Apo Avedissian

A Different Thinker

Apo Avedissian — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 06:14:40 +0000

I think different. I think out of the box. I mean, think about it. Who starts a blog by saying that? Different thinkers, right? Right.

I’ve been a “different thinker” ever since I was born. When I was born, I was washed and cleaned up, and while I was brought into my mother’s arms, crying, I said, “why are hospital walls so depressing, mom? Why not add some colors?”. I continued crying. I don’t think anybody understood me then, because no one paid attention to what I said. Who knows, I might have mumbled it. Ey, I went through a lot of crying. I can’t be blamed for mumbling, can I?

Hey! I finally know why I’m so connected to Stewie from Family Guy. (Except the homosexuality). Hah!

One of the people I began reading about has been Howie Mandel. The host of Deal or No Deal, and a judge on America’s Got Talent. I became more interested in his character when I found out about his OCD “problem” as he calls it. While reading his book, “Here’s the Deal: Don’t Touch Me”, I learned that he has been a “different thinker” as well. However, I learned that in order to please society around him, he chose to change his habits towards the “normal” thinkers. He states that he had been wrong his entire life about the pranks he pulled and the ideas he had. I very much disagree with his new mentality. Just because a tv show gives you a hosting job, you don’t just go all out and tell people you NOW love them and appreciate them and understand how stupid and immature the old-you was.

That being said, you need to understand how I think. I’m very open minded, although I don’t think it’s right for people to call them selves that, only others can judge how open you could be, but I do believe that. I will tell you that you’ve gained weight. I will tell you that you lost weight. I will tell you your new haircut(fellas)/hair style(ladies) doesn’t match you,.. It’s not because I’m a “dickhead”. I am a realist. You need to understand that I don’t say things with bad intentions. Why should I be mad if you come and tell me that I’ve gained or lost weight? After all, I’m the one who doesn’t care about it that let it happen, aren’t I? I mean, I did gain weight. Didn’t I? Or why else would you tell me that? If you put the gym before your school, I might not notice you losing weight, but I will mention you being more in shape; however, at the same time, I will notice how not going to school has affected you, like understanding this long sentence’s meaning ;) But if you skip gym because of school, then I will congratulate you on your Bachelor’s degree, but will mention how “fat” you’ve gotten. See how it works? I don’t understand why it’s such a tabboo.
That being said, you need to understand there are things people don’t control, like sickness. When that comes, it’s a little bit different. That’s when you have no control, and you shouldn’t make fun of it no matter how small the problem is. But weight, looks, and everything of that matter is your choice. I will mention it. If you take it up the ass, it will only show how your self esteem is and how bored you are that you look for anything to get a problem out of. If you laugh it out, and not get hurt, that’s when not only I, but you too will know how high of a self esteem you have. You’ll know how much you appreciate your own mentality. Your brain. Screw the looks, right? Right. Worry when people tell you you’re not successful. Don’t take it up the ass. Learn from it. Appreciate them telling you that. Work it out. Unless, of course, you don’t want to be successful deep inside, then that’s another story, but who, after all, doesn’t want some sort of success in their lives? Depending on the definition of success to you, of course. For one it could be 20 buildings in Las Vegas, to others it could be a son or daughter going to college and having a family. Critisism is the best thing that has ever happened to anyone in this world. I feed off of it. Without it, I can’t function. Period.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Video Games and My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Apo Avedissian — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 18:33:49 +0000

So, um, OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. Sorry. Gotta do the 5′s. (It’s way more complicated than that).

Hi there, welcome back here! One of the things I have to go through as a perfectionist is the fact that I have to do somethings in my own way in order to have a satisfactory outcome for me, thus the reason I can never pass a math test that requires me to show work, not only the answer. I will always get the right answer, but I always get more than half of the points chopped off because I don’t show the way the professor insists I need to show. Enough talking about math. Let’s talk about video games!

