Everything Happens for a Reason <33

Novice Photographer.

2011-07-06T12:26:00.002-04:00

So the other day I was screwing around with my Cannon Rebel 35MM SLR camera and I took some photos. I liked how they came out. Each time I use this camera the photos get better and better I think.

Since it's 35MM and the cost of processing is hella expensive anymore bc Digital is taking over I don't use it a whole lot and I've had the camera for a good 10 years now. But here are some of the photos I took of my Daughter that I liked how they came out.

Showing off her Tummy

Loves her Tummy

Rocking her Star Wars Tee

I love Digital because of the Now factor. But I LOVE the look that film gives. I need to start playing around with this camera more. The look of it just blows me away.

@Skrillex Living Above the Influence.

2011-06-20T00:57:00.001-04:00

So apparently some shit happened last night during Skrillex's show in Dallas, Tx. last night. When I woke up for work this morning I saw this tweet from him on my phone

First thing that came to my mind what the hell happened at that show. Then When I was at work many hours after that tweet was posted he said this on Facebook.

All I have to say him saying this gave me more of a reason to love him. Not many artists out there care about what happens at their shows as sad as it is. Sadly as I dug around I found out someone did Die at his show, a 19 yr old boy.

Shit like this is what pisses me off about kids these days. They don't care and think they need to be fucked up to have a good time. Growing up with 2 addicts for parent's I know first hand what being fucked up 24/7 does to you. It's not pretty. We are in for a rough future if that's what kids think is cool in order to have a good time. So everyone needs to Live Above the Influence and take better care of them selves and not get sucked into drugs because it will do nothing but ruin your life.

Skrillex <333

Ecstasy of Music

2011-06-16T11:24:00.003-04:00

Music was always a big thing for me growing up. I wanted to do so much with it, but never developed any talent for actually making it. I wish I had because I could have been good at it. But lack of support from my Parents growing up and no money to peruse things I couldn't achieve it on my own.

So now here I am 27 and not a whole lot to show for in my life but owning my own home, being with the same person for 10 years and a beautiful little girl. Which is great don't get me wrong but I really wanted to do something with my life. I wanted Fame. Something I always saw my self doing growing up, but really didn't know how about to get my self there.

Music can be like Ecstasy for me when I find the right kind. Middle school age my first taste of that kind of music was when I was in love with Hanson, then came the Spice Girls I adored them. Then there was Brittany Spears and Christina Aguilera. Once I hit high school my style changed completely. I discovered a band named Orgy, then came along Korn and Limp Bizkit. Orgy was my band tho. I would just get lost in their Music, the lyrics, the instrumentals just everything about them spoke to me.

You know when you get the feeling of being in love, that's what I felt every time I listened to their music. After Orgy slowly died off when Amir and Ryan left to form Julien-K it was depressing because they were a great band. I felt like my world crumbled down. I never thought I would ever experience music like that again. Until now.

Yeah I'm going there again, but Skrillex is it. He may not use lyrics for his stuff, but his beats/ tracks whatever you want to call them because his type of music is still all new to me. But all I can say is that I get lost in listening to it and I get that feeling of being in love when I listen to it.

I never got to see Orgy live because they never came close enough for me to go and when they did I had no way/money to get there. But let me tell you this time I'm not missing out, not again, not this time. I won't be able to see Skrillex this year but Next year I am making sure I see him if he's on Tour at the time. I'm up set I'm going to miss him in Atlantic City in July but I won't have the money or be able to take the time off from work on such short notice.

I've never been so passionate about someones music like I am with his stuff. Aside from Orgy, but his stuff I feel more for. IDK what it is. I've been trying to tell friends to listen to his stuff because I know they will like it. My one manager at work I've gotten him to listen to some of his stuff and so far he's liked what I played for him.

