Attitudes of sexual integrity! Dedicated to sex addiction recovery.

Episode 70 - What is the full armor of God? And why should I care?

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 16 May 2008 09:26:52 -0700

The bible is centuries old! Is it really a credible book for over coming addiction in this day and age? How do I trust Gods book when Im having a hard enough time trusting God? Or Ive herd this all before, What does it really mean to put on the full armor of God?

Music by fireflight and Curt.

Episode 69 - Preparing the Way for spiritual growth to eliminate pathogenic heart failure!?

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:20:41 -0700

Sexual addiction and the prosperity gospel? What does that mean?
Who am I gonna be? Why am I where I'm at.

Leona lewis - Bleeding love lyrics. My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love.

Shout outs to xxxchurch and higher-calling.com Keep fighting!

Episode 68 - Words that put heart in them! (Part 2)

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 03 May 2008 13:12:02 -0700

Part 2 of Words that put heart in them!
Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step
and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message
version.

Luke 3:16-17 (The Message) But John intervened: "I'm
baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a
mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within
you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean
sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God;
everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."

18-20There was a lot more of
this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The
Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias,
his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this
outrage: He put John in jail.

Episode 67 - (part 1) Words that put heart in them!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 08:52:28 -0700

Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version.

16-17But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean housemake a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."

18-20There was a lot more of thiswords that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

Episode 66 – Victory, Die Hard style!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 15:05:32 -0700

Email response show, lets get more stories of victory! The victory over this addiction (or any other for that matter) has to do with a deep heart level thirst. The question is a thirst for what? The most important step of the 12 steps? Step one you have a problem. Your life has become unmanageable. But how deep does that go? Are we really ever in control really? Why is this world so broken? That is the question, Like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. A listener said to me it seems like this is a thinking disease, I believe there is some truth there. But how deep are our thoughts?

Episode 65 - Visualization, Impulse control - The life giving freedom of self control.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 08:40:35 -0700

Episode 65 - Visualization, Impulse control - The life giving freedom of self control.

Narcissism is not freedom, What does it mean to say no to your self? Repentance is a word a lot of stuffy religious people have sole in order to control people through fear and shame. Real repentance is, in part why your reading this right now. Your looking for change, looking answers, Right? Is something in your behavior controlling you? Your not in control of your own flesh? Not in control of you? If your seeking your are repentant.

Music by Ruth, Against me! and Jonah 33.

Episode 64 - I Still havent found what I'm looking for.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 07:34:56 -0700

Episode 64 -The Church is great at helping to remove stains. Drugs and alcohol addicts are welcomed with open arms. I believe the church has compassion for the hurting hearts of addicts.
But sexuality runs deep, Sexual addiction, sexually compulsive behavior or same sex attraction is deeper then getting out the cleansers out and scrubbing the dirty stains off the surface. What happens when all the getting saved, prayer and all the recovery material does not seem to work?
What do you do when you still havent found what your looking for?

Music by U2, Pillar and This Beautiful Republic.

Episode 63 - Amazing beacuse it is! Right? So why are we faking?

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 08:52:58 -0700

A Talk by Russ Shaw did to a men's group in Everett WA,USA. Addressing Christian sub-culture about getting real. if we believe Grace is Amazing then why are we faking it?
Pride is one of those invisible barriers that blocks you from even asking the question!

Episode 62 - Two Dog Battle Reloaded.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 08:06:33 -0700

Episode 62 - Reloaded the 2 dog story.

The chief was sitting at the edge of the village, obviously deep in thought. He sat there for hours and hours, seemingly unmoving. The tribe was beginning to get worried and restless, but nobody wanted to disturb him. An elder eventually got up his courage and walked over. 'Chief,' he asked, 'what's going on? You look so troubled!' The chief just sat there, and the elder thought that he had not heard. Finally the chief spoke.

And he said:

'You know, it's like there are two dogs fighting inside of me all the time - a dog of glowing light and beauty and a dog of fire. This dog is not glowing with the light but, life choking smoke and consuming fire. He is mean, irritable, and angry. It is driven by fear, and has me look at the world through the lens of shortage, struggle, and judgment. This is how I am when I'm feeling small, anxious, and spiritually disconnected.

The dog Light is guided by love and kindness. This is the part of me that longs to live with purpose and to have an impact on the world. It is my God given soul my authentic self, my essence and my creativity live here, as does my intuition, faith, and sense of connection and compassion.. And the fire and smoke dog is constantly fighting the glowing light dog.'

The elder looked at the chief and said quietly, 'Chief, so which dog wins?' The chief sat quietly for a moment, and then replied: 'the one I feed the most.'

I totally identify with that story and this one. I am this women, If we get honest we all are! The Woman At the well.

Episode 61 on the brink of Choice. No botox for your soul!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sun, 16 Mar 2008 14:29:28 -0700

A letter to Ash. A christian man publicly in the think of the fight!
Ash I'm not some guru dude, I don't have it all together.
You think I never felt like that? Wanting to quit? having QUIT! It's way to hard I can do this. Truth be told you can't! On your own!

