Solitude Slumber

atharu tiada lagi! Pindah URL!!

2016-02-04T10:51:00.002+08:00

(this will be the last post on atharu.blogspot.my)

Hello readership! XD (aku dah lama mau sebut perkataan ni!)

Alright!

Just nak bagi tau yang blog ni dah tukar URL! XD

URL lama: atharu.blogspot.my

URL baru: solslum.blogspot.my

Siapa yang masih lagi datang ke atharu boleh lagi, aku memang sedia backup untuk URL ni. Tapi aku akan bagi promt untuk redirect ke solslum okay! hehe

Okay! Selamat Pagi! Salam Sayang! Singgah lagi!

Kenapa orang mental tak cari doktor?

2016-02-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

Aku dah lama perasan yang mentaliti aku dengan orang lain kadang2 jauh beza nya. Entahlah macamana aku boleh perasan. Aku pun perasan yang sebenarnya aku ni ada penyakit mental. Tapi aku tak pernah jumpa a shrink aka psychologist/psychiatrist/psychotherapist.

Kenapa?

First aku mengaku yang aku sebenarnya tak tahu pun kenapa aku ada pemikiran macam ni(macam apa?). Aku anggap yang inilah sebenarnya personaliti aku. Aku selalu keliru kenapa aku buat atau tak buat something tu.

I guess seorang sahabat aku perasan condition aku yang sebenar, walaupun dia skeptikal dengan idea dia tu. Awalnya aku tak mengaku. Aku kata 'tak lah, mana ada'. Tapi lepas aku ingat balik semua yang aku lalui, aku terkejut. Aku macam terbangun dari mimpi.

Tapi masa tu aku dah lama menyendiri. Aku tak keluar dari rumah walaupun mak bapak aku paksa. Aku jarang bercakap kecuali ditanya. Aku selalu skip lunch. Aku jarang lah keluar dari bilik.

Aku rasa lain bila berjumpa dengan orang lain.

Pernah jugalah aku cuba mention hospital sakit jiwa dengan sister aku, tapi dia tak paham. Banyak kali aku nekad untuk minta tolong, tapi bila siang ja aku tak nak keluar bilik.

Macam sekarang ni, aku dah penat. Aku tak nak hidup aku jadi kosong macam ni. Aku rasa macam mau ja pergi mana-mana hospital minta tolong. Tapi aku tau, pagi esok mesti aku akan rasa takut n gentar.

Sekarang aku kerja di satu company dengan seorang kawan aku. Aku ingat aku boleh lepas dari semua tu kalau aku tukar routine aku dan jumpa orang baru. Tapi mungkin aku silap. Emosi aku dah macam stretched, sebab lama tak di pakai. Cuma tunggu hari saja lagi untuk it properly broken.

Mungkin sebab teman aku yang kurang paham, mungkin juga sebab pertukaran environment yang drastik. Aku tak tahu.

CAUSE# Selamatkan Gajah Afrika!

2016-02-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

I've just joined this campaign at Avaaz pressuring Yahoo to stop supporting the deadly ivory trade. Join me to make this controversy massive and help save elephants from extinction: https://secure.avaaz.org/en/yahoo_ivory_loc_rb/?kjjheeb

It was Japan’s market for hanko, personal seals used to sign contracts, that fueled the ivory trade. For at least a thousand years, they’ve been made in Japan out of a variety of materials. In the early part of the 20th century, most were created from water buffalo horn, wood, or crystal. But as the Japanese economy began to grow in the 1950s, ivory hankos rose in popularity. In 1980, 55 percent of the gross weight of ivory used in Japan went into creating hankos, according to a report by Save the Elephants, a Kenya-based conservation and research organization.
-nationalgeographic

Yahoo! Japan and Rakuten Ichiba, two of Japan’s biggest online retailers, have sold more and more ivory each year. On a single day in August, researchers counted 6,000 ivory products for sale on those two sites alone, valued at $5.1 million. The vast majority were hanko seals. Most of the online dealers fail to comply with even the most basic legal requirements, the report says.
-nationalgeographic

SIGN THE PETITION
To Yahoo! CEO Marissa Mayer, Yahoo! Japan CEO Manabu Miyasaka, and all other companies allowing ivory sales online:
As global citizens, we are appalled that you allow ivory to be sold on your site/platform, fuelling elephant extinction. Major brands like Google and Amazon now responsibly refuse to take part in this bloody trade. We call on you to urgently stop all ivory sales from sites/platforms in Japan and all other markets.

