theZixx

Theory Of A Deadman - Hate My Life [Explicit]

2012-02-15T16:24:00.001+01:00

I love my fucking life btw, it cant be fucking better, this life is fucking awesome, its just sometimes I think that life has a mind of its own and then like life looks at me and he is like "Fuck he has it so easy, everything comes to him as he wishes, lets fuck with him a bit".
I dont mind u know, for one particular reason cause there isnt shit life can threw at me and il be like fucking giving up on it, it just makes me wanna live even more. Cause seriously if I had it all then I would probably blow my brains out of fucking boredom. So I like it when life thinks of me and throws me another bullshit to deal with. I just fucking smile and I know shit cant touch me, u know why? Cause I couldn't fucking care less.

Now when I said that, I can tell you what actually happened. You know my computer, the badest fucking machine I had till now for gaming. WHICH I JUST FUCKING BOUGHT! Well its fucking destroyed, not completely - I guess it can be worse. There could have been a fucking earthquake and it could swallow my house down to the depths of hell. That would definitely be worse.
What exactly happened was that I had a certain person in my room and I left my room and went downstairs to take a dump. I know, fucked up - I mean what kind of person I am that I let somebody else touch my fucking computer. Like I was asking for it, I wanted it to get fucking destroyed. Never trust anybody with your fucking gaming rig, this shit aint a joke.
So this person had a glass of water on the table and I guess in some weird way that person was able to knock the glass of water on the table, by the time I came back the monitor shut off. Now this is my stupidity, I didnt actually know that water was in computer. Person did said that they spilled water on the table, I just didnt fucking connect the dots, how fucking dumb can I be? Monitor is off, for some weird reason and then water spilled on the table and me to not connect that. O I fucking deserve this. I deserve to fucking write this now on this shitty ass laptop like there is no tomorrow cause Im fucking dumb.
Now u see Zixx did what he was supposed to do, turned monitor off and on and was like hm LETS FUCKING RESTART IT, how about FUCKING NO ZIXX! WHY DID U FUCKING DO IT?
Next thing that happened was that this smoke of burning flesh filled the room and that was it, I knew I was fucked. I knew my life will change 4ever. To the fucking worse ofc.
To make it all fucking more worse, u see Im fucking laughing at this shit now so much lol, cause its so fucking funny!!!! Ok listen, so before I went to take a shit, I wanted to tell that person to care for fucking glass of water but I didnt, I just moved the glass and left. Ow ffs...
Another mistake I did was that I fucking bought a computer with an open top for the vent cover, actually there were 2 computers I wanted and this one looked way more bling so I took this one, so dumb as fuck! Why didnt I take the more expensive one and with better fucking stats. Il tell u why cause its all about the fucking pixels, dosent matter if its fucking awesome, if it dosent look awesome then its not!111
Other shit I did, I have this fabulous computer with fucking lights and shit inside and I put it down next to the table?! AM I FUCKING MENTAL WHY THE FUCK DIDNT I PUT IT ON THE GOD DAMN TABLE FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE IT?!Il tell you why cause Im a dumb fuck thats why...
Now I cant blame this person that did this cause it was an accident and it happens, shit fucking happens. I can tell that person all the worst shit in the world but would it bring my fucking computer back from the dead, ofc not. So whats the point? I was mad, gosh I was fucking furious if I thought that person did it on purpose oh my days... But but it was an accident Im sure of it, I can only blame myself for being now on this laptop where even skype turns off when both partys have cameras on.
I had my computer for 2 months, more like month and some days but damn we had good times together. We played games and were on skype at the same time, was so amazing. We laughed at the videos, watched movies together - when I was sad computer always knew how to cheer me up. It was a perfect connection and now when I look at it its just there on the floor looking at me all fucking dead and I think to myself could this been avoided if I just stopped for a sec and thought shit trough...
Before this computer I had to have one computer for skype and the other one for games and graphics all the way low and it still laged sometimes. Was so like =( and now I dont even have a second computer to run the skype, cant even play games. Nothing... Its all gone.
U see my mom bought me this computer and she took it like on 1 year payment which sucks. I have no money to repair it and if I tell this my mom - Im screwed in so many ways cause I had shit like that happen once before. I cant listen to her telling me TOLD YOU TOLD YOU, U NEVER LISTEN BLA BLA FUCKING BLA. I do never listen!!!!!111 where was my fucking brain there? ... ffs...
My sister earns 500 euro a month and she is not even fucking 18 and there is me fucking 25 soon and I earn yea fucking 0!!11111 I DESERVE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!1
Life is fucking funny lol, seriously how can I not laugh at all this, LIKE HOW CAN I NOT FUCKING LAUGH.
I have warranty for this computer for 2 years, ofc its not covered with water dmg and I didnt know this but u know what fuckers do, they put stickers inside of the computer that can fucking tell if there was water connection to the computer - HOW FUCKING TWISTED AND EVIL IS THAT!? CANT EVEN FUCKING MAKE A SIMPLE FRAUD THESE DAYSS!!!!!!11
I dunno what died in it but it smelled so fucking bad, knowing life its probably a fucking motherboard, or could be just all! ALL FUCKING WENT TO SHIT YEA GONNA THINK LIKE THAT SINCE ITS PROBABLY FUCKING TRUE!
here comes the worst part...u ready? I am a stupid fucking idiot cause I DIDNT BACK UP!!!!!!!!!
FUCKING DIDNT DO A BACKUPPPPPPPPPPP LIKE OMFG FUCKING JUST KILL ME
HAD PHOTOS ON THAT HARD DRIVE FROM WHEN I WAS 15TEEN and my sisters recordings and all the pictures, like 30 gbs...
AND OMG ALL MY WORLD OF WARCRAFT SCREENSHOOTS. MY FAMILY PHOTOSSSSSSSS
That shit, u know how much that costs? That shit is priceless to me...No money u could offer me and be like I wanna buy your hard-drive, nah dude I would tell you 2 fuck off without even thinking it over.
GOSH I hope my hard drive didnt die...Why didnt I back it up, why? Always fucking back up, always... Always save the fucking game before u go in the room!!!111111111 ffs
I am an idiot and its ok, fuck you life, fuck you!!!!1 fucking fuck you so much!11
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Im just reliving all the moments now, after that person went home and I came back, I was sting in my chair for like an hour, that person was apologizing saying how sorry and all but I couldnt hear anything. I was in shock.
I just didnt believe that happened, thanks for my friend that talked to me on skype at that moment to calm me down.
I was in such a mess.
Missed an exam cause I had 4 homework's on the computer that I had to bring to be able to write the exam.
I dunno, its just all went to shit.
Lol but Im not mad at all cause u know what lol, the day il be mad at all the shit that happens to me will be the day I will die. I laugh at you life, U think u can fuck with me? LOL BRING IT ONNNNNNN
BRING IT THE FUCK ON
THIS IS THE BEST U GOT
COME ON BITCH DO YOUR WORST
FUCK YOU!!!!!!11111
FUCK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
U know the good part :)))))))))))
U LISTENING
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I HAVE THIS BOTTLE OF WATER!!111 OW DAYS u see I thought about my revenge and I still dont know wtf will I do actually with it!!! But that water will fucking pay like there is no tomorrow.
How can you actually destroy water?! thats the shit I cant even do that, I was thinking to spill it in fucking toilet and to piss on it but nah that shit aint enough. I need something epic, something fucking dreadful, I dont want it to be free in pipes. I wanna put it on the fucking moon so its gonna be alone surrounded by rocks 4ever!
Im gonna boil it and freeze it so much TO just to watch it fucking suffer! OW GOD DAMNT THAT WATER WILL NEVER BE FREE!!!! ETERNAL FUCKING PRISON FOR THAT SHIT, IM GONNA PLAY THE WORST FUCKING MUSIC TO HER ALL DAY LONG, ITS GONNA FUCKING REGRET FOR MESSING WITH MY FUCKING BABY MY FUCKING COMPUTER
U DONT FUCKING MESS WITH THAT SHIT
NEVER
NEVER FUCK WITH MY TECH
NEVER

AND ON TOP OF IT ALL MY FRIEND FUCKING LANCE, BEFORE THIS ALL HAPPENED I ASKED HIM TO FUCKING HELP ME OUT TO STUDY
cause he is fucking pro when it comes to studying and Im like one day before study and pass it
and he studys like for weeks, tbh that makes me fucking pro - NOT HIM but I wanna be more like him fucking organized and all that shit 2 weeks before exam! I want that.
HE IS IN FUCKING CHINA BTW so he wrote on the fucking iphone how to fucking to do and I was LIKE WOW DUDE THATS SO FUCKING PRO
AND I said il put it on my blog cause I find it funny and he keeps fucking asking every time I LOG to skype WHEN WHEN WHEN AND OMG IT PISSES ME EVEN MORE LIKE FFS
life lol
Life can fuck with you in so many ways
FUCK YOU LANCE TOOO
FUCK YOUUUUUUU AND HERE IS YOUR FUCKING SHIT
ARE U FUCKING HAPPY NOW?!!!!!!!!
ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!111
RAGE ALL OVER THIS FUCKING PAGEEEEE
also I DIDNT SPELL CHECK ANY OF THIS SHIT
U GOTTA PROBLEM WITH THAT
THEN FUCK YOU 2
ZIXX OUT
FUCK YOU LIFE

So, I am chilling on my friends sofa and browsing Skype to look with whom could I chat for a free minute. Then this guy called Zixx who claims to be a legend in games but certainly was only in wow asks me how to learn a few A4 pages in 4hours. Well, I helped him of course with very basic things which in my opinion primats should know after the age of 16. So, I reffer to him this post on how to start study.

First of all Rule No.: 1

Motivation and wish to actually start doing something. From my personal point of view is that you can't really use more than 20% of your capabilities if you are thinking about the beautiful Chinese girl you saw last day or your League of Legends window are opened and every minute someone tries to invite you to play "a game". Like I remember every time Zixx invites me to play his called "one match" which we start at 6pm I am most likely finished at 4am and god damn it I dont even know at the end how many matches have we played. I don't know how is it called
but when (in my words) "your ass is on fire" you can use 200% of your abilities. But if you decided to turn off Skype, League of Legends and temporarily put that Chinese girl photo in your brain bin then congrats you have just completed step 1 and now you only need not to be lazy and start your work. If you are lazy then I am sorry but scientists haven't found a medicine from being lazy. Maybe a cup of coffee or 1 hard slap on yourself could actually help abit to take you out of laziness swamp. Let's move to next rule.

Rule No.: 2 Planning (Congratulations Zixx you made it that far to rule number 2 and I am proud of you)

So, like my BPM (Building Planning and Management) teacher would say: "Everything starts from good planning"

First of all rush to the shop to buy a notebook with calendar or use a piece of paper which you can actually put into the system of your own. Remember being to able follow your steps and systemise everything will give you not only a huge opportunity in managing your things faster but also gives you an option to go back and correct mistakes. The principle is similar like you check the combat log in wow which says how much damage you took from bleeds or curses and who was the guy who owned Zixx. Every line is marked in different color but personally I don't like to play with colorful pens anymore so I am always using a table with the things I need to do, the priorities, sequence or any other stuff which you think is important. You will find the best system to fit your own subject and needs by the time you get used to do the tables. So planning in my own experience is that everything refers to your the time spend to do something. If you are able to calculate how much time will you need to do one or the other activity soon you will be successful person who doesn't worry if he has time in his scedule to invite that Chinese girl for a dinner or no. This is another key to win. So to summarize this: "Train and be able to list down your activities and create a system on your own. Don't forget that mostly everything refers to time."

Rule No.: 3

You are ready to start working on your stuff. Your Skype and LoL is off, Chinese girl in the bin and you have your all stuff planed so stick to your plan and pay attention.
Otherwise, you will find yourself doing things very slowly and it's better to spend your time on fun when it's time and finish your work fast when you are focused so you don't blame yourself that you have studied so long and actually achieved nothing.
Keep working and track your progress it is also important key to win in this case. If you keep tracking that means you are better at planning. If you a better at planning that means you are more focused on your things. And if your are focused then this is it you just need to systematically work and you will achieve your success.

*Disclaimer: This is my first blog and I know you will find it not planed. It's because I haven't planned it and I just spilled my thoughts sentence by sentence. I hope you understood the main idea. Leave me a comment if you liked it or not and if I should continue writing blogs. I am a student in the 3rd grade of Constructing Architect education. I could write more things about it if someone is interested to read. So, keep studying guys and have fun!

