Blog Enambelas Sembilan

6belas9

2012-08-14T04:52:00.002+08:00

saya bukan tak sayang awak, enambelas sembilan.
saya nak something fresh macam blog baru ni: miracoquetas

kawan

2012-07-16T12:44:00.001+08:00

sayang, kalau saya ada sepuluh kawan macam awak,
saya tak tahu lah macam mana nak aman,

daripada teori akomodasi,
apalagi teori yang boleh saya praktik.

seronok awak tengok kawankawan awak bertelagah.
depan lain. belakang lain.

kan saya dah cakap.
nak tikam, biar depandepan.
sakit tau, awak tikam belakang.

lagi satu,
janganlah selalu nak menang.
orang lain pun ada hati dan perasaan.

kita kan kawankawan?

tolonglah, jujur dalam berkawan.
saya taknak bosan duduk dalam bilik sorangsorang.
main game dan tidur lagi semester depan.

please, sayang?

gila

2012-07-16T12:38:00.000+08:00

Sayang kita sayang awak gilagila,
Kalau awak betulbetul tak ada,
kita takut kite betulbetul gila.

entah

2012-07-16T12:35:00.000+08:00

entah kenapa
yang aku sayang tu bukan aku yang punya.

entah kenapa
dia yang ada depan mata pun aku selalu rindu.

entah lah.

Hello awak.

2012-07-15T10:19:00.000+08:00

awak,

kenapa suami orang jugak yang awak nak?

hebat sangat ke dapat tackle suami orang?
awak rasa awak cantik, awak lagi baik dari bini dia kan?

saya tak fahamlah, macammana awak boleh rasa bangga dengan pelakuan awak.
awak macam orang jahat dalam filemfilem inggeris lama.
atau watak yang tak ada perikemanusiaan langsung.

saya harap awak sedar sebelum satu hari nanti awak jadi macam bini dia.

saya harap suami saya nanti tak jumpa perempuan macam awak.
dan harap suami awak juga macam tu.

"do respect others relationship, dont be the reason they end up single, you never be happy with your attitudes, girl."

hati

2012-07-14T11:59:00.001+08:00

Jangan terlalu lama menahan,
kalau kau dah tak mampu nak menahan.

Jangan terlalu berharap
kalau tak ada apa yang dapat diharapkan.

Jangan terlalu merasa gagah,
kalau kau sedikit lagi nak rebah.

beza mana satu setia, mana satu bodoh.

Hati, kau dengar tak?
Tolong jangan degil, boleh?

bodoh

2012-07-14T11:45:00.000+08:00

Setiap orang selalu memperbodohkan diri sendiri dalam satu hal.
dan untuk aku hal tersebut adalah bila aku mempercayai lelaki.
bukan sekali dua. berkalikali.

dah cakap jangan.
tapi tetaaaaaap jugak.

sudah terjatuh, tak terngadahngadah.
tu lah bodoh namanya.

jangan minta orang untuk bagi kita kebahagian,
sebab selalunya kebahagian yang diberi orang lain
ada pakej sekali dengan kesedihan.

sendiri

2012-07-09T19:01:00.002+08:00

Apa apa yang membahagiakan,
Apa apa yang menggembirakan,
Tak akan aku kongsi dengan siapasiapa.

Begitu juga

Apa apa yang melukakan,
Apa apa yang menghampakan.

Biar aku simpan dan telan sendiri.

dalam bilik ini.
seorang diri.

*sekarang aku faham maksud "kadang-kadang kita perlu masa untuk bersendiri," macam yang kau cakap tu*

hey baby

2012-07-09T06:00:00.000+08:00

Terima kasih untuk gurau lembut, gurau kasar, karenah budak malas, budak lembik, budak suka menyanyi dengan youtube, budak suka clubbing dalam bilik, budak suka main game, budak manja yang mengadangada, budak suka tidur, budak kuat emo, kuat jeles. kentut samasama, buat lawak bodoh samasama, tengok bola samasama, mandi samasama, tengok movie samasama, tidur samasama, gaduh samasama dan banyak lagi yang samasama. kelat, pahit, tawar, manis semua sekali.

selamat ke263 hari kekasih yang bakal dilupakan dan bakal melupakan.

*lama gak aku setia nih*

sorry

2012-07-04T06:51:00.002+08:00

Sorrylah, saya dah tak fun macam duludulu.
suka duduk rumah. tidur dan main game facebook.
saya malas nak lepak keluar minum teh o panas malammalam
sambil sembang kosong dan main kad.

saya dah tak tau macammana nak tegur orang
macammana nak ada kawankawan ramai macam dulu,
satu satu saya tinggalkan.
cuma ada sekerat dua.

sekarang, saya nak main game lagi.
sampai buta mata saya.

