Words are the reflection of my inner self...

Radtke State Park, Wausau, WI

2008-03-23T12:21:00.000+05:30

Lotus Temple, New Delhi

2007-07-12T14:54:00.000+05:30

Water crisis?

2007-07-12T13:52:00.000+05:30

while in the bus...

2007-07-07T14:22:00.000+05:30

Here is what was going on in my mind after i got down from the bus today.

as i rested my hand on the window beside me,
the wind blew in my face, it blew in her hair too,
and just as she let her hair loose,
gently it lapped onto my fingers, making me tingle,
her hair was like the smoothest strand of silk,
her hair was like the softest strand of cotton,
and as she moved her slender fingers through her hair,
the glamorous locks danced and obeyed at the same time,
it fell off her shoulders magnificently,
and bounced in the gushes or air through the window.
and as her hair touched my fingers,
i knew i wanted to touch them too,
i wanted to feel them, i wanted to caress them,
and there they were calling out to me too,
but i could not touch them then,
for i didn’t know if she knew,
how much i wanted to touch her hair,
and how much i wanted to touch her too.
i just wanted to feel her
and i wanted to feel her smile too
i wanted to hold her close to me
and i wanted to hold her forever too
i wanted to tell her what she meant to me
and i wanted her to remember for ever too,
for she was as magnificent a woman that God could make,
and she was the best of them all too.

Telecom tower, Empire State Building

2007-04-03T01:11:00.000+05:30

Snow in my palms

2007-01-20T03:14:00.000+05:30

Just the other day...

2006-11-30T12:00:00.000+05:30

Just the other day, I made a new friend,
whatever she does, she is setting up a new trend,
everything we speak, she seems to comprehend,
as much as possible, I wish we have time to spend,
I hope she understand, this is not meant to offend,
only good friendship is what I intend,
here and there, there may be a loose end,
but I know, on each other, we can depend!

2006-10-20T16:16:00.000+05:30

The Wonder called 'D'

2006-10-17T23:19:00.000+05:30

She carries the fragrance of love with her where ever she goes,
If I could, then everyday I would gift her a rose,
Her smile is lovely, and so are her toes,
Her hair is smooth, and brightly her face glows,
She moves with elegance, and mischeiviously the wind around her just blows,
She is surely the prettiest, I dont want to suppose,
Against her beauty, even the daintiest flower bows,
I am lucky, for I as a friend, she chose,
The marvel that she is, cant fit into one prose,
The lengths of her innocense, God only knows!

Elephant Rock at Panchgani

2006-07-01T12:50:00.000+05:30

Monsoon's in...!

2006-07-01T12:48:00.000+05:30

okay, thats me!

2006-04-29T12:13:00.000+05:30

The fiery skies.....

2006-04-22T13:48:00.000+05:30

Aint she pretty?

2006-04-22T13:45:00.000+05:30

The most basic building blocks...

2006-04-22T13:43:00.000+05:30

The Dancing Queen....

