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बीते लम्हे गुज़रे पल

2011-08-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

बीते लम्हे गुज़रे पल,

अक्सर मुझे याद आते हैं

दूर हुए वो पल फिर क्यूँ

वो मुझे इतना सताते हैं

उन लम्हों को सोचकर दिल फिर यूँ ही चीख उठता हैं

कहने को थी कितनी बातें मगर तू सुन ना सकी मैं कह ना सका

कह ना सका की तू कितनी खुबसूरत हैं

कह ना सका की मेरे लिए

तेरी क्या अहमियत हैं

तेरी आँखों में जो संसार मैंने देखा

मुझे बस उस संसार में जीना हैं

नफरत कर लेना मुझसे ढेर सारी

पहले चंद लम्हे मुझे मुझे तेरे प्यार में जीना हैं

उन लम्हों को महसूस कर दिल फिर यूँ ही चीख उठता हैं

कहनी तो थी इतनी बातें मगर तू सुन ना सकी मैं कह ना सका

मालूम हैं मुझे तू किसी और की अमानत हैं

चाहता तो ना था मगर जानू ना

की तू कैसे बन गयी मेरी आदत हैं

याद हैं मुझे फुर्सत के वो पल

वो चांदनी रातें वो हसीं कल

वो ढेर सारी बातें कुछ हमारी कुछ तुम्हारी

उन बातों को सोचकर दिल फिर यूँ ही चीख उठता हैं

कहनी तो थी कितनी बातें मगर तू सुन ना सकी मैं कह ना सका

काश कह दिया होता

कितना दर्द हैं इस दिल में

काश कह दिया होता की

अकेला हूँ तेरे बिना इस भरी महफ़िल में

काश कहा होता

की वो चाँद आधा सा

कितना प्यारा लगता हैं

काश कहा होता वो ही सब

जो मेरा दिल बार बार बकता हैं

दिल की बेकरारी को सोचकर चीख उठता हूँ

कहनी तो थी कितनी बातें

मगर मैं कह ना सका तू सुन ना सकी

ANI

from the vault of my favorites.

ANYTHING FOR YOU MA'M

2011-08-14T04:34:00.000-07:00

I can make any mess right,
I can make dimmers bright,
I can be on soaring heights,
I can do
Anything for you ma'm
Anything for you.

I can be with you anytime,
I can make anything fine,
I can abode you on the shrine,
I can do

Anything for you ma'm
Anything for you.

I can make flowers fly,
I can make clouds cry,
I know I am somewhat shy,
But I can do

Anything for you ma'm
Anything for you.

So I can do anything,
If only you are with me,
I don't care about rest of the world,
whatever it is let it be
I just want to be with you,
I just want your little time,
That's it
I can do
Anything for you ma'm
Anything for you.

ANI

Trishna

2011-02-20T08:58:00.000-08:00

मेरे दिल में जलने लगी हैं आग

तू ही बता दे आज

की इस आग को बुझाऊं कैसे?

कुछ ही दिन पहले मुझे लगा

की तू ही हैं वोही जिसे मैं धुन्धता हूँ
अब तू ही दे बता की उन सपनो को दफनाऊ कैसे?

ऐसी क्या खता की मैंने की
हर रिश्ता दुश्वार हुआ
कल तक था जो अपना
आज वोही गद्दार हुआ
उन बातों को भूल जाऊं कैसे?
दिल में हैं जो आग तू ही बता उसे बुझाऊं कैसे?

क्या मैं गलत था जो तुझे अपना माना
तेरी हर बात को पत्थर की लकीर जाना
चाहे दे दे मुझे कोई भी सजा
बस बता दे मुझसे दूर जाने की वजह
क्या हुआ जो ऐसी गाज़ गिर गयी
महसूस हुआ जिंदगी मेरी विपदा से घिर गयी
तू ही दे बता अब इनसे निकल पाऊं कैसे?
दिल में हैं जो आग तू ही दे बता की आज उसे बुझाऊं कैसे?