Spill The Thrills

2012-07-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

Life gets better.
Eventhough few walks out
and none walks in.

In fact, i dont need anyone.
and also pills to chills no more.

cheers.

im totally happy.

thank you people.
for went off
and left.

just dont turn back
and ruin my life.

2012-06-30T04:24:00.003+08:00

"I love the part, when you wakes me up from my sleep, it makes me feel like I will never die,"

Strong

2012-06-30T04:20:00.002+08:00

How am I tired pasting smiles on my face.
Breathless.
and weak.

Maybe I didn't feel the emptiness yet.
To look out at the window as he walks pass.
but he always here.
so close like we never broke.

Albeit, it's usual for some of our days
we think we fucked up for the lost
and we shaken.

Thus, I forced myself to laugh and smile.
laugh.smile.laugh.smile.
or not he run.
or worst, my life will ruin.

Now there are only two choices of strong;
whether both of us stay strong
or you let me alone to be strong.

"If every of my fake smiles been paid for 50 cents each, I am so fucking rich right now,"

My Heart named 'Fragile'.

2012-06-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

Dear Heart,
I'm sorry for forcing you to hold on so long.
I'm sorry for always put the wrong person in you.
until you hurt a lot.
and have no more strength to love anyone.

I'm very sorry for your broken.
my bad.

Please Get Well soon.
I promise to never let you hurt and broken again.

I love you.

Mira Coquetas

2012-06-09T05:07:00.001+08:00

She's not craving for your money
or a month trip to oversea
or the expensive LV

Just,
a little bit of your time
and a space in your heart
to listen to her whine
and a hug every each night.

What makes her happy,
is to see you laugh with no worries,
to know that you love her like she did,
never forget about her even a minute,
and save the relationship.

She
loves you either in black or white.

She's
Mira Coquetas.

Where did I begin and how I will be end up?

2012-06-09T04:50:00.001+08:00

Life is a bitch bak kata Rizal.
Macammana kau buat baik pun,
kebaikan takkan datang kat kau.
True.

Bullshitters are showing faces,
There's no one to trust.
Include friends. even besties.

There's no such thing like,
Biar orang buat kita,
jangan kita buat orang.
mothafaka asshole.

Kau buat itu, kau dapat itu.

tak kira kau kawan, sebangsa or sedarah.

Gone

2012-06-04T19:05:00.001+08:00

I love him,
Perhaps, he loves me too.

He said he loves me,
but i feel he don't.

I kissed him so many times,
hoping that he would feels what i felt inside.

I can think.
I cant write anything.

On a night without stars, I have realized
I dont have him anymore.

How much i gave,
My love could not keep him.

Although this would be the last time he causes me pain,
I will never give him another chance.

I am no longer loved him,
perhaps, sometimes.

The night keep reminding,
that i am all alone in the end,
even i've loved so much.

Alone

2012-06-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

Does anyone know me?
I mean, really know about me,
instead of my name and my age

Does anyone care to pity?
I mean, have an empathy,
not only the sympathy.

This is a very-very sad entry,
wrote by a very sad and pathetic girl,
whose call her self a corpse
instead of a breathing human.

what more can i wish,
when i am trying but they keep me falling.

I have a lot of friends,
and a guy that i love the most,
but then, i still felt empty,
and misery.

I have loved, but then they left.
I have trusted, but then they betrayed.
I have cared, but then they dont.
tell me, am i wrong for not trusting nobody
I asked God,
How could all this happened,
when i have stopped drinking, socializing.
and trying to be a better person?
This cruel-cruel world,
robing and killing one by one of my dreams.

Am I too ugly?
Am I smell too bad?
Am I too stupid?
Am I that bad?
To get into their life?

Did i have to pay for a sincere hug?
spent all the money i have in my bank?
Did i have to force myself to stop care all about this?
or just fake that i am living with bliss.

later, the corpse that you see,
will dying in lunacy and misery.

this entry address for nobody,
whose i hope a person that really care for me,
and convince me that everything will be fine,
without i have to feel the mistrust one more time.

because only nobody can be trusted.

call me stupid, psycho for all my skeptic.
when you have spoil all the trust and love.
you guys win.
my love and my friends.

Kewaja

2012-04-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

Inilah tempat aku betul betul percaya lelaki sundal lagi ramai dari perempuan sundal.

