YELLOW BUT AIN'T MELLOW

Maze, my mighty mate

2012-01-15T12:25:00.002+07:00

This little rant today is dedicated to my private mate, my lifeless friend. Call him Maze.

13-inch Mac white, bought in July 2008. He's a vintage and I'm sorta proud. When everyone else is carrying their silvery glittery MacPro, I've got no shame dating with this old guy in public.

He's no longer a beauty by now. Just like human being, he's aging. Selling him is not a solution either. I've tried asking his value in an iBox about a year ago, and they scored him only like 1,8 Million or so. Like..... uhm. Better keep him home with me, with all the memories he's keeping #saelah

He has suffered lots of "sickness", here they go...

Cellotapes on left and right front side, the corner cracked (yea seriously) so I hold the broken piece with these tapes, hence it wouldn't be any tiny ugly hole there

Yellowy dirty spot on the trackpad. Well, guess I'll never get along too well with whites...

What's even worse? 3 months ago I accidentally splashed some amount of black coffee on the keyboard. Uhm nope, guess I poured it, to be more precise. Then my P, enter, and some other important buttons were not working. So as you can see, now I have to get along with this on-screen keyboard.

Another dirt mark...

And just minutes ago, I noticed that my webcam also stops working.

Well, that's my guy. My lifeless, non-hugable one, I mean.

He's definitely not the most sophisticated laptop on earth. In fact, he's in a poor condition because of the owner's carelessness, namely me. Why I'm writing this post, is simply as an expression of gratitude that he's still working after 3,5 yrs (and I'm using him right now, typing this stuff).

Lesson for you guys : Take better care of your stuffs. Most of them might not be bought by your personal expense, you got them from your papa or maybe from anyone else. Appreciate every single drop of sweat they wipe to give you those gadgets or whatever.

Oopsie. I'm pretty sure it's not a lesson-for-you-guys. It's for me.

shameless publication due to excessive excitement

2012-01-12T19:44:00.003+07:00

Well, if you paid bit attention to my twitter TL or FB page (or maybe, a small round black image on the right tab of this blog), you might see lots of posts about this one event I'm currently working on. Yupness, I started this with 6 other friends in October (can't recall the exact date) and right now there are more than 80 people plus many volunteers standing beside us, taking care together of our precious baby girl namely UI Fashion Week.

Under the tagline "United Integrated : Nation of Creation", we're aiming to unite all fashion interests in UI, arrange an event to gather up UI studentpreneurs, young newbie creativepreneurs all over this country, and also major well-known names in local fashion zone. Not only to give you nonstop shows that gonna make you ga-ga-gasp, our main goal is to endorse everyone who has passion for fashion but doesn't have the guts to take it more seriously as money-making machine. Fashion is a creative industry that never runs out of idea, and we would like to show you that with passion and strong vision, anyone can be a fashion sensation (it rhymes, yaayyy #flatface).

Until now I still can believe we've made it THIS far. Soooo excited slash proud slash happy I can't help not to share it out loud. Lots of big names have agreed to join our main event. Let me make it bold, it's A LOT, and BIG. So far we've got deals with several rookie designers and labels, and also Nikicio, Barli Asmara, Ichwan Thoha, Batik 118 by Dee Ong, Danjyo Hiyoji, Klé, Monday To Sunday, Dian Pelangi, Zevin Shoes, École (you might've seen them on SOGO counters all over the city), Trax FM, Hard Rock FM, Cita Cinta, Grazia, Looks Magazine, Geeks Bible, Kaskus.us, MyTipsCantik.com, Mustika Ratu, Mesty Ariotedjo, Dian Sastro, Maudy Koesnaedi, Timnas U-23, Lookbooker Jakarta, and you know what sounds better than all those? We're still counting for more names! Gigantic yay to the ness!

'Course I can't make it without this amazing team. Without any intention of being solemnly humble or what, I'm nothing without their hard works. My contribution doesn't equal theirs, in any ways. Seriously, I won't be typing this post if I hadn't met them at the first place.

