Wish You All The Best....

The Brightest Star in the night Sky

2020-12-19T17:54:00.003+07:00

In the past days,

"Struggled, confused, and meditated many times

You can be confident, brave, strong, or determined.

There is no need to push yourself to achieve perfection.

After all, all of this is you but not sufficient to form a complete you."

You are invisible as the road winds along the mountain. Only your horse's footprints remain in the snow. No matter how far distance between us, you are always inspiring and guiding me to keep going. You stay by my side or even already forgot me. As the brightest star in the night sky, I would rather hide the sorrow in my heart, than to forget the look in your eyes. I miss you, that's true. Love can last for a long time, protecting each other is never just a matter of saying, as I will take care of myself, you have to take good care of yourselves too. This is a new promise.

Wish you all the best, See you again... Allah hafiz.

THE MAGIC OF HER HANDS

2018-07-14T18:14:00.001+07:00

Good Evening Readers, Assalamu'alaikum....

It's Saturday, I just got home from College, the last college day before final exams that will be held next week, well, I Won't talk about the exam, it will be boring topic hehe. Today, I wanna do Marketing again, the last topic I did was JEUNESSE from Jeuness Indonesia, and it was failed hahaha, *Broken till pieces*

I have A friend, that means so much I think, hehe, we ever broke up, fighting, teasing to each other, and share a lot, kinda Best Friend even more than it. She has never changed even though sometimes I acted so freak. Always kind and so sweet. Well, I won't talk so much about her character, but about her magic hands. hehehe, She is a multitalented person. Everything she touches will change a lot. Faces or even food. She is good as a chef and now, she starts learning MUA for any occasions, joining beauty class and start her business as MUA Professional.

She can help you to change your face (but can't make it like as Aishwarya Ray ...hehehe) but will be more beautiful than without makeup. These MUA services are for any occasions, You can call her when you need a help to put makeup on your face but you can't do it by your self. MUA for Wedding Party, Engagement, Graduation, Birthday Party, or any other occasions. Well, just take a look, some pics i post, and I think you will say agree with me. She has magic hands. And don't forget to call me or her if you need a help for MUA Professional, We will be glad to serve you... Thank You ...

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Hope will hear good news from you soon, Take care.

My Beloved Someone said....

"A little wit In the Mind makes feet much work"

So Never stop trying and keep Moving Forward,

No ones know what will wait for you at the next dots.

FAMILY DAY OUT

2018-07-07T17:25:00.001+07:00

Living Your Life to the fullest.... it's a reminder for me today or even for us. How are you Reader? #Wish this blog is still reading by anyone hehe. Have a life that's far away from my family, sometime could be so-so. Because when we laugh we cant see their face when we miss them we can't hug them. All we can do just call and video call. and it's tiring me up sometimes.

As usual, I can go home on Eid holidays. Alhamdulillah this year, I got more than 2 weeks for holiday. and that's mean my family times quality times, release tiredness. This holiday, I didn't go home to my hometown, but I went to Blitar. This city is quite cool and I think I fall in love with it. Fresh air and a really peaceful place. The sound of Silence I love the most.

Well, another activity just as usual. This holiday, I visited Masjid Turen in Blitar and Blitar City's Park. And here some pictures I took from those places.

A corner in Masjid Turen,

Masjid Turen

Lahor dam, Blitar

Blitar City Park (Ruang Terbuka Hijau)

Alun-Alun Kota Blitar

-Life never stop till you stop breathing-

Beautiful moments, Beautiful places with Beloved Ones

From me, With Love....

THEY CALLED "MALAYSIA ...TRULY ASIA"

2018-04-18T10:37:00.000+07:00

It's been long time i didn't update this blog, hehe. Nothing to write and also nothing to share or even noone to share with *hahaha how pity * But today i just jumped into this blog again. Found a lot of things i wrote. Since some naive posts to some funny posts. Today i just want to share some pictures that i took when i went to some places. Maybe later, this blog won't share a topics or articles but pictures. But dont know later if i change my mind again hehehe...

Today's pics are from my travelling to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. check it out.. and take care ...
Credit Photo to : Samsung Galaxy S8 (quite perfect to capture these pics)

Bukit Bintang

Kasturi Walk

Masjid Jamek

Abdul Saman Building

Air Asia, Bukit Bintang MRT Station

Intersection next to Lot 10

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2015-09-03T17:47:00.001+07:00

Today, actually, I wanna write this posting in bahasa. hehehe, I am fed up with my english ability to introduce some business stuff.

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" CONVERSATION WITH GOD .... "

2014-06-27T15:30:00.001+07:00

Evening was passing away... Night coming with bring cold atmosphere. Maghrib was passed away..Isya will be coming. I sit on the roof of my home... On the sky star has shine wit beautiful shine. Suddenly ...coming in my eyes sillhoutte of someone face. Someone whom I always tell about him in this blog. in here. Someone who i love, more and more. Oh..My God, what happend to me? sometime it become so bad feeling, Too hard, but i must try to passed through this condition.

Rain coming again, not too hard... smell of it bring out every moment with him, bring out every memory about him. How much i love him now, i cant account it, Everytime with him for me become so precious time. Every day, every night and every time when he comes to me. Oh..heart, why do you so weak now? I cant control your heartbeat, I cant control your hurt. Why do you become like this.

Night wind blowing bring cold air, I miss him at the moment. Suddenly, coming to my mind about his first love story, to whom he had been falling in love, to whom he was sad, to whom he was criying alot till his pillow wet. ... :(

He told me, that girl who he love since 2 years, until now. But unfortunately, he have never can to posses her. She had chosen another guy. So sad, when i hear it, My tears come down so hard, but i have never told about it to someone, And now when i remember that story my tears come down again.

God... I want asked You, Am i false? when i hope in my prayer that girl for him, Am i false? when i hope you give her for him? Am i false? when i beg to You give him happiness wit her being eventhough that will be hurting someone else.

God... Till now, i have never complain about anything, I have never complain for Michael case, for My parents case, for my Job case, everything that You had chosen for me in my life i had accepted all with Ikhlash. But in this time, May i beg You give her to my beloved someone. I want his happiness. Am I false, God? when i want only this one? Am I false, God? when i want both of them ll be together in real live? I know he love her so much. :(

God...Please answer my prayer, Only for my beloved one who i loved more than before. Give him who the girl he wants married. Give him happiness in everytime he love that girl. Give him blessing in everytime he got the girl.

Am I false..God? If i beg it to You for his happiness without remember someone else will be hurting. I believe that You are The best Decision Maker, i offer all to You for everything You will give to him. But God... May I beg to You.. at this time please answer my prayer.. Can You send her as blessing in his life? Can You send her as his jeevan saathi? Can You send her as his everlasting love?

