Running in God's Hands

Actions Speak Louder

2012-02-04T14:41:00.001-05:00

If you go to the very bottom of my Photo Gallery library, you will see a few black and white photos of a very short time when my dad’s house was clean. One of them is a picture of a script my dad was practicing for kid’s service, and in big print in the middle of the page was the following phrase:

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS

I don’t know if my dad would have gone on to explain to several elementary children the meaning of that phrase, but I know that it meant a lot to me (hence me setting it up for a photo). You can say all that you want, but unless you do something about the things that trouble you, nothing will ever be accomplished. Conviction means more than speaking against the things that you don’t agree with, but becoming an opposing force to that thing.

A fight broke out right next to me at my school on Friday, and the majority of the day was spent with people complaining about how horrible the conditions of this school are and how stupid people can be. I have a great amount of respect for my Spanish teacher, who mentioned that while there are a lot of problems, it is pathetic and outrageous that the senior class is doing nothing but complaining about other people.

When I Hear God’s Voice: Amidst Destruction

2012-01-27T22:22:00.001-05:00

In government class, we have been watching a video for a couple of days about the Constitutional Convention in which the constitution was built. In it was a massive amount of arguing over one tiny concept: How much voting power would each state hold? For obvious reasons, small states wanted one vote per state and larger states wanted the number of votes to be determined by population. This argument took place for several weeks, nearly daily (I would assume), and no consensus could be reached. All that happened were large arguments causing the convention to go around in circles, making very little progress. It took a long while for a far-from-unanimous vote to be made on the system we have today—a system that has lasted for more than 200 years and, despite corruption, economic downfall, and circumstances far from predictable at that time, is still strong and at this point has next to no opposition.

Earlier, I’d posted on how things on my dad’s side of the family were falling apart. I’ve done a lot of thinking since all of this started, and I think I’m done pitying and blaming myself because getting me a car and insurance was one of the bigger sparks of this engulfing fire. Today, I broke. I talked to my dad and my sister did too. I can at least say that we tried to. It was hard for any three of us to come up with the words we needed to say, and I don’t think my dad fully understood us nor am I sure that we fully understood him. Like the constitutional convention, these past few weeks have have seemingly been making no progress. I still can’t find the words to describe what exactly is going on at dad’s, and this is something that I need to think and journal about on my own, but it is very obvious that there is a lot of stuff that needs to be dealt with, and no matter how I think of it, I can imagine it not being a long, painful, drawn out process and, God willing, a healing of the same sort.

Entitlement

2012-01-26T15:00:00.001-05:00

Today, school is closed, and I’ve somewhat reached an epiphany.

I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it on the blog or not, but I have a huge problem with my priorities conflicting with each other. I want to be someone who can go through a lot to achieve a goal, and stays calm even when pushed to the very edge. (The fact that I’m NOT this probably shows my lack of faith in God.) However, I also don’t want to be pushed to the edge to the point where I don’t appreciate what God has blessed me with. These weird emotions have led to me not making the wisest decisions—for example, I just beat Portal: Prelude, but it cost me a huge chunk of my day, which I could be using to read the Bible, catch up on homework (or even get ahead), or blog.

I think part of this mess is the fact that I feel a large sense of entitlement. That’s probably where many of the major problems with my generation come from. I feel entitled to a “good” life, and if I don’t get over expecting so much of life and God, I’m going to end up in a world of hurt.

Falling Apart

2012-01-22T22:37:00.001-05:00

If there was one thing I didn't know how to invest very well, I admit that it would be my time. I've gotten nothing done this weekend, even in the few hours I had to myself.

Today, we went over to my grandma's to look at my car, and we ended up talking about my dad's side of the family. Usually, those kinds of conversations make me uncomfortable, but I had a lot to say on this topic. The only time I was uncomfortable was when the word "worthless" was used in reference to someone there. It's falling apart. I don't want to go into much detail, but I see everything working together worse than the nation's economy—which makes sense because we need people to actually contribute to it for it to thrive.

