tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782Wed, 11 Sep 2024 14:30:24 +0000http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (TwykoMantis)Blogger75125trueen-usyesAll material and recordings property of Twyko Mediasocial,love,angst,relationships,humor,comedy,commentary,wry,witty,funny,dark,satireRants, jokes, complaints, and otherwise colorful commentary on the sick depraved world in which we live.Polite musings from the psychologically derangedTwykotwykomantis@gmail.comTwykotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-411270239706307456Wed, 15 Jun 2016 17:50:00 +00002016-06-15T10:50:23.434-07:00 I’ve been gone from this place for too long. Hiding from myself and from having to face down and admit things I’d rather keep denying or ignoring. In the interim my father has passed away, my family has splintered, my friends have gone their own ways, and my life despite losing so much has become a bit more fulfilled. I’m in a good place. That’s all I’m saying about myself right now, because I http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2016/06/another-voice-added-to-choir.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-8156304750778941962Tue, 04 Jun 2013 04:55:00 +00002013-06-03T21:55:40.791-07:00 Drain the abscess, ease the swelling Bring the terror back where it belongs Let no man see the folly Of believing that he’s god Let the pressure build within Until the soul is doomed to crack Temper goodness in a furnace Fueled by anger, shame, and misery The essence that remains is little more than ash Serve his head upon a plate, His presence is a cancer It will devour from http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2013/06/definitely-not-suicide-note-or-cry-for.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-6741432737575547654Sun, 18 Nov 2012 08:32:00 +00002012-11-18T00:32:09.415-08:00 It would seem that greed has become the bane of my existence. I’m fundamentally disconnected from whatever impulse it is that perpetually drives the inability for people to be happy with what they have. The desire for more just doesn’t resonate with me. I don’t “want” anything. I’d like more money but only so I can get out of debt and not so I can move to a big house or make my car into some http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/11/too-much-is-never-enough.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-5535101160781060400Sun, 04 Nov 2012 03:27:00 +00002012-11-04T08:27:45.602-08:00 Why is love so complicated? We aspire to it, we covet it, we’re told it’s the ultimate and the pinnacle of human achievement in terms of finding happiness and fulfillment, yet we complicate and taint it in so many ways. If not for the fact that sex feels so damn good and the act itself is not tied directly to the emotional feelings of people having it, the human race would no doubt have died http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/11/a-taste-of-something-sweeter.html1twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-1911809980781397944Tue, 30 Oct 2012 04:28:00 +00002012-10-29T21:28:16.959-07:00 Compelled toward something beautiful Eyeing perfection in simplicity She knows nothing of her beauty A flawless reflection of what she admires, yet fears So wrapped up that vision blurs A vision of completion is all that's seen Silent longing echoes into the ether Yearning for a touch, a chance, a kiss, a word Hold the idea with fevered fingers Hope blooms within every heartbeat http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/10/always-something.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-3113246838222289092Mon, 22 Oct 2012 06:45:00 +00002012-10-21T23:45:04.028-07:00 &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;It’s ten forty at night as I write this and perhaps this piece, more than any other, will serve as a true and unfiltered glimpse into my badly decayed psyche. Fate, has once again conspired against me in a terrible fashion. I am a slave to the circumstances and whims of whatever ungodly power runs this world. She moved on, I still http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/10/close-your-eyes-and-go-there-well-meet.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-5190033572992865251Tue, 25 Sep 2012 03:48:00 +00002012-09-24T20:48:17.912-07:00 If you take a shot and everything about it from the aim, the trajectory, the wind conditions, I mean everything about it is perfect and planned for, and you hit the target with absolution precision, flawless execution but still don’t get the outcome you wanted would you have rather missed? I’m debating that question because a recent series of events is very much like this. I took my shot, I hithttp://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/09/a-thought-problem-of-preference.