God...in the last.. I wanna say..Thank You, for his being in my Life. And Thank you for listening me. In the last, I beg to You wit all of my heart... Can You answer my prayer about him? .....

A Friend Like You :)

2013-02-09T10:57:00.004+07:00

You are friendly, kind and caring Sensitive,

loyal and understanding

Humorous, fun, secure and true *

Always there... yes that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting and wise

Truthful and helpful,

with honest hazel eyes

Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright

Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind,

different from others Generous,

charming, but not one that smothers

Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game

But not just another... in the long chain.

Appreciative, warm and precious like gold

Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old

You'll always be there, I know that's true

and i will always be here...

always for you....

Ps. A poem by Angela Lee Hillsley

- For A friend like you -

Mind Your Words, Sometimes It eats ur self :P

2013-02-05T00:14:00.000+07:00

Assalamu'alaikum everyones...

Hufts,.... I thought i can sleep earlier after say bye for sleeping to Melia on whatsapp, but my mind cant stop thinking about something for last two days, think and think and think till i got headache. Better i wrote that here or it ll gonna explode me up :P *Lebay :D padahal gak penting sama sekali apa yang gue pikirin, kek kek kek...*

Well, Actually i wanna talk about my experience with a girl friend. That time, I was so wonder who she is actually. Completely unbearable matters i ever heard since along time ago. I made a friendship with her, but because of my unnecessary attitude, then we broke up but later because of a friend i can get her again even closer than was.

Many bad things i heard about her, too alot, till makes me so wonder. But its not making me walking away from her, its make my curiousity to know her going deeper and increasing. Then one day, i decided to meet her in real life (actually i met her on cyber life community). And Gottchaaa... All of my doubt about her just gone with the wind... even thats only in one sight. I stand one night in her room, talk with her for some hours, even talk to her parents in almost an hour and share one bed with her. And what i got is more than enough to complete her figure in my mind, in my heart. She have never been like as what everyones said. never and wont be ever. How to figure it out, i dont know but its about something u trust without do anything. just happened and ur heart believe that.

Someday after my meeting with her, i update an status on my facebook wall. Its about us, me and her as i thankful for her welcoming me nicely. even more than i ever expect. but some men in my lists talked bad about her, I just bet them to shut up, "You know nothing about her so mind your words" and maybe bit harsh too, but i dont care, actually i dislike a comment without knowing what the truth behind something. but then it didnt make them silent, so i decided to delete it. I talked to her about that. and directly asking her about something she just said : "Mba, they can judge me for my cyber life being but not for my real life, actually they know nothing, who i am is really someone you met somedays ago, and for them lets they talked whatever they like, but before they start pointing fingers… make sure their hands are clean!”

Hmmm... thats something i got from her, After that nothing appear in my mind without something that i believe. Everyone is special with their own speciality. People have never knew if she is better than me, or I am worst than her... (hahaha... its same na? :d only ourselves who knew about ourselves truly) but actually its about ur quality, something that appear but also what you hide from others. Many people hide their bad manner while showing themselves like as an angel (Maybe like as me ??? ) or many people too hide their good manner while showing themselves to be so disgusting. But mates, as i experienced, sometimes what you talked in past time, it can eat your self. coz we have never knew what other people faced, we only become so clever to judge them by what we see, what we hear and what people said. No one ever knew really who someone that they stay with even someone who share one bed in their night (husband-wife).

Its just a memorable times to waking me up, If Respect is better than an attention. We have never knew how someone's life if we only think them like as what we made in our head. Many things i already applied in longtime of my ages, I learnt too much, about anything but one thing i always remember since the time i met my girl friend " I ll mind my words before i talked coz It can eat my self when i dropped in same situation"

Well, i think my head get light now, almost mid nite here, so take care your self, have great nite, sleeping well, good nite, See you next time and Fi Aamanillah (L)

Thanks to someone who taught me alot

To be someone without judgemental

And thanks alot to her that i admired since long time ago

For her friendly side, for her kindness,

For her smartness and for the friendship

Thanks for her being in my life..I learnt from her by silence

-For u MDA-

For My Self... :)

2013-01-26T11:12:00.000+07:00

There comes a time in life

When you walk away from all the drama

and people who create it

Surround your self with people who make you laugh

Forget the bad

and focus on the good

Love the people who treat you right

Pray for the ones who dont

Life is too short to be anything

but happy

Dont see everyones' flaws

dont listen to everything you're told

Dont speak if its not kind

Always Look for the good in people

Not everything is truth

Only Speak words of kindness

Live Life positively....

FALLING DOWN IS PART OF LIFE

GETTING BACK UP IS LIVING

Sebait Kasih Untuk Sahabat

2013-01-15T09:37:00.002+07:00

Kulihat mendung menghalangi

pancaran wajahmu

tak terbiasa kudapati

terdiam mendura

apa gerangan bergemuruh

di ruang benakmu

sekilas kilau mata ingin

berbagi cerita

Maybe I am not the best, Maybe I am not perfect, Maybe I am full with lack. Tapi Cinta bila boleh ku sebut kau sebagai cinta, I will always here, and will always stay to listen you. Ini sebait kasih untukmu yang tersayang, all of my best friend that colouring My Life. If everything will stay forever? No, Never. But all best time that i got when i am with you, its meant forever. Looking at your sad face bring a different feeling, Looking at your laughter when we spent time together giving me undefine happiness....

ku datang sahabat bagi jiwa

saat batin merintih

usah kau lara sendiri

masih ada asa tersisa ...

All of you are half of my soul. Though Am so careless, I have too high ego to express anything, And even Often I made you got fed up. Its just part of me. But I only hope what you get from me more than enough to hold me stay beside you on every time. Maybe I am untrusful too, Maybe I am too much talking, Maybe I will say dont do this or that, But When its happened and disturbing you, I just want you notice me, cause sometime i tresspassed My limit.

letakkanlah tanganmu di atas bahuku

biar terbagi beban itu dan tegar dirimu

di depan sana cahya kecil 'tuk memandu

tak hilang arah kita berjalan... menghadapinya ...

All of My Best Friends, I am lucky because i have you or ever have you, What you already painted in my book of life, I wont even forget. Maybe I am sad cause some of you never i met, never i touch, and finally just left like as a stranger. Maybe its named the time to make new friendship. Your every room still so nice in my deep heart with ur every speciality. Sometimes, I was still wonder if there is a chance to make new story with them again. But sometimes, some story should be ended with happy or sad ending. So, later we could make better story.

sekali sempat kau mengeluh kuatkah bertahan

satu persatu jalinan kawan beranjak menjauh

kudatang sahabat bagi jiwa saat batin merintih

usah kau lara sendiri masih ada asa tersisa ...

