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Murder.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 05:27:00 +0000

The feeling of committing a crime is too strong to hold within my heart. Felt like killing someone but no, my life is too precious to be spend in jail. I've been playing dota for almost a year already. To be exact - its 2 years but i stopped the game for a year after having some major things happened in my life. I never play competitive dota - not even once, and i never once thought of being a pro or someone famous in the gaming industry, and i don't even bother to try. Just lately, i joined a team - maybe something hijacked my brain and set this decision for me or what I don't know, but what i know is i don't play to do all this shit; and the shit i'm talking about is fame.

Private.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 03:34:00 +0000

Should I continue to post my everyday outing with pictures or just a short update like this will do? Whatever thoughts that came in my mind, i'll just jot them down in here? I'm tired of photo editing btw. Lack of inspiration to blog anyway. Been hooked up with everyday training that now my life been fucked up! I just need a fucking inspiration. T.T

Joining a team playing competitive dota isn't easy. Been drafting for the past 2 weeks already and yet I'm still lack of some skills. One of the member quits the team saying that the team isn't ready for competition, and me for not improving much. Well, you can't expect much from a person who stopped all gaming activities for a year right? Had a hard time searching for the last member and it came to no choice but to pick that person instead. Everything goes well for nao.

This is Random.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 03:13:00 +0000

I know I may be noob but your words can't pull me down. You know who you are for saying me didn't improve much. I will show you what I can do, and will make you to take back your words. You just wait and see. :) Don't back-stab people behind your back, and acted all-good, all-innocent in front of them or they'll hunt you down - make you regret for doing so.

p.s.: I don't fuckingly need you in here anymore. You're not that good as what I expected either! Look at yourself in the mirror before saying people. kthxbai!

All I want for birthday...

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 02:57:00 +0000

My birthday *hint hint* is coming soon *hint hint* and
I'm looking forward for a prezzie which is .... a new desktop *hint hint*

I wan a STUDIO ONE 19 desktop from DELL (or Inspiron One 19 also acceptable but preferrably Studio one lah *ahem*),
at least 500GB hdd (320GB also acceptable lah),
4GB Memory,
in powder pink trim (for Studio One 19),
Nvidia GeForce 9400 Graphics,
Core 2 duo processor (or i3 or i7 also can :D ),
Windows 7 Home Premium (I dunwan the noob Home Basic),

Or any desktop with the above specs and preferrably in Pink! ^^

You buy me that, I'll love you to death :D

that's all.

^_____^

Quote of the Day

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 01:00:00 +0000

I take back my words. I finally know his true intentions. I don't just want to be a replacement over it. Follow your heart and go on with it. Live with it. Don't let responsibility to stop you. I'll never happy if they keep disturbing you. I'll never happy if 'it' keeps disturbing you. Someone told me that she might be my replacement, as in our size, our looks, our hair, all too similar. I told that someone; that no matter what, I will fork out a difference - a very obvious one. There, I found it. She got dozens good friends willing to help her to cease the pain while i got nothing. Not even one. If i was the one in pain, no one there to understand how hurt i felt. No one even tried to cease the pain for me nor help me. That someone tried to but its useless. One person is never enough. Maybe i'm destined to be alone forever.

What is...

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 02:59:00 +0000

Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more.

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Could be your eyes, could be your smile, could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch, caressed my soul, you gave me everything i need.
And now i'm lost forever.

You said this is going no where, and you said i turned my back on,
you said I'm not the only one for you.

Please give me one more try for the sake of our love,
let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up,
I can't live one more day without you in my arms,
I could never find another like you.

Could be the lies, could be the pride, could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there, and all the nights we didn't share.
And now you're lost forever.

I can't sleep, i can't live without you by my side.
So cold, so lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise i'm nothing without you.

p.s. : Happy February everyone.

My Battle.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 08:47:00 +0000

I've been battling towards my depression for the past few days. It was the most hardest battle ever compared to my studies and financial difficulties. I was born from a not-so-rich family where both my parents working their ass off for income to support the family of 5.

My battle of depression started with my studies. I got nice result - but i didn't continue my studies in University but instead I'll be going to private college. I got to choose either Multimedia Design or Information System Engineering. My parents wanted me to be an engineer but that course is so not my type. If i choose to do Multimedia Design, it would be a dream come true for me but I had to leave my friends and family to go KL for that course, and probably a not-so-bright future.

It took me one whole freaking year to choose and its hard.

Very hard .....