Roger Sanchez - Again (original mix) HQ

2012-01-19T02:33:00.003+01:00

As most of you know or dont know by now, I am single again. Yes I know what u thinking.
Zixx u broke up with your gf for the trillionth time, u getting back together again and we all know it.
Well u cant be more fucking wrong tbh, Im fucking done. Im done with all the bullshit that involves being in a relationship.
Where did all go wrong? Thats a hard one, like u know when u play games and you lose there is a reason why u lost. Somebody either fucked up or somebody just cant play for shit. There has to be some fucking reason u know, u cant say well they were fucking better and they owned us, fuck no. Shit dosent go down like that, nobody is better then you. Somebody else fucked up, not you.
Tbh the reason why my relationship got fucked is girls in general I guess.
Girls these days they fucking crazy, and my one was no different.
U know I tell ppl all these problems I had with my gf and they just go, ya bro Iv been there, had that shit fucking up my life too. U now alone bro, this is normal, all are like that. They fucking nuts homie, u cant talk to them when they in that rage mode, why you even trying to explain shit. Just a waste of fucking time u know Zixx, just either accept it or fucking ditch her.
But nah dude, Zixx dosent listen to other fucking noobs. U know he thinks he can conquer the god damn world all by himself. He can make this happen, he will be a good bf and she will be a good gf and we will live happy ever after.
How I was fucking wrong. Oh my days how I was fucking wrong.
U know I was with my girl for about 2 years and would be totally dishonest of me to say we didnt have good moments and good times. We did u know, but we also had shit loads of bad moments.
I am here to talk about all the bad moments.
Every fucking one of them.
Jealousy is a bitch, like I remember I found it cute in the beginning u know. Like my gf is fucking jealous, so fucking cool u know. She thinks somebody will steal me or some shit from her.
How cute is that. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Mistake fucking 1 in my 2 year relationship. There is nothing fucking cute about your gf being jealous. Seriously if I was in my right mind when the first time she mention about some other girl thats looking at me, or some other girl that I wanna fuck. I would run like there is no fucking tomorrow.
Or get a big ass mace and fucking club her so much till she ends up in hospital knowing that next time she does it she is gonna fucking die BY MY FUCKING HAND! Thats where I fucked up, I made it ok for her to come to me with her jealousy bullshit and harass me with it.
I thought it was cute. Fucking laughed, blushed and was all like how cute is that let me kiss u, u know I only love you. Im yours. Never gonna leave you, all I want is you.
Mistakes,mistakes...
You see girls dont hear anything u say when they are in that jealousy mode, u can say all the good things and it doesn't even come to there head. But boy u say one thing fucking wrong - and u gonna be hearing about that for the next 2 years. They gonna repeat it so it sounds way fucking more then its important. Then they will tell you how wrong u are, how all her friends think u are wrong and then they will name all your friends that think thats wrong too, if you name your friends that think you right - she just gonna spit all over them. If u still fucking holding your grounds and trying to explain it to her for the 10000000 time. She will throw the bomb at u, the bomb.
Now u know when the bomb is about to be thrown when she doesn't look at u, like she looks on the sides. Holds her breath and then looks at u back and then she goes saying it "Do you even love me?" trying not to cry. U know u fucked when she asked that question cause there is no answer to it. But ofc u are a fucking dumb ass and u think its just a simple question so u answer it.
Saying yes, thinking like why did she even asked you that.
That yes sends u to another circle of hell, u just stepped into a trap and u didnt even realize thats how fucking dumb u are.
IF U FUCKING LOVE ME you wouldn't be doing this to me, cant u see how I feel about this, u dont even care. Its all same to you as long as u are happy. What about me? Do you even care how I feel? If you loved me you would change this, not lie to me about it.
Yea girls... U see for some time I thought something is wrong with me, like maybe I am the one that is rly fucking everything up but then I woke up one day and I saw shit how it is.
And let me tell you my friend. Girls are pure fucking evil. They will eat you alive and they not gonna end your fucking life cause no, they want you to be WITH THEM all miserable for the rest of your life.
Remember this one time I was at my friends party with my gf OFC. We chilling, talking, Im having a good time u know, the wine is free, got my cigarettes. What can go fucking wrong.
She smiling, the ppl im talking to they smiling, U know we just having a propa good time and then.
Out of fucking nowhere with a smile on her face, she kisses me on the cheek and whispers in my ear. You look at that girl just once more again, and I will fucking kill you, also if she smiles at you one more time I will fucking rip her fake boobies and that fucking ugly face out of her with a knife.
Now obviously you are too dumb to see the pattern. U are stunned, fucking cc on you. You dont know what just happen, u didnt see it coming. U were walking down the street and suddenly 10 PPL JUMPED FROM A BUSH YELLING DEMACIIIIIIAAAAA.
But the shit is even worse, there are no 10 ppl, just ONE GIRL. Your gf, next to you, mad as hell smiling like everything is alright. The girl on your right that u are not supposed to look at is asking you a question and u already see how its going down. U answer it, and u are about to die. Dunno when, maybe in your sleep, or maybe right this moment.
So you do what every guy would do, you ignore it and say u going to take a piss.
At the bathroom u looking yourself in the mirror thinking, oh my fucking god how did I end up here and am I gonna die now? is this it? my life ends like this for reals? So u slap some water on yourself and u walk out all fucking happy and shit cause u drunk as a motha focka. Then when u coming back to the table you feel her eyes on you, she is looking at your eyes just waiting for you to look at shit u not supposed to look. Eye of the tiger look. U kiss her and u pray to god even if u dont believe that she wont make a scene in front of all your friends and embarrass you. Evening is over and u going home and u happy, nothing went wrong, now all you need to do is listen to her bitch about everything for the rest of the trip home. Then listen to her bitch before you fall a sleep, then ofc when she bitches in the morning and maybe for another week about that and then u fine. You saved. Was a close one tho. Never mention the party or the girl u were talking to and u gonna be just fine.
Girls...
Ow god, now this next thing Is rly embarrassing to write. U know I always believed that a man should not ever hit a women. But what happend when the women hits a man?
Remember we had a fight and I went to a bar to just let her cool off, was summer and I was sitting outside drinking my bear, smoking a cig just chilling and thinking wtf happend why did she had to yell at me for nothing. Then out of fucking nowhere she comes all fucking storming and comes to me tells me Im a fucking asshole, slaps me and walks the fuck away. Waitress comes out and she like are you ok, should I call the police? Im like wtf... Nah dont call police, thats my gf, no worry ITS NORMAL. So since its a small town, shit spread and then I get couple of msgs on fb ppl asking me did I get slapped by my gf?
That wasn't the end of it tho, she slapped me 2 more times and ofc I forgiven her cause Im a dumb fuck and I loved her. HOW FUCKING STUPID CAN I BE?! I SHOULD HAVE TAKE MY MACE AGAIN AND BEAT HER TO DEATH RIGHT FUCKING THERE!!11111111111
I remember before I was reading in the news how husband kills his wife, or bf kills his gf, I never understood why that happen. Now I do. When somebody fucks with you for such a long time and at one point u just blow and somehow 20 years in jail dosent seem so bad considering you are already have a lifetime sentence with your wife.
Ow how I was naive and how stupid I was, but you learn u know, sometimes u got to fuck up in life so many times to understand that thats what u dont want or to realize what you want from life. Thats how it is.
One of my mistakes was that I gave my gf all the passwords, like for facebook, dailybooth, youtube...
You know I didnt care, I was like I love you, I got nothing to hide, here u go hunny. Gosh seriously how fucking dumb can I be,other mistakes was that I was a fucking friend with her on all the social sites. Oh my days, just fucking kill me.
You see it all started unimportant, thats how girls are you know. They say shit that seems like its w/e but actually its very fucking important and if u dont realize in time you about to suck a big fat black dick and u better fucking love it.
Kinda remember the first thing, like girls leaving messages on my wall, my friends over the net u know. Not the real life girl - friends cause lets be honest I dont have any.
She was like uhm whos that, like do you need her on fb? Why is she msging you? Why did you like her picture?Do u think she is sexy? Are you attracted to her. I think she is in love with you. Def she is in love with you. You shouldn't have the ppl that u think they are sexy and u are attracted to them, they in love with you and u even supporting it by liking there pictures. Its not healthy for our relationship so how about me and you sit down and lets delete ALL YOUR FUCKING GIRLS THAT I THINK THAT ARE THREAT TO ME CAUSE IM A CRAZY FUCKING BITCH AND I DO NOT TRUST YOU.
Yea and suddenly poof, u know she is wrong and u dont like her doing this but u love her so w/e.
She says if I dont know them then like why I should have them on fb, u know I dont even talk to them so like she is gonna delete them, who cares right. WELL WAIT THE FUCK
wait wait, how come she deleted just the girls, I dont talk to shit loads of guys on my facebook but she doesn't have a problem with that. Wtf?
Yea bro, its very simple cause u not gonna cheat with her with a guy, but u will cheat with her with some girl that lives in fucking russia in sybir all alone in the woods, miles the fuck away from.
Makes perfect fucking sense. Girls and logic, u just cant put that together in a sentence even tho I just did.
Then she goes on this whole fucking crusade to explain me that I dont need ppl on fb I dont know or talk to and I should just remove the ones I dont talk to myself. Its all pointless and shit, so if its so pointless how come she cares so much about it? CAUSE ITS NOT, SHE WANTS CONTROL! SHE IS AFTER U! Delete all the females cause the only girl in your life should be her and your mom.
U see if i was smart, the first time she would mention facebook friends that she has a problem with, I would fucking take a big fucking mace and send her to a fucking hospital again. Thats how girls learn you know, cause explaining it to them for hours and hours that you only love them and they have nothing to worry about that they can trust u and shit. That method does not work, trust me... I tryed it, I was talking with her for 1 year all the time about the same shit all day fucking long, every day and then tomorrow she gets mad again and I have to explain all over the fuck again.
Ul have more chance to explain to wall fucking quantum physic then to a gf that u only want her and u not gonna cheat on her. NO FUCKING JOKE.
Now my shit got rly serious and at some point without me realizing it got out of control, I was watching music videos and she was fucking mad at me cause girl was half naked and dancing. I mean wtf. Who is not half naked today on music videos like what the hell, now Im not allowed to watch music videos. She didn't say it like that, she said watch it when Im not with you and since she is 99% of the time with me then its kinda fucked up that I need to wait for her to leave to watch a music video.
Also watching movie with my gf was rly enjoyable in the beginning until she didn't start questioning me if I find the actress hot or pretty or w/e.
Now in the beginning we agreed we gonna be honest and shit, another fucking trap I fall into it without realizing it. NEVER BE HONEST! NEVER FUCKING EVER!!!
If u watching a movie with a girl and u wanna watch it till the end without her fucking bitching or yelling at you every time the actress you find pretty comes into the scene then dont fucking say u find her attractive. Fuck the honesty and everything, she cant handle it. Seriously better to lie to her all the fucking time so she wouldn't mention it every fucking time.
I didn't know that ofc, so being a dumb fuck as I am I WAS BEING FUCKING HONEST cause I thought thats what relationship is about, TO NOT FUCKING LIE!
That fucking worked rly awesome for me. Crying, yelling, am I not enough for u? Do u have to think about the other girls? Why dont I think that somebody else is hot? Are u even happy with my looks? Do I sexually excite u in bed?Would u change something on me? U know that I will never have her body? Im not some fucking bimbo that dosent nothing all her life and just goes to gym and eats nothing then goes and records a movie from time to time?DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME? OR U LOVE THAT BITCH ON FUCKING MOVIE?
It didnt take me too long to figure that every time she asks me do I feel that this girl is hot I should say NO FUCK NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! then we come to another problem, now if you say no, she thinks u fucking lying which u are ofc since u dont wanna deal with all the bullshit that goes on with you saying yes. Now she wanna dig it out of you, she doesn't want you to say no, she wants you to say yes cause she thinks its a yes. So she fucking does everything she can, she goes on Google then goggles the actress and keep asking me over and over do i find her sexy like Im gonna change my answer if she asks the question 50 times. Well fuck you and fuck her 2 cause now I know. U see I got more brain usage trough the relationship and now I will stick to no, no matter the fuck what.
ANOTHER FUCKING MISTAKE!
This is where I made a mistake, now she dosent believe and when a girl doesn't believe then she fucking does everything to find out are u dishonest with her. ITS BETTER TO SAY YES. LISTEN to her bitch about it for 2 - 3 days and bitch at it every time that actress is on youtube or tv, u not watching any new movies with that actress with her but u done. Thats it, she spits on her looks and personality every time u mention something remotely about her and ofc the actress is the worst bitch ever (hitler is nothing compared to her) doing heroine and all cause all actress do heroine ofc. THATS IT.
BUT U STICK WITH NO. AND THEN IT NEVER ENDS, IT DOSENT LAST FOR 2-3 DAYS, IT GETS MENTION EVERY FIGHT THAT SHE DOES NOT BELIEVE U, THAT U ARE A LIENG BASTARD, YOU ARE LIKE ALL OTHER MAN, U JUST WANNA FUCK SOMETHING SKINNY IN A BIKINI.
She doesn't watch a movie anymore, no she couldn't care less about a movie, now she is watching your face expressions every time that actress makes an appearance. U ARE THE FUCKING MOVIE for her. U better not make any sudden moves cause boy ow boy u getting fucked again AND AGAIN.
U cant win bro, its like you set out to lose from the begging, there is no hope. Its not about giving up here, very simple - SHE COULDN'T CARE LESS what u saying, she just says her shit all the time and thats why u can not reason with her. She pretending she listening ya, but she not rly, u think she hearing what u saying? FUCK NO BRO! She is thinking WHAT SHE IS GONNA SAY when u finally shut up with all your lies!
girls...
The thing is, what they want is to fuck your brain up so much that you dont even think if somebody looks good or not, cause if u just think about it, they will smell it and then u fucked!
They want to freeze your brain in that moment before the thought actually comes and put themselves in there YELLING CRYING AND DOING ALL THE NASTY SHIT THEY CAN DO so when that thought comes to you, its gets ripped out of your head by the person u love so much sitting next to you. Cause u know that even thinking about it can get u in trouble that lasts for minutes,hours,days...
I tell you,somewhere it went all rly wrong, dunno when. Maybe cause they left the kitchen and were allowed to vote and now they chase the carriers and think they can rule the fucking world?
Well they fucking cant! Not with that 1 week of craziness every month thats going on down there.
I tell you, when you are with a girl in a relationship. She doesn't need to tell you that she is on her period. U fucking feel that evil coming every month. I tell you bro, u fucking feel it in your bones, she doesn't need to tell you that u not gonna get any pussy this week. Nah its like I come to her and I just go I understand, its coming. I know all good. Then she stands all like wtf? How do you know?
Then whats all this mind fucking is that she even dares to ask me how I know, when yesterday she was fucking crying all day and saying how I dont fucking understand her and how we not meant for each other and how this life is shit. What am I doing with her, with her life, my life. Crying, yelling... Telling shit about everybody and anything.
She asks me how I know? ffs ALL THE NEIGHBORS KNOW TOO, not just me.
That week of hell, bro I tell you. There is nothing u can do. Nothing. Thats why I dont trust a women on her fucking period in charge of a country with a nuclear arsenal. The whole world is about to go to hell if she gets just one call on her big red phone that shes not liking.
The only way to actually to deal with this is to hide, as much as possible and ignore her. Hug her and just try to be there without saying anything at all, cause every word u say will just make it worse. EVERY WORD will make her more crazy.
U fucking duct tape your fucking mouth if u cant shut up and just be there. Be there for what, to listen to her bitch cause if u dont listen to her bitch then she will be going on about how u not listening when she talks to you and how u dont understand her at all and thats even fucking harder to listen then the bitching itself.
It just has to pass...U got to sit it out in your bunker,and just wait for the storm to end. Nothing u can do about it, I heard there are pills for it but gosh if u bring that up. Not even going there. Pills = bad fucking idea to mention. k? Just trust me bro, dont even fucking try.