I love You, thats i wanna tell you all right now, though maybe you doubt, or dont care, sometime its no need to be ratificated. Nothing is gonna change. Maybe only some of choice that we took are changing. One thing, remember always, however you go, wherever you lost, whenever you need, I will always be here, in ur reach, so near. But if you have never want to look back, just please stay running whatever life driving you crazy. There is always something better From Allah, waiting you in the next direction, Insha Allah. Maybe we will become strange to each other but maybe that will be better for us to be healing by time.

letakkanlah tanganmu di atas bahuku

biar terbagi beban itu dan tegar dirimu

di depan sana cahya kecil 'tuk membantu

tak hilang arah kita berjalan... menghadapinya ...

(usah kau simpan lara sendiri)

Mungkin Harapan kita berbeda, mungkin setiap mimpi kita juga berbeda, tapi jangan pernah simpan luka mu sendiri, masih ada aku, masih ada mereka sebagai tempat berbagi, Hidup tak pernah mudah, bukan hidup kalau mudah. Tapi percaya "In every difficulty there is ease" Ini mungkin, hanya sebait kasih untuk mu para yang tersayang. Semoga setiap mimpi yang kau jahitkan dalam kehidupanmu akan menjadi nyata dan menjadi milik mu. Di setiap kerinduanku, kasih dalam hatiku, hanya ribuan terima kasih untuk kehadiranmu dalam hidupmu, Hanya Do'a semoga Allah menjaga setiap jalan hidupmu. Dan ini mungkin sebait kasih yang masih ada di hatiku.... When i remember what you gave in my previous life... Past maybe cant be undone but I knew better I have you all in my past... Like as A candle that maybe can be finished by a fire but what you already gave when you are still brighten, cant be replaced by other things. Thank you (L). Ini sebait kasih For All of You....My Best Friends in my life ...

PS. "A couplet of Love For Besto"

Life never complete without your being

Another stories after another finished...

You, Me and what we named as Friendship.

The Corner Of My Soul " My Library Home ;) "

2013-01-07T17:43:00.000+07:00

Hi guys, hows ur life going on? I wish all is going smoothly with yours. Hmmm, well actually, am bit active to update this blog again.

Today, i wanna share with you a little dream in my life that i think this is one of my big desires in my life.

Everyone should have desires in their life, Maybe, some are about walking around the world, shopping, collection branded goods or maybe anything else belong to their hobbies.

But for me, My desires is having a beautiful home where i can be living, enjoying and do everything with my family. My kids (Wishes ;), My husband (Future :P ) or if possible my all big family.

Home is everything coz i dont like to go somewhere else without any purpose. Having big home maybe is one of my dream. My favorites place is bedroom, bathroom, kitchen, and family room. Except those rooms, there is a room that i always desire, Its a library home. I wish i could having a home with big library. A place where i can put all of my books, my favorites novel, Article, diary or even secret papers. Somewhere that i could choose when i need to be alone, only me, My Books, coffee and music.

A corner where i could do whatever i wanna do, writing, snoring, or just lay on sofa bed while listening instrumental music to release a burden in hard life.

Hehehe, am i look alike dreaming gal? Maybe, I like dream about my future life too much. Nothing is impossible.

And here i posted some design of library home i like most, Wish Allah will grant me one of them. Amin....

In this 4th pics, I would like to remove the table near to sofa and change it with soft carpet and some pillows. And i dont like too many ornament, pure books or a plant will be ok to put in it.

This 5th pics is too homy and warm, but still i wanna add carpet, some pillows or long single sofa bed in the other side.

This last pic is my most favorite design of library home. warm, wood design, unique and near to the garden.

But i wanna change the sofa with sofa bed (like as a sofa in 3rd pic) and put a soft carpet with some pillows also.

Its completely full. The corner of my soul i named it.

Somewhere which unknown by others. A lonely side but realistic. cold but warm, old but unique. Empty but full. serenity. My Own Home Library, I wanted can show about me by anything.

This is a place where i wanna show the world my other side. Simple in complexity, imperfect but enjoyable. And all book collections i have will tell everyone who is me ;)

This is one of my big obsession, My big desire, My dream. I wish someday i could make it real by grace from Allah... Amin...

Its (Should) Before You were Gone

2013-01-04T14:49:00.000+07:00

Sometimes in life... You will find someone who unknown but his or her presence in your life like as something u never imagined before. or even You have never wished he or she will come to touch and colouring your life.

Maybe like that about Someone in my life. I still remember some years ago, I met him, Nothing happened, he just a silent list in my friend list till one day, because of someone else i start to talk him... and all is just flow by itself till we become very good friend (according me :P) actually i think i wasnt good enough as a friend.

Time goes by, world is changing. His life is go on, My Life is go on too. We talk rare or even so long time no contact. He likes dissappear too, and sometime i dont care. But there is always a time, after i cant find him anywhere, I start searching him, message, email or maybe worry about what happen with him. Seemed funny but it just so.

Once upon a time, I ever heard another ones talk about us ( Me and him) behind me, one said i was jealous on her, another one said maybe i am falling in love with him. But i knew better whats between me and him. They can say anything they wanted to say, But mark my words. I am not that stupid to let him go from my life with a such stupid feeling named love. For me, his being is always precious more precious than friendship its self.

Its should be like this, And i knew what i had for him. We already shared manythings and what i got from him wont be able compared with something name "Stupid Love" This is just my answer to them who ask whats going on between me and him.

If everyone ask me "I ll be brave to say I love You" to him, but that wont be "A Love" that present between woman-man. never and will be never. like as a joke that we (me and he) always use to do "Break the silence and Just say You Love Me"...

And For him, there will always yellow colour i gave. I wont change it to be green, grey, black, purple or even pink.

Because for me, His Yellow side is more precious than other things.

"Thanks for sharing yours with mine. Maybe you will always be Unknown for me but My heart knew you as well. I don't know half of you half as well as I should like and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve. And All happened, Its (should) Before You were gone with the wind."

=Special posting for PB=

Thanks for everything and thanks for being everywhere

including always ping me in gtalk or google+

Maybe you are one of my reason to open that old gmail

Keep fine and stay healthy.

"Rahma Love You as always"

(Maybe) Its Called as Indefinitely Love...

2012-12-20T21:27:00.000+07:00

Like this (maybe) how I love you...

Like as a laughter of kids when playing in the rain

Like as a sweet thing that appear in your eyes any time

I see your face...divine..simply.. lovely....