                                                                                 "ऐनी"
                                                                                 (ANI)

2011-02-20T08:12:00.000-08:00

One day if you'll ask me
what is "love"
I would be totally silent
Not because i don't know
But coz my "luv" is asking
me what is "LUV"

then i just stare at her
and walk some farther
and i said
LUV is a feeling which is
in my heart for U
Its a sea which is just
making flow in my eyes.

SCHOOL TIME

2011-02-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

I still remember those days
always fresh as yesterday it stays,
when we were together with many friends
but now its just you and me
time is flying just like sand.

I still the remember the journey
from school to home
and then i feels like just to roam, roam & roam

Wish those days would come back again
so that i could cherish on the same
then we have lots of time for each other
but now some things in between just gathered,

Wish that one day you'll realise
That our friendship is just a PERFECT surprise

by "ANI"

MY FRIEND

2011-02-20T07:22:00.000-08:00

When i am alone you are the one
                                                  who is always with me,
When I am depressed you are the one
                                                  who delights me,
When I am happy you are the one
                                                  who shares with me,
When I loses interest in me you are the one
                                                  who makes me interesting,
When I want to show my talent you are the one
                                                  who encourages me,
But when i think of "you", you are the one
                                                  whom i MISS badly.

Wo raatein teri baatein

2011-02-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

Tez hawa chal rahi thi un thandi hawaon mein use ye ehsaas hi nahi tha ki use sardi lag sakti hain. Pehli baar NIA uske saath thi aur pehli baar aisa mausam usko achhca lag raha tha. Use mumbai ki wo sadke badi achchi lag rahi thi un sunsaan sadko par wo sab friends ghum rahe the and nic ke saath nia bhi thi.wo lamppost ki dheemi si roshni aur wo andhera - aisa mausam jo ki bas sapno mein ho. wo dheere se kareeb aayi aur boli I Luv U wo lines sunne ke liye NIC ne kitna intezaar kiya tha aur beech raah mein she kissed him.

Uski aankhon ki lalak dekhkar wo paagal hue ja raha tha. Dono ki aankhon mein ek hi sawaal tha lekin koi nahi bol raha tha har taraf ek sannata chchaya hua tha ye aisa sannata tha jisme wo uski saanson ki awaaz sun sakta tha jo ki hamesha se usne chaha tha-"Apni jaan ki saanso ko sunna".

Chapter - 11

2011-01-14T22:37:00.000-08:00

Baby u know na its been cold out there and i am kind of freezing out of this cold and u both, i miss u..........these past days have not been too good for me if u would be here i just want to be in ur arms for sometime......NIC wishes that and messaged that to NIA just thinking that she would see that this time and would call him like always.........but she didn't respond, how can she respond when she doesn't exist anymore..........NIC wanted to talk to her just like that but he couldn't able to and he found out a new way to convince himself and his mind that she still exists.......... she never quit sending messages to her no. from net everytime he miss her or wanna talk to her he messaged her hoping may be someday she will get all the messages or its like he is been obsessed by her now not exactly by her but also by her no. with which everything started.

He was in euphoria of her, he tried to get this into his head but failed. She is the only one who could able to see him inside out. He is pure evil, his thoughts are pure evil he never have known that if she wouldn't come to his life. That realization of mind is the thing that made her inseparable, that evil mind just want her.

1st Anniversary - Love & Pain

2011-01-01T10:54:00.000-08:00

Its been a whole year since NIC knows NIA. Although everything is finished now and he knows that she won't come back again but somewhere in his heart her love still exists even if its in the remotest corner of his heart but its there.Every time he saw a couple sitting and having a chat or romance he missed her, he missed her badly he wants her to be in his life in whatever way she wants. He doesn't seem to be fun whenever he is lonely, she come back in his mind with her full swing and this time its different he never ever felt that pain for anyone else till now and he don't know if he ever gonna be out of this recovery period in his mind. But why is he thinking that way NIA is gone. She gonna be very happy with someone else but NIC was standing where he was 6 months back. Its been a year of love and pain for NIC he is thankful for the love and pain coz if she won't come in his life he never have felt that love in his whole life. Now he is aware of loving someone so passionately it was always known to NIC that he will lose his lover in the end coz every time he loves someone that person would not remain in his life. He was just hoping that may be this time its different may be this time he would get what he wanted.

