Winter Tears

2012 first post!

2012-01-20T05:35:00.005+08:00

my first post of 2012...sorry blog i've neglected u for so long...didnt really have the mood to blog abt anything...

so much things have happen since my last post....i really dunno what have i gotten myself into....from a "normal" life woman to an "abnormal" life woman...i really see alot of changes in me...after so much incidents...i finally realise who are the friends which i can keep for life...thank you anna and esther...both of you help me when im at my lowest....i really appreciate everything...also not forgetting those who lend their hands to me too...xp, joel, zhao nan, triciaa, loki, wy ah boon, guofeng, wintermelon...really thank you...and for those who give me nothing but troubles and also gave me a step when im down...karma shall befall you...in this world...being kind to others means being cruel to my own self....bitches are everywhere...so i think...there's not a need for me to show any mercy...

me n him are getting along well...we came to a compromise on certain things...i hope i can stick to it...i do like him alot...and yes...hopefully things works out fine too....

well...i guess the above post summarise everything...no doubt its short but its enough to express how i feel....so....-to be continue- ^_^

movies updates!

2011-10-14T23:08:00.003+08:00

watch this with aminah, eddie, jos, kaka and keong at marina square....really nice movie...highly recommended! rating 4.5/5

still watching this china drama...didnt know its related to 八仙过海 hahaha...hmmm...storyline not bad...consist of 48 episodes...rating 3.5/5...not bad

dishearten

2011-10-13T05:09:00.003+08:00

mentally tired....i wish i could go oversea asap...alone...for good....i dont see anything thats worth me staying back...

the pressure is getting heavier....i dont want to be blame for dunno how to teach my child...i've done all i could, say all i should...but its meaningless....i dunno what i must do to be call im concern, i care or i love...

its ok...i guess...im just not a good mother...

moody!

2011-10-06T14:58:00.003+08:00

dunno whats wrong with me recently...feeling so god damn irritated by every single little thing....no patient, touchy, flared up....its definitely not pms....just dunno whats wrong...

thanks god i have all my loves around...i really cant imagine life without them....the funny moments and happy times we shared....its just so amazing....

went illuma flimgarde with aminah, jos and bel to watch this movie....its a very inspiring show and of cos i went for the show bcos of the dolphin....storyline is kinda slow but its really good at encouraging ppl to carry on their live even with disabilities...rating 3.5/5....can watch

freedom~

2011-10-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

the urge of going oversea is just getting stronger day by day...i just came back from hong kong and there i am craving to go oversea again...its only when im oversea i feel freedom, relaxation and enjoyment....i guess chances of me leaving sg for good is rather high in future...

dunno whats wrong with me recently....keep having dreams about him....is that a sign that i have not let go? is that a sign that he's still alive in my heart? i seriously hate this kind of feeling....

i really need lots of time off and stay away from sg...i wanna break free from all these shit....

next stop! thailand...

movies updates!

2011-10-04T00:17:00.006+08:00

manage to finish this hong kong drama at funshion before i leave for hong kong....nice~ just that the ending is not those happily ever after story....rating 4/5....recommended.

watch these 3 movies at hong kong...nice cinema they have at The One...nice toilets too hahaha

the soccerer and the white snake....watch with jos, aminah, xiaolong, heng and waimui at The One....a very old romantic legendary love story between a human and a snake....i love this story...but sad to say they have somehow change alot of the story for this latest movie....i didnt like it....still prefer the old version....rating i would give only 2.5/5.

johnny english reborn...watch with edwin and gf, heng and waimui at The One...starring the well known mr bean....actually this movie is consider not bad...just that we are just so used to the mr bean that dont talks....so i find it kinda weird to see him talk so much hahaha...rating 3.5/5....can watch.

shark night....watch this at tsing yi city, hong kong....friend told me this is a crappy show...but too late cos tickets already bought...i would say this is a low production movie la...the whole show consist of only abt 10 people plus a labrador dog acting...as usual...shark attack...many ppl die....hmmm...boring show...rating 2/5....not recommended

haunting

2011-10-03T19:44:00.003+08:00

its been 16 months....and memories of his betrayal is still haunting me....

i had a dream...its his betrayal to me...i cried in my dream...it hurts...just when will i heal completely....

