Yukii's

The first semester of COLLEGE.

2012-07-24T05:57:00.000-07:00

Well yea, I'm back! Back where? HERE! Yuki's blog! To be pretty honest to everyone, I'm pretty tired and lazy to type it out. Since my college had started on April until now, I used to present a lot of my assignment and I used to talk, non-stop talking. Heyyy ya! How about college life? Hmm. I learn not to pour my heart out to anyone easily. Even though they are really good and being lovely to me. But you know what? It doesn't mean anything to me anymore.

Sadly, there are too much people hurting me in the same time and leaving me alone. That's what makes me thought of being strong and I'll never look back at anyone of them to leave in alone with pain. Thank You so muchie.

First, in this lovely month, I've got my first tattoo. I made it in French "Joie de vivre" which mean The Joy of Life in English! I've my own mind of the tattoo design, so I went to them, of course they've changed a bit of my design, but it still look nice and suits me well. :)

Second, though, HE IS BACK! Yea, aymh is back Malaysia, he will be here until September! :D The best ever! Semester break has already started. Well, actually I've have a mind of asking him out to have drink or movie. Just to be friend. :) Nothing more than that.

Perhaps, I can make it better. :)

Get over it!

2012-06-07T20:52:00.002-07:00

Hey peeps! I'm back! :D I'm back with a heart of FREEDOM? Not to say freedom, but I've learned to release and forget. Before that, I thought letting go something or someone that I love is the hardest things or decision in this world. But end up, I've found out that, I don't even love myself. How am I going to love others? Well, couldn't deny that my heart is bleeding and its painful. But the thing is, I have to learn to love myself and enjoy my youth life. Stay single and have fun with friends and sisters. I'm still young and I should gone wild for once. I should stop here now, :) Seeya!

I felt cold.

2012-05-21T02:30:00.000-07:00

Not that cold and flu, I do felt cold nowadays especially in college. I know I should be enjoying all this, but how could you enjoy if you can't really mix with them? Syok sendiri again? Like what I've did in the past when I was in my High School? Maybe there's something that I should let go to release all my problem? I don't know, I don't even know what I am talking about. And I don't even know what I want. I just need a big bear hug now, which can actually warm my heart and my body.

Gossip Hurts.

2012-05-17T18:36:00.000-07:00

College is fun, but is also sucks like HELL.

People judge you without knowing you and you get a cold shoulder by no reason.

One of my senior gave me a good words, it keeps in my mind from my on.

" Fuck anything up with any reason! "

*If you decided to listen and follow what they said, please do. You're brainless.

2012-05-15T10:17:00.002-07:00

Should or shouldn't? Yea, everyone of us should have known that we shouldn't show our details information online or in any social media. Yes, you could share and you might be a very interesting person, but do you know how does it work to hurts you or destroy you one day? Well, I know shouldn't go on with this topic, but I think I might be sorry to those people to advised me earlier. But I think this is the only way that I could share my feelings and I hope I would get some feedback from anyone of you. :)

Shhoooo....

In these few months, I've finally realized and been through quite a lots of situation! Woohoo. Couldn't deny it, I'm kinda tired but I'm still happy. I might not happy as when I was 16y.old . It might be not a sweet 16 like others, but I do have a really unforgettable memories. That's included when the very first time I met a guy who really gave me a good and a right motivation and lead me to the days that I'm having now. Thank You. *You know who you are. You're still the one and also you're the only thing that could motivate me when I'm slowing down on my work. Thanks. And I'm glad to heard that you're coming back on this year, probably on July!

Besides, every relationship do have their own problem and own way to deal with. But in these day, all I could feel is just IGNORANCE and my heart is getting cold. From COOL to COLD. I know it sounds a bit dramatic. But, its really happened in this way. :( While during this time, I continuously thinking the problem between us. I doesn't know whether I should really trust you or not. What I could say is just, I did trusted you once but you're the only who break the trust. You do nothing to build up the trust, so what do you expect from me to do for you? I do know you are betraying me and doing something that would cause us break up, but I didn't give up, I'm trying to safe this. So, please clear of those rubbish before I let my heart falls to another part. I love you.