I'm at fault, too, mostly because I'm playing no part. I think and hope God can do great things with this. All I know is I'm not taking as much action for broken lives and relationships as I need to be.

The Bread of Man Gone Stale

2012-01-20T06:49:00.001-05:00

I realize it’s ironic that I’m about to write about coffee considering the fact that I am reading the Daily Grind, but I want to talk about coffee nonetheless. For Christmas this year, my mom got a Keurig coffee maker in which you make whole cups of coffee by filling a container with water, putting a premade little cup in the cup holder, and pressing a button. You can have a cup of coffee within two minutes by just putting a cup in and pressing a button. (My sister’s boyfriend also has one at his house and probably would like me to advise you that you still have to add the sugar and creamer.)

The very first morning we were going back to school from Christmas break, I signed a mental pact with myself stating that I would limit the number of days I would use it to make a cup of coffee and keep me awake. Beforehand, I decided that I would not rely to heavily on artificial means to keep me awake. Today? Today is just one of those days where I need to make myself a cup of coffee.

Killing the Internet vs. Killing Christ

2012-01-19T21:19:00.001-05:00

It’s possible that I shouldn’t be blogging right now. I’ve haven’t slept well all week and I still have a project to finish. But I hate having thoughts and not being able to write them down.

It’s rather ironic, though. I spend more time on the internet than I do with God—and it’s probably more important to me that they’re killing the internet with SOPA and PIPA than it is that they have killed Christ and, no matter what, I can live life to the fullest with that.

A Spiritual Journey

2012-01-19T06:33:00.001-05:00

A spiritual journey—man, such an amazing thing to go through.

I haven't blogged in a while simply because I have lost my touch, much like I lose my touch for searching for Jesus. But the other day, I found a book that I got for Christmas LAST year and barely touched. The One Year Daily Grind by Sarah Arthur. I'm not even to January 19 and I can tell this book is going to change my life. I've decided to read from January 1 (where Arthur started the book) and catch up. It's taken me 2 days to read far-less-than-a-page passages, if that tells you anything about my spiritual life right now. But, as I told myself about blogging this morning, "I can do this. I can do this. I can do this." And I can do this, just as the famous verse says. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13 NLT)

I'm way behind on a lot, and I hate that I feel that way about my spiritual journey just as well. But the truth is that I just keep losing track of my time, and I think that's because I try to manage my time by myself.

Last night, I prayed to God while audiojournaling because I wasn't sure how it was possible for me to go through all of this stressful schooling, and God led me to the realization that in order for me to learn to be the person that finds peace in Christ and boldly but peacefully spreads it to others, I'm gonna need to go through this.

Untitled Hiatus

2011-09-06T17:44:00.001-04:00

I know that I randomly stopped posting, and it all comes from the lack of balance of things in my life. But I have to be honest and say that this past weekend was probably one of the worst weekends of my life and will probably be bothering me for a while.
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Pokagon Trip 1

2011-08-17T19:43:00.002-04:00

So, I didn't quite say as much as I'd originally planned on doing yesterday on this blog, but I can still do so.

One of the first things we did was go to a nearby Target with a Starbucks in it, and I used a gift card I had won a while back to get starbucks for my family. Can I just say that if I could recommend the Java Chip Frappe to anyone, it would be...anyone. That may be the best thing I've ever gotten from a coffee shop (although, I have to admit that I rarely ever go to coffee shops).