2006-02-08T14:33:00.000+05:30

There she was, partly covered by her blanket, wholly by my love. She was sleeping like a child, one that has no worries in life. In her sleep, I could still see her smile. The smile never lost her face. It was always there, just like my heart always beats, for her.
I rose from my bed, and glanced at the watch. 6 AM. It was still early. I got out of bed silently, because I knew she needed sleep. I walked to the sofa just opposite my bed and plonked upon it. I saw her twitch in her dream, and she was asleep again. I could not believe myself. I was with one of the most beautiful women on earth, and she loved being with me. This was one of the happiest feelings in my life, and I guess it will remain that way forever.
Lisa was a super model, and an excellent dancer. Her perfect body moved so naturally to music, it was tough to find her competition. Her long, slender legs just knew how to find their place. I have never seen a better dancer than her before, and coupled with her beauty, it was a mind-blowing combination!
Last night at Qba, Lisa was the object of attention for everybody. Qba is second home to Lisa and me. Mixed with RnB, Hip Hop and Salsa, Qba is the place to be if you want to just live the moment to it fullest. But last night was different, Lisa met me after one whole year, and I could say she was delighted. She danced like she had never danced before. Four hours non-stop, she was on fire!!
We came home at four in the morning. After a quick shower together, we dropped off to sleep. It was tough to go to sleep with her in my arms, but I held on to myself. I knew we both needed to sleep, and I mean sleep!
She clung on to me as if holding on to dear life. But I was going nowhere. I wanted to be there, right beside her all my life. I wanted her to be the happiest woman on earth, and I was prepared to do anything on earth for that. I gently blew her hair off her face and I saw her charming eyes, the loveliest there can ever be. And I saw the mischievous smile play on her lips. We both knew we could not stay away from each other. We hugged and hugged again. I did not let go. I took her face in my palms and kissed her moist lips. This was one kiss I will remember all my life. I guess distance does make the heart grow fonder. I kissed her to tell her I loved her, and that I would love her all my life. I felt she understood this, for she kissed me equally passionately and our lips fell in love with each other. Only pure love can make you feel this way. Infatuation just dies out in a short while, love keeps you alive. And we both knew it was love.
She moved her fingers through my hair and caressed my ears. She loved my chest, but before she could prove it, I held her close to me and whispered into her ear, “I think we should catch some sleep. Tomorrow is a big day for us. It’s my first major photo shoot with models. This is the break I have been waiting for, and I want it to work for us. Let’s sleep, honey…..”
“Don’t get too close to the girls!” she said naughtily. I laughed and blew her a kiss. She loved to tease me. She knew the girls liked me. She also knew that I liked her. And she never dodged any chance to pull a fast one on me. But we both were destined to stay together, nothing could come between us.
I met Lisa three years back at a photo-shoot event. I was an assistant photographer then, and was looking at taking subsidiary shots, after the primary photographers had finished with the main ones. I still remember the day. Lisa and Rhea, two of the loveliest models, donned in fantastic pearl jewellery, just waiting to be clicked. Aslan, our chief photographer, was just getting ready with the cameras. The location was a coral island off Thailand. The models were supposed to sit on some low rocks where the color of the pearls matched the colorful shallow corals. And then the moment came. Lisa was just about to step on a rock to climb onto a bigger one. She was in a white gown, and wore blue pearls. She was looking magnificent. Pearls would never have looked better on anyone else. I was standing close to where she was. But from what I wore, I knew she would not have even noticed me. I was in a white t shirt, beige shorts, a cap and shoes. I was wading in the knee deep water towards her to check the reflectors. There was one big reflector on her right, and was responsible for the majority of the light for the picture. Just as I moved towards it, I saw something from the corner of my eye. Lisa had just tripped and was going to fall into the water. I don’t know what happened then, but I moved at lighting fast speed. I held out my hand and managed to grab her just in time. There she was, the most adorable woman I had seen, in my arms. She was shocked from what had happened. She could not believe what had happened. Nor did anyone else, including me. But there I was, holding on to the most gorgeous models. I steadied her on the rock, and let go. But I could not stop looking at her. And I saw that she was looking at me too. She sensed I was lost, and she smiled. And I managed a smile too. And then I heard the most innocent voice say, “Thank you. If you would not have been here today, the theme of today’s shoot would have changed to ‘Wet Pearls’...”. Everyone laughed, and I smiled. I managed to mumble, “I am glad you are all right.”
Aslan came running over, and immediately asked Lisa, “Are you okay, dear?” Lisa smiled and said, “Yes, thanks to this handsome guy here, I am all right. I still don’t know his name.” I felt I was blushing. All though I made sure no one noticed it, I was really blushing. I looked up to her and said, “Hecktor, Hecktor George.”
That day, after the shoot, one of the lightsmen came up to me and said Lisa wanted to see me. I went up to her van and knocked. No one answered. I knocked again, but there was no reply. I started to turn back, when the door opened. And Lisa stood inside, smiling back at me. She had changed. In her white T shirt and blue denims, she looked like the cute college kid that any guy would kill for. I stepped in, and shook her hand. “Thanks again, Hecktor.” These words made me blush again, and my lips moved to form a curve that we can call a smile. We started talking, about each other, about our lives, interests, and many more things. We talked, talked and talked more. The more I saw her smile, the more deep-rooted she got into my mind. Everything about her was perfect. Her hair, her teeth, her nose, her hands, and well, everything else. I got my guts together and managed to ask her, “Lisa, can you join be for a cup of coffee?” “Of course Hector!” she replied with one of her best smiles. I knew this was the first step. There were many more to come, but the hardest journeys begin with a single step. I was prepared. So was she.
After that day, we met at least thrice a week. We managed to speak to each other everyday. The difficult times were when one of us was traveling. The most difficult part was saying goodbye. Lisa always cried when we parted. And I hated traveling for this. But sometimes you have to do the things you have to do.
I am now a photographer with a leading fashion house. Lisa is still the top model, and most of the guys are still looking for chances, but now there is no room in Lisa’s heart for anyone else.