SIGN!

Segmen Bloglist by Cik Miela

2016-02-03T11:39:00.000+08:00

Hai Cik Miela!XD aku nak join segmen ni! walaupun tak dapat topup 10 ringgit pun xpa! Jarang dah aku singgah blog Cik Miela. tapi bukan blog Cik Miela sorang eh. aku kan macam ada 4 musim... musim blogging, musim fotografi, musim ulat buku dan musim tidur.....

Sekarang ni musim blogging...... bulan depan tak tau pulak.

okay! selamat bersegmen semua!

Hadiah:
1 x Toup RM10 + Bloglist 6 bulan
10 x Bloglist 6 bulan
-Segmen Bloglist by Cik Miela

Segmen Bloglist by Nieyl

2016-02-02T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ni lagi aku jumpa Segmen Bloglist! dari Nieyl pula!

Macam menarik blog Nieyl ni.. Banyak fakta dan info kesihatan dan rutin harian. Hehe Aku belum habis browse lagi blog cik Nieyl, biasalah masih ofis hour!!

Hai Niely! Salam perkenalan! Saya join segmen awak kay! ^^

Saya dah baca entri diet malam awak.. :3

Sebelum ni aku jarang makan nasi selepas jam 7 petang. Selalunya aku makan ikan untuk makan malam. Kadang2 aku buat sandwich! Bubur jarang aku masak, sebab tak pandai kot. hehe. Buah pun berebut juga kalau nak makan sebab selalu tingal satu dalam peti ais XD

Okay dah! Nanti bos nampak aku curi tulang ikan!!! XDD

p/s: oh! something is wrong dengan nuffnang nieyl! x leh buka blog! huhu

Uninstall facebook app untuk Android lebih laju

2016-02-02T10:28:00.000+08:00

Aku memang sudah lama buang facebook apps dari tablet aku. Bukan sebab tak suka dengan facebook, tapi sebab performance phone aku yang makin slow semenjak aku install app tu.

Terbukti juga lah dengan apa yang aku sangka selama ni. Facebook app memang makan bateri phone. Lepas uninstall, lebih kurang 20% bateri extra dapat digunakan. Performance apps yang lain pun semakin laju.

So kepada Android user yang bingung2 memikirkan tentang performence phone tu, cuba uninstall facebook app kejap.

Aku selama ni buka facebook guna lappy. Mobile pula aku guna Chrome ja. Tak banyak beza pun rasanya. Chrome pun memang ada features Data Saver jadi tak lah slow sangat facebook mobile ni. Yang cumanya, kalau ada yang subscribe internet plan dengan 'free social' data; ini aku kurang pasti.

Kalau dah uninstall facebook app, tapi masih slow juga.. itu sebab terlampau banyak app running kot! XD Pandai lah bajet dengan phone. Buanglah mana2 yang dah tak perlu tu. Atau buat sementara waktu force stop mana2 yang kurang penting. Cek je dekat Task Manager!

Lets!

Jadilah Macam Cinderella

2016-02-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

Hello Kay! Thanks sebab ajak join segmen awak. XD

Masa kecik-kecik aku selalu terpegun dengan Cinderella. XD Aku berangan nak jadi fairy godmother (yang muda lagi jelita X3). Sebab fairies ada magic! Aku suka element magic dalam kartun2 adaptasi fairy/folk tales yang lama2 ni.

Aku sebenarnya geram bila baca cerita Cinderella. Selalu aku persoalkan kenapa Cinderella tak pernah lari dari rumah beliau, cari kehidupaan baru. Tapi mungkin di zaman Cinderella, standing wanita di dalam komuniti bukan macam sekarang.