God did not do this to You ASH! You and I did it to our selfs God did not give it to us! That is a lie from hell.
The guilt and shame you feel is from the accuser.
Revelation 12:10 Calles the devil the accuser of the brethren accusing them day and night.

Read more at ASI247.org

Episode 60 - Alone in the matrix 3 / Russ's story of alone!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 18:37:05 -0700

This show is expliced! Russ gets deep and does not hold back his heart for this ministry.

Luke 15:1-10 (NIV) The Parable of the Lost Sheep!

1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."

3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

Episode 59 - Alone in the matrix Facing Agent Smith.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 14:45:52 -0700

Agent Smith: "Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet - you are a plague. And we... are the cure."

2 Corinthans 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sinfor us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Jesus became my sin, he became a sex addict a liar an adulterer. He paid the debt. In him Im righteous.

Faith and a deep relationship with Jesus is understanding Love! And what god has already done!

Revelation 12:11 says They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.

Trinity: "The answer is out there, Neo. It's looking for you. And it will find you, if you want it to."

Episode 58 - Alone in the Matrix

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:35:05 -0700

The Matrix and "ALONE" what is this feeling of being trapped inside ones self? Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. How do we get fully Alive and bust out of the matrix?

Episode 57 - Building it to fullness - Email resoponce show.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 10:10:40 -0700

Episode 57 - Building it to fullness - Email resoponce show. Where do we get bricks to build this thing?

Episode 56 - Building? What? How? Straight talk on purity!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 26 Jan 2008 17:12:01 -0700

Episode 56 - Building? What? How? Straight talk on purity!
Building on a landscape what does that mean?

Tips and news on home building

I want to build my house the best cost efficient and environmental friendly way.

I built my home doing all my own labor.

Mortgage-Free!: Radical Strategies for Home Ownership.

Episode 55 - Building your house.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 15:20:58 -0700

Sex addiction recovery... Good News for home bulding!

According to a news release, the women are building the home with the Winchell family as part of Habitat's Women Build program. ...

He immediately made arrangements to visit Williams and promised to begin building her home on January 2. Williams had received $10000 in material from the ...

Nehemiah 4:18 And each of the builders had his sword strapped at his side while he built. The man who sounded the trumpet was beside me.

Lawrence-Douglas County Fire Medical personnel rescued several residents this morning from a burning apartment building. Firefighters were called shortly ...

To be deductible, the insurance must have been paid on home acquisition debt debt incurred to buy, build or substantially improve a principal residence ...

Episode 54 - What do I do with my heart? (part 2)

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 14:38:15 -0700

Episode 54 - What do I do with my heart? (part 2)
Church people many times give good manerd advice say "Just Trust God" Or "Just Repent and you'll be fine!" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN! Another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart?
Over coming sexual addiction is no walk in the park!

Episode 53 - So what do I do with my heart? (Part 1)

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:57:10 -0700

Episode 53 - So another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart? Part 1

Episode 52 - Unberlla, Love relationships and Identity - Email show.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 29 Dec 2007 14:41:18 -0700

Unberlla, Love relationships and Identity - Email show.
Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy!
Email responce show. heres some lyrics for ya!
Rihanna - Unberlla
When the sun shines, well shine together
Told you I'll be here forever. Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
1 John 4:10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. ASI247.org

Episode 51, Part 2 - Love relationships and identity - Conflict

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 10:13:45 -0700

Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy!

Conflict is a state of discord caused by the actual or perceived opposition of needs, values and interests between people.

How dose this even work in the reality of overcoming and the aftermath of sexual addiction?

Ever feel alone. I mean down deep? Alone... like no one really knows you?
Does your spouse know you? down deep does she/he know your deepest desires, dreams and fears?
Does he/she know deep things like the things that made you feel safe or afraid as a child?
First heart felt disappointment? First heart felt sense of belonging for you or him / her?
How about her/him? do you know these deep, heart level things about her?
Have you asked her/him? brought this stuff out?

Russ@asi247.org

Episode 50 - love, relationships and identity ( part 1 )

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 12:29:51 -0700

The same way that people can become addicted to drugs, alcohol or gambling, they can become addicted to sex, anything from Internet sex to obsessive masturbation to affairs. How do we pick up the pieces and repair our relationships when the betrail cuts so deep? How do we connect in the midst of this? How do we discover the one, in the two becomeing one? Who are we? What have WE become?

Episode 49 - I'm not a homophobe not a hater - Lets Yom kippur!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 28 Sep 2007 08:46:26 -0700

Episode 49 -Yom Kippur, two goats what dose that mean? Blood sacriface and scape goat.
What? is Russ Shaw hates homosexuals? Not, sorry. I love all people. Judgeing some with out knowing them.. hummm isn't that what the evangelicals are guilty of? Don't become what you hate. Don't make the scape goat an idol.

Episode 48- Are you so sick of it!? How sick of it are you? How bad do you to get clean!?