First of all, thanks to 6 other founders of this baby girl : Raldiano Fawzi, Argi Wibawa, Annisa Sylvia, Kya Fiddinie, Kartika Febrianty, Mustika Utami. I'm so thankful that fate has brought us together and made us come up with this brilliant radiant idea.
To my Creative Directors, Nindia Satiman and Raldiano Fawzi, for working so hard, going here and there, arranging dozens of meetings and dealings, keeping in touch with other crews, and other good deeds I can't mention them all. Feel so much like hugging you both right now.
Show Director Argi Wibawa & Gilang Ageng Sulistyo, Annisa Sylvia as Pre Event Coordinator, Zoraya Meizita, De Yogi Kosalania, Aquitanya Irfiandra, Putri Rezkita, Alexander Christyo Wibowo, Dandy Prakoso, and every single head and folk who've prepared the Pre Event very precisely. I'm feeling 100% optimistic about your work, let's rock in together in February.
Also to Ni Nyoman Nyla, Akbar Hardisurya, Kartika Febrianty, Tasya Kuswardani, Meutia Athaya, and all Sponsorship, Tenant, & Talent Folks. Thanks for the hard work from the very beginning. I owe you lads a lot.
To the folks that I haven't mentioned, it's not that I didn't acknowledge your work, I swear for God's sake. Each one of you is precious. I just can't manage to remember all full names of around 80 people, honestly dude.

It's not me showing off or bluffing up. It's simply me being too excited and too happy working with you guys, achieving this much. Let's grab MORE, we still have like 3 months to make it be-be-bigger.

Last but not least, here comes a small effort to sundul gan this event.
Kindly click the link to reach our website, Facebook, Twitter, and our online ticketing site (coming soon). Spread the hysteria bacteria dear #UIFASHIONFOLKS.

An out-of-topic intermezzo. I'm currently listening to Amsterdots by Afrojack feat The Partysquad, over and over. And also the whole tracks from Friendly Fires' albums, Friendly Fires (self titled) and Pala. Give em a shot people, these dudes really deserve a place on your iPod playlist.

Look into your eyes, imagine life without ya...

2012-01-08T02:02:00.000+07:00

You want me to come over
I got an excuse
Might be holding your hand
But I'm holding it loose
Go to talk them we choke
It's like our necks in a noose
Avoid the obvious
We should be facing the truth

Start to think it could be fizzling out
Kinda shocked because I never really had any doubts
Look into your eyes, imagine life without ya

... And the love kickstarts again

It's the same old you, the same old me
You get bored and I get cold feet
Get high, get wandering eyes
Forget I've never ever had it so sweet
I realize what I got when I'm out of town
Cause deep down you're my girl in a golden crown
My princess and I don't wanna let you down
No I don't wanna let you down

Start to think it could be fizzling out
Kinda shocked because I never really had any doubts
Look into your eyes, imagine life without ya

... It kickstarts again

Example - Kickstarts

video taken from YouTube

last trumpet howl in 2011

2011-12-31T01:47:00.001+07:00

It's 31 already. Routines do suck, but such thing like flashback and new year resolutions are still making enough sense to me. I'll simply make it extra quick since I've got something not-that-important-but-I-need-to-say-it-anyway to type.

.2011 recap

JAN
- Singapore blitztrip with the kosans
- N.E.R.D with Aan. one of the best scenes so far
- Another maker with radioslaves. Another tronton session *sigh

FEB
- UPH announcing competition, RTC was the 1st winner! #proudmama

MAR
- Santana! Sondre! Splendid

APR
- Legal&Crime fashion show, The Perso official launch
- Livecoustic RTC

MAY
- Joined Delima, first official job (can't call that a genuine job, though)

JUN
- Taking a role on theater play for my final tests. Effin zuper.
- Celebrating 20th bday in hometown, grandpa & ma's 50th wedding anniversary, sadly had to miss RTC ingath @ Anyer
- Officially stopped gym. Oh well

JUL
- Missed Cranberries. geez. GEEZ

AUG
- Excursion to Mustang 88 FM
- Delima bazaar @ Rayakan Indonesia. Real def of "tiiiiired"
- RTC Bday @ Ichu's

SEP
What happened in Sept? Amnesiac, can't remember any #duh

OKT
- Bekasi Jazz Festival. MYMP in Bekasi #kapanlagidotcom
- Fashion Show Kulturfest 2011
- Backstage RTC! Float and Goodnight Electric on same stage. Ecstatic
- Started UIFASHIONWEEK

NOV
- 20112011. File > New documents

DEC
Typing this. And smile :)

Uhm. 2011 was like, surprisingly quick and quickly surprising. Should I pick an analogy to describe it best, it would be a lightbulb I guess. At some moments it was bright slash brilliant, and then just seconds after, I'd feel like someone clicked the light away and I fell down to the darkest darkness. It only took brief period of time to be happy, then a briefer one to make me 180-degree desesperado. Switching my day from :( to :) or vice versa was very easy, like turning the lights on and off.