If I had my foot in some sort of Door I would be contacting him to set something up and get him more well known. I know he knows people already but every where he's been so far for Touring has been allot of no name places, which that's great, but I think he would do great in some main stream places also. His fan base needs to be widened IMO. I should have been a Manager of some sort or Bands/Actors or Dealt with Promotions. I probably could have been great at it, but I just never got to open that door. TBH I didn't even know how to go about doing that.

Anyway that's how I feel and I can't help but feel that way. When I love something so much I want to tell every body and any body about it. Whether I have 20 Followers or 1 million, who every is willing to listen to me ramble on about whatever I'll keep on saying what's on my mind.

Going to leave you with this one. Enjoy <33

Falling Apart.

2011-06-15T10:16:00.000-04:00

I really hate not having any health insurance or dental. I need a tooth pulled bad bc the whole top half of the crown cracked off. It doesn't hurt but I need it taken care of before it causes a real problem :( I also really need to have my back checked out again. I'ts been almost 3 years since my Accident and since they Diagnosed me with Arthritis. I have my good days and I have my bad days where its hard to even do anything. I tried applying for Medical Assistance again we'll see how things go from there. I'm only 27 and I feel like I'm in my 50's I hate this :( I shouldn't be going through all this crap yet.

On another note, I go back to work today after being off for the past 8 days, I had Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday off as my normal days off from work last week. Went in on Friday and told I could go home bc the lab was down since Tuesday and there was nothing for me to do since the Truck and stuff was already done since they came when I was off. I was happy I got to go home, but bummed they didn't call me sooner so I didn't waste the gas since it's not a close drive for me to get there. Then I had the weekend off since I requested it since I always work the weekend, I like to request one off every now and then to get a break. Then work called me on Monday and said the lab was still down and still nothing for me to do so I could chose to not come in if I didn't want to which was nice but I hate losing the pay but I also hate being bored out of my mind when if I can get more stuff done at home I rather do that. DF and I wen't out that night to see Xmen First class which was nice since we hadn't been out of the house since we went to see Thor. Then I was off yesterday since Tuesday's are my Unavailable days at work.

But now I have work the next 6 days, Hopefully I don't get a phone call today saying the lab is still down. Bc then that means its been down for 8 days also which is killing our sales too, but killing my paycheck. Oh well time to go make breakfast for the little one and I.

Win a $200 Southwest Airlines Gift Certificate!

2011-06-12T13:08:00.002-04:00

Win a $200 Southwest Airlines Gift Certificate!

I'm sharing this to help a friend with her chances of Winning this to go back home.

Recipe Exchange

2011-06-12T12:27:00.002-04:00

I'm reaching out to all my friends. I am looking for Recipes for my Recipe page of my blog. So if you have a recipe you want to share please email it to me along with a photo of your completed dish (if you have one, it's preferred but not necessary) and I'll add it to my Recipe section of my blog with credit to you for helping me :D

-Thanks

Update Info.

2011-06-11T11:15:00.000-04:00

I have just noticed that if you are using FireFox browser the updates I did you may not see. If you use Google Chrome, or Internet Explorer you should be able to see the updates I have made to my Blog. IE will ask you if the font used would you like to install it if you do not have it. Just click ok bc it is a Blogger Default Font.

Thanks :D

Updates.

2011-06-11T01:06:00.001-04:00

I did some updates today to my Blog since I found out there was more you could edit with the templets. Allot of my older posts have the new fancy font which looks nice but a friend of mind said it was hard to read. I will eventually go through all my older posts and override my posts with a different font but until then you will just have to deal with the fancy font.

I hope you all like my new changes and you will also now see I have my own video blog page set up where I will keep all my videos together for your Viewing Pleasure.

Off to a Late Start.

2011-06-10T12:35:00.003-04:00

I hate when I get off to a late start, especially on a work day. Woke up late bc the Power went out earlier so the Electric Company could do their routine maintenance. I should have gotten up when I hear it kick back on, but I was too comfortable and I didn't hear my Daughter up yet so I took advantage of some extra sleep. Well I didn't get out of bed till 11am. As soon as I saw it was 11 I was like oh shit, not good. Jumped out of bed, went to get DD up then make her Breakfast.

