canker sore on my tongue again in the same spot and I’m really hoping I don’t! James also got his first canker sore on the inside of his lip. (Edit note: canker sore is US for mouth ulcer)

GAS/DIGESTION

Prover 1

Day

Much more windy than usual. Very annoying! Not smelly but loud farts so have to cough in public to hide or just not be in public. Excess noisy flatulence.

Prover 3

Day Three

I ate so much food at the bar and then so much popcorn at the theatre. During the movie, I started to feel really gassy. When I got home after, the whole city was very dark and my power was still out. I was still feeling really gassy and ended up having kind of a loose bowel movement before going to bed. I’m not sure if it was from all the food or what.

EXTREMITIES

Prover 7

Day Three

When resting - noticed my legs were having involuntary spasms. Like electrical currents running through my legs

Journals from the two supervisors

Supervisor One
How I felt:
Lots of changing of appointment times, didn’t mind weirdly Very busy time for me, fitting friends, family, Womad event strange!
Sitting in one of supervisor’s garden when second supervisor gets a text from a customer.
They’d bought an item earlier in the year and wanted to know if they could sell it back to them.
The item was a picture made completely from dead butterflies in circles.

Supervisor Two

(lots of days/dates written wrongly in their journal)
Friday 8th July (was actually Friday 9th)
All over the place, too much to do, not enough time. Under time pressure , rushing about. Started feeling jittery. Trying to pack to much in a day.
Hither & thither. Going in different directions, disorganised.
Went into town for coffee with friend. Met numerous people all stopping to chat.
Phone call from a “friend” out of the blue, last communicated in Jan 2022.
- Prover, no reply having arranged to have a session at 2pm
-feeling hurried
- saw young F in X cafe, last saw him before COVID pandemic !!! Real pleasure to see him. A friend called. Didn’t get to answer phone. Called them back. They then remembered had to go to GP for bloods. When she called after that, I had to come off to call prover, who didn’t reply. Finally when I called friend back, they couldn’t stay on phone as they had a FaceTime call to make to a friend in USA !!! So much effort over I phone call !!!

Tuesday 11th July
Dreamt of P. In dream we had separated. He was starting a romantic liaison with someone else. I was upset and aggrieved that he could do that.
Later…
Manic feeling? People wanting to visit on the week of the exhibition. One star member’s mother-in-law passed away, had to revise rota, more shifts to do. All rather overwhelming. So much reorganising, plans cancelled, chopped and changed!
Wednesday 12th July
Had a meltdown at work. Mixed up credit card payment….started feeling anxious, came back to shop and broken into tears & felt upset….felt personally responsible.
Today - was at the point of ringing Mary & saying can’t go on with this anymore. Becoming all too much.
All the time feeling jittery, made worse by these incidents, easily feeling emotional.
Thursday 13th
Noticed snacking and eating a lot, especially for carbs, choices and cakes.
-eyes continue to feel irritated.
Tuesday 18th
Start of exhibition. Busy week - hectic. Still feeling tense and nervy. Feeling impatient and irritated at the slowness of others. Wanting to take control and organise and get things done. Feeling super efficient and deliberately combative with one of the exhibitors. Not liking this side of me.
Wednesday 19th
Went to jazz - like old times, got a whole lot of friends to come, the social butterfly as ever!! Feel so great after the music, a sense of well being that I have not felt for a long time/

Thursday 21st July

(was actually Thursday 20th)
Dream
Preparing to take a flight with all the family. C’s ex boyfriend also here but I couldn’t remember his name in the dream. Sister had packed so much salad to take in containers for the journey. I am saying can’t take all that. Gathered in this strange place for the flight like someone’s home, vague, outside is dark,
Later
Clean, sorting, throwing, tidying. Desire to reorganise living space. And studio space, throw things out.
Friday 28th
Reorganised and titled C’s room. Needing to move things around and clear the space
Saturday 29th
Major clearing of sketchbooks from Art Foundation.

Prover’s thoughts about the proving (before finding out what it was)

Prover 1

Since it’s the end I will say main things have been AIR. Even though it isn’t hot, and in general wanting to be outside. NICE SMELLS and needing freshness - fresh fruits, - air-, sensitive to nice smells. Feeling very alive but not feeling rushed, even though the world can feel rushed around me. So feeling calmer than usual, really feeling more able to eat my lunch …by than needing to be reading something. Dreams - islands, water, activities, HORRIBLE MAGGOTS WRITING IN MY MOUTH AND COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH. Sensations - things moving under my skin (not unpleasant)

Prover 3

How I felt doing the proving:

It was a lot harder than I thought to keep up with a journal. It’s easy for me to type out a narration of every little thing I did in a day, but explaining how I felt about it is a lot harder than I thought. It’s also harder to keep paying attention to the little things that normally fly under my radar (for example, my appetite and what I’m eating and craving).

Overall, I can’t say that there was anything noticeably different in the way I felt or experienced things, but it’s hard to say for sure as I’m not normally so acutely aware of myself all the time like I have been during this. It would be interesting to compare one month of a journal WITHOUT the remedy. I’m also curious to see if I will be able to notice correlations between the remedy and the passed month once I find out what the remedy is.

I enjoyed doing the proving nonetheless. It was good practice for reflection and self-awareness. It was also fun to me to be a part of an experiment of sorts. I really enjoy that kind of thing anyway!

Prover 4

Day Seven

I noticed I wanted to know if supervisor knew what the remedy is. She said she did. Made me feel impatient to conclude this process and then I will know what you know - feels playful, not bad, jumpy, excited but also not really bothered!

Prover 5

Last day of proving

It felt a little weird, can't explain.

I've had 5 lots of really powerful synchronicity ,today.

4 x double numbers .

5 : My song I associated with my pain and P has just come on, but in a different format , reframed, like my grief...can see deep into our consciousness, what's really real.

Connections with P through telepathic messages and synchronicity moments have, all increased.

Face eyed feel bloated, yawning (almost)

I felt P touch my hair, and felt chilly all over.

His presence is here and I can really feel this connection more.

We have continuing bonds and so much love.

Just made myself cry reading this.

My head /heart is cruising along neutral, and thats such a relief but my body's right in it again, and I feel it more in the pm, even though I have had pain all day.

Every song that has come on Spotify is like a message from P. Like he's talking to me ...

Whatever the remedy is, it has been a life changing experience regarding my heart pain and trauma which were unbearable, and so exhausting.

I'm very exhausted now, and more so.

I feel a sense of amazement to think that someone can be supported in the future with this remedy, that I was part of helping other's.

And proud to have gone through this journey..and will continue too..

Prover 6

Last day of proving:

7:00- wake up I feel fully in my authentic self and present reading back through this I have noticed that that is the constant feeling that I’m having each day. I feel confident that everything is going to be OK and that I can stay calm and let go.

Prover 7

Last day of proving

Woke early and felt all full of beans. My mind feels fresh and ready to take on more projects. Meeting with my study buddy after morning class today to tie up loose ends with my assessment for yoga therapy.

People dropping in that were feeling lonely but I was firm with a 10 minute chat and then shuffled them along so I could get back to work.

Feeling really cheerful and like I am coming further back to being me. The moments of blankness of losing all the threads are getting smaller.

Loving domestic tasks - stacking firewood, cooking dinner and listening to podcasts about creating healthy sexuality in a porn filled world ( while chopping carrots ha ha)

Dancing while waiting for dinner to cook - at long last back to old me. There has been zero kitchen dancing since being on this remedy. It is usually a big source of joy for me. P was amazed when he came home that this was happening again.

Clear communication over dinner - something that has been a bit foggy.

Prover 9

Last day of proving

It’s been quite a month and I’m sure the remedy has helped me move on further from the crazy stuff going on in my life and helped me deal with various situations.

I have felt various physical symptoms, not sure if these were affected by the remedy but I was very thirsty, had the occasional hollow stomach.

Feeling, felt sometimes bloated other times constipated.

Emotionally, I felt slightly numb but more in control of my emotions but when feeling sad, angry, those feelings passed quicker.

My dreams were hard to remember but the ones I did were very vivid.

Prover 14
Day 13 - email:
My apologies I think I may have lost the remedy - it was in my wallet and may have fallen out when I was paying for something. Is there any chance you could sent some more? I think I’ve had 7 doses but my notes are quite scattered/sporadic so feel best to take it again a few times when I’m more focused - sorry knew would be a disorganised prover!
Interesting energy so far …kind of accelerated/speedy feeling. However have been a bit chaotic and took other remedies aswell so feel best to take it a bit more to see if I can get a better impression.
Supervision Report Day 24
Remedy has made it harder to sleep. More awake. Lie down. Since taking it quite a few times some nights sleep doesn’t come-couldn’t say why.

Food
Food stayed the same. Always don’t change much with food ever. Drinking Mate, South American, similar to coffee, energising, delicious.

Thoughts/Mind
Always disorganised, much more than normal. Scatterbrained.
Lost car key looked everywhere inside sofa, panicky. Got other ones.
Yesterday I ordered a curry, waited for it to cool down then fridge it, yesterday couldn’t eat it. Vanished out of thin air. Ghost. Couldn’t fathom, finally showed up in the bathroom, by toothbrush . Couldn’t fathom not awake, usually disorganised. I lost the remedy packet. Using the second one.
Prover talked about: Takes remedies willy-nilly, got stuff to do I’m sure I’ll get it done, completely quite normal for me
Scatterbrained? Proving exacerbated tendency I have stretched in all directions, feels extra gusts of wind- like things would be on Ebay, last minute, twice. Lock-in bid, forgotten about it, not in grasp at moment. Already before proving- definitely feeling externally emptiness soul aware feeling robotic without soul awarenesses robotic.

Prover 17

Notes since taking remedy

I have noticed that particularly the day of taking the remedy that night I sleep really well. Sleep has been much better overall.

Have had little rests in the afternoon and have sometimes fallen asleep but have felt really refreshed afterwards.

I have had cravings for cheese which isn’t like me and have had lots of sweet cravings the last week of proving. I have been trying to avoid too much sugar but have had to have some.

I have gone off of having a wine on a Friday evening and if I force myself to have a drink I don’t feel well afterwards.

I have been listening to my body more.

I have seen a Dentist for the 1st time in 3 years.

I have been able to observe my relationship with my family and not get too attached to emotions

I have been doing lots of organising and have had some days when this has been really productive and other days when I have been distracted by something else.

I have been more confident about driving to places I don’t really know, which is something I don’t usually like to do.

Feedback after finding out what remedy actually was, from the prover who had previously proved Orange Tip Butterfly more than ten years ago.

Prover 4

Themes I recognise:

Inability to concentrate

Setting off driving without whacking where you are going

Headaches

Heightened sense of smell for flavours

Scattered energy - fits and starts

Procrastination

Desire to eat eggs

Increased appetite

Difficulty walking worse on first moving, better from continued movement

Detached - disconnected

“Not bothered”

Playful, floating, in the moment.

Some Prover thoughts after finding out exactly what the remedy was

Prover 12

I have felt very drawn to blues, purples and greens. Particularly peacocks!

I’ve travelled down to see my family. Unfortunately felt abandoned by my friends who all but two cancelled on my for my birthday reboot.

I’ve been obsessed with learning about the trans movement and watched videos of people talking about transitioning and de-transitioning.

I have also been doing a lot of work so I can prep for an extended period of rest which began on the Friday before the proving concluded.

On the Monday after the proving concluded, I went to the butterfly house at the Horniman Museum with my son, sister and nieces. An Owl butterfly landed on me!

Apologies if my proving diary isn’t the best!

Prover 14
After finding out what the remedy was:
Missed the reveal because I developed a fever/illness at meditation retreat so was quite ill/between worlds.

The remedy makes total sense-the first day of taking, my scorpio friend was saying it could be a butterfly because my attention was flying around so much!

Suggested Proving Rubrics
Synthesis Edition 7 - Homeopathic Book Publishers 1997

Mind

AMUSEMENT

- desire for

ANXIETY

- others, for

ANXIETY

- family, about his

COMPANY

- desire for

CONCENTRATION

- difficult

COUNTRYSIDE

- desire for

LIGHT

- desire for, sunlight, to be in

LONGING

- sunshine, light and society, for

NATURE

- loves

OCCUPATION

- aversion

PLANS

- making many plans

PLANTS

- loves

PLAYFUL

RESTLESSNESS

- motion:

. amel

SENSITIVE

- odors, to

TRAVELLING

- desire for

WALKING

- air, in the open, amel, mental symptoms

Nose

SMELL:

- acute, (sensitive to odors)

Generals

AIR

- open air

. amel

EATING

- overeating

FOOD

- cakes (see pastry)

- ice cream

. desire

- fruit:

. desire:

juicy fruits

- pastry:

. desire

MOTION

- amel

WALKING

- amel

- air, in open

. amel

Other Butterfly Provings/Provers

Orange Tip Butterfly - Anthocharis cardamines

by Sue George July 2010 Welsh School of Homeopathy

https://welshschoolofhomeopathy.org.uk/provings/Orange_Tip_Butterfly.pdf

Blue Triangle Butterfly- Graphium Sarpedon Choredon

by Heidi Wedd (Australia) 24th February 2005

https://bluetrianglebutterfly.yolasite.com/

Nuala Eising - Red Admiral Butterfly - Vanessa Urtica Extract from publisher

Nancy Herrick - Her homepage https://herrickmorrison.com/

https://www.homeoresearch.com/review-of-animal-mind-human-voices/

Review of Animal Mind, Human Voices :

I found the themes extracted from the provings to be thought provoking. One theme from the butterfly proving was feelings from childhood and adolescence: dreams of being an adolescent and realizing that adults don’t have all the answers; feeling anxious, unsettled, indignant about finding the right answer; a dream of being a teenager and having to wear the ‘right’ clothes.

Another related theme was that of a child feeling unprotected by adults; a dream of an approaching tidal wave with the adults directing the kids to wait outside of the safety zone, causing the dreamer to wonder:

“don’t they know it isn’t safe out here?”

The butterfly proving evoked pleasurable sensations of joy that come from the lightness of feeling love for ourselves and others. Some excerpts from the provers’ journals during the butterfly proving include:

“Sensation of the heart chakra being very open. Experienced a deep sense of compassion, feeling of joy for other people’s happiness; Very spontaneous feeling of pleasure. Felt incredible, loving feelings towards my family, towards my kids and my husband. Really a delight, wonderful. Peaceful, happy, easy going.”

Article about Butterfly Remedies

https://hpathy.com/homeopathy-papers/evolutionary-remedies-in-homeopathy-capturing-the-essence-of-the-butterfly/

References

*p.35 British Butterflies, Figures and Descriptions of Every Native Species with an account of Butterfly development, structure, habits, localities, mode of capture, and preservation by W.S. Coleman, 1888, George Routledge & Sons, Broadway, Ludgate Hill, London.

1. https://butterfly-conservation.org/news-and-blog/painted-lady-migration-secrets-revealed

Other butterfly research articles I read

http://www.butterflymigration.org/

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-scotland-49210010

https://www.pnas.org/doi/10.1073/pnas.2218280120

https://www.ukbutterflies.co.uk/species.php?species=cardui

https://www.sciencenews.org/article/painted-lady-butterfly-migration-identified

http://www.interhomeopathy.org/three-butterfly-cases

Bibliography

Butterflies, Robert Goodden, 1971, Hamlyn London

Discover Butterflies in Britain, D. E. Newland, 2006, Wild Guides, Hampshire

The Complete Butterflies in Colour, L. Hugh Newman, 1968, George Rainbird Ltd, London W2

Butterfly Safari, Andrew Fusek Peters, 2023, Bird Eye Books Graffeg Ltd, https://amzn.to/3QjvelW

Butterflies An innovative guide to the use of butterfly remedies in homeopathy, Patricia Le Roux, 2009, Narayana Verlag, Germany

Synthesis, Repertorium Homeopathicum Syntheticum, edited by Dr Frederik Schroyens Edition 7 - Homeopathic Book Publishers, 1997, B. Jain Publishers New Delhi

The Proving of a New Homeopathic Remedy

2023-08-13T11:13:00.002+01:00

1st July 2023 10.16am

Proving A New Homeopathic Remedy

I'm not too sure what possessed me to want to do another homeopathic proving, as they're very time intensive and also take a LOT of organising.

However, after having a little word with myself, I made the decision to start this one and do everything I could to make it as well organised as possible.

I checked I wouldn't be doing it during a Mercury retrograde and I'm not.

I put the call out to my Newsletter subscribers, and 16 people kindly volunteered.

After a few days, four dropped out for various important and legitimate reasons, leaving me with 12 provers.

Then I put the call out for some male provers and two gentlemen kindly volunteered.

Then a new subscriber asked to be included and a homeopath colleague also got in touch, so I'm now back to 16 provers: 14 ladies and two gentlemen.

The proving starts today for the UK provers: 1st July 2023 at 9am local time.

Five provers live in USA

One in New Zealand

One in Spain

One in Jersey

Eight in UK

Here is the map showing where everyone is located

Map of Provers

The reason I'm happy about the location of the provers will become evident when the proving substance is revealed.

I've already had two doses of the remedy, just so I know what the provers will feel like as the proving progresses.

The prover in Spain, the prover in New Zealand and the four USA provers haven't received their remedies yet as I only posted their remedies on Sunday 25th and it can take five to seven working days for letter-post to arrive.

They will start their provings (obz) when their remedies arrive and I'll update when that happens.

I'm aiming on updating my blog during the proving so that I can have a record of the actual process of the proving, from my perspective.

Big thanks and a massive shout-out to the provers, the two supervisors and to John Lee at Helios for actually creating the remedy, which I will write more about when the proving is completed.

This blog is purely about my process.

Tuesday 4th July 9.31pm

Now I don't know if I'm proving the remedy in full swing or not

I think I might be.

Today has been chaotic

I'd got some figures wrong last night and corrected them this morning for a relative.

Then I realised I hadn't done our food order, so rushed to do that and couldn't find my usual slot.

A prover who had not been in contact, got in contact again and we spoke online, so now I have another person to keep an eye on.

17 provers.

I can't possibly take on anymore provers so anyone else who asks will be a 'No'.

One prover didn't show up for her supervision yesterday. I sent her a note on Skype. I hope she's OK.

Another prover had to change her appt from this evening and I slotted her in on Thursday then realised I was looking at the wrong week in my diary, so I rang her and we changed the date/time to 7.30pm then I realised that I didn't have that time and had to email her to change it again to 7pm

Meeting with other supervisors on Thursday morning. Glad about that.

I'm now panicking that the remedies haven't arrived in the USA seven days after posting them but I know that's not realistic and I need to wait a little longer before I completely panic...