Many things happen, many things I learn. Most important lesson : I learn to manage the time God has given me. He only gave me 24 hrs a day while I needed actually 100, with these things I need to concern here and there. Hence I must use it wisely and make any short second counts. Some might call me busy bee, sleepless ambitious beotch, whatever. You know what? I make use of every single hour in my days just to keep my mind occupied, to prevent me from thinking about unimportant insanities.

Most important, this last post of 2011 is intended for one particular person who never left any deep mark in my past and (super sadly) won't be any part of my future. But one thing, he's the one I embrace my present with.

Happy birthday to you, end of December. The earnest, nicest, wisest person I need the most.

I know I've been such a horrible pain in the ass. I knew it, and I didn't try hard enough to fix that. I'm sorry you have to stay stuck with me while actually you can bail out and snatch any better girl out there. Sorry for my childishness, my ego, my lack of time for us, my lack of affection for what's going on with you. Sorry that I was always the one to set the fire and you were always the one to compromise. Sorry for all the sacrifices. I don't worth it, not that much. And last one, sorry I don't have the guts to say these directly to you and typed it here instead. Yes, speaking of the scardy cat...

I'm quite sure you'll read this one day, either now or maybe years from now, I don't really give a damn about "when". The point is, I'm terribly sorry that I can never give my all. If only you and I were born ......... (you know what I mean). Sighness. Okay I don't want to talk about this anymore.

Well, forget my rants. No matter what awaits for us in the other end of this highway, I'm happy right now and I'm hyper thankful that I found a perfect remedy for my distressing days.

Thanks. ILDS
from your Snor-lacks that lacks of everything you want

Say Sing-A-whaatt?

2011-11-19T15:58:00.001+07:00

Nothing. I'm just reminiscing that good chilly January

The Anakkosans Go International Chapter 2 is about to be released, like, not really soon actually. Still have to wait and cross my legs until Summer 2012. By the time being, let's just flip through these old pictures while hoping that the next round will be damn more superb. Yo ho, let's sail the air! Ka pun kap!

The Timeline - when it all started...

2011-11-19T14:25:00.001+07:00

FASHION SHOW - THE FASHION TIMELINE
part of Kulturfest 2011 : Junge Generation für unsere Zukunft
celebrating 50th Anniversary of German Studies UI
Wednesday, October 12th 2011

wardrobes by Forever 21, Legal&Crime, Esmod Jakarta
make up by Etude

photos by Dana Pranesthi Wening
I've edited some tints here and there

Sorry for the über belated post, but still, I'd like to thank everyone in this photo above (and also some people being out of frame). Crews, models, fitters, mannequins, and bien sûr all ye spectators! That might not be the best show ever, yet it surely was the best team I've ever involved in.

Good news is, this is just the starting point of our timeline. The show carries on, now in a way bigger scale! Another event with the word "fashion show" entitled in it. I guarantee you, it's not the corny prestige we run after. It's the pleasure.

Wait up in April 2012. We're about to stun this posh industry. Find out more here

UI FASHION WEEK 2012, proudly recruiting!

2011-10-27T17:43:00.002+07:00

New footprints in the history is on the making!

Proudly introduce...

We need like zillions of heads and hands to make this work. If you're a fashion junkie, big huge money spender, or you simply want to meet new folks from UI and try a new experience in holding YOUR OWN show, then do join the troops!

Recruitment is opened for these divisions :

1. Sound and Ambience Folks

2. Choreographer

3. Floor Folks

4. Talent Folks

5. Gourmet Folks

6. Staging & Lighting Folks

7. Decor Folks

8. Sponsorship Folks

9. Legalization Folks

10. Tenant Folks

11. Finance Folks

12. Public Relations Folks

13. Photography and Documentation Folks

14. Editing Folks (for Banner, Flyer, Lookbook, etc)

Swiftly send your CV to uifashionweek@yahoo.com with subject CV -Name-

and tell us which division(s) you'd like to join.

Still confused? We're holding a private interview with each applicants after mid-test (around end of November), we can help you to decide there.

For further infos kindly mention us on Twitter @UIFASHIONWEEK (another followers would be awesome, do promote us!)

Visit our website http://uifashionweek.blogspot.com

We've received dozens of CVs by now, and the amount is still increasing by each day. So grab your chance to work together with other #UIFASHIONFOLKS, together we'll show the nation that UI students is not all about bookworms or whatever. We got lots of talents and competitive entrepreneurs who can make the industry stunned.

See you like real soon #UIFASHIONFOLKS!

Fierce regards,

UI Fashion Week Team

bold, black, beautiful

2011-10-23T22:50:00.002+07:00

just another small tip to be under the spotlight without way too much effort :
some people say, perfect pair of shoes would mark up your outlook like 10000x better

why go basic if you can flaunt it terrific?
black can go bolder than neon sparks with slightly right, measured touch of uniqueness, like these...