I'm glad I'm off this weekend. I always work the weekends and I get my days off during the week by choice. But I always say I have no problems working the weekends just as long as if I request one off, I better get it. So usually during the summer I like to request a weekend off just to relax and play catch up. Probably going to go food shopping one of the days since one the local markets is having their awesome meat sale so it's time to stock up the freezer till their next one since they pretty much have it once a month.

Will be nice I can play catch up with the laundry too. I wish I could use the clothes line outside since it's so nice out but I have no clothes pins which sucks. When we go out on Tuesday to do our weekly thing I think I'll get some. I can't wait till the Super Walmart by us is open already. Since I live in a pretty remote area it's the only Department store we have out by us. Will save us a 45 min trip to the nearest one if we had to get anything not food related. Since the one we have right now is just a reg Walmart they are very limited on what they have, Since the super one is obviously bigger I can't wait till they open so they will have a bigger selection of things. Will save us the gas and mileage on our cars in the long run.

Walmart is a love hate kind of store. I hated when I worked for them, they are the worst company to work for. But they have great deals and when it's the only place to shop your pretty much forced to shop there if it saves you a long ass trip. Would you rather Drive 15 mins to go to Walmart, or do you want to drive 45 mins to Town to get to the mall?

Well I think that's enough ranting this morning. Need to get ready for work soon, and I still haven't made anything for my self for breakfast yet.

Help Find Lauren

2011-06-10T01:26:00.002-04:00

For more Information you can click Here to access the Facebook Page Directly. Spread the word. Help find Lauren.

@Skrillex

2011-06-09T13:48:00.003-04:00

So about 2 weeks ago a friend from my Runescape clan that I'm in who lives in Australia introduced me to a music I should have known about many many years ago but hadn't until now. This kid is pure genius at what he does. I grew up listening to all kinds of music growing up so my variety of music is pretty much anything. If it sounds good I like it. My new obsession is Skrillex. His Music just speaks to me when I listen to it. I haven't heard music like that since I was in high school when Orgy came out, one of my all time favorite bands. If you're familiar with type of music called Dubstep then you might have heard of Skrillex before and know how amazing he is at what he does.

This song is what reeled me into the god known as Skillex :D

He has many many other great tracks. I hope to suck you into his Geniusness like I was. Please enjoy <3

You can check out his other stuff on his Official Youtube channel.

IRL Farming

2011-06-08T10:30:00.001-04:00

So a couple weeks ago I started to plant some seeds and at first they were doing really good and then all of a sudden I started losing some, no idea why. So a friend of mine was helping me look some stuff up because she was doing the same thing and had the same problem and the site she directed me to was a big help. So if your plants start to Wither check this site out and it will explain all the possible ways it could have happened. Mine happened to have been disease and improper lighting indoors. Since I got rid of all the diseased plants and changed the lighting in my Laundry room (only kitty proof room) I haven't had any issues with my seedlings and many more are starting to sprout. I can't wait to Harvest all my hard work down the road. This yeah is definitely a learning in progress, now that I know more hopefully next year goes easier lol. Here are some pictures of how things are going right now.

Contacting Coupon Companies

2011-06-07T11:55:00.005-04:00

One of my best friends Brittany (whom I have met online through Runescape) and one of my Best IRL friends Jessi put together this awesome Google Spread sheet of all the companies you can contact out there who send coupons for Complimenting their products. Some send freebie coupons too [sweet]! So check it out and Thank them for their time and putting this list together.

Contact Companies for Coupons

-Enjoy-

Click Ad's

2011-06-07T10:49:00.002-04:00

I know ads can be annoying but they really help me. So please be kind and click on any Adsense ad you see because every click adds up and helps my Family.