Brighton, Northampton, Wales, London, Wiltshire have all had their remedies.

So have Jersey and Spain.

Just the five in USA and the newbie who re-contacted today are waiting, but that one lives in Hampshire and theirs should arrive by Friday at latest...

Four USA provers, from the original mailing ought to have their remedies tomorrow.

And New Zealand

Thank goodness it's my day off tomorrow and I can relax a tad

I'm going to go to Butterfly World in Swindon. Hoping the butterflies will be 'awake' and I can see some fluttering around. I rang yesterday and asked it they had any Painted Ladies, but no-one rang me back. I think they're short-staffed as they had an advert on their site for someone to work with the butterflies.

THEN I noticed I'd double-booked with a friend for this Friday. I have a prover booked in and I'd added her in on top, so I've texted her if she can move forwards by 30 mins (we meet online for Non-Fiction Book Reading Group)

All in all it seems like nothing is 'settled' everything is up-in-the-air, which is a strange sensation.

I'm also wanting to drink orange juice, but I don't have any, so I'm eating the oranges I have in stock but it's not the same. Last week I was eating orange lollies but I've eaten them all now.

My sweet tooth is in overdrive, that better not last or my blood-sugars will go overboard:(

Did some crochet which was nice but I ran out of yarn. I'll have to spin some more but I can't be bothered...

I'm swinging all over the place and I need to settle. which doesn't even seem possible at the moment.

Thursday 6th July, 8.18pm

Georgia and Florida prover's remedies arrived, which is great. Hoping the others arrive soon.

Went to Butterfly World yesterday on my day off, and had SUCH a lovely time.

Butterflies landed on my Summer Festival crochet cardigan and on my hat! Amazing seeing them fluttering around the enclosure. Took loads of photos and videos. I was transfixed. Went round three times. Twice before lunch, then once again afterwards.

Then I went into the garden centre there and bought a California Lilac, and planted it in our garden when I got home.

Beautiful shade of pale blue...

Spoke to prover today who said he : "flicked' around and that he "tends to flitter about and scatter" all very butterfly words.

Next prover said her symptoms were like "gassy, like butterflies in tummy, giddy"

She also said she'd like to drink "elderflower, sweet, fizzy water" and that she wanted to go out and buy honeysuckle and that her sense of smell had increased.

Both provers talked about gardens and being outside.

Great to hear the remedy has started working with/in the provers.

I LOVE provings and I especially love when provers start talking about stuff related to the remedy which confirms to me that something is happening and it's not all random cherry-picking.

Saturday 8th July 10.14am

Urrggghhh. Remdies haven't arrived in Colorado or Ohio :( They have reached new Zealand, Florida, Georgia, which is good and the one sent to California is a week behind everyone else...

Not sure what to do now? Tell them to carry one waiting? Or send again another way? Or ask the Higher Powers for some assistance or just trust that the postal services will eventually land those last two remedies in the right places.

This proving was only supposed to last for the month of July. Maybe I'm being impatient. I blame my fire sign Leo Ascendant.

Still obsessed with butterflies. Bought sooooooo many books. Even downloaded the iRecord Butterflies app and have been busy (a key butterfly word) recording all the butterflies I can photo whenever I go somewhere. I know I could record sightings, but I've challenged myself to photo on my iPhone as many as I can of each different variety. So far I've uploaded 40 piccies.

It certainly is NOT easy to photo a butterfly!

It's not like a bird that you can maybe catch when it feeds somewhere or lands somewhere.

Butterflies only stay for seconds on leaves or flowers or grasses. Then they ping off to somewhere else. They longest they seem to stay is when the sun is shining on them and they'er absorbing the sun's rays to give them some oooomph. Even when they're nectaring, they only stay on the plant long enough for a quick top-up of nectar, then they're off again...

And they pop out of nowhere... one minute they're there, the next they're gone.

It's a real challenge.

The only way to manage it that I've found is to stay near to wherever they seem to like 'being' and hope that one will reverse and come back to where I'm stood. I suppose if I sat still somewhere I might see more. Don't know, I haven't tried that....yet..

Cyber bullying Doesn't Stop Local Author Writing About Her Therapy

2020-01-12T10:41:00.000+00:00

Cyber bullying Doesn't Stop Local Author Writing About Her Therapy

When local Homeopath, Mary English, secured a book deal for her latest book A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love she said:

"I was so excited when I received the email to tell me my book had been accepted. "

Miss English who has worked as a Homeopath, a form of Alternative and Complementary Healing, for over 20 years in the Bath area, had mixed feelings when her publisher Ayni Books approached her and asked her if she'd write a guide to Homeopathy for their imprint on Complementary and Alternative approaches to health and wellbeing.

Mary was reluctant at first as she had suffered considerable stress from cyber bullies and skeptics intent on silencing her and her therapy.

"My husband, family and clients were so supportive" said Mary "I just carried on practising, albeit more quietly than before. It made me nervous of promoting my business, then when the book offer arrived I realised I had to speak out about this wonderful, healing, gentle therapy. So many people benefit from it's natural approach and their health blossoms."

Homeopathy is a form of medicine discovered and developed by a German doctor, Samuel Hahnemann in 1789.

The Law of Opposites

There are two types of healing. The law of similars and the law of opposites.

In the law of opposites a patient is given a medicine to do the opposite of what it wrong with them.

They could be given an 'anti-acid' to stop their stomach from producing acid to relieve indigestion.

The Law of Similars

In the law of similars a patient is given a remedy that would produce the same symptoms they're suffering from, but in a minute dose to encourage the body's own healing powers.

This is a little like vaccination.

In Homeopathy a similar medicine is used, something that would produce the same symptoms the person is suffering from.

Samuel Hahnemann

Hahnemann qualified in medicine but was dismayed at the treatments offered to patients as they were cruel and barbaric and involved leeching and dangerous poisonous chemicals. So to supplement his income he translated medical texts but there was one where he disagreed with it's author.

Cullen, another doctor of the time stated in his book that the reason Cinchona Bark (Cortex Peruvianus which contains quinine) cured malaria was 'because it was bitter'.

Hahnemann knew that there were plenty of other herbs that were bitter, but none of them cured malaria so he decided to take some doses himself and have his wife observe him.

After taking a dose he discovered he had all the symptoms of malaria:

"I became languid and drowsy; then my heart began to palpitate; my pulse became quick and hard: an intolerable anxiety and trembling; prostration in all limbs: pulsation in the head; redness of the cheeks; thirst."

He had discovered he had all the symptoms of malaria and when he discontinued the medicine, he was "once more in good health."

Like Cures Like

This discovery prompted him to spend the rest of his (long) life developing the principle of LIke Cures Like.

Homeopathy is available privately and sometimes on the N.H.S depending on where you live.

"My book details Homeopathy's history, present day availability, philosophy, actual cases from my practice and simple remedies to use at home for common complaints." says Mary "My clients love the fact they can help themselves with colds, headaches, acne and upset tummies with no fear of side-effects or drug dependance."

https://www.johnhuntpublishing.com/ayni-books/our-books/little-at-time

The Homeopathic proving of 'Tempesta' the Storm by Mary English DSH

2018-07-05T11:49:00.000+01:00

This proving is given to you in the spirit of 'free speech' to allow you to read about what happens during a proving.What is recorded here is what the provers felt,dreamt, thought and experienced during the proving weeks.You can draw your own conclusions but please be kind enough to respect that this work took months to collate and was conducted in a professional, caring manner. I would appreciate you being/doing the same when /if you comment on it.

The Homeopathic proving of 'Tempesta' the Storm by Mary English

Certain things happened before I conducted this proving and I will just out-line the build-up.

I was a student Homoeopath. I studied for 2 years at Regents College in London , then transferred to The School of Homoeopathy in Devon run by Mr Misha Norland.

In my original ignorance I believed that anything was possible (I still do). I read books about the ancient crafts , the way women used to live, with the earth , with herbs , with experience. I admit I dabble.............so one day when I was sitting on my back step , a storm ensued. I popped into the kitchen and got a remedy bottle and left it in the garden and captured the rain in it. There was a small amount of thunder , a flash or two of lightning.....after about 20mins it went as quickly as it had come. But I left the bottle there until the calm came , and after a while , took it back in. I added some brandy and left it on the shelf in the kitchen.

A few weeks later I had some friends round for drinks and chats and remembered that I'd got this 'remedy' and asked if anyone wanted to try it.

My sister, being a true Aquarius, was well up for it, and we all had a drop in our drinks.

This was not a proving. I hadn't really much idea about provings, but anyway we all sat there and the conversation got round to fires and, it's quite strange looking back, how we all had a story to tell of buildings burning and escaping from them, or being near them or cars igniting, that sort of stuff.

The party animal who is normally the last to go to bed, suddenly announced she was very weary and retired to her camper van.

Weeks elapsed, then my sister told me she'd met a new bloke. She had finished with her old boyfriend, after a lot of trauma, and this new man had (very romantically) captured her heart.

Then I got a call to say another 'prover' had found a new woman having gone through a horrible divorce.........I was pleased for them both. I even gave some live on air to the presenter of BBC Radio Bristol and I've still got on tape his primary reaction to imbibing a storm. I took more remedy myself in the mistaken, and un-homoeopathic belief, that more is best...I basically overdid it and had a very short-lived fling.

Then the bottle leaked into my handbag and that was the end of that!

A year later, in May 1999, another storm began during a week of weird events (for me) and it was an evening storm. Hooray!

I ran into the garden with my bottle and laid it on the step, then sat in my verandah and watched it all unfold.

I LOVE storms. Thunder raged, lightning flashed, and rain beat heavily onto the ground; no wind, just pure energy wrapped around me.

This time I left the bottle only for the height of the proceedings. I wanted to get the maximum amount of whooooosh captured. I ran into the deluge and rescued my bottle and skipped back inside.

Storm 2 sat on the shelf overnight.

The next day I sent it to my chum John Lee at Ainsworths and he made it into a nice 6c and sent me back the remedy.

I then set about organising a proving, having learned about them from Jeremy Sherr's book The Dynamics and Methodology of Homeopathic Provings, published by Dynamis Books, from college and Samuel Hahnemann : verse 121 Organon of the Medical Art, published by Birdcage Books.

I was worried that this remedy would be rubbished by other Homeopaths, so I was at pains to ensure that the proving I did was a cross section of people: male, female, gay, straight and also an actual Homoeopath.

(I tried to find, and managed to get, all the elements from astrology; Earth, Air, Fire and Water; namely; Taurus x2, Libra x2, Gemini, Leo, Scorpio and Pisces.This is because I have an interest in astrology.)

My final proving list involved 8 volunteers. Only 2 of them knew each other. Everyone else only knew me.

The proving took place in August 1999.

The Nature Of a Storm

Storms mostly occur in England during the early summer and generally last only 1-2 hours.
They begin when a parcel of warm, moist air close to the ground rises quickly, creating an unstable situation with upcurrents and downcurrents all vying for attention. The condensation that is formed bashes about with the water droplets creating static electricity with negative electrical charges collecting in the middle and lower parts of the cloud and positive charges collecting at the top.

Eventually the differences between these two charges is so great that BANG a massive spark is released as the charges even themselves out.

Lightning is the negative charge trying to reach the ground as quickly as possible and is attracted to places that are positively charged; i.e. that tree you're standing under or T.V. arial on your roof. When the two charges meet, that's the flash you see.

Thunder is the sound of air expanding at super speed 'cos the lighting has heated it up to the temperature of the Sun in seconds flat. (Bet you didn't know that air could make a sound!)

Basically the inside of a storm cloud is chaos trying to find a way to sort itself out and re-balance.

The Provers consisted of : 1) Male (gay), 2) Female, 3) Male, 4) Female, 5) Female, 6) Male, 7) Female, 8) Female.

Dreams

7) I then had a dream that he was an old fashioned sailing ship with drawers. Inside the drawers were old fashioned tools.

4) Dreamed of the end of the world , or a least , massive tsunami (tidal wave) hitting San Francisco. I was with an alien who seemed to know what was going to happen and was getting an underground shelter ready. Alien was yellow and furry.

8) Very unpleasant dream where I was in court re the death of my son, some considerable time after the event. Threat of imprisonment or indefinite psychiatric detention hung over me and I felt my life was ruined. The judge adjourned the case for a private psychiatric review at which I had no representation. My godmother who is herself a psychiatrist said the tribunal chairwoman was dreadful. I had to appeal against the judge's ruling to have the nature of the hearing changed so that I could have any (e.g. legal) representation.<

8) Working in an office looking at maps of rivers and harbours. An official was visiting and he was meant to check each person's work in turn, but he wouldn't come and sit with me, each time he'd find a reason to go off and do something else - even though my colleagues said he should sit with me and check my work, and it was simple work and wouldn't take long.

8) Dream of having hair highlighted at a hairdressers and it goes wrong. Some of the hair comes out very pale blonde and other parts bright red. Feel bad about the whole business.

8) My brother was ill in hospital (youngest brother). He was like a zombie. It was proposed that this was a psychiatric condition , but I protested that no search had been made for any physical cause it might have, such as hypothyroidism and that this ought to be done. There was a feeling of powerlessness against the establishment and having to fight to defend my rights - quite similar to the feeling of the first dream.

6) I cannot remember any dreams but I do know that I dreamed often. I remember that they were dreams about the days events but the sleep was very deep and I was unable to recall facts in the morning. As if I was working hard subconsciously but also very deeply.

5) Dreamed about painting houses and scavenging (skips etc.)

5) Dream of groups of people and kids, not family but family groups. General interaction.

5) Slept deep. Dreamed that other people's belongings had been left at my door.

5) Dreamed vividly. Dreamed that I met up with my brother. (I've only 'met up' like this twice before since he died) He took me to a room and then left me there. In the room were a group of angels. They made a fuss over the condition of my chest and gave me a long and strong healing.

Primary Action

7) Mild panic / excitement.

4) Felt energised, mostly mentally, seemed to reinforce my positive side.

8) Immediately, feeling of increased energy.

6) Mentally I felt a little confused.

5) Muzzy head.

Physical Symptoms

2) My periods seemed to be protracted by about 2 days from normal - very little flow but just not stopped properly - dark brown blood for the last 3 days - very small amount.

2) My pre-menstrual symptoms seemed to be a lot less intense this month - only really a slight dull ache - far less emotional swings.

8) Period was shorter and lighter than usual ( 3-4 days )

Generalities

8) Tingling feeling generally , almost like having an orgasm.

4) Got hot throughout body - feet felt cool.

Head

8) Headache , frontal , left-sided. Day 2.

5) Head feels muzzy. Day 1.

5) Migraine-type headache , before bed. Day 3

Nose

5) Heightened sense of smell. Day 4

Stomach

2) Wanted to eat a lot , starchy , wheaty things which I feel slightly sluggish on.

5) Crave salty food , meat pizza , meat and wheat , feel sleepy

Abdomen

1) Shooting cramps in intestines , feels like I've got intestinal parasites.

Stool

8) Laxative effect , soft stool twice in morning rather than once, and more formed.Day 1.

5) Remedy 8am , 10.44 Diarrhoea. Day 1

5) Feel full , tired , diarrhoea. Day 2.

Extremities

8) Tingling feeling in wrists , ulnar aspect , bilateral.

2) Red spots and itching around the knees which scabbed when scratched , red, 3mm across , not hot just itchy , turned into pussy scab with very little scratching.

Themes of Storm Remedy~ Tempesta

Sexually predatory vs. Celibate

Reckless vs. Responsible

Liberation & Freedom vs. Imprisonment & Incarceration

Sexually predatory.

8) Noticed people more in a sexual way, more readily felt attracted to people; e.g. walking down the road, builders were working outdoors stripped to the waist, I thought they had good bodies (not usually my style)

1) Firstly one of my friends boyfriends went away for a while, so he was feeling lonely and one thing led to another and we kind of got together a couple of times and committed acts of gross indecency. Next there's ******. A really sweet guy. His boyfriend was also away so once again we got together and once again lust and desire won over common sense.

6) I woke up each morning with women on my mind. This may have just been all my chickens come home to roost but there were some old birds I hadn't heard from in a long time and there were some new ones I hardly recognised.

Celibate

7) We decided to spend the night together without having sex as he was already in a relationship.

6) I spent a night in bed (just cuddling ) with an ex that I've always wanted to get back with and then decided that I didn't feel that way about her anymore. We split up 3 years ago.

Reckless

8) I drank rather freely , champagne kept being poured out, and I think I was in a reckless mood and could have got into something I couldn't handle.

5) In a feisty mood. Organise (badger) the others up the Tor.

4) Felt energised (mostly mentally) and seemed to reinforce my positive side. Had 3 clear winners on horses !

Responsible

6) It was like actually counting up how many beers you drink each week and realising you had a problem.

3) I have been thinking a lot about having children - in the past I've always been dead against having them but I think I might be becoming a little broody.

1) There are now plans to split up some of the other teams and give them to me so that I have more responsibility and so my profile can be raised.

Imprisonment & Incarceration

7) I was locked into my bathroom at 11.30pm , alone with 3 children. I called for help. Eventually my neighbours heard me, called my brother, who eventually got into the house. The lock was so broken that he had to kick the door in.

7) In meditation with my friend I saw a past life experience when I was imprisoned

8) Very unpleasant dream where I was in court. Threat of imprisonment or indefinite psychiatric detention hung over me and I felt my life was ruined

8) A lot of thoughts about a pregnant Irish woman who was imprisoned in Holloway on IRA related charges.

Liberation & Freedom

4) Felt dawning of possibility of freedom, however, mentally able to see a way out of long-term situation, although still no physical means. That seemed a significant change, not feeling totally trapped and hopeless anymore.

3) Cravings for solitude and mountains have gone. Feel more relaxed and now not frustrated as my desire to earn a living from Chinese medicine has at last been fulfilled.

2) This is quite hard to describe - but I am different from how I was at the beginning of the proving quite substantially. I became particularly conscious of this on my birthday when I spent the day with women friends - not planned it just happened - and I came to a real understanding of how completely wonderful it is to hang out with my girlfriends and brings me more joy than male company does.

What Happens in an On-Line Homeopathic Consultation

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Homeopathic Remedies ~ Tablets, Types & How to Take Them

2016-04-12T22:08:00.003+01:00

Homeopathic Remedies

In this article I will be sharing how Homeopathic remedies are made, where to buy them, in what form they're sold and how to self-prescribe safely.

Homeopathic remedies have been available since the late 1700s when Samuel Hahnemann first discovered the healing properties of natural substances. They are now available worldwide and are easy and safe to take at home.