Frame

United Nude

Zoe

Sam Edelmann

Space Shoe Wood Wedge Sandal

Minimarket

Charmene

Messeca

What

Jeffrey Campbell

Night Walk
Jeffrey Campbell

Ninja

Heavy Machine

116-79

Finsk

Femmes

Gee-Wa-Wa

all images were taken from solestruck.com

booooooring, tee-hee!

2011-10-23T14:38:00.000+07:00

doing randomness between assignment deadlines is my guilty pleasure. those randomnesses include sleeping, magazine digesting, munching, stalking (yea yea), blogwalking etc.

am currently blogwalking through friends' blogs, opened their friends' link, go further to their other friends', and so on until I barely knew the owner of those blogs. I found this on one of those blogs. I wanted to put the hyperlink here (avoiding plagiarism issue, I might say) but thanks to my slip fingers, I closed the window before copying the link. zzz. and I didn't pay attention to the name, so it's a waste to flip through history tabs. zzzzhhhh

well then, the rule is simple. BOLD what applies to you:

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you. (oh, this point came first. okay.....)
02. You have been in a serious relationship before.
03. You own an iPod of some sort.
04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. You drink too much alcohol.
06. You have been to the Olive Garden.
07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. It is really cold in your house right now.
09. You are extremely dependent on others.
10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.
11. You ate a lot of food today.
12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.
13. People consider you as a happy sort of person.
14. Someone in your family is rich.
15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.
16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.
19. You have had a serious surgery.
20. Your house has a spare bedroom.
21. Your house is old.
22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. You have never held a baby before.
24. You can’t handle toddlers.
25. You have a painting in your room.
26. You have been to Canada.
27. You have been to Mexico.
28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.
29. You celebrate Easter.
30. You observe Lent.
31. You are Catholic.
32. You do not believe in God.
33. Religion is not important to you.
34. You want to have a small family one day.
35. You would rather have more sons than daughters.
36. You have more aunts than uncles.
37. You hate being too cold.
38. You currently are way tanner than everyone else.
39. You wear shoes in your house.
40. Your parents are clean freaks.
41. You are more messy than clean.
42. You are currently angry at someone.
43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. Your desk is extremely clean.
45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.
46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song.
47. You have no clue what that song is.
48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. You are glad George Bush is out of office.
50. Politics are boring to you.
51. You take a vitamin daily.
52. You feel like you are sick often.
53. You hate throwing up.
54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. You love getting bubble baths.
58. You do not like chocolate at all.
59. You are allergic to nuts.
60. You have been stung by a bee before.
61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.
62. One of your parents is 50 or older.
63. You are the baby of your immediate family.
64. You hate broccoli. (very much)
65. Cooked carrots are good, though.
66. You go on tumblr too much.
67. You are really comfortable right now.
68. You like witty t-shirts.
69. You are a major fan of underground bands.
70. You have been on an airplane before.
71. You are not afraid of heights.
72. You consider yourself paranoid. (insecure, more precise)
73. You have had a panic attack before. (yes, big huge YES)
74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.
75. You would choose the elderly over children.
76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. You like the color green.
78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.
80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. You are a big breakfast eater.
83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. You are craving something salty.
85. You have been in a car today.
86. There is something plugged in near you.
87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”
88. You do not like medical television shows.
89. You prefer horror to comedies.
90. You adore Leo & Kate.
91. You think high-waisted pants look good.
92. You hate cheesy movies.
93. You enjoy camping out.
94. Bugs bother you.
95. You do well in school without trying.
96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.
97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. You like energy drinks.
99. You like italics.
100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

the conclusion is... well. apaan ya?
I bolded like around 30% of them, which means : my current conditions are quite clichée, or?

analogy monologuey

2011-10-09T00:05:00.000+07:00

I saw a red tulip, then I told you “Look, a tulip!”

You smiled and replied “It’s rose, my sweet lil dummie.”

I was like, whaattt? “But babe can’t you see? That must be a tulip!”

You turned emotional. “What kind of goddamned tulip would look like that? Come on.”

I thought, alright. Anything to stop this nonsense fight. Okay hon, that’s a rose, just like your smart-ass said.

When you heard that, you got mad instead.

I thought like, “Fine then. I’ve compromised for you, you don’t buy that, fine enough.” And that was exactly why I left you there.

So right now, if you think you could come to me and say “I just realized after all this time, you’re right. I think that was a tulip we saw back then.”

well I’ll spill it all out to your face. “Look, both the tulip and the rose were already withered, dead, RIP, like ages ago. So why bother about them at the first place? Get off.”