Like as a funny uncomplete teeth when you laugh

Or a feeling when your palm touch my cheeks...

My Sweet Little angel... I miss you..

How are you today What you look alike...What you're doing...

I want play in the rain while laugh with you

I want dance in the rain while hug you...

And I want see you in whatever you do...

You... and only you...

-One day when my feeling is growing , when my hope stay higher-

Once another time when I remember Face of A little Prince

Someone I have never seen Before -

Guyonan Ala FaceBook :P

2012-12-01T12:43:00.001+07:00

Well, this posting just copy paste from facebook in once late nite insomnia that i got some days ago. Enough funny but cant be funny if i change to be english posting. So, i dedicated this to all of My Indonesian readers that come and visit my blog by intention or by accident , hehehe,.. For a nice day in future...so lets get laugh together. ...

Ini adalah penyakit-penyakit berbahaya yang menjangkiti wanita. So, bagi para cowok baca baik-baik penyakit berbahaya ini, mungkin pacar/istri/teman/saudara anda mengidapnya, segera temukan obatnya dan get well soon for them :))

1) Nangisuitis

Akibat terlalu sensitif. Gejalanya bibir cemberut, Mata kedap- kedip. Efek sampingnya mata bengkak, saputangan banjir, hidung meler, bawaannya ngurung diri atau terkena penyakit Curhatitis A. Penyakit ini bisa diobati dengan obat Tegaridol, atau OBH ( Obat Berhati Hamba).

(2) Curhatitis B

Bawaanya pengen nyerocos terus, efek samping rahasia orang bisa bocor, terkena Nangisuitis. Penyakit ini bisa diarahkan positif jika ia bercuhatitisnya ke orang yang tepat, apalagi sama Allah.

(3) Shopping Syndrome

Gejalanya pengen jalan mulu, mata melotot kalo lihat barang bagus. Efek sampingnya lidah ngiler, mulut nganga, dompet jadi tipis. Jika sudah masuk stadium 4 (Parah banget) dompet suaminya ikut tipis. Coba minum hematcoid atau tablet PD (pengendalian diri).

(4) Cerewetisme

Lebih parah dari curhatitis, tidak mengandung titik koma. Efek samping muncrat, telinga tetangga budek, dada suaminya bisa jadi lebih halus karena sering mengelus. Lebih cepat makan pil dengar dan minum tablet bicara lebih diperlambat.

(5) Lamanian Dandanitos

Pengennya diem depan cermin.. Tangan kiri gatel gatel pengen pegang sisir, tangan kanan kram-kram pengen teplak-teplok pipi pake bedak. Efek samping : menor, telat, suaminya berkarat, gak kebagean makanan. Minum segera Sari Bawak ( Bagi Waktu) dan Taperi (Tambah Percaya Diri). Buat suaminya minum toleransikipil 230 sendok sehari sesudah dan sebelum mandi.

(6) Cemburunutomy

Gejala muka lonjong, tangan mengepal, alis menukik. Coba cegah dengan sirup prasangka baik 3 sendok sehari, pil pengertian dan tablet selidiki dahulu.

(7) Ngambekilation

Gejala hampir sama dengan Cemburunutomy, minum sabaron dan Bersyukurinis.

(8) Gossiphorrhea

Dikenal juga sebagai penyakit rumpingitis, yang diderita oleh sebagian besar wanita di seluruh dunia. Penyakit ini divonis oleh para ahli kesehatan sedunia sebagai akibat dari pergaulan, karena kalau tidak bergaul, apalagi kalo ga kenal orang lain sama sekali alias isolasi total, dijamin penyakit ini ga bakal diderita. Orang gila aja yang ngegosip sendirian..

Itulah jenis-jenis penyakit kewanitaan menurut kawan saya itu. Katanya, mungkin 5 atau 10 tahun ke depan WHO bisa mengkategorikan penyakit-penyakit ini sebagai penyakit yang MENGANCAM KELANGSUNGAN HIDUP UMAT LELAKI ALL AROUND THE WORLD…!

Sekarang, bagi pembaca yang merasa diri sebagai wanita dan yg pasangannya wanita, yang mana jenis penyakit Anda dan pasangan Anda ?

Every Rain Drops is Du'a

2012-11-17T23:42:00.000+07:00

This nite is not late yet. I had done my weekend jobs (hehe, washing, cooking, ironing, cleaning and so on and so on). While i write this posting... there.. outside of my room, rains is coming... I could hear every drop of it. A great melody i ever heard. Rain always sending me some peaceful feeling, a feeling that cant be compare with anything, and the sound of thunder make it complete.

I didnt sit at the corner of room beside my room again... My favorite place when watching the rains come so hard.. actually too many file from my office already make it cant be used again. All sound of the rain drops is still the same never change, everlasting.

Have you ever account? how many rain drops already fallen? maybe never can be accounted. Sometime when i am alone like as this nite and rains come like as now, then i will cry with no reason. yeah, its strange but i didnt find it this nite. I only feel so peace, so quite, no other sound, only sound of every tuts of my keyboard when i type every word in this posting. I like this moment, much, mostly...

Do you know??? Maybe like as every rain drops at outside of my room.. I already cry. Too often even when no reason. But now.. Every rain Drops that come this evening is Du'a. A wish, A pray, that i could see another day after today, and live it with benefits. Maybe some bad news i got recently but in the other side i got good news too. Only a smile i could do now to see everything arround me. Some give me tears some give me laugh, Its complete so why i should send a sigh??

Every Rain Drops is Du'a.. A hope there is a better day after today, not only for me, but for you too, for everyones who ever touch my life, for everyone who fight for better life.

Every Rain Drops is Du'a... As when it come its build a new feeling, a new hope, a new sight..about love.. that sometime i coudnt believe anymore.

Every Rain Drops is Du'a... Every Rain Drops is drift me in to you... In every du'a we made... May All granted by Allah...

Every Rain Drops is Du'a.. Thank You for The Life i have now... :) never ever i regret every learning that i already get. Coz Every Rain Drop is Du'a... I believe everything ll be ok in the end... Fi Amanillah.. (L)

Oh..Allah...

Enlighten what is dark in Me

Strenghten what is weak in Me

Mend what is broken in Me

Bind What is bruised in Me

Heal What is sick in Me

Straighten What is crooked in Me

And.....

Revive whatever Peace and Love has died in Me..

Ameen...

A Wild Life In My Research...

2012-11-10T22:10:00.003+07:00

Hi..Everyones... Assalam'alaikum.. And Have a happy weekend. Good nite from Jakarta, Today i am here again. Well, actually, my head turn around to be mad but its funny when after that many idea comes to update this bullshit blog, hehehe.