Favorite part dalam movie Cinderella adaptasi Disney ialah bila fairy godmother Cinderella memberikan Cinderella baju yang cantik tu. Disitu lah aku terpegun dan terasa dihati untuk menjadi fairies atau ahli magik XD

Favourite part dalam versi Brothers Grimm pula bila burung merpati putih menyanyi pada babak terakhir. Terfikir juga bagaimana burung tu boleh menyanyi, tapi dulu budak lagi manala aku peduli semua tuu.. :3

Aku suka Cinderella yang tabah, compassionate dan rajin bekerja. Aku teringin untuk menjadi seperti Cinderella. Walaupun Cinderella hanya ditemani oleh tikus, anjing, burung dan ternakan beliau yang lain, Cinderella nampak ceria dan happy. Aku pernah terfikir yang Cinderella ni seorang yang lurus bendul, tapi aku rasa aku silap. Cinderella orangnya tidak berdendam, memang baik hati dan setia kepada keluarga beliau.

Jom ramai2 jadi Cinderella(tanpa putera raja)
Segmen: OH CINDERELLA BY KMLIA HSHM

Segmen Pencarian Bloglist 2016 Bersama KIMMIE

2016-02-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

Another segmen~ ^^

Kali ni join segmen pencarian bloglist oleh Kimmie pulak. Agak tenang bila buka blog kimmie ni, macam blog aku jugak laah. Putih ja.. Suka2 XD Menariknya tentang Kimmie ialah Kimmie adalah gegirl ya!!

Hello Kimmie salam perkenalan. Aku ath.. Aku pun perempuan, ramai yang silap panggil aku bro. XD xpa aku pun panggil dorang sis.

Tertarik aku bila ternampak posting2 pantun Kimmie, tapi maaflah masih belum ada masa untuk aku membaca semuanya. ^^

Terasa rindu pula masa menulis sajak zaman sekolah aku dahulu. Aku dah macam lupa macamana nak meluah dalam sajak, padahal dulu bukan main feeling mengarut berangkap-rangkap... XP

Wah! aku baru cek, last aku post under tag karya is oktober 2009 XD LOL
Okay lah hari pun dah lewat ni aku nak rehat jap.. hehe selamat berblog Kimmie and all! Harap Segmen Kimmie dapat banyak sambutan! ^^

Extra:

Lewat,
malam gelap
mataku terang.

Lewat,
siang menjelma
tidurku lena.

Lewat,
hari berganti
aku masih disini.

p/s:kan dah mengarut XD

Sebak Kucing Terbuang

2016-02-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

Orang kita memang sukakan dengan benda2 comel dan berbulu tebal macam kucing. Bila kucing mula beranak pinak, awalnya mereka pun ikut suka. Bila anak kucing baru membesar sedikit, mulalah rasa geli, menyampah dan sebagainaya.

Ingatlah wahai makhluk2 yang berakal, anak2 kucing itu masih lagi bayi. Walaupun mereka membuang sana-sini kita manusia yang ada akal ni masih boleh mengajar anak2 kecil ni. Jangan sebab kerana malas anak2 yang tidak bersalah itu kamu buang merata jalan.

Kenapalah nyawa makhluk itu diperkecilkan. Bagi aku mereka semua tu sama sahaja dengan budak2 terbiar yang tiada tempat tinggal. Hanya sebab najis saja kamu sudah geli, bila kamu yang melahirkan anak tu, anak kamu tu tidak tahu pun dimana tandas.... nak buang juga kah anak tu?

Kalau sudah tak mampu untuk bagi perlindungan dengan kucing2 tu pun, jangan lah sampai buang di tepi jalan. Cari kan lah mereka tempat yang sesuai. Tempat mereka dapat hidup tanpa ada bahaya 24 jam seminggu.

Aku menyampah bila jumpa orang macam ni.

Segmen Pencarian Bloglist 2016 by LE.JH

2016-01-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

Jom join segmen!