After that, we drove for a while because our part of town was becoming rather busy, and we went to a Kroger and got some snacks and such. After that, we headed straight to Pokagon State Park. The car ride was not boring, either. It was fun just spending time with my family for one thing. We also saw some interesting things, such as a huge truck pulling just a small scooter.
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Life: The Only Time I Recommend a Retaliation Smack on the Face

2011-08-16T19:38:00.001-04:00

I’ve mentioned the game before on this blog, but Portal 2 is by far one of the best games I have ever played, mostly because it is one of the funniest games I have ever played. One of the most famous quotes from the game is Cave Johnson’s “When Life Gives You Lemons” rant, as seen in this video (note: video contains mildly vulgar language):

That’s right—when life gives you lemons, don’t make lemonade. Make life take the lemons back. And, as I stated in my previous blog post, the lemons life is giving me are lack of motivation. You know what, life? You’re going to rue the day you thought you could give me lemons. I’m the man who’s gonna burn your house down. With the lemons.

Knowing Motivation When it Slaps You in the Face

2011-08-15T21:29:00.003-04:00

I can honestly say that this has been a good summer. I’ve really enjoyed the days where I could just sit back and do whatever I wanted, days where I could have an amazing time, and days like today, where I could just say “Today is a nice day to spend quality time with my family via school shopping and other various—WHOA WAIT WHAT? SCHOOL SHOPPING? SUMMER IS OVER? THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING!” No really. It’s hit me like the smack on the desk you get as you start to dose of in the middle of class. (Oh, may I tell you, with how my insomnia has been acting lately, how much I’m going to enjoy that this year?) I’m so not ready for this. Okay, I understand if that sounds cliché, but hear me out.
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Returning

2011-08-14T19:53:00.001-04:00

I’m a kind of person who likes to create. Building, graphic design, coding, writing—you name it, I love creating. My favorite kinds of problems are those in which the solutions have to be created (which might explain why I love the game Portal so much.) When I do something, I want it to be something that I (and my partners, in some cases) created. You would rarely ever see me take templates or bits of what other people have created, put it together in some way, and call it my own.

So, as I was reading a blog yesterday, I was inclined to ask myself why I wasn’t doing this either.

Getting down to business

2010-02-26T18:45:00.001-05:00

Today was less of a lazy day for me, which is a good thing. It was still a little laid back, but I got more done than usual. I’m really getting somewhere in my goal to be less lazy without crashing and burning! I think I’m learning to gradually do things instead of just changing everything right now. That’s how I’ve accomplish so many things my life.

Hopefully, I will use this to become more responsible. I want to design a program (I know a bit of computer programming) that will help students to organize their lives a lot easier. I have a lot of ideas that will help me out a lot. Hopefully, because of that, it will help several other students my age. Maybe it can expand to college students too.

Anyway, I’m trying to step up and take control of my life. My gmail and desk are loaded with messages from colleges trying to advertise themselves to me. Lately, I’ve been wasting a lot of my time with several things, and I’m trying to cut that out. (Especially with Tumblr and Facebook.) But I want that to change. Lately, my grades have been less then they should. I am in the top eighty-something percent of my state in math, and yet I’m getting C’s in math. There are probably so many people that would give so much to have what I have, and yet I don’t use it. So I am really going to start pushing to improve myself academically.

I also need to do the same for religion. Both have to be gradual, and I’m not sure I can manage two at one time very easily. I’m scared I may give in, crash, and burn once again.

Human nature?

2010-02-26T00:19:00.001-05:00

You remember that blog about sleep I made yesterday? I so went against that.

I haven’t been sleeping properly the past two weeks. Now that this trimester is over, that needs to change, along with several of my other disorganizational habits. The only problem is, if I try to change so many things at once, I’m afraid that it will all collapse like it has in the past. I keep trying to improve myself and say, “No fooling around. I really need to give it 100% of my strength.” When I try to do that, though, I suddenly lose all strength and any progress I made just crashes and burns.

Anyway, I didn’t go to bed until, like, 11:30. I’ve kept making excuses for why I haven’t been going to bed at the right time, but last night was pretty ridiculous. I stayed up photoshopping. I mean, I’d ‘a gone to bed had I not decided to take my shower so late. I just can’t go to bed with wet hair. It bothers me. (I should get in the shower soon.)