In this video https://www.helios.co.uk/remedies/remedy-preparation you will see how remedies are prepared.

It is radically different to conventional medicines or drugs.

Remedy tablets

Tablets supplied by https://www.helios.co.uk/

Most people buy their remedies either as lactose 'milk sugar' tablets or round pilules made from sucrose, which have been impregnated with a solution of tincture made from the remedy source. They can also be given in powder form or in tiny granules which are popular for babies who have no teeth to crunch the tablets.

Nelson's Teetha Granules

Some remedies are available as ointments to rub on the skin:

Neal's Yard Arnica Salve

And some are available as ‘mother’ tinctures....made from the plant or mineral source.
These can be mixed with water to make lotions for bathing, gargling or rubbing on the skin

Arnica Tincture

And some are prepared into liquid potencies for those who are allergic to lactose or don't want to swallow tablets.

How to Take Homeopathic Remedies.

These are very subtle medicines that affect the controlling mechanisms of the body rather than the physical body itself. They are very delicate and can be damaged by being touched by the fingertips. It's best if they are not be handled at all (if possible).

For both children and adults, a dose is one tablet or drop or two pilules or enough granules to cover the base of the container lid or the nail of the little finger. Powders are normally dispensed in individual doses.

However - quite unlike orthodox medicines - it is the potency of the remedy (the number which is shown after its name such as 30c or 9x) and the frequency with which it is taken that determine the strength of its action.

The amount taken at each dose is not critical.

Nelson's Clikpak

Some remedies are sold in clicker packs, which make it easy to drop pilules straight into the mouth.

Otherwise, you may need to tip the dose into the lid of the remedy bottle or the palm of your hand first.

Drop the remedy directly onto or underneath your tongue without otherwise touching the mouth. Then just let it dissolve - don’t swallow it straight away - so it can be absorbed by the mucous membranes in the mouth. This means it will quickly be absorbed into the body without having to go all the way through your digestive track.

Solutions are supplied in dropper bottles so one or two drops can easily be put directly on the tongue, without touching the mouth. The dropper should be sterilised between uses.

Remedies are best taken in between meals, at least half an hour after eating when your mouth doesn’t taste of anything else, such as food, drink, tobacco or toothpaste. After taking a remedy, try to allow at least 15 minutes before putting anything else in your mouth so they can be fully utilised by the body. In emergencies do your best to make sure the mouth is as empty as possible of stuff before you take the remedy.

Can I Overdose with Homeopathic Remedies?

The short answer is No.
The longer answer is that the dosage is influenced by frequency rather than quantity.
Homeopathic remedies are quite safe however much is taken at once; it still constitutes one dose.

If the remedy is taken by someone other than the patient for whom it was intended, it will have no effect anyway as it will not match their symptom picture. One of the delights of homeopathy is its safety.
However, do keep your remedies away from small children or you may find your collection is wiped out in one go as the tablets taste sweet!

If small children do swallow a large quantity at once, the sugar content of the remedy may cause transient diarrhoea.

The homeopathic equivalent of an overdose is when a remedy is "proved" or begins to cause the symptoms that it is intended to cure. This can happen when a remedy is taken for very prolonged periods. So don’t continue with a remedy once it has worked in order to prevent a relapse. It’s quite unnecessary and actually counter-productive.

More information on my provings is on my website here https://www.maryenglish.com/homeopathy/

Remedy safety.

Homeopathic remedy high dilutions make them safe for all ages and conditions. You can't overdose or have too much, you can't poison yourself or become allergic to the tablet's contents.
However, like any medical system you have to be very aware of what 'health' and 'disease' are like and what is safe to continue to treat at home. If you're unsure or your symptoms are getting worse, do seek medical help.

What to Avoid When Taking Homeopathic Remedies.

Aromatic substances such as coffee, tobacco, highly perfumed cosmetics and toiletries, strong smelling household cleaners, some aromatherapy oils that contain aromatic oils - particularly peppermint, camphor, eucalyptus and tea-tree - all have the ability to antidote homeopathic remedies and should be avoided completely when treating acute ailments with homeopathy.

If you have a chronic complaint and your symptoms are steadily improving with homeopathic treatment, you could gradually reintroduce them but not within half an hour of taking the remedy.

Homeopathy and Conventional Medicine.

Homeopathic medicines will not interfere with any drugs you are taking. However a number of orthodox drugs such as steroids, major and minor tranquillisers, oral contraceptives, sleeping pills and antihistamines can make the choosing of the correct homeopathic medicine difficult and may modify or block the effects of homeopathic medicines. If you want to come off orthodox drugs, discuss the matter with your medical practitioner or homeopath first.

DO NOT STOP TAKING ANY PRESCRIBED MEDICATION WITHOUT FIRST CONSULTING YOUR MEDICAL PRACTITIONER OR HOMEOPATH.

If you visit a homeopath for a consultation, be sure to tell them what drugs you are taking.

If Your Symptoms Improve:)

If you feel that your condition is improving before you come to the end of the pack...

Stop Taking the Remedy!

There is no benefit in continuing to take a remedy once your symptoms have started to disappear or reduce.

Remember, the effectiveness of homeopathic remedies depends on matching your symptom picture to the remedy picture as precisely as you can, and then taking the smallest possible dose for the least possible time. Once the remedy has delivered its message, your body’s own drive towards health, known in homeopathy as the ‘Vital Force’ will do the rest.

If the condition returns, re-start the remedy and repeat as necessary.

Homeopathy does not work in the same way as many orthodox treatments, where the course must be completed.

What To Do If Symptoms Get Worse.

Remedies are very safe and don’t have any known side effects. However, an ‘aggravation’, or a temporary worsening of symptoms, is not unusual when taking homeopathic remedies. In fact it’s usually a good sign.
It shows that the remedy has been recognised by the body.

A wrong remedy will have no effect either way.

In acute conditions, discomfort may increase for a few minutes, seldom more.

In chronic conditions, an aggravation may last longer but rarely for more than a day or two.

The correct thing to do in such circumstances is to

Stop Taking the Remedy

...and wait until your symptoms improve, as they almost certainly will. If improvement continues, there is no need to take the remedy again. If improvement stops, restart the remedy. Where improvement continues for a while, then stops, leaving you with nagging symptoms, take the remedy in a higher potency.
For instance, if you are taking a 6c, start taking doses of 30c.

If an aggravation has not subsided within three days, contact your homeopath.
If worsening symptoms are accompanied by a general deterioration in your health or you have been diagnosed with a condition which is potentially serious, contact your medical practitioner or a homeopath ASAP.

If worsening symptoms are accompanied by any of the following:

A persistent temperature of 39 °C -102 °F or over
Spitting blood or passing blood in stools or urine
A rigid and painful abdomen
Increasing breathlessness and chest pain
confusion or abnormal drowsiness

...phone the emergency services ASAP

What to Do If Some Symptoms Improve but Others Don’t.

If you feel better in yourself, gradually cut down the remedy doses - the physical symptoms should improve in time.

If you get 'stuck', you may need another remedy, probably one that complements the previous one, or a different potency, any number of things could be going on...
In that case it would be best to consult a professional homeopath.

Similarly, if you experience relief from physical symptoms but find that mental symptoms remain troublesome, you are definitely advised to contact a homeopath.

What to Do If New Symptoms Appear.

First...

Stop The Remedy

You may be proving it. The symptoms should quickly disappear. If they do not, you may have the wrong diagnosis or remedy. Recheck and call your medical practitioner or homeopath if unsure.

What to Do if Your Symptoms Stay the Same.

Review your symptoms, be as specific as you can and consult the Repertory or this on-line remedy finder https://abchomeopathy.com/go.php to see if you can find a more appropriate remedy.

How to Store Your Remedies.

Store them in their original containers, taking care to keep the lids well screwed on. Put them in a cupboard or box at normal room temperature and away from heat sources. Store them separately to and away from substances such as aromatherapy oils, mothballs, perfumes and anything that is strong smelling.

Stored like this, homeopathic remedies remain potent for up to 100 years!

If you would like more information about Homeopathic Treatment, do refer to Mary's book published by Ayni Books

A Little at a Time on Amazon

Or contact her direct via her website http://www.maryenglish.com/

Homeopathy and Your Family

2016-01-15T12:52:00.003+00:00

Had a nice discussion with Sandie Sedgbeer on the Inspired Parenting Show about using Homeopathy at home with your children.

http://omtimes.com/iom/2015/12/homeopathy/

Why Homeopathy is a Useful, Healing Therapy

2015-11-16T18:49:00.000+00:00

Why Homeopathy is a Useful, Healing Therapy

Mary English DSH, MFHT, Author of A Little at a Time, Homeopathy For You and Those You Love.

Please excuse me if you have already seen a Homeopath, used a Homeopathic remedy or been treated by a Homeopathically trained GP. This article is not for you.

This article is for those who have heard of Homeopathy and think Homeopaths are:

~Reckless therapists bent on deceiving the general public and using

~Un-proven,

~Dangerous,

~Life-threatening forms of

~Witch-craft

~and hocus-pocus.

~Snake oil salesmen/women

~Quacks

~and money-grabbing,

~Cherry-picking

~Forms of evil

~and wonton deceit.

This above list isn't exhaustive but it covers most of the current Keyboard Warrior criticism for Homeopathy and Homeopathic practitioners.

I must also add at the beginning of this article that I am a non-medically-trained Homeopath.

I have a Diploma in Homeopathy, which took me 5 years to gain, I have insurance, a counselling skills certificate, 8 years experience of working with a wide range of pathology in a drugs and homeless charity and I am past Chair of a Homeopathic charity and past trustee of another Homeopathic charity.

Experienced

I also have over 15+ years experience in private practice working on the front-line treating a wide range of clients from birth to old age, with an equally wide range of diseases from skin conditions to severe pathology.

Claims & Laws

I don't claim anything with my therapy and I abide by the laws of this country which ban me from treating the following complaints including cancer, diabetes and tuberculosis,

I am also respectful of the fact that most of my clients are genuinely unwell and have not had any lasting success with their treatment within the NHS.

I charge a reasonable fee which my clients are happy to pay.

If I feel I can't treat someone, I tell them and refer them to someone who can.

Hopes & Fears

I give my clients options, advice, a listening ear and space to let them express their fears, hopes and dreams and I prescribe a remedy to help them, having weighed-up and analysed their symptoms, pathology, past health, presenting complaint and general energy levels.

I do not make rash pronouncements, or scare my clients, or bamboozle them with long words and technical data and I take as a given that they know more about their own health than anyone else.

I have also received as part of my Homeopathic training, competence in anatomy and physiology and I know when a client is exhibiting symptoms that point to a serious state of health, so I can advice them to seek further medical advice from their GP or A & E.

Recovery & Susceptibility

I am also trained (as part of my Homeopathic training), to recognise when a client is recovering from a complaint, as Homeopaths base their treatment on the model that the average person's body will aim for homeostasis and wellness.
We, as humans, don't randomly become unwell. At college we were taught about susceptibility.

That certain people are susceptible to certain diseases. These might come about because of something genetic, from certain life-style choices: smoking, alcohol abuse, a diet low in nutrients, stress in a relationship or the workplace, adverse weather sensitivities, anxiety, grief or sadness due to loss, death or terminal illness of a family member or friend.

If my clients want, I will write to their GP and explain my methodology and prescribing plan so everyone is kept in the loop.

Proof

Now one of the present major criticisms of Homeopathy is that the remedies I prescribe are un-proven, water, and placebo. I find that rather an incredible accusation.

If I were to just routinely prescribe my clients with inert sugar pills how come their anxiety reduces even though they might have been to see a counsellor or psychiatrist? How come their rash or croup, or asthma or infected toe-nails, or tinnitus or menopause-hot-flushes, or sun burn or digestive disorder or bowel complaint starts to improve after taking their remedies?

How come all the creams and anti-acids and pain-killers and over-the-counter and prescribed medicines made no difference prior to seeing me? Or their previous visits to specialists, G.Ps, pain-clinics, psychiatrists, physiotherapists, asthma clinics, and various medical departments of major hospitals which made no difference to their presenting complaint?

There is Only One answer ~ The Remedies

It's not me that makes the difference, it's the remedies.

It's not my listening ear, my empathy, my concern, my professional approach, my time-keeping or my certificates hanging on my clinic wall.

It's the correct choice of the correct remedy in the correct potency.

All the other context issues contribute to a healthy client outcome but without the remedies working, my phone would not ring, my website would receive no hits, my clients would not refer me to their friends and I would be as quiet as a doormouse.

Human Treatment

....and I treat humans.

I treat and help other people like myself. With all their quirks and anxieties, their worries and feelings. I treat their human-ness.

I have over 200 years of Homeopathic written records to refer to. 200 years of actual people suffering from actual diseases and conditions to read about and learn from. Homeopathy didn't evolve from a vacuum. It evolved and spread from Germany where it was discovered to the whole of the world. It was spread by word of mouth, by doctors, therapists, and homeopaths. It spread by the written accounts of thousands of people who were amazed by its flexibility and whole, person-centred approach.

Homeopathy Works

It spread because it worked.

It grew from one man's personal experience to where it is today.
It doesn't suit everyone. It doesn't help everyone or everything. But does anything? There is no one therapy that suits or treats or cures or helps every single person in the world. How could it? We are a species of complex and wonderful anatomy, of mind blowing physiology and leaning on or relying on one therapy would be narrow-minded.

Homeopathy works along-side medicine. Dr Samuel Hahnemann worked in a time and age where he was ridiculed by his contemporary doctors but his patients, who numbered thousands by the time of his death in 1843, were healed of such a wide variety of complaints and conditions we should remember with respect his last words engraved on his tomb-stone:

Non inutilis vixi

I have not lived in vain.

No Samuel, you have not lived in vain and Homeopathy will continue to treat, gently and without side-effects, further generations of ill, sick and diseased people.

And will continue to help all sorts of people, because it treats the person, not the disease.

The wesen not the boil, The Mother; not the headache, The Father; not the indigestion, The Baby; not the croup, The Teenager; not the bulimia, The Student; not the sleeplessness.

Homeopathy and Homeopaths exist in every country in the world. In the UK, Europe...

in English speaking countries and the rest of the world

It has grown from one person in 1755 to the present day and will continue to treat and heal.

"The physician's only mission is to cure the sick; it is not to speculate on the nature of disease.The ideal cure is rapid, gentle, permanent and removes the whole disease in the shortest, least harmful way, according to easily comprehensible principles." Samuel Hahnemann - The Organon

Shit Happens! Why Diarrhoea Can Be Caused by Things Other Than Food

2015-11-15T18:07:00.000+00:00

Mary English DSH, MFHT a Homeopath based in Bath, UK gives us some advice on homeopathic first aid treatment for diarrhoea or runny stools and some suggestions of why it might be caused from something more than just food.

There are many things that can trigger a bout of diarrhoea.

Most often food poisoning is the culprit. 1.

Eating partially cooked or rare meat can trigger an episode, as can overdoing alcohol or spices.

Assuming this isn't the case, what else can trigger diarrhoea?

Homeopaths have discovered, from observing and working with thousands of proving volunteers 2. over the years, that diarrhoea can be triggered by things other than what you have eaten.

How You Feel Might be at The Bottom (!)
Extreme emotional excitement can have someone running for the loo. It could be good news of passing exams or more negatively an impending interview with your boss and you fear redundancy.

Some people can feel the need to go to the toilet when they're given really bad news like the death of a relative or close friend.

Sometimes extreme fright can cause diarrhoea, maybe after being attacked (physically or emotionally) or after witnessing a tragedy.

Then there are those that suffer from irritable bowel syndrome and have to get up and out of bed fast or they'll have an accident on the way to the bathroom.

Talking about bowel habits is difficult.

In our western culture we expect privacy when going to the toilet and having a problem with poop can be acutely embarrassing.

Even though it's something we all have to do...

Having repeated attacks of diarrhoea can make us feel vulnerable and anxious, however it's a natural way of the body to expel something we don't need....and maybe that's an emotion, not the meal we just ate.

Debbie Shapiro in her Your Body Speaks Your Mind has this to say about the act of defecation:

"Letting go of the anal muscles is an act of surrendering to the natural rhythms of the body;refusing to relax these muscles indicates a resistance to higher authority and/or a fear of being out of control. Our relationships with defecation is indicative of our relationship with 'our own shit' - our inner pain and darkness - how easily we can accept and let go, or if we cling and hold on."

Homeopathy has a very good track record of helping people with Irritable Bowel Syndrome-IBS

Not only are the symptoms of the person's illness taken into account, but also their feelings, preferences and personality. This is true Homeopathic prescribing at its best, helping the 'person' suffering from the problem, not just treating the symptoms.

Recent research discovered that:

Patients receiving homeopathy in addition to conventional care improved more than patients receiving ‘supportive listening’, suggesting that improvements seen in the homeopathic group cannot be attributed entirely to the therapeutic effects of the ‘time and attention’ given to the patient during the consultation.3.

The reason homeopathic prescribing works so well is the important principle that homeopathic prescribing is individual to the person, not the complaint.

Here are some portraits of remedies that can be used for loose stools:

Gelsemium

Poo caused from being Overly Emotional

This is made from the fresh root of yellow jasmine (and is poisonous 4.) In its raw state is contains an alkaloid which interferes with nervous control of breathing and movement causing paralysis, trembling and inflammation.

In a homeopathic preparation, these poisons are removed but the benefits remain.

This is the remedy for diarrhoea brought on from emotional excitement, fright or bad news. The stool is painless or involuntary.

Ipecacuanha

Ipecacuanha

Poo caused by Anger, Mortification, Vexation or Indignation

Again, the homeopathic remedy is prepared from the dried root of a plant, whose active principle called emetine, is used in conventional medicine as an emetic and expectorant. In herbal medicine is is used to treat dermatitis.

In Homeopathy we use this to help stools that are pitch-like, green as grass, like frothy molasses, with griping at the navel. Dysenteric and slimy.

There is also persistent nausea.

Sulphur

Poo caused by Suppression, Alcohol or Overexertion

The remedy Sulphur is made from 'flowers of sulphur' a bright yellow powder obtained from naturally occurring volcanic deposits.

The person needing Sulphur has morning diarrhoea that is painless but drives them out of bed. Burning and pressure in the rectum during stool and burning of the anus after stool.

As you can see from the above examples, the person suffering from the loose stools may have had other things going on for them than just what they ate.

Their condition could have been preceded by being overly emotional, getting uptight and upset about something, overdoing alcohol or generally overdoing it.