Recipe Exchange

2011-06-04T10:35:00.001-04:00

I'm going to share one of my Favorite recipes that everyone seams to love. Someone else out there probably has done it before but I've never seen it so I'm going to share it.

Velveeta cheese & Shredded cheese (your choice)

Boil 1 1/2 Box Elbow Noodles

Saute 1 1/2lb ground beef/chicken/or pork

Once that is done then add all this to a pot and let simmer

1 can Hormel chili with beans

1 can Hormel chili w/o beans

1 can Kidney beans

1 can diced tomatoes

1 can diced tomatoes w/ green chilies

1 small can of tomato sauce

Once the noodles are done and the mixture has simmered lay in a large glass baking dish, layer of sauce, noodles, Velveeta cheese, repeat. Once you do all that, sprinkle over the top the shredded cheese then cover with tinfoil. Bake at 305d for 45 mins.

You can cut out or add what ever you want but this is how I have been making it lately. You can also add fritos to give it a crunch.

Hope you like it.

Why you should Donate

2011-06-02T00:40:00.005-04:00

I don't want to sound desperate as I know many people need money but I'm going to share with you my story as to what had happened and how I had gotten where I am today.

Almost 2 years ago my Father passed away as you may have read. He had no life insurance which left me with nothing to work with to get things taken care of. I was lucky enough to find a church to help pay for his Cremation. At the time I was also 5 months pregnant with our Daughter. The only money we had was for when our Daughter was born and for us to move into a bigger place since our Lease on our apartment was going to be up and we didn't want to renew it.

Darling France's Mother was kind enough to help me with paying for a Uhal truck and help us clean out my fathers place. Because of all of this I was going to need to miss time from work. I was told I should be fine I should get bereavement pay for my time missed. Well come to find out I was horribly wrong. My average hours at work fell below 30 hrs by 30 mins which caused me not to get paid for the time I had missed for my fathers death. Right there caused a Domino effect, since I had unpaid time off my average hours fell below 30 even more which caused me to lose my health insurance through work. Thank god I had the state insurance to fall back on because I would have been screwed. Well I was screwed from there on anyway.

Since I was below 30 for my average hours it was too late to try and make up for them since I was going to be having my daughter in December. With the same issue I could not get paid maternity leave which forced me to be out of work with a newborn and not getting any type of pay for it. With this it caused us to not pay on our credit card bills. All we could afford was the necessity bills like rent, electricity, heat, water. Ever since I have had debt collectors calling me non stop. Some of which had actually sued me which I am forced to pay them monthly still even tho we really can't afford to just so I don't go to jail.

Our income tax refunds only go so far. As soon as we get it, it's gone to pay bills. We can't even save anything because money is so tight. Another issue we had was just this past year my Fiancée had a lean on his pay check because of back taxes which caused so much problems for us bc they were taking about half of his checks which was leaving us with pretty much nothing to pay the bills with, so when we got our refund this year it was gone in the matter of minutes with all the bills I had to pay which it still wasn't enough.

I don't even know how I'm going to afford to pay the $1,000 I need for our property taxes by the end of the year, along with our home owners insurance and also be able to celebrate our Daughters birthday and Christmas since she was born so close to the Holiday.

I am in desperate need to see a Dr. and Dentist and I can't because I have no and can't get any health insurance. I have always hated asking people for money, but I have no choice to ask and unfortunately neither both of our family can afford to help us out either since they are almost in the same boat as we are.

I am so sick of the debt collectors calling me, I just want them to stop.

Donations

2011-06-01T23:49:00.003-04:00

I have Added a Donate Button to my Blog in result to being severely in debt from when my Daughter was born and I was out on unpaid maternity leave. Since then time's have been rough and we can't seam to catch a break.

We live pretty Frugally to begin with but some times it seams like it's never enough. I was never really good at anything, so I have no real special talents where I could sell items to make some extra money. But IDK what else to do about extra money since really a 2nd job is out of the question due to who will watch my daughter, and also who will work with my needs of being a parent. Not many jobs out there are as understanding as they claim they are. Darling Fiancée has been trying to find another job but hasn't had any luck.