College Life!
Yeahhh! Heyy, I'm really happy that I'm in this college and no regrets. Peoples there are fun, open-minded and also friendly. Is really easy to get to know new and nice people there. So, I think I'll really do enjoy and indulge myself in these 2.5year time. :)

New life, I'm coming.♥

2012-03-21T10:35:00.002-07:00

4months before now.

I'm free from examination from my high school, and I leave my high school. In these few month, I didn't really do or put much effort into anything, and my life seems like hanging like a Yo-Yo! One word to describe it, Lifeless!

Yes! Totally lifeless!
*Eat, Sleep, Shower, Online, Hang out, and pray.

These are all I do while after my SPM. But right now, since I've got my result. I should have a great plan for myself for now and future. :)

The best part of after getting my SPM result slip from my teacher's hand, I've got a smile from my teacher. And so on, the result slip is on my hand and what I've do were singing my favourite song 'Superman' by Joe Brooks. :) So, after singing the whole song to just chill myself, I've finally flip my result slip and to be ready to know how great would my new life would be.

Ooh YEAH!
:D

Well, I'm kinda happy that what I've got from it since I've really put a lots of effort in my studies for SPM. I've got 1A+, 3B , 3C and 3D. Well, it might not sound great for some people who are expect for more and better. But what if I compare with others people who FAILED all subjects in this national examination? To be pretty honest, I'm quite proud of myself because I've achieve the target that I've always aimed for.

What's next?

As everyone know, I'll never give up my studies. Hmm. So yeah, I've already got my own plan on my hand. So, I'm just waiting for my college intake. :) It will be next month! How about you guys?

Heart to heart talk
:O

Well, no big deals. Just, I've realize that usually people would say " Your real life, is after your SPM! " But that's not right! A big no for that statement! A real life, is after you get your SPM result and it because you can do your own decision, that's the only time for you decide what you're going to do and who do you want to be in the future.

Different thinkin'

Such a shame! From the past when I was 15, I've always wait for the national examination to come over me and I've always wish to study A-Levels after my SPM. But now, I've changed my mind. I'm into Mass Communication studies and majority of broadcasting. But now I'd like to thanks the person to light up my life and motivate me to come to this happy day. AYMH. Thank You.

To you,...

I know I'll never be smarter and greater than you. But I think I've tried my best to. Thank You. And you know who I'm actually talking about, is you. :)

Let's go everyone! :) Doesn't matter how's your day, just make sure you won't ever regret.

Teehee! ♥

Don't be late.

2012-01-07T22:24:00.000-08:00

Peeps!
I'm sorry if I didn't really update my blog lately.
Hmm. I think I might having some problem like every woman did.
:)

Well, here!
Is a song that I really into right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2wWcJ-t_yKM&feature=youtube_gdata_player

This song is played by Michael Learns To Rock- 25 Minutes.

I'm having too much feeling on it, that's why when I'm listening to it.
I will probably fall off some tears from my eyes.

Have you guys ever be late before? Be late to school, work, home, date, and etc..? People are sorry if they are really late and they felt guilty for sometimes. Why? People who are waiting, they aren't really angry because you are late to meet them up. To be pretty honest, while I'm waiting for someone and if he/she is late. I'll started to worry a lot, such as " Is there anything happen to him/her? " and more. But for sure, if you doesn't manage your time really well and you're late. Please don't act like nothing is happening and don't be selfish to say " SORRY ".

I'm just a little me. Just me. My own life story. My own life style. My own my own. As for me. There are two person, they're really late in my life..

To the really late person and he is my greatest past. :)
* You're late to let me know I'm actually stronger than you. And you're always late to wishing me Happy New Year, Happy Chinese New Year, Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas. Or maybe I should say, you have never wish me with these before? :)

To the person who I'm loving so much and always seems to be late. :)
* Yea what? You seems like ignoring me all the time. But somehow I know you're busying with your studied, you're late to reply my msg and you really do made me worry about you a lots. Hmm.. You are not late to reply my msg, because you don't seems like giving me any respond. :) But I'm seriously, want to tell you.. Boy I've missed your kisses all time and missed all time that I'm with you.

