bizot, biz that cared the world

girl zhou, i m sorry for claiming "zhou fell" in my hardest time in this forum back to 2007.

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 05:01:00 -0700

i grand u never fell and forever proud and gifted. i grant u my Queen in crown, the same of Masheng. i grant u the third wife of mine. i grant God cares u and holy spirit in u.
i grant u r one of mine.

come and join me, sooner the better. i need u, as well as all my beloved, my girls that praying for me. original post at https://groups.google.com/group/benzyrnill/browse_thread/thread/d5982af70421ef3c https://groups.google.com/group/benzyrnill/t/c18d667046d7a571

look the site i claimed for u: http://zhou.be21zh.org or http://sites.google.com/site/gozhou .it just waiting for u to cultivate it.

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a sleepless night for all my girls. allow Jiangyue join me from now on.

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:35:00 -0700

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

yesterday i finally got all family facebook's vanity profile urls, after a previous day's hot waiting and vain. it rained when i busy with getting enough mobiles to pass the verification a new vanity url demands. in the night i tried to join a chatroom to get more fans to my family pages in exchange i become fans to more pages i never heard in the aim to pass the limit facebook set to allow a page's vanity url. then my eldest brother knocked our door and sent us 2 slices of water melon. i went to bed eariler than usual, but a dream woke me up in mid night and stay me awoke almost all night. i dreamed of a newly got well being guy suggesting travel countryside with his car. then in a sex course woke me up i found the feeling of ema, my baby son's mother, and my own, upon sex. i got view that faith in God is in fact the longest and most passionate sex the faith owner can get. and his gifted beloved blessed with the longest and most peaceful, the most harmonious sex pleasures, the only lasting warmth in men&women's life. faith grant believers the longest and lasting warmth fails age and rigidity/mediocrity age brings. its started raining since then. how i love the rain, which always remind me of the warmth of house, mutual cares in homes when no other distractions but just gathering rain brings. i gradually reviewed all my love with my girls, esp. Lü and Masheng, for who i most looking forward to join me and care my life together. from girl Lü i started to review the girl Jiangyue, a once student of ema and got ema's tutor together with girl Lü at ema's house. i previously felt girl Jiangyue might belongs to my baby son, for in the end of the tutuor and in a occasion baby chosen her while i more satisfied by the competent girl Lü. no, i got wrong, this moment i made clear, after the drizzle and a shit release in the mid of this blogging, and worry about the security and frustrating of girl Jiangyue upon my missing love to her. i made clear Jiangyue belongs to my Royal and IS my wife. my God had and forever cares her, including her growth and career's independence, as well as self-realization. i made clear my baby son's uniting with girl(s) in family name "Jiang", can be quite late, all in God's setting which forever the best. i made clear girl Jiangyue can join me any time, and can live with my together from now on.

its a hard night for i can't sleep. i also reviewed the nighbor wives' foolish admire toward me. none of them can partake my love, nor even my warmth of faith. i belongs to the world, not the residents now in Zhudajiu, my hometown village and my past dad's sovereign.my love for my beloved girls never shake nor lapse. my love blesses all my girls with eternal and happy life. my love brings them harmony of sex we never forget nor discontent.

its a nice week, for those i got from the cyberspace, except this morning. in some flash message i worry about girl Jiangyue's falling to hopelessness, but now i felt better. God constantly cares all my beloved, all girls can join my life to share the faith for God, and my Royal to mandate the world belongs to us.

ok, now time to bye. thanks God, Jiangyue, i never miss ur love again. i took u now. follow me and join me as soon as u can. i love u.

it resumes to drizzle now, just when i prepared to wire to the net. God, save me, save my all girls need me. forever and never seen glory to u!!!

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shit China surveillance, failed lots of proxy, including freedur

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:26:00 -0700

i tried lots of web proxies. my newly created blogger blog shown me admin but the blogger management panel don't give me admin privilege, not allowing me to invite authors. i don't' why why it is, all my old blogs all defying my inviting authors function after i logon blogger.com via a web proxy and the only working one. they broke into my web id long time, and i not sure if they stealth my admin privilege and cheat the site not to allow my admin privilege while shown me as admin on the page, or just the web proxy confused blogger.com's admin system.

later i resort to freedur, which enjoy good fame among Chinese users under China tighten surveillance these days. but i can only access blogger.com homepage once, after i submit my login detail, my traffic again fell into mute.i sometimes casually open a blog's homepage, and shown i logon for the page shown edit link to allow me open editing widget window, but thats' all, any attempts to open the setting page of my blogs indifferently went lost.

shit the China surveillance. they acted like can't wait time anymore to spent out their only time before their total collapse. surely they saw their hells.