Hi Anis salam perkenalan! Aku ath! XD Menarik bila datang ke blog Anis ni. Simple dan smart! Nampaknya Anis suka dengan pop culture korea―or at least dengan drama korea. Ath tak berapa sangat selepas Winter Sonata tamat. XP

Dulu ath suka tengok drama Melayu XD. Macam Gerak Khas tuu XDDD

Drama Jepun pun ada jugak. Tapi yang paling ath suka tengok drama dari barat. eg: Roswell, X-Files, Kyle XY, Merlin dll. Haha

Sekarang ath jarang tengok drama. Sebab takda tv dan unifi! ^^ Internet coverage dekat rumah pun sangat poor jadi streaming pun tak sedap.

Menarik IG Shop Anis & siblings. Ath dah follow. Ath paling suka tengok barang handmade. Semua tu Anis buat sendiri ka?

A photo posted by HAMABEADS & INSTAX ACCESORIES (@hamabeadsstuff) on Dec 23, 2015 at 4:59am PST

Burung Hantu always comel!! XD

Okay dah! Selamat berblog Anis. XP

Clearance Sales! Discount 50%

2016-01-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

Kepda sesiapa yang mahukan baju muslimah yang cantik2 trendy dan bergaya macam ni, singgah la ke sweetmuslimah!

Yang diatas ni adalah dari jenama MUTIF. Harga sebenar RM119.00. Selepas diskaun jadi RM59.00 sahaja. Kalau suka cepat2 lah beli dari sweetmuslimah. Warna yang tinggal ada Merah Hati dan Abu Sedang sahaja.

Aku suka design yang dekat atas ni. Simple dan kemas, tapi masih nampak trendy! Warna yang ada hanya warna Ungu. Siapa yang minat boleh la beli. Harga RM59.00 selepas diskaun.

Yang ni dah sold out kot....... :|

Okay dah! Sesiapa yang suka baju muslimah yang sweet2 macam ni boleh la order dekat sweetmuslimah. Aku suka nampak jubah2 dari sweetmuslimah ni. Very fashionable. Selamat membeli belah!

Pencarian Mega Bloglist Aisyhah Nyais

2016-01-29T13:28:00.000+08:00

Aku xda kawan nak tag.. macamana? T^T

Aku memang dah lama follow Blog Aisyah Nyais ni.. comel lah, tak sanggup kot tinggal tanpa tekan button follow tuu hehe XP

Salam Jumaat semua! Mari mulakan minggu baharu dengan nafas baru! Not dengan smoke, not even vape... I don't mind breath spray but I absolutely think mouth wash is so much easier and definitely cleaner....

I am rambling.

Misi aku sekarang hendak mencari landing page untuk satu website corporate. Mahal sunguh template2 yang dijual dekat http://themeforest.net/ ni. Tapi tak apa, asalkan landing page kemas dan friendly. ^^ Nak design sendiri, ilmu dihati pula yang tak mencukupi. huhu

Blogwalker Nak URL Blog

2016-01-27T11:19:00.000+08:00

Aku decide tuk join segmen blogwalking kak mia. Agak ramai juga blogger yang join. Aku just harap that aku dapat lah blogwalking ke semua blog-blog yang ada dalam list dalam masa 2 bulan ni.

Bukan main busy sunguh aku sekarang ni. Kalau dulu aku just stay indoor, specifically dalam bilik buat sarang. Sekarang pagi petang aku menghadap laptop, huruf dan number. Jangan jadi juling sudah.

Kepada semua yang berjalan jauh dari mialiana.com selamat datang! Salam perkenalan! Nama aku ath! Aku orang pulau! Walaupun 'aku' sound macam kasar, aku tak gigit orang pun! Jumpa lagi! XD

By the way, aku ada nak share satu event ni oleh lynk.my! Aku tak da masuk group2 blogger ni, kalau ada pun dah disband :( Sesiapa yang ada tu boleh laaa... Kalau tak ada juga, join berdua pun boleh kot? XD Share jangan tak share!

X boleh nak tag? PM je :D
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Sincerity always shows

2016-01-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

~۰~

And so does insincerity.

~۰~

I've always thought that I'm sincere in every things that I've done. Even if somehow I felt forced to do things―that eventually do good for someone, I will try to convince myself that whatever I did weren't that bad and believe that it helps somehow.

I used to do things that others told me to, I used to say 'yes' for every of their requests, I used to try my hardest to help people―even strangers. I don't like seeing anyone hopelessly looking for their missing precious possession or lost in a midst of crowds or drowning in a sea of emotions.