Well, peeps.
Try not to be late.
:)
Its better to be early than late.

I'm a BABYSCORPIO! :)

2011-11-16T06:34:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!

17thNovember , Yuki's day! Well, as for now I wanna greet everyone of my friends and family and also I'd like to ask for forgiveness from all of you. If I did made you mad or whatever. :) Unfortunate, I can't have a great party this year because I'm having SPM! :S

For always and forever, I'm still breathing. Keep on struggling for everything in my life. People make mistake and that cause us misunderstood. So, why can't we just sat down and talk about it and deal with those problem? To be straight forward, I thought it would be a great year for me and my best friend, HER. But, both of us has fall out of our friendship and sisterhood up because of some non-sense? :) Well, I think its time to be say goodbye to this friendship.

o.O? Why GOODBYE?!

Before came to the dead end of our friendship, I think we both have do a lots of changes in our life such as attitude and lifestyle. Well, since we don't trust each other in friendship anymore.. That's it. I don't force nor blame. :D We are mature enough to make our decision. So, I respect and I do appreciate. Thanks for accompany for these year.

See Ya! <3
;)

Sepang Golden Beach! Unforgettable!

2011-07-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

My Lord,

Please do forgive me that I didn't really put enough effort on my monthly test.
I swear and I'll start to do large study revise everyday for my SPM and my bright future.
While, I should really get my mind and be prepare for my coming SPM trial on the coming month.

It will be after, Hari Raya Aidilfitri. The mostly subject that I really needed to catch it up are Bahasa Melayu, Maths, and Sejarah. Perhaps I'll do a great organize for my studies timetable. :)

I promise!

Thanks God,
Thanks to have You, in my life Father.

My monthly test that organized by school has just past, and the day of 29th July 2011 and also 30th July 2011. It was an unforgettable memories days for me. WHY?! :)) First, the test/exam has just over.

There are some picture that I wanted to share with all of you,

Sepang Golden Beach!

The vivid color of the sunrise!

It was a smallest beach that I've ever been to, but I do enjoyed it ,too! ;)

There you are! The perfect two!
My sister and my sister's bf.

I should get it up, RIGHT NOW!

2011-07-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

Its time to wake my self up before its too late!

There are 3months leave, I meant for my SPM.
Well, I am getting nervous bits by bits.

Hoo~
I should say, I shouldn't have something like love love and like like in this moment and in these few months when before sitting the SPM examination.
Please, do not curse me.

So, what now?!

Its July right now, but sooner it would be November. Yes, I do promise to study right now, since today!

EVERYDAY!

Clear those idiotically things out of my mind now!

Well, I don't really study hard, but study smart( I am still observing the skills and the technic of study smart! )

Honestly, its the time for me to get my mind up and out of those foolish things in my current life.

First of all, for dealing about a bright and glory FUTURE. The first thing, that we should have and should have to be understand is to be EDUCATE. Without an education, you can do nothing but just living down under peoples' knee. I think that's enough for saying this and I think everyone know it.

This is my wish list for my SPM examination :

English- A
Chinese- B
Bahasa Malaysia- C/D
Science- A
Economic- A
Perdagangan- A
Maths- C/D
Sejarah- C/D
Art- A
Moral- A

Well, good luck to me.
Of course, its time to put my all effort on it already.
GOGOGO!

Have to start now.

2011-06-14T05:01:00.000-07:00

Something is ringing up in my life and that's important for my life yo!
Yea, is SPM. Guess what?! Sometimes I felt so lucky that I am going to sit for SPM,
but I have to put a lots of hard work in it. So? What now? I guess this post will be staying up long until my next coming posts. :)

Now on..

2011-04-24T03:19:00.000-07:00

How do you get your mind in the mode of peace?

I'm wondering how..
I consider as a hot tempered person as well.

Okayy...

Lately problem, I fall out of love. :)

TEEHEE!

Yea, out, is OUT! and OUCHHH!

I admit that, I might have did a wrong and terrible thing in this case.
But whatever. We both just look like, WHATEVER!