Alice been suffering from heartache. Her heart is shattered .... broken into million pieces by one same person ..... It is easy to forgive but hard to forget. I'm still wondering if our relationship will last any longer where all we did throughout the year was nothing but never ending quarrel and on-and-off break up. I told myself that I would never give anymore chance to this man - he has been given too much and it seems unfair to those who've been with me before.

I just got tired easily when it comes to quarrel. All he wants is victory and I would calmly accept defeat and admit all my wrong - although some wasn't even my wrong. I felt annoyed when all he did to me was just caring - and nothing else. I am a woman on my own, and I don't like people to care of my business so much - whether it is from my boyfiee or friends. I felt disappointed when he peeped or forked out my secrets secretly from my ex - and the next thing is, he attacked me with all the things that me and my ex spoke in the conversation.

I felt hurt when he kept complaining to me about my bad habits - on how he cannot take it any longer and on why I still cannot change for him after a whole year - and yet, he still don't want to let go of me. I'm very tired being his ears whenever he did it and yet, he would keep asking me what to do - as in asking me whether I wanna continue this relationship or not. My answer is always simple - if you cannot take it, then please leave me, don't make me/force me be the one who dump you because I never complain anything much about your bad habits compared to you.

He told one person that he felt he was being used by me. Its not true. To be honest, I never took anything from you before except for that pair of ring and food. What else you gave me? Borrowed me money when i have financial difficulties ???

The only thing he compliment about me is i'm no longer having this attitude problem - like how my exes and some don't-know-much-about-me net friends used to complain - well, these net friends just heard it from other people and the next day, they made this assumption without knowing me better! My life isn't that freaking awesome for the starting of 2010. It was a bad luck year for me. Some memories keep coming back and refused to fade forever. I tried to but failed.

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Someone is back actively to the blogosphere world and I read all the past post he wrote - i realised how much he loved me and sacrificed for me back then - but i never appreciate it somehow. I felt like I'm the girl in TaeYang's Wedding Dress MV. It reflects so much about what i'm been through right now - and him, of course. The lyrics represent his thoughts he wanted to say to me. I just knew that he would give up everything just to be with me. I asked for it before but I never knew it would be so soon - like just after i made my decision to let go of him forever after one full year. He got the authority to bring back the love - and i know he's probably trying his best right now. He made promises to me, like a normal boyfiee would make and i know he would keep them all - only for his true love.

p.s. : It hurts so bad .....

TaeYang - Wedding Dress

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 02:20:00 +0000

Current obssession :

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun  no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

p.s. : Gambatte! Team [Ex|Le]. ^^

Bleeding Love

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 01:59:00 +0000

Was listening to the song Bleeding Love. It was a coincident - I used to dream of that song 3 years back then about some things happening to me and it really came to life. Fck! Now that song marks a new starting of my new life - and i love my life on how it should be right now, and in the future - with no regret. I'm glad that I found you back. :) Monday, 25/01/2010 - is the day I gave up my final life to you. I love you more than you should know, more than i can show.

143 messages.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 03:14:00 +0000

Its the 501st post and its been almost 2 years this blog been created and has been gone through all the tough moments I had with me. I shared almost everything in here. The pain, the joy, the laughter, the hatred, the gossips and everything - though this blog wasn't a private one. I got a good offer to purchase my own domain for about RM100. It was a good deal indeed. I wanted to buy one but the word regret seems to haunt me - what if i pursue my gaming carrier later on and abandon my blog? what if i study until i'm lazy to care about my blog? what if one day my sponsors left me and my blog gonna be like....not famous anymore? that's a question :) It took me a year to achieve a 4 digits earning, i haven't cash out. Its for S.O.S purpose. Thanks to WonderShop, my earning got even higher. So i guess this year wasn't a bad year after all. Bad starting but it may turns well in the end.

My love life been playing a prank on me. The feeling of guilt made me do the things i never did before. I had to reject one person after another in a nice way so that we can remain friends. And its not just freakingly 1 person but quite alot. *ahem* I'm not trying to hint you that i'm very good or something but everything just happened in a sudden. Just when i settle the most headache rejection thing, there comes the past that haunts me. It took freaking one whole day for me to face 2 person at once, have a good talk, and not all are even settled yet. I keep receiving wrong signal but i don't mind much. Not much but i don't mind it at all. My decision is always the same. Everything is up to His hand on how He wants to treat me. Amen.

The feeling of guilt hurts. I was bad enough. I didn't appreciate it until i lost it and i cried over it, i regretted over it. It was wrong, i blamed myself. Thats why I would just do anything just to repent all my mistakes.

Health :

My allergic is killing me. Making my leg's complexion shitty. It wasn't insect bite, just itch, then rashes, then bleed. My tummy is keeeeeeeling me as well, it hurts like nobody's business. it hurts like there's no tomorrow.