One of the first things I do with a video game when I get one is finishing the entire thing off the first day. Not done in a day? No problem. I’m pulling an all-nighter. Why do I do this? Because I want my game to be perfect. I need my game to be perfect. You can click on the thumbnail on your left here of Command & Conquer: Generals match I played recently. This is how I play. If I don’t do this, I can’t finish the other team. “I don’t have the heart to” might sound too innocent to be true. I need that perfect game. I need perfection. Look at the Counter Strike record I attached at the end of this post. I’m “GowWwaD”. Nice record, right? It will take you a couple of years to pull off that high of a kill/death rate (I’ve had a 40-0 strike a couple of times before this server), but the problem is I didn’t have a perfect game here. 100 kills to 3 deaths, and I still felt weird. I still felt bad. Not for the other teams, two from Command & Conquer Generals whom already had gone, but for my game.

Don’t confuse my perfectionism with Symmetry OCD, although I have to admit I do have some symmetry problems I am trying to overcome. I’ve lost a lot because of perfectionism, unlike many people think. I can’t insist how bad it can be at times. I need perfection. Notice how many times I’ve mentioned that? Yes. Because I need my point to be clear. I need my point to be perfect.

If I correct your facebook statuses or comments, excuse me. I am a grammar five-o. I’m sorry for that, but if only there were no “their/they’re/there” in our English, life would’ve been so good. People who don’t know how to use them piss me off. I’m sorry. Again. I don’t judge you. Well, I do.

You won’t notice all of this until the time we work together. Only then you’ll regret doing so, but in the long run, if you keep up and build that standard of yours higher than you started with, and connect it with mine, only then you will not only not-be disappointed, but regret the fact that you regretted the work at first. It’s all about art here. Video games were used here as an example I can show case to you without much explanation. Other things do exist, but they’re much more complex to explain than video games. Plus, who doesn’t like video games? =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Quiet Kid

Apo Avedissian — Fri, 23 Jul 2010 18:45:20 +0000

So, recently, I’ve had to explain my ‘sense of quietness’ to many new people I’ve met, and that usually ends up very clear from my side, but I am pretty sure the ones I meet will take a couple of years of forgetting what I said then one day it just clicks. Do you know the feeling I’m talking about? Well, I am quiet, and I am a kid, thus, a quiet kid. I am also a mind-fuck every now and then.
Hi there, welcome back to the blog =)
You’re probably reading and saying “with all of those 3 paragraph essays, or ‘Apotizers’ of yours, you’re trying to convince me that you’re quiet?”
Yup.
If you’ve met me personally, you’d know that I’m not the type to talk. I do not have conversations with people I don’t know. I think that’s very fake. I will not stand there telling you what accomplishments I’ve made in life while you tell me yours and we try to impress each other while waiting for something or someone so we get it over with. I’m sure you’re familiar with the image I’m talking about. I will literally sit in a room with one person for 24 hours, and not say a single word through out the entire 24 hours, but psycho-analyze the living shit out of the person without them knowing. If I got a penny for every right guess I’d make about the next move the person is going to make, I would.. well, I wouldn’t be sitting here blogging about it. Let’s just keep it at that. A billionaire. Imagine being stuck on an elevator with me. No let’s just hope that doesn’t happen. Mwahahaha.

That being said, I also need to mention that I am not an anti-social. You can try me. But again, I might be in the mood of some mind-fucking, and that might not work out very awkward-free for you.

I think a lot. I will psycho analyze everything and everyone around me. I do not share feelings with people, but enjoy the feeling of realizing my guess about your next move was right. It makes me smile. If you’re standing next to me, and I just smile at something while I’m standing next to you, you should know that something just passed you. I caught something that not a lot of people saw. What ever it is, I caught it, and damn does it feel good every time. I also have to say that I never judge people. This might sound very judgemental to you, but I assure you it is not. I actually do not share or let any of these ideas affect my beliefs of the person until I meet them and things happen from then on, whether its personal or business. Mainly, however, I can very easily predict people’s next steps. Thus the reason of the very small circle of close friends of mine. Okay, this week’s homework is to find out their names one by one. =)

Be careful the next time we have a convo. I might meet you again in 20 years and recite our conversation to you. Don’t be surprised.