So, let it be.

As the elders said, : " There are plenty more fish in the sea. "

So, whatever :)) Exam is coming, but it's reminded me about IY.
I couldn't deny the feelings towards him and is still strongly in my mind. I tried hard to struggle until the date of unknown. I tried to get myself a reason for a million time. But in the end I end up with my BIG SIGH! IY, is the only one that I couldn't accept anyone to talk about him or even a name started with "I".

Well, I learned to be selfish when I am in love now. I know so, that's not right at all. But I felt tired to end up with tears or my complicated mind. I thought you're my shelter last time, but in the end that was just a dream. I woke up and find no one and not even the shadow of you.

Hmm..

Shadow man as well? :)

I hated, but I've been forced to move on and look forward for my own future. I still have a long way to go in my life and you,too.

I fall though and failed, I fell in to a looming hole. My heart was full of misgiving that you'll leave. But what will come, will come. You're gone. How about me? I remain to stand more even stronger than anyone. Dolefully, I fall simply again. But life isn't easy for real, always twist and turns, so I should look up and look forward for the coming day.

But now, that's enough for having wounds in this way. My heart started complaining, my heart is a forbidden group since now on.

Day by Day, I am not good with it!

2011-04-16T18:17:00.000-07:00

Telling the

" TRUTH "

is the most

" HAPPINESS "

thing in this

" WORLD "

*********************

Well, I have no reason to tell you how to be a honest kid or human being. As everyone know, if you do lie once you'll be cheated or fool by the others for twice. The weakness of me is telling a lie to anyone or create any story. I do lie to myself for some reason that I could stand it, but that's probably not what I wanted to be. Do you think that keeping everything as secret is the most safety way for you and your whole life? You know what guys? I am tired and I am speechless to against you especially in a "RELATIONSHIP" .

You might know, or you know it. I can't do anything without your spell. I do my best and not to make myself feel regret. That's why I don't lie! I don't want to and I don't!

The truth , might be too much.

In this social world, we have been forced to be meet some greedy stranger everyday. So? Beware then! ;)

I am tired!

Am I complaining?! Absolutely not. But , I am tired of fall down and get my heart injured, again and again. I couldn't text few guys in the same time and I don't even like it! WTH? Since last Saturday , since I went for a movie? and I went home from dinner with my family. Okay! Right! I wrote an essay long msg to someone who I know love me since a long long time ago and some people to trying to pick me. Guys, I am sorry, I really can't stand it for few. Just one, all I need is just one. Not more than one. I can't make it and I can't share my attention out of it.

Wish me luck!
Gonna have my driving test on tomorrow!
UHSSSS!!!

** In the end, I couldn't deny that I miss you day by day and even like you/ <3 you. P/s I <3 you. Sorry :|

If we hold on

2011-04-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

If you hold on tight,

You'll have it with you ever and forever.

But not too tight,

We need freedom, and so on you need freedom ,too!

Hold it tight, when you're,

When you're sit in the widely green field, enjoy the atmosphere!

But in the end,

You might feel tired to hold on, because both of you doesn't have a good work on your relationship! You guys didn't work as a pair.

**************

Yes, is short and easy to be understand. But that's truth!
:)

Sigh

2011-04-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

Good Morning world, something that I really want to lit the way clear in my dream.
I am gonna to face the reality no matter what. There's no point to be a coward and avoid to facing the reality.
Let's deal it, since I dream I about 193 last night, *Well well well! Before I went to bed, I chatted with bunny teeth. So, that's quite erhmm! :*) Funny? Okayy. Whatever * Yea, I dreamed about 193 last night, some of you might know that that's not I want to dream for and 193 really hurts me enough and I think that's enough to get over you in fact. So, in my dream I stood and looked at 193, yea 193 do saw me in the dream ,too?!

We both looked weird and my eyes might run out of tears, no stock for tears.

I looked at 193, but I doesn't seems like knowing him anymore. Since the first we met, we're still barely know each other. But.. whatever!

Seriously, 193 do you think that's easy to get you over my mind?