Game :

Jerry and Xiang planned to form a new competitive dota team which they called it [Ex|Le]. I joined them probably for the role as warder or run lane - or worst, second attacker or just a sub. I still think I'm very noob. Like wad xiang used to describe me, i'm afraid of being killed. Whenever i'm low hp, i would just run back home without out any skill or something - even if i got a stun or hex with me but i've overcome it :)

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 08:29:00 +0000

I hate myself for who I am right now.

I am sorry for hurting people around me.

I wish that I am dead.

Recall.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 02:44:00 +0000

It was somehow the most awkward moment in my life. I read Yumi's blog, i broke down into sadness but when i recall my past, i broke down into tears. We both has got one thing in common - our unforgettable, unforgivable, regretful past. I've always told myself for the past one year - it's the end of winter season. I know I will never own him back, not even by a single chance and deep inside me was hurt. I tried all sorts of ways to forget him but i failed miserably. The love is so strong ... too strong to resist, and i felt so bad to lie everyone around me about it, especially both of them.

Of course, being with him was the best moment i've ever had. I am always happy being with him and will cry if he disappoints me. I am selfish as what Yumi told me - i chose bread over love. That's the truth. It was my mother's policy which made me this material, but i never blame her. She wants me to avoid suffering in the future and not to follow Sis Oli's footsteps. Everything goes well with my 'bread' until my laptop broke down which made me had to face him again.

I got so emo when i slept on the bed that was once used to be mine, I cried when i sit on the computer chair which i used to always sit last time. If only i could turn back the time, then i wouldn't make such mistake. A mistake that made me felt regret until now. 1 year already - but i still couldn't let him go. I told myself that after this, if he one day come back to me, asking me to be his girlfriend again, i would. Yes, i really would - probably without thinking twice EXCEPT if i found someone who i can love more than him.

Tho this may sound selfish but i don't care cause i am really a selfish person. Mental disorder. I blamed myself a year back then - why can i let go of the person i love the most that easily? and it made me felt so guilty for one whole year. I wish i could do something about it. I wish he could give me one final chance to repent and to correct all my mistakes i did to him one year ago for i am really in pain.

p.s.: Is there anyone gonna slap me and ask me to wake up and stop dreaming?

sigh....

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 03:59:00 +0000

I think by the time this post got published, i'll already on my way to Hatyai. Yes, it's a scheduled post :) Dun miss me too much, wil try to get some souvenirs to you guys and i love you guys :)

Coming up with new project. My Choco Latte project is going on smoothly though its not able to publish yet ... full of secrets and memories tho. :)

I am still glad that I am going to Hatyai tomorrow with mah family. Everything's comfirmed, just that I'm still lazy to pack. My Gemmie is following me along so i'ma let my msn open 24/7. Hopefully the roaming charges in Thailand isn't bloodsucking otherwise you won't be seeing me online ggwtf!

I'm thinking what to pack. Luckily my monthly visit just finished just a few hours ago, believe me, it is NOT nice to go on a vacation with that 'thing' bothering you; plus, your luggage will be lighter because you don't have to bring those pads! ^_^

I think I will bring probably 2 shirts, a short pants for night wear - mom wouldn't allow me to wear short pants in Hatyai on day time for sure! Will be beinging my Koji Eye Talk, and some cash. No, I won't be bringing my 017 phone, only bringing 010 and 019 so please take note k?

Need to tapao McD to Biie, Kelvin and Hee. They asked for it. McD Pork Burger & McD Ham Pie - Not available in Malaysia, WHO DON'T WANT! Duhhhh!

Anyway, had a talk with Angela last night. It was just some random sweet talk - i'll still accept her no matter who she is in the past or in the future. I admired her really. A promise is still a promise and no one knows no worries :)

That's it. Fast update for today. TiaTia.

Troubleshoot.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 08:19:00 +0000

Just finish the whole game! Including survival, mini games and blablabla! Nice game, very addicting and kan cheong! Plants vs Zombies is a good game *_*

Uber nais but in return, my lappy encountered some stupiak problem. There's a badass trojan keep attacking my lappy and i tried all sorts of way to get rid of it but its useless. I did an anti-virus scan but my lappy scan out nothing! but my anti-virus keep pop up telling me that there's a threat trying to attack my computer and so, i move the file to vault. Then it requires me to restart my pc, then that night when i'm about to off shut down my computer, *booom!* tmd my lappy turned blue screen with lotsa lotsa words on it then it auto-restart by itself nonstop!