For more information on Homeopathy and how you can use it safely at home for common condition check out A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love published by Ayni Books:

Medical Information Disclaimer

1. If symptoms aren't relieved in 24 hours, do seek medical advice/help as you can very easily dehydrate.

2. How Homeopathic Provings Work http://www.maryenglish.com/How-Homeopathic-Provings-Work2.html

3. IBS Pilot Study https://www.hri-research.org/hri-research/completed-projects/ibs-pilot-study/

4. Gelsemium: the plant that can cause convulsions, paralysis and asphyxia http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/may/18/gelseminum-deadly-plant-cause-convulsions-paralysis-asphyxia

Let's Face it ~ The Homeopathic Approach to Acne

2015-11-14T15:19:00.001+00:00

Homeopathy is a form of alternative/complementary medicine, discovered and developed by the German medical doctor Samuel Hahnemann.

Homeopathy started in the late 1700s when Samuel Hahnemann a German doctor born in 1755, discovered the first principle of Homeopathy, that Like Cures Like.

After qualifying in medicine Samuel supplemented his income by translating various medical texts.

In 1789 when he was 34, Cullen, the author of one of the texts he was working on, stated that the reason Cinchona Bark (Cortex Peruvianus) cured malaria was 'because it was bitter'.

In his usual questioning way, Hahnemann didn't agree with this hypothesis, as plenty of other herbs were bitter, but they didn't cure malaria. So he decided to take some doses of Cinchona bark himself and discovered:

'I became languid and drowsy; then my heart began to palpitate; my pulse became quick and hard; an intolerable anxiety and trembling; prostration in all limbs; pulsation in the head; redness of cheeks; thirst. Briefly, these were all the symptoms usually associated with intermittent fever and they all made their appearance. These symptoms lasted from two to three hours every time and recurred only when I repeated the dose. I discontinued the medicine and I was once more in good health'

The symptoms that the Cinchona bark produced were exactly the same as the symptoms of malaria. What an amazing discovery! The fact that it produced the same symptoms as malaria itself was the reason it cured malaria. Bingo! This then set Hahnemann on a mission that lasted for the rest of his life.

Here Mary English, Homeopath and author of a Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love discusses alternatives to conventional treatment for acne.

It's All About The Money
An estimated $100 million (£65 million) a year is spent on solutions and creams for acne. 1.

Medical treatment in Germany for acne is estimated to be greater than 400 millions Euros. 2.

The standard line of treatment are creams. You might have tried a few already.

Their active ingredients are generally benzoyl peroxide (a form of bleach) topical retinoids (they remove the upper layer of skin), topical antibiotics (side effects are skin scarring and peeling of the skin) and azelaic acid (side effects are itchiness, dry skin and redness of skin!) 2.

But what if there was another, less invasive/expensive, more natural way of treating your skin?

Different View
Homeopaths view the skin differently.

We see it as the important organ of the body that it is but one that doesn't need creams to keep it healthy.

One lady I treated had some very severe outbursts on her skin. They were red and raised and she felt embarrassed about them. Her skin had erupted when she suffered extreme stress at work. She was unhappy and upset that these outbursts had appeared and they were making her life miserable. After two weeks of treatment, her skin began to repair and the redness reduced and eventually cleared.

Homeopaths treat a lot of people with skin conditions because conventional medicine doesn't always bring relief. 4

If your acne has been caused by eating too many sweets, or candies, no amount of cream is going to alter how your skin reproduces and repairs.

Most worry about skin is during the teen years but it can happen at any time of life. If your face is covered in spots it can make you feel awkward or self conscious or worse; very depressed.

Individual Treatment

The criticism that homeopaths have with conventional medicine is that everyone with the same complaint, is treated with the same medicines.

Homeopaths don't group people this way. We group them by their life-style, or likes and dislikes.

We group people by their personalities rather than their conditions.

We analyse how they're affected by weather, what food they like or hate.

We even take into account their dreams, wishes and hopes.

The positive upside of this is that your treatment is totally individual to you, the person suffering from the condition, not the condition suffered by the person.

Treating People

We treat people.

Not diseases.

First Aid homeopathy works like conventional medicine and is used a lot that way too, but we can also analyse someone's acne in a more individual way.

Three main remedies for acne are:

Belladonna

Sulphur

and

Nat Mur

Even these three remedies have totally different characteristics.

Belladonna

Belladonna
The person needing Belladonna will be hot, with red skin and a flushed face. Acne is on the cheeks and nose. There can be erysipelas (a bacterial infection of the skin) and the skin is very hot and dry.

Flowers of Sulphur

Sulphur
The person needing Sulphur will have skin that is dry and scaly and looks unhealthy. They'll have pimply eruptions and pustules. Their skin is made worse from using creams and ointments and their skin can also be made worse from water and washing. It can be itchy and made worse from scratching.

Sea Salt

Nat Mur
Someone needing Nat Mur has oily, shiny skin on their face. They are more prone to greasy skin. They can also feel depressed and self-conscious about themselves and their skin if it's been a problem for a long time. They can look pale and sad.

So to treat acne well with Homeopathy, think about 'you' the person suffering from the condition, not the condition itself. Think about how your skin makes you feel.

Sometimes just working on releasing the feelings associated with your skin problem, can make having it less of a burden. Then when you feel better, you'll be less stressed and more able for your body to do what it does well, which is keep you healthy and in a state of homeostasis ~ Balance.

A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love is available from Amazon and all good retailers.

Published by Ayni Books http://www.ayni-books.com/books/little-at-time

UK Amazon links

E-Book http://amzn.to/1OYkoLP

Paperback http://amzn.to/1IhqDtf

USA Amazon links

E-Book http://amzn.to/1kUL0ls

Paperback http://amzn.to/1WS7jd4

References
1. Cost of non-prescription treatments for acne per year USA http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/706091_9
2. Estimated the annual cost of treating acne in Germany to be greater than 400 million Euros. https://arms.evidence.nhs.uk/resources/hub/515073/attachment
3. Acne treatment NHS http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Acne/Pages/Treatment.aspx
4. Spotlight on Skin Dr Peter Fisher http://www.britishhomeopathic.org/bha-charity/how-we-can-help/articles/spotlight-on-skin/

Having a Cold: Better Ways to Help Yourself Using Homeopathy

2015-11-14T13:44:00.001+00:00

One of my nephews once ended up in hospital seriously ill due to accidentally overdosing on a common home treatment medicine - Paracetamol.

He had got a bad cold and just like anyone else, was trying desperately to relieve his symptoms and get better so he could get back to work.

Unfortunately although he was aware that too many paracetamol is bad for you, he'd bought two different over-the-counter products that both contained the same ingredients.

Marketed Cold Products use reassuring names and sympathetic packaging to make you believe that what you are buying will do you good.

Words like:

Cold and Flu Relief
Aids Restful Sleep

Products like Lemsip 1.(which apart from the drugs which can make you more ill, actually doesn't contain any lemon at all, only ascorbic acid, flavourings, sugar, three different types of sweetener, the chemicals citric acid anhydrous and curcumin WD which contains lactose etc etc) proudly claims:

Lemsip will relieve your sore throat, reduce your stuffy nose and in no time at all you can be back at work, well and rested.

Equally disingenuous is the marketing for Day Nurse Capsules 2.:

Nothing is stronger for Cold and Flu

What can happen though, if you're not aware, is the 'treatment' you are taking for your cold can bring other, more severe symptoms.

Known side-effects for paracetamol are:

Allergic reactions
Swelling
Weakness
Fatigue
Difficulty breathing
Bloody or cloudy urine or sudden decrease in urine output
Lower back pain
Light-headedness
Tremor

and even more seriously:

Rashes
Bleeding into the skin

It can also have a toxic effect on the liver.

Luckily my nephew was cared for correctly and made a complete recovery but things could have been a lot different.

Every year (these are US figures) the total of deaths caused by conventional medicine is 783,936 per year. 3.
The number of UK NHS hospital admissions due to "iatrogenic" (adverse drug reactions) is 27% 4.
140,000 UK NHS hospital admissions are due to poisonings of one sort or another. 5

People accidently (or intentionally) die everyday from a paracetamol overdose. This terribly sad statistic could be greatly reduced with better knowledge.

The Drugs Don't Work
And the truth is, a person with a cold, doesn't need drugs to get better.

Since the late 1700s people have been treated successfully with far less chemically poisonous substances.

Dr Samuel Hahnemann, the founder of Homeopathy, an alternative and complementary system of medicine, developed his system of medicine for one reason only.

He was dismayed and upset by popular medical treatments of his day that included blood letting, leaching and seriously poisonous products and energy reducing treatments such as sweatings.

He discovered, accidentally, that diluting and energising a toxin brought out its healing qualities without producing 'side-effects'.

The nano amounts of crude substances in a homeopathic remedy ensure the healing properties are just enough to remove symptoms, gently and effectively.

Homeopathic Remedies for the Common Cold

Homeopathic remedies for the Common Cold include

Aconitum Napellus

Aconite
A highly poisonous but beautiful purple flower. The homeopathic remedy is prepared from the whole fresh plant as it comes into flower.

By trialling it on healthy, human volunteers, or 'provers' 6. it was found useful for colds with a very runny nose, with much sneezing, and/or throbbing nostrils. It's also helpful for colds that start because you've been outside in cold, dry weather, or have sat in a draughty, cold place for any length of time.

This is what Hahnemann said about the remedy when he discovered its healing powers:

"In acute inflammatory fevers, where it has been imagined that the patient can alone be relieved by copious and repeated bleedings, Homoeopathy asserts its great superiority, in being, by the use of this medicine, able to overcome fevers and restore health in a shorter period of time than under the allopathic treatment, without being obliged to shed a single drop of blood, --that vital fluid which has been so often dangerously lavished under the old system." 7.

Atropa Belladonna

Belladonna
This remedy comes from the poisonous deadly nightshade. The homeopathic remedy is made from the whole fresh plant, which is highly poisonous in its raw form and contains the alkaloids atropine, hyoscyamine and scopolamine. The symptoms of deadly nightshade poisoning are dizziness, confusion, incoherent or violent behaviour, a dry mouth and throat, flushed face, wide staring eyes and difficulty speaking or swallowing.

When homeopathically prepared it relieves those same (obviously less intense) symptoms, especially colds where the throat feels constricted with a desire to swallow but the sensation as if a lump were there. There can be high fever but no thirst. The runny nose (coryza) has mucus mixed with blood.
This is the cold you can't miss and starts energetically, and suddenly.

Sea Salt

Natrum Muriaticum
Or Nat Mur is another very useful cold remedy, one of many that homeopaths have proved and is made from simple sea salt, sodium chloride.

This is the type of cold that has a violent, runny nose with lots of clear snot - that lasts from 1-3 days then changes into stoppage of the nose making breathing difficult. The discharge is thin and watery like the white of a raw egg. It also helps colds that start with lots of sneezing.

Your cold can also be relieved by resting, drinking plenty of hot water with a slice of lemon and some honey.

Remedies can be purchased from http://www.helios.co.uk/ and for more details on how to repeat a remedy see A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love

Here's the link to the E-book http://amzn.to/1OYkoLP

Also available as a paperback published by Ayni Books http://www.ayni-books.com/books/little-at-time

1. The company that owns them is called Reckitt Benckiser and last year their turnover was £8.8 billion https://www.rb.com/investors-media/investor-information
2. GlaxoSmithKline's turnover was £23 billion http://www.gsk.com/en-gb/investors/corporate-reporting/annual-report/
3. Death by Medicine http://www.webdc.com/pdfs/deathbymedicine.pdf
4. Iatrogenic hospital admissions http://www.acutemedicine.org.uk/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/prospective_multicentre.pdf
5. UK chemical poisoning hospital admissions figures http://webarchive.nationalarchives.gov.uk/20140714084352/http://www.hpa.org.uk/ProductsServices/ChemicalsPoisons/PoisonsInformationService/NationalPoisonsInformationService/
6. http://www.maryenglish.com/How-Homeopathic-Provings-Work2.html
7. Flora Homoeopathica, Volume 1, Frederick Foster Quin, ESQ, MD, president of the British Homoeopathic Society, London, 1852

More information on how paracetamol is not that good for you:
http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2015/may/25/does-paracetamol-do-you-more-harm-than-good

More information on the real effects of prescription and over the counter drugs
The Prescribed Drug Guide A Holistic Perspective, Dr Stephen Gascoigne http://amzn.to/1HPFQN0

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Homeopathy and Mental Health

2015-11-13T13:35:00.002+00:00

In this article I'm going to discuss the homeopathic way of treating mental illness.

I'd like you, just for a moment, to forget all about labels and diagnosis' of mental health problems such as Bipolar, Syndromes, Disorders and Spectrums.

It's certainly very useful for some people to have a diagnosis, because in conventional medicine without one, you won't get any treatment or care.

However, please....

Step away from the label just for a moment...

After a time, your diagnosis ceases to be the useful means of getting help and treatment and becomes the way you talk about and think about yourself.

Or maybe I should say your 'Self'.

"I've got bipolar....therefore I can't........stay up late, drink Americano, get into debt".

...fill in the blanks

"My ADHD means I have to......not do.....should do...."

"My doctor, psychiatrist, sister, Uncle, Mother, Mom says my......prevents me from......."

You are not your diagnosis.

You are a person.

A human.

A husband, wife, mother, father, sister, brother, daughter or son.

You are/were a child...

Don't limit yourself because of your diagnosis. Work as hard as you can to return your 'Self' to be the person you were before your health took a dive.

Remember when people called you by your name?

Now they write you letters with your diagnosis at the top of the letter and your 'treatment plan' at the bottom.

Don't become your 'complaint'.

Remember also under that diagnosis, the real you still exists.

Homeopathy and the Real You
In homeopathy we want to learn, find out, discover the 'You' that is behind the set of circumstances that caused your thinking and/or behaviour to change.

People (generally) don't randomly lose their mental health for no reason.

Was it abuse, isolation, insomnia, stress, bad eating, recreational or non-prescription drugs or grief that changed you?

And what were/are those changes?

1) Did you or do you want to talk, talk, talk ....
or
2) Are you restless and fearful?
or
3) Are you extremely anxious, suffering from great anguish?
or
4) Can you be suspicious, jealous, laughing at everything and nothing?
or
5) Have you been shocked, or bereaved, are/were you under mental stress and strain?
or
6) Will you be thinking gloomy and despairing thoughts, thinking of suicide even though you've got a great fear of death?

These are the questions and observations a homeopath will take note of.
We have to be the unprejudiced observer. 1.
Non-judgemental.

We are interested (genuinely) in your symptoms, because your symptoms are your body's way of asking for help.
Our job is to convert your symptoms into the language the homeopathic provers 2. used when they trialled the remedies we use to help you.

We want to know if you feel better in the hot weather, or cold....or by the sea, or on a hill.

We want to know your likes and dislikes and the isness of your true, inner 'Self'.

Making a diagnosis of bipolar and prescribing lithium or aripiprazole or olanzapine doesn't mirror or match the anguish you might have felt when your boyfriend or mother died, or your father beat you when you were small.

Homeopathic prescribing rests on the solid foundation of 'Let Like Treat Like' so the remedies we use, mirror your experience and help you resolve, gently, carefully those problems.

And Homeopathy will help.....a little at a time.

The remedies that match the short symptom descriptions above are:
1) Lachesis
2) Aconite
3) Arsenicum
4) Hyoscyamus
5) Ignatia
6) Aurum

More information on Homeopathy and Mental Health is in my book A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love, published by Ayni Books http://www.ayni-books.com/books/little-at-time and available here http://amzn.to/1QAg4mQ

1. achieving-freedom-from-prejudice-the-unprejudiced-observer/
2. How-Homeopathic-Provings-Work

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Homeopathy and Headaches

2015-11-13T13:24:00.001+00:00

Homoeopathy is a natural form of medicine, invented and developed by Doctor Samuel Hahnemann in 1789 in Germany.

It is easy to use, non-addictive and doesn't produce side-effects, so it's safe to use at home for common complaints.

One complaint that almost everybody has ever suffered from, is a headache.

It might be caused by:

A hangover,
The weather (too hot or too cold),
Lack of sleep,
Too much screen time,
Not drinking enough water
Too much tea or coffee,
Work stress,
Relationship worries

......the list is large!

Most people keep painkillers in the house and paracetamol and ibuprofen of the drugs of choice.

But do you know what else your 'headache medication' can do to your body while 'alleviating' your headache?

No Such Thing as a Side-Effect

Side Effects.
We have had this drummed into us by drug marketing that every drug has a side-effect. That there are plusses and minus' of taking a drug, we just have to weigh up the benefits v.s the drawbacks. That the medication will alleviate the problem and the other things it might do to our bodies are immaterial and unimportant...

However, I consider this an important point:

There is no such thing as a side-effect.

All medicines have an affect... (on the body)

And they affect all of your bodily systems, not just the pain you're trying to alleviate.

A lot of information is written on the packaging or printed on a leaflet inside the box but have you actually ever read what it says?

Ibuprofen Effects

The common side-effects of Ibuprofen are:

Nausea-feeling sick
Vomiting-being sick
Diarrhoea-passing loose, watery stools
Indigestion (also called dyspepsia)-feeling uncomfortable after eating
Abdominal-tummy pain.

Less common side–effects include:

Headache (!)
Dizziness
Fluid retention-bloating
Raised blood pressure
Gastritis- inflammation of the stomach
Duodenal or gastric ulcers - open sores in the digestive system
Allergic reactions, such as a rash.
Worsening of asthma symptoms by causing bronchospasm- narrowing of the airways
There can also be black stools and blood in your vomit indicating that there is bleeding in your stomach.

As you can see from the lists above, the medicine you may be taking for your headache may also affect your digestion, your blood pressure, your skin and your breathing. It can also make you dizzy, nauseous and give you diarrhoea and fluid retention.

How Many and How Much Do You Use?

And how many headache tablets do you take in one week?

How many packets do you buy when you go shopping?

How many do you automatically pop in to your shopping basket 'just in case'?

And have you experienced other symptoms such as indigestion from taking too many Ibuprofen tablets and are now taking anti-acid tablets as well?

Have they affected your digestion, breathing or blood pressure?

It's always a good idea to do a drug review. Make a note of how much and how many tablets you use and what they are for and see if you can find other ways to use less or even drop certain medications.

Just because something is freely available and cheap doesn't mean it's good for you.

KNOW YOUR DRUGS!

Individualising Your Headache

But what if there was another way of easing your headaches?

Another way to alleviate them?

What if instead of reaching for the painkillers, you took a few moments to differentiate your headache from all the headaches that could exist and individualised your headache a teeny bit more?

This is what homeopaths do with their client's headaches and other complaints.