Get off. I won’t ever listen to you anymore.

(previously posted on Tumblr, July 11th 2011)

Road to Backstage RTC 2011

2011-10-08T01:02:00.001+07:00

PRE EVENT 1

Saturday, September 24th 2011 @ Old House Margo City

featuring :

Karolina

(@MUSIKAROLINA)

HocuspocuZ

(@hocuspocuz)

Dekuliner

(@dekuliner)

and 7 other bands chosen by our Music Directors to continue to Top 10 Audition. these 10 bands were chosen out of 55 applying bands with wide range of genres. 5 of them will perform on our 2nd Pre Event, and of course, on the Main Event.

special performance from The Shapers, french punk-rock indie band

(@theshapers)

p.s. : they also sang an Indonesian song, namely Netral - Cahaya Bulan, very fluently!

PRE EVENT 2

Wednesday, Sept 28th 2011 @ Kantin Sastra FIB UI

mini teaser for the Main Event. featuring some guest bands from FIB UI and 5 chosen bands from the 1st Pre Event.

Experimental Club, guest band from FIB

Mind Deer

(@minddeer)

Honeybeat

(@honeyBeatband)

... and they finally bring us forth to the MAIN EVENT

Friday, October 14th 2011 @ Parkiran Psikologi UI. free entry!

presenting :
- Top 5 bands from Backstage audition
Dekuliner
Hocuspocuz
Honeybeat
Karolina
Minddeer

- guest stars
Borock n Roll
Delay Monday
Final Attack
Hamba Allah
Raksasa Project
The Psycho
Speedkill
GOODNIGHT ELECTRIC
FLOAT

all of those for free! make sure you join the cheerios, see you there!

That very moment when insecurity crashes me like massive car accident

2011-10-06T01:01:00.001+07:00

Rem, kopling, gas
Melaju pelan di atas aspal keras
Roda bergulir dibawah terik panas

Gigi satu, netral, gigi dua
Macet bagai hari libur di Cisarua
Radio, AC, demi mengusir penat kunyalakan semua

Tol ramai lancar, gigi tiga
Polisi berdiri tegak namun tak ada sikap siaga
Biar sajalah, walau begitu aku harus tetap terjaga

Semakin lancar! Hajarlah gigi enam
Mendadak jurang membentang, aku terkaget nafasku berdentam
Sekuat iman kuinjak rem sampai terbenam

Kenapa aku tidak bisa berhenti............

There's a moment to seize every time that we meet, but you always keep passing me by

2011-09-04T01:26:00.002+07:00

So, I was sitting outside one day
Waiting for the dude to come down my way
Praying, wishing, hoping, thinking
And I felt my emotions sinking
I've been waiting for the phone to ring
I check constantly, but it was all a dream
I never thought you could be so mean
Tired of the waiting, so it's time to come clean
And why do boys have to be so shady?
First it's all good and he's glad you're his lady
Baby this, baby that, see another chick and he act like that
But the thing with me, I can't take it
Keep it 100, was real, now face it
You gonna eat your words and Imma make you happen
So we're ready for the action

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine...
No you never were, and you never will be mine...
There's a moment to seize every time that we meet
But you always keep passing me by
No you never were, and you never will be mine...

If you havin problems with the one you love so much
And you wanna feel his touch
Put your hand in the air, let them know that you truly care
You don't wanna do the fight fuss
Getting sick of the love pain
All the lies and the trust games
Guessing, age don't make a difference
And I'm getting fed up, so listen
First you told me that you loved me dearly
I loved you, did I make that clearly?
And you're thinking that you can play my game
But I wanna think twice, so retain my claim
And I'm kinda mad at myself, cause I let you get the best of me
To confess to me, her
Oh boy, I'm through
Tell that chick that she better get at you

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine...

No you never were, and you never will be mine...

There's a moment to seize every time that we meet

But you always keep passing me by

No you never were, and you never will be mine...

(Robyn feat Rye Rye - Never Will Be Mine)

it doesn't completely resemble my true recent case here, but still.........

stalking after-effect

2011-09-01T03:58:00.002+07:00

Why God created north and south,
if we're supposed to walk side by side?
The stones scattering on the street,
we used to kick em up away like little kid.
If our path has really been cleared,
now tell me why we become this weird?
Words hanging like sword against my mouth,
yet I never had the chance to spill them all right.

