Oh there’s something ’bout a man in black,
Makes me want to buy a cadillac,
Throw the top back,
And roll down to Jackson town,
I wanna be there on the stage with you,
You and I could be the next rage to,
Hear the crowd roar,
Make ‘em one more,
I’ll kick the footlights out,

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin’ with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
‘Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you’re gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June,

I wanna hold you baby right or wrong,
Build a world around a country song,
Pray a sweet prayer,
Follow you there,
Down in history,

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin’ with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
‘Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you’re gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June,

Like Johnny and June,
More than life itself,
No-one else,
This here is promise,
They don’t make love like that anymore,
Is that too much to be askin’ for,

I wanna love like Johnny and June,
Rings of fire burnin’ with you,
I wanna walk the line,
Walk the line,
‘Till the end of time,
I wanna love,
Love ya that much,
Cash it all in,
Give it all up,
When you’re gone,
I wanna go too,
Like Johnny and June,

Like Johnny and June,
And when we’re gone,
There’ll be no tears to cry,
Only memories of our lives,
They’ll remember, remember,
A love like that.

Heidi Newfield - “Johnny And June”

I have another blog (FireSafeHouse.com) that I actually do earn some income from. It’s nothing special, it was kinda started as a joke, and I’m actually shocked I have been earning a little bit of cash with it. I call it my “pocket change blog”. I sat down and thought about it and realized that if that one blog worked for I should be able to replicate another one right?

Now with the other previously established blog I have I make anywhere from $40-60 a month with it, put no work into it other than the initial investment of time to set it up. I don’t update, change the layout or anything. The only cost is the domain name and the money it makes from text link ads pays for all of my hosting for all of my sites and all of my sites domain name registrations. Pretty good deal if you ask me. I’m sure if I was to actually put some continual work into it I could make more but I’m satisfied with the results I’m seeing for now.

So after a few hours of messing around with a domain I’d bought ages ago I got my latest little pocket change venture on its feet. The Arizona Blog is basically just a collection of articles on various aspects of Arizona, ranges from travel to real estate. If you have a spare moment check it out, there are actually some really good articles on there

I’ll be using it as a testing ground for Adsense and Text Link Ads and if I can find something out about either that is of any use I’ll gladly pass it along here. But that’s what my latest “fun” is…hope everyone is doing well

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So many people went above and beyond with helping out during the week of the funeral. The response from everyone was overwhelming and I can’t even find the right words to thank everyone. My faith in humanity was really restored throughout this process. In spite of all the negative on this earth there are so many good people out there that really do care. It’s heartening.

Myself and my parents are slowly working our way through all the good deeds, kind words and support and thanking everyone individually. It’s the least we can do. The response to the post I made was incredible and I appreciate everyone who left a comment or prayer. I’ll be working on replying to everyone this coming week as I can.

The Hotness has returned to Kuwait, so I’m alone again. Not really alone, but you know what I mean. There’s less than 100 days until I see him again so that will help out a lot. I have a lot to keep me busy over the next couple months so that should help the time fly.

I still have a brother, he’s just not here right now. I’m glad that where he is now he was welcomed by the many friends and family we’ve lost in the past. It makes me feel better that he’s not up there alone.

To be honest with you all the pragmatic part of me doesn’t entirely believe in heaven or hell. I’m not a person of faith per say…I don’t know if I can explain this without sounding like an asshole or anything so please don’t take offense at any of this, I’m simply trying to work through my own head space. But the hopeful part of me continues to say that there is a heaven and he is there and I will see him again. I hope that the hopeful side is right. It’s the only thing helping me deal with this. If my pragmatic self is true it would kill me to know that the last time I ever saw my brothers face was as he was being taken to be cremated.

It’s all very conflicted in my head and I don’t think it’s going to ever be resolved until I actually leave this world and find out for myself. I hope that over time the ideal of being able to see him again will completely take over, I have to convince myself of that because no matter what anyone says my logic always has the theory shattering “Well that’s nice, but…” waiting in the wings to reason the idea away. I wish I was more emotional and less logical about things. But I guess I have to work with what I’ve got.

Anyway, I’m sitting in my dad’s office down in Sierra Vista waiting for The Hotness to get online so I can have my nightly chat with him. It’s raining which is nice, kind of settling the dust, I’ll sleep good tonight. I should really get onto something else though, so many tasks to attend to and so little time to do it all. Thank yo again to everyone for everything, I don’t even have the words to really express the gratitude so just thank you all.

I’ve spent 20 of my 22 years on this earth with that boy who has been a mix of brother and son to me. I’ve held him, protected him, and loved him more than any person on this earth will ever understand. I have lost half my soul and I can never get it back again. We were a set, a salt and pepper shaker and now all that’s left is me - I hope the world likes pepper because that’s all that they’ll be getting from now on.

I can’t explain the hurt and I don’t ever expect anyone to fully understand what’s in my heart and my mind. Man has not created a word in any language to express the sheer pain and emptiness that has taken permanent residence in my body. I’ve almost lost Sebastien many times over the years and have always managed to find a way to save him. This time I failed and I know it’s not my fault but I still failed him for the final time. I will never be the same and it’s a hell that I will live with every hour of every day of the rest of my life. No one can help me and no one can make it better.