Well if i ask u, Whats ur favorite TV Channel Programs? HBO? CNN? Cartoon Network ? Discovery Channel? everyone should have their own favorite. But if u ask me then i ll answer for sure that ll be NatGeo Wild. Yeah, i like it the most than any other channel. Its showing us how great Allah who created this universe with every single things that never same one to another. The Nature, Animal, atmosphere even every little things that alive in this world.

Its strange nowadays, Human made too many damage upon environment where they are alive. A wild hunting upon some wild animal or any sadism upon animal. Its too sad when nature give too much for their life but they are busy to destroy them. May Allah protect it all. So, here all the things i wanna share with you, My most favorite "Wild Life" mixing with my own thought... hope u enjoy, get smile even laugh ..if u dont get laugh i ll force u to do it , hahaha, My Grand ma ever said "Make Others get laugh then u can get a blessed" so please laugh after u read this... in the name of blessing i ll get.. hehehe ;) Here they are...When Animals talk about Human's Life...

P.S :

Dont think am that crazy ...hehehe... but thats all we are. In our own life, we have own priority, which one is important than others. some choose love, money even fighting for stupid things. Is that their false? sometime yes, sometimes no. As life go on, they learn by doing, thats if we can see it positively. Sometimes in life, manything cant go on like as we wanted, not love even wealth in life. Treatment of life make us mature, where we are that we should stand. what we choose that we should responsible for. Regreting? Off course we can, but should be for something crusial.

Keeping Relation between husband-wife that sometime too easy to be broken just for a simple things like smell of onions in breath. and so on. But above all, when we choose something, and if later its not success or not go on like as what u wanted, dont blame anyone else, or even make ur partner goes down without an explaination. We wont ever knew what they already do just to make us smiling when they are sad. The best man in the world is the man who very soft to their family... Rest of all.. all choice is in front of us...if failed then try again, fail, try again, but not means u force something that cant be yours. never do that or u should bear any pain in the end.

Seem.. My head already release some matter... Knew something from someone yesterday make me realize maybe thats all what i did. But above all, i was understanding with all of those reasons. Why?? Sometimes Its no need to be answered... Just go on.. move on even run as fast as u can do for every sheets of good things u want to do... My Prayer will always with you.. have good life Stay fine and take care...

This nite, those all pics give me a learning... if life has their own way. One way that we have cant be through by others. So I wont stop here as i knew you will go on there to reach every single imagine in your life. See You in another sweet times..When we are success with our own.. one day in this universe or next in heaven If Allah permit... Allah hafeez...(KL)

From The Sun of Syam... "Rumah Matahari"....

2012-07-13T21:27:00.001+07:00

There is 1 note that i read from my friend's blog. I just like it, and let me try to translate it here, This is about a monolog with itself....

"I ever feel become some1 that get the most betraying in this world, or the most guilty person or the one who had alot of problem, or the most unlucky person. i've walked alone on the edge of road in one town, in once evening, while the buses and the cars just run like as people with no care. I ever felt i dont have friends just for listening what i felt" you said with so sad voice..

There is a untold sadness, like as the electrical cables that hang on all over the city's skylight. How to break an complexity things to be simple and real? while malls and shopping centres, restaurant, always seem friendly to invite us to get there, It Never really honest to accept us what we are....

"All of us have things that we could handle better than others who do it. Unfortunately, sometime we lost our best capability - in the precise time - when we really need it. Sometimes we have limitted space to allow others at there, sometimes we only want to be alone. Till We walk in long way to the train station or standing on escallator of a mall, seeing and watching a sad face, a worriying that look same on everyone's face, It turns out All of us having problems" You said..hesitating..

I see, I ever stand on the same shoes u used. But where we must go? which one life we should go? is it true we should go? People that we thought happy, turn out keep sadness and sorrows deeper than we could ever imagine...

"Sometimes, I miss home. There is no home without problems, But when i am at home, every problems always easier. If you ask why? i couldnt explain..." You said..still in doubt.

"Then, i remember home. Oh, i miss every comfort and discomfort of my home. I miss the smell of my mom's cooking, I miss my mom's cough when she cook food for us, I miss the smell of my old pillows, every wind in my home. Mom and Dad ever get fighting, but they always try to be good parents. Voice of my sister that shout at her children, or freak funny voice that sounding by my nephews when they are singing. Oh, Maybe i should go home in the real meaning of it.

"Why i cry? Why u cry? Most of us believe that we could make a diference, can change something until one time we are truly wake up, and realize that we are fail"... You said..sadly..

Ahhhh, why do we always make ourselves feel guilty? Why do we tend to be morose? why we never say thank u for ourselves? for good things and bad things too that we've done so far? Thank you for always survive, and always decide to get up and start move on again...

"Thank you" You said suddenly, for your ownself "For things that speakable and unspeakable"

Then I send a sms to my own number phone "Thank You, Only You that can accept me what ever i am, and only by making you happy, then I ll be happy too"

P.S :

Everyone is busy to make other people arround them happy but most of us forget to love our ownselves. No life without problems but thats not mean we couldnt survive. I have too many friends arround me and also "my self" that so Amazing. Looking at their life that ussual far from their hometown but they still stay alive by their ownway. Akram, Naura, Nita, Raoof, Binu, Sameer, Nazeer, and some real friends near to me also have some difficult things but glad till now, they still alive happily in their ownway in their own sight.

Sometimes, We forget if in "Imperfect" is actuall word from I'm perfect. So that everyones' being, We are perfect in our imperfect ways. Keep fighting , Stay stronger, but now, i would like to tell my self ....

"Mei, You are Amazing, Trust me..."

"And To you guys who inspire me I Love You.... :P"

The Miracle Of Praying

2012-07-07T08:33:00.000+07:00

Hi, everybody....

Here me again, I write this few minutes before going to my best friend's wedding. No longer again, she ll be wife completely. Last nite is her last day to be single and this nite is the first day to be double...hehehe..

Today i didnt want to write much, they ll shout at me. But i just want sharing with you about What the meaning of "The Miracle of Prayer" She knew this "man" at November 2011, but no big things happen, then she met him again before she went to Umrah with me at last March. She said she wish too much about husband when at there. Back from Umrah, The miracle is happened. They are become lover, and now at July 7,2012 she ll get married....

Someone that completely "Good" in my eyes >>> as i heard from her.

she introduce him to me too. completely different from her last boy friend that she wish to be with for rest of life but no destiny. This someone is the answer of her prayer. I wish too. No one perfect, but as long as i knew, this one could be the best one for her. Someone that really trully wanting to fight for getting her as his wife. Allah always knew the best. Then Who didnt believe about The Power of Praying? Better dont blame anyone, anything or whatever. But that should be u didnt deserve enough for it or it didnt deserve for you.