~۰~

I thought that I could feel one's silent cries for help. Even if I often did not respond to them because I myself have no way of knowing how. But I always thought that doing a small things that one would take for granted would help the least in their crisis.

But when I do these things, people often didn't see it and I'd never mention it. It will never be listed in their book of gratitude. And that is fine, because my conscious know what I have done for them. Unfortunately, some would only see what I have not done to make it better and demanded answer as to why have I not?

I would not answer them. I can't, because there's no true answer to that.

~۰~

I can fell it in my bones when I'm reluctant to do others bidding. It's not often that I feel that way but I'm only a human after all. I'll try to comfort myself and do it regardless, but when it didn't do much to my actions, I rather not do it at all.

Everything feels different. There's no rush in my blood. No sense of satisfaction in completing the task. My face is gloomy and its ugly! It shows. It shows. I always wonder how the people find my help. Will it actually be helpful? Or am I just being dumb and hurtful?

So I experience it myself. I found that I rather not accept their help, because I'm feeling like a burden. I would wait until they break it that 'no' they don't like it. But when that never came and they try too hard and subtly undo it, I feel like breaking.

~۰~

I can't really say that I'm sorry, because I didn't make their decision. In either situation.

~۰~

Giveaway Cash RM500 Jan 2016 by Emas Putih

2016-01-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

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Hello.

2016-01-16T16:37:00.000+08:00

I've done it again. Gone missing for months with no news or whatever. I've gone under again for some few days in between my last few updates. I tried to drive those negatives thoughts away, I did. But nothing really can be done if I insist on staying home attending to my cats and chickens and vegetables. I had almost to none of conversation with strangers then, now though...

I've wanted to do so much back at my birth town. There is so much, so much of things that people either forget or don't know about what is it that makes the island so special for it's people. But what I have in enthusiasm, I've happen to be lacking of spirits instead. It was a depressing thing, that. I've thought of meeting new people to get me going with the project, but somehow that terrifies me greatly.

During the depression cycle, a friend of mine contact me and offer a job, pretty faraway from my hometown. It wasn't the first time that she offered, although I declined her previous offers and since I'm in the middle of breaking the cycle, it didn't take long for me to accept it. It is something new after all, working, that is.

So before the new year starts, I pack my bag and left my home again. I said goodbye to my cats and fishes and chickens and greens. I'd hope that this job offer will take my mind off of my negative style of thinking, and take a bit of it out of me somehow.

Here I am, almost a month working for the small and expanding company, wishing for the best for myself and for those around and far away from me. I've meet new friends and strangers. All different in someway, but I'd live through somehow.

I'd like to think that I'm getting better, but I can't say that I'm perfectly alright ever since I move out from my home. I'd shutdown for a few moment for some day, some was longer than a moment. But I wasn't living in a trance-like anymore, so that is somewhat an improvement of my quality of life.

RandomQ: What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

2015-10-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

I wanted to update solslum but lack with anything to share due to my current situation. So I went to look for some random question.

I'm sure that everyone loves to eat ice cream. Even if some people often refuse to eat such cold sweet, they can't deny that ice cream can make their heart feels greatly fuzzy.

When I was little, I remember demanding a small box of Milo flavored ice cream every time my mother bring me along to grocery shopping. But as time went by, that particular brand got a little more and more expensive. That probably have something to do with the economy at that time, but I've learned to not demand such treat so regularly.

Still, you can't deny the existence of that sweet tooth cavity named ice cream! Every once in a while my father will brought home a larger box of it. Often it was vanilla and/or chocolate flavored, but as we got older Mint is the new family-favorite ice cream flavor!

When I was still in the secondary school, I was introduced to the vendor they called Koperasi. They start selling ice cream at some point and my favorite ice cream to buy for the rest of my day in the school was the choco tip! A chocolate flavored ice cream, it was cheaper than most of the stuff they're selling and I just can't pass it by.

I come to realize that we haven't eaten any mint flavored ice cream in the recent months. Probably because we do not eat much ice cream anymore or the Mint stock is getting fewer in this part of the country.