however, i got my blogs on blogger.com for my left baby bird, they r http://birdous.blogspot.com and http://birdnus.blogspot.com . i also claimed a blog for my web id benzrad, at http://benzrad.blogspot.com .thx God, i recent paid more attention to my baby&myself Chinese Pinyin name, and even blogger's user so large a group, i got our blogs in exact Chinese name or my coined name without any deter. they r http://zhuchujia.blogspot.com http://warrenzhu.blogspot.com ,mine http://benzrad.blogspot.com .with these beautiful namespace, i felt really bounty of God's gift for my Royal of China under his shine.

fairway, China surveillance and shits Internet cop/dog. my kingdom doomed to grow and blow, ur destiny of tomb near and near. u pick fall. i endorsed with rising.

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a great week.

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 14:27:00 -0700

my work of designing nephew an avatar or logo,

at http://626895145.qzone.qq.com

my breakfast in mid of my morning work. mother cooked for me these days.

this week really busy. it started with a landrush for facebook's vanity url claiming. i got up unusually around 5 am and waited for the moment the site allow my claiming my frequent web id. when all ready, i finished it within several minutes, with several kind of browsers open and several family facebook accounts logged on.to some disappointing, i got known that some family facebook accounts i recent built, not allowed to register their favorable name in its url, and later via search i got known on 28th of this month, i will get it. in the night in daily discuss with baby and his mom in Qiqihar, northeastern China, i told them the great news of their vanity urls, but they didn't applaud as i expect. baby still don't want talk to me and banned his mom doing so.

then the next day launched to retouch family twitter background image to include new facebook profile url. that merely cost me a day to design and update twitter sites with the outcome. coming next is to add facebook connect, now with more family facebook profiles, to family genwi newspapers, to improve its universal log in and richer publication sources. i did the same later to family retaggr accounts. in the afternoon. the nephew who just came over his national college entrance exam, visited me, i picked his once ask for a avatar like mine, with powerful warez i collected from web, i demonstrated him and finished the work after near 3 hours. in the night, i suddenly felt the decision to add Chinese domestic mailbox into alternative secure mailbox among my google accounts was wrong, for China surveillance anytime can break into any account with domestic ISPs, obtain all credentials u registered, ruin ur account at will, so its wiser to cut off all my google and yahoo accounts' sharing detain with Chinese ISPs. that cost me more than a day, and this morning, when i sorted my bookmarks locally, i felt time to make clear family googlepages sites ripes. so i launched to check every family google account to make full use of them to claiming more googlepages. google decided migrating googlepages to its sites product, and stop all googlepages' registry. but account already open a googlepages can continue create no more than 3 sites in one gmail account. its really a joy to enrich my domains with these new sites.

ok, its my recent works, its turning sultry these days after enough rain and clouds. i really appreciate the weather since my arrival in my hometown journey. i rightly look forward re-experience the heat and moist here in central China where i was bred, i look forward more direct contacts with the stinging sunshine, my best gift and one of most powerful tool of Masheng, my Japanese fiancee.

these days in a turbulence of site building, i seldom talk with Masheng, nor girl lÜ in her 2 days' rains. i also don't sing after dinner as usual. the neighbor wives upset me. and hostile neighbors got me low.

ok, its time to bye.i hope its not a long time before i kiss my baby son again. i hope we can enjoy more and more in the coming years.

a busy week, nephew returned from college entrance exam&join cyberlife here.

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 00:26:00 -0700

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

the Chicken sex changer, a demon my mother attempted to treat

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

my mother in breakfast.

its nice cool morning. last night i really painful when i dreamed of the suffering of my baby and my Royal. i envisaged the dictator of China devised a conspire, let my alone spend at will while my expending all at cost of my family's fixed income. if i eat and play well,then they suffered lost and pain. the authority surveillance it and only me don't know the plot. the imaging i saw many times in my distressed time before fall into asylum, i never afford to see my Royal suffering, and that let me fight on 2 front lines and broke me apart several times. it drizzled since dusk just after i visited toilet and sat in the front yard of my dad's house and started to sing. it lasted when i busy in night to claiming myself another facebook account, benzillar land. i decided in dream that return to Qiqihar to care baby soon after it turns daytime. but after woke up the anxiety decreased and my faith in the Mightiest God resumes. i know that God wouldn't let my Royal under his shine suffer the evils the demon in China exerts, God wouldn't let me in dark any more helplessly. if he want to alert me something, i can know but usually not great fear or distress. the most time of following God should be joy and peace.