You couldn't understand how hurts is it when you leave something simply and in the speed of rush. In the month that I get over you, seriously Thanks God. I have my family and friends. Even they aren't with me, I think I am still able to get 193 out of my life! Of course, I loathed being stubborn about you sometimes. At least, I know that's unworthy to keep you in my mind. I doesn't know what should I say about 193 or describe about 193 when I miss him in the day that he just went of out of my life. But now, I totally engrossed in another person.

My dream told me to be steady as before I met 193. That's right!

I've re-format myself, in the high spirit right now.

If you do think this would get on your nerve, come! I am waiting for 193 to chat. :) Well I am not trying to picked on 193 just want to have an end of us. Text me, when you need to talk. We're still friend ,if you want. :)

By the way, I miss someone..deep deep deep deep deep in a place of mine..

Shh!Secret!
:P

Love me, love my dog!

2011-04-09T04:44:00.000-07:00

Love me, love my dog!
Curious?
Not at all.
Say this furiously!

Well, not gonna drove you guys up the wall. But seriously, I doesn't like someone to criticize on my attitude especially that one that I love/like. I might just FU you up with " ALL YOU EVER DO IS CRITICIZE!!!!! "

Don't YOU EVER JUDGE ME OR CRITICIZE,
ME!

This is clear enough, this is intolerable. Don't ever do this when you're with me. Elders will be excuse. I respect with what elders say and I will accept it as a gift. I do have lots of new problem everything. My life, as busy as bees.

If you do.

Yea, why not? Some of you would just think and have a words in your mind, " WHY NOT?!" . Well, you could do that, but just for once and not for twice. Since you drove me up the wall , and I might just cover up my eyes and shoot everywhere by the newest gun or just a neutral boom?!

<!--3 Do remember it. I will get hurts by your words, because I care about you :)

Tattoo

2011-04-09T04:10:00.000-07:00

I've always wanted to have a tattoo since don't know when I've set my mind that I must have one. I've no idea with what I'm gonna to tattoo. But "STARS" will never be less :) My ideal place for tattoo. I admired the sign of Jewish. So, I'll have one for sure! :) Somehow, I love tattoo. But doesn't meant I am bad person or create any image that make my world dump! Might having one soon , I can't wait for it!

Volleyball

2011-04-08T07:19:00.000-07:00

Volleyball

This is the first year, I played volleyball for school competition. I found there are lots of love from everyone from surrounding.

Couldn't deny, I was kind of arrogant for sometime and to someone.

Volleyball is one of my favorite sport <3 Yes, I am having tan skin color right now :P But everyone seems amaze with my new skin color. Anyway, I do love my current skin color as well. :) Other than that, I've form a volleyball team with my mates. Yes, just few of us and we're seeking for coach to coach as. Hope that the coach that we're looking for is able to coach us! May God Bless us then ;)

Indeed, went out of school and do something with a team of friends, sitting in the bus, taking picture, having lunch and tea together was the most wonderful time that I have in my life. It was the best time of my life. Our team name is " 38 " as well, Thanks to Megan Kee's jersey. :) But I have an idea for the team name, " PUMM! " What do you guys think?

Happy Time ,

Passed as fast as shooting stars.
:)
<3 My mates!
I love you , Guys!
Let's make it work!
Go!

What am I?

2011-03-10T04:58:00.000-08:00

Right here! Right here!
I am lost!
Help!
I can't get a main point to shout it out what's in my mind.
I am just being complicated and more than that.
I hated to get dump from a relationship?
Am I?
I am LOST.
But I am still a strong person who can stand in the strong wind!
I know I can run out of this
:)
Wish me luck!

Don't break me heart in pieces.
My heart is just like a glass.
But,
Please

TeeHee! :D

But there are some question in my mind.
Are you the one?
Who am I to you?

SHUT UP!

Enough!

2011-02-19T17:34:00.000-08:00

Is enough! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!ENOUGH!

Shoo!

2011-02-18T06:45:00.000-08:00

Shoo Shoo!