Kerana perempuan cuma ada satu dara dan kerana perempuan boleh mengandung, kau cuma letak semua salah pada perempuan. Padahal kau tahu hilangnya dara perempuan dan mengandungnya dia kerana lelaki.

Kau salahkan perempuan yang cuba gugurkan bayi padahal tanggapan sinis kau sendiri yang sebenarnya memaksa dia berdosa.

Kau salahkan perempuan kerana menjadi terlalu murah untuk disentuh padahal kau tahu masakan pokok bergoyang kalau tiada angin.

Kau salahkan perempuan kerana menjadi bodoh dan terlalu cepat memberi padahal kau tahu siapa yang memujuk dan memberi harapan palsu.

Salahkan perempuan kerana menjadi terlalu sundal, terlalu bodoh dan terlalu bohsia sampai terlanjur. Dan lelaki pula, cuma mahu yang dara, perempuan kelas satu dan jijikkan perempuan semacam ni padahal kau sendiri tahu bukan cuma salah dia.Terima kasih masyarakat kerana cepat menghukum hakim kan perempuan.

Tapi aku percaya perempuan perempuan yang aku jumpa di sini, sudah bukan calang perempuan. Mereka cukup solehah untuk dijadikan isteri cuma kau masyarakat, untuk menerima atau terus dengan tanggapan kejam kau.

KEWAJA - Wanita didahulukan, Maruah diutamakan.

Ini rumah perlindungan wanita, bukan serenti bukan tempat pesalah menjalankan hukuman. Lebih 70 orang penghuni dan sebilangan besar mereka rela diri membosankan diri semata mahu menjaga kandungan dan menutup aib. Have a heart. They dont dump the babies. They do have a heart, why didnt you?

Dear self

2012-04-05T09:24:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes, you just need to distance yourself from people, if they care, they will notice. If they dont, you know where you stand. And sometimes, when you give up on someone, it's not because you dont care, it is because you realize they dont. "

kawan

2012-03-31T05:12:00.000+08:00

Kau dengki walaupun kau rajin aku malas.

Kau dengki walaupun kau baik aku jahat.

kau dengki walaupun kau pandai aku bodoh

Kau masih dengki walaupun kau ramai kawan dan aku tak.

Kenapa nak dengki?

kau ada segalagalanya dan aku masih macam roti takde mentega.

hidup aku dah cukup loser untuk kau loserkan lagi aku, kawan.

bullshit lah.

Dulu kalau berkawan semua cerita dari sikit hal bawah selimut pun kita kongsi samasama, bila dah tak berkawan, kau fikir aku bukanbukan.

sejahatjahat aku, aku taksuka jahatkan orang.

kecuali yang memang mintak dijahatkan.

apapun.

terima kasih lah kawan sebab hipokrit,

kalau kau taksuka aku dan kau rasa aku tak layak ada kawan,

cakap terangterang, babe.

jangan purapura baik walaupun kau pun dah jadi baik, okay?

ambiklah semua. ambik. jangan tinggal sat zarah pun untuk aku.

kalau

2012-03-28T03:58:00.000+08:00

Kalau boleh aku nak jadi seberuntung Iwa atau curi jiwa Sham letak dekat Rizal.
Bukan Rizal tak okay, cuma aku tak pasti, biasa lah lelaki,
mana nak cakap terangterang dia betulbetul sayang atau tak.
Lagi satu, 'I Love You' sekarang dah macam tak seserious maknanya.

Dear Romeo

2012-03-28T03:55:00.000+08:00

Darling,
If you do not love me, just say so.
Let me be broken and feel the last teardrop on my cheeks,
I'm going to twenty-one and i'm sick of unserious relationship,
i just dont want to waste my time and my love
for someone who actually dont love me truthfully.
If you love me, keep saying that everyday,
I will never get bored of that, instead,
I shall waits for you until you are ready to live your life with me,
how many years, you say it. i'll waits.
if only you really and truly love me.

Love,
Mira Coquetas.

sorry

2012-03-15T04:57:00.000+08:00

Dear sixteennine,
I'm sorry for neglecting you for quite a long time.
i'm busy being a full-time lover for a very lovely man.

keeping you update is kind of awkward for you right?

sorry boo.

just dont take it hard.
miracoquetasmissyoutoo.

badass

2012-03-04T13:52:00.000+08:00

Biar orang buat kita, jangan kita buat dia.
bunyi macam strong. tapi bila perasaan benci tu datang,
orang yang suruh forgive and forget
memang macam lancau.
apatah lagi dengan ayat what past is past.

Tak ramai orang semurni tu.

sebab tu sekarang rambut dah tak sama hitam,
hati lagi lah lainlain. ye dok?