I ask now for prayers for my family and for the girls that were with him when he died. For the people who are wanting to come to the funeral it will be held on Thursday June 19th in Sierra Vista, AZ. If you would like to have all the information, need an address, or need a phone number please email me at sarah.chasse@hotmail.com and I will provide what you need. Do not email me at any other address you may have for me as I’m not home right now and cannot access them to respond.

In lieu of flowers we ask that a donation be made to a memorial account that has been set up for Sebastien, the funds in that account will be donated to the amazing volunteer search and rescue team that recovered my brothers body from the lake. We hope to help them help others that are put in the situation that we have been so violently thrown into. Again, email me at sarah.chasse@hotmail.com to get the information on how to make a contribution.

My brother was a great fisherman and being on the water was his love. I ask from the bottom of my heart that every person that reads this takes a basic water safety class and make sure if you have kids they take one as well. I can only pray that you would equip yourself and the ones you love with the tools to avoid a situation such as this. I would not wish what has happened to my family on my worst enemy and so if you can do nothing else for me just make yourself safe.

I pray for his soul, I know he has found peace and is fishing in the best lake that heaven has to offer. I hope his line stays baited, the water stays calm and the fish are biting.

With my heart and soul,
His Pepper Shaker

Happy Thursday!

The Hotness’s daughter works there and they love her, and they love me so it’s gonna be good. Management has agreed to work with my hectic schedule and even though I’m making only half of what my “real job” pays it’ll be nice to have a few extra dollars every couple weeks.

Mind you, I’ve had to totally re-think my schedule and it’s actually a good thing because now I can shift around projects and family to make all of this a little easier on me. Now, I have yet to fit school into this little clusterfuck I call a life so we’ll see how that turns out, but I think I can swing all of this shit…

I hope.

Anywhoot, enough about my retarded spur of the moment decisions…earn yourself some karma points and free shit by visiting TrueLemon and requesting a free sample of their crystallized lemon substitute. Why you ask? Well for every person that requests a free sample of their goods they send 10 packets of TrueLemon to the troops in Iraq and Afghanistan!

Pretty nice of them eh? I know for a fact those folks drink a LOT of water over there and eventually they’ve got to be sick to death of it’s taste. So go get it here and then pat yourself on the back for brining some lemony goodness to our brave men and women

Much to my chagrin I found that when I entered my IP/Port info from the Live365 site into VirtualDJ’s Broadcast config it would say that it was connected and broadcasting but when I’d try to stream the station Live365 would say that there was no broadcast. *grrr* I tried everything, blocking ports, unblocking ports, telling the ports their mother was a wilder beast and their father smelled of elderberries, etc etc. NOTHING was making it work.

I sat down and had a good long think about it and decided to try ONE last thing before I wrote it off as useless and went slinking back to crappy Winamp. I logged into Live365 and went to My Profile (little grey tabs in the main window). In that window in the third box down was my Live365 Broadcast Format (”Your Broadcast’s Format”).

The format on mine was set at 64kbps/44kHz/stereo mp3PRO. So, I go back to my VirtualDJ and change my bitrate which was set at 96kbps per everyones advice to 64kbps and tried for the last time to broadcast using my shiny new toy…

TOTALLY FREAKIN’ WORKED!! So if you’re having the same problem just check what format your Live365 broadcast is set at then adjust your VirtualDJ bitrate accordingly and give it another try I hope this helps someone - good luck!

Good concert, Pete Noon is the only Hermit left apparently but they all put on a pretty good show. His new band members are MUCH hotter than the last ones I must say

The crowd that turned out for the show was….well…a shit ton of old people. I felt like I was in some sort of a nursing home, then again what should I expect from a band that’s been around since dirt was new?

You can view more fun concert photos on muh flickr by clicking here!

My mom is coming over here for a nice surprise day, I’ll post pictures later…it’s gonna be cute!

“A mother’s love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity. It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.”

– Agatha Christie (1890-1976), English novelist and playwright.

***Update***
So it went great The stuff I had up my sleeve for mom included:

The Gift: Arlo Guthrie’s Alice’s Restaurant CD - This was a special gift, I remember as a kid that mom would play this on her record player and I would just giggle listening to his song “Alice’s Restaurant”. Mom LOVED it…and I’m wicked happy about that If you’ve never heard of this guy ya may wanna check him out, he’s awesome

The Meal: My good buddy Zeb at Papa John’s Pizza hooked me up with this super cute heart shaped pepperoni pizza! Mom didn’t realize it was a heart shape for a bit, so I had to laugh when we sat down and she went “Ohmygawd! It’s heart shaped!” Too funny…

The Dessert: I had received a tasty sounding recipe at work for a Brownie Martini and decided that Mother’s Day would be the best time to try it out. Our stupid ghetto Walmart had other plans though as they didn’t have everything I needed for it so I just improvised and made a nice little turtle brownie ice cream concoction. Of course mom loved that too Below is the recipe if you’d like to give it a shot, it’s yummy

The Brownie Martini
-Martini Glass
-Chocolate Syrup
-Brownie
-French Vanilla Ice Cream
-Kahlua
-Caramel Sauce
-Raspberries
-Whipped Cream

Using the chocolate syrup drizzle it around the inside of a chilled Martini Glass. Set a small square of brownie in the bottom of the glass, and top with a scoop of ice cream. Add a splash or two of Kahlua and some more syrup over the top of the ice cream. Then drizzle a little caramel sauce over and top with raspberries and a dollop of whipped cream. YUMMY!

I hope all the mom’s got spoiled rotten today