Here I come again! Since I’ve a great mood for today, so I decided to posts and share it all with you guys. The first time, I saw my Sister, Belle she is happy to see someone she love so much. She seems mature after be with this guy, Erwan. I am Happy and Congratulation to both of you. You guys are glad to be together isn’t? I am happy for my Sister, and felt lucky for you to have my Sister! Don’t hurts her, I warn you! Anyway is all about our fate and everyone should know make hay while the sun shines, as Erwan bro did. xD Haha. I am just kidding. Just make an example. You should be proud with it! :P

Well, I couldn’t tell how my situation right now is, but I hope this time will be better than previous. You might start to feel curious, while you’re reading this line. Seriously no one could understand that LOVE doesn’t judge your outlook or physical outlook, and outlook doesn’t include in LOVE. Do you agree? Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. So, let’s throw that problem away! Shoo! Shoo!

My friends and some of my new friends, always make me answer the common question. Such as: “Hey, Yuki! Watch movie with your BF? “Me: “ Ermm. Big NO! No, I am alone to watch it.” Friend: “Don’t lie to me, you’re such a good looking girl, how come you’re still single? “ Me: “Why not? I don’t need to be like you, I know who I am, and I know what I want and what I need. "

And, I walked away and showing a “LCLY” face to them.
I don’t mind if you ask me am I still single, but please do not make me to answer those silly and I felt that’s stupid question. It doesn’t make sense if you asked me in this way, and I’ll just end up a “WHATEVER” faces to you. I believe that you won’t like to make me to throw my resentment on you. Try not to ask this kind of question to anyone of your friends, you’ll just get out from their list. But I used to forgive and forget, because I am quite proud of that, I am still single; don’t ask me why, that am probably an unreasonable reason.

Do I have a great relationship now or last time?
Hmm. That’s make me speechless. Since I am in this topic now, I have to defend for myself; you might think that I am love cheater or playgirl? But ask yourself now, do you ever know me? Do you really know me well? Whatever, marriages are made in heaven, we can’t decide or do any force between that. I guess everyone did studied Matter in your Sciences lesson, right? Love is just like Solid, Liquid and Gas.

Solid shows that you’ve a strong and stable relationship, and you don’t need to worry about that much, because your love have already in a fixed position relationship. The kinetic energy in Solid, not even zero percent. Solid love/ relationship fixed, and cannot be compressed and high destiny.

Liquid shows that you’ve a normal love, and Liquid is between of Solid and Gas. So, everything will be moderate.

Gas shows that aren’t a stable relationship, it would be widely spread out of the relationship.
Do not melt your relationship from Solid to liquid or evaporate to gas.

I think you guys get what I meant right? If you don’t understand or you have any question in your mind, I would like you to send me an e-mail or you can ask your Science Guru.

Besides that, I’m kindly reminding you Money cannot buy happiness. I’ve had been through that situation few times, and that’s an indelible memories in your memory of life. That’s fair if you get any bitchy name from it. On the another hand, there is one word to describe it, “Money is the root of all evil”. Yea, no matter what money isn’t everything. Poverty is no crime, so to those people with the golden touch, do not love down to those poor. Because Love doesn’t relate to “S double 1”

What must be ,must be.

2011-02-18T01:46:00.000-08:00

Nowadays, younger teenager get their mobile during their primary school. Gosh~Well, when I was 13, my parents doesn't allowed me to have my own phone. They tried their best to protect me. ( Sorry, I don't meant the parents whom processed me)

* Wait.
I am not gonna mess you guys up, now I am gonna tell you.
Since my mommy brought me here from Westminster, UK.
My mother and my father had been busy for their own business ,and they don't even have time to spend with me.

Whatever.
So, I usually stayed with my nanny by that time, even I get hurts or any beats by her, my mother will not even give a damn and she will not complain or anything else. Until my God mother ,I used to name her as "mama" and my grandma went to visited my mother and only I've been rescued by them.

How lucky am I?
I've been taking care by my mama until now.
Except when I was 8 and 9years old.
My mother and my father came back from,
Japan.
They tried to have me with them in their life.

No big deals,
Is just, I don't use to it.
That's why there were Child abuse,
and is widespread in my family.
I missed my mama and my daddy when they were not with me.