To be continued…
Much love,
Apo Avedissian

Tattoos in Society

Apo Avedissian — Thu, 08 Jul 2010 18:33:09 +0000

Hi there, welcome back to Apotize.com, today’s article will be a vlog instead. Tattoos used to be a huge “controversial” topic, sometimes taboo, but recently have become a modern styling way, which I definitely do not agree with. Get your tattoos, be very careful of dirty needles, and take good care of the tattoo spot until it heals. Pick your tattoo after spending weeks analyzing the design and imagining having that on you for the rest of your life. Tattoo removals are very expensive and not accurate, so might as well have a good choice rather than getting one done fast. Don’t rush it. If you don’t like a designer’s design, don’t feel ashamed or scared to ask to change it. The tattoo will be on you for the rest of your life.

Oh, and from personal experience, tattoos are addicting. Believe it or not.

Enjoy =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Hamburger-Diet Officially Over

Apo Avedissian — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 07:21:05 +0000

In-N-Out Burger

I don’t know if you remember, but I do. Uhm uhm. Hi, MY HAMBURGER/SODA DIET from “Hamburgers Killing Me” IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!

Damn. We went to In-N-Out right after my class today, [East Coast, you gotta try this], and got me my two number ones. That’s two double-double combos. And my Dr. Pepper. If you notice, I’ve been talking about “my” burgers and “my” soda. Yes, that’s how bad I missed those things. It took approximately 5 minutes for me to finish the two burgers.

My point of doing this diet was to prove to my self that I can quit my daily habit of years and stop it whenever I want to. I did not plan it. I did not sit down and practice for it. I just decided to cut something I ate at least twice a day for a month, and I did it successfully. Although it was rough, it was done. It might not be rough to you, but think about quitting something you do a lot on daily basis and imagine that being cut. Imagine not driving for a month. Intense ? That’s what the burger and soda diet did to me. This diet made me realize what a strong will power you and I both have. Soda, soda, soda, nothing but crap, but hey, I love soda, and you probably do too. My point is done. Seza Baghdadlian, my partner in crime, thank you for joining the diet program right during the start of it, you gave me support and reminded me on the days I forgot about the diet or tried to drink soda =) Off to enjoy some more soda now. On to the next one ;)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

The World Cup and Fairness

Apo Avedissian — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 06:47:46 +0000

Brazil 3 – 1 Ivory Coast.

One of the most unfair, uneducated referees I’ve ever watched a game being ruled under. Stephane Lannoy, you should be fired.

When Brazil scored a goal with a hand ball, and then Kaka (Brazil) was kicked out because of something he did not do [video attached], you should be fired. You’re not being biased, but you’re officially a failure at your job. Being a referee is something you should not do. FIFA should fire him. Yes, Brazil deserved to win, but that card was unfair, and so was Brazil’s hand-ball goal. I’m a huge Brazil fan, as previously stated, but the truth needs to be told. We can even debate Ivory Coast’s goal, but it was a goal. It did count and it was clear. Kaka, you didn’t deserve the red card, yet again I’m glad you’re out for the next game because you’re not playing for shit. Brazil, keep this up. So far, two wins, and nothing else. I’m loving it.

Kaka gets a red card.

Referee: Stephane LANNOY

Here’s the reason why:

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Cassettes of the Ice Age and the Internet Dinosaurs

Apo Avedissian — Sat, 19 Jun 2010 19:51:18 +0000

Cassettes!! Who remembers those ? Well guess what, I do, and there’s so much to talk about here.

First things first, boom boxes. That cool look of the boom box is enough of a reason for it to be still used in photo shoots with all of those artists. Now that the fun side of the article is done, let’s get into business again.

Cassettes did not have a track list like CDs do. A cassette had only the Play, Stop, Forward, and Rewind buttons, missing the “Skip” button CD players have today. That being said, you had to listen to every track in order to go to the next one, unless you just held that Forward button until the song was over with, and you landed a verse in through the second song, and now you have to rewind.