Thats it all.

Well...I trust too one day every wishes i made will come true... if not today then once day. Okay, i should go now, see u later mates, have a happy weekend. Salam and Love from Rahma...

Dont ever stop to dream Dont ever stop to fight and leave it all by Prayer... Only Allah know everything..bye bye... (L)

Take A Learning From A Sandal :D

2012-05-30T19:01:00.002+07:00

Sandal... all of you should know what that is. Almost 24/7 we use it arround home, while walking, while talking while eating, while do anything except while we do prayer in mosque or sleeping , hehehe.

Today, i have a funny things about my own sandal :D *its off course funny for me but dont know for you* ;) As usual day, my work times always crowded, rings of phones all the time, the customers, my worksheets, and should go up and down from 2nd floor to 3rd floor coz of the Internet Lan broken at office :s *It should because of my boss is forget to pay the bill again :| *

Then After Asr prayer time, it was only 1 of my girl friend in 3rd floor, end of month, everyones busy outside office to manage some customers out side. So then i sit beside her and seeing her that try to find out the sweet hijab for her marriage in next June. We got a little talk too about that plan also about her doubt to carry on that plan. Then i got a call from a customer and should go back to my desk coz of that. I just walking on. and start to do manything again.

Some customers i already met too after that. Then maghrib time is coming. I just go to bathroom to take Wudlu, but when i came out from the bathroom, i knew lately that i use different sandal, the right one is mine and the left one is Aline's sandal :)) Astaghfirullah, what is this? the funny one is before i met my customer with sandal like that and i didnt notice whats behind their smiling :D

Hehehe, whatever about this sandal, its already happened, Maybe its enough for me to think "My customer laugh for my stress time that infected me to be like this " :D

But above all i got one learning from Story about My Sandal :

Every ones has their own partner, couldnt take by other one and not suitable for anyone else. So if u didnt have a partner life yet *like as me :D* u didnt need to be worry coz there is always someone who deserve only for you. Believe one thing :D Like as every Sandal has its partner that never be another's partner, so then you and me :D Keep searching and keep moving, Find your own sandal's partner...eh...ur own life partner :D good Luck

Thats all the learning i got today from my mistaken to take my friend's sandal to be partner of my sandal :)) and i just take pic when i realized that :D

This is the story About Sandal :D

A Guy in The corner of The Bus' chair

2012-05-13T15:50:00.000+07:00

Night starts recovering this city. I sit near to the window, Wind that blowing slowly, stroking every piece of my hair...cold but fresh, touching my cheeks softly. No one at home this nite. Everyone is busy with their business. My mind goes to something that happened in once morning long time ago. That guy, that glance, that figure... dont know why his figure disturb my head too much. I dont know him but my eyes locked in him when my eyes glance got him accrossed the street.

Tall, Quite handsome, simply and look alike another man. for first sight, Nothing special but even i couldnt turn off my staring on him... He run faster behind a bus where i was there. He choosed chair in the corner of bus, his brown skin looks shinny cause of sweat and sun's shining. And those eyes, i was seeing them when he tried to find out the chair. Those eyes are so dark and deep. I saw a magic in that morning.

That was my first meeting with him. Then day by day, i met him everyday, and those magic still stay inside me. I like to see him silently, from far. one another time, As ussual, the corner of bus chair is his favorite place. he turn arround his head and found me stare on him. we locked in eyes contact in some minutes. Then he nodded his head and smiling so genuinely, there is a sincerity i saw in his eyes when his lips spread a smile.

It was a misty foggy morning, he turn down from the bus and start walking, i was following him walking on every street, i saw many books on his hand and his lips not stop to sing an indian song, when he passed some little kids, his hand rubbing their head and they laugh together, then after that a little gal run to him and hugs him, he hugs her back. That little gal is blind gal, that things make my tears come down, someone help him to bring books that he brought before. And finally i saw, it was a place like as orphanage.

He teach children at there. He is so shiny. All of them listen to him faithfully. And the most important that touching my heart is how patient he do everything. It couldnt be easy, coz most of children at there is "special children" but he could handle all like as everything is easy. And I ...start falling in love with him...and off course silently.. Oh ..My God...what is this??

Day by day my feeling increasing to him, and so many place he already showed me without he known. All of his social activities. His kindness to poor people, i knew the other world that unknown before. Its almost 1 year go on since i follow him wherever he gone. i knew his schedule, i knew where he go today, or what he want to do tomorrow. Everything is regularly. and that feeling goes deep as deep as his amazing attitude that i knew one by one.

One day, i lost him...i couldnt find him in the corner of bus chair, on every street that he walked on, at every orphanage he was visiting. i couldnt find him. I try to find him out, visit one by one place where he went before walked away, but i couldnt find, its almost 4 months goes on, and I lost my energy, the whole world seem darkness. Astaghfirullah.. where i am now? Suddenly from the other side of street where i stand up, a little girl with broken leg and smile eyes walking to me...and start talking...

Her : Aunti, finally u come here, i was waiting for you for long time.

Me : You ? waiting for me?

i asked her, while helping her to sit on the chair near to us. then she said : Yes, you, Your face and figure just same like as what he said to me?

I felt unwell, and ask her again "He? who is he? and why wait for me? She only smile at me..and said.."He entrusted this to me, he said, if i saw u somewhere i should give this to u. Take this, coz i am sure this is for you"

I took that letter, and said "But who is he? am i know him?" She said, "Yes, You know, his name is SAL, " she start walk away after smile nicely and kiss my hand..."See u later, aunti, am sure i ll see you again and again"..

I open that letter ..and...

Dear You,

That unknown for me, But seem your face already stuck to fill every room in my heart. I like to sit in the corner of bus, because from that place i could know when u come or when you turn down, I could see your back, i could see your cheeks that become pink when i got you stole any glance on me. I could see your eyes that wanna jail me in it. But the most important is i knew that you followed me for last 1 year, I am so happy for my confidence, it seem you felt the same feeling on me..and i have a secret partner that knew what i done. Honestly, i wanna say thanks for that. But maybe i couldnt say you directly. When you get this letter thats means i am already far from you, But know one thing i always close, very close to your heart beat. Now, I entrusted all of i had done and left...I hope you could do what you saw in last one year you are with me. And this poem is something that i wanna tell since the first time we met in the corner of those bus...

If Love could reveal everything..... telling me..whats really happened between me and her

If Love could see everything... showing me, whats seen in her eyes...