One thing I had going here was that I could run from her, u know like she goes to her parents and she is on pms and Im like yea ofc hunny il come. Thinking fuck no, not till this shit storm passes then we will fucking see each other. FREEDOMMMMMM FUCK YEAAAAAAAAA FINNALY
GOOOOOOO MEEEEEE
wohooooooooooooooooo
Then if you fuck up something and she like finds out, then she will all smart come to you and be like I KNOW WHAT U FUCKING DID! HOW COULD U?
AND U LIKE WTFFFF WHAT DID I DO which just makes it even worse, if u werent a fucking dumb ass you would just admit it say u fucking sorry and then move the fuck on. But no u fucking dont know what u did so u like - I dont understand and which makes it worse, does not matter its the truth - BUT IN her mind it makes it even fucking worse cause not only u lieng about it but u pretending to be all innocent and shit. U FUCKED U FUCKED! JUST ADMIT THE MISTAKE EVEN IF U DONT KNOW WHAT U DID AND MOVE THE FUCK ON!

I actually in the begging of the relationship, I thought like 900000000 % sure this was fucking it u know. Like I remember when I went out and I called my gf and I was like - going out with my friends to drink and shit and just have fun. She was like ah ok hun, u have fun and call me so I know you are ok. Just dont drink too much and take care of yourself.
And then I was like FUCKKKKKKK! I got the best gf ever u know, she not bitching or anything WOW, LIKE AWESOME. Yea thats how the beginning was...
U see I was dumb enough to actually think that thats how its gonna be every time and all the time.
Ima speed up shit and Ima tell u how my last going out with my friend went.
Went along line of this... Hello? Hey, I CAN HEAR GIRLS! U HAVING FUN OUT WITH YOUR STUPID FRIENDS?DID U SEE SOMEBODY U LIKE? ARE THERE ENOUGH SLUTS AROUND? YEA KEEP FEEDING YOUR EYES? IM NEVER BE LIKE THEM? ALL DRUNK SLUTS! CHEAT ON THERE BFS AND SHIT? DID U CHEAT ON ME ALREADY? FOUND SOMEBODY U LIKE? AH I DONT LOVE U ANYMORE? FUCK YOU, GO CHEAT ON ME IF U WANT TO! WHATEVER U DONT DESERVE ME! U ARE SUCH A FUCKING ALCOHOLIC
ALL YOU DO IS DRINK! DO U EVER THINK ABOUT YOUR LIFE? U THINK THIS IS LIFE WHAT U HAVE? WHY AM I WITH? U DONT DESERVE ME! IM SO BETTER THEN THIS!
FUCK U
CALLS IN 5 MINUTES
IM SORRY, I LOVE YOU I JUST DONT GET WHY U NEED TO GO OUT WITHOUT ME, LIKE I THOUGHT WE GONNA SHARE EVERYTHING, TOGETHER U AND ME ONLY
IM SORRY ITS OK, HAVE FUN WE WILL TALK TOMORROW
U do know as soon as u hang up she will send u a text msg, something along the lines hope u fucking find some slut so she has to put up with your shit cause I dont want to anymore.
Yea and omg when she goes out, well u know I dont like when my gf goes out but I was trying to be a good bf which was fucking a mistake again. How the hell was I supposed to know?
You see when she goes out and u gonna be all like well have fun just be careful that something doesn't happen to u and shit and dont go alone somewhere in the dark. MISTAKE BRO
FUCKING HUGE ONE
Cause u see u not jealous that she is going out, she is going out with a bar full of guys and if u trust her then u are fucked. Cause trusting her means u not afraid u gonna lose her. SO like FROM That she concludes that u dont love her since u not worried that she is going out and she is gonna be around guys. SO now u rly fucked. Cause next question she is gonna throw at u is the rly fucked up one. You ok with me going out? You say yes not knowing whats coming. DO you think Im not sexy enough, u think nobody will hit on me, u not worried? And u like nah nah I think u sexy ofc they will hit at u, I just trust u thats all. Now she goes like nah u dont fucking trust me, u playing a game now u wanna see if I will go out even after all u said just now. U want me to feel guilty that Im going out now cause u not going out. NOW U HERE ARE LIKE WTF WTF
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFFFF WTFFFFFFFFFFFF
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
Women and there logic. Makes no fucking sense, thats why I KNOW THIS WILL NOT MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU WHATSOEVER CAUSE U A NORMAL FUCKING GUY!
But if u wanna do the right thing, the right thing would be to ban her from going out. U need to be jealous cause they the only way she will understand u fucking care about her. It doesn't matter that u wanna do the good thing and let her go out and have fun. NO NO THATS ALL WRONG! U GOTTA BE ALL LIKE, U not going out, Why would I want you to be surrounded by all the drunk guys and shit. U got me ffs, u not going out thats it. End of story, stay home, if u wanna go out then u gonna come with me and thats it. I trust u but I dont trust them.
Then she will be like all against it, that she is not your dog and all that bs and u need to trust her but as soon as she hangs up > she will be all like AWWWWWWWWWWW
HE DOES CARE ABOUT ME, HE RLY LOVES ME, I was so dumb for thinking he is not afraid to lose me.
I know,you dont get it! Nor do I, tbh but thats how the fuck it is. The bigger bastard u are the more she thinks u love her and the more she will love u and WHATS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS
the less she will bitch at u for stupid shit.
U still thinking wtf am I talking about, boy I tell you better fucking pay attention now before the shit gets real for you and then u gonna be like me. Fucking single, 2 years of fighting with your gf behind you and only shit u got from it that u are a bit wiser and now no girl will fuck around wiv u again.
Skip 2 years and save yourself shit loads of nerves going down the drain, fucking sleepless nights and a lot of yelling for NOTHING.

Also when we had fights, u know I would switch my phone off when she rly pissed me off, airplane mode ftw. Then she calls all your friends and shit and explains them what went wrong, what did u do wrong. Then friends call you and be like did u rly do that, fucking bunch of lies - just she could get to your ass u know. She cant get to you, so she uses other ppl to get to me. Tactics tactics - mastered it all.

But there is good part about it, u rly know who your friends are after that. Cause u see the friends dont give a fuck about you, will stand on her side u know and tell u, you are a bad man and curse u to death. Turkish curse I have on me now cause one of my friends took her side, not to mention that my gf cursed me too. Also my grandma the other day when I pissed her off. Collecting curses, rly fucking awesome, good thing NOBODY CAN TOUCH ME. Got fucking magic immunity all the way.
Friends that do care about you will hear your side of the story and wont believe the bs she serving them, bros for life<3.
One more thing, u know girls they expect for you to back them out even when they are wrong when it comes to other ppl. Just cause they are your gf they think u should stand by there side, fuck that if u wrong Im not gonna be on your side u know, doesn't matter how much I love you.

Now I had this stupid thing in myself that I will not give up on the person till I love her, but love has nothing to do this. You see the love for her still didnt pass in me. That will take time but in the end it will pass. The point here is how much shit u can take from somebody you love, how many times u can forgive them when they come to you and say they sorry they fucked up?
For me the answer is rly simple now, only 1 per situation cause everybody have a right to fuck up once but since she keept repeating the mistakes, I kept telling myself Im not giving up on her no matter what since I love her. Love has nothing to do with it.
I was wrong, mistakes mistakes. Some girls can not learn simply and they can not learn when u say dont do this once. They have to do it 1000 more times and they still dont get why u getting mad.
Nothing to do with love, all about respect. U cant hear me say NEVER AGAIN do that then fuck you and fuck her 2.

Love? What is love, a feeling of happiness, something unique, something u can not fake. Something which has it all but demands little for it. Beauty in simplicity yet complicated in its beauty.
Love is everything, yet it can be nothing at all. It makes us search for it making us feel like we are not full without it, like we need a person we love in true sense of the word to spend life with her. For our life to be it, but what if we dont rly need love if its all just our fucking biological material fucking with us. I know I can live without love but question is it all worth it and do I want too? Living the life for yourself or for US/ maybe to be truly happy we need to define ourself trough love and pain to rly understand what happiness is.
Then there is relationship between a man and a women (game) which is a fucking battle for domination and struggle to keep it going no matter what. To work it out, to come to some sort of fucking agreement about the view on life. To fight, to understand each other, to not be able to live without each other. But still there has to be some borders, some rules even there, it cant be anarchy. There has to be the things u can not do, I do not talk about cheating - talking about talking about problems among couples which I dont think I had cause she never listened. She never tryed to understand, she wanted it her way and then when I WENT ALL IN - I wanted it my way and I was stronger. Then all came apart. Always kept telling her that outside factor can not fuck us up, but u can destroy us. She never listened, was always more scared of other girls. In the end she should have only fear herself, mistakes mistakes. Girls... Dont think they ever listen.
For me I dont have a fixed point what love is, for me its all in clouds and all is open for discussion, but girls I think they have some things prerecorded in there head how it should be and thats why it makes it so hard.
I dont know what I want from my next gf but I know now what I dont want from her. Guess I had to go trough all of this to realize some things that I did not know before. Learned how to play a game now, learned how to win. Tho that kid in me that believes in ultimate love dosent want it to be a game/dont wanna win or lose/ that kid just wants to love and believe, wants to be open but the problem is - it can only stop being a game when u with somebody that doesn't wanna play the game. Live and let live does not apply there, it goes kill or be killed.
I guess its all about finding that person that u dont have to play games with, that you will understand each other, you will rise above it. Make it something that can not be put in words.
Maybe...and maybe its all just overfuckingrated and we are chasing the rainbow...
I dont know, I know that each person has to decide for themselves. For me - would rather die soloing life then being together with somebody that doesn't fit me. If all girls are these crazy then fuck it. Im going solo on this life thing.

There is a disclaimer to do this, Im not saying all the girls are like this but fuck MOST OF THEM ARE, like I hear story's from ppl saying the same shit.