LYC...i guess i really hate you...

hurting memories

2011-09-14T00:39:00.004+08:00

世界上最心痛的感觉，不是失恋，而是我把心给你的时候，你却在欺骗我...

can anyone still believe? memories of him and me is still haunting me...

as expected, saw him in taka for his stilt walking performance during the competition...i didnt want to look at him...thus i move out and take a puff...was chatting with ccc and ask him about all my friends from xc...somehow the chat drift over to me and him...ccc ask me what exactly happen...i just tell him im also not clear about it...telling ccc abt his betrayal to me cause tears swelling up in my eyes...it still hurts...

its been a year plus...and seriously...i have no urge to get a boyfriend yet...although at times i still feel lonely...but i really appreciate all my friends who are still with me till today...

i dunno will i be able to love another again...the wound he left me...i just knew it will never heal....the hate! i doubt it will ever go away....haiz....when will i be ever ready to let go...

movies updates!

2011-09-13T13:54:00.012+08:00

movie - continue my part 2 & 3 in funshion...still very nice! rating 4/5...highly recommended!

korean horror movie...watch in the cathay with minmin, kaka and lionel....hmmm...not that scary...its all the sound effect...rating 2.5/5...

taiwan drama...nice!!! rating 4/5...highly recommended

latest movie...watch in funshion...soso only...not as nice as the past episode...rating 2.5/5

movie - watch in cineleisure with jos, kaka and minmin...childhood cartoon..nice! rating 4/5..can watch!

im not slow ok hahaha...just feeling bored so decided to watch every part again in funshion...nice! rating 4/5...im expecting part 5 to be out soon...highly recommended.

debts from the past??

2011-09-04T03:35:00.002+08:00

been bringing my mum to the society for the physically disable centre for her rehab every 4 times per week...somehow it just gives me alot of thoughts upon seeing the patients there...some really frail and weak...some are young people...although most of the care givers i saw are maids...there are still some who are immediate family of the patient...

there is this 2 young girls which i've seen them quite frequently...one has problem sitting up by her own, let alone walk...the other is able to walk but just need to be more stabilise...the deepest thoughts i have is the girl who have to depend on her mother for help to move around...she looks so young...and her mother is forever so patient with her...there were times when i see the girl shouting at her mum just bcos her mum wanted to help her in something on her rehab...the girl insist on wanting the physio there to help her instead of her mum....at times im thinking...is this what the chinese believed in...debts from the past live...

i guess there is some truth to the belief...everybody is in this world for a reason...paying debts i think...look at how humans have been treating humans...some are so good to the jerks...whereas some are so bad to the kind...is this some kind of debts which they have accumulate in their past lives and are here to repay in their present lives...the relationship just goes from parents to children, siblings and siblings, friends to friends, husband and wife....the list just goes on....is there really an after life? no one knows....

anyway its just some random thoughts which i had...hereby i would like to wish all the patients in SPD to recover soon...be it true or false...hope everyone repay their "debts" soon too...

=)

其实我们都明白，你，在我心里很重要。

2011-09-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

其实我们都明白，你，在我心里很重要。

每一个人都有一个特别的异性朋友，而这个人是我们另一半都无法代替的人。那感觉就是，为了不失去对方，而宁愿只保持朋友状态的无奈。

我，很想他。。。一个在现实中离我曼远的人，但是我们每一次见面，那很亲切的感觉总是豪不客气的泳上心头。看见他我会很开心，虽然他是一个不善于表达的男生，但我们之间的感觉，就是那么奇妙。

我们很快又要见面了，开心，向往。。。虽然我们只是朋友，我还是很珍惜我们之间的一切。。。

=)

idiot!!!

2011-08-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

piss the hell outta me when i know its all a prank done by a few morons...yesterday in the middle of the night at 2am +...saw someone posting RIP, you will be remembered in a friend's fb...it just freaks me out...couldnt believe my eyes...i just somehow panic and start calling my frds asking what the hell is happening...i even contacted the person who posted that sentence and end up i didnt get an answer...for the entire night we didnt get to sleep bcos we just dunno what is happening...can u imagine we have alrdy lost 2 friends in this year...and we are somehow scare of this kind of news again...but those idiots just didnt spare a thought for the consequences....play till nothing to play...causing a commotion among us...i fucking hate this kinda feeling...its not funny at all!

i promise u guys! one more time i see this kind of shit...i will never ever forgive u all again!

movies updates!