I always thought that whoever invented ice cream probably lived in an iced land and accidentally spill a very sweet liquid on it, then ate it—for whatever reason—and found that it actually taste quite good. They just need to add a little cream on the ice. Seems legit. Ha!

So what is your favorite ice cream flavor?

Good day, thanks for reading!

Save Online Files to Cloud Storage

2015-10-07T11:40:00.000+08:00

I don't know how often Malaysian make use of cloud storage. Honestly, I only use it for backing up documents and sometimes pictures. Since, I don't have unlimited internet access here, it seems ridiculous to use cloud storage, because you know it can be expensive!

I use to—and probably still—have a dilemma sometimes, whether to download a certain file from the web or simply bookmark it. Usually I ended up bookmarking, which resulting a thick book with lots and lots of marks because I also happen to love bookmarking interesting articles.

So I came up with a thought to virtually download the files to the dusty cloud storage of mine. It wont be forever that the internet access to be unlimited, that means in a matter of time, I'll be able to use cloud storage too.

I use http://ballloon.com/ to help me with this.

It's a pretty simple web app, you just have to sign in using google account, and then it'll give you options for the destination you prefer.

It's a nice way to save certain large files without having to download it locally with no bandwidth use. Then you can always browse the storage to download the file when needed. Wow! This is a very helpful web app for me.

itch

2015-10-04T10:34:00.000+08:00

I've been itching to do something for weeks now. To make it worst is that I don't even realize what exactly is that 'something'. Now I know, that I just have to write and update solslum.

I'm very aware by now that I can't update the blog constantly unless I have extra-extra free time for the day. Just like what happen all through the year, I can't seem to update this blog if I had something else to do.

I felt disconnected sometimes. As if I don't have anything to say when in reality I should be having alot to say.

Although I'm pretty certain that writing is not the only thing that itching me from inside out. I can't seem to process anything at the moment. Everything I do didn't give me any contentment.

It's one of the thing that I loathe very much. I practically do not feel any self-satisfaction at the moment but still itching to do something.

This is the start of another cycle of depression. Though I have the very mean to break it before it becomes serious. I'm planning to do alot of thing this week, even though it does not bring me out of the house much, but still, doing anything is better than staying on bed.

I've learned that I can fight depression by being animated and be optimistic, or do anything that I supposedly love. Even if I'm feeling worthless all the time, but I should keep doing it and be glad. It's not easy, but it might help sometime.

Full House

2015-09-06T20:46:00.000+08:00

I havent got time to update my blog yesterday. Not that I update solslum much these days anyway. My house is currently full at the moment.

My sister cameback from N9 to rest after birthing her 3rd child. She insist to come home here to my mother, rather than making our mother travel to N9. My cousin will also be staying here tonight, they are bringing along the nephew and neices! Thats 5 kids in one time. Include me it will be 6!

We havent got this many kids at home for a while now. With the exception of the kitties, even though kitties can destroy the place like no kids can.

I also starting to be active again in my deviantart. But that a slow process. I have been wanting to write my reviews on one of my favorite book. Eon. But I think I need to read that again before writing the full review. 2nd read will be awesome because the book is worth it! The problem is I dont know when I'm gonna start reading. I havent been reading books for weeks now, probably months.

This probably means that I'm out of my depressive mind, and I'm liking it. But I cant help to miss reading. I feel like I dont have enough time to live this life, because theres so many things that I wanna do. I just hope this doesnt end so quickly.

Thanks for reading.

its blogspot.my!

2015-09-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

Few weeks ago, I've tried a lot of country code top level domains like .co.uk, .bg, .fr, .sy including our country code domain .my. I am very sure that .my does exist! I just forgotten to write about it. So now I'm writing.

I've realize that now, .com is replace to our ccTLD .my automatically when loading. That is new. Though it's only happen to .com and not other ccTLD. Like if I use atharu.blogspot.co.uk, I will be accessing my blog through UK domain instead.

Now, all Malaysian blogger, that still use .blogspot sub-domain can introduce their blogs as .blogspot.my!