Girls,u good in bed and if they love you more then they should then they just go fucking crazy as hell.
Why is that? Fuck I know. Love fucks with there heads?
I dont think that question can rly be answered, maybe one day somebody will get a Nobel prize for that. Till then ALL I can say is, draw a line the first day you going out with a girl, dont let her move your ass around. Dont be a pussy like me, dont do the mistakes I did. U the boss and be like it, got to be a warrior. She has to know where her place is, no fucking about. She wont listen, fucking dump her and save yourself some time and go find the one that is not crazy, If there are still some left.
I mean the world is a big place u know, there has to be one girl out there that is single and beautiful, wont bitch at you when u play games(wont tell u that u wasting your life again), will be loyal and support u - wind in your back and all that, be crazy when it comes to sex and just like be honest with u, wont cry for bs reasons and wont yell at u for every little thing. Have an awesome personality and like 10 zillion bucks on her bank account. I dont ask that much right? Also one more thing when I say something to her, she listens!!!!!!
To tell you the truth I always attracted some crazy fucking girls, its like Im a fucking magnet for problematic girls.
WELL FROM TODAY IM DONE WITH THAT SHIT
YOU ALL CRAZY BITCHES CAN FUCK OFF
For all those normal girls that are NORMAL, AND not crazy I apologize if I in anyway offended you with my bs. Dont take it too serious xD

no more psycho gfs
fuck that
seriously
99 problems
bitch aint one

Zixx out
one love ;)

Sexual Frustration - Prozzäk

2011-11-21T02:02:00.006+01:00

I tell you how life is, I will fucking tell you how it all is...
But to all make sense we got to go back 1 month ago, or maybe more, fuck Im not even sure how long its been but it seems to be 4ever.
So this is me, Hey there, and me is moving to capital to live with my gf. Why?
Cause Im a fucking student again, thats right I am 25 years old and Im in a fing university again.
Living wiv my gf, hmmmmm lets see thats not a fucking bad idea at all since we are like cats and dogs.
But what I can do, I wanna save some money so why the fuck buy a train ticket to my university and then back to my home almost 5 days in a week, no fucking point there.
So moved to my gf, and ofc my gf lives with 1 2 3 ppl and a dog also a cat, so there is Me, her mom, her dad, her sister and ofc my gf.
Thats us living in one big happy house except Im not happy at all.
Seriously lets see, Im the type of person that was never sexually frustrated in his life, LIKE EVER!
There is always first, lets see.
How the fuck should I put this in some polite contest.
LET ME FUCKING CUM IN MY GF WHEN I FUCK HER!
THE END!!!!!!11111
Yea, sorry u see, why I am this fucking raging is cause I was having sex ago like 7 minutes ago and now Im fucking siting in front of computer and typing while my gf is on her bed with her iphone doing who the fuck knows what.
Why?
Cause her sister at 12 o clock in the fucking night and 45 MINUTES, knocked on her doors of her room which btw dosent have a fucking lock FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT FUCKING REASON.
Since the doors were blocked with like 2 chairs, her sis managed to half open the door so my gf jumped off my dick and then fucking told her what she needs?
Her sis replayed that she needs nail polish removal something.
NOW this is the shit, why I am typing here is not so much why a person needs nail polish removal at 12.45 in the fucking night, no thats not the reason.
I think thats pretty fucking obvious, but why the fuck knock on a door of a sis when music is loud enough SO her mother, her father, also her sis which knocked, the dog and the fucking cat cant hear me say all the dirty shit I say to her, also my fucking moaning, I am a very loud person when I have sex and I tell you its not pretty.
So ofc my gf is all cool about it and she trys to find her the shit she so desperately needs at 12.45 in the fucking night, at this moment I am at the bed. Looking at my dick dieing in front of me, literately from a fucking pole, u know that one that holds the flag in front of the damn embassy of the united nation it became a fucking German pretzel and not the fucking quality kind that u eat with your bear.
Maybe u are wondering why I am so pissed atm, cause u like this happens when u live with ppl?
Then let me tell u another story.
I want to assure you that this is not an isolated incident.
No, this happened well if we take that I was here a month time and pretty much my gf and me are like damn rabbits, we fuck every day. Then the amount of time this happened uhmmmmmmm
lets seee
EVERY FUCKING TIME WE HAD SEX!!!!!!!!111111111
Now I dont know what the fuck is going on, I have a propa lets say distant and respectful relationship with the mom, dad, her sis, cat and the dog. But I feel like, the next time we are having breakfast, all of us,
Mom, dad, my gf, her sis, the dog and the cat i should ask a question.
A very simple one, cause i am rly curious about the answer.
Would go in the lines like this
I dont want to be rude, also Im not asking this question to offend u in anyway but i am just trying to understand what do u have against me and my sexual happiness, cause every time i fuck my gf in her room
YOU START KNOCKING ON THE FUCKING DOORS, NEEDING SHIT, ASKING QUESTION...
Im just gonna be really honest with u now, but what do you think we do when we turn the music on, do you think we play chess and uhm study?
I will tell you that i take my pants off, your daughter or sister or pet owner takes her, and i insert my penis into her vagina. And then minutes later u come knocking on the doors doing all the shit you do that makes me sexually frustrated and i do feel like a very sexually frustrated person atm.

I remember the time before this WHEN IT happened and then the whole fucking family was involved and it took me about 2-3 hours to fucking cum inside my gf. But u see Im not the person that fucking gives up, Im a fucking warrior right there u can see my spirit, i was hitting that pussy till i came. Ser u could be throwing hand grenades around me and fucking playing all that shity techno music,I would not even fucking blink. Pure focus.
So this was the shit, last weekend Im sure it was, basically it was lunch time. Me myself and I went to my gf room with the gf itself, to come to agreement after some tongue kissing and all that shit that couples do after 1 year and half to convince themselves that they are still romantic and that they love each other, last weekend Im sure it was, basically it was lunch time. Me myself and i went to my gf room with the gf itself, to come to agreement after some tongue kissing and all that shit that couples do after 1 year and half to convince themselves that they are still romantic and that they still love each other.
We came to agreement that we are having sex, so when ppl have sex you got to take the clothes off, so Im pretty sure thats the next thing we were doing. Then we blocked the door, cause again THERE IS NO FUCKING LOCK FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON. We went to bed and we had sex, u will think that I am exaggerating but Im not, 1 sec later THERE IS A KNOCK, NO FUCKING JOKE. Maybe not even 1 second, could have been even less. Dinner is done bla bla fucking bla come eat.
Ok so i dunno what I accurately said to my gf but im pretty sure it was something like "FUCK FOOD, IL RATHER STARVE TO DEATH THEN NOT CUM"
Yes thats it, that was it! I do remember now, its all coming back to me now.
Then my gf ofc cant say that to her mother so she was all like apologetic and shit "We will eat later".
That was the first fucking interruption, that was it. I was already feeling weakness in my dick, My dick is like a fucking house of cards on matches. 1 match just fell fucking off, so I needed to get my fucking ass up and ofc get my dick again up with my gf doing some poses that work for my sick mind for GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON.
SO FINALLY
20 min later, MY DICK IS A FUCKING 2 HANDED axe ready to cut trough the forest of virgins and whores and w/e the fuck gets it in his way. IM BACKKK!!! We fucking again, all good, then I hear a yell!!!!11
I think to myself is it gonna happen the fuck again? I hear my gfs MOM yelling to MY GFS sis that she can come eat if she wants, then her sis yelling back that she is coming, then I hear her mom saying BACK HOW TO TELL US TO COME EAT, SO sis on her way to kitchen tells us KNOCK KNOCK COME EAT.
Im fucking twitching again, no distraction "MY MIND IS FOCUSED, NOT THIS TIME, NOT THIS FIGHT"
Somehow thank the fucking LORD ALMIGHTY I hold it the fuck together and its still firm as a rock, keep rocking that shit.
Around 15 minutes later, maybe more GOD KNOWS HOW LONG THE AGONY LASTED, DAD IS COMING, KNOCK KNOCK
Im already gone, its like Im in a cartoon land, I wanna get up take a fucking machine gun under the bed and just fucking kill everybody and after Im sure everybody is fucking dead, continue to fuck my gf.
But no ofc, Im a guest in this house so I should behave, cant be rude, cant be impolite, basically I cant be all the shit I am that makes me so fucking perfect., cant be fucking honest either.
So my gf politely says that we gonna come eat later again, she has to yell ofc cause music is like trough the fucking roof. Just seems everybody is fucking brain dead so they dont understand THATS A CODE FOR SEX.
So fine, dad goes away, get my dick up again, start from the begging.
FUCKING FUCKING, my gfs Sis finished her food so she is going back to her room, casually on her way to the room SHE YELLS "GO EAT YOU 2 BLA BLA FUCKING BLA"
Ofc I lost my erection again, so this shit is getting serious now.
Im cuming, I dont care, Im pissed, Im mad.
So my gf is on me, Im in her and Im explaining my gf how she needs to go tell her parents that my dick is in her and that I wanna fucking cum not eat. Shit is my gf has some fucking brain problems, half retarded or some shit, fuck I know anyway she cant go say that to her parents that she is fucking me like a cheap whore that I am. SO Im fine, be like that, be a fucking pussy.
W/E IM CUMMING INTO YOU ANYWAY.
SO FUCKING ZIXX TIME TO DO THIS,
RLY GETTING TO IT
fucking almost
HER mom starts to yell some shit
I start to yell THAT I HAVE MY DDD...
My gf puts her fucking hands on my mouth and I cant say shit, so basically she is explaining to her mom why we not coming to eat and how we gonna eat later with her hands on my mouth while Im fucking rocketing her pussy like there is no tomorrow.
Fucking 10 seconds later mom LEAVES I CUM FUCKING BUCKETS...
NO joke, inside her, filled her like there is no tomorrow. FUCKING PROUD OF IT.

Call my gf a fucking bitch for not standing up for me and my dick and went on a balcony to smoke one
Tell my gf Im gonna go eat in the town cause I dont wanna eat the food out of principle now.
WAS THE BEST FUCKING MEAL I HAD IN TOWN!!!11
This happened every time we have sex, I shit u not, u do not believe me, but i swear every time I have sex with my gf, fucking they come charging in like idiots asking questions, needing shit and I dunno what the fuck else.
Its very hard, its very hard to focus when u get mental pictures of her mom in your head or her sis, or her fucking dad!!!11 or a god damn dog scratching the doors, but well yeah Im a pro and we dont rly ask how you fucking do it, we just fucking do it and thats it.

Now when my gf was at my place and my mom came to bother us couple of times, i will tell u what i do.
Once I told her, mom u fucking killed my erraction just now, my dick just died cause of u, are u happy?
Next time I told her, mom I cant now, trying to fuck her.
No more my mom coming to my room while my gf is with me.
That was it, but u see im not a pussy.
My gf tells me every day im a pussy cause of some stupid crap but the one that is a pussy is her.
U know what I would do if I was in my house.
I would live the fucking door open and fuck with the open door on the floor of the fucking room, every day.
WHY CAUSE THAT WAY THEY WOULDNT NEED TO KNOCK OR IF THEY WANNA FUCKING SEE MY DICK SO MUCH THEY COULD AND WE WOULD BE DONE WITH THAT.
U see Im a very irresistible guy, maybe they heard I can fuck for hours so they wanna try it too?
FUCK I KNOW, MAYBE THEY JUST WANNA SEE HOW LONG MY DICK IS, MAYBE THEY WANNA HAVE A FUCKING 3 SOME, NOW HOW SICK WOULD THAT BE, NO NO I GOT A BETTER ONE
MAYBE THEY ARE AFRAID IM GONNA GET HER PREGNANT SO THEY ALL FUCKING PULLED TOGETHER AND MADE THIS FUCKING CONSPIRACY TO FUCK WITH MY HEAD SO I CANT CUM
MAYBE JUST MAYBE WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY WANNA HAVE SEX WITH ME
MAYBE IM JUST THAT FUCKING ATTRACTIVE

u see any of this up reason would be better for me then the one Im gonna say now
THEY ARE TOO FUCKING BRAIN DEAD TO UNDERSTAND WHEN THE MUSIC IS PLAYING THAT MY DICK IS INSIDE MY GF FUCKING HER SILLY
LIKE AN ELEPHANT FUCKS A MOUSE

My name is Zixx and Im sexually frustrated person cause I live with my gf, her sis, her mom, her dad, the dog and the cat.

Went outside on the balcony and I smoked a cig and drinked some vodka and now Im back.
Im gonna get drunk before I get to bed so I can forget that I didnt fucking cum today.I will make myself believe that I came at least 10 fucking times.

Thats it. Im done,
all you ppl that are jerking off or having sex without somebody fucking interrupting u
U DONT GET HOW FUCKING HAPPY U ARE
I SHIT U NOT, U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING LUCKY U ARE

ONE LOVE
IM OUT

kanye west power

2011-08-18T20:03:00.005+02:00

Yea I know haven't posted something new in a while. I could give u all this bullshit reasons why not but the fact is that I was just too damn lazy to sit down in front of a computer and start writing. I have all this ideas in my head about what should I write but I feel so damn lazy, could be this fucked up summer which just drains my productivity with all the heat. Or it could be just me being lazy.
Flash update of my life, lets see I HAVE A FUCKING DRIVING LICENSE. Awesome right, waited 25 years to get that, shit is what rly motivated me to get it was my gf. She was helpful and all when it came to exams and shit, explained me all and rly helped me pass the shit like the boss. No failing on my part, did everything in first try :) whos the motha focka boss?

She also motivated me in the way she dosent even know, u see my gf got her driving license when she was 18 and Im no macho bullshit guy but damn gf driving me around the town just looked bad as hell. Now Im driving that bitch in the front sit like its supposed to be, who ever heard of women driving? Come on wtf?!
Saudia Arabia knows its shit, they dont let women drive, so why should I let my women drive. How can I go solo against whole government of Saudia Arabia, they know there shit, like zillions of arabs telling its not right. 1 guy against the whole country, I dont think so, fucking agree with that shit, dont want no crazy arabs with bombs in my back yard ey xD
The truth of the matter is that I still dont have a fucking car so my gf still drives me around in her car -.-! FUCK YOU SAUDIA ARABIA!111111 If u rly cared about women not driving so fucking much, you would sell some of your oil and buy me a fucking car so I dont look like a pussy while my gf drives me around!!