Don't even suggest getting State help bc we can't. According to the government we make to much to qualify for anything since the extra money they see we have is going toward the debt we accumulated.

So if there is anyone out there that can help out our family I would greatly appreciate it and would find some way to thank you for your Hospitality.

I'm going to start posting more on here like I used to. Even if it's just to vent. I need to have my voice heard, well in this case read.

Emergency Room's Suck!

2011-03-19T12:56:00.003-04:00

*RANT*

So last night I had left work early to take my Fiance to the ER, he was complaining of Chest pains, hard time breathing, blurred vision, numbness/tingling in his arms/hands.

We got there at 10pm, Checked in then waited for the Triage to take him in to take his vitals and stuff. They didn't take him back till 10:20p. I didn't go with him for that but they had him in there for about 40 mins. When he came out he said they did an EKG, drew blood and took his Vitals. They sent us over to registry where then they took him back for a chest X-Ray. He came back out from that really quick, we finished registering, then sat down in the waiting area.

Well we didn't taken back to an actual room until 3:30am. Then it took 20 mins for a Physicians Assistant to come back and ask us what was going on. She said she wanted to draw more blood to recheck his heart enzymes and also wanted to give him a shot for the pain. Well we waited all the way up until 5am when we said enough was enough and said we wanted to leave.

My mom had our Daughter, we were both exhausted we just wanted to get the hell out of there and go home. The PA came in with his discharge papers and said that from the initial tests they took when we got there that she said it had nothing to do with his heart and that to just take Ibuprofen for the pain if it returns. When we asked her what happened that we never got anything else she said that an Urgent care patient came in they were tending to her.

IDK if they were short handed or what bc we saw allot of people there, it wasn't even that busy with people coming in so IDK what their excuse was but we were pretty pissed off to say. I'm glad everything came back normal that nothing was wrong, but we didn't need to be there waiting for 7hrs just to find that out.

*END RANT*

My Baby Made Front Page!

2011-01-27T11:19:00.007-05:00

I love the Icanhascheezeburger network. They have allot going for them. So I took one of my most favorite photos of my daughter when we had her 1 month Dr. apt she was so mad and when I took this photo is was priceless. Well I uploaded it to their Tots and Giggles section of their site and Today she made front page :D

see more Tots and Giggles

You can't deny it this photo is perfect LOL.

Society & the Sexualized Breast.

2010-11-16T17:39:00.002-05:00

I took the post below from this Wonderful Blog I stumbled upon

http://iinformedparenting.blogspot.com/ I just wanted to share it with everyone else.

Original Post: http://iinformedparenting.blogspot.com/2009/12/society-and-sexualized-breast.html

The original author of this article/blog/post is unknown- to whomever you are, out there in the world of cyber space... a HUGE thank you!!! And if you ARE the author, let us know who you are so that we can give credit where credit is due!!!

Society is so sexualized that they have forgotten what God created
our breasts for in the first place. They throw hissy fits over
breastfeeding in public and expect us to feed our babies in dirty,
stinky bathrooms. So I ask you to judge for yourself, which breasts are
truly offensive here? And I understand some of you won't think ANY of
them are offensive. But I am making a point by showing how ridiculous
it is that society looks upon scantily clad women in sexy ads as ok,
even GREAT, but providing important nourishment and nutrients to your
child in public by breastfeeding is offensive, distasteful, disgusting,
whatever. Give me your feedback. :)

Wait... well, this is a bad example. Let's try again...

Hmmm... just a minute. Surely i can find better ones than these...

Eh... still not racy enough. I'll check one more time.

That's better. LOOK AT THAT! I see about an inch of boob! Totally disgusting.

Ugh! Look at that indecency!! She must be from some third-world country to be exposed like that!!

