fights. struggles. revolution.

excuses, excuses

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 04 May 2012 16:30:00 +0000

the biggest excuse i hear from people is "i'm like this because my parents....". there's a point in our lives where we have to stop making excuses and blaming other people for the reason why things are the way they are. no parent is perfect - that's for sure. but, if you're an adult, and are still blaming your shortcomings on "the way you were raised", it's time shut up and change it.

you get to a certain age where you finally understand the difference between right and wrong. quit blaming your past - you can't change it. if you're unhappy with something, change it. yes, it will take work - but the more you make excuses, the longer it will stay the same.

i've been on this trip lately about people making excuses. it's f***ing annoying. i'm in the business of teaching people how to defend themselves. i had a parent last night make a million excuses of why she didn't have to work hard. i asked her, "what happens if you're walking down the street, and someone tries to hurt your son?" she said, "that won't happen, he's too fast." really? so, instead of suckin' it up and learning how to defend her family, she is banking on her son's speed to run from the situation. and, if the attacker comes from behind? then what? and then they wonder why their kids make excuses...

i grew up with a dad who had a short temper. so, growing up, i had one too. i'd get pist at every little thing. then, one day, i grew up and realized it was a trait that i no longer wanted to have. so, i worked very hard at making it go away. was it hard? yes. was it work? yes. do i still struggle? yes. but, i recognized the problem and changed it. i could've just sat around and blamed my dad for it - or blamed the person who pissed me off to begin with... but, i didn't. it was a PERSONAL problem, so the change started at the root - ME.

quit your bit**in and your whining and do the freakin' work.

sooooo much fun.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 05:17:00 +0000

so, i'm in chicago. i'm having suuuch a great time... we're in the lobby right now, getting some work done now... well, i have the intentions to (after i finish this blog. here's some pics of me, teen, and cheryl goofin' off in the lobby of the double tree magnificent mile, in the heart of chicago.

good fun, good people, good memories. i love it.

i heart technology.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 08:15:00 +0000

only during our generation can i see and hear my relatives in the philippines for absolutely free. i love it!

october.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 08:02:00 +0000

october's always kind of a bittersweet month for me. lots of changes start happening around this time for me...

seasons change, color of the leaves change, my schedule gets more hectic, etc. october also brings back a lot of painful memories. october 2005, God needed my dad up in heaven, so He took called him to be with Him. bittersweet, definitely.

my dad suffered from the unbeatable cancer of the liver. well, "unbeatable" 'cuz there's no cure... but, my dad was superman. he beat it. they gave him 6 months, he lasted 20. he was an amazing man who loved God, loved his family, and was absolutely selfless. being the first (and only) person in his family to move to the united states, he housed basically everyone who came here after him. his cousins, my mom's cousins, his sisters-in-law, brothers-in-law, nieces, nephews, etc. he opened his home to everyone who needed a warm bed to sleep in and a roof over their head. he was the most generous man i knew. he gave to everyone else, and didn't mind taking the hand-me-downs. my sisters, mom, and i would always drive around the new cars, and my dad would take the old, leftover ones. he never drove a new car.

anyway... he was just an amazing man. so, this post is dedicated to him. just for the world to see what an awesome guy he was. enjoy the pics.

my mom and dad... they loved each other so much...
dad and his favorite "white boy" grandson, blaine.
dad in puerto nuevo on father's day 2004, grubbin on some lobster... his fave!
my handsome dad and his killer smile that we all miss

please pray.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 15 Sep 2008 06:26:00 +0000

i don't know who reads my blog on the regular or anything, but, if you just so happen to come across this post - can you stop a minute and just pray? taking my mom to the hospital on tuesday. we really need the extra prayer.

thanks.

i'm related to idiots.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 08:04:00 +0000

• i have a 40 year old cousin who acts 12. idiot.
• i have cousins who go to a wedding just to sit there and be bitter critters. idiots.
• i have cousins who, just after losing someone to suicide, can forget about how important it is to cherish the family we STILL have. IDIOTS.

life's too short to be a bitter critter.

so, what do i do with these "family" members of mine? pray for 'em and still love on 'em.

i love you.... idiots.

uhhh... weird.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 07:46:00 +0000

does this make you wanna buy it?

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late night run

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 07:32:00 +0000

... no, no, no, not physically running, like for exercise or whatever... more like, you know - a FOOD run! Lol. so yeah, rally's out in cypress on beach & lincoln... Bomb fries!!!!!
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keep sippin'...