2011-08-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

watch alot of movies and dramas for the past few weeks...time for some small updates =D

interesting and funny show...watch this with aminah, kaka and jos at cineleisure..rating 3.5/5...although it doesn't make sense when the animals talk...but overall it worth a laugh...can watch =)

heard about this show donkey years ago...but i never had the interest to watch as i thought it was some sort of boring war show...decided to give it a try last night on funshion and i must say this show is good! rating 4/5...i like this kinda movie...fantasy...mystical...im waiting to watch part 2 and part 3 when i have more time =D

hong kong drama from funshion...hmmm...this show not bad too...rating 3.5/5...consist of some comedy and police stuff...

hong kong drama from funshion...this show is almost the same as ah wang...also hk drama...just that this is girl version...female cast is putting in alot of effort and she's doing great...rating 3.5/5

love this hong kong drama...kinda like the 家好月圆...rating 4/5....what i dont really like are the cast inside...none that i like hahaha...but its a great drama...can watch!

am bored so was browsing around in funshion and decided to watch this movie...i would say its ermmm...a not worth to watch movie...aliens and ants hahaha...can u link these 2 together?? rating 1.5/5...not recommended.

nice movie! not exactly a horror flim that consist of ghost...but its rather thrilling...rating 3.5/5....storyline kinda similiar to paranormal activity....not bad.

bitching!!!

2011-08-22T01:33:00.004+08:00

I can multi-task; I can talk and piss you off at the same time.. What can I say? It's a gift.

eeewwww! yes!!! this blog is doing great...serve its purpose hahahahaha

yeah im the bloody bitch...but im the bitch only to those morons and retards...treat me nice and i will be nicer...treat me like a fool then u can just jolly well fuck off!!! haha...thats how i have been living all my life thru...piss me off i wont even give face to anyone....who cares who the fuck are you lolxxx

whine more la...complain more la...what im talking is the fact....not only i dont like you...many others too....so who's having the problem here??? i dont have the habit of asking alot of things...if its not for mum's accident...i would never have found out all those dark secrets...thks to all my wonderful relatives and (mum) friends =D

never seen how i deal with retards? never see how i deal with people who are testing my patient? well...recently i just turn crazy bcos of that msian retard tenant....then ermmm...i think its dealing with that calvin hong...then 14 years back its dealing with another moron who tries to be funny with me lolxx...recalled back...they die in quite an ugly way =)

perhaps staying out of my way and leaving me alone helps...wanna come head on to me? i can assure u its gonna be fucking ugly...i guess my tolerance level towards fucktards are rather low...in short...i can be your sweetest dream or i can be your worst nightmare....i think...yes! im crazy!

I'M THE BITCH!!! I'M NOT A BITCH!!!

SO FUCKING TAKE NOTE!!!

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and oh ya...and my bimbotic daughter ask me to stop bitching and blog about her instead...blog about how pretty, cute, adorable she is..how she follow my genes and stuff...how proud i am to have her as my girl...hmmm...kinda true for all the above...except that the most irritating thing about her is...she will keep asking me is she pretty and cute zzzzzzzzzzzzz....she and her vanity at this age hahaha...but i must admit that she is consider well behaved la...i mean she do have times when she piss me off real bad...thats when i start showing her my colours then she know i mean business...pissing off aside...she is good la haha...still my lovable daughter....still my closest kin apart from my mum...

yes isabel..i've blog about you already!!!

and yes...i love you!!!! <3

good news & bitching~

2011-08-20T13:41:00.004+08:00

time for blogging~~~ hehehe....this post shall be about the good news and my bitching towards an old hag lolxxx

my mum gave me a surprise today hahaha...as usual i help her to the toilet in the morning then place her on the dining table for her breakfast...after that i went back to my room and surf net...getting tired so i lie on my bed playing my ipad...i suddenly see her appearing just outside my room door!!! she's standing and walking by herself!!!! yeah!!!!!!! good news right?? then throughout the whole time....i see her walk into her room, then after awhile walk out to the kitchen again...then back to her room...she seems so busy lor...i guess she must be feeling happy that she can walk by herself without help again =D but although she is doing great walking by herself...she still need help from me when she go toilet...that is to pull her up when she's done...cos she tells me the toilet bowl pulls her buttock in thats why she cant stand up by herself lol...but anyway...she's improving and im sure very fast she will be able to depend solely on herself...jiayou mummy!!!!