And I know that isn’t that much of a big deal, but I basically said “Don’t put yourself in a position where you’re going to want to sleep when you’re obligated to something,” and immediately after that, I put myself in a position where I was going to want to sleep when I was obligated to do something. In fact, the very thing I was obligated to do the next day was the most important (?) test of the entire trimester.

When I do things like this, I can’t help but to ponder on human nature. Humans are intelligent creatures, but confusing. I can’t really say anything about it because I’m confusing myself.

But this pondering does help me gain wisdom. I am no where near wise—I don’t spend a lot of my time in scriptures—but I do have wisdom in areas other people my age don’t. And often times, teens end up doing things that take huge chunks of their lives. There is quite a lot of suffering in our world. With the wisdom God has granted me, I can help people, and I plan on doing that.

Good night friends. If you do need help, I can willfully help you. There are several ways you can contact me, one of them being through my prayer request site http://tinyurl.com/prayerrequest.

Sleep… I'm so tired

2010-02-24T20:37:00.005-05:00

This is the second of my three posts for today. I'm splitting them out because they're all about different things.

Today and then be teaching you about sleep. That is a funny thing to teach about, but there is a little bit you can learn to it.

I know a lot of our generation has been shunned because, “we’re the laziest ever, and all we ever do is sleep.” For some of us that's true, but as I've said before, teens are often misunderstood. With the stuff I've committed myself too—and several people have committed themselves to more than I have—I've become very tired and not been able to sleep as much as I've wanted to. I don't really like taking naps, but it's gotten so bad, that I just had to today. It didn't really help, it was just a waste of time. But I will probably go to bed early, I'm tired of always wanting to fall asleep in all of my classes.

And I do actually have some scripture on sleeping as well. In Matthew 26, Jesus went to a place called Gethsemane to pray. He told his disciples to wait in a spot and went farther down.

⁴⁰Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Could you men not keep watch for one hour?” he asked Peter. ⁴¹“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation.”

When you're at home and you have no obligations, it's fine to take a nap. I still don't like to because I never know what may come up. But it actually says in the Bible (in a different way), “If you snooze, you lose.” So if your sleeping in class or sleeping 12 hours every day, believe it or not, your going against Biblical text.

Hopefully, I can get to bed pretty early today. This is the one reason I love finals.

A fragile life.

2010-02-24T20:37:00.004-05:00

A lot of people have been dying around here lately. It kinda sucks.

Fortunately, not a lot of people close to me have died, but the amount of that's happening lately has been quite ominous. Just this morning, two students from a nearby school died in on related accidents. What is even more ironic is that they were best friends.

Our school has faced three deaths in the last two years. The most recent one is Nate Savieo. He was the boyfriend of someone close to me, and very popular in my school. Half the school was devastated when they found out he died, including much of the staff.

A lot of parents siblings and pets have been dying as well. Quite honestly I see it as a sign or something. If you read Matthew 24-25, you'll see what I'm talking about all of these deaths symbolizing. I don't really think that God is killing people to tell us something, but he may be beginning his judgment and in that warning us that the judgment day is near.

I'm not saying I'm right, in fact I could be wrong. I don't even believe this to be 100% true, but that is just my theory on what God is doing. Even if it is not true, we all should be repenting and following the Lord.

And even if it is not true, these deaths still show us how fragile life is. You make one mistake, and it's over for good. You don't get a second chance. Often, we get a sense of immortality, but that is not true. We shall not let our lives waste away, for these are the very lives that God has given us. We never know how long we have left; Satan could be right behind you right now, ready to take your life.

And death is a hard thing to deal with. I can only imagine; I've never really had to deal with the death of a loved one that was really close to me. But I do know that all of these things in life are things you can learn from. Yes, the death of a person is sad, but although they've died in body, they don't have to die in spirit. If their death has come unexpectedly, it may be up to you to keep their spirit alive. If I died today, I would want the people that believed in me to carry on the things I wanted to do: to offer people my hand, help them, and take a small part making this world a better place. Someone could rip my head off, destroy my body, and throw it in a ditch, but my soul would still be happy if someone took my life upon them and through God gained a passion to help every struggling person they could. However, if I died a very quick but peaceful death; but all my stuff was sold, I was forgotten, and everyone stopped caring, my soul could not possibly be at rest.