So that's me, the legend, aka the Zixx. Driving license in a fucking wallet, there is only one tiny problem I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CAR. YEA YEA I know what u mean why the fuck I wasn't thinking about that before. Well the shit is that I did, as many of you dont know my birthday is at 27 this month and I was thinking Ima gonna get some half ass old car for my 25 birthday.
Shit is my Mom and Dad, they pretty fucking smart, guess they have to be cause they brought me into this world and Im the smartest fucker ever right. So basically what they did?! They said they aint buying me some old shity car cause Im the fucking legend and all that, they gonna buy me a new fucking one. Like brand new out of the factory, there is a catch tho. My life is like that, u think they just gonna give u something and give u the car keys. NO BRO, shit dosent work like that. They gotta fuck you first, you got to do something for them so they see something is gonna be out of your life and all that bullshit. They have to teach you that life isnt about getting something without giving something back to somebody.
U see I got 1 year left on college so my smart ass mom and smart ass death figured out that they gonna buy this shit for me as soon as i finish my college. GOD DAMNT AND FUCK THEM!!!111111
No shit Ima such a smart ass, look at them giving me free gifts and then they say but, there is always a fucking but, BUT THE SHIT IS I DIDN'T SEE IT COMING. Was too damn happy and excited when I heard NEW CAR. ALREADY saw myself driving that shit but nah there has to be a fucking but.
SON BUT WHEN U FINISH COLLEGE U GET IT.
I MEAN WTF, THEY COULD HAVE JUST TOLD ME that they would buy me a car when I get a damn noble prize. This aint right, its like okk...

Let me explain you why is this last year is so hard for me, its rly simple. I had some rl shit going on and long story short I couldn't attend college for like a year and half, I still have some exams left like from the year before... I dunno its just a pain in the ass!! Not like its impossible, ofc not, that shit is for noobs. U think all of this fockers who finish college are so pro??? Nah u see the ppl that fucking finish colleague are the biggest fucking noobs ever, thats why they finish it. Cause a noob prepares, its like when u know u suck at a game then u gonna keep trying your best u know improve and all that shit. Then there is the other side, if a fucking pro like me and you pass the first year without checking any books at all then u just go LOOK AT ME IM A FUCKING LEGEND I CAN DO THIS SHIT WITHOUT no hands and then they fuck u up, a bit of bad luck a bit of life shiting on you and there u GO! YOU IN A SHIT HOLE CALLED UNIVERSITY AND U DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START?!?!?
U still not getting this shit?
Ok Ima help you out bro, Il hook you up. Il stretch my divine words of wisdom into your head and you gonna realize this shit and its gonna be beautiful.That moment, its gonna be Rebeca Black times 10 no joke.
So my first year of college, ok wait wait lets go a bit back.
U know my story how I singed up for my collage. So im playing this game u might heard of it called wow aka world of warcraft and Im rank 14 and its bc and Im ganking at nagrand, killing noob hordes at this zone where everybody farm. I hear my mom yelling "YOU GONNA SIGN UP FOR UNIVERSITY THIS YEAR, YOU DO KNOW THAT TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY?" Then she keeps going on and on about life and how education is important and all that shit I dont give a fuck. SO at some point I fucking rage, cause Im a man its hard for me to listen to somebody and play my fucking game.MY BRAIN IS NOT BUILD FOR MULTITASKING!!11111 I alt tab and I type into Google free collage sign up spots opened. My university pops up, I just tell my mom Im sorted already checked where I wanna go 2 weeks ago and gonna do this shit tomorrow, no worry's mom I got this.
Alt tab back to game and find myself dead, Im so pissed now. Kept on ganking all night long, I check its 6 in the morning, check where the hell collage is and I went for it. Come home, mom dont worry they accepted me, its all good. Back to killing noobs.
Thats how my university problems started.
U cant be a serious gamer and just do your university shit, there is no fucking way u can balance that out cause there is just not enough time in the world. So my first year was like playing all night long and just sleeping in university, luckily this university is made for noobs so first year is like word power point basic programing and all that shit, its like brain dead ppl can figure it out. So I pass it without the worry's.
Didnt rly connect with anybody there, like zero fucking friends and Im going to college for a year now, there was this one guy who played games, was good with him and there was some geek who was pveing in wow. Avoided him like a fucking plague of doom.
One of the other guy I notice in my class, was this mentally retarded kid, no joke he is seriously brain dead. He was asking stupid shit like what does print do and what does file stands for and stuff like that and he was just pissing everybody off with his ignorance. Guess what, that focker graduated last year. No joke, you see this dumb guy has no fucking purpose in life, had no other passions except alcohol and school and he just needs to do 2 things to succeed in life. Get fucking wasted, wake up and just read that shit like there is no tomorrow and just repeat the process. So he is studying to finish collage so can have a good job so he can keep on buying fucking alcohol. He questions nothing, he loves the system, the damn system was made for him thats why he is so good at it, get drunk and study. Fuck yea... WE LOVE ITTTTT
U SEE WHOLE EDUCATION SYSTEM is made for stupid ppl, they dont want smart ppl at the top, dont ask me who they are cause I will not finish this shit today then.

The way the education crap works is that they serve u all this fucking fast food meals and u just need to swallow it up like a good boy and when they call your name, you spit it all out at paper and u did good.
U did amazing, u like so good at this shit u getting a college degree. You see my dumb fucking brain dosent work that way. I have to question everything they throw at me, I have to pick it clean , have to put it back together and then put it in my throat so i can spit it out at them.
While dumb ppl they dont fucking care how shit works, they dont care what it does, teacher says 1 and they say 1 after him. The process of repeating.
Im one step ahead of them , you see cause if you are one of us "the smart ppl" you understand the system and my friend if you understand something then u can twist it and break it to your will. Shear fucking power, cause knowledge = power and stupidity = mental retards. No offense if you were born retarded and u reading this shit, what can I say bro bad luck u know fuck it.
Yea I understand the system, u know when I figured it out. I think I was in 4 grade, or third grade.
Let me tell you a story of my life, true story no bs here.
We had German language, English language and Croatian language. In all those classes they wanted me to learn the fucking alphabet and the months of the year. I came home one day and tomorrow the teacher would test us did we learn it, my mom tested me at home. I was a kid but i was bold enough to think outside of the box and I WAS THINKING WTF IS THIS SHIT? SOMEBODY joking on me? 3 fucking languages, 3 different alphabets order and 3 different names for months of the year.
Why the fuck would I learn this? What if I go to fucking Jamaica or SHRIFUCKINGLANKa am I gonna have to learn there alphabet and months too? So I wrote all the alphabets on my shoes and the months. While all the other kids learned it, and let me tell you something. Im fucking 25 years old soon and I dont know any fucking alphabet and months for me are in numbers, there is no fucking aughust or fucktember, its 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12. Why the fuck would I care about naming numbers, for what? Why the fuck would I wanna complicate my life with that shit, its like having 3 kids and have 10 different names for each other them.
What is the fucking point of it?

Then later at my life when I dodged military service and went to work in library for 6 months, they still didnt make me learn the fucking alphabet and I was putting those books in order like np, you dont need fucking alphabet to categorize books cause they all have fucking serial numbers but no ppl like to fucking complicate shit and u know why this is happening cause our education system is made to promote dumb ppl.
U see one of this fucking dumb ppl finished collage and they decided to categorize books by alphabet instead of the serial numbers even tho number categorization was already in place. For what reason? FOR NO FUCKING REASON!!!11 CAUSE THEY DUMB AS FUCK THATS WHY!!!
You see ppl at the top they love the dumb ppl, they dont want smart ppl below them u know why, cause the smart ppl will take there job. Whole dumb ppl will be happy where they are and they wont fucking question anything, they already learned the damn routine at collage, just say 1 student yea good job now come back in a week and say 1 again and u passed, good boy. Easy control is ftw.
Or like I dunno lets think about bigger therms, military lets bash them a bit. American military!!! U see the generals dont want there soldiers to be smart cause smart soldier might ask himself why the fuck am I going across the world to kill some ppl I dont never heard about, nah u see they need that typical guy that says YES SIR IM GONNA DO WHAT U SAY!!!1
THAT'S how the system works my friend, the dumb ppl are needed in this fucking world, but u see the world cant survive on dumb ppl and sooner or later it will all go to hell.We just gotta be smart enough to stay out of there ways and let them fuck each other up while we laugh from the sides.
Same shit is with negative selection, like way before in the past the strongest and the smartest had the most children and that was called positive selection cause u dont want dumb ppl spreading there seed around.
Today smart ppl have like 1 kid or 2 maybe and the dumb asses have like fucking 20, u know why cause they don't think. They don't care how hard it will be for them, there little brains don't think that far so they keep pumping. Negative selection all over the place.Then they say democracy is fucking fair, when I get out voted by 60% of dumb ppl. NOT STARTING THAT TOPIC!!11111
I pride myself in being lazy, its positive!!!!1 Ppl don't fucking get it. You see if Steve jobs wasn't lazy today we would all fucking carry big ass radios on our backs and listening to music, but nah that fucker was lazy as shit so he wanted something small that can play music, that's how ipod was made. Lazy ppl make this world go forward cause of there laziness,I know its a fucking paradox but its so true.
Ow yea I forgot to write that my neigbor destroyed my bike so know I dont even have that, I just have to walk everywhere -.-!

Cant even remember wtf what this all about
ANYWAY
Im out
Zixx
Got the driving license
and got no car
Don't know alphabet and don't know months in years
Living in different Saudia Arabia where only females drive(my gf)
One Love