and yea..now to that hag....i was informing her that my mum had started her rehabilitation and per time it cost $51.50...4 times a week...and that this fee shall be borne by 3 families...per person per mth is abt $300+ to $400...i then told her to pass her share to my mum and my mum shall make the payment herself...but guess what she tells me?? she says im ordering her...i then told her im just informing her...not ordering...and she gives me a very moron answer...and that is "i dont care" lolxxx....can u imagine when i read that moron sms of hers...i was laughing out...so old liao still act so childish...my niece, gloria, whose mum had already pass away 10 over years, even propose to me that she wanna share...ask me to count her in when she really dont have to bear this responsibility...and this hag here...wanna be a retard and do childish things...a 22 years old girl can even think properly than a 50 years old hag...childish!!!! lolx....well seriously im fine with it....dont want help to pay also nevermind...as if im bothered....since she wanna play this kind of bastard game...im fine with it too...since she think my mum she has no share...its ok too....i just wanna say :

"no matter how hard u try...you are still way behind me...i dont need a single cent from ur side and we wont die...btw this house im staying in is under isabel and my name...i have the right to deny access....not forgetting we have different surname too....and im in NO WAY RELATED to you!!!! dont be so shameless and come over...i never welcome u...past, present and even future!! my pets stay in my house...u dont...so dont come fucking around...yes! call me the bitch cos im one!!! so filial of you then in the first place u wouldnt even think of sending mum to old folk's home...so filial of you u wouldnt be pushing the responsibility of taking care of mum to yue hua and me...then now happy happy just come and act...no need lor....and yes! we are doing fine now...we seriously dont need u in our lives...u wanna be funny??? i'll show u who is the clown =)"

p/s : i just love it when i have spy reading this and reporting it....call me the crazy bitch cos im really one...mess with me i'll make you sorry lolxx

fuck the PRCs!!!

2011-08-15T21:06:00.005+08:00

alright! this is just another random ranting post about those unwanted people that is earning their living in our country.

im sorry but FUCK THOSE IDIOT PRCs who think that singapore is their country...no sense of shame at all...snatch women husbands...dirty our countries...pollute our ears with their stupid accent and pitch etc etc...if they think they are so high class and we, the locals are so stupid then what the fuck are they doing here?? go other countries la morons...or fuck back off to ur own country...we seriously dont need all u fucktards here!!! singapore wont collapse because u all leave...we might even open bottles of champagne to celebrate!!!

in singapore there are so many foreign talents from different countries..and yet we dont have as much complains as we have to the PRCs...just what is wrong here?? yes! u PRCs have a big problem!!! not knowing where u stand when u r in OUR COUNTRY....trying to act big, act classic...like shit lor!!! cant speak english still wanna haolian.... =/

i do understand there are nice PRCs around...but its most of the PRCs that spoil the whole thing so they cant blame us for classifying them together...what they are after is our pink IC la..our citizenship...the value is there mah....wanna be accepted in our countries then please fucking respect our people....when i say our people it means those who are born and grow up in singapore!!! dunno how to respect then FUCK OFF!!!!

i use to be feeling kinda neutral towards the PRCs..but i guess now this feeling towards them have change for the worst...sorry but I HATE THE PRCs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

逼出来的坚强

2011-08-13T18:40:00.007+08:00

i like this article so much that i've decided to copy and paste it here....everything written just touches my heart and somehow i just feel its written just for me...

*click on article to enlarge*

lol fucking bastard on magazine!!!