This is what you can do with your headaches.

The Way You Express it, Not What You've Got

Homoeopathic remedies are categorised by the sort of symptoms that they relieve. The type of symptoms and the way they manifest not the disease label.

Unlike conventional medicine which says all headaches are the same, we divide headaches into the type of headache and/or the type of person suffering from them.

In my book A Little at a Time, Homeopathy For You and Those You Love I have included different remedies for different types of headaches.

I don't actually suffer from headaches very often but when I do it's generally because I haven't had enough fresh air or water.

My husband gets them quite a bit (I think it's because he doesn't drink enough water) and he knows that some Nux Vomica alleviates his.

Here are three Homeopathic remedies that work very nicely to help certain headaches. They are all made from plants.

Nux Vomica 30c

A Nux headache is one where the person is oversensitive to the pain. The scalp is sensitive. They will get a headache if they've been out in the sunshine.

It's a congestive headache, associated with haemorrhoids. There is a pressing pain on the vertex (the top or crown of the head) as if a nail is being driven into the head. There can also be a frontal headache, with a desire to press the head against something. It's also the number one remedy to take if your headache is associated with too much alcohol the night before, or from loss of sleep.

Belladonna 30c

A Belladonna headache has much throbbing and heat. There are palpitations reverberating in the head and much laboured breathing. The headache can come from suppressed catarrhal flow. The pain is worse from light, noise, sudden movements, lying down and in the afternoon.

Gelsemium 30c

A Gelsemium headache is dull, with a heavy ache. There can be a bruised sensation. The headache also has a muscular soreness of the neck and shoulders.

So, there are other ways to alleviate headaches and Homeopathic remedies are offered as a safe, effective alternative that won't give you 'side-effects' or make your body suffer.

References
Pictures are from Flora Homoeopathica by Frederick Foster Quin, ESQ, MD, President of the British Homeopathic Society, 1852

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How Long Does it Take to Write a Kindle Book?

2015-08-23T21:16:00.001+01:00

Something that people ask any writer is: 'How long did your book take to write?'

It's a valuable question and one I always know the answer to, as I keep a detailed record of exactly how long I spend writing.

Every book I've written, I try and record the date and time I started each day, the time I finished and my final word count for that day.

I can then work out what's the best time of day for me to write. Not what I'd like it to be, but what it actually is, which in my case is mostly morning and early afternoon.

When I get to the end of the book and have to edit, I record that too.

This is my record of the writing of my last book:

The Astrology of Indigos, Everyday Solutions to Spiritual Difficulties http://amzn.to/1cPtogU

20-5-2013 10.30am- 117 words
11.30am 833 words
22-5-2013 12.10pm 12.30pm- 1,167

1-6-2013 1,224
7.10pm 2,598
7.25pm 4,627,
8.20pm 4759
12-6-2013 3.30pm 5,477
13-6-2013 6,045
28-6-2013 2pm- 6,366

14-7-2013 10.40am 6545 references 7,139
1.30pm 7279, 7,295
16-7-2013 12.40pm-2.10pm 8,041
17-7-2013 11.20am- 12pm 9371
20-7-2013 12.50pm- 5.30pm- 10,005
30-7-2013 10.53am-11.35am10,734
12.15pm- 11,413
3.30pm- 12,012 12,221 7.30pm
31-7-2013 8am 8.45am- 12,886
11am 13,507
11.20am- 12.15pm 13,862
1pm- 2pm 14,225 chapter three re-write
4pm- 13,954
6.10pm read-through
6.35pm - 14,333
7.15pm- 14,683

1-8-2013 7.45am -10am 15,263 15,310
10.25am 16,107
4-8-2013 16.111
5-8-2013 12.40am- 1.15pm 16,279 listings
9-8-2013 3.55pm- 6.50pm- 16,617
21-8-2013 6.50pm 16,889
23-8-2013 4.10pm- 17, 328 6.30pm - 19,496
24-8-2013 4.10pm- first edit 19,333 6.16pm
26-8-2013 9.55am- 11.35am 20,077
28-8-2013 2.10pm 2.45pm- 20,474
30-8-2013 12.15pm 1.45pm- 20,935
31-8-2013 1.10pm 21,434 2.10pm

1-9-2013 11.05am 22,893 12.40pm- 8.30pm 23,110
2-9-2013 8pm
3-9-2013 10.10am read-through/edit 22,656 11.30am
6-9-2013 6am-11am read-through, edit on paper

As you can see, I started actually writing it on the 20th May 2013 and finished the writing on 6th September 2013.

This means this book took just under 5 months to write. However if I were to add the actual writing hours up, they'd be around 61 actual writing hours, working out at an average of 371 words per hour (I don't write fast!)

Some days went better than others.

I also keep a word-count record on a small white board in my kitchen and cross them off every time I reach another 1,000 words.

What I like about recording this data is it gives me something tangible to remind me that 'something is happening' and my book is growing.

The trouble with writing, is a book can seem to grow so slowly, and I lose track of how far I've got and how far I need to go. With my method, I can see everyday I write, how much I wrote the last time I 'clocked on' and the kitchen reminder prompts me to how far I've got to go.

It gives me a nice reminder that I'm on track, things are progressing and I'll get there eventually!

About the Author

Mary English was born in London and educated in Switzerland at the American International School of Zurich. She is a professional Astrologer and member of The Astrological Association & The Society of Authors. She has over 30 years of experience in her field. She is also a qualified Homeopath.

Her TV appearances include BBC's 'Kilroy' and BBC's 'Heaven and Earth'. She is regularly invited to talk on BBC Radio Bristol.
She was a monthly guest on the Morning Show with Emma Britton on BBC Radio Somerset Sound where for over 2 years she gave live on air, the Month's Stars.
Mary was the resident Astrologer for The Green Parent magazine for 5 years, writing their bi-monthly Astrology column.
She now is resident Astrologer for Talk Radio Europe, Spain’s largest English language radio network, broadcasting on the Costa del Sol/Axarquia and Costa Blanca/Costa Calida and reaching 1,000,000 English speaking consumers on the Hannah Murray Show where she gives her Monthly Astro Stars
Mary is also resident Astrologer and writes a monthly column for Pukka Bath and Dodona Books Blog.
Her websites http://www.maryenglish.co.uk and http://www.ukastrologer.co.uk receive over a 100 hits a day.
She lives in Bath in the UK and works from home, over the Internet, by phone and in person.
She believes that Astrology helps people understand each other, which in turn makes the world a friendly place to live in.
Her books are available from Amazon and all good bookshops and on-line in her own virtual store: http://www.greatastrologybooks.co.uk

 Mary English 2015.
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Homeopathy, Where Medicine and Magic Meet

2015-05-07T14:55:00.000+01:00

"Some thought I was mad. It was a big step to take." Mervyn diversifies from milking to where medicine and magic meet.

"I didn't want to do anything else but farming, but there's always problems on dairy farms and we started having problems with the children, like eczema and glue ear and the homeopath set up down the road from us and had good results from what she was doing and I thought 'I want to learn more about this'.

We started going with all our problems because what attracted me to homeopathic medicines was that it was natural and it's safe; no side effects from it and you can't do yourself any harm if you didn't do yourself any good.
I started studying the odd remedies. It was that interesting that I put the television in the other room and spent all my spare time studying because I was learning something that I wanted to learn.

I started using them on the animals like the dairy cattle and infertility and mastitis and over the years they had good results and I always wanted to learn more and more. It started taking up more of my life.

People we're starting coming for treatment. I was getting good results and it was safe and we decided we'd give up dairy farming and let the land. Some thought I was mad, it was a big step to take, but a lot have given up milk since.

When you're dairy farming you can't go off for the day. You have to be there night and morning every day of the year. You go for years without a holiday, not much of a day off. When we started it was very unusual to be able to go off for the day and not have to worry about coming back to milk the cows.

I go out to farms if they've got problems or they've had the vet and the vet has failed and they try me as a last resort and they tend to get better!

It's just balancing the body with natural things. When someone's ill it means there is something unbalanced in his life, with his body or his food or his life has become unbalance and you're just correcting that balance.
It's been a big change from not being able to go from home to be able to travel around. I went to India for three weeks; I've never been from home for so long.

A lot of homeopaths they've worked up until their 80s or 90s, so it keeps them fit.

And farming was good training for homeopathy cause you don't have regular hours, people can be ill any time of the day and if it's something serious I'll go and visit them. Women in labour can come on and start labour in the early hours of the morning and I don't mind being up early because it's what I'm used to.
I like seeing people get better. It changes their lives."
By: Mervyn Evans

Hypnosis Myths Exploded

2015-03-10T21:18:00.001+00:00

5 Hypnosis Myths Exploded
OVER the years, hypnosis has picked up all sorts of weird associations from stage hypnotists, the media and superstition. This is a great shame, because in reality, hypnosis is your single most effective tool for change. Hypnosis is your birthright, and you should know how to use it so it doesn't use you. Here we dispel the biggest hypnosis myths.
Hypnosis Myth 1) All hypnosis is the same
As with anything, hypnosis can be good, bad or indifferent. The most common is old-style authoritarian hypnosis of the type "You are getting sleepy, you are feeling confident". Unsurprisingly, this sort of hypnosis doesn't work well with many people. Good hypnosis uses subtle psychological principles and advanced communication patterns.
It's like the difference between a football coach who thinks you'll perform best if he yells at you, compared with the more elegant style of a great leader who knows that to get the best from his people, he needs to understand motivation, to cajole, encourage and reward.
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Hypnosis Myth 2) Subliminals work
Subliminals are words that you can't hear. Common sense says they shouldn't work, and there's no research proving that they do.
Hypnosis Myth 3) Some people can't be hypnotized
The only reason you can't be hypnotized is if you are incapable of paying attention due to extremely low IQ or brain damage. That's not to say that every hypnotist can hypnotize you however. The more flexible the hypnotist, the more effective she will be with the largest number of people.
Hypnosis Myth 4) Hypnosis is something weird that other people do to you
If you couldn't go into hypnosis, you wouldn't be able to sleep, to learn, or get nervous through 'negative self hypnosis'. (You know when you imagine things going wrong and it makes you feel anxious? Well that's self hypnosis!)
Hypnosis is simply a deliberate utilization of the REM (Rapid Eye Movement) or dream state. We're not giving people medication here - if it wasn't a natural ability, hypnosis wouldn't work!
Hypnosis Myth 5) You lose control in hypnosis
Crazy news stories, stage hypnotists and gossip have created the illusion that you lose control in hypnosis. In fact, when hypnotized, you are relaxed and focused – and able to choose to get up and walk away at any time. You choose to give your attention to the hypnotist, and you can withdraw it at any time.
If you have been scared of hypnosis in the past, this article has hopefully convinced you to at least give it a try. But remember, ensure what you're getting is the real thing. Visit www.hypnosisdownloads.com

Article by Mark Tyrrell of Hypnosis Downloads.com.

The Homeopathic Proving of a sample of Stone from St Michael's Mount

2014-12-02T18:41:00.000+00:00

The Homeopathic Proving of a Sample of Stone from St Michael's Mount

Prover 2:' I am thirsty for more than just water. I am thirsty for more in life.'

Prover 3: 'It's like I'm out of the general flow or something.'

I would like to thank the four provers who sacrificed more than 6 weeks of their life to help with this homeopathic proving, so we can find the healing powers of a new substance. Their help is greatly appreciated:)

This proving is about trying to find meaning in your life. The provers ranged from feeling happy about where they were at, to feeling upset and anxious that they weren't 'there' yet. One prover discovered her 'there' place after the proving finished.

Origins/History

St Michael's Mount is a small island mount, located in Mount's Bay near Marazion, off the SE coast of Cornwall in the UK. It traces its history back more than 3,000 years ago when it was busy with traders and their ships carrying cargo. The bay was one of the main routes for Irish gold, then Cornish tin and copper ores.

Approx 2000 BC Mount's Bay above water

Approx 500-750 AD St Michael appears to fishermen/hermits

1135 AD Norman church built on the Mount

1435 AD Lighthouse placed on the Mount

Approx 1545 AD Priory dissolved; King Henry V111 fortifies the Mount ₁

In roughly 500-750 AD, St Michael is supposed to have appeared to local fishermen, who then built the first church upon the rock. Some accounts state the vision was in fact seen by hermits that lived in the woods on the mount. ₂

The Mount's old Cornish name is carrick luz en cuz - 'the grey rock in the woods'

Carrick = Rock Mass

Luz = Grey

Cuz = Wood or Copse ₃

Evidence of the ancient wood /forest was revealed in February 2014 after storms scoured away the sand covering the fallen trees. ₄

Pilgrims have visited the site since that first vision.

The church expanded into an allegedly great Celtic monastery, which was overtaken by the Saxon King Edgar, who was crowned in 973 in Bath Abbey, then when he died buried in Glastonbury Abbey. ₅

Edgar changed it to a Benedictine monastery, destroying many Celtic manuscripts and works of art in the process. Over the years the mount and buildings have changed hands and it is now co-owned by the St Aubyn family and the National Trust.

Visitor numbers

St Michael's Mount saw 302,530 visitors in 2013 ₆

What is a pilgrim?

A pilgrim is a person who journeys to a sacred place as act of religious devotion; a traveller.

There is now not a lot of difference between a 'tourist' and a 'pilgrim' if you remove the religious reasons for visiting sites. Both need shelter, food and something to 'do' while they visit.

Traditionally pilgrims range from people on a search for their spiritual roots, to those already 'on their path', just wanting to re-connect with something material, something 'real' on their religious journey.

Various religions have made the locations of visitations of gods, goddess and sacred deities as places of pilgrimage.

Lourdes is probably one of the most famous for Catholics, Christians travel to the birthplace of Jesus in Jerusalem where Jews and Muslims also visit, Mecca is another for Muslims, Nepal the birthplace of the Buddha for Buddhists and holy sites in India for Hindus. But there are also plenty of other places that people visit, all for differing reasons but generally all with the same aim, to connect, physically with some aspect of their religion, or the founder/leader of their religion.

Why people pilgrimage

So, why do people make a pilgrimage?

'The very act of pilgrimage today echoes questions that come to each of us from that deeper journey of the heart: what is the reason for my being? It is not a coincidence that many who go on pilgrimage are people who are themselves at critical stages of life.' Andrew Jones ₇

So what happens if you're not religious, or have no specific faith and you travel to a sacred place?

And who defines a place as being sacred?

In this quote from Rupert Sheldrake's talk: Sacred Sites, Tourism & Ancient Sacred Places, he gives us some ideas about the motivation for people visiting sacred sites:

'They have to pretend they are not going there to say a prayer or ask for some blessing. They have to pretend they are going there because they have an interest in Art History… and as soon as they arrive tourist guides spring up and tell them all sorts of facts. 'This building was built in 1386 etc'…

Facts that go in one ear and come out the other because they're not really interested in that at all. They've gone because it's a sacred place, but being disempowered by being secular they can't actually kneel down and say a prayer, or light a candle. Interestingly in the UK cathedrals and churches have candles. When I was a child none of them did....'

People make a pilgrimage for all sorts of different reasons. Everything from wanting to celebrate and remember someone who has died, to wanting to connect more fully with the spirit of a place. The soul of somewhere.

Not every traveller is a pilgrim, that's for sure!

Visiting a city, staying the night, looking at all the architecture, the galleries, ancient sites, having a meal-out, isn't really a pilgrimage in the official sense, but maybe when you get home you feel better connected to your home or family or job.

Some people make pilgrimages and do so without any religious intent. I like to visit places and find a church where I can light a candle.

I thought it would be a great idea one summer to visit all the churches near me, on my motorbike and light a candle in each one.

My idea fell flat on day one, when I arrived at the first church. There weren't any candles.... so I just sat on a pew and did a short meditation. It was lovely and quiet in there, which was strange considering how near it was to the road and the traffic. I decided after I got home that my idea wasn't worth pursuing as not every church has candles. I suppose they're a fire risk!

Making an 'official' pilgrimage it generally done with the assistance of someone who practices the same religion as you. They might suggest what or where you might visit, assist you in prayer but equally they might also have to provide you with all the basic needs of a traveller: food and accommodation.

Summary of Proving

When writing up a proving, it's always interesting to witness how the proving substance really tries to come through the provers. I think it tries to find its human voice. Sometimes provers touch the remedy source really easily and enjoy the process as in prover 1.

Sometimes they hate the whole process, as in prover 3, who wanted it to be over as quickly as possible, however the proving substance still manages to come through in dreams or in random comments.

It was obvious to me that this remedy has healing properties, but we have to decide what healing means. It can certainly mean different things to different people. And what if you don't 'need' healing? Will a remedy still 'do' something? I think it does.

Prover 4 who was helped by someone from a local church joked about needing 'divine intervention.' So, even though, like prover 3, he has no religious connection in the traditional sense, he was helped by someone who was aligned to god in a different way to his own experience.

Then there is always the question of who or what is god. I like Deepak Chopra's interpretation of god:

God is a verb, not a noun...

It's something you do, not a bloke with a beard. Something you feel. When you feel 'in tune' with life, you could say that's a divine experience. So the proving brought up issues about connection. Connection with whatever you might think of as your divine connection.

The process of a proving is a collective experience. The provers cease to be totally individual. Something of the remedy, some memory, some idea, some thought of it manifests in their consciousness (or as the case in their dreams, their unconsciousness) and begins to 'show' itself in their bodies, or thoughts, dreams and food likes.

Somewhere within their mind, body or soul.

This remedy brought struggle for 3 of the provers.

One was struggling with relationship issues, one struggled with work and living arrangements and another struggled with how the remedy made them feel different to how they felt before they started.

And I really struggled after the proving to write this up!

During the proving I felt energised, optimistic, maybe a little over-the-top with how I felt, so there was bound to be a crash later, which there certainly was. But that happens with all provings. The writing up of something means you have to actually 'prove' your proving. And in attempting to 'prove' it, it's easy to get caught up in why-am-I-doing-this thoughts.

One thing is for sure, this remedy brought up extreme thirst, which quite a lot of water-based remedies do. And cravings for sweet, juicy fruit and vegetables like tomatoes.

The Tides

The island is totally surrounded at high tide with water but the difference with other locations is this one can only be accessed by foot when there is a low tide. So if you want to walk the path in the picture, you will have to wait until low tide.

In this time-lapse video it shows how the tide goes higher as the day progresses and makes walking across impossible http://youtu.be/ZbzfZnkwxso

Prover 1 dreamt of the rain flooding a house and watching the water rising and falling, which is exactly what happens to the water surrounding the Mount every day. She also felt her sense of time was affected 'Days seem to be flowing into one another.'