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-5318103159038327312Mon, 17 Sep 2012 01:41:00 +00002012-09-16T18:41:38.551-07:00 An old friend of mine once told me that the entire purpose of life came down to a simple maxim, “The pursuit of happiness and the avoidance of pain”. At the time, and even now, I find that very trite and basic; almost too simple to even be worthy of debate or consideration. Sadly though, for most that is what life is all about. It’s the rhetoric we use, the platitudes we share, and ideology we http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/09/perhaps-last-dawn.html1twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-228666397959547121Sun, 22 Jul 2012 02:15:00 +00002012-07-21T19:15:04.529-07:00 The scabs have festered too long. Left to rot and heal over, layers of flesh have grown too thick and left them too thick to be remembered. How much sadness have I swallowed without acknowledging? At first guess I’d say close to a decade’s worth of misery has been stuffed away with little more than passing recognition. Too strong for too long. I used to think I was worn out and exhausted from http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/07/the-hardest-truth-to-swallow.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-6598447735471070462Sun, 26 Feb 2012 11:44:00 +00002012-02-26T03:44:17.933-08:00Dear god...how long has it been? This place seems almost foreign, different; like stepping into an alternate plane of existence and struggling to find my footing. A stranger in a strange land, there consistency but I'll be damned if I can find it. Every day it's something new. Some new world threat, some madman in some far off third world country where the light of democracy and patriotism have http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/02/terrible-truth.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-2337696489072854730Wed, 04 Jan 2012 04:58:00 +00002012-01-03T20:58:22.088-08:00 I’ve been gone from here for too long, well gone too long without posting anything of value I mean. I should warn you that the bulk of this is going to be very inflammatory, very objectionable, ridden with profanity and will be almost novel length in its scope. That being said, if you’re still reading, thank you. &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2012/01/embers-of-our-torch-have-not-gone-out.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-6225627944372941653Sat, 31 Dec 2011 19:02:00 +00002011-12-31T11:07:50.323-08:00 So as the final hours of the year tick by, most everyone else is looking forward to the changing of the calendar with rapt anticipation and anxiousness befitting a four year old hopped up on sugar and soda the night before Christmas. It’s the same thing every year, everyone wants to wash away the misery and disappointment of the passing year and welcome with open arms the coming one, http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/12/closing-hours.html2twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-1119442402487593127Thu, 17 Nov 2011 15:43:00 +00002011-11-17T07:43:40.759-08:00 There is something fundamentally obscene about the lengths we're willing to go to protect those we hold in the highest regard. Eventually all human dynamics with absolute investment break down because we have become a society, a culture, a people that are incapable of trusting one another completely. Those of us that can trust, that can love, that can fight to overcome the obstacles we place inhttp://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/11/cost-of-decency.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-7696520777335004136Mon, 07 Nov 2011 01:38:00 +00002011-11-06T17:38:49.924-08:00 The weather turns melancholy and I find my mood seems to be reflection of that. For the first time in a long time I find myself fighting the chill and the bitter sting of the encroaching cold, and I welcome it. There’s something rejuvenating about finding my footing on a path I’ve traversed alone before. I’ve trekked this wood, as it were, and I know the way through the forest. But there’s http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/11/so-much-excess.html1twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-28562120306626095Mon, 19 Sep 2011 05:24:00 +00002011-09-21T13:17:35.519-07:00 In the beginning I was just a shadow In the beginning I was alone In the beginning I was blind, living in a world devoid of light In the beginning there was only night I was shattered, left in pieces And I felt so cold inside Then I called you from the darkness Where I hide I am made of you I am made of you I am made of you I am made of you In the beginning you were revelation A river of http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/09/i-am-made-of-you.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-3466315687369062181Tue, 06 Sep 2011 07:13:00 +00002011-09-06T00:13:20.846-07:00 The winds of fortune do not always blow the same. There are times when fortunes change, when the gods of chance and serendipity conspire in mysterious ways, putting events and actions in motion to bring about a conclusion, an outcome that at the outset seems less likely than one could possibly fathom. The scheme seems to be more than a long shot, it’s an outright impossibility. Like turning airhttp://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/09/changing-of-winds.