2011-08-13T01:25:00.002+08:00

lol...i nearly laugh falling off my chair when i see this pictures and the rest of the articles email to me by his ex gf....i thot all along his ex gf mention about meeting the reporter was just a say only thingy...didnt really expect they really go ahead with it...amazing girls...for those who are interested to know what exactly happen...do go to facebook and search under "beware of this man!!! 小心这个男人!!!" and read all over...interesting page i would say...and pls dont forget to help share out and like that page =D

finally this bastard has got his just desert...from my pov i totally agree that he deserve all these that are happening today....he dont deserve to be let go times and again...its time lesson is to be taught to this asshole...serve u right calvin hong!!! 你也有今天!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy 46th national day 2011

2011-08-12T21:26:00.004+08:00

this is a belated post haha...its been ages since i last move my butt to watch our country birthday celebration...i dont even watch from tv too...but somehow on the day itself...aminah, kaka and me decided to meet up and watch the fireworks...then somehow again...more and more people decided to join us...we have jos, anthony yee and didi...we arrange to meet at bugis and then proceed over to marina for the viewing...it was then that we know, heng, elvin and ong honghong is there too hahaha....we then meet up and after tabao our dinner as the time to the fireworks is getting nearer...we were walking around marina square figuring out how to get the the top with the open space where we can see clearly...finally found the door that leads us in...we found a spot and decided to sit down on the ground and enjoy the fireworks...shortly after we even have xiaolong joining us...it was just a short "explosion" but it was really beautiful....and the best thing was...enjoying this beautiful moment with a group of our kakis...that moment is just priceless....

love'ya folks <3

fuck those "foreign talents" !!!

2011-08-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU "FOREIGN TALENTS!!!"

COME TO SINGAPORE MAKE FUCKING SURE YOU KNOW WHO IS THE BLOODY BOSS HERE!!! WANNA BE FUNNY THEN FUCK BACK TO YOUR OWN COUNTRIES!!!

ccb...finally exploded...i was kind enough to chase u out at this hour instead of 2-3am which is my initial intention....now then talk nicely to me...too late la bitch! ask me where u sleep? as if its my business...go sleep at the road side la...knn...

this fucking msian bitch who rented a bed space thru my mum before her accident...tries to be funny with me...so i gave her a pleasant surprise!!!! ask her to fuck off from my house without advance notice lol...never had such a sense of satisfaction for so long already...being nice to all these people no use de...they just take it for granted...dont even know whats her status and whose house she's staying...want to act as boss....go suck thumb la...play with me...never die before...total dumbo!!!

warning!!!!!

2011-08-08T11:48:00.003+08:00

dont come freaking say i dunno whats ur problem...dont come freaking say i dont understand u! when i say u better listen...when i go work ask u do things u better follow....piss me off and i will show u what i mean....all ur stupid problem outside to me is not impt at all...all extra things...i ask u take care of popo u better do a good job! dont believe in what i say last night...try me!!!

sore losers???

2011-08-01T14:09:00.003+08:00

was it a sore losing competition? although i did not go down to watch the competition on last sunday at cheng san cc...but i've seen alot of updates in fb.

i see ppl spamming and bitching at certain troupe....saw ppl spamming and bitching at the judges etc...what i couldnt understand is...why didnt they go up to the judges and scream at them for not being fair on the day itself...instead they come back to fb and pass sarcastic remarks and stuffs...isnt that what we call cyber heroes??? and instead of aiming and attacking 2nd 3rd and 4th placing...all attack champion?? wth right lol

in this circle..i only admire one person who is daring enough to go up to the judges and slam them if he feels that the points awarded is not justifiable...i have never even see this person type and bitch behind the comp on other troupes...learn from this person la...then i will applause and say you are good! haha

well...i side no one..but a comp is a comp...ppl who are not judges will never understand how the system works...for those ppl who think judges can happy happy press down anybody marks...then perhaps they should go apply for judge license and be one themself...

still the same old sentence...its either u win or lose in a competition...if cannot handle the losing part...then dont comp...if you find the points awarded not fair...then pls go up to the head judge and slam them...posting, bitching in fb doesnt help...it will only make ppl see how sore a loser u are...why make things so ugly....this year cant get then aim for next year...that simple...the champion troupe also try hard for many years then get the result today...