I am guilty and felt sorry to my mama and daddy.
They're really a good person.
They gave me every good things ,
they loves me more than my parents do.
But actually, the most important things...
Is caring. <3

Since after my mama married with daddy not long ago,
I've came to interrupt their sweet and small family.
:)
They always told me,
they're happy to have me and I am their present.
This is what daddy always told me.

Thanks Mama and Daddy.
<3
I love you.

Sometimes, I argued with Mama.
I might have my own ideas too much,
that's why we always quarrel about everything.

Sorry,
I don't meant to hurts you sometimes.
But I do love you Mama.
:)

I promised myself,
I've do everything to this family.

*For those people who're having feelings on me, you should be understand what's the deal that I uploaded this post.

In the end,
I can't get away from them.
Because I am not willing to.
WHAT MUST BE, MUST BE!
MAMA and DADDAY!
Don't think that you guys can leave me!
:)

What's my problem?

2011-02-15T22:26:00.000-08:00

In my mind.
In my life.
My concept.

Don't say you love me,
if you don't really know me.

Don't try to know me,
If you aren't patience enough.

Don't get me in your eyes,
I don't use to it.

Don't come to me,
When I am not ready yet.

I need some times,
I am happy to have you.
But there's some personality problem.

<3

And I don't actually know what we are .
Don't make me confuse now,
I need TIME!

:)

CNY!

2011-02-10T20:37:00.000-08:00

2011's CNY

Doesn't bored as I though before I went to.
But I missed out to hang out with my FRIENDS!
And school has already re-opened.
Is too early to have our Chinese New Year,
and is already too early to back to school.

Conclusion?
Well, is already for me.
Because, now, studies come first in my life.
:)
But honestly ,
I really did felt a bit lazy.
:S

Today...

Guess what?

I am not trying to complain or blame anyone. I've absent for my school today :( I missed my lesson and class.

WHY?!

That is all because of my PARENTS! Yes, my father came back back from UK lately. But it doesn't seems like a good things for me. My father made my mother change her attitude 360 degree! Well, their attitude made me keep at arm's length with them. My mother leave no stone unturned to be a 24hrs good wife. WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! Is this what peoples said "Behind every successful man is a woman" ?

I am sorry , because I am not use to it.
:)

Be a mother or father,

You should be flexible for your children, not ignore them because of your selfishness. If you guys are selfish and doesn't want to give any patient and responsible to your children, you guys better keep your pants up then! This is your responsibility to a FAMILY!

I scolded my mother this morning , because she is late to pick me up to school. She went out with my father late night and that's what I felt angry to them. Who? Both of them! Yes, you can go hang and do whatever you want. But you should still wake up in the same time in the next morning. This is what you should take your respond. Fine.

Just let me calm now!

Do you need a shoulder?

2011-01-29T08:36:00.000-08:00

People mostly need a shoulder when they've had failed in relationship.Isn't?
Please everyone, please do not feel failure on what you've had fail people. We should think on the bright side, no matter what we've fail.

All of us should keep one's chin up, alright?
Well, during this. I am feeling something new lately. Is about a story from my Chinese text book. Is about human should be humble and merciful and we should always keep our smile on our mouth.

Life, is made up of both good times and bad times. Everyone, do not have the same things in life, so we shouldn't comparing with others ( I admitted that, I did some comparing with others ,sometimes )

I will try not to.

Well ya!

I am not that saying we should be perfect, we just trying to understand and move to the right way

Life is full of lots of up and downs, what would you do when you feeling down?
Yes, I do feel need a shoulder for me. I do feel need a shadow to hugs me in the dark. But why do I think so?

Ha-ha!

I found it out that I'm a very emotional person. Then? Fine, I get myself a fresh air and think about everything that I've been done. I know, everyone should control their emotional. Yes, I did have a bad attitude but I really trying to correct myself in the right way.

To remain standing strong, I used to struggle sometimes. There are a key words in my mind, and I am now sharing with all of you guys.

"What does not kill you makes you stronger"

So, everyone needs to struggle to remain to standing in the right way and in our life. Don't worry everyone, all good things come to the end :)