Now that's just... There's no words to describe how inappropriate that is. Something needs to be done!!

Now
this takes the cake!! How dare they actually put such a disgusting
image on the cover of a magazine where teenage boys might see it. This
simply must be disposed of ASAP via a shredder, before teenage boys
learn what boobs are really for!!

This just makes me want to vomit!

...but why stop at breastfeeding women? There are boobs
everywhere. Beware! If you thought the above photos were offensive, you
WILL DEFINITELY be offended by the photos below.

Not this one though. This was in plain view on newsstands and in mailboxes in 19 countries worldwide!

Not this one either. This one actually won an award!

Oh, and i guess this ones fine too, since everyone knows you can't sell jeans without someone being topless.

or beer, for that matter!

or sunglasses...

or CDs...

...you
know what? Maybe I'm crazy, but i think that someone mixed up some
photos here. The first batch are offensive, but the second batch are
just fine and dandy???

people who live in glass bras:

shouldn't throw stones:

Which message is healthier?

Breastfeeding which is medically approved to give HUMANS the best start in life. . . or

Images that promote STD's, unattainable beauty standards, sexual promiscuity, plastic surgery, and just plain TRUE indecency?

Which would you rather your daughter live up to?

If you think women have the right to breastfeed their children no matter
where they are, please re-post this. The least you can do is help some
children get the best nutrition they can get. Breastfed babies have
lower instances of obesity, asthma, allergies, certain childhood
diseases, learning disabilities, and other health problems. For each
woman who feels like she shouldn't be breastfeeding right where she is,
there is an innocent baby who is losing out. Don't be responsible for
any child's health problems. support breastfed babies and their right
to eat in public like the rest of us.

Abandon Ship!

2010-11-13T14:20:00.000-05:00

Well it looks like once again I abandoned my Blog. So much has went on in over a year, I should have felt the need to post everything when it happened but I just haven't felt like it. Every time I would want to sit down to make a post I would sit there and just stare at the screen with a blank look on my face. I have so much to update on now that IDK where to start. Not to mention right this very moment I'm sick and my back has been bothering me bad that sitting here is starting to get to me. Ever since I had that accident at work where I tore that muscle and then finding Arthritis it's hard to do anything, especially with the baby. I could Ramble on forever but I'm just going to leave it at this and come back another day.

2 more.

2009-10-08T11:04:00.004-04:00

Well on lighter note with how things have been we have 2 new additions to the household yet again. In the end of July we brought home 2 more kittens, one black one white. We named them Wicket (black one) & Squee (white one).

Long Awaited Update.

2009-10-08T00:33:00.003-04:00

Ok so once again I have abandoned my blog. Bad me. Sometimes I get in the mood to type everything going on, and other times I don't. It's kind of like how I am IRL. Sometimes I can be super talkative with people one day, then day I don't want to be bothered by anyone.

So since I have been MIA since May, I have allot of new's to catch everyone up with, good & sadly some bad. But I'm going to start with all my good news, how things have been going with the Pregnancy.

After my first Dr. appointment my next one took place on Tuesday May 26th, 09 @ 2:40p. I was very Disappointed with this one. It was our first meet with one of the possible Dr's that would be delivering our baby. As soon as we got there, I peed in my cup, they took my weight and blood pressure then took me to my room. First thing the Dr. wasn't on time. Then when he got there I was really hoping we would get to at least hear the heartbeat because I was 8 weeks at that point but we didn't. All he did was ask us a few questions then asked if we had any then sent us on our way. I think we saw him for a total of 5 mins. I wasn't very pleased with him at all.

My next one happened to be my end of the first trimester screening. They wanted to make sure the baby was growing properly and to make sure they couldn't see any birth defects. This took place on Tuesday June 2nd, 09 @ 1:30p. The U/S Technician was super nice when we were in there. Heartbeat, 176. Measurements are right on track with my EDD. She did find a cyst on my left ovary which also looked like the one that got me pregnant is what she told me. She also said it should go away during/after the pregnancy but is going to keep an eye on it to make sure. Baby was very active during the U/S. DBF was funny because he asked if I could feel any of it, and of course I couldn't.