I went to the kitchen and started boiling eggs for breakfast. I tried to be as silent as I could. But just as I was about to open the fridge, I heard a sound. I turned to see Lisa in the doorway. She was wearing my shirt. Her hair falling sexily on her shoulders and a few loose strands on her face. She leaned against the doorway, inviting as ever. I smiled. “Good morning honey”, I said. “You look damn cute in your boxers” she replied, with that mischievous smile. I laughed and smiled at the same time. She walked up to me and threw her arms around my neck. I held her from her waist and pulled her close to me. Our lips met once more, and this time it was too hard to resist. My eyes closed, but before that I saw her shirt drop to the floor.

We managed to get out of bed again only by 9 AM. She was still hesitant to let go, but she had to. She knew I had to leave. By the time I showered, she had set the breakfast table. Perfectly boiled eggs, perfect pancakes, perfect juice and the perfect lady beside me, my day had begun just perfect.

Lisa kissed me before I left. She whispered in my ear, “I love you honey. I think you are a charmer. I am not sure about the future, but I know that I am lucky to have you in my life.” “I think I am the one who is lucky. And I want to be this lucky all my life. With you beside me, I think I can take on everything else.” I replied. She pecked my cheek and wished me luck. I gave her a light kiss and played with a loose strand on hair that was dancing across her face. Her lovely eyes and her childish smile made me the happiest man on earth at that moment. Never can I thank God enough for bringing this marvel into my life. “Lisa, I will always love you.” I said and left.

Just before the Sun sets.....

2006-01-16T17:54:00.000+05:30

A differently blue sky.....

2006-01-15T19:02:00.000+05:30

Welcoming the new year..

2006-01-13T20:39:00.000+05:30

Me and my object of affection....

2006-01-13T20:37:00.000+05:30

Every sunrise has a sunset

2006-01-13T18:58:00.000+05:30

Rainfall outside my window

2006-01-10T15:19:00.000+05:30

I am..... The Undertaker!

2006-01-04T18:39:00.000+05:30

Oh what a feeling it can be, to be surrounded by people and still feel alone. To have your friends around you, or your so-called friends around you all the time. And give others the false impression that you are all together, when actually they are all together, and I am all alone. I don’t know how I got into this place. I don’t know why I feel out of place. I only know that while everyone has someone else with them, I have only empty spaces for company. The best moments, the laughter, the smiles, all fake. Nothing is real, except for the truth. And the truth is, there is no one else.

I see them, but I just see through them. They smile when we all are together, but never at me. They smile among themselves, but I am a stranger then. They crack jokes, and also laugh. I laugh too, but I am non-existent for them. For them, I just exist, I don’t live.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever come out of this loneliness, this slow poison that’s killing me. I cannot live alone; I cannot live with people who don’t love me, who don’t care for me. I don’t like false smiles, I don’t like plastic feelings. I don’t like double standards, I don’t like fakes. I don’t know if their relationships are for the moment, for I feel they are together only till when they need each other. I can’t think that way. When I make friends, I make them friends for life. I don’t know people because I need them; I need people because I know them.

They care about each other. They call each other and speak to each other, often smiling. And there I am, being with myself. And I feel neglected, I feel ignored. I feel left out. And I have nowhere to go; I am stuck with them, bound to them till a point in time. I hope I reach that point soon, because I want to separate out. I want to feel real happiness once again. I want to hug my real friends once again. I want to see them smile; I want to see the twinkle in their eyes again.

I am sure the day will come soon. When, I do not know. All I can do is hope.

2005-08-16T22:08:00.000+05:30

Public bath of the ancient era!

2005-08-16T22:05:00.000+05:30

dont know when they caught me..but here I am!