OW YEA AND ONE THING IF U LIKED IT CLICK THE DAMN SHARE BUTTON
SO I MOVE FROM 3 SHARES TO 4
THANK YOU

One love ^^

Turners Syndrome a documentary short

2011-05-31T02:17:00.009+02:00

The blog post has nothing to do with blog itself but let me take a minute to explain why the blog post is called that way.
U see when Im bored or when Im eating something I am mostly on you tube searching for documentary, long ago I got on you tube with a snack and wanted to watch something rly short. So I put into search "short documentary" what came up is this shit in the title of the blog. Now the whole documentary is a basically a slide show of a girl telling how she coped with her illness and what I got from it is that she had a hard life but she is a fucking warrior and she never gave up, made her life happy end. So I rly liked the song she puts in her video and I msged Lisa as soon as I finished watching it, so she would give me the name of the song since me googling lyrics failed so much. More like Google fucking failed. She replayed in a day and gave me the song name, but since I am inpatient fuck and I have to have everything fast I went on you tube to mp3 and just downloaded audio from her video.
The you tube to mp3 service named it after the video clip and now this song for me is always known by that name! It is the turners syndrome song, not in reality tho.
Since I FAIL at thinking what a blog post title should be, I choose a song which Im listening atm and thats this song. The Syndrome song.
Im gonna be kind enough to back this story that happened long ago with links.
LINK1 AND LINK2! there u go, no need to thank me. Its all part of being a writer that does it all
for no money at all...
Now since we got that out of the way we can finally focus on what we are here for. To fucking laugh at me and kill some noobs and after if we suck go play tetris on fb,or if a girl by some chance is reading this then to laugh at me and go bake some cookies after.
Yes thats how the fucking pros roll and u wouldnt know that since u not a pro.
Girls can also be pros and bros... No fishisam here, thank u very much.
NOW BACK TO THE TOPIC AT HAND, I watched limitless and by some chance You still didnt watch this movie, you should go and watch it before u actually read this shit. Why? Cause this part ahead is filled with fing spoilers and u dont rly want me to ruin this movie for you since its a rly good movie.
GO WATCH THE MOVIEEEE, PRESS ALT+F4 TO START DOWNLOADING IT
Now since we got that out of the way we can start.
You see I am a guy with rly low energy, for me walking on the street or just waking up at the wrong time can decide what will I do for whole day. Cause if I wake up feeling tired, Im gonna be feeling tired all day long till the next day. Having energy to actually get off my ass and do something that involves using my legs or my brain is a challenge.
Coffee helps there a lot, cause it kicks me in the second gear. Yes second gear, I dont rly have any other gears. First then second, after second comes first again.
I dont rly remember who told me to watch limitless, some guy... Or a girl, anyway for the sake of this blog. Lets just say it was somebody with tits cause it seems way cooler that way.
So this girl comes to me and she is all like " U THE LEGEND ZIXX, U GOTTA WATCH THIS MOVIE,YOU WILL TOTALLY LOVE ITTTT"!
Day later I wake up and I got the movie ready to watch it, I make some popcorns. Get some coke and wine and Im all set to watch this. Already checked the trailer cause I love to see a trailer before I see the movie.
Looks good, seems interesting. Put the movie into vlc player and here we go.
I see this guy who is a total bum, his gf bitching at him for not doing anything with his life, later she dumps him cause the guy is rly bumming trough his life. Also he is trying to write a book, instantly I identify myself wiv him. Im LIKE THATS ME THATS ME!!!1 Is he playing games at his free(all) time?
Guy already failed 1 marriage and suddenly out of nowhere he sees this guy who is like his ex wive brother. The guy offers him a pill which activates 100% of his brain.
Makes the guy rly fucking smart and instead of being a fucking bum, guy starts to sort his life out and starts writing. He gets the energy, the focus, the thinking, all that he needs so he wouldnt be lazy and dumb. Finishes his book. Gets some money. Loans from a shark, gets owned by shark, shark wants his drug. He meets this other guy. Other guy is into stocks, our guy got rly smart cause of the pills and now he knows his shit with stocks.Shark dies. Ah fuck already getting tired by this. Some problems in the way, skip forward.
Lets make this short.
He becomes a fucking president and he basically out smarts everyone when he is on the pill and when he is without the pill.
THE FUCKING END
Gosh I hate telling the story of a movie.
Anyway if you are at this point so you already watched this shit, u know what happened and how it went.
So I FINISH THIS MOVIE AND LIKE ALL OTHER PPL that watch a good movie, I get pumped. I GO LIKE FUCK THIS IS A GOOD MOVIE and now Ima a fucking walking talking commercial and everybody who asks me something, like they ask me what im doing? I go "LIMITLESS? WHAT U DIDNT WATCH IT?! GET OUT OF HERE, go watch the damn thing! ul love it!!!"
Everybody is like that, we like to share the joy or enthusiasm we feel about something that racked us up that we have to spam all other ppl that probably couldnt give a 2 shit about movies to go watch it. Its how our monkey brains work. SO I twitter it out, I fbook it out, I go on skype I spam all my bros with it.
Im on Skype talking to somebody, Im like go watch ittttttt.
Before I started to spam ppl, I feelt rly energetic cause I watched it. I got motivated again, I wanted to do something.I WANTED TO WRITE a fucking book,wanted to get to my gf and hump her like there is no tomorrow. Wanted to solve all my exams in an hour. I WANTED TO LEARN JAPANESE.
HOLD UP ZIXX!What of things can I actually do, so I still feel the energy flowing and Im thinking lets start small. Lets fucking start small, biggest journey starts with the smallest step.
So I look around myself and like in the movie, my fucking room is a mess, so I clean it.
I DO THIS SHIT.NP!!!!!!11111FUCKING DONE
Like 10 minutes np, GO ON ZIXX!!!
DONT FUCKING STOP NOW
U STILL FEEL THE ENERGY FLOWING.
LIKE THE SPICEEEEEEE.
I go on the computer and open a new blog post and cant think of anything so I just close it fast and GOT to do something now before I lose it.
I get my sun shades, I dress up to kill. Zippo, iphone, cigs, wallet, legend t-shirt, got all.
Lets walk, I get outside and I walk. I dunno how far I walked before I realized that I dont even know why Im fucking walking. I realized it but I still kept on walking. Ppl looking at me, they see me, they all like fuck that guy has some important shit to do. Look at him rushing, must be on to something. Then 30 minutes later, I realize I have nothing to do actually so I slow the fuck down and get to this coffee bar. Order a coffee, chill a bit, smoke couple and think.
Think how I need to sort my life. Need to organize, start thinking what I want from life.
PAY THE FUCKING TAB LIKE A BOSS and get the fuck out of there. GO HOME!
Siting in my chair. I see Agita on, he is my bro. Fucking tell him to dl the movie, he is like passive so much. He needs it more then me. So he says he will and I go like k cool bro, wanna play a game?
We end up playing league till its too early. Then we go sleep.
Next day I download this app to iphone TODO, get all my quests in one place and now Im sorted, just got to make my mind to do this and I can do it. Np! LEGEND BRO! LEGEND!
Gtg to my gf place to the capital so I put it on hold for a bit, coming back soon then Im gonna continue my shit with organizing things and all that.
2 DAYS AFTER, COMING back from my gf place, end up getting drunk So I didnt rly do anything I wasted that day. Got driving school tomorrow, gtg sleep, no time to try to do something now.
Wake up again, feeling good driving school today, got enough time to do something but nah didnt do anything again. Just wasted time playing games and watched you tube videos, took some pics. Went to driving school. Play a bit of league of legends, lose 5 games in row, tried playing tetris on fb, fuck that. Go chess, time to sleep again.
Waking up, talking to my gf, telling her how I need to organize my life. Got to do something, she totally agree.
Agita dled the movie, I tell him we will talk about it when I get home from driving school.
I come home and I tell Agita, BRO DID U WATCH IT?
He is like " ya dude I did, good movie" IM LIKE WTF BRO, U DIDNT FEEL LIKE U WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE? GET MORE ACTIVE? He just goes nah. BRO FFS I WALKED FOR MILES AFTER I SAW THE MOVIE, WAS LIKE ENERGY ALL THE WAY.
DONT U WANNA FUCKING DO SOMETHING? He is like nah dude, just playing my game, Im good here.What can I do bro???
IM LIKE FUCK BRO, In the mean time I watched this you tube video about stupid Americans and how there country is becoming a police state and they not doing anything about it. ThisONE Made agita to watch it too.
So I go AGITA WE GOT TO DO SOMETHING BRO, THEY TAKING OVER THE WORLD FUCKING GLOBALIST!!!1
WE MAKE OUR RESISTANCE BRO, WE GET ALL THE GAMERS BRO!!!! WE GET THE WHOLE CREW BACK, JUST LIKE A FUCKING RAID, JUST IN FUCKING REAL LIFE NOW BRO!!!11
COME ON BRO WE DO THIS SHIT!!!!1 WE CAN CALL OURSELVES "GAMER RESISTANCE"
CANT FUCKING REMEMBER THE FIRST LETTER OF GAMER HOW U SAY IT AGITA?
Agita goes what u mean? I MEAN BRO, FIRST LETTER IN GAMER IS WHAT BRO?
He says GE" YA BRO GE, WE CALL OURSELVES THE GE AR! GR BRO, THE GAMER RESISTANCE!!!
Now agita is still all cool and shit and he is like bro, where the fuck we gonna get the guns bro. I SAY BRO FUCKING THIRD WORLD COUNTRY BRO I LIVE IN, U CAN GET THE DAMN GUNS IN THE MILITARY BASES, ALL FUCKING ABANDONED HERE!EVEM CHILDREN HAS GUNS IN CROATIA BRO! NP I GET US GUNS BRO!
BUT NO AMMUNITION BRO!!!
WE NEED AMMUNITION!!1
GOT some ARABS FROM WORLD OF WARCRAFT BRO, WE CALL THEM!!!
Agita is loling, Im fucking laughing too,u know good fun and all lol
So I get another guy into conversation, my bro traxy!
I call traxy and he is all like "hey broS" Im like what you doing bro? Just playing league Zixx.
IM LIKE FUCK THAT BRO!!!
TRAXY TELL ME BRO WHAT DOES GE AR STANDS FOR BRO?! FUCKING GR, WHAT DOES IT STAND FOR BRO TRAXY?
traxy goes all uhmmmm hmmm and says GAY RIGHTS?
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thats how our fucking revolution went to an end...
I just said bros one love, gtg write a fucking blog post, got the inspiration now.
ONE LOVE
keep owning

Went straight to this and wrote it...

Reminded me when I was a kid and there was all this movies on the telly. We kids were all watching it. Not a lot have changed. Our parents hated it. Cause if there was a batman night, then u know tomorrow will be 20 batman's on a street and maybe 1 robin. When there was terminator night, we all were fucking Austrian body builders the next day with machine guns. The ones that had poor parents had a stick instead of a machine gun.When there was superman night, next day we all had fucking capes from our parents bed sheaths. It was the shit. The LIFE as we call it.
And now the other kids having fucking jobs and family and cars and all the other shit. While Zixx has a fucking invisible pill and he is walking the streets feeling all smart for 30 minutes. Then he goes home and does what he does every fucking day. Own some noobs, in some game that he wont even remember the next week.
If somebody asks him by any chance what he was doing? You know what he will say, what every fucking gamer will say... FUCKING NOTHING!!!11
Just chilling, owning and jerking. (SEXING FOR ME)

LAZY FUCKING BUMS
CAN SOMEBODY MAKE THE UNLAZY PILL ALREADY FFS?!!!
LIKE TOMORROW
BEFORE I DESTROY MY LIFE WITH LAZINESS

When we were kids, we didn't have any super powers but that didnt stop us from flying, today I dont have a pill but that dosent stop me from owning everybody. Same shit applys to u.
You don't need the pill, you need yourself, when u got yourself u can do w/e the fuck u want too.
legend out
one love

Jack Sparrow

2011-05-14T22:24:00.004+02:00

I woke up every day and the first thing I do which pisses of my gf when she sleeps over is that I turn my computer on and then go make some coffee. When Im in a good mood I sometimes kiss my gf after getting the computer button pressed.
Its how I roll, I am a gamer not a lifer and the way I start my morning is with morning owange. Normal ppl probably start with it with morning glory, my bro agita told me that means waking up in the morning and jacking off to porn, I wouldnt know shit about that tho.
Wake up and own some fing noobs and then later we can cuddle if u rly want too. Its how the gamer rolls.
Now thing is that this post is gonna be about gamer bfs, name of the post means shit, its actually the song that Im listening to now cause I cant be bother with making up post names. Seems like its harder for me to make up a post name then write a post, cause it takes me like 20 minutes to think of a post name and about 5 minutes to write it so Im just giving up on it all the way. You should totally go check out that song if u be living under a rock, from lonely island with Michael Bolton, best shit ever.
I know it aint easy to be with a gamer bf for all the girls out there that are actually trying to have a healthy relationship with a gamer guy. Its insanely impossible. Thank you tho for still putting up with us mind fucked idiots that just wanna play games till they die of exhaustion.
Thing is with girls, they wanna do what YOU do and they wanna do it together.
Cause girls try to get into your life, u know they see u doing something. Like I dont know, playing games all fucking day long for an example and they wanna co-op with you.
You know that shit is about to go down and you can say bye bye bye to winning when they say "aw your charachter looks so cute, can I play with you?"
Thing is she is your girl and u love her and u dont have heart to say " No fuck off bitch, this is my game and u probably gonna suck at it and u gonna piss me off and im gonna yell at you and we probably gonna end up breaking up cause u fucking suck at this game". Shouldnt u be like cleaning the house or cook food for us or some shit like that???Dont u GOTTAAAA study for your school???
Nahhhh, it dosent go like that. You put a little smile on your face and be like hunny yea ofc u can play with me, I love you. U can do anything u set your mind too, dont worry us 2 we gonna own some noobs.
For first month you actually trying to be nice, like no worry's hunny so you died a couple of zillion times and we lost cause of it but no worrys sometimes u win and sometimes u lose, its how it goes. We love each other and we spending time together and thats whats important.
Inside of you, fucking screaming to death and u just wanna get a knife and stab yourself like 50 times in a row so you wont think about anything except the pain. Give me the sweet pain!!!!!!11111111
NO HUNNY U FUCKING SUCK, U CANT FUCKING PLAY THIS, U DIED FUCKING 9000 TIMES AND NOW IM AGAINST A TEAM THAT HAS ALL THE ITEMS while I have only fucking boots!!!!!!1111 WHAT CAN I FUCKING DO NOW HUNNY? CAN U FUCKING TELL ME?WHAT? WANT US TO SURRENDER AGAIN? YEA LETS JUST QUIT AND START IT ALL OVER AGAIN SO WE CAN FUCKING SURRENDER AGAIN...
After 3 months of yelling at her and her yelling at me when I yell at her, after fucking banging her keyboard at the damn wall she finnaly understands what can she do and what can she not. But these is not the end cause you see girls have something in there head which makes them bored whit 1 class rly fast. So as soon as they learn how to play something, they instantly get bored with it Then u get fucked again and instead of finally winning, you start fucking losing all over again. And then the circle of life goes round and round, you see what happens is that she takes a new class or a char and she forgets all about what she did till this point and she starts sucking again.
Then we start from the beginning again and then Im not nice anymore, I just lose myself in all the damn loses and it dosent matter how much I love her and it dosent matter that one day I want her to have my kids, EVERY TIME SHE FUCKS UP IM BASHING HER SO MUCH.
Then I make her so nervous that she plays with me that when she plays with other ppl she is fine but she has pressure when she plays with me and she starts sucking.
At some point you both agree that is better to not to play together cause we fight about a stupid game and its leading us nowhere so now we playing the same game just not together most of the time.
Sometimes we do play together and thats it...
We have a silent agreement then I shut the fuck up when we play together and she shut the fucks up when Im noobing around in rl, it works for now. It works, not fucking with it. Cause as much as she is a noob in game, Im way bigger noob when it comes to rl and she does not yell at meat all when I suck at life.
Thats gamers love right there, she sucks in games but I stop to care as long as we suck together and at the end of the game we laugh about it.
But when I play alone with my bros then if we lose, the fucking sky will fall and all the living shit on earth will die!!!!!!1 Thats why when I play with my bros, we always fucking win.
Like my bro traxy would say "Like u had a fucking chance!"
There are some positive shit about having a bf thats a gamer and nobody can say this is not the truth and only the truth. You see we will never fucking bore you with all the calls and text msgs when you go out with your girls or you doing some other shit that involves us cause we are fucking busy with ownage here. We dont have time to send u a text when we drolling all over our keyboard trying to win this!!!11111 Occasionally gamers will send out a msg and say how much they love you when there game is loading and thats totally cool, or they will call you and try to end the conversation in a minute cause the game is almost loaded. Its better this way cause when u send a text once a month she knows you fucking mean it or you wouldnt be bother picking up a cell and writing "I miss you" if you didnt mean it, cause u got better shit to do then writing lies on a cell, better shit = owning the noobs all day long.
Its how it rolls, u get your freedom as long as you dont suck around real lifers dicks around the town. We play the games and you go out all good,all happy, why fuck with that?
That shit works when a girl accepts that u not rly the social type, when it comes to socializing the gamer will go on skype and talk to ppl while he plays games.
There are some situation gamers cant avoid and they need to socialize like thanks giving, xmas and some other holidays that involve all family members to be present including the girls bf and we cool with that as long as we dont have to come to family dinner every fucking friday.
Gamers and socializing dont rly go together unless its all about gaming it around, its like taking a shit on toilet. Will only do it if i have to, if i can still hold it for a day or 2 then i wont be bother rushing to a toiler since i can do it later. Thats socializing for you in a toilet manner for gamers.
But going out on friday or on weekends and getting hammered with some rl noobs, thats not how a gamer rolls.
If I want to get drunk with a bunch of ppl I dont know, il just turn on skype and call all the ppl on my contact list that I dont never ever talk to and it will have the same effect. Also after I get tottaly hammered I dont have to walk home, I just take 1 step and collapse in bed. Then u lifers try to convince me that going to partys is better, fuck that u the noob here.
Also drinking while playing game works as long as u realize that sooner or later you will be a fucking noob cause of the alchocol in your veins.
Im talking this from a perspective of a real gamer, not one of those guys that play for fun and dont care about winning or losing, tho I never understood how can u play for fun then loose all the time? Where the fuck is fun in that???????Just a lame execuse for sucking in games! UNINSTALL AND PLAY TETRIS!111
U either be good in something or just move the fuck out of the way and let others be good at it while u go play fucking tetris. K nuf said about that fun bullshit nobody understands that noobs be talking about.
Either u have fun winning or u fucking suck at game and you need to uninstall and go play some pve shit nobody plays. K done with that now, for reals.
There is one good plus about not going out, you never see other girls and gfs love that. Like the only girl I saw in months now besides my mother and my granny and my gf is my neighbor who has a kid, cause u see I dont go out to dance clubs or going out with the buddys. My buddy's are on skype playing games, not lifing in damn town doing some stupid shit like dancing with other girls. Come on, who has time for that when your whole life is focused on playing games. Just owning noobs and getting that skill sharp.
Thats a definitly + cause gamer bfs dont cheat on there girls, they dont have time to do. Just no time, not enough time to own every noob in the world let alone to go fuck around. We play at home, we eat at home and we fuck at home, yea also own at home. Do not forget the own part, thats most important part.
There is one other thing that most of the girls probably feel it when they end up with a gamer in bed, he plays to fucking win every fucking time. Its not about you did good, nah he girls will end up screaming U THE GAMER
U THE FUCKING GAMER AND u know they will pass out cause nobody takes that much pwnage in 1 match, no fucking way
gg
Its perfectly normal when u think about it cause whole our life we winning and we doing it with our reflexes and our hands and the adrenaline shots just keep us fucking healthy and pumped up and ready to own even when it comes to bed.
Not like im bragging here but like gamers = best sex ever
no joke
Being in a relationship involves playing little games with your gf, like I dunno table tennis or chess or some shit like that. Let me tell you something, if you did not know NO GIRL LIKES TO FUCKING LOSE AT ANYTHING. They wanna be good at w/e shit they doing against you and you as a gamer will not back down, I saw that with normal ppl, like lifers a guy lets girl win even if he is better then her.
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I tell you something, there is not a gamer on this fucking earth that will let a girl win at anything no matter how much he loves her, if he is a true gamer that means he is a fucking warrior. No FUCKING WAY HE is letting a win out of his hands, we live to win.
This clip says it all
THE GUY IS A GAMER
NUF SAID AND THE OTHER GUY IS JUST SOME RANDOM FUCKING NOOB IN RL
LOVE SCRUBS BTW ;)
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GAMERANDLIFER
GIRLS not rly feeling that... Sad but true...