I tried to pull plug, then on again cause it says maybe i plug the electricity source wrongly but its not working, i tried to check and scan all my hardware and software with recovery thingy but Microsoft can't fix the problem. i am damn emo i wanna cry already! I left the lappy close then off to bed in hoping that it will auto-recover by itself tomorrow keeping fingers crossed for miracle but still, the same bsod appeared! I am sad, angry, but at the same time, i thanked God that i got my Gemmie with me otherwise i'll dead of boredom!

I asked random people around, what does the bsod means? Different people gave me different answers. One told me that its motherboard problem (overheated or spoilt), another one told me virus attack (which i kinda believe and hoped for this), another one told me hardware or hdd problem, and another one told me that its time to reformat or change a new pc. Then again, i receives some negative reviews from other people that my lappy is the lamest of all among that brand, and none of them lasted even 3 or 4 years! Well, i just knew about it cause i kinda hijacked the files of complain letters in my...*ahem*

So i was posting an update in my Facebook seeking a Computer Genius but end up there's 2 kids playing along with that update f3 f3. Worst still, both of them got brainwashed by Y with all the pornographic stuffs and now both of them keep orgy here and there wtf. Edwin decided to help me with my lappy - free reformat who don't want! *kisses and huggies* and God helped me big this time cuz i'm bound to get the new Studio One 19 like effing soon. FOR FREE! LoLoL! Love my life NOT!

p.s. : Now i felt like throwing that lame lappy. Sis Jay got a good deal of Studio and Inspiron lappy through my help! Bless her! I hate you!

Lost.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 01:28:00 +0000

I cried last night and too much that my eyes refused to produce a nice curvy double eyelid even with the help of my favourite Koji Eye Talk. I somehow just felt so lost in words. Last night had a talk but its not flowing as smooth as how i thought it would be. At first, he said he wants to end - i refused; he poured cold water in me - too much cold water until i can't take it anymore so i agreed in the end - but he refused after that. There's too much of things i've been thinking at once yesterday until i got a terrible migraine and i slept earlier than everyone else.

I need someone to talk to, and the first person i picked was Y in hope that he could cheer me up but he didn't. I don't know how to say to him, I don't know how to share things to my friends anymore. It seems that no matter what i share, i'll always end up being betrayed by them. Its not the first time i've been trough but quite a lot of times. Friends can't be trusted fully. Not at all. Uber sien.

Now that I'm so lost, but i'm still glad that I chose the road that probably would lead me to a better path and a brighter day. Woke up feeling sad, lonesome and down, i told my fellow plurkers and tweeples that I never felt this better before - it was a lie. I just want to stay single for the time being. Maybe a week, a month or a year I don't know. I'm not into any relationship nor seeking one for now. Just too tired of everything. I wish someone is here with me now to share my pain.

Anyway, I just know that someday, I'll able to find someone who can accept me, my real person and would appreciate me more than everyone else. I just knew it. :) Gambatte Alice!

p.s. : Ok, so now application open! For those who can buy me DELL's Studio One 19 desktop (in Powder Pink trim, with Intel Core(TM) 2 Duo E7500 Processor, Genuine Windows 7 Home Premium, 320GB/500GB hdd, 4GB Memory, with Nvidia GeForce 9400 integrated graphics, white keyboard and mouse) and a pink Sony T90 camera and I'll be all yours :D I'm serious!

zOmg!

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 06:44:00 +0000

GAN FU! F3 F3!!!

Feelings.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 06:36:00 +0000

Falling in love is a reflex, which you can't learn and control just like breathing.

I do think I'm very bad at times. As in very evil. I love the attention given by one individual when they tend to court me, but I'm ain't a two-timer. Sometimes its hard for you to choose which is better; and sometimes, you know that one is better than the current one, but your instinct kept haunting you with bad thoughts.

I'm screwed! I think i'm a playgirl. Yea... cause I can't date the very same person long enough. I don't know why but my feelings towards a guy fades easily whenever there's another man walks into my heart. The shortest relationship i've ever had lasted about a week or two while the longest relationship i've ever had was the recent one. Almost a year already ... but i'm not proud of it. The relationship keeps getting on and off unstoppable. Most of the guys i've been with, none of them really impressed me or had this feelings on me that I can rely on him in the future.

In my life, there's only one guy I truly loved. Well, 2 practically but one of them i foresee that i can never be with him (and it's fuckingly real okay! my sixth sense is killing me! FML), and another one, i've been waiting for 2 years for my chance but after some incident happened between me n him, love became hatred. His words kinda hurt me, pissed me off and embarrassed me in front of my many many friends.

Oh well..... life goes on.