Please do the same and a loved one near you dies.

Finals

2010-02-24T20:36:00.001-05:00

I have a lot to write about today, and so I'm gonna have to split up the posts. This is the first of them.

This first post is gonna be about school. Today we had finals, and if we have school tomorrow, we're going to have them again. It's snowing right now, but I'm not getting my hopes up on anything.

The way our school's final test system (and our school system, for that matter) is really weird. You may find the fact that we're doing finals now really weird. We are on a system of “trimesters,” meaning there are three semesters in the school year. This trimester has one day left, and that is last day of finals. I will no longer be going to my first or second period class. The way our school does it, the first day of finals goes 1 2 3 1 2. We review for one, two, and three, and then test for one and two. The second day goes 4 5 3 4 5, reviewing four and five, and testing three, four, and five. I never really have much trouble in school, and the test I should have the most trouble on is in my forth period. World History just isn't my subject.

If anyone goes to my school or is taking their finals tomorrow, I wish you the best of luck. I've heard a lot of complaining about how the finals suck, and for a lot of people they can be pretty hard. I really hope the most if you didn't just blow it. I'm praying for all of you that you can do well and not be too stressed out. Just try your best; that's all they can ever be expected from you.

Love

2010-02-23T22:50:00.000-05:00

I need to go to bed soon, but I haven't made a post in forever, and I need to make one.

And this one is going to be about something that has been on my mind a lot lately: love; especially with the youth of my generation today.

Obviously, there's a lot that teens today don't understand that they should. In fact, it's so obvious, I can't even name it. It's like trying to prove that something is blue. But I think there is so much that the adults--the authority of the teens--don't understand as well that they should. Maybe I'll blog about that later.

But I wanna talk about my perspective on love. It's not just because my youth pastor is talking about it in church (although that may have been in part what triggered it). But what has really triggered it is the fact that all of my friends are really falling flat on their face, especially the girls.

First of all, guys, let me say that women are not toys. They are not something you take pride in. Yes, a girl loves it when you go around saying, "I'm in love with [putnamehere], and she is awesome!" but they don't exactly enjoy it when you tell your "bud's" in the locker room, "Man I am so going to hit that." and take pride in how fine your girl's ass is. My pastor really puts that in a good perspective, too. He says that the way relationships are, especially with girls, they hold on to whatever is there because they don't wanna break up. Often, the relational part has disappeared, and the only thing left to hold on to is the physicality.

And that's what we've turned relationships into today. A lot of us, at least. We have a boy/girl by our sides, that means we love them. "The more time I spend with him, the more he loves me. I feel so loved. This is what it's all about." The truth is, it really isn't. I've seen so many of my friends fall looking for love. It's because they're looking for a guy/girl that will love them enough to be considered boyfriend and girlfriend. Often, it gets old, and once again it all goes bad because it's like two magnets that are both the same (meaning they are being repelled from each other) trying to be pushed together. It really hurts when you have to risk so much just to keep your relationship that's hanging by a thread. I love that my youth pastor is doing this series, because he gives me so much to support this with.

He gave me this idea, and I will pass it on to you. This is what I want you to do:

Imagine the best guy/girl for you. You can think about the looks, but I really would like you to think of the personality. Think deep.
Imagine the perfect date that you could possibly go on. What would make you the most happy?
After reading this bullet, for a few minutes, close your eyes, and think about you going on this perfect date with this totally ideal guy/girl. Think about the good times, and how he/she treats you, and everything.

You think about it? Now that you have this in your mind, I have a question for you.

Why would you settle for something less?