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Wed, 12 Sep 2007 21:08:12 -0700

Are you so sick of it!? How sick of it are you? How bad do you to get clean!? How bad to you want freedom? It is possible! You can get free of this. I tell you as a fellow travler through this life. You can Be YOU with out the affliction of sexual sin. Music by Flyleaf.

Episode 47 - Surface Identity, Subconscious mind, Heart and Soul.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Thu, 30 Aug 2007 09:39:45 -0700

Episode 47, Speed Kills! Russ announces the continuation of season one. Russ encourages you to continue to uncover your real Identity. See your self the way God sees you.
The adventure of discovery from Surface Identity to your Subconscious mind (triggers) and ultimately your Heart and Soul.

Episode 46 Email Show

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 07:58:10 -0700

eEmail announcements and email responce Show!

Episode 45 - Addressing Critics ASI

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 09:13:29 -0700

I'm Trouble!? ASI criticism and the analysis and evaluation of ASI. Russ Shaw responds to critics collectively. Music by Kill the Alarm.

ASI End of a Season! conclusion of the first season part 2 of 3

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 08:54:36 -0700

ASI End of a Season! conclusion of the first season part 2 of 3

Email storys an act of war. A courages step in to battle!

Music by kill the alarm! http://killthealarm.com

ASI End of a Season! conclusion of the first season part 1 of 3

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sun, 27 May 2007 17:20:46 -0700

After a long time Gone Russ Is back! Finishing up and tieing uo some lose ends to Close one door and open another! ASI End of a Season! Conclusion of the first season part 1 of 3

Episode 42 - Desperate Sexuality by Dan Hazen

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Thu, 01 Mar 2007 21:07:40 -0700

How does our sexuality show love?
How does our sexuality pull us off track away from love.
Dan talks about the roots of a desperate sexuality that start to pull us toward a prison of our making. Luke 18:9 - 14
Music by BOH Bohmusic.com

Russ Shaw - My Story. the whole story. Monsters in the closet. Rick T. AC3.org

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 00:23:53 -0700

The Monster Under My Bed, Secret Sex Sins. Allen Creek Community Church ac3.org Marysville, WA U.S.A. ~ 360-659-SEEK.

Music by : Jacques Grant -Things_I_Used_To_Do

Episode 40 - the last bomb!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 12 Aug 2006 16:21:43 -0700

Episode 40 - The Last Bomb goes Off! Russ set off the last bomb on July 31, 2006. Love, True love tells the truth and sets priorities. Love first, then the rest of life. I love my wife enough to tell her the full truth. Making myself totally vulnerable.

Episode 39 - Let go of the fire!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Wed, 19 Jul 2006 03:25:12 -0700

Episode 39 - Let go of the fire. Fire of love or fire of anger? Chose the fire of love or fire of judgement? The fire of faith or fire of fear? Rise above physical and emotional adversity.

Episode 38 trouble hook

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Tue, 11 Jul 2006 09:41:04 -0700

Episode 37 4th of July Show!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Tue, 04 Jul 2006 12:58:23 -0700

Short show on the 4th of July. Morning not striking.Choose healing instead of self destruction and new music! with new music!

Episode 36 - ASI Podcast Soup!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Fri, 30 Jun 2006 23:44:37 -0700

Russ responds to some Email and reads some Email. Russ challenges religion and faith with more on vampires and Eli!? If your a judgmental Christian this show my be offensive to you but you still need to hear it.asi247.org

Episode 35 - Russ interviews Larry Fish sexual abuse expert.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 21:44:55 -0700

Nothing can lock a soul up in total hell like isolation like sexual abuse. Russ asks Larry what kind of approaches offenders use to keep victims in the sick cycle abuse. What makes a child become a sex offender? How in this sex saturated culture of 2006 do we protect our kids from childhood sexual abuse?

Episode 34 - Breaking through the walls of shame

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 22:49:35 -0700

Nothing can lock you up in total isolation like shame. Alone in solitary? Locked up in that cell of shame. Russ talks about a whole new level of shame you may or may not have identified. Childhood sexual abuse.

Episode 33 - Jailbreak 2! Email Response show!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 12 Jun 2006 17:50:01 -0700

Feel like youre in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Reach for the courage to fight and dig your way out. Break down the walls that are holding you captive. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. Its a place for punishment.

Episode 32- Jailbreak! Feel like you’re in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake!

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Mon, 05 Jun 2006 08:24:30 -0700

Sex or Porn addiction? Feel like youre in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Lets get our head in breaking free! Is your mind consumed with digging out of this prison? Or are you getting used to the scenery? Are you still saying I need to feel this way I deserve this. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. Its a place for punishment.

Episode 31 - Fight back! Temptation, A call to kill it! Make a deal with the devil.

russ@digitalaudioproject.com (Russ Shaw) — Sat, 27 May 2006 21:15:37 -0700

The devil is no respecter of persons. He laughs, smiling as he's killing You, Your family and your future. Your not totally helpless against the attacks of the enemy. Russ gives you some new strategies to get you up on your feet and back in the fight! Lets start playing offence along with our defense! Let take back some ground in our lives! Pray! connect! Today!