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-4267354273349778750Thu, 04 Aug 2011 06:11:00 +00002011-08-03T23:11:21.739-07:00Much has been made of my passion my emotional strength and ability but in the end I think it’s really nothing more than a load of bullshit that I told myself and allowed so many others to rattle off because it stroked my ego. Pride is my sin of choice, and while overt praise might be something that makes me uncomfortable, I have no issue or apprehension when it comes to recognizing or http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/08/poets-last-sonnet-of-depth-and-beauty.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-8071597441212509382Mon, 11 Jul 2011 03:37:00 +00002011-07-10T20:37:58.384-07:00So for the past few days I’ve been embroiled in a bit of a flame war with a friend of mine that is very intelligent, albeit not nearly as well versed in the ways of the world as I feel someone of his years (28) should be. Because of this handicap, he, and several other likeminded individuals who suffer from similar prejudices that have arisen from his sheltered history, have taken it upon http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/07/suffer-no-soul-to-be-without-its.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-3056201572873353717Wed, 29 Jun 2011 17:44:00 +00002011-06-29T10:44:56.894-07:00<!--[if gte mso 9]> <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]> Normal 0 false false false EN-US X-NONE X-NONE <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]>http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/clarity-within-maelstrom.html1twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-8531430293991650179Tue, 28 Jun 2011 16:13:00 +00002011-06-28T09:13:53.550-07:00<!--[if gte mso 9]> <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]> Normal 0 false false false EN-US X-NONE X-NONE <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]>http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/just-enough-to-love-you.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-4556259364513570258Tue, 28 Jun 2011 02:51:00 +00002011-06-27T19:51:57.442-07:00So here I sit, having finally acknowledged the full extent of the negative that I was fighting to keep on the fringe. I recognized the power of anger and chose to turn it into something positive, determined not to let it consume or debilitate me.&nbsp; Regrettably, in being so staunch in my resolve, I had allowed a number of things to pass without incident. I’d offer up details but at this point http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/power-of-loveor-huey-lewis-almost-got.html2twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-944873486128190275Wed, 22 Jun 2011 04:27:00 +00002011-06-21T21:28:48.527-07:00Semblance of self, understanding of the id, ego, and super ego; there are many names for knowing the true name of oneself and having accomplished a seemingly impossible task in today’s culture. We are expected to want more, to go beyond, and to crave what we do not have, to never be content, to constantly covet and seek out something just beyond the horizon. While this type of behavior is what http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/dare-to-dwell-where-fear-is-afraid-to.html1twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-7666594337744512066Mon, 20 Jun 2011 04:42:00 +00002011-06-20T07:26:24.970-07:00 The choices we make, the actions we take, the decisions we own, they all come down to our own conviction and the exercising of personal will. But what happens when the thinks we think we know we’re incapable of validating and the consequences of choice are just too far flung to fathom, too daunting to contemplate, and too terrifying to really try to comprehend. For me, I’ve never shown fear, I http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/inner-fire-burns-white-hot.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-6424672801821750650Sun, 19 Jun 2011 19:10:00 +00002011-06-21T21:30:38.321-07:00 Finality, it’s a word with a singular meaning yet somehow I manage to give it nuance. I’m not sure at what point in my life or my existence it was decided that the extraordinary would become the norm but somehow or another I consistently find myself in situations that defy the laws of reality and seem to be more like something out of a movie with clever writing and an all too appreciable http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/good-left-unsaid.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8294644898687381782.post-6196747228366373201Tue, 14 Jun 2011 14:30:00 +00002011-06-15T13:06:08.956-07:00Not sure how Sunday will be known in the annals of my history. Saying it was the end of the world is giving it too much credit, and saying it was the end of something beautiful….well it’s accurate but I don’t want to dwell in imagery, I’ll be doing that enough in my own head. Sad to say that no matter what gets posted here, it’ll be raw truth and but it will be refined. My own proclivities, the http://twykomantis.blogspot.com/2011/06/day-by-day.html0twykomantis@gmail.com (Twyko)