Prover 3 (who isn't remotely religious) said 'It's like I'm out of the general flow or something.'

By day 16 she dreams about trying on a wedding dress and describes it as :'longer, more flowing.'

So even though she is fighting the remedy's effects, it slips out in her dreams. In another dream she describes being in 'a place that's half water park (you know, pools and slides) half healing mud.'

Is this why St Michael's is popular and has remained so for so long? Because it has a healing effect in some way?

Prover 2 describes her inner search (provings are very self-reflective processes) and says: 'I am thirsty for more than just water. I am thirsty for more in life.'

The day I visited the tide was in, so we had to get there by boat. I didn't have the experience of walking the path...

Codes

P=partner

F=Friend

C=Child

Provers

3 female

1 male

Prover 1 female

Prover 2 female

Prover 3 female

Prover 4 male

Date of proving

Tuesday 1st July 2014 9am

Method

Helios made the stone sample into a 30c remedy.

Before proving starts, pre-proving feelings.

27-6-2014

Prover 4

I can't just get any job. I want programming, something more intellectual. I like to be in charge of myself. Hard to ask for help. You only live once, have to make the best of it. I can learn quickly. Angry at myself.

1-7-2014

Prover 2

I feel part excited about taking the remedy and part anxious. I really want to get back into singing more and being more creative with my Art - doing some ceramics. I need and want to feel like I am making - creating something.

Primary Reaction

Day One

Prover 1

9am

Have just taken the remedy five minutes after 9. Feeling a bit heady as had a late nite. Feel full of breakfast a bit achy in the neck and arms, left arm and my stomach is rumbling.

Really want a cup of coffee but I will wait an hour or so.

Feel a bit sleepy/dreamy but have to get my self together as I have to go sort out a garden with P. Could happily just climb back into bed.

I feel quite warm now, like a warm glow which is nice.

Day One

Prover 3

9.00am

I'm feeling warm (er), but not sure if that's related. But it is a bit unusual, as if I'm being heated up from the back, and I have an open window behind me. My head started to spin, like I (for some reason) imagined it would in open space. (And I've been sitting calmly for the last 20 minutes).

This makes no sense and could be sleep deprivation induced, but I feel a weird tingling sensation at the roots of my hair above my forehead. Now I'm feeling warm from the inside. My head is spinning and I imagine a person in open space, rotating. (doodle of person)

Warm from the outside again and feeling a little sick. Could be because of lack of sleep, could be the 'heat' (it's 14°, it's not even summer!) as I don't handle it very well, could be the spinning sensation. The spinning is getting a bit too much, I think I'll go catch that one hour of sleep before my mother comes home.

12.45pm

Wow...My mother didn't wake me, so I slept until now. I remember my first dream was that I'm in bed, half asleep, my boyfriend's sitting on it nearby and my mother comes in with one of my grandmothers (the one who never visits anymore, she's too weak) and they talk to him and ask him questions. I had two more dreams, but forgot them as soon as I stood up, I only remember one bit.

I'm (really) going to the weekly pub quiz today. In the dream my father told me there are a few buses going there, including a secret one, number 53. And that today all the team members should gather in the same stop and go with the secret bus, so that no one would see us arrive.

The spinning sensation didn't go away.

13.30

Coffee!!! The inner warmth and the warmth at my back remian in varying degrees. There's less spinning, I feel more steady. There's a curious feeling of lightness in my whole body.

15.00

All the 'symptoms' seem to have worn off. About to have breakfast and get ready for the pub quiz.

Day Two

Prover 2

After I took the remedy the first feelings/thoughts were: positive/supportive/empowered/strong/safe/loved/going to make it/going to be okay/love/let go/relax.

Physical: sick, heart beat (more aware), dizzy, short of breath, moist sensation in nose, itch on my left hand, first and middle fingers.

Secondary Reactions

Mind

Day 5

Prover 2

I have woken up feeling so happy inside, peaceful and positive. Last night enjoyed my workout and the spa and enjoyed the sauna. Met a member's husband who told me about a cycling club and also a runners club. I am going to look into them both. Will be a great way of meeting new people. I feel centered in my life this morning. I feel sturdy and grounded. I want to take more time for myself at home. My plants need some TLC- plant food especially my geraniums. I am looking forward to watering the plants and also tidying around at home, buying food and putting up new blinds this evening. I don't remember any dreams last night - however I slept very well. I feel happy in my own skin this morning. I also have done a one minute mirror affirmation session this morning. Telling myself all the things I love about me. I have been doing this for a few days - it feels deliciously good. I feel less obsessive about stuff, people and things being right or wrong. I can just let them be as they are. This is a miracle for a Miss Marple type of person.

Day 12

Prover 2

Today I feel wore out emotionally. I feel alone and a bit like an island. I don't let people get close to me. Keep people at an arms distance. This partly because I want/need solitary time amongst time with others.

Day 9

Prover 4

Looking forward to future. Basically I am need of divine intervention.

Day 2

Prover 3

22.45

All I can think about today is food and sleep.

Day 5

Prover 3

18.30

Woke up today with that amazing lightness and clarity of mind that sometimes happens on a morning after drinking.

Day 6

Prover 3

12.25pm

I finally feel rested today for the first time in a while.

23.30

I realized it hasn't even been a week since the actual proving started and it feels like it's been going on for so long. Probably because most of the 'symptoms' are so exhausting and I can't wait for it to be over.

Day 19

Prover 3

22.30

One thing about the last few days–everything's annoying me. Every little irrelevant insignificant detail that's out of place is making me almost homicidal. Though so far I've been able to hide it. It's not a PMS, that's over, so I have no idea what's causing this. Also, what happened to my handwriting? It's barely readable even to myself.

Day 24

Prover 2

I am unable to let go of buzzing conversation in my mind - e.g. what to do about X or replying conversation over.

Day 27

Prover 1

Had a brilliant nights sleep. Feeling well refreshed. Off to work for morning then getting camper ready for August start. Feeling really good and energetic.

Day 28

Prover 1

Had a good fun night out last night.

Have woken feeling good and positive.

Day 29

Prover 1

Buzzing with energy, things seem easy to do, very positive feeling. Sleeping so well. The dog woke me up barking in the night, which he never does. Got up and sorted him out then went back into a beautifully peaceful serene sleep. Like that lovely warm feeling of lying on a beach with the sun filling your soul.

Day 30

Prover 1

Loads of energy again, feel like this sunshine has been magnified by the remedy. Sunshine summer is always top energy for everyone.

Time Issues

Day 9

Prover 1

Days seem to be flowing into one another, time really does fly.

Day 17

Prover 1

Busy, haven't had a moment to think.

Day 18

Prover 1

Life is rushing by so quickly.

Day 31

Prover 1

I hope these notes I have written can be helpful to the proving. At times I feel I haven't written enough as life was moving so fast.

Day 10

Prover 3

20.55

I'm running out of time.

Day 26

Prover 3

16.10

I'm totally lost in time today. Can't seem to 'know' what day of the week it is. Have to stop and think for a few minutes and deduct from various plans and scheduled appointments. It's like I'm out of the general flow or something.

I'm suddenly obsessed with legitimacy of my choices in life. Trying to make sure I'm really living my own, according to my own rules and not based on common standards.

Proving Dreams

Day 2

Prover 1

Dreams were all over the place. Was travelling in a minibus with a group of people to do some work or be in a film. We were in a library at some point, then the minibus was going to be the sleeping space. People left there and was loads of rubbish on the floor. I was picking it up, then woke up. It all had a sense of trying to be organised in total chaos.

Day 3

Prover 1

Could have slept forever, very hard to wake up. Dreams all a bit mixed into one in my memory but I remember feeling really hot and thinking in my dream that it was significant. Just before I woke I was dreaming of some gadget that could turn light around corners. I was looking through it at garden gnomes!!!

Day 7

Prover 1

Dreamt of horse riding and collecting dew from plants, mostly white clover.

Day 11

Prover 1

Dreams seemed to be quite elemental as in chemical.

I was drinking some boiled water and at the bottom was a lump of lime-scale from the kettle. Later I had potassium given to me and I am sure sulphur was involved. I was also by a fire pit playing with charcoal.

Another dream I was going to see F & F and we were going to be going for a picnic.

When I got there they were busy with some technical stuff then F came and said they didn't want to be outside, which is completely different to how they live their lives.

It then started raining and the road flooded by their house. We sat and watched the water rising and then falling. They had a small dam by the driveway, which stopped the water coming in.

Day 15

Prover 1

Dreams are so intense and continual. It's like living a whole other life whilst sleeping.

In my dreams last night I have travelled on boats, waited at airports, been through foreign places, too much to recount. Quite philosophical in conversations with people. Mostly people I know. I am also mostly outside.

Day 22

Prover 1

Dreamt I was helping prepare 100 meals of pasta, quite fancy food. I think it was for an army. I was helping carry it outside.

Day 26

Prover 1

I was driving to a festival with F (very good friend) and we were meeting F and F there.

I forgot to bring food but when we got there F and F had already cooked food on an invisible heat source they had created. In they were really pleased it had worked. Think it might have come from the sun. We were in a caravan which was like the Tardis. There was a child sitting in a drawer eating dry Rice Crispies and Whatsits. Don't know who the child was.

I never got to see the festival but it was a very good place to be.

Day 1

Prover 2

I then had another dream about devotees (Krishna) I met lots of old friend devotees, it was nice. They were talking about meditation.

Day 2

Prover 2

Again I dreamy about yoga and meditation - I did poses I hadn't done before.

Day 7

Prover 2

Dream.

My mum stayed at the X Spa Hotel as wasn't feeling 100%. She stayed there to help her foot or something heal. R had paid (step–dad) and she was making every minute count there.

Day 11

Prover 2

I dreamt about a party–somewhere nice.

Day 13

Prover 2

I then dreamt that someone had been in my flat. Everything had been moved. My deities had been taken off their bases and moved but I found them. It was dusty. In truth it really just looked like I was in the middle of decorating - something I want to do in the hallway. Things had dust sheets over them.

Day 18

Prover 2

Dreamt of going away and none of my things being in my suitcase when I arrived after the flight. I had no idea where they were. It was as if by magic everything had disappeared.

Day 2

Prover 3

I remember one dream in which I came to visit my friends in Finland (they live in a small town and invited me to come visit after the summer school–this is real) before summer school and I was packing in a hurry and only brought my large red suitcase full of what I don't really need and didn't take my small black one which has something I need (unspecified).… in the dream I decided to go get it, because there was still time to go home and back before the summer school. In the dream it was more like an elevator with large windows and on the return trip I decided to take the stairs because it's cheaper, the exit was on the sixth floor. I've never visited them, I haven't seen their apartment, in the dream it was like a combination of large white shared spaces. Large white space with many showers, large white space with many toilets (looks like public toilets), large white space with beds. And I only saw one room with beds, but there were many rooms were showers and many with toilets and all interconnected.

Day 5

Prover 3

In the dream she came to my party and asked if she could stay awhile because she forgot her keys and can't get into her apartment. I remember thinking in the dream that I'm so sleepy and can't go to sleep because she keeps walking around the apartment and I have to keep following her so that she doesn't steal anything. It went on foot tortuously long time. Then she left and I could go to sleep, but I knew she'll come back because she left her phone charging at my place.

Day 7

Prover 3

11.17am

Had a weird dream that makes no sense. Last night I (really) had an idea for a book. In my dream I told about it to my friend and her husband. He decided to find out if someone would publish it and went to talk to some girl about it, in a setting that looks like a store self-checkout. I saw them talk, exchange money and some books, but didn't hear what they're saying. He came back with a few 'How to write a novel' kind of books and 450 money (I don't remember what currency).

Said he'll get more when he finishes writing the book, and gave me 50 for the idea. I felt shocked and sad and disappointed that he stole my idea from me like that, when he's not even a writer and never wanted to be. I spent most of the dream in that state until I told myself (and my friend) that I can't live like this and I stood up to him. I demanded the 400 too and said that he's not submitting the book anywhere until I read it and approve of it, because it was MY idea and I intent on making sure it's done well. In fact, I will write it myself (by this point I was already yelling at him) as I was originally supposed to. And who does he think he is running around and making deals with MY ideas? Maybe I don't want my book to be published by Tesco? (I know, I'm laughing about this bit myself, now that I'm awake)

Day 8

Prover 3

Had a dream last night that I was talking to a tattoo artist trying to design a 'Fire, walk with me' themed* tattoo, but the fire kept looking like the logo of one Lithuanian musical

*(well, from Twin Peaks of course!)

Day 9

23.00

Prover 3

Dream was action movie 'Let's save the world' type. Most people in the dream were 'X - Men' characters. And we were on a spaceship, I remember the view of it in space, as if I was watching a movie. It looked like it was made from long black rectangulat crystals. (doodle) the edges would be like this only the length and how much they stick out a lot more varied than this.

Day 12

Prover 3

Had a dream that my cat had many kitten and mostly boys and I was looking for good people to take them, mostly was giving away to friends. I think I ended up keeping 4 for myself.

Day 15

Prover 3

10.25

Had a dream about a place that's half water park (you know, pools and slides) half healing mud something. I think it was all outside. It was night. The only thing I remember more clearly is talking to someone (don't remember who, in the same dream) about cryogenic preservation–the idea of freezing up a body until science and medicine improves. I was explaining to someone I'd never want to experience that. For 3 reasons: 1. they don't know what goes on in your mind while you're in there; 2 they don't know for sure they can get you out safely; 3 the idea of maybe dying while in there is way too scary. The other person tried to convince me but what if I'm an important person as a writer, maybe I shouldn't let my phobias decide this. The fear I have is real and I described it in detail in the dream, only it has nothing to do with sci-fi concepts.

Since childhood I was scared of 'what if I go to sleep and I die before I wake up'. It's no longer an active every night to fear, but still the worst death for me would be what most people want–dying in sleep. I want to be aware when I'm dying, to know and fully experience what is happening. The fear is real and this I explained to the other person in the dream, but I never thought about the actual possibility of cryogenic preservation in real life. It's only a sci-fi movie thing for me.

Day 16

13.25

Prover 3

Last dream I remember of tonight is wedding planning with my boyfriend. Finding what he would wear, trying on my dress (which in my dream wasn't exactly as I imagine it, it was longer, more 'flowing'). And we were in this large two-floor house with a large yard, and it was day and sun shining. And my mother was throwing money 'that I've touched' out the window onto the roof of another building. I tried to stop her because those were euros, and I had plans for my euros, and my father was on my side, saying she's throwing away too much. She said it's for luck. Also in the dream I showed the wedding dress to my boyfriend and he loved it.

Day 27

Prover 3

10.00

Vaguely remember some dream fragments of being on a bus going somewhere, and I had to pay the driver in cash before exiting and give him back the ticket.

Physical

Day 13

Prover 3

21.55

On a physical level, been feeling sleepy and tired all day.

Day 14

Prover 3

14.50

I noticed over the last few weeks- it's like I've gained some healing powers. My skin is very sensitive and cat scratches take a while to heal and itch like hell when they do. Now they're healing quickly and without side effects. I had one cat-nail-cut on my finger that was really deep. Those usually take at least a week to heal. This one healed within a couple of days. If this is a side effect of the remedy, it's the first one I'm genuinely enjoying.

Day 20

Prover 3

19.25

Feeling so exhausted like I haven't for a long time. Like entirely drained of energy.

Heart Symptoms

Day 6

12.25

I've been experiencing some pains in the heart. Not sharp pains, but like it's being squeezed. It's common for me during the time of severe stress - like deadlines, or during my period. Now it's neither, so the pain is uncommon for this peaceful time and this time of the month.

Day 13

Prover 1

Awful heart palpitations, dizzy in the afternoon.

Day 15

Prover 1

Feel a bit heady + tight chested but not a bad feeling.

Day 16

Prover 1

Heart a bit fluttery.

Body Temperature

Day 3

Prover 4

Hot inside, around my spine.

Day 1

Prover 1

I feel quite warm now, like a warm glow which is nice.

Day 5

Prover 1

Haven't felt so glowy (if that's a word) today but am feeling rather warm now.

Day 13

Prover 1

Feel quite warm now but I know I will sleep well.

Appetite

Day 3

Prover 4

Appetite lower than usual, slightly overweight so a positive thing. Wanting tasty, unusual like fruit and tomatoes cravings. Yes, I want vegetarian. Metabolism, maybe a lot of changes, over 3 months- vegetarian, can't kill for eats, shouldn't eat.

Day 3

Prover 3

These last two days I can't seem to get enough food. And that's bad, as I've noticed before that I'm eating much less than I used to 2 years ago or even a year ago, and get full much quicker. Which is great for my slow metabolism and for losing weight without much effort (successfully in progress). But now it's like no matter how much I eat the sense of being full just doesn't come at all. And I keep feeling just as hungry as I was before eating...

Day 7

Prover 3

I've been thinking about food I eat. While none of my cravings are unusual for me, it seems my choice of foods is much more narrow than usual. I'm just living off tomatoes- just as they are; with sour cream; with oil; on hot sandwiches; fried up with eggs.... Tomatoes! Normally I'd be eating cold beetroot soups, young potatoes, cheese, onions...and I do, just in ridiculously small amounts, most of my food now is TOMATOES. I've always loved tomatoes, but not to the point of giving up all other vegetables (and all other foods in general)

Day 8

Prover 3

In addition to my tomato obsession I noticed I eat a lot more butter. I always like the taste of butter and could eat some of it without anything, just on its own, but not in such quantities! But now I take some to melt on a pan (to fry eggs) and just end up eating it. SO good I have to force myself to stop. (Should I say I only buy good quality butter, real butter. Not some cheap spreads.)

Day 10

Prover 3

20.55

I guess now I manage to feel overeaten and hungry at the same time.

Day 11

12.23

Prover 3

I should explain that when I said yesterday - feeling both overeaten and hungry - I did mean feeling, I didn't overeat. I had a light lunch and normally I'd feel hungry soon after. And I did feel hungry for the rest of the day, but at the same time I felt like nothing else would fit into me, even though I barely ate anything before.

Day 9

Prover 2

Appetite has been BIG past 3 days. Feeling hungry, empty, not feeling full. Wasn't full or satisfied. Sweetness, juicy, like raisins anyway, eaten fair bit, banana, apple.

Day 24 afternoon

Prover 2

Foods: Juicy. Sweet.

Thirst

Day 3

Prover 4

Bit more thirsty.

Day 2

Prover 3

I think I've started drinking a lot more water in the mornings, but that could be because it's hot (finally a real summer)

Day 6

23.30

Prover 3

I was mostly drinking more water in the mornings, but now evenings and nights too. It's like I can't stop drinking at all.