That is kind of what is messed up about our youth and dating. We're sorta just looking for something to fill our void; and I know, because I've done it.

But in my experience, I've learned a lot, and there are three really important things I think teens should know.

In a healthy relationship, there is equal risk and equal compromise. For example, if the girl is giving her all for the guy to love her, it won't go well. If both are holding from each other things that they fear might hurt the other person, that will not go well either; there is no risk at all.
In your teen years, it's not really about getting yourself ready to be married to a certain person, it's about finding what you like. I'm not saying go on a date and ditch, but you really learn a lot if you give yourself the opportunity to.
Marriage and dating are not the same thing. Melissa Marksberry (A.K.A. Mell) from Remedy.FM gave me some advice that I also would like to tell you. Relationships were made the way they were for a reason, you aren't supposed to give 100% to someone you think you will may. Once you get in a relationship, you should give about 20-40%. By the time you're engaged, you still want to keep it to about 80%; you don't want to give that 100% until you are married.

Relationships aren't made to be the easiest thing ever, and break-ups won't be either. If they are, I'm a bit concerned. But you should not be in a relationship where you are being torn apart or have bad thoughts about it. Just think about the context of things. Relationships should mean love.

In summary, don't go out looking for someone to love you. Wait for love to find you; if God wills it, it will happen.

EDIT:

Just to add to that third point, the more you give of yourself, the more it's like glue. You are gluing yourself to that person to become one, and that especially comes in with marriage. If you give so much of yourself to someone, you are glued together, and you end up ripped up when one pulls apart.

Haven’t posted…

2009-09-20T20:10:00.001-04:00

I did end up running the night of the night I made that last post. And that was a well needed run, especially because of the events that had taken place before that run. Home hasn't been that great for me for a while, and for the sake of others (and indirectly myself) I will not go into detail.

However, that is the only time I have run in a long time. I have really got to stop procrastinating. It is already too dark to run tonight, so I can't do that. What I am going to do is make this post, take my shower, and go to bed. And it is only 8 o'clock. I will be waking up at 4:30 tomorrow morning to run. It's kind of ironic; the sun hasn't totally set yet and I say it's too dark to run, yet I will be running when it will be dark in the morning. I guess it's kind of a safety thing I do, because if someone were to be looking for a kid or teen to take, they will have trouble finding one that will wake up at 4:30 am. They will look for teens sneaking around in the dark etc.

This post, I realize, is very uninteresting. I apologize for my boringness, but I'm just a little "blah" right now.

I didn’t run yet

2009-09-10T08:19:00.001-04:00

Well, as I had send in the second to last sentence of my last post, I had fallen behind schedule. There was nothing I could skip, either, because I have to stretch properly daily in order to keep able to run without a great amount of pain, Doctor's orders. I also take my Bible time very seriously, because God is the only one who can do anything He wants with my life, so I won't skip out on that. That said, I ended up going to bed a bit before 9:30 last night, which I didn't think would be too big of a deal, so I left my alarm on 4:30, and actually slept like a baby on Benadryl, which is no surprise because I was really tired.

However, when my alarm went off this morning, I felt like I could not wake up whatsoever. So I set my alarm for 5, and then snoozed it afterwards all the way to 5:25. Because it was already too late for me to run and still make it to school with a shower, I just went ahead and took my shower. And while I was eating breakfast, I found out that we have a two-hour delay. Go figure, I could be running right now, but I had already taken my shower and gotten ready for school. So now, I am making this post. I will run someday soon. If not tonight or tomorrow morning, then it will happen tomorrow night because it is the weekend. If not, these people had better not keep me from running all weekend, because I need to run!

Also, I need to find a way to make these posts interesting. That way, if someone were to come across my blog, they wouldn't just skip over it. I guess I will have to do that later, because there is other stuff that needs to be done. Like, sometime soon, I need to talk to our school's principal about See You At the Pole™, a religious day where students gather around the school's flagpole and pray. This year, I may be in charge of it, and I am hoping that I don't completely destroy it. I'm going to get as many people as I can involved with it.