I use to—and probably still—prefer to use google.com search engine rather that google.com.my, but that because I often search something that need to be search internationally. You might not realize it, but sometimes the search result is different from each other. Even though its the same search engine.

I strongly disapprove with the "Google's New Logo". I don't like it. I was very startled to even see the icon . It don't feel like Google at all. I don't like the block lettering and serif is practically Google's image but now it's not anymore. I want serif back in the image!

Cats

2015-09-03T16:12:00.000+08:00

Cats are hunters by nature. Even your scaredy house cat is a hunter. They often sleep lazily in the morning until in the mid afternoon but then wake up and bring forth destruction to the home decor until they fell back to sleep again.

We used to have 20 cats at one time. I have no clue how we feed that much of meoutwh . More of them was stray cats. We don't often lock them up, because I don't believe that cats should be lock up. I called it a cruel way to house a cat. Unless of course if we are leaving the town and have to house the cat at relatives home.

I used to believe that you shouldn't take a photograph of your cats, because it will die. That's why there is not really much of cats photo from long ago. Now though, the memory card is full with cats images.

Our house is having less and less of parasite like cockroach and rats. Because those preys are the main toys for our house cats. They are ruthless! They like to play with their prey, only few would try to eat them. Often I found dead things laying on the ground somewhere..

I used to play with the shy Millipede, but that insect could barely crawl in the house now, it will already turn onto a kick ball by these fluff monster.

Cats are worse than babies. But they're still fluffy and adorable. unfair.

Mail2Blogger

2015-09-02T09:05:00.000+08:00

Test mail. Test mail. One. Two. Three.

Okay I've always wanted to try this mail2blogger thing but never did. So this is probably my first post from mail2blogger. This isn't that different than using blogger dashbord itself though.

Mail2Blogger feature has been there for so long. But since I never had a full time internet access through my phone, I don't really have the need to post it from my mail.

It's a bit easier to write using email application. That is depends on your app though. I'm currently using the native email app for my samsung tab. It don't have rich text editor-which means that it's boring-but who care about rich text huh? And I haven't got any idea how to put images in this email. I probably can't anyway.

It is easier because I don't have to wait for blogger to load, since it blog post editor isnt really a light script. I often don't post anything through my phone to any of my blogs. Only when in time of desperation! But if I do it this way-using mail2blogger-I might continue to do it like this. Well that is a big MAYBE.

To use this feature go to your blog Settings > Mobile and email > Email > Fill in the secret word for your email setting. You will be sending to this email. Start sending your email entry!

That is all. Thank you. Good day.

Sing!

2015-09-01T11:29:00.000+08:00

I don't have that lovely/sweet/melodic voice but I like to sing & karaoke. I use to fill up my youtube channel with my horrid voice. Usually singing Japanese songs.

We don't have karaoke setup at home anymore, but we still sing without a functioning microphone. 'We' meant me and my sister. The big old-time speaker had turned into a home deco now.

When I was still studying, my classmates used to brought me along to the k-box. I never felt sorry for them, even if I sound horrid to them, no matter.

Theres alot of karaoke places here in Labuan, but there's also pubs and clubs. I often don't know which is what. So I rather not go to any of them. That's why I only karaoke at home, in these four walls of my room.

My neighbor might complain inwardly. Haha. But it's better now that I can't use the mic and the loud speaker.

This is my reason for not updating solslum for some time now, other than preparing for the convocation. I've been singing on Sing! for days. Haha. It's a good place/way to scream your throat out.

If you ever wanted to listen to my voice come and see me: http://www.smule.com/athRaz

Here is my favorite pick for karaoke-ing since forever. Haha. Beware Don't Put Your Volume Up Too Much!

I just grad.....

2015-08-28T12:52:00.000+08:00

So I just went back to poli to take that paper with 'Diploma' written on it! It was exhausting! Mukah is a far reach from Labuan..... Even though it's like 500km from here, more or less. I didn't want to go at first, but my family insist to go. I already said that the drive is pretty long and there's nothing in Mukah to see. I even offer to go alone... You know.. cause pictures can be taken at another time and studio...

The flight to Mukah are limited and expensive, and there isn't really a direct route to Mukah from Labuan. We have to come through Miri first.. But since my father is never wanting to board a plane, a bus it is..