Day 11

12.23

Prover 3

I think my water intake amounts keep increasing, even on colder days like today (+15)

Day 10

Prover 2

I am thirsty for more than just water. I am thirsty for more in life.

Day 24 afternoon

Prover 2

Drinks: Lots of water. Green Tea. Bengal Spice Tea. Peppermint it none of above. Red grape juice (PURE) not concentrate :)

Day 26

Prover 2

Still craving green tea and juicy foods.

Water issues

Prover 1

Day 24

Had an interesting week of spilling water. Monday, pipe on dishwasher. Today dog's full water bowl all over the kitchen floor. The constant flowing outside tap that needs fixing.

Day 22

Prover 3

22.30

Earlier today we had a severe rain and hail storm, it was like a tsunami, I could barely see anything out of the window through the water, wind was bending the trees to the ground. Started very suddenly, ended just as suddenly too.

Day 26

Prover 3

16.10

It's like I'm out of the general flow or something.

Post Proving Feedback

Prover 1

Wow don't know what to say really, but Cornwall has been quite topical lately as we have been talking about our travels there.

I have never been to St Michael's Mount but have seen it from the mainland. It's a very beautiful place and I can imagine it would bring a feeling of peace and serenity.

I have felt more at one with the cosmos, universe, nature whilst doing this proving.I have felt a warm glow in my soul. When I laid down in my bed at night I asked the Lords of light and love to protect my family and friends and myself.

I now feel that I want to go to St Michael's Mount. I hope I can achieve this soon.

I am very pleased to have taken part in this proving and feel it has given me more energy and a stronger positive outlook. Long may this feeling continue.

Prover 2

Tingles in my body to read of where the remedy has come from. All week I have been thinking of Cornwall and staying there any few days to pamper and restore myself. I have also been using my set of Fairy cards since taking the remedy so a link to angels in a loose way.

It makes a lot of sense that the remedy was about being at peace with my spiritual self. This also came across in my dreams and my travels to India–wow! Very amazing!

I have also been desperate to be near water–in water, drink water, see water, smell it… so to know it (the remedy) has come from near the sea (Ocean) feels very special to me. I feel like I have the power of the ocean in me.

I feel grateful for my life and perhaps Archangel saint Michael got rid of all the unfavourable men to make room for more love and real relationships that can be as strong as an ocean.

Prover 3

31st July

So, found out what it was. So disappointed… I really thought it would be something from space. Where it's from doesn't mean much to me, as I'm far from religious. In fact, during this time, I quoted Lana del Ray often: 'God is dead. I say, baby, that's alright with me.'

On the topic of visions though–I did have more dreams than usual turn out to mean something. It's not new to me to be having such dreams, but not so many in such a short time. Anyway, I'm glad it's over. Sad that I haven't even used up half of the notebook. And in the end the source of the remedy doesn't even sound exciting. How disappointing.

Mary English DSH, MFHT is the author of A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love published by Ayni Books http://amzn.to/1IhqDtf

References.

1.Cornwall, The Ancient Land of Kernow, 1999, 3 Stone Publications

2. http://archive.org/stream/historyofmountsb00penz#page/n3/mode/2up

3. http://cornish-place-names.wikidot.com/place-name-elements

http://www.falmouthpacket.co.uk/news/11020472.Evidence_of_ancient_forest_exposed_on_beach_at_Mount_s_Bay__PICTURES/

5. http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/place-london/plain/A2982387

6. http://www.alva.org.uk/details.cfm?p=423

7. Every Pilgrim's Guide to Celtic Britain and Ireland, Andrew Jones, 2002, Canterbury Press, Norwich.

Notes

I organised a sacred healing day

Prover 2 organised a retreat

Pictures of St Michael's Mount courtesy of and with thanks to Jill Trelease

Please ASK before linking to or from or copying this article

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The #1 Mistake People Make When They Reject Religion

2014-08-10T15:51:00.002+01:00

The #1 Mistake People Make When They Reject Religion

Why the title?

I know where you're coming from!

I was a child of a devout Catholic family.

I went to a Catholic school (four in total)

1. An infants school run by Catholics

2. A junior school run by nuns

3. Then a senior school run by nuns ....and later

4. Another school run by monks (it was going co-ed when I started, 10 girls 300+ boys….I was in heaven!! for all the wrong reasons!!….)

I went to church every Sunday

I took my First Communion

and my Confirmation and chose the name Magdalene

I had a rosary

I prayed every night with my family.

My sister even, in later life, wrote a poem called Family Prayers, you can watch her performing it on YouTube here http://youtu.be/DHncW3ZWv4w

I know all about this strange religion. I know who gave birth to Jesus, the names of all the saints, what each Holy Day is all about, I've been to confession…and I've prayed.

When I hit my teens I completely rejected everything to do with religion.

I didn't want to join the nun's school choir…I hated their singing teacher. One girl regularly pretended to faint to avoid going to classes. I opted out and my whole world took a turn for the worse as I'd been bigged-up by my infants school teacher about my good singing voice...

All I could see and hear was I was damned.....

..... so I thought I might as well go to Hell for a reason and I started smoking, staying out late, dating boys, the whole Kaboosh.

Religion was history.

Then fast forward.

I'm now self-employed as an Author,

Homeopath

and Astrologer.

I run my own business.

I'm my own boss.

I choose what I do, and what I don't do.

No-one forces weird ideas into my brain and I don't have to say three Hail Mary's or two Our Fathers if I do something 'wrong'.

I look after myself and my clients.

However, the longer that I've been in this job, the more I meet people who are desperate to 'Find' their spiritual self, as if it's a lost piece of clothing that needs to be reclaimed.

As if they have to make a great and impressive effort to 'find' their true spiritual self and mark a claim to its existence.

They're rejected conventional religion Hooray ….but they've lost THE most important part of their spiritual connection, which is aided by ritual.

Yes!??!!!

Ritual

Having a ritual that feels right for your version of your spirituality is what will bring you back in touch with that part of you that needs connection to the divine.

Think about it.

If you want to contact the divine….or should we say 'The Divine' (some things look better with capitals) ….then you need to develop a mind-set or action that will prep you for that contact.

And just sitting in front of your computer screen won't do it.

You can look at pretty pictures or click and 'Like' meaningful words, but you're missing such an important physical action that ritual fulfils.

Let's take a simple ritual.

One I use a lot in my private practice.

One I probably do everyday, In fact, it would have to be a very strange day indeed for me not to do it…

I light a candle.

SIMPLE

I have a packet of night-lights. Cheap ones are OK, but they burn down too quickly.

I prefer to use the Prices range as they last longer.

These burn for 4 hours http://amzn.to/1sBDgTO

And these called Sentinel lights burn for 8 hours http://amzn.to/1sBDudv

Both can be extinguished and re-lit without going weird.

As I light the candle, I might imagine whatever situation I'm lighting it for getting better.

Or I might write a short note in my Healing Book as a request to my Goddess to assist me or the person concerned.

I get a huge amount of comfort from this one simple action and it's one you can easily use yourself without it costing much, or taking up a lot of time.

You can connect with YOUR spiritual diva or God or Goddess or Higher Self or just be thinking of the person you want to help…..

I call it Shining a Light into The Darkness.

This simple action will assist you in reconnecting with YOUR spiritual self.

YOUR source.

YOUR Life Purpose.

Yes, by all mean reject a religion that doesn't feel right for you, but don't throw the baby out with the bathwater.

Keep those aspects of 'religion' that are helpful, empowering, simple and dare I say it…….FUN!

On the 19th August I held a Sacred Healing Spring Ritual at Bath's Cross Baths

The Day was a 90 minute Sacred event and Five Bath-based dear friends of mine helped make a wonderful event.

Annie Barrett is a trained massage and Holistic therapist and did amazing hand-massages for our guests
https://anniebarrettwellbeing.wordpress.com/

Celia Stewart is a Bach Flower essences Healer and teacher http://www.bathholistic.co.uk/

Aradhana Bowker is a Yoga teacher and Raw Food Specialist http://beautifulheartrawkitchen.co.uk/

Celia Gunn (in blue) is an author, workshop leader and Crop Circle Diva http://www.earthskywalk.com/

and

Michele Broom (on the right) is a Stress Busting Massage therapist and tutor
http://www.bathstressangels.co.uk/

We came together to provide THE BEST Spiritual and Relaxing Event in The West Country.

Each participant went home not only with a goodie bag containing Flower essence samples, Homeopathic remedies and a Sacred Love Chocolate sample....

....but also with a stronger sense of their Spiritual Purpose.

With the memories of meeting and sharing time with my four special friends, learning about Raw Food, Bach Flowers and Sacred Rituals.

With the experience of sharing a Sacred Day with six other Soul Seekers and Five Sacred Helpers….and myself:) xx

I was a wonderful day and one that helped me and our guests truly experience the healing powers of faith ....without the dogma.

How I Stick to my Writing Schedule..

2014-06-26T14:18:00.025+01:00

I am the author of a series of Sun sign books, all describing how to make a birth chart and understand each sign of the Zodiac.

I have kept each book easy to understand.

This post is just a quickie to answer question 3 in Jonathan's post

Do you stick to a schedule? (Be honest.)

to show other authors, or would-be-authors, how I keep track of my word-count.

Each book had to have 20,000 words as my first book How to Survive a Pisces

https://amzn.to/38v5rDV

...came in at that word count.

I 'log-on' to my writing most days.

Here is an example of the word count, and how the 5th book in the series (& the 8th sign of the Zodiac) How to Win the Trust of a Scorpio progressed as I wrote.

https://amzn.to/3LiuqZM

3-5-2011 11.40am 12.25pm 1,328

10-5-2011 8.35am

12-5-2011 9.20am 2,096 10am 2,246 4.25pm

19-5-2011 10.40am

10-6-2011 9.05pm-9.50pm 7001

17-6-2011 1.10pm

16-7-2011 1.10pm 7201

21-10-2011 8.10pm 10,289

22-10-2011 8.55am- 9.50am 10, 444, 4.45pm 11,227

24-10-2011 10.20am 12,070

26-10-2011 8.50am- 945am 12,498

27-101-2011 2.20pm 12,714

28-10-2011 2.40pm- 13,528

29-10-2011 11.35am 12.45pm 14,001 2.40pm- 3.10pm 14,786

2-11-2011 11.55am 12.28pm - 15,347

6-11-2011 11.55am -1.45pm 15,885

7-11-2011 2.45pm- 7pm- 16,383

8-11-2011 2.40pm 17,094

9-11-2011 2.30pm-

11-11-2011 7.45pm 18,976

14-11-2011 2.55pm 3.15pm – 19,039 8.05pm 19,388

16-11-2011 6.55pm- 19,889 8.55pm 20, 044

17-11-2011 11.35am-12.20pm 20,271

18-11-2011 12pm- 12.15pm 20,438

21-11-2011 1.50pm 14,953 3pm14, 918

26-112011 3.25pm – 8pm 15,319

27-112011 2.40pm- 4pm 16,173

28-11-2011 10.10am-1.10pm 16,528 3pm 16,873 9pm 17,186

29-11-2011 10.20am- 11.40am17, 530, 1.25 17,700 3.35pm 18,264

4-12-2011 11.15am-12.15pm 18,975 2.10pm 19,172 4pm-6pm 19,246 7.40pm-8.30pm 19,650

5-12-2011 11.30am- 20,014 3pm-9pm 21,517

6-12-2011 9.10am-

Each as you can see, I started the book on the 3rd May 2011 at 11.40am and clocked off at 12.25pm with 1,328 words.

That was a good start to the book.

By the 10th June 2011 a month later I'd reached 7,001 words (love the 001 !! ) and am now over a third of the way through the book.

By the 21st October 2011 I'm halfway through, time for celebration as I'd reached 10,289 words:)

By the 5th of December 2011 I've now reached over 20,000 words at 21,517 words.

This is when I edit what I've written, go back over stuff, polish it as much as I can and get it ready to send to my publisher Dodona Books http://www.dodona-books.com/

I wrote this book, one of the twelve in the series, in 8 months.

By the time I'd finished writing the series on January 2013 I was able to write the books in about three months and I submitted for proposal the final book in the series How to Appreciate an Aries

How to Appreciate an Aries

https://amzn.to/3xXFBn4

(which is Jonathan's Sun sign) on the 19th January 2013 at 12.06pm (to be precise!)

So, I find that keeping a word count and logging-on (and I now log-out too) keeps me focused on:

Where I am with my writing

How far I've got to go

..and now I've written the series..

Gives me a little personal boost to remind me I actually did write twelve books

Get them published by an independent publisher (at no expense to me)

Overcome a massive computer crash (book two How to Cheer Up A Capricorn)

While seeing clients in my private practice

Being a Mum to my teen-son

A wife to my lovely husband

And support my mother in her final days on earth

...by sticking to a schedule.

Mary English

Astrologer

Author

Homeopath

www.maryenglish.com

How Homeopathy Can Help You Sleep Better

2014-06-10T22:29:00.005+01:00

Sleep.

We all want more of it, but have less time to allow for it.

Is your sleep lacking?

Are you having trouble getting off to sleep, or experiencing broken sleep?

At certain times of our lives, broken sleep is to be expected:

1.The birth of a new baby can be trying to new parents, by early wakes and less chance of deep sleep. Eventually most children sleep longer and give parents a better nights sleep.

2. During noisy events like camping or hot weather, when sleep is more difficult due to outside noise or feeling too warm in bed or during exciting events such as Christmas....

3. Travel can make sleep difficult, especially during plane flights or train journeys.

However, there are times when interrupted and broken sleep are not expected but can make a situation worse such as during bereavement, relationship break-ups or high stress levels at work....

The wish to just lie somewhere cosy and sleep away for a few hours can make desire for sleep a search for Nirvana.

There have been numerous studies done on sleep deprivation and the list of diseases and mental problems it can produce is long and sad. 1.

Other factors that can affect sleep are diet...

....too much caffeine... lack of fresh air and exercise...

noisy partner, stress, bad digestion, being too warm or cold....

or even intruding thoughts.

Homeopathy has a long track record of helping people have a peaceful nights sleep no matter what the causes. 2.

In a Homeopathic consultation, I will need to know how your lack sleep is affecting you, what the causes are and what sort of sleeping conditions you prefer. Even your sleeping position is taken into account!

Do you sleep with your arms above your head?

Do you sleep on your knees, bent over? (Yes, there are people who sleep like this!)

Do you prefer to have your head covered, or not?

What side of your body do you sleep on?

Having this information will help a me choose the correct remedy to help YOUR sleeplessness. It is a prescription that is tailored specifically to you and your needs and desires. You are as individual as a snowflake...

What other clients have said about Homeopathic treatment:

"I am writing today to apologise for not realising how good your remedy had been!"

"Thank you so very much - it's been brilliant working with you and not just for the homoeopathy (which, once again, with the right practitioner, is so profound in its effect). Great stuff!"

"Everything has slowly shifted like an enormous clock ticking round and I feel less burdened, more free and as if I am starting to move again."

I have over 20 years of clinical practice as a Homeopath and I am a member of the Federation of Holistic Therapists.

You will need to complete a Health Questionnaire before your appointment
and keep a sleep journal during your treatment so we can assess how you're doing.

If you would like to book a Homeopathic Sleep Consultation, please email me mary@maryenglish.co.uk outlining briefly what is happening to your sleep pattern at the moment.

I look forward to hearing from you and working with you to help your sleep issues.

References

1. Bad sleep dramatically alters body http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-21572686

2. Homeopathic research into sleep problems http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20129178

All illustrations are from my personal copy of Cassell's Family Magazine c1890

A Little at a Time...

2014-04-21T18:33:00.001+01:00

Homeopathy….

It's amazing how just the name on-line can create immense outpourings of angst and anger…anyone un-interested in the debate would think that people were being killed daily by Homeopathic ministrations…

Well, they're not!

I have been in private practice for over 15 years. I have in that time seen and treated a wide range of conditions, people, complaints, disorders, syndromes, and diagnoses.

What I mostly treat though are people…

Tall people, small people, fat people, thin people, happy people, sad people, people needing lots of support, people happy to go-it-alone.....people wanting honest answers, a friendly smile, someone on their side, someone unprejudiced....

We have to as Homeopaths, remember Hahnemann's reasons for changing his method of practice. He didn't like the effects that the treatments of his day had on his patients.....

So much so that he decided not to practice 'traditional' medicine and made a living translating medical texts.

When he made the discovery of 'like-treating-like' he then devoted the rest of his (long) life to its development.

Things are no different today.

Patients/clients come with a lot of symptoms that are caused by the 'prescription' drugs they are taking.

I don't advise my clients to stop their drugs, what I do advise them is to look them up and check they actually need them. Check with their GP…

As Homeopaths we also know that the body's natural state is to heal. We're wired that way. We don't have to talk our bodies into healing a cut or a graze, the body will naturally heal over, form a scar and stop the bleeding (if the cut isn't too large)....

Homeopathy helps that healing. Yes, the doses are minute, but the chronic illnesses we see in practice would have started with a minute amount of disorder, that over the years would have increased to a chronic complaint.

Sadness and loneliness....

Fear....

Anxiety and stress, all put strains on the way our bodies work and Homeopathic remedies help the body, gently, carefully to get back to health.

Some people get better quicker than others…..but a well chosen remedy can't not help a person.

I don't believe in Homeopathy working. It's not a belief system for me. I don't believe they'll get better, sometimes clients are wholly sceptical themselves. When their symptoms abate, and they feel happier and have more energy, then we know they're on the road to recovery.

Homeopathy doesn't suit everyone. There are numbers of healing modalities. Not everything will help every person, because we're all different..... but Homeopathy and stepping back from forcing healing, pushing-the-river, making pronouncements, making patients fearful that only doctors know how to heal ...

……gives my clients the space they need to let their bodies do the healing …..a little at a time….

Mary English DSH, MFHT is the author of A Little at a Time, Homeopathy for You and Those You Love published by Ayni Books http://www.ayni-books.com/books/little-at-time and available from Amazon http://amzn.to/1QAg4mQ

www.maryenglish.com

"A Little at a Time - Homeopathy for you and those you love" by Mary English is a brilliant book to spark an interest in Homeopathy. It is for anyone who has been a little curious and wants a deeper understanding of how it works and how to use it confidently at home. Mary English gives a brief background into the history and philosophy of Homeopathy and explains the reasons for the rather polarising views about it found in the media today. Her passion for this healing system is infectious and this shines through in her writing. The title may be "A little at a time" but I felt compelled to romp through it in one sitting.