Did that sound like torture to you, kids? Well guess what, that was one of the reasons artists actually made money during these days. People listened to the album, not to their favorite track 2 and track 10. We listened to an entire album, and that was the experience it self. The album set the mood for you, where the entire album went one way, unlike today’s artists who release an album with 12 tracks, and have three emotional songs, two about their love lives, another three about business, and so on. I can’t blame them though. Today’s media pressures artists to do that in hopes of people liking at least one style and buy the album for that. The 6 minutes tracks are now 2 or 3 minutes long, because the lack of focus from kids that the TV teaches now. Here, we reach to the conclusion why albums don’t sell as much. The Internet has been another factor, don’t get me wrong. One of the biggest factors, as I previously stated actually, is the availability of all of these tracks online. Artists now are forced to give you free content in order to build up your trust in their style. The only reason Lil Wayne sold a million+ in a week was because of the hunger he embedded in people towards his music. Whether or not the million copies sold within the first week was faked, stays with the experts and not my self, for I’m not one in the music industry. But I do know that Lil Wayne used this bad bad things and just flipped it and used it towards his success in a very good way. Support your artists. Listen to their songs. You don’t have to like every song, but it’d be good if you actually played every song and then judged the album after that, not by the two singles you heard.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Apotize Your World

Apo Avedissian — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 02:38:48 +0000

Why do I blog? Because you’re reading. Welcome back to Apotize.com, back to an “Uncategorized” article.

What is Apotize? Apotizing is the act of change towards civilization. No I’m just kidding, I just like to talk a lot. And change society. And teach psychology. And, yeah, I just like to talk a lot.

I actually wrote this article to thank you, all readers, for all of the comments, “likes” and link-sharings. Knowing there are readers is enough of a reason for me to keep writing. I recently made a facebook fan page for Apotize.com, so please check that out =)
I’ve been getting thousands of page views every night I post an article, and it keeps getting higher and higher, so I just wanted to thank who ever has been telling friends, or sharing my links on your facebooks or websites. So, thank you for that. If you’d like to support a little more, you may even suggest 35 friends at a time on facebook. “Suggest to Friends” right under the picture in the fan page, and select 35 people at a time, and suggest them. If you do more than 35 people, chances are it will not go through but tell you it did. You have to do 35, send, then go back and do another 35 (if you wish). Thank you thank you thank you =)

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Album Leaks and Online Downloads

Apo Avedissian — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 06:28:53 +0000

Eminem’s album just got leaked. SURPRISE!
Okay, without circling around this, I just wanted to say that leaking albums is a bullshit, but very effective, strategy to sell.
First of all, why do albums get leaked? Second of all, you, self-righteous fans, tend to download leaked albums, download leaked songs, or even singles, for FREE, and then show support to an artist by complaining about it. Well guess what? You’ve stolen valuable things from the artist you claim to be a fan of. If every fan acted the way you did, then the artist wouldn’t make music anymore.

This artist you’re a fan of, however, knows very well that most of his “fans” download his tracks instead of actually paying for them, so what’s a perfect strategy for him to use this for his promotion matters? CIRCULATION. Yes, he has his team leak an album two weeks before the official release, gets the hype up, then drops the album and the ones who ALREADY were going to pay to get his CD will pay either way, and if the album was good, some of the free downloaders might actually go and buy the album as well.

The artist knows very well that his tracks will be downloaded for free either way, so he uses that for marketing purposes. You play it to your friends at school, your friend has it on his iPod, iPhone, iTouch, iPad (damn, Apple DOES rule the world!), you talk about them in person, and you just give them circulation.

Leaking an album is not an easy process if not done by the artist’s authority, and it’s very easy to detect the one who leaks an album if investigated. Not many people get to the final product. Some make a beat, some help record and master. At the end, not many people will have the final track with them, ONE track, now think about having an entire album, with the front and back covers, and official track list all ready to be downloaded in a zip file for you an hour after eminem.com releases the cover for you. Don’t download it if you’re a true fan. Don’t listen to it. If you do download it and listen to it and not buy the CD, not only is it illegal, it also takes your right of criticizing away. Your 5 minutes spent on the track does not qualify you to criticize the guts out of the artist. You have not paid a cent, so don’t complain.

This particularly gets to me because I understand what an artist goes through to get you that 5 minute long track, all the time he puts in, all the money, and you end up just mis-using it.
No, this is not advertising for Eminem, this is an advertisement for every artist. Support them by helping them make more, not by stealing their work and thinking you’re giving them “credit”. The awards they get don’t put food on their tables, your dollars do.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

World Cup 2010 Posters

Apo Avedissian — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 01:25:38 +0000

Okay so here we go. Got some crazy posters off of ESPN’s marketing campaign. Enjoy =)