Now i'm all screwed up! I'm now having philophobia - the fear of falling in love or being in love; all based on my experiences. I know that in this century, we women are allowed to choose our own husband, but for my mom, its hard. Mom wants me to find a super rich businessman's son, so that i can has income even without working in the future. She keeps telling me this :
"My friend's daughter, so clever ... managed to court a businessman's son and the boy paying all her course fees. but the boy very short, fat and ugly one lo. As long as got money, everything also can liao eh."
Uber swtness! If mom still gonna push me with this sentence, i might as well stay single for the rest of my life!

Oh yea, believe it or not, i got this sixth sense, which keeps telling me who's in love with me, and who's in love with her or him. and it never fails me. The result is always positive. Damn scary at times when it became real! Now i can be the next matchmaker liao!

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I shopped again! From Tzia's closet ♥. Bought 2 new dresses from her and is very cheap! One white one - probably suitable for attending dinner or prom, another polka dots one - suitable for normal casual wear. Hopefully its a good deal. Been spending money like water, no input this month again i guess, CNY coming and i need to shop for new year clothes. Bought some already but in the end regret over some purchase idk why dun ask me! I'ma sell them off in WonderStuffs soon enough.

I'm planning to buy a new desktop, a bigger screen one that comes in a very very good graphic - and considering to change the graphic card. I'll be taking engineering courses soon but idk why that course seems like a mix of engineering and some art work. You know, macromedia flash job and etc. iHate cz it seems very complicated but iLikey cuz its about art work! I love arts!

Anyway, my health been deteriorating these days. I can fall sick easily than before. Now i even pooed like a few times a day, and its more to lao sai that type. Like almost EVERYDAY! Mom gave me supplements to consume but still no any effect. Slept quite early lately but still the same. Think its time of medical checkup. *crossed fingers* Ohmmmm.........

p.s. : Thank you for loving me :)

iHearts

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 12:27:00 +0000

I LOVE my boys. They're a bunch of jokers, my sunshine that lightens up my day when i'm down. A day without them would be a gloomy day for me.

♥♥♥

Kelv, cK', Hee

Brian, Jacob, Chris, Me (head kena cut T____T)

cP and Kelv 'kimochi-ing~~~

p.s. : Happy Birthday, Chris ^_^

♥♥♥♥♥

Ending.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 13:05:00 +0000

My holiday is coming to an end. Got to know, my holiday sucks to the max tho the OJA (Oli, Jay, Ali) siblings are back in town. Did nothing much, celebrated lonely Christmas, lonely New Year, for the past 19 years already. My life is different from most of the couples i know. They always went out, celebrating countdown together unlike me FMLtothemax!

So to cure this lonesome, i did some online shopping. Browsing here and there, nothing nice, nothing that caught my eyes, so in the end, i decided that i should buy the clothes from my own blogshop. Calling for staff price ;) Bought 4 new tops, with a scarf for only RM84.50. Like OMGWTFBBQSAUCE cheap! So right nao, i'm waiting for my parcel to honk honk arrive in my doorsteps.

I went to Queensbay Mall with both my sis last Wednesday to watch Sherlock Holmes. Very nice and a funny movie indeed. I'd give about 8 out of 10. Not gonna say or comment anything about that movie. You just have to see it for yourself aite. ;)

So yesterday I went out with both my girlfriends, Keii and Py ♥ after like 125349792634 years didn't meet them up already. We chit chat a lil in Keii's house, then went for lunch in Billion, just like what we used to do last time when we're schooling, then walk around in Billion. Then, the dark moment arrived ...... Keii left us there, in Billion ..... and eloped with wz just like that! Guess how we felt? Pissed? 101% positive! That moment was so awkward idk but standing there like a statue, didn't say a single word to us is really ... what d'u say .... no manners. Yet, receiving an SMS was also another pissing thing happened after that incident - pissed because I got accused over the things that i don't even know! So i thought, there's no point for me to fight for my rights with him. I'm an all-grown-up human unlike some - if you get what i mean.

I'm in a hu-ga-ga-ga feelings for tomorrow. Wk left with both his colleagues and i'm wondering who's the newcomer that will replace one of them. Hopefully it will be someone nice ♥ then i'ma pamper him/her like damn kao kao!

Lazy to camwhore these few days. Idk why people can't bored of camwhoring one. Its like slowly becoming their hobby. Imagine thousands of eyes looking at your fugly pic worldwide .... Gosh, I wonder which vulgar words that they hadn't used on us! okok,...joking joking =m= no offense.