To the moonless night sky I demand :
please take me to the place where your future will stand...

it might sound cliché, but it's still true

2011-08-24T21:25:00.001+07:00

I have this one friend whose story I feel like sharing to all of you. first of all I should make the case clear : he doesn't know that I already found out about his trouble. so I'd rather protect his identity by not telling who he is, from where I knew him, where he studies, whatever. one sure thing : he's a very good man. yea of course, I won't even bother to mumble about him at the first place if he's not.

he always puts his flat face everytime he's around. he's quite silent, whenever it comes to mocking games he's our group's best prey. no matter how mean we mock him, he would just say something like "sh*t" or "dammit" or so, try to humorously revenge us (but failed), then he would just laugh about that and forget them all.

we tease him very often "ha! weak! chicken! HA!" or sorta things like that. but today we all just knew that he had this one big burden on his shoulders since quite long time ago. he couldn't pay his tuition fee. that's it.

it was almost like thunderbolt in the middle of peaceful dewy morning for us. and then, as if that were not enough : the deadline was actually... tomorrow. his campus starts the day off from tomorrow, so I guess you know how critical the situation is. last time I heard from an anonymous source, he only got around 30% of all the amount needed, and right now, it's only 3 hours before tomorrow...

I don't know how to respond with this. the word sad, I don't think that is "proper" enough.

well I'm not that close with him actually, neither as BFF nor romantic flirty buddy. it's just that I spent quite much time with him and our other companies, that's why I can't stand the thought of losing him. he's a very good man, a good friend indeed.

once I've posted case like this, about one senior of mine in UI. yet when it happens to YOUR OWN buddy, it feels like... impossible. I never thought that his condition is actually THIS bad.

that's all. I'm spilling this all out not to hold a charity act for him or what. I let you know so that you can open your eyes and see, perhaps most of you are slightly luckier in some perspectives.

whatever your problem is, don't whine, don't complain. you are not the most miserable one.

Delima on Rayakan Indonesia!

2011-08-12T23:22:00.003+07:00

in collaboration with Adler Projekt and lots of others tenants, I happily announce that Delima will be featured on this breakthrough, mind-blowing event :

(click to enlarge)

these are some of our items will be sold during the event, taken from the recent collection "In Touch With Borneo". won't post aallll the picts up, that way you'll have to either come directly to our booth or open our website to peek the complete post. speaking about marketing strategies...

sizes S-L are available for most items (XS and XL only for several items).

we've got enough stocks for 7 full days, but please kindly note that each items and sizes were produced in limited numbers. you'd better grab them before someone snatch it.

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found this on one of my dad's painting

2011-08-02T04:16:00.004+07:00

"A bell is not a bell until someone rings it.

A song is not a song until someone sings it.

Love is not love until someone receives it.

Please do not bury your feelings."

(Dona - 2001, forgot the exact title of the painting)

(pardon the low-res pict. took it with phone camera)

I thought like, "What if the intended receiver doesn't want to receive the love at the first place?"

is it still love, is it not love?

well. this is nothing actually, just my random rant. don't take seriously.

there's nothing simple when I'm not around you, but I miss you when you're gone

2011-07-25T03:26:00.002+07:00

... yes, I truly do.

sort of regret the fact that I couldn't manage to watch them live. they're like, too legendary you won't know whether they'll come here again or not. they're included in my "1000 things to see before I die" list. yet, I didn't come, for some reasons, after such conscious consideration.

but thank God they had that live streaming thingy, so I could see Dolores O'Riordan's weird dance moves, the way she sat down after singing Linger, and so on and so on. dear technology, you don't know how much I love you. would you be my boyfriend, maybe? #yakali

Last last last last Monday Night

2011-07-16T02:19:00.004+07:00

punchline #1

Rissa : (looking at the menu) "Hmm... Mbak? .... Lagi apa?"

punchline #2

Fira : "Mas mau pesen ORANGE NIPIS." (instead of jeruk nipis, or lime, or something)

punchline #3

Fira : (to the waiter, dengan nada super unyu 2011, bibir manyun remaja masa kini) "Maasss, punya aku manaaaa?"

punchline #4

(looking together at this cheese sausage)

"KOK KAYAK PALA K***** YA???"

(hint : that sensitive, private part dangling between guy's legs)

punchline #5

(on the way back to kost, inside the taxi, stuck on a minor traffic jam. saw a giant tractor crossing the street)

Caca : "Itu apaan dah ijo-ijo gede, kayak Godjali."

Me : "Hah? Godjali?"

Caca : "Eh maksud gw GODZILLA!"

