Hang in there… The good guys are out there, and they’re looking for you, hoping that when they find you they’ve found someone who is pursuing an authentic, adventuresome faith, who supports more than she criticizes, and whose priorities are rightly balanced. Concentrate on that picture, and guys — the kind you want — will find it hard to look away.

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The past few days have been…interesting. And I can say you have been involved in it.

But sometimes I just don’t get what’s happening, so I want to turn these thoughts off.

Like now.

Silence, utter silence.

But then again, why am I expecting more things?

It’s fun. But I don’t want to think of it too much because I don’t want to preempt whatever, if there is anything to preempt.

So, chill. Patience, dear heart.

This has got to stop.

Time to move on. Go, move on now.

And then maybe we can start there.

Or not.

You have to wait for the someone who sees you, and I mean really, truly sees you. Sees all your quirks and your flaws and the cracks in your facade and still loves you and gives you records and maybe goes to the park with you on Sundays to sit on the swings. Listen — this person will find you, but you have to wait.  That’s the important distinction there. They will find you. So live your life, and be happy, and stop looking all the time.

Yes, this is exciting. Yes, there may be a possibility of a something. But still, you have to be patient.

Do not jump ahead. Do not try to press for more information. Do not preempt.

You must not over-analyze or over think, you must not try to predict, nor force things to happen. You need to be patient, because if you do any of the following above, you’ll end up in the same place you were with the guy before that. And the guy before that. And the guy before that. Get it?

Dear heart, let things take its course. Let things happen. I’m not saying you shouldn’t make the move. You can, but DO NOT get ahead of anything. Do not assume, do not think there’s something when there’s nothing, yet. If there is something, well then it will happen. If there’s nothing, nothing you do will be able to make it come out.

So sit still, and wait. Be patient. It will come in time. If not with him, then there will be someone else.

Be patient.

i’m not supposed to be singing that, but i can’t help it.

please don’t let me screw whatever this is, Lord.

stop mattering to me already.

you,

Just hang on for a little while longer – I’m on my way.

— me