Ok...enough of crap. I seriously don't know what to write and how to end a post. So....the end. :D

p.s. : Its delayed!

f(x) ~ LA chA TA

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 14:06:00 +0000

Current favourite :

I sori deullyeo
Yeogi meotjin sungnyeosinsabundeul neomchyeo Ah Ah Ah~
Ja ja miljimasigo
Modu hwaginhaebwa ipjangsunseo neombeo Yeah Yeah Yeah~

Banjjak beonjjeok Sound oneul Style joheungeol
Orchi, jalhae, geurae, nareul ttara hanbeon deo gaja
Ape dwie yeopedeul ssauji malgo ta
Ije dwaetda junbiwallyo? Now everybody says

LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
Sinnandago ya~ lacha lacha tata
Noraereul ttara momdo ttara ga Now everybody,
Neomu swipji dadeul joha Baby~

Jeo teibeul araero
Geunyeo haendeubaek sogedo gadeuk neomchyeo Yeah Yeah Yeah~

Banjjak beonjjeok Sound oneul Style joheungeol
Orchi, jalhae, geurae, nareul ttara hanbeon tto gaja
Ape dwie yeopedeul ssauji malgo ta
Ije moduda junbiwallyo? Now everybody says

LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
Sinnandago ya~ lacha lacha tata
Noraereul ttara sumdo ttara swieo Now everybody,
Neomu swipji nareul ttara Baby~

C'mon C'mon C'mon C'mon baby come on
C'mon C'mon C'mon C'mon baby come
C'mon C'mon C'mon C'mon baby come on
I jjaritan neukkim ttara gaja
Come come come come on baby

Jallal pillyo eobseo inneun geudaero myeot beon yeonseumman hamyeon dwae
Orchi jalhae geurae geureoke ttarawa ije jinjja junbiwallyo?
Now everybody says

LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
Sinnandago ya~ lacha lacha tata
Noraereul ttara momdo ttara ga Now everybody,
Neomu swipji dadeul joha Baby~
LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
Sinnandago ya~ lacha lacha tata
Noraereul ttara sumdo ttara swieo Now everybody,
Neomu swipji nareul ttara Baby~

Rap:
(Just move to the beat
It ain't that hard
Heat's rising up
Party's just begun
You don't have to be afraid, I'll show you how
Say it with me now LA chA TA TA
Going all night so live it up
Go with the music and have some fun
Put it on repeat
This is how we groove
Come on everybody
Show them how we do)

2010.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 03:55:00 +0000

The first day of 2010.

Well, its just another day. To think back on what i did last year, i didn't really fulfil all my resolutions yet. NOT even 50% of it.

Let's roll back to my 2009 resolutions.
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1. Study hard/work hard : blablabla...that i don't care. Work hard isn't easy. Its a whole new drama where everyone is bad people whose trying to pull u down.

2. Travel : check! Its a free trip what more can you ask for?

3. Rich and lotsa $ : I'm not rich but i got lotsa money of my own ;)

4. Revenge : Oh boy...someone kena from me before so that's a check! More to come in the year 2010.

5. My friends to be happy all the time : ISTILLDON'TKNOWWHYIWOULDWRITETHATINTHEFIRSTPLACE! I'm selfish.

6. New hairstyle : Checked! Just a random rebonding...nothing much or less.

7. Fairest of them all : I'm now fairer than most of my friends, yes, no doubt. its all my hard work to be this fair! and yes, i'm gonna ask for more this year.

8. Wanna grow taller : Just a slight 0.5cm . . . is that counted?

9. Wanna be forever 19 : Yes, i'm gonna be forever 19! Checked! =D

10. Happy living with my baby : @#$@#%@#@$!!!!! I also dono why i wrote that on the first place! Its just a random crap. Being single is still the best feeling after all!

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So now u know why it isn't even fulfil 50% but nevermind, i'm gonna abandoned this old crappy resolutions wtf and come up with a new one.

2010 Resolutions.
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1. Grow taller. I need to reach 165cm! Just 0.5cm more to go come one!

2. I know i'ma study in TAR this coming May ;) I'm gonna stress myself 101% on my studies this time. First class honour babe!

3. Wanna go fairer like Snow White. People and my friends always think that i'm fucking fair enough to be one but my mother never think of me that way :( In her sight, i'm always dark like an indon kid.

4. I wanna be a full time evil + selfish person like Tavia Yeung Yi in that TVB drama 'Beyond the Realm of Conscience' iduncare! Same situation, i'm always being the one got blamed over the things that i did not do. So whoever did that on me, you better watch out cuz i dono what i might do on you next ;)

5. I need a fucking camera of my own and bound to get one if i can afford it. idunwannaDSLRitsfuckingtoobig! I just need a digital cam. Just a digital cam will do someone please sponsor me!!