Taxi Driver : (langsung ngumpetin muka, keliatan banget pengen ngakak tapi diempet)

well, those were my "unique" kost mates. ehm, not really sure if the word "unique" suits them right, actually.

quoting Catatan Harian Si Boy (not exactly the same, I typed as precise as I could remember) :

"Keluarga kita semua itu disfungsional. Karena itulah ada temen, mereka itu keluarga yang lo pilih sendiri."

(sumpah ini asal, pokoknya kira2 intinya begitu lah)

so, I don't really care about the fact that all of them are totally dysfunctional. I chose them, and I'm quite pleased to have all of them, those dysfunctional-in-a-good-way mates.

oh man sometimes I just don't understand, how could these moronic clowns be gathered, and why? man oh man

I call this, kebetulan yang salah

2011-07-14T06:39:00.002+07:00

on the way to kost, then realized that my keys were left home. thank God I had my duplicates. I found them inside my bag, but there was only one key, when that was supposed to be two (from now on I'll call the first key, the one that I had as "kunci kamar" and the second one, which was gone, as "kunci gembok").

so I whatsapped my kost mates, in case one of them had my kunci gembok.

Me : "Ris kunci kamar gw di lo gak?"

Rissa : "Hah enggak, di Dea kayaknya. Atogak di Fira. Yang jelas gak di gw."

I called Fira, no answer. Dea, again. no answer. this is the point where I started to turn panic. then :

Rissa : "Fira gw BBM katanya dia gak megang yuk."

Me : "Mm. Yaudah gw nebeng kamar lo dulu deh ya."

Rissa saved my ass. there was nobody else in kost, so I'd be sleeping in front of my door right now if she were not around.

hours later, Dea texted me. turned out that her whatsapp was not in online mode.

Dea : "Yuk, di kosan gak?"

Me : "Iya. Eh de kunci gembok gw di kamar lo gak? Kunci gw ketinggalan, serep gw cuma ada yang kunci kamar."

Dea : "Iya ada di kamar gw kok. Bentar lagi gw pulang kos tungguin ya. Gapapa kan maleman?"

Me : "HALLELUYA! Gapapa banget de, yang penting ada."

but minutes later.....

Dea : "Yuk, KUNCI GW JUGA KETINGGALAN!"

let's just hashtag this one, #eaaa

Jeffrey Campbell X Stolen Girlfriends Club

2011-07-08T14:43:00.002+07:00

an exquisite mash-up between my all time shoegasmic brand Jeffrey Campbell and NZ's Stolen Girllfriends Club. enough said, the collab is stealing girls' hearts with the detail plays, well-precised, unique in quite a simple way, and most important : pretty versatile. basic pieces with attitude.

the main piece of the whole set was named "Emma" boots, the ones featured in all photos above. looked like cowboy vest/ royal clown in monochromatic/ moroccan tapestry at the first sight, if you ask me what I was thinking. but the point is : JC never fails me. you don't know how much I adore them.

human, not a puppet

2011-07-07T23:48:00.000+07:00

so, instead of doing my real obligations (googling about online marketing, learn more about Indonesian kain, some other else, many other else), I end up reading the latest bday wishes I received several days ago.

those were from my announcer buddies, who somehow threw out some kind of late surprise and gave me this one awesome artwork. gonna post the picture later, after I snap it with at least a high-res camera. anyway, this artwork contains all their bday wishes. I read them one by one : 12 people, 12+12+xxx wish, and 12+12+12+12+infinity words that made me smile like half-idiot-half-pervert.

and here's the main point of this post : 2 or 3 of them (who clearly understood almost all of my current life stories, and exactly knew that I had one specific prob bugging my head for months) hoped that this crap-coated prob would end soon (yea of course, positive wishes). they said quite like this : don't let anyone hang you on his/her strings. go find your escape.

I instantly imagined myself, tied up with such invisible handcuffs, connected to some slender sticks by thick transparent strings. exactly like marionette, or those wayang puppets my dad used to watch. later on this one person came, took the sticks, then moved me felinely according to his mood swifts (let's just assume that this person is a he, before you readers begin to confuse with the term he/she, him/her, whatever). to sum it up : he controlled me. he hung me right under his hands.

along these previous months, I've been through a long cycle of escaping, getting caught back, escaping again, getting caught again, then it went on and on and ooonnn. I often said to myself : don't let him screw you. take control over your OWN life, you brainless girl. but the fact is : it's not that easy.

done with my shameful narration. what I'm trying to say is, it shouldn't be that way. we're born as human, with complicated brain parts, millions cells of neural system, whatsoever, so that we can think for ourselves. you have the right to do any move you want for life, instead of letting someone else doing the job. freedom, that's the keyword. it's something too precious to be given to someone unworthy (just like what I almost done).

never ever hang your life under someone else's will. in my case, I let destiny (and my baseless presumptions) control my every single move. I was hanging my life under the hands of Mr. Uncertainty. what a double combo I got there :

1. I lost control of my own self.

2. I handed over that control to something uncertain.

well then. I just can hope that this massive galauful case won't happen to other people (maybe any of you). just take me as a pitiful lesson.