If Love could hear everything... whispering me, whats heard in her heart...

If Love could feel anything... cry when she is sad and laugh when she is happy...

If Love could touch everything, take my hand to touch your soul..

If Love could do everything... bringing me a piece of star that i could put in her heart..

If love could tell everything... Tell her..That I love her ...

I love You Girl...Since the morning is begin till nite lost in dream..since every heart is beating and till its last beat...

With Love,

Me...SAL...

I got shocked suddenly door bell is ringing, seem mom and dad already got home. I open my old diary, where there is a letter for SAL that never i could send :)

Dear Someone with eagle eyes...

Have you ever know, when i stare at u. Your simplicity is recovering me, your kindness is impressing me, Your being is inspiring me. Why you do that all? who are you actually? From where ? Seem You are like a man from nowhere. Are u an angel? or someone that send to help poor people? Do you know your present is a blessing for me? I saw manything that unknown from my eyes, For all i got thanks to you. for your presence in my life. And if you know, I am falling in love with you... everyday...every street we walk on together without you knew..every activity we did together without you felt. But for all changing in my life thank u. I love You..just and its only..

With Love,

Me.. Radhika...

I close that old diary, a letter from SAL that i got some years ago, some years already going on. Everything that left by SAL, now, under control, even i got manyones to help me there. SAL, I dont know where were you now, but I am sure, there is somewhere, everyone will love you as here, as me, always.... Rains start coming... i heard mom start yelling... "Radhika... come asap, try your dress, tomorrow is ur sister wedding, but only urs that not yet done!!!" Radhika!!! " From my place i only smile and say, "Am here Amma, comingggg"

Too far, from Radhika's home, there is a handsome man, between many flood's victims. Try to help doctors at there. a reporter come to ask him, "Hi sir, may i know you and from where? you didnt have any id?"

He answered with his deep voice and sharp eyes "My name is SAL, 29 years old, I am from nowhere, enough? Better u help us or we will break ur camera" suddenly his wallet is fallen down and opened, there is a gal with marroon hijab, smile nicely between little kids, and thats Radhika's face, He took it asap and keep it again..then start busy to help everyone arround him.. ....And The showing is begin...

= Fin =

Ps. This story is a fiction, a story that inspired by someone who like sit in the corner of bus long time ago when he talked with me on chat, I found this old history chat unintentionally, Someone who never stop to move on and never give up whatever happen in his life, Kindness, Simple and Smart is his other name. Someone that make me wanna do something better than i was. Someone who always inspire me. Precious and loveable, SAL, Hope Success will follow you on every step you move on and move up..Good luck..

Tentang Kita.... ;)

2012-05-01T18:03:00.000+07:00

Hari ini gue pengen nulis pakai bahasa Indonesia aja ah, capek ng-english mulu, hehehe, ga banyak yang ingin gue tulis. Mungkin cenderung freak, hehehe, sebenarnya ini adalah salah satu dari keanehan yang gue punya :P Keknya banyak bener keanehan yang gue punya, tapi boleh dong gue bangga dengan keanehan-keanehan gue :)) Temen-temen gue bilang gue agak miring, ya kasarannya gue and beberapa teman gue belum dapat sertipikat halal eh waras dari Badan POM resmi a.k.a Rumah sakit jiwa gitu, hahaha *bangga*

Keanehan yang ingin gue ceritakan kali ini adalah tentang kebiasaan gue nyimpen sms, history chat, email, sent email. sms yang gue simpen ga melulu soal yang nice-nice, ngcool ngcool tapi sms yang juga maki-maki gue, ngatain gue segala ini itu gitu deh :D

Temen gue pernah nanya kenapa gue kek gitu, hihihi, cuma hobby gue bilang. Tapi ternyata sekarang gue suka ketawa-ketawa sendiri kalau pas lagi baca-baca :D Sms atau email atau pesen pendek di facebook pun bisa bikin ngakak tengah malem sendirian :D mungkin temen gue yang sudah biasa dengan kebiasaan tidak biasa ini cuma mandang penuh arti, senyum sambil geleng-geleng kepala, mungkin kalau mereka lagi hamil bakal bilang amit-amit jabang baby dah :D

Kejadian yang sama terjadi di siang hari bolong ini ketika matahari bersinar redup seakan-akan hujan mau turun tapi masih malu mengucurkan airnya yang deras di atas bumi kelapa gading yang indah permai mewangi sepanjang tali rapia :)) kumat.com.

Bersamaan dengan nyanyian dangdut remix madu dan racun yang dilantunkan sama klien gue yang komplain dan ngomel a b c d f g berhitung pula 1 2 3 4 5 mpe telinga gue brasa pekak :d sempat juga es campur mosi gue meleduk tuh, mpe gue bilang maunya dia apa? :D lah ntar kalau dia mau rumah mewah lengkap dengan isinya gimana coba? :D

Terpaksa dah habis ntu gue aduk aduk handphone tersayang gue untuk nyari kapan sih dia itu ngasih data pertama kali, eh bukannya nemu sms itu client itu tapi nemu sms dari some body *di baca some bodi* yang bikin gue malah terpaku, tersipu dan malu-malu baca itu sms, gue heran kok gue masih nyimpen sms itu ya, setelah gue liat historynya ternyata itu sms dia kirim tanggal 26 Juni 2009. What a message :D tapi ini bukan sms aneh sih, atau sms makian yang bikin gedubrakan, tapi sms ini kenangan gue sama si doi *ada tuh yang nanya, cewek apa cowok doi nya??* tapi gue jawab *kasih tau gak yaaaaa sambil maenan jari *

Ini sms adalah waktu terbaikku sama dia, ternyata udah lama juga ya, tapi aneh itu sms ternyata masih tersimpan rapi di folder saya filing. Sms dari dia tentang seseorang bernama YAVUZ *waktu masih zaman di morange* YAVUZ yang agak gila and psyco menurut kita berdua waktu itu. Yavuz yang nuduh gue ma dia jatuh cintrong ma Yavuz yang notabene kita anggep abang kita berdua. Dasar cowok Matre eh cowok nda jelas :))

Sms ini bikin gue ngakak setelah kesel setengah mati ma nyanyian tuh klien yang kek bebek angsa mandi di bak mandi, *salah lo ...Kuali tau si bebek sempat jawab gue* trus gue jawab *sapa bilang salah, Bek? kualinya udah pecah gue tendang tadi, jadi lo mandi di ember aja sana bek bebek :))*