The excellent section on First Aid clarifies what can and can't be treated at home and even how to use Homeopathy on your way to hospital for more serious injuries. She is no-nonsense about fevers, suspected meningitis and offers very valuable information about recognising the symptoms of a stroke.

She unravels the mysteries of why a Homeopathic remedy can treat a whole raft of seemingly unrelated conditions. Different remedies express illness in different ways and it is matter of finding the remedy that matches your headache or sore back. She emphasizes that people are not their illnesses and should not be labelled as such. Homeopathy treats the disease as a process the person is going through rather than being an asthmatic or a migraine sufferer.

The top ten remedies chapter is well worth keeping in your first aid box for ready access. English gives clear instructions on how to administer doses and when to stop dosing. This instills confidence in anyone wishing to try this at home.

Most importantly this book touches areas that are often neglected in an introductory book. There is a very helpful chapter on supporting women or a couple through an unplanned pregnancy. There is information to give the birth partner something useful to do while assisting women through labour. Her chapter on mental wellness is frank and offers some excellent tips on keeping everything in the mental sphere shipshape. She offers pointers on what you can try at home and when to seek professional help. Sleep disturbance, grief and anxiety are all addressed here.

Humour is not something you would expect from a book like this but I found myself having a good chuckle occasionally. English recommends a dose of Sulphur 30c to those of us with messy bedrooms in need of de-cluttering! I will give it a try....

Spiritual crises are not something that can be dealt with in your average GP visit but it fits comfortably into the realm of homeopathy and Mary explains why and how. Physical, mental and spiritual health allow the human to reach their greatest potential and with "A Little at a Time" this seems within the grasp of anyone willing to explore this healing system.

Invisible....What it Feels Like to Not be Able to Talk...

2014-01-07T21:48:00.000+00:00

Well!
That was an event!
I've never done a sponsored anything before. I've volunteered for various charities over the years but I've never directly been involved in 'fund raising'....and this event did have a purpose, to raise funds for the Three Ways school's project Tea Cup Appeal

These are the people that will benefit:

Caitlyn and Kerry

Students like them who have finished their studies at Three Ways Special School and want to go into the world of work, just like anyone else...

I started the day in a good frame of mind. I had a lovely chat with Hannah Murray on Talk Radio Europe for my monthly Astro Star check-in and she was the last person I spoke to before I started at 9am.

I had spent the previous night preparing some small cards with words written on them like Thank you !! , Yes and No!!

I couldn't think of anything I'd need to say, as I was expecting people to ask me questions......how wrong I was!!

At just after 10.30am Darren and Jenny from Infinite 8 Productions arrived as they'd kindly agreed to film some of my silence (I needed a record otherwise no-one would believe me!) I'd never met them before yesterday and they were a super, professional pair and made me feel at ease....

It was strange when I answered the door, as I couldn't speak, so I gestured 'Hello' and opened the door and ran into the sitting room to get my prepared work-sheet for them.

I showed it to Jenny and she read it out for Darren to hear. It was strange 'hearing' my words being spoken by someone else...I then gestured 'would you like a drink?' and went into the kitchen to boil the kettle. I'd already asked Jenny what her and Darren drank the day before....so I didn't need to ask in detail again...

I made myself a cup of tea while they talked about what they were going to do. Except they didn't talk!!! I was expecting them to talk to each other and ask me questions so I could hold up my Yes or No cards but they stood there quietly, as if they didn't want to disturb me....I gestured 'Please sit on the sofa' ...Jenny became the 'Spoke's Person.'

We agreed what was going to happen, and as we'd never met and I was actually asking them to do something very strange for charity, to film me NOT doing something, I think they coped very well!
I brought out the biscuits and they got to work with camera's and filming equipment and lighting.
It was agreed that as the weather was rainy we'd film in the house, then pop up to the school to film me taking the collection bucket in....then film me in town with the bucket..

I had some written cards with my mission statement, what my name was, why I was doing it....and held them to camera while Darren filmed. Then Jenny did the the sounds of the cards being changed...we had to do a few takes as I dropped them, and got the wrong order.
Considering how much they had to do, and the circumstances being so strange, I was amazed how calm they both were, which helped me as I was feeling a bit weird. Nothing I did seemed natural. I was having to make a conscious effort NOT to reply, or chat or do all the things I normally do, like hum or sing or generally give a running commentary on what I do....I found out they were Virgo and Cancer and Jenny had a Virgo Moon, which made me feel better (astrologically) as then I knew they would pay attention to detail and not be slap-dash.....they certainly weren't slap-dash, it took over 3 hours to make what will be a 2 min video.....

We did shots of me making tea, looking out of the kitchen window, sitting on the sitting room chair and staring outside, and in the office with my crochet...

which as the day progressed got bigger and bigger...

We then agreed to pop to the school and go into town, so I went to get my motorbike, but I couldn't get it started, and it started to rain, so that idea got cancelled!
I jumped in Jenny's car and we drove to the school to take some shots of me and the bucket ...

....then we said our goodbyes, which I couldn't say, I could only wave...

Then I was on my own. Lovely hubbie and son-and-heir were sick in bed with colds....so I decided to go into town with the collection bucket. I had to use the car as the bike wouldn't start...My licence from the council allowed me to collect from 11am-3pm and it was now 1.30pm, so I had just enough time to collect for an hour...

I stood outside Waitrose with my written cards....I showed each one slowly...but people were walkting past so fast, only a few people here and there were looking...I had my gag on my face but I expect that was making it worse or people thought I was cold.

An older lady came over and said 'I used to work with people like that' referring to the picture and wording on the bucket. I was feeling bad that I still had £200 to collect and money was coming in very, very slowly...I stood where the Big Issue seller normally stands, and eventually one of the ladies that stand there turned up but she very kindly stood by another exit....and we were now in sync....her shouting 'Big Issue' and me standing there, in the cold, wind whistling by....just looking at my cards in front of me....

I didn't want to make eye-contact with people, as they'd just look away, so I tried looking everywhere else except at people....

...I then started to become invisible....

Most people don't want to be confronted with 'charity' while they're shopping in town, or meeting up with friends, or carrying their Waitrose Brut NV Champagne....people would stand right next to me, talking to their friends, chatting on their mobiles....they'd walk around me or right up to me or even stand behind me.....but I wasn't there....I was someone with a bucket, with a 'problem'...with something they didn't want to think about just then. I started to feel severe empathy with the lady Big Issue seller...this must be how she feels everyday and I was barely managing 30 minutes...

I then moved to another location and carried on holding my bucket. It was raining, and I was feeling a bit self-conscious now, a bit weird...like I should have something 'better' to do than stand there with a bucket in my hands .....a lady I know to chat to walked past and when she saw me she said 'So....it's come to this has it?' like I was a beggar or something...I smiled and showed her my message cards, which she read...then she just carried on her way....I couldn't say 'How's your daughter?' ....or 'How's work today?'....I just carried on standing there....after another 30 mins my time was up and I went for a cuppa....

That proved even MORE difficult, because I couldn't say what I wanted and I had to point at the menu and smile...the man standing next to me read out what I wanted...I felt uncomfortable and even more weird...

After tea it was time to go home. Lovely hubbie made me dinner but because he had a cold/sore throat, he thought I might want to eat on my own....

NO!! I certainly didn't want to eat on my own, I was feeling lonely and I wanted to sit at the dinner table and have son-and-heir and lovely hubbie chat with each other and for me to listen and feel included...but they both had sore throats and we ate in silence...by now the silence was beginning to feel a lot less fun, a lot less do-able....I ate and thought lots of thoughts....

After dinner I thought I'd sit in my office, light a fire and listen to some music and do my crochet. I now had 3 more hours to go....I spent about 30 mins getting the fire going. I enjoyed the crackling it made. I didn't want to listen to anyone talking on my ipod, I just wanted 'natural' sounds, so I used some bird song recordings and had my ear-plugs in...one ear listening for the fire, one for the bird song....
...after about an hour lovely hubbie came in with a note and popped it on my footstool...

That made me feel heaps better....but as the evening progressed I started to think about my sister and how she can't talk anymore and how she can't say even Yes or No and how she gets fed and clothed and put-to-bed and how I'm not there to say goodnight to her anymore...

...and I began to feel really bad...I tried doing a mental meditation chant but maudlin thought continued to crowd in. I tried snoozing but then I thought I'd never finish my crochet. I thought about all the kind people who had contributed and that helped me do another hour....I only had one hour left....and I thought about how not being able to talk severely restricts the connection in life and I decided if I ever got locked-in syndrome I could understand how it might make me lose the will to live....

At 8.30pm I decided this maudlin thinking wasn't doing me any good so I put on my coat and went for a long walk. It's 'OK' to walk on your own and not talk. It's accepted. It's probs more unacceptable to talk to yourself while you're walking but I didn't feel any compulsion to talk while I walked. I did a walking meditation and looked at the wind rustling the branches and the puddles on the ground. I seemed to be seeing more than I would do normally...everything seemed fresh and alive and I was alive....

I got home at 8.55pm and by the time I'd got off my coat and settled back home, the clock was showing 9pm....I waited until 9.10pm then I celebrated with lovely hubbie and son-and-heir ......then updated my Facebook status and Twitter that I'd managed 12 whole hours of Silence for the kiddies at Three Ways......
Mary's 12 Hour Silence on Just Giving You can Help Three Ways..

In Memory of My Sister Katy with Down's Syndrome

2013-12-27T13:14:00.002+00:00

In 1967 my youngest sister was born. When Mum & Dad brought her home from hospital she got us all into their bedroom and 'broke the news'.

"Your new sister has Down's Syndrome", said Mum "So you will need to help me with her".

I was fascinated. My sister was unique! She wasn't like other people's sisters....she was 'different'. How cool was that!

She was a really cute baby. All soft fluffy blonde hair and a cute smile. I wasn't at all phased by Mum's pronouncement as a boy in my class at school had a Down's brother...

We got on really well. I enjoyed her company and at one point shared a room with her.

We moved to Switzerland as Dad got a job there. Katy had a personal tutor called appropriately Heidi and she learned to read and write. She wrote hundreds of letters. Most to TV stars from Soap Operas she liked but also to almost every person she met. She'd make a note of your birthday in her diary and send you a personally made birthday card every year.

She took her First Communion (as my parents were Catholics) and she looked really cute in her outfit, holding her little prayer book.

A while after we came back to the UK, Katy went to a Steiner School where she learned to play the Lyre and more importantly learned how to weave. She used to make wonderful wall hangings and cushion covers, a skill that my mother encouraged way after Katy left main-stream education.

Katy had numerous jobs, volunteering for charity shops and in various local shops, whose owners were kind enough to let her work there.

She also had a boyfriend she was friends with for over 30 years and they kept in contact by phone and saw each other for their birthdays.

She loved her jobs and missed them terribly when Dementia started to set in in her early 40's.

Sadly her Dementia advanced so far she went in 24 hour nursing care ....

...which is why I helped with The Three Ways Tea Cup Appeal....Tea Cup Appeal

Katy had been lucky enough to have wonderful care from my mother, her tutors, her friends, her loving boyfriend, her family, her carers and lastly in the care home. Because of this I wanted to help other children with Learning Difficulties lead a fulfilled life by doing a 12 hour Sponsored Silence to raise the funds needed for a purpose built Tea Shop for their students.

They will then have a safe, friendly place to work when they finish school, just like Katy did.

Thank you for reading and thank you also for any contributions you can make to this appeal:) Mary's Sponsored Silence

I did my Sponsored Silence for 12 hours on Monday the 6th Jan 2014 as I wanted to raise £1,000 for the appeal...so far I've raised over £834 with YOUR help...I only have a little way to go now....:) xxx
Mary's 12 Hour Sponsored Silence

Sadly Katy died in February 2015
May She Rest in Peace

How to Make Someone with Alzheimer's Feel Safe

2013-12-10T12:48:00.000+00:00

So, you know someone who has memory problems. Maybe it's a relative, or a friend, your partner, your Grandmother or Grandfather, maybe it's your own parents....

My mother had Alzheimer's. She didn't have it so badly that she'd forgotten who she was, but she wasn't too sure what her married name was towards the end and she'd certainly forgotten who my father was. It didn't really matter. What mattered was 'Did She Feel Safe'....

Imagine that you can't remember what day it is....that's not a problem, most people experience that every now and again....

Imagine now that you can't remember what you're going to be 'doing' in the next few minutes, that you can't also remember what you did a few minutes ago....imagine also that you can't remember what season it is, so you have to look out of the window to check and because you have no idea what time of year, or day, or date or time it is, you've got no sense of stability, as everything changes all the time.

Now, imagine that you do know to a few years or so, how old you are. You know you're old, 'cos you can see your hands, and they're wrinkled, and your voice sounds croaky when you talk....and you can't see or hear very well.

Imagine now that you don't know what time of day it is, because you've forgotten and you can't see your watch.

Imagine what that must feel like to just be in a room, dressed, looking around you, maybe someone is with you, maybe they're not....and it they're not, you don't really know how long you've been sat there, or how long you'll be alone....

Just as having a bad memory means you can’t remember what you’ve done, it also means you don’t know what’s going to happen, because your memory can’t find the info needed to make an accurate judgement about something.

It’s fine to ask someone with a memory problem;” Do you want a cup of tea?” because the answer is only either ‘Yes’ or ‘No Thank you’.

If you say: “You are going to ***** today", then problems start.

Your cared-for person will be thinking; “ What is Oriel Lodge, or Hilliers, or Janet's?” and they can’t find an answer in their memory, they will say “No, I don’t want to go”…...then you get into a discussion about going, or not going....

Which actually means they don’t want to go to where-ever in their memory that was a bad experience because they remember some bad feeling and equate having to go somewhere as negative…so what they’re really saying is:

“I don’t want to go to….hospital, old person care home, funeral, bad memories”

People with memory problems feel better when they don’t know something is going to happen, until just before it happens.

About 10 minutes to be precise.

When I used to visit my mother, I'd always ring and say:”See you in 10 minutes, get your coat on” and she would get her coat on, and know something was going to happen with her daughter, and it’d be OK….

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT, THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK.

When you have a memory problem, when you don’t understand or remember what’s going on, then you start to worry and you DON’T WANT TO GO THERE....you don’t want to go to 'the place of worry’.

It’s no good using logic in this situation. It’s no good reminding them that they’re been before and they liked it. You have to get right back into the now.

…and talk your way through what’s happening…in a nice, caring reassuring way.

‘Here’s your breakfast, here’s your drink, here’s your shoes/coat/underwear’ etc and interspace it with general chit-chat about the weather, things they can both see and understand NOW…like how your hair is, or what you’re wearing. Stuff that’s in the NOW….

Then, 10 minutes and I mean 10 minutes, before they leave the house, start putting on coats, shoes etc and say ‘You’re going out with **** (me, Emma,Brenda,Anna, Jack) whoever is working/being with them, say your name and reassure them that everything will be OK and change the subject...

“ What coat would you like? What scarf would you like? What socks would you like?” ..giving them choices as you go along, so they feel in control and happy…..then you don’t need to say where they are going until you are out of the door. By then, they’ll be looking at the sky or the plants, or the traffic, or the weather…and you’ll have a lovely day, a lovely journey and there won’t be any problems.

Women and Wikipedia

2013-11-15T21:08:00.004+00:00

There aren't many female editors on Wikipedia. In fact there are less than 13% females helping to edit and write the world's largest encyclopedia....

Now, that wouldn't really be a problem, but not having many women contributors, when an article is about science, or health, or anything that's considered 'male'....means any women who do contribute, are treated in a shambolic and aggressive manner.

Even worse, if an article is about things connected to or about women, because your average wikipedia editor is male, under 24, mostly in higher education, biased and rampant Misogynists, the article will read like something your teen son wrote....not impressive...

Editors that have been on wikipedia for a long time resort to evil tactics to dissuade other editors from changing or writing anything that 'disagrees' with their views....which is completely at odds with wikipedia's mission statement which is:

The mission of the Wikimedia Foundation is to empower and engage people around the world to collect and develop educational content under a free license or in the public domain, and to disseminate it effectively and globally.

The sort of tactics they resort to are as follows:

1. Bombarding with endless posts on the talk page - results in the editor giving up the will to edit and eventually they leave wikipedia = solution : ignore all the chat and talk, just discuss and edit what's necessary.

2. Create brothers-in-faith - team up with other editors that agree with your tactics and bombard editor with pointless info = solution : get sister's in faith and get them to support your edits by reverting them back or asking a more experienced editor for help by going here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:Course_page/Getting_help

3. Writing all over their editor page, making it look as if what they're doing is wrong and is breaking wikipedia rules - This is a bit like spray painting someone's front door = solution: re-edit your page to it's previous state, you don't have to leave their rubbish on your page!!

4. Being rude and abusive, or taking the mickey, or calling them names or using lots of sarcasm = solution : completely ignore this as it only adds fuel to their fire.

If you don't believe these things happen in a civil society, go here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/User:Deacon_of_Pndapetzim/How_to_win_a_revert_war

The page says it's humour, but believe me, these things happen DAILY!!!

I have edited a number of wikipedia pages. It's a fun pastime. I have set my alerts to NOT alert me, so I only go to my pages when I feel like it.

When you find a page or subject you like, stay on it and make it as good as you can, you don't need to be an expert on wikipedia, you only have to enjoy the subject....

However, there are some weirdos out there who enjoy nothing more than winding other people up, and as they've been on wikipedia for a long time, they know their way around and will make it seem as if you're breaking rules or don't know what you're doing...

If you want to see how bad some pages on women are go here:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Childbirth

Interesting to know that birth is : the expulsion of one or more newborn infants from a woman's uterus

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Breast

Hey! did you know the female breast is : the upper ventral region of the torso of a primate

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Woman

This one made me laugh! did you know that : In some cultures, a majority of women have adopted specific appearances, such as wearing long hair

and lastly

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love

Oh dear:(

love is complex and is: difficult to consistently define, compared to other emotional states

....not too sure which 'other emotional states' are easier to define and why we need a 'definition' anyway, surely love is a feeling not a scientific experiment!!

Ladies, if you don't like what you read on wikipedia, remember you CAN make an edit, this video describes how http://bit.ly/1gS4gM7

Mind you, don't expect the above video to be there for too long as editors that don't like women are likely to 'vote' to remove it.....

Mary English

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Stop Taking the Remedy!

What To Do If Symptoms Get Worse.

Stop Taking the Remedy

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Mary English was born in London and educated in Switzerland at the American International School of Zurich. She is a professional Astrologer and member of The Astrological Association & The Society of Authors. She has over 30 years of experience in her field. She is also a qualified Homeopath.

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