So we depart 3 days earlier from Labuan. Leaving the chickens, cats, and fishes to our neighbor. We stop at Brunei a few hour and took a bus to Miri. We arrived at Pujut Corner, and my father was very startled to see the Boulevard town. Well, Miri have a lot of Chinese resident, it isn't really a big of deal to me. The next day we took an early bus to Mukah. That was 12 hour drive in total. My sister face is plastered with disappointment. She ask me where the buildings are.

Hey, it's not my fault, I've already warn them!

The next day after we arrived at Mukah, it is the convocation rehearsal. In my opinion, it didn't went so well. It don't feel like a rehearsal at all, the briefing are insufficient. I had to take the robe in the evening. And wait a few hour for another agenda. I suppose to take a medal that afternoon. It was okay, I guess... But I think they forgot to include my name in the screen. It was disheartening.

The actual day was very embarrassing. Graduate are in disorder. Some were even late, but not so much. Some forgot to bring their medals, but that because they didn't inform us as soon as possible after the previous event. That's why I said that the briefing were insufficient. The briefing was practically our guidebook read aloud. There's no such thing like informing our assembling time or what to bring. But of course one must always comes in early.

They announce it suddenly that morning(at 7.40) that the march in will start at 7.45, hey even I don't know that, because my guidebook tell me that we supposed to march in at 8.00. And what with the timing? If they wanted us to march 15 minutes earlier, they should've told us yesterday OR inform us earlier than 7.40!

So we march...... But the parents are still outside of the freaking hall! WTH!(Wow That Hilarious!) So we march back to the assembly point. After the parents are all in. We march in and took a seat.. and waited...... I sit in the front row—because of the medal—in front of us is the VIP seat. It was still early in the morning and not all of us had breakfast—because of the sudden change in timing—. At least they could pass a bottle of water or something. Even the parents are thirsty! Some are in need to use the toilets. But we sit like the obedient Children we are. So a person decide that no~~ She must go the the toilet!! That was after sat waiting for more or less than half an hour. She was stop on her way out because we were supposed to strip off the robe first... oookaay.

More people went off to the toilet after that. Hey, no one was really there to watch over us—or at least ask is there's anything wrong—in the first 30 minutes after we march in. So we didn't know that maybe we should go to the toilet earlier! After we waited for another long minutes the VVIP finally walks in. The ceremony went pretty quick after that. I got to go to the stage twice! Trice if include the other day. We'll I think that makes my parents somewhat happy. The list are short for my semester, with only 4 graduate getting the awards and 2 from the next semester. Oh it's getting short! But that about to change.. I think. Because the place is being pick out by more students nowadays.

It wasn't exactly the worst Convocation in PMU history ever, but it wasn't really pleasant if remembered all the way. I know official ceremony protocol, and I have no problem to follow it. But the host—and their attitude—was just unpleasant. I don't like it. It was exhausting rather than pleasing. I don't think that the previous convo was this messy.. Sure the LCD projector was broken in the early morning, but that was fixed by the crew pretty fast. (and to think that I was the one who turn that projector off the night before... I'm pretty lucky to check the projector first thing in the morning! I'm only a camerawomen...)

My day was pack in those 2 days. We had dinner for the alumni, the night before the convocation. And it was... I don't even know... I don't think its even worth mentioning......

I DON'T EVEN HAD A TIME TO GET MY BLACK GOLDFISH!

Like seriously, I went there to Mukah, sleep, wake up, attend rehearsal, rent the robe, take the medal, shop for my foster parents, dinner with the alumni, sleep, wake up, sit for 3+ hour, get an empty folder, sit for another 3+ hour, get another empty folder, took pictures, wait for the studio pictures, return the robe, get my DIPLOMA..... then I went to Igan to my foster family, an hour drive from town. The next day we went back to Miri to Brunei and then to Labuan. One of my chicken is gone. =(

Rants end-

Congrats me! I'm very proud to accept the Diploma in IT(Rangkaian), Pingat Ketua Jabatan & Anugerah Kecemerlangan Akademik & Kokurikulum JTMK!