Hari ini gue cuma pengen terima kasih aja buat waktu terindah kita yang pernah kita miliki dulu sekali. sekian tahun lalu. Gue gak berani berharap lebih untuk kebaikan kita nantinya karena gue tau juga paham, apa yang sudah pecah tak mungkin bisa utuh sesempurna sebelumnya. Gue seneng lo pernah jadi bagian terbaik, sahabat terbaik gue saat itu. Sms ini aku pinjam eh aku simpan, mungkin karena gue merasa rasa sayang gue ke lo ga pernah berubah. gue jadi inget waktu itu lo pernah kasih gue password fb lo gara2 Yavuz juga, sayang otak gue cekak jadi ga ingat apa2, btw udah lo ganti belum tu password? ganti sana cepetan :)) hehehe, gue cuma heran aja, and baru sadar segitu besarnya kepercayaan lo ke gue, ternyata mang gue yang ga bisa jaga apa yang lo kasih, gue ga mau minta maaf ke lo hari ini, terlalu sering smua hal ku kamuflasekan di balik kata maaf. Gue cuma mau bilang terima kasih aja. Semoga hidup lo disana baik-baik saja, dengan atau tanpa diriku , jiahhhh ngarep banget dah gue keknya :P

Sekian cerita tentang Balada sebuah SMS yang mungkin sudah tidur bangun lagi bangun tidur lagi :D sebuah SMS yang menyelamatkan mood gue hari ini dari serangan bom atom seorang klient yang bernyanyi.

Kalau bisa ambil hikmahnya dong dari tulisan gue ini apa, masa ga guna juga? :D

Well, The Meaning Of Friendship, Trust, Love, And All the base of every relationship, whatever we named them. Sometimes we couldnt hold or even praise when they are with us but when its gone often we play with them all and sometime still hoping, if i was. But time couldnt be rewind. All you can do is everything in your present, our now and wish all will going good in future too. I was make that somebody dissapointing on me not only for once but manytimes. Nothing i could do even if i already try too much to get all back but as trust broken it wont be back as was. It need years to build, A second to break and a lifetime to repair, But it wont be back as perfect as it was. Do you know whats that? The answer is TRUST ... Just and only TRUST :)

You could get love, hate, or anything else many times in a period but only TRUST wont ever we get again after it lost... keep it up when Someone trust you coz you wont ever know, what u ll face if it lost :) dont get regret always at last when you can do the best for keeping it up in the present :)

Weh, udah cukup bijak belum gue, akhirnya make english juga dah :D sok tahu gue banyak :)) oke teman2 yang gue pernah liat, gue belon liat, yang gue kenal atau gak gue kenal, yang peduli atau pura2 peduli, have nice day aja.. see u bye bye cao cao cua cua...

The Dancing Fountain..

2012-04-10T09:55:00.001+07:00

I didnt know yet when i can share my last journey, but this is one video that i captured when i visited Dubai, The dancing fountain in front of Burj Khalifa, the highest building in d world.

Its Still About You...

2012-03-07T18:44:00.001+07:00

“There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave. You were what I wanted. I gave what I gave. I’m not sorry I met you. I’m not sorry it’s over. I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save. Cause Something You left is better than anything i ever had....... ”

The Impossible Love I had ever dreamt...

Dear You.... You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this; No matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we’ve cried; though I saw this as a possible outcome, I took the risk and gave you my all. Never, ever, did I give up on you. Do not give up on yourself. Believe. Anything is possible. And if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.

i miss you.

I dont know what i do in this blog again :) between my office time , i just found this note in my friend's facebook note (Uwie's note) ; for somedays i forgot what a hurt look alike and even i forgot what something made my eyes got wet. Sometime its big funny to feel how everything goes on. Like as everything that i set as a draft posting this blog. cut in the middle without ending. I dont know why it happened.

Something is changing in my heart, thats really strange for me. I even dont know whats already lost. But i felt a big hole that so dark. Yeah, maybe it still about someone. Actually, I miss him. I miss every single things we talked or even we fought for. I miss to listen his song, I miss any chance to stay in faster encounter between busy days. Everything is changing, But i know only one thing that never changed. He always special with his speciality in every pieces of my heart.

My eyes are still full with tears when i remind him but i still can smile nicely, when i remember him too. If I cry for a minute then i have a day long to smile, If I cry for a day then I have a week to smile, If I cry for a week then i have month to smile, and if i cry for whole year then i still have rest of my life to smile... If both are because of him... I am getting better i know that, time will give me time to be better, I believe. But Yes, I miss him.....I miss him much....viva forever.. everlasting, like the sun this is for you.. hope u're fine... :)

Waiting For the Rain...

2012-01-27T21:44:00.000+07:00

No wonder why you didnt come yet. And no wonder why i couldnt know you yet. Its off course there is a reason made by God to tested me how long time i can wait. how much patient i have and to prepare my self when you come and touching my life.

The Dream about you that i sewing in my previous life. Many Smiles that i keep. Though maybe you wont be like as what i ever imagined later but i am sure you are the best to whom i ll stay with in rest of my life.

I am still waiting for the rain. Rain that only mine. Rain that can hide my tears, Rain that make me have lots of smile and laugh when dancing in it. Rain that made me silent in the darkness, wetting my hair with nice glance.

I am still waiting for my rain that i can have truly...And i can give the whole of secret wind i have..The best fragrance in every drops.

I am still waiting for the Rain that i can be with... accompany my feet to stay running in it. Holding me tight between the storm, hugging me nicely when life not going on as i wanted. To be with me making our dream be true.

I am still waiting my rain with a hope... there is rain like as you, there is rain like as him and there is rain mixed of them... I am still waiting for my own Rain... The Rain .. with... incredible quality i deserve...

I am still waiting for the Rain, Rain that can be my own...that can be mine... for rest of life... And for the Rain like as you i will stay to wait for my whole life...

LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE

2012-01-27T21:17:00.000+07:00

I want to live my life to the absolute fullest

To open my eyes to be all I can be

To travel roads not taken,

to meet faces unknown

To feel the wind,

to touch the stars

I promise to discover myself

To stand tall with greatness

To chase down and catch every dream

LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE

This little words is words that i heard from an advertising on TV. Was, i have never mind it at all, and actually i like this advertising because of all children in this video soo cute. but in one of misty night :D when no one at home, i could listen what they said carefully... And those all the words.

Its all about life. And Life is really an adventure. Sometimes Nothing is really still can say something. And a spirit in life, faces that unknow, greatness, the wind, the stars and off course every dream that we built. Its about our purpose. How much we can do for ownself then that will come to us. Indonesian quote said, who planted they will reap.

This is life and life is an adventure. we just need to open our eyes and see the whole life with positif thinking. however the conditions in it.