Ok enough bullshit for me today.
Props to all the girls that actually put up with gamer guys, we totally not worth it but thank you for loving us still :)

one love ppl one love
legend out

ps. every gamer needs a girl, cause he needs to raise little noobs sooner or later and teach them how to own ;)

Love the way U lie

2011-04-10T19:19:00.004+02:00

I promised myself, well promise is a strong word. I told myself that I would write a post every weekend and like all the shit I promise myself I failed that pretty fast. Last weekend I didnt write anything at all, not like I did not try. I did, to be fair I have to say I starred at the monitor for a minute or 2 and tried to think of something interesting to write. It didnt come so I just closed it and went playing my game. Im lying, wasnt even 10 seconds... Minute or 2, who am I kidding -.-!
Now Im at that same situation again but this time Im not quitting, gonna write something. Gonna spin those wheels in my head and think of something to write ffs.
This so reminds me of my life atm, its an allegory of it, I say Im gonna do something and then I never actually do it and a week later Im still in the same shit, thinking why the hell did I postpone it in the first place when I had the time to do it. Like I said Im gonna quit smoking million times, guess what Im holding in my hand right now -.-! Yea u got it, its a fucking cigarette.
I know how other bloggers work tho, when they have nothing to write or should I say when they have no inspiration to write then they write about there day and how was it and what happend and all that crap.
Lets try that.
Got up, made coffe, had a smoke, ate some, turned on computer, played my game.
Ok and what now? -.-!
If I was writing about my day every time I had no inspiration nobody would even read my shit, maybe my mom if she knew English.
Thing is my mom knows to say ok in English and thank you plus I dont wanna be one of those bloggers(how I hate that word).
Thing is my mom knows to say in English ok and thank you plus I dont wanna be one of those writers that has only 1 comment per post from her or his mom. That equals zero friends, socially screwed and gosh Im gonna kill myself cause my life is that fucking fun.
Thank God my mom dosent know English I will rather have 0 comments per post then 1 from my mom. That would be so disturbing if my mom was reading my posts on so many levels.
So here I am writing about writing, fuck I got nothing. There is not a single idea in my head about what to write here, I am currently brain dead but I still keep writing some bs.
You probably thinking and this point that I have some twist around this and soon its gonna become interesting and all.
I got news for you, there is no twist, there is nothing.
You are wasting your time reading this cause I got nothing up in here. You would better spend you time by trying to do something you promised yourself to do and you never did, thing is Im better off. You see Im actually doing my shit, writing about nothing while you are reading how Im writing about nothing.
Yes I know it sucks, it dosent matter how sucky it is, only thing that matters is that I did my shit and u did not do your shit!
What u should be doing, yea u got it. GOOD FOR YOUUU!!!!111
Not a single word worth reading but I had to write something, I promised myself and not that promise where I say Im quitting smoking cause its too damn expensive, nah this was one of those real promises where Im actually doing something I told myself to do and this is how it turns out. Maybe I should have postpone it again for a week and save you from reading this and save myself from wasting 10 minutes trying to write this.
Gonna go play league of legends now.

So yea this was it...
Hope u have a great week and cya next weekend if I dont postpone

one love

Preform this way

2011-03-27T11:39:00.007+02:00

Your day starts good when u wake up in the morning with a headache from yesterdays wine and coke. U trying to recall why are u in a bad mood, then u remember your gf calling you minutes before u go to sleep to start yelling and crying to u again cause u fucked up again with some bullshit. Im a guy, Im always wrong, I always fuck up. Why am I such a fuck up...
I should be grateful she takes the time and calls me to tell me how much I suck and how much Im destroying relationship with my internet addiction and how I am a disappointment for her for the millionth time etc.
Yes, thats how I start my day. Getting to the computer and seeing if my movie downloaded. It did, put a little smile on my face. Go downstairs to piss, yea I live in the attic, most gamers u see on tv and bums live in a basement but no in Croatia they just give u the attic.
Now it feels better, Im not carrying 2 litters of liquid in my bladder. Yea go me. My mom made me coffee and damn life would be just perfect if like I didnt think about how my headache is ripping me to shreds and how my gf is coming today to yell at me again and call me a worthless bum.
I start to sing while I pour myself some coffee and milk, then out of fucking nowhere a fucking fork comes flying my way. Misses me for like a centimeter and stabs the damn wall. At this point Im like wtf.
What just happened, who threw a fork at me(I RLY wanna put a question mark here, but my life sucks and that includes my keyboard too and question mark is not working, as the numbers from five up are not working. Including five.U see I pressed five the sentence before and nothing happened so I had to type F I V E)
Yea my life, no question marks and no numbers after 4. Getting off topic, not like I have one here.
So I look back and I see my mom bitching how I shouldnt be singing about some stupid crap, and Im like just wtf!
Good at least exclamation sign is working on this crappy keyboard!
I smile in shock, pick up the damn fork and pass it to my granny to wash it. She takes it politely, and I can tell why I almost got a fork in my head. My moms mom pissed my mom off and I came in with my song and dancing attitude and thats how u die from a fork.
I throw her the ultimate insult I can think up with my half drunken crazy head in pain. You are just crazy like my gf mom ffs and I walk away with a happy face, knowing that shit had to hurt.
Its hard for me to have to live with 3 women in a house. Imagine when they all have periods. Well my granny is too old to have one, right but that dosent make her less bitchy at all. Getting slapped by my gf then getting forks later in my head. Its how life is in the life of the legend. They all yelling at me in between, like sometimes I just wish they would get together and have a group yelling at me so I can save time.
U know get that shit over then I can just go play my games and surf the net but nah they dont even coordinate, one yells at u before sleep on phone, the other when u wake up and guess my granny is gonna yell at me at lunch time for eating in front of telly.
Yes life is hard when u are a useless bum like me without any ambition and life. When your only interest is to see whats new on you tube and what are your friends doing on fb and play damn games all day long - according to them.
Ow also God forbid I add a new girl to fb and God forbid my gf thinks that girl is good looking. Gosh Im gonna listen to it for a week, more like months -.-!
And then after all this bs, you look in a mirror downstairs thinking gosh either Im so pro that I can handle all this or Im that fucking noob that I put up with it. Then I look besides me and still see some alcohol from last night and I pour it into a cup of coffee thinking if it makes it worse at least Il pass out from the pain and not think of anything at all. Not thinking about a fork stabbing my head and not think about how I got to go to work tomorrow.
I get on the damn computer put a song I hate my life, click fb on Google. Get to most recent and read a status update from a friend " I dont need role models, I already own a mirror".
I put a comment stolen on his status and put it in my status and laugh at life. Laugh at ppl that throw forks at me, laugh at my fucking gf bitching about some Australian friend I have on fb that called her a bitch and why the hell I added her again and how much I hurt her feelings.
I laugh at the fact that I have to get up tomorrow and go to fucking work that I dont even get payed for.
I laugh at my character in league of legends who dies in 1 hit from everybody.
I laugh at my fucking neighbors who are cutting there grass again. Laugh at a fucking dog outside thats barking again.
I laugh at the ppl that fucking take life seriously.
I laugh at all the noobs.
I laugh at the girl/guy thats fucking reading this.
And I laugh at myself just cause I fucking can.