Its over still he remembers and cherishes those moments her chats, messages, those lovely talks, those awesome dreams. He was not sure of it until he saw her coming through that door and he saw her there dumbstruck coz he knew he is in love with her she is the one for him. She is the ultimate dream in his dreamland everything else can wait but not his emotions and his dream of having her in his life. He wanted to hug her so tight as if telling her that he didn't ever want her to go out of his life ,his arms & his dreams. He never hugged her and she's gone.........

Jaane kyun ye zindagi deewana bana gayi

Wo aayi ek baar isme aur har rang saja gayi

Saje hue rango ko usne rehne na diya

Kismat aisi palti ki kuch kehne bhi na diya

The Day I Die

2010-12-31T06:30:00.000-08:00

THE DAY I DIE WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE,
TELL MY FRIENDS, MY GIRL LIKEWISE
EVERYTHING WOULD BE ALRIGHT
THE DAY I DIE WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

IN MY WHOLE LIFE, I FELT LIKE DEAD,
SO MY DREAM DEATH HAVE GIVEN ME A NEW LIFE,
THE DAY I DIED, THE DAY I DIED,
THE DAY I DIED WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

EVERYTIME A REMORSE WAS IN MY EYES,
I DIDN'T GOT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE,
JUST TELL NO ONE TO CRY,
COZ THE DAY I DIED WAS
THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

I WAS A DREAM CHASER ONCE,
EVENTUALLY ALL MY DREAMS DIE,
THEY COULD TURN INTO REALITY
UNTIL MY SPIRITS DIE
THE DAY I DIE WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

BY ANI

This paper was always in my pocket from the time we used to attend the lectures in college and i thought its the perfect time to upload it. I know first two lines are from a song "THE DAY I DIED". I love this song too.

2010-12-05T05:26:00.000-08:00

Everyday is the same without you. pale dark for me even in the shiny sun it is. she said - i know you are saying all this just to flatter me and said but u know i am already flattered the day i have seen you for the first time it never seems so good to meet somebody who could luv more than one's own pride and one's own self. Hearing this NIC was amazed coz he always underestimated him he knows someday somebody would luv to have him in her life, but he never thought that wat it feels to hear all this from the one whom you think is the right choice for you.
she was all over in NIC's mind never ever he felt alone even in the nights or in the dreams her luv is always with him. He was lucky to have her in his life. he wasn't complaining now not from god not from his friends not from him even that was the power of luv which have made him powerful so powerful that being a fun loving and irresponsible guy he made his mind to take her responsibility his whole life. NIC always knew that he would be able to convince everybody in his family. He really wasn't convincable but he always knew that nobody would make a messy situation of this. So one day it is really really important for him to reveal his decision as she couldn't wait she couldn't able to sort it out all those sweet nothings to just herself. She is happy and sad at the same time and when this happens it means time has come to act brave and taking up some responsibilities.
Nic takes the initiative, a foray into the ray of happiness which is never there before. He is happy real happy nobody can take away what he has got (although its just his perception). He feels like the king of the world, he feels like he is on the seventh heaven. He always wanted to feel like that always but it is saying na - "time will change whether its good or bad no matter what" ............................
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and then one day everything is finished forever.

Y love

2010-12-05T02:39:00.000-08:00

Do you know what's hard? Hard is the feeling itself yeah love even if you aren't with somebody but still you want your share of love and everyone's heart crave for this precious feeling. love a mere 4 letter word has made life heaven and havoc, if you got someone to love its heaven and if you are on the other side that means you are still in search of that someone special who would rock your world, really that love only is the reason for making your life havoc. Being at this hour i was thinking why do we need love so badly, that we are just waiting for it so eagerly.Why do you think that, your love would be wasted on the realities of life, everybody would be moving ahead, even the girl who is always there in your dreams or the girl who is your best friend. They would be leaving you behind with all that agony and pain of finding that 'true love'.