The Positive Thought of the Day: "If God's Love was an object, it would hurt to get hit by. Fortunately, God doesn't throw His Love. He gives it to you gently."

School has started

2009-09-09T18:42:00.001-04:00

It has been a long time since I have made a post to this blog, and there is reasoning behind that. I haven't been running for a while, which is half of the base of this blog. The other reason behind this is that school has started up for me, and I haven't had any time to be making blog posts. But I promise I will be making them more often, with my laptop (of which I have to thank my Grandma for), and my phone (of which I have to thank my mother for).

So, I'm hoping that tomorrow after, I will be running every morning and night. This means that I'm going to be on one tight schedule, and blogs will not always be possible. And I already have the rest of today and tomorrow morning planned out. (Chances are these plans will not work.) I'm going to make this post, and then play music while I clean up my room. We are going to be moving out of this bad situation soon (that is all I will say for personal privacy) and my mom need to be able to know what needs to be moved and what doesn't. So I'm going to finish this post and clean my room, and then start on a science assignment. A bit before 8:00, I am going to start stretching, and once I'm done I'm going to finish the day with some Bible time. I will be going to bed at 9:00 tonight because (1) I have to wake up at 4:30 A.M. tomorrow, and my body is not used to that; and (2) I'm just tired.

I've fallen behind schedule already, so I'm going to abruptly end this post. I love you all!

Daily plans (wait...plans?)

2009-08-19T05:25:00.001-04:00

Well, I woke up at 5 this morning to go on a rut at 5:30, and i wasn't really thinking about the fact that it would be pitch black at that time, so I might as well type out this post on my phone to pass some time.

So I've already revealed my first plan for today. The problem with that is if I can't run until 6:30, I may be screwed for my other plan.

At 8, there will be a student council car wash. I should be ready by then, but I have a ride and I may just cut it too close if I'm not ready by the time he arrives.

And if that plan gets screwed up, it will also do bad on my next plan, which is spend some time with Kristin. She said she would help, and after we would go to the apartments because her dad has to do some stuff there.

And I plan on kissing her for the first time, so I'd better run before 6:30!

That is how to completely different things can have something to do with eachother. =D

And I'm off!

2009-08-18T12:52:00.001-04:00

I've always thought that a Blog would be a good idea for me. In fact, I have another blog set up already. But I have lost all creativity with it, so I have created this blog in hopes that I can be more creative...so, here goes!

I wanted to let my creativity shine first with the title, but that may not be so much creative. But it definitely is me. Two of the things I love the most are running and God.

I'll stick with running as the subject for now. You see, I love running, but I am not that good at it and I don't do it as much as I probably should I have participated in one season of track, and I can't particularily say I loved it. It may have been everything that was going on at the time, but I really just think that running, to me, is more of a hobby then a competitive sport. I know if I told that to a coach, he wold probably say "bullcrap," but that is honestly my feeling, and I would much rather not get involved with something I know I don't have a passion about.

But what I do have a passion about is my religion. My heart is to God, and I try my best to show that when I know people are watching, but also when I don't. I have kinda fallen from that, too, on the Bible reading. But I love discovering new verses that have not been pointed out on me, and teaching myself about the true way of God.

And lastly for this post, I will describe a bit of myself. I am Austin, but I have many nicknames. One of them is Paco, so you should call me that. I am very fun, pretty random, and do things that no person who has "a life" would ever dream of doing, those of which will be described in later posts. But when it comes down to seriousness, I am there too. I am such a caring person, and if a friend or an acquaintance seems down, I will try to comfort them in whatever way I can, and I will especially pray for them. That's one thing I love is praying. If I don't know you, I will still pray for you, and there is even a website that I created for that purpose. (If you ever need praying, go to http://tinyurl.com/prayerrequest.)