haiz...看开一点不是好

ghost festival 2011

2011-07-31T20:39:00.002+08:00

happy hungry ghost festival 2011 to all~~~~

somehow or rather...this occasion has become a kind of festival for all youngsters lolx....i've received hungry ghost festival greeting from my frds hahaha....generation have changed....this festival is no longer a big taboo.

i remember when i was young...i'm always freak out by this festival...heard tons of stories....cannot do this cannot do that....but now that i've grown older...this festival is just another month...sometimes i dont even remember its the month of good brothers and pass it unknowingly =)

well...im no longer that paranoid over this festival anymore...i've come to realise that the livings can actually be more scary than the dead....so...whats the big hoo ha on 7th month =)

i wish all my friends, soon soon li li in everything they do....hope all the good brothers can help protect them and their family...its afterall just a one month thingy...just enjoy it =)

不知所谓！

2011-07-30T20:25:00.005+08:00

一，两个人对她不满，那就可能是场误会，当我周围的人都对她不满，那就说明了是她有问题！

一直以小人之心去想别人，也一直以狗眼去看别人。可悲可悲，只有自卑的人才会做的事，都被她做完了。

我说人啊，就别那么现实，不然就会失了夫人又折兵。在这个世界上，金钱不是全部，虽然没有金钱也是万万不能，但是有很多东西还是比金钱来的重要。

我们都不是戏子，没这个需要去到哪里就演到哪里，不流泪不代表不伤心，何必做到那么假，情绪上，每一个人都有他们表达的方式，不是一定要哭个稀里哗啦才算是伤心。您就别那么肤浅了吧。

我不喜欢做很多小动作的人，你有脾气，性格，我也有。我的脾气，性格也不见得会输给你。我见的世面肯定比你多，所以您就省一省，不用费心机要怎样恐吓我，我从没怕过。以前的种种，都不能把我击垮，你认为你有什么能耐能把我击垮? 钱??? 你从没给过而我也从没向你拿过，所以不要去告诉妈妈什么如果我没钱也别想你帮我，不要说到你好像有给过我钱似的，很伟大似的。不知所谓！

对于你的亲姐姐，你是怎么看她的你心理最清楚。一个连亲情都可以应为金钱而丢一边的人，可想而知这个人到底好到哪里去。抱着有钱人不会让你有钱的，别人有钱是别人的事，又不是有的分。做人要知足，想攀龙附凤，到不如行多点善希望来世生在个有钱人家。

我以前不把你放在眼里，以后也不会。我没有靠你吃饭，你就少来这副假天使脸孔。有谁不知道你是见高就拜，见低就踩的人。我没钱是我的事，我没有跟你拿所以你也没资格批评我。你算老几?

到处告诉别人我没钱啦，没用啦，把自己说到很高尚，你自己有多少两你自己最清楚，而我，最少不是一个空壳，不会把别人的屁股贴在自己脸上。我有钱，就做有钱的事，没钱，我也会安分守己。好过有的人，外表光鲜亮丽，里面却是那么丑陋。

给妈妈钱，帮妈妈付医药费，如果你认为这样做需要跟全世界的人讲，你也可以让我知道，我会帮你传，让妈妈的朋友与亲戚们都知道，你很有孝心。我没钱，没用，我也会让妈妈的朋友和亲戚们都知道，你放心，我不会打肿脸皮充胖子的，没有的我一定会说没有 =)

现在我慎重宣布，我，已经跟你没任何关系了。所以请你，也别再侵犯我的生活。你走你的阳光道，我过我的独木桥!

hong kong drama

2011-07-26T00:28:00.007+08:00

these are the few hong kong dramas which i have been watching recently...all of them are nice...infact i have download quite alot of dramas on my lap top...will continue to watch them slowly =)

rating 4/5...nice show...of cos im watching this bcos of the male cast la lolx...so god damn handsome...the ending is really quite unexpected...i think nowadays the drama ending is not those that can be predicted ending.

once again this drama is all abt the dispute behind the forbidden city...rating 4/5...this is not bad too...their relationship inside is kinda complicated haha...then ending part also unexpected...but i dont really like the ending.

this drama is something like mind reading...actually its more on body language reading...3.5/5...i find this show abit bored bcos of the repeated reading by the male cast are almost the same....ending part also soso only...not as nice as the above 2 dramas but consider not bad la.