'TRUE LOVE' - itself is a very complicated thing nobody can understand it nobody is sure about that, does it really exist even that is not a very sure case. different people think of love differently, for some it is the person who would take care of them, a spouse who would take care of everyone in the family, a girl who would be so truthful to you that even when he feels a lil drifted away towards some other person she could able not to attach with that emotionally because problem lies in the very fact that guys just see the girls as the mere desires they can just have fun with the person and move on in life but its not like that with girls even if they don't really like to flirt with the person but they are attached to them emotionally they would just think of them while doing somethings at their private time that could be the love making time with your hubby, which is by itself a very odd feeling.

love love love only thing which has made a life of a person worth dying for. And if you don't have someone you are already dead my friend there is nothing you want to do.

JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL

2010-10-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

HAAN JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL,
HAAN JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL
MAUT SE TOI MAIN DARTA NAHI
\AUR DARTA TO SUN LE SANAM
SUN LE SANAM PYAAR TUJHSE MAIN KARTA NAHI

HAAN JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL,
HAAN JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL

GAM KA MAUSAM GUZARTA NAHI
ZAKHM YAADO KA BHARTA NAHI
RAAT PARVAT HIAN KATTI NAHI
DIN HIAN DARIYA UTARTA NAHI
MAIN AKELA NA REH PAUNGA
DURI TAK RAAT HI RAAT HIAN
ZINDAGI EK ALAG CHEEZ HIAN
ZINDA REHNA ALAG BAAT HIAN

UMAR KAISE GUZAR PAAYEGI
EK PAL JAB GUZARTA NAHI
HAAN JUDAAI SE DARTA HIAN DIL

U Still Xists

2010-10-01T10:46:00.000-07:00

Those were the times when we walk together,
together though we eat, together is our togetherness,
which can even felt on streets,
Those were the times, when you ring my cell
and i can't able to pick, you just missed me whole day
but talking times don't click

i loved you
i loved you for being the girl of my every dream
i loved you for loving me more
with happiness i just want to scream.
every desire is seem to be fulfilled
everywhere is happines,
so much so that i can even touch the stars

But then the love story ends,
happy days vanishes
and starts the drama, u want to quit
u want to go out of this love
u want to run,
leaving behind me,
but its not just me who is destroyed
its our love which does
its us who don't be together
its us who suffers most but
eventually u forgot and moved on
i don't know the reason 4 that
but my love in my heart
YOU STILL EXISTS...........

Missed

2010-09-25T10:47:00.000-07:00

hey my first post on my first i mean personal blog.

Missed LUV

Nick is missing her he doesn't know that it would be much difficult for him now. She is gone forever she is gone for long she would not come back and nick knows that. He always have a thinking that he loves her and she won't go but to his amazement there is much more in life than love. what kind of a tale he is living in. he gets to know that what his heart is craving for is just a lie, a lie all stuck with mud of the world. He is feeling like an idiot. Over last 6 months she has made his life unimaginable in those loving days he always feel like the world is rosy or may be the window from which he is watching the world is very narrow but this is all he wanted his whole life. He wanted that the breeze always will be flowing so smooth but he never knows that it won't last long. And when there is so much happiness in his life he is devastated she is gone. She won't come back again she told him that it would be better not to live together.

Nick now don't know how to react for all the things he has in life lose their meaning. Now he has everything except the one he loves most his love. He walk the track but don't know why he is walking, she and her memories always keep coming back. Eventually they lose contact slowly slowly.She want to be away from him but he never wants that. He couldn't think otherwise. His life is still empty all he remembers is their love which is gone now. Time is flying away he lose contact with her all he have is her landline no. but he never called coz he don't know he always wanted to chat with her like before but everytime he pick his cell to call her, he remembered the love they share and he don't want to get hurt again. He was sure of it that, time won't come that feeling won't change and now he is liking to miss her always he is liking to remember the time they have spent just on phone the irreparable damage has already done. But then also he just remembers one saying

"ishq di meri mitra pehchaan ki, mit jaaye jado zid apnaan ki"

and he is living his life again with her memories.