Following appointment was on Tuesday, June 23, 09 @ 10am. Peed in my cup like usual, weighed me and took my blood pressure. All was good. They went over everything with my U/S and said everything looked great. Got to hear the heartbeat on the Doppler finally, and spoke to the PA about my encounter with one of the Dr.'s I got to meet. DBF didn't want me to say anything but I couldn't hold it in, I was so annoyed by him. I felt much better getting it off of my chest.

Next appointment was on Tuesday, July 21, 09 @ 4:40pm. This was the latest appt. we had so far and I'll tell you I won't do another one that late ever again. This appointment was scheduled with the Dr. I got to meet previously that I didn't like. Well all I can say is I still don't like him because he was running late and at about 5pm we were let known that he was. A PA had to fill in for him and see us since he couldn't. I was annoyed because of him, but I was glad in away because I really liked the PA more. She let us hear the heartbeat, then asked us if we had any questions and we were out of there.

Wednesday, July 29, 09 @ 9:15am I had my first WIC appt. The ladies there were really nice. I'm glad I got accepted into the program. It's been a big help. I have my next one Later today actually to get my next 3 months of checks.

Monday, August 1, 09 @1pm we got to find out who our little bundle of joy was. It was a pain let me tell you. I'm glad we got there early because at first I went to the wrong place. My last U/S was at the same place I have my OB appointments, but for this one I was suppose to go to Radiology. Once we got to where we were suppose to be they called my name and here's where we had some issues. DBF and I wanted our mom's to be there for when we found out. Well my mom didn't like the fact that they all couldn't come back at first because they need to do all the scans they have to make sure everything is ok with the baby first before they do the Gender. DBF said she made a big fuss about it and his mom and him felt uncomfortable the way she took it. Oh well. Anyway after all the images needed were taken, She went out and got everyone to come back so we could find out who we are expecting. After awhile of looking around she couldn't get a perfect look because yet again baby was being very active and kept moving. She said she did get 2 good looks but before she could point it out baby would move. But she told us from what she saw she's calling GIRL. She said she saw no signs of any boy parts which if I could have taken a picture the face that DBF was making was priceless. He was hopping for a little boy so bad. It took him awhile to accept the fact, but now he's very happy about it, which makes me happy.

Appointment #6 was on Tuesday, August 25, 09 @ 9:20am. Same as usual, peed in my cup, got weighed, blood pressure was taken. Got to hear the heartbeat asked some questions about swelling and some discomfort breathing. Then went on our way.

Tuesday, September 22, 09 @ 9:15am. Peed in my cup, got weighed which I was shocked because I gained 8lbs from the last time I was there. I knew I had gained because I was feeling it but I didn't think I gained that much. But the PA didn't say anything when she came in and saw. She went over somethings she wanted me to start doing now that I was officially in the 3rd trimester at that point. She went over starting to keep track of a kick count, she wanted to make sure I was drinking more water, and eating right. She also wanted to set up for me to get blood work done which she said she wanted me to have done before I was 30 weeks. which I was 28 at that point. She wanted my Iron levels checked to make sure I wasn't anemic, and also to get my blood glucose test done to make sure I didn't develop Gestation Diabeties. She also said now my appointments were going to go from once a month to every 2 weeks.