"Just a puppet on a lonely string,

Oh who would ever want to be king?"

(Coldplay - Viva La Vida)

blessed

2011-07-01T00:42:00.004+07:00

frankly speaking, this was not a pleasant day. yet as far as I could remember, it was one of the most memorable ones. I don't know what else to say, just... THANKS!

for everyone who found their name above, once again : thanks! for those who are not there, you know what, you might mean much much more. it's just too corny if I printed out all of those, isn't it?

I'm not that type of person who gives out way too many "I love you!" "I love you guys!" or whatsoever so easily. I won't say it out loud , but you should know : all people I know in my life, each person has at least one strong touch to shape me. so how I am today, how I behave today, how I think today, I can't be one without all of you.

fable, fact, or f*ckin' nothing

2011-06-20T02:50:00.002+07:00

The cast

One bulky sparrow that always dreamed to be a dove. Why? A dove was always destined to have at least one lover in life.

One eagle, brokenhearted by a playa parakeet in the past, looked for a lifetime soul mate, yet it ended up befriending the sparrow because of one similarity : They were both longing for something far from reality.

The story

Briefly said, they met, they became friends. The sparrow whined about its "sparrow-ness". "Why was I born a sparrow?" "Why nobody ever comes to me?" "Why am I black? I want white, as doves!". Meanwhile, the eagle whined about the parakeet. "Why did it leave me?" "Did I do something wrong?" "Why had I fallen for a parakeet at the first place? I'm an eagle, why should I crave for something that weak?". Sometimes they made fun of each other with those pathetic thoughts. Most of the times, they still supported each other through the hard times though. That made them closer to each other.

The problem is...

The sparrow started to change its mind. "I don't have to be a dove to have a mate. I already have eagle. No matter what we exactly are, friends, lovers, or nothing, I'm happy that I know such a nice bird like it." But sparrow couldn't lie, birds would never be able to. Between the three bolded choices it had mentioned above, it preferred the second one. So the problem is : Did the eagle feel the same way too?

The inspiration

one midnight rambling that came up to my mind while listening to John Mayer

pretty sure I'll always love this movie, even after the 500th day

2011-06-19T23:50:00.000+07:00

well I don't know, I've got nothing special or anything related to this post below. I just feel like sharing one of the most inspiring movie I've ever watched. at least the most inspiring for me.

why I heart it :

1. Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I don't think he's handsome nor sexy. he's just... the guy next door I'd easily fall for.

2. Zooey Deschanel

she's absolutely the type of girl I'd like myself to be. bold, free, and never realizes her appeal. I always adore someone who's gorgeous, but doesn't know that he/she is.

3. the story

broken heart. yeah it happens aaalllll the time to every single living person on earth. Tom's character in this movie is like a rough slap on my face. it was like, I had been such a believer in fairytale-ish love life, then Tom appeared on screen with his pathetic pointless struggling, then wham! I clearly understood. the lesson is, nobody says that moving on is easy, but it's NOT impossible. past love could someday come back, take you back to the sweet times you two used to have, make you blind of the way they used to hurt you, slice your heart into thin pieces (metaphorically, of course). but the thing is, hey it's already gone! it used to be sweet, but as time goes by, the sugar level decreases, replaced by pure bitterness.

tired with metaphors? I'll make it simple : only fools don't move on.

"Roses are red, violets are blue... Fuck you whore."

- Tom Hansen

"Ok, I like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people's feeling get hurt. Who needs it? We're young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world ; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later."

- Summer Finn

"They used to call me anal girl. I was very neat and organized."

- Summer Finn

"Just because she likes the same bizarro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."

- Rachel Hansen

Paul : "Did you bang her? What, hum job, hand job?"

Tom : "Man, no - no jobs. I'm still unemployed."

"Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine, I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency."

- Tom Hansen

"Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature."

- McKenzie

Tom : "Nobody loves Ringo Starr."

Summer : "That's what I love about him."

"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel - not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths."

- Tom Hansen

"There's no such thing as love, it's fantasy."

- Summer Finn

Summer : "We're just friends."

Tom : "No! Don't pull that with me! Kissing in the copy room? Holding hands in IKEA? Shower sex? Come on! Friends my balls!"

"People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated."

- Tom Hansen

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