6. I still need to earn more money and go travel. Yes, its a 100% fulfillable :)

7. I want a pair of big round eyes that can shock any guys when i look at them. *ahem* nolah nolah...i just want a fucking double eyelids thats all! and hope it can develop by this year from the effect of the tape and glue.

8. I need to improve my DotA skills. I can't afford to see Edwin and Daryl so hardworking to improve their skills so iwannaiwannaiwannaiwannaIWANNA!!!

9. I want my blogshop WonderLens and WonderStuffs both earn profit of at least RM1000 a month. Now just a fcking 3 digits.

10. I want my blog earning to reach a fcking 5 digits before i cash out due to emergency use. Now just 4 digits reaching 3k soon thank God.

11. I vowed to NO MORE buying t-shirts. Believe it or not i'm a full-time and a regular customer in WonderStuffs myself? LOL. *finger crossed* be more feminine!

12. blablabla.....

***

So thats it. My 2010 resolutions. I'll appreciate it of got people who can help me out. *wink*

So Happy New Year guys. ^_____^

Well, it's a lonely New Year to me.

Rewind - 2009

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 02:11:00 +0000

2009 is coming to an end. Alice for sure did lotsa stuffs throughout the year enjoying her 1 year of freedom to the fullest without pressure (as in no studies lah) and able to earn cash happily. I know this post is gonna be soooo delayed but iduncare! I die die also wanna post it up ok? So here's the thing goes :-

January.

-Alice, first time being a school teacher in a Primary School near her house teaching the kids ~~DotA~~ Computing Studies.

February.

-Alice, officially a Premium Membership in Garena.

-Alice and Keii at the Education Fair.

March.

-Got to know my STPM result. Well, it was basically through online cuz that big a$s teacher suspend my result slip! but its okay anyway - got a fucking high pointer. Not disappointing but ...

-Nothing nice happened. Just my birthday... but didn't celebrate a single shit.

April.

-Keii and her both pairs of shoes incident.

May.

-A love letter, from Alice to Mommy. Happy Mother's Day.

-Work as a part-time promoter with mah friends. Zi yao guo ri zi er yi.

June.

-Alice 'shoplifted' and got caught in red-handed :P

-King of Pop MJ chose to left us.

July.

-Alice and Jayniel, wrote an essay and won a 2d1n trip to Singapore!

-Alice and Jayniel, completing their JetStar JetSaver Light Challenge in Singapore for the grand prize!

- Yasmin Ahmad left us. :(

August.

-Alice, working in PIKOM PC Fair 80/2009.

-Alice, working FULL-TIME in DELL. Uber nais job but the management there is fuckingly dramatic.

September.

-Alice, being racist.

October.

-Alice, went for 'secret honeymoon' in Mutiara Subang, KayElle. Didn't update mah blog about the trip cz its a 'secret honeymoon'.

-Establish Wonder Shop Inc. under WonderLens and WonderStuffs. I'm the *ahem* embassador *ahem* for that blogshop ... for nao only!

November.

- Alice, finally got her Blackberry Curve Gemini! The best phone she ever got for herself! Didn't update about it ... not sure why but i think i was quite busy with my work.

December.

-Alice, on a trip to Genting for X'mas! With her girlfriend Charis, Benny and her cousin sister. Loves! ::Didn't update about this either.

-Alice found out that her latest attraction was an imported mag PopTeen.

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So, like i said, dull but enjoyable life i had this whole year without studying a single bit. Well, i did ... for like a month then ... sad story. LOL.

***

There's a few things I wanna share with my friends for this upcoming New Year.

Benny : 希望我们的业务增长与利润更大。Gambatte WonderShop Inc.

Charis : Thanks for the company you've given to me throughout the year. Love so much and all the best. :) Enjoy the previous 'secret honeymoon' vacation trip with you and i'm looking forward to the next one in 2010.

Keii : I hate you but I love you so so much! You such a great friend that keeps me company but now .... haiz. Though there's a 'big pillar' (you-know-who) stuck in between us, stopping us from meeting each other but I'll still ask you out on regular days no matter what. IF that pillar come, I'll break it away ^_^ with a parang knife.

Angela : I know how u feel darling. Read your sad tweets made me wanna cry! I don't know what happened to you lately but if you're in need of someone to talk to, you can always call me, or sms me, or just anything. ;)

PY : You GO GET A LIFE! Stop your irritating lovey dovey updates of yours in Facebook ok?
Its uber nice to be single so please find a way to enjoy your lonesome self to the max. Gah...anyhow, friends forever and keep in touch always ;)

Biie : =)*

Dell gang : You people rawk! Made me the happiest woman ever everyday. Love you guys for taking a good care of me everyday and a good listener to me. Almost all of you gave me candies on Christmas Eve. Love. Ck, Dan, CP, TzeH., JZ Ong, Kelv, PeterY., and Hee.