Tuesday, October 6, 09 @ 11:45 am. This time I couldn't pee because I went before getting ready in the morning cause I couldn't hold it anymore. I got weighed which I was excited about because I lost 5lbs from the last time. I was worried I gained more because I have been eating allot more, but instead I lost some. The Dr. was concerned about it but then said since I started out over weight that if I gained no weight as long as I didn't lose any I would have been fine. But she kept asking me if I was eating or if I was sick which I wasn't sick and I was eating all the time, so I really have no idea how I could have lost weight. Especially 5lbs in the 2 weeks from my last appointment. Right after visiting with her, I went to the lab to get my blood work done. The Glucose one wasn't as bad as everyone I know has said it was. The stuff tasted pretty good except for because of how sugary it is, it did start to burn the back of my throat when I was trying to finish it. Then I sat there for an hour till they took my blood. I'm hoping that I pass it because I really don't want to have to go back and do the 3hr test. Sitting there for 1hr wasn't so bad, I read my magazine and by the time I knew it, it was time to get my blood drawn, but really to have to sit there for 3hrs is a bit of torture, you can do so many other better things in that 3hrs.

Next appointment is October 20th. I finally get to meet another Dr. other then the one I keep getting. I really hate how they don't have set Dr.'s. I would much rather get to know 1 then to meet someone new every appointment.

27W 5D Belly Pic

So far my pregnancy has been pretty easy except for a few things. I miss sleeping on my stomach, but with the help from my body pillow it has made sleeping on my side easier. Now that I'm further along it's starting to get harder to be on my feet all the time. They are always sore and my legs swell often. Also with my belly it's getting hard to move around because of how awkward I am now. And I thought I would be excited to be able to feel the baby move, but let me tell you I hate it. It's the weirdest feeling ever and I don't think I'll ever get used to it.

Also back on June 22nd, DBF and I celebrated our 8 year anniversary. Now only if he would propose to me. lol

Well on to a sad note and the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with, my Father passed away. August 22nd, 2009. I got the call around 7:30pm from the Dumore Police that they had found my father not breathing. It's been one of the hardest things I had to go through, especially right now. I will probably go into it more another day because thinking about that night right now is starting to make me want to cry and I don't really want to right this moment, because I'm afraid I won't stop. There's not a day that goes by where I don't think about him and I can't believe he's actually gone.

Dad & DBF
RIP Dad, March 21, 1956 - August 22, 2009

Not a day goes by where I'm not thinking of you. I wish you held on long enough just to see your Granddaughter but God had another plan for you. Your in a better place now. I love you.

Well I'm going to end this post here. I have one other thing we are dealing with right now that I will have to go over another day because it's allot to go over with the details. Hopefully I can keep up once again.

Relieved

2009-05-01T13:55:00.003-04:00

Last night the bleeding stopped about 10:30-11pm. After talking to many people they said it was most likely from the pap test I had on Tuesday. Since I had no pain and it never got worse then it was they told me I shouldn't worry. I'm still going to call on Monday and see if I can get an apt. sooner then I had Scheduled just to make sure.

Scared

2009-04-30T17:11:00.002-04:00

Well just now my worst fear happened. While I was at work I had to pee so I went like I always do and as I was just about to I noticed some spotting on my underwear, I thought ok IDK if that was there before. So after I peed low and behold when I went to wipe there was light fresh blood with some small clots on the toilet paper. I started to freak out. So here I am on the toilet with my phone talking to my 2 best friends in text who would know what to do and trying to calm me down.

I called the OB office and they told that if I wasn't bleeding like it was my period I should be fine that I need to lay down and just monitor the bleeding. I was freaking out because I was at work and I didn't want to let work know yet till at least my next Dr. Appt. Which wasn't till the end of next month. So after I get done talking with her I go with tears in my eyes explaining to my Store manager what's going on and that I need to leave. He was ok with it which I was worried he was going to give me problems because I was leaving so early since I just started my Shift at 3p.

I'm so scared and so is DBF. He keeps insisting on going to the ER but I want to wait it out like the Nurse said on the phone at the OB office. My one friend said that it was maybe from my Pap test they gave me on Tuesday, they did tell me I might have some spotting. But I figured if that were the case I would have experienced that by now and that the spotting would be brownish, not pinkish.

Please everyone keep my baby in your thoughts and pray that I'm not having a miscarriage IDK what I would do if I ended up having one.