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 22:18:00 +0000

period.

he made a huge mistake - who hasn't?
he's trying to fix it - who wouldn't?
he's asked for forgiveness - God has, why can't you?

get over it.

carlos whittaker wrote a great blog about "second chances". i can't even count how many times i've been forgiven for all the effed up things i've done in my life. God is good and has called us to forgive. do it, because He forgave you.

period, the end.

diggin' the new gig

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 14:19:00 +0000

well, for those of you that don't know... i started a "<a href="http://www.8trackstudios.com">new gig</a>" a few weeks ago. it's definitely an answer to my prayers 'cuz prior to scoring this gig, i left my last one and was in the process of looking for another... and... In God's perfect style and timing, He hooked me up with something way better, more fun, and with a person i learned a ton from the past 2 years of my life... pretty awesome, right?!?

i look forward to learning a lot at this gig. i honestly already have learned quite a bit already, and i think that's the reason i dig it so much.

anyway, thanks God! you're awesome! and thanks trotter for hookin' it up!
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money to burn.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 08:27:00 +0000

okay - well... i don't even know who reads my blog... but, i'm reaching out and asking for some help. i have $200 to burn. i got a gift card (kinda) from verizon when i signed up for fios a few months back. it's only valid at participating locations, but i'm thinking i'm just gonna use it at one of my 2 favorite spots - circuit city or best buy.

i can't think of anything to buy though... any suggestions?!? leave a comment and give me some suggestions!

thanks.

my blackberry's hooked up!

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 19:16:00 +0000

so, I'm tryin' out this blackberry blogger thing! It's pretty awesome! Who's got a blackberry out there? Add me to your Blackberry Messenger thing!!!
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noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 15:25:00 +0000

Uh, how do I get started?!?
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america's government is bullsh**

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 15:36:00 +0000

let me give you a few reasons of why i'm bitter. granted, i'm proud to be "an american", and i love the "freedom" they say we have, and all that sugar coated bs... but, we, by far, have the stupidest government known to man.

let me tell you why:
one
america is so quick to run to the aid of other countries, but when WE (the americans) need help, they take forever. for example... trying to get through to the EDD is a bitch, and i heard that when you finally get through, THEY act like bitches. go figure!

two
government workers are a-holes everywhere you go. social security office, post office, dmv... i guess "customer service" doesn't apply to them. again, go figure!

three
check out loose change on google video for the final reason why america's government is ridiculous. it's kinda long, but i guarantee you, it's worth watching.

anyway, it's just my vent session - don't get all crazy and start leaving stupid anonymous messages. thanks.

unappreciated.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 12:37:00 +0000

period, the end.

it sucks when everyone's being acknowledged, except for you - who got everyone to where they're at.

a little acknowledgement would've been nice.

butterflies.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 13:59:00 +0000

tomorrow's the big day. the day that we've all been waiting for and working our butts off fundraising for is finally here! me and my team of 8 are going to be heading to detroit tomorrow morning...

my students will be fighting in the junior olympics - pretty awesome, huh? these kids have trained so hard to get to this point, and we're all just excited to see how well they're gonna do. please throw out a few prayers for them... just to be safe and to do well. thanks!! ;)

you can check us out at our live feed a here. stop by and say hello.

master plan.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 20:02:00 +0000

the past few months, i've really been thinking about where i want to be in the future. career wise, for the most part. i think the reason why is because i'm closing in on 30 in a few years, and i'm nowhere near where i thought i was gonna be... NO BUENO!

so, i figured, i'd throw out a few "future" ideas i had in mind, and everyone who reads this, if you don't mind, please pray for 'em. thanks!

1) go back to school for radiologic technology
2) after finishing that, continuing on to specialize in MRI

that's pretty much what i want to do at this point. i'm still teaching and doing the martial arts thang, so - pray for that too. it's been the only constant thing in my life for the past 7.5 years... CRAAAAAZY!

anyway... BEING AN ADULT SUCKS! i'll leave it at that.

i need a new job.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 27 May 2008 13:48:00 +0000

does anyone know anyone hiring? help!

home sweet home.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 20 May 2008 16:04:00 +0000

i talked to pastor dave a few days ago via facebook. man, it was really nice to hear from that guy. i really missed him. i mean seriously... regardless of all the drama, that man helped me get through a really tough time in my life, and that's something i don't think i'll ever forget. anyway, after catching up with him briefly, i guess it kinda healed a lot of the hurt i was feeling when all that drama went down.

for those of you that don't know, i made a decision to leave revolution after pastor dave left. i tried to go back for Easter and stuff, but i just had a hard time connecting. pastor dave really did good breaking things down for me to understand, and with all the changes going on, i was just having a hard time with it all.

but for the past few weeks, i've been feeling God really tugging at my heart. it's the "nudge" that i always heard people talk about around church. so, i'm going back this sunday... just to kinda "check it out". revolution has been the best thing that has happened to me in regards to my walk with Christ - i think that's why it was such a heavy blow when all that stuff went down.

anyway - i'm back. ;)

please help support my team!