Legend out
ONE LOVE

Babybird

2011-03-04T15:00:00.004+01:00

Gosh there are things in life that I hate so fucking much that I cant even put into words. I hate to fucking lose in games. I despise it so much , it makes me so angry, so disappointment , so passive, there are not enough words that are negative to describe my mood after losing a game. Worst thing when it comes to losing is that games, well the ones I play are mostly team effort so sometimes u will get a lose even when u played a good game, your team mates had a bad day and its gg. Thats the one that stings even more, thats the one that makes me wanna get a fucking knife and stab myself 20 times in an eye just to have pain in my head instead the thoughts like
"How the hell did I just lose this fucking game?" "Wtf just happened?" "Who fucked up?" "Why am I playing with this shit players?"
Then the shit begins, sometimes its better that it is your fault. You sucked and the team lost because of you, I prefer that to the part where I play best I can and then team fucking fails me. Cause u cant go bitching to them, even if you would love to do that. Like fuck I could yell all over them and make them fucking cry, thats what I wanna do but hey u cant go off like that on somebody just cause they fucking suck in game. Especially if they are girls...
...
Thing is...
Nothing
Fuck this Im gonna rage all over this damn page.
I wanna tell you how much u fucking sucked, Im doing my best here and there u are walking down the fucking forest when everbody is fucking mia (missing in action) and u go WOAAAAA 3 CAME FOR ME AND KILLED ME. WTF
FUCKING NOOB, WHY THE FUCK U WENT INTO THE FUCKING BUSH ALONE WHERE EVERYBODY IS FUCKING MIA. DONT U HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN! THINK FUCKER, FUCKING THINK, USE THAT FUCKING BRAIN OF YOURS, U HAVE IT FOR A FUCKING REASON!!!11
DONT TELL ME ITS YOUR FUCKING BAD DAY, GO FUCKING IN THERE AND GET THE SHIT DONE, SORT YOUR FUCKING LIFE! STOP BEING A FUCKING NOOB! I DIDNT TELL YOU TO FUCKING ATTACK WHEN U SEE 3 GUYS, U FUCKING WENT THERE IN! WHY THE FUCKING U PLAYING A CHAR U DIDNT PLAY FOR A FUCKING WEEK!? COME ONNN
sigh...
OK I understand this is not making any sense so lets step back and let me explain you what exactly happened to tick me off.
I was playing this game league of legends like 1 year ago and then I hooked up with my gf and all, she wanted to play a game with me. To spend time with me and all that bullshit gfs wanna do with there bfs. Spend time together. More like fucking suck and being a noob/then annoy u to hell cause hey she is your gf so u gotta play wiv her. Make you lose all the games cause she wanna try something new!!! U see at the beginning of the game I was playing with my bro Agita who I meet playing world of warcraft. Agita and me are tight, we so tight that if he needs a fucking kidney, I would give him the damn kidney. He even came to Croatia to get wasted with me and talk about good times and all that bs bros do.
ANYWAY so Agita, my gf and me playing league of legends. Or should I say me and Agita trying to fucking teach my gf how to play a fucking game. Took us like 3 months to actually make my gf get the game. Cant even say she plays bad now but she has this fucking noob moments when she goes trying a new champion she cant fucking play at all and she thinks she is fucking pro at it. I told her to fucking go play a practice game if she wants to try the damn chars but why the fuck would she listen to me. Why would she? Not like I fucking played games all my life? Dont listen to me...
Today, we were playing a ranked game with my friend Holy. She cool, she can be a fucking noob from time to time too but mostly she plays good. I guess all girls have that moments, they not stable, one game they play good and another they like go completely fucking noob on me.
We starting the game and they ban my main char and my gfs main char, they didnt ban Holy char. Still holy says she gonna play another char which I know she is not rly good at but w/e. I choose my main and go all positive about this. My gf goes this char called sing who is like so op but she cant play him good. She just dosent play him at all, like this was the first time I saw her playing it in like a month. W/e tho I keep my mouth shout since the char is op.
So there is me, the fucking legend playing a fucking game with 2 girls ( 2 NOOBS ) that you could say they are trying some new shit in a ranked match. This is the shit. Its a ranked game, u dont try out crap, u choose what u play the best and thats it. There is no, I could play this and maybe that. No! Just shut the fuck up and play the shit u been playing all the time, the char that bores u to death but u play him good and we gonna fucking win. But noooo,we talking about girls here. They have to fucking try something new, they have to have fucking fun. Shit I dont get is how the fuck is it fun to lose?
So im cool, Im still fucking cool after holy died 5 fucking times and my fucking gf didnt kill anybody.
Doing my shit, trying to help them out. At mid game I realize how much other team sucks when they let me kill all the mobs. Only 1 guy on other team plays good and he is fucking owning us all cause im fucking play with 2 girls that are trying some fucking shit out in a ranked match.
I am on top all alone, killed 3 guys and all is good I can see we gonna win if they sort there shit. Then Holy starts to bitch about a guy killing... Then the shit starts.
They continue to fucking die and I keep going to help them and from 0 deaths I go to 5 deaths cause Im helping them out and they keep fucking failing.
Just one fucking example. My gf is chasing this other guy who had zero mana and like half hp and she is trying to kill him and Holy is coming from the back of that guy. So the guy goes up and then u have a choice he can either go down left or down right and holy and my gf both go fucking right. Guy ofc, he is not a fucking noob goes left and escapes them. And im looking at that from fucking spawning pool since im fucking dead trying to save there asses cause they went 2 on 3 again on them while I was up and then I came in too late while they ran away and left me to fucking die.
I go ... wtf... fml... why do I play with girls.
Then they start typing which pisses me off even more, u cant fucking play a game if u chatting with ppl. U have to get to that lev where u thinking what to do next and u dont have time to fucking chat. But no Holy says to my gf she is gonna play another character next time. My gf is all like, ya he owns. In that time Im in the middle getting fucking by 2 guys trying to run away and not getting any help at all.
AND THIS IS THE POINT IM FUCKING CRAZY NOW, I WANNA FUCKING RAGE I WANNA TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF, TO GO FUCKING PLAY TETRIS CAUSE OBVIOUSLY THIS GAME IS NOT FOR THEM. TETRIS COULD FUCKING WORK FOR THEM, U GOT THE DAMN BLOCKS AND U GOT THE SLOW MOTION AND EASY U GO AND GO. YEA GO PLAY FUCKING TETRIS, DONT FUCK UP ME WITH YOUR FUCKING NOOB SKILL SHIT. OMG
AND WHY THE FUCK U CHAT I MEAN U GOT THE FUCKING CHAT ALL OVER GOOGLE, GO ON GOOGLE FUCKING GOOGLE THE CHAT AND THEN GO CHAT
DONT CHAT WHILE U PLAYING A GAME...
DIDN'T MENTION I GOT LAG CAUSE IM FUCKING PLAYING ON AMERICAN SERVERS SO I GOT STUCK COUPLE OF TIMES LUCKY I DIDNT FUCKING DIE, IF I DID I WOULD PUT MY FIST INTO THIS FUCKING MONITOR AND END MY SUFFERING

girl gamers...
Such a pro like me gets a gf thats a complete noob am I lucky or what.
fml
Im just so fucking annoyed.

I hate losing.
Im gonna go kill myself now
Bye cruel world

Soldier of fortune

2011-03-02T17:59:00.003+01:00

When I was a kid, like 14 years old. We had this thing in school where u talk to a psychologist and they help u find out what u gonna be in real life when u grow up. My conversation with that person was rly dead, I still remember awkward moments when I was siting across her answering her questions. Questions were pretty basic, stuff like what do you enjoy doing in your life? Whats your dad carrier? Your grades? How do u feel when u in that situation this situation... yada yada yada
It was all very boring, only question I remember was rly significant and kinda marked my life till this day. She asked me if I had a million bucks (actually kunas, thats a Croatian currency but u get the picture) Anyway
So she asked me if I had a million bucks what would I do with them. My instant replay was that I would buy myself a computer and some games, rest put in bank and just sit on it and live on interests from that money and play games till I die :)
She looked at me, I still remember that look and just said ok so we are done here, good luck in your life.
When I look back on it I wish I asked her so what do you think, wish I demanded an answer but I was rly shy back then.
As I later analyzed that answer, it always bugged me what did she wrote down. Why didnt she tell me what she wrote down. What I got from that and what I saw later in my life is that from that question u can see how ambitious I was when it comes to life.
I got zero ambition, i was born with it. Its how i am. I cant change it, could try but what would that.
It dosent mean I have no interest in life, it just means that I dont rly see myself doing any job in the world that I would do and be happy just cause of it. THATS FINE FOR ME(now it is)
There is a Chinese saying which i read somewhere(fuck i remember where). It says "find a job that interests you and u gave yourself a meaning in life half of the day". Something like that, dont remember it fully.
I guess my zero ambition comes from the fact that material things dont make me happy as much as they make other ppl happy. Like all my friends wanted a car as soon as they got 18 and I was all like w/e, dont need it so why get a summer job?
Only thing that makes me happy from material things is technology. Maybe if I was a freak when it comes to owning tech, I would have a summer job to buy myself all the tech shit I want but 1 computer and an iphone is enough to make me tech happy.
Politics were interesting to me when i was like 17 but then after reading a bit about it and figuring out how it all works, it just made me see how all of it is bs but thats another topic for another post. I still tryed to apply to that college, good thing I failed at it.
I guess thats why I am in college for computers, was the closest carrier that would interest me.
My answer to the question didnt change,Im not 14 anymore. Im 24 but my answer is still the same more or less. I guess part of the money I would spend on my gf and give my mom some money too.
Rest is the same, and im fine with it. Dont forget cigs and wine tho :) Question dosent bug me anymore, that changed. Like till the age of 20 the answer buged me cause I feelt different, like I had an error in my system. Made me different from the rest of the ppl. Always asked myself what the fuck is wrong with me, why dont I want expensive shit in my life, why dont I want a huge house, a wife, 3 kids, why dont I want a job or a boat?
I figured it out not that long ago. Its cause im not like other ppl, I am who I am. Why pretend I want the things other ppl want or why the fuck try to get something that I dont want. Something changed, I did want a girl in my life and now I have that. Still not sure about the kids and a huge house, a boat and a car but maybe il get there one day. If I dont get there, its fine cause im going for that I want. Its who i am. Its how everybody should be, chase the shit u wanna have in life. It takes time to figure out what u wanna do in your life. What makes u tick? Most important is to do the shit that makes u happy even if other ppl dont do it, fuck the fit in situation. We not damn penguins. I figured it out.I figured out what makes me happy. Cigs,wine, orgasms and games, a bit of love too. Its all better when u can share those things with a person u love :)
For me it dosent matter whos gonna say what after I die. It dosent matter to me at all. All that it matters to me that 1 person can say. Zixx did what he loved and he wanted to do. Was it meaningful? Or did I waste my life? How can I waste my life if I did what I wanted to do? Thats not a wasted life for me. Im doing what I like and fuck everything else.
Atm I have what I need. I got a girl that loves me, I got a computer and I got the game I like to play. Also a pack of cigs and a bottle of wine from time to time.
I moved and im not standing in place even tho I still got that lure in me of no lifing and just playing games all the time and do nothing but I did that for 6 years and it didnt rly get me anywhere, was fun as hell tho. I guess i matured and im doing something to stand up on my 2 feet later in life. I understand that I cant sit and play games all the time even if I would want that, I got to have my own money sooner or later. Its how this damn world works.
So I will get a job soon enough so I can keep living my life the way I want to live it. Thats why I need a job, thats for me. Not cause it will make me happy or it will make me spend my day more meaningful. I need it so I can keep living in heaven.

There was a song that made me write this, its from Tim McGraw - my next 30 years. Was listening to it and made me realize Im hitting 30 in like 5 years. Made me all like fuck, when did this happen, I was 16 and playing world of warcraft like a month ago and ganking everbody. Time flys as fuck and as older I get I feel like its flying more and more.
My first 24 years didnt go to waste and my next 24 years wont go to waste either.

One love
:)
P.S dont think Il ever want a damn boat lol

I dont want to set the world on fire

2011-02-15T22:44:00.006+01:00

I was writing for 2 years and a lot of things happened in those 2 years. Had more then 70 posts and some of them were pretty good, in my humble opinion. Now its time to start writing again, I missed it. I like to write.Not a lot of ppl were reading what I wrote but I still liked it, for me its not about who reads it. For me its about what I write.
I deleted everything cause I want a fresh start, a start without the past. This is it, I will write this like I was born yesterday or today.
Atm my life is almost perfect, it would be perfect if I didnt need to study for exams which are gonna come soon. It would also be perfect if I didnt live in damn Croatia. Not to mention that perfection in my life atm is getting fucked by my gf who is jealous at some stupid bs all the time. Hey, but thats life... Maybe if I had all then it wouldnt be interesting at all. Scratch that maybe, Im sure of it that if I had all that my life would be fucking boring cause once I had it all. I had all the time in the world and I was not living in Croatia, not in my head actually. Was living in a place ppl call Azeroth and there I ruled day and night and then 7 years later all that shit got boring so I quited. Thats why I know when life is perfect then u get sick of it, u get sick of perfection. So Im glad my life is not perfect atm, Im glad there is stuff that I need to take care off. Im glad that I want a car, that I want money to buy alienware. It keeps the drive going, staying sharp and all that bs that ppl say xD
Playing league of legend as only game today, playing as Te EMO and I fucking rock at it so much, need to make a video about my pwnage but I dont have enough horse power on my computers to do so atm. Nothing rly much going on, guess il need some time to start seriously writing again.
I got the motivation so that will keep me going for a month or 2 then again it will be all about staying on time. I dont think that writing is something that ppl are born with, like u need some special talent. Fuck that shit, same with me and games. Wasnt born to own, I played till I owned. Thats how life is, hell I am 2 meters tall and they all wanted me to play basketball and I fucking hated it so I didnt get nowhere with it but with games, gosh I was such a fucking noob when I started to play games and now there is not a game that im not good at, it just takes time and motivation. Also the biggest problem for me sticking with 1 game is when I get bored with it, I ditch it. I get bored a lot xD
I got an iphone and I cant live without it, I can not live without internet and I also cant live without cigarettes.
From all the things above i only tryed to quit cigs, failed for like 5 time like 2 months ago. This time my gf and me went for it after the new year. We didnt last long like a week. She pissed me off at one point so much, stressed me so much that I had to go buy a pack of cigs. I almost did it that time, almost got rid of it.
I am 24 years old and I live with my mom, my gf is 20 years old and she lives with me cause she has some family problems and shit, also because she cant live without me cause thats what I do to girls. They become totally addicted to me. Dont ask me how I do it, cause I dont know.

I dont even know if somebody will read this but I could use a topic if somebody will read this for my next post so if u are reading this and u got something, tell me so I can write :)
Tho I already got a topic for next post just in case xD

thats it from me for today
one love