Edwin, Daryl and Excel Corp. Inc. : 希望你们都将成为职业玩家，打败国际对手，成为世界排名第一。 Gambatte Kudasai ^_^

Last but not least ...

Mr. Yeoh : F3 F3. I hate youuuuuu! You sipek bising I wanna die! F3 kao kao back at you!

Everyone...Happy New Year! ^0^

From yours truly lovely lovely;

p.s. : This post was kept in my draft lol. Now only i'ma publish. Paiseh.

New Year, New Look.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 16:04:00 +0000

:: From this ::

:: To this ::

Finally i changed away my dull blogskin. The previous one was really lame. All white and too plain. Aligned to the left and i dun likey. Now Alice is all environment friendly cause GREEN is the new PINK! lol! Yep...DID you know? From 2010 onwards, you need to bring your own shopping bag on every Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday? Yep...compulsory so its either you don't go shopping on that 3 days or you better prepare an extra bag ;)

Okay, back to my blogskin ... Its fresh and its center alignment. I used other blogskin's basecode and editted mine out. The original one consist of hot pink, black, grey and lime green but i made lime green and grey the main colour. I add in a 'Log In' thingy so that its easier for me - dun have to type blogger.com in the URL there yah know. And i dun wanna link unneccessary sites so some of it i deleted it. :) You link me, i'll link you back. tq.

I made the font bigger and rounder because i got eyesight problem. I find it hard to read small mini fonts. I editted the header to put "Beautiful Illusions" in Rainbow colour but it end up looking like mixed longkang water. Guess my photoshop still failed :( Designing a header is the laziest thing to do ever! One of my friend commented that my previous header is very ugly lo wtf. Changed my twitter update look, changed my feedburner look, changed like 101 things in this blog. Took me days to finish it and this is the best that i can do. I think i will stick to this template until May when i get to learn proper photoshop with html coding soon ;)

And yes, i believe this template is better than before and more matured. Not like a kiddo's blog which is full of colours and pics. This blog posts ain't gonna crap like others did and its gonna carve a history of its own :D

PopTeen

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 13:30:00 +0000

and so... my latest attraction was PopTeen magazine because i love seeing girls in different cool and stylist outfit. The mag taught us how to make up via Japanese style, how to set hair via Japanese style and how to dressed up via Japanese style. So cool that i got soooo into that magazine when i was away to Genting with mah girlfriends; PopTeen was introed by Charis and i keep flip back and forth nonstop! Now i know Charis's secret! Her hair, her sense of fashion and all!

Buying that magazine can be bloodsucking for some people. One book cost RM14. Well, its imported directly from Taiwan though and its no wonder right? I can't find that magazine in normal bookstores specially Popular. So i need to go to one special shop that sells ONLY magazines....IMPORTED one! Mom was with me that time and i knew she would blablablablahhh nonstop at me if she found out that i bought these kinda magazine. Not porn but she always dislike me buying such magazine cause she thinks its uneducational.
Oppsy...no picture. Will upload tomorrow. Gonna spend mah whole day update mah blog.

I dunno why but Mom NEVER praises me pretty/beautiful at all in my whole life! The only thing she praises me is my height! T.T Oh well..... my mom is one in a million.

The year 2009 is about to end in 2 days time. Honestly, i'm not looking forward on what's lining up for me in the year 2010. Its gonna be back on all about studies, hectic life. I promise myself that i'm NOT gonna fail in any single paper and gonna stress myself more for at least 3.0 per subject. Possible if i'm assign to Multimedia courses of course. No go for programming work...Yameru.

So wad i did in the year 2009?
Travel, work, earning extra cash, and enjoying my life with my loved one of course. ;) I'm not a two-timer and probably bound to be one. I'm in an open relationship with Charis and that's a joke yes. lolol. Gotcha!

New resolution will be up next, old resolution - i fulfilled NOT even 50% Gahhhhh!
I'm hopeless.
:(

That's it...tralala~

Something.

noreply@blogger.com (Alice Q. Manuella) — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 12:08:00 +0000

Hint of the day:

GREEN is the new PINK!

Something new is coming up! Just wait and see ;)

p.s. : Keii ah Keii.....why is your blog suddenly become private one??? Changing new layout? Hmmm.....doubting.