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Thu, 15 May 2008 18:34:00 +0000

well, for those of you that don't know... i'm a martial arts instructor. i teach taekwondo to kids and adults 5 & up at the ehler's community recreation center in buena park! it's pretty much been my life for the past 7 and a half years! anyway, i have 8 fighters going to the junior olympics in detroit, michigan from july 1 to july 7! we're pretty stoked! 8 tried to qualify, and all 8 did qualify! ;)

well, the only problem is - raising the money to get to detroit. like i said, i teach at a rec center, so "cash flow" for these families isn't as great as the rest of us. so, any little bit helps... if you can help, we've got a few fundraisers going on right now...

1) FREE CARWASH - this Saturday from 7am to 2pm at the Albertson's on Dale & La Palma in Buena Park! BRING your dirty cars! We work for donations! ;)

2) SPONSORSHIP - if you own your own company and would like to sponsor team intense martial arts, please email me to request a sponsorship packet. my team is a NON-PROFIT ORGANIZATION so all donations are tax deductible!

3) CARL'S JR. COUPON BOOKS! - who can turn away from this one? we're selling coupon books that have a $45 value for carl's jr. and green burrito! they're only $5.00 (+ $0.60 shipping and handling, if you're purchasing 'em online). BUY ONE! Click there and click on the "Carl's Jr." button at the bottom of the page!

ALL PROCEEDS will go to help get these 8 inner-city kids to Detroit in July!! PLEASE HELP! Can you seriously say no to these faces?!?

fire me already!

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Thu, 15 May 2008 15:16:00 +0000

as thankful as i am that i have a job, i have to admit, i absolutely hate this place. "it can't be that bad" some of you might be thinking... yeah, in some people's eyes, it's not that bad. but, in my own defense, being underpaid, never acknowledged or recognized, and working around a bunch of idiots (literally) makes me hate this place.

anyone hiring? lemme know.

verizon fios.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 03 May 2008 04:09:00 +0000

fios is dope.

anonymous.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 04:48:00 +0000

i got this "comment" on one of my posts today. of course, by someone "anonymous".. anyway, enjoy reading...

"you know whats crazy? you are crazy. i knew you. and you seriously fucked me up. fucked up relationships i had with people. you took advantage of me. you lied. you manipulated. you pray and pray, but you're still a bad person. a sinful person. you may pretend to be all religious and shit now, and you may have confessed your sins to a priest, but you haven't been forgiven...not by me and not by the others that you've fucked up. the priest/pastor may have told you to say a million prayers and you may have donated a million things to the needy, but you're still fucked up. and you still fucked people up. and you're still awful. and you'll always remain awful in my mind and in the minds of many. you've never once reached out to apologize and for that...you'll never be forgiven."

whoever you are... if i did you wrong, i do apologize. i've reached out to a lot of people that i've hurt to apologize personally. i can't change your mind about me - and that's cool. i suppose that's something i'm gonna have to live with for the rest of my life... i've never denied being a terrible person when i was younger. i've hurt many people. i'm not perfect, or even anywhere near it. but, i do LOVE God - and because of Him, i have changed. you may not forgive me for whatever i did to you - and i'm sorry that i've hurt you that bad that you can't bring yourself to forgive me. but, for what it's worth, i'm apologizing now for whatever i did... next time, contact me directly - i'll apologize to you personally, if this post (to the whole world) isn't enough... acatalasan@gmail.com

the filtration process.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 04:28:00 +0000

it's crazy ain't it? it's one thing to filter coffee, water, etc... but, to filter PEOPLE out of your life - it's such a crazy concept to me. but, i've noticed that i do it at least once or twice a year. it's my way of getting rid of the old and keeping the ones who matter.

i had a long talk with my "big brother" on my trip to fresno this weekend, and i realized a lot about myself and the people that i choose to surround myself with. over the years, i've gotten rid of people who brought me down, influenced me (in a bad way), and most recently, people who use me and take advantage of my generosity... i've realized that friendship isn't about "how long" you've known someone, but how they treat you, that really matters.

i'm blessed to have the people that i DO have in my life right now. they're people that i would bend over backwards to help and know they'd do the same in return. so, for those of you who are still in my life, thank you.

i'll kill you...

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 03:45:00 +0000

someone called my mom on her cell phone the other day and said, "i'll kill you." so... this is what i have to say to that person... "try it, and i'll kill YOU."

that's all. ;)