its a nice morning now. i can anticipate some sunshine later. rain day really beautiful and let me productive. i know Masheng for whom i stayed here waiting for 4 months likes to introduce girl lǔ to me, let me review her love in the past years in the rain. the night before last night, i told baby my girls prepared villas in Taibei, Beijing, Shanghai, Wuhan, Nanjing, for our gathering to come. he giggled and likely his mother, ema, also listening. baby these days yet don't want to talk me online.

its a long road leading me to God's shine, but not a slow way to God. decided to follow God not always peaceful, sometimes it can rock/torn u out of track, like the several moments my heart torn by imagery dilemma in which my beloved&myself can't move or respond but just suffering pains of helplessness. they r all God's show on me before i find the way toward his door. God loves true love, and true lover. like the bible says, there is only spirit in the world. anything just a load of the spirit.

ok, its a nice morning to disclose my distress, and difference a faith in God brings. i always in need to declare, that i forever follow God, no matte how the seeing and delusion how can persuading my urgent action to save my beloved. i love God, the only creator of Universe and the Mightiest. glory forever belongs to him and never a devil can leave a smog on it. i never want to live in fear and unbalanced.

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a media reply

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 00:43:00 -0700

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

My elemental school teacher, a villager, now a boss of concrete products.

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

front door view of my past dad's house.

below is a reply i wrote on Jun 5, 2009, in answer of an inquiry from a site, ThisIsDiversity, about my some opinion on China surveillance. i glad to see emerging chance to be opener.

Doug Cress suggested that I contact you. My name is Julia Garrison and I am ThisIsDiversity's Special Features Reporter. I would love to learn more about your situation as a journalist in China: the topic of internet censorship is one that I find extremely problematic. It would be great to get your story on this highly debated issue so that I could write an article informing people around the world about what is happening in your country.

What kind of restrictions are placed on Journalists in China?

i m not a journalist, i worked once for a state-owned enterprise and work in its cable tv branch, designing heading and caption. i never got any promotion even i think my work was marvellous. gradually i got clear the invisible constrain cast on me. after a dispute with the director of the department, i got kicked from my professional position, instead i was assigned a job in the title of "temporary worker", one reason why i was not laid off was in China enterprises not encouraged to do so, but i think deeper review is that the state intelligent want to keep me in cage to observe. now i work full time on cyberspace, with my first domain, be21zh.org at http://www.be21zh.org , i got 3 years ago.

China has now 3 main portals in its Internet service. 2 built by returned Chinese graduate or post-graduate from American universities, ie. sina.com and sohu.com , in my view they offer nothing but exotic/vulgar news. another is built in Guangzhou, southern China, by a Chinese graduated within China. all of them in my view quite flat. they never die, unlike yahoo or those startups in US. they services, like email, blog, album, alumni, none deserve a compare with that of American isp, but never one can imagine their quit. for in China, most important is u granted to live by the authority, but not u r better survived.

there is no news in my view in China, for almost all medias belong to the state, and through state-owned enterprise and affiliate office to the government departments, most Chinese don't have the freedom of finding a alternative job in free job market, which only belong to peasants work temporarily in City to build or maintain the less bright part of the life of city(even in this market peasants were yet fined). anyone in mainland China lives in fear and insecure for their life and living decided by the higher cadre and finally the state, which in fact a dictator with a police mind set. in fact, in most common people's view, the journalist in China never enjoy the respect they should or does in freedom world, for most people know their job is a kind of brag of officer among Chinese social ladder. they work in boring and planned, and earn some additional money, like quite some positions in China society which breeds bribery rampant, from paid news, nothing creative or independent, nor respectable/responsive.

In your experience, how does the average Chinese citizen react to the restrictions placed on Journalists?

most Chinese just endured and waiting for a hitchhike toward a better politically architectured new China. they learned from generations that the leader and first out-standing risk most, they kept themselves distant from the bureaucrat which can profane and absorb any gifted mind, charging their life for thousand years in China history, with envy and hatred. and quite some part of the mob in Chinese society was bought by the ruling squad and live in abnormal psychological set and darkened belief. that likely why in China recent history they chose violence rather than God. they immersed themselves in the virtual potent from group or blood links, to evade the natural call of mercy upon unfair and bully and indifferent pervading in nowadays China mainland. in some gauge Chinese in mainland don't have average, the government these years spent a lot to buy services in rural area, in student group, in youth, with state resource to divide the previous wild hatred class. in some ways Chinese people in mainland now quite and only recognize the green paper, the money, that can improve their life a bit and only a bit, for any further plan unstable, just like the upper building and the doctrine, both based on disappearing smoke-alike clouds of lies.

What are the consequences of Journalists who speak out?

the government tighten the spread of news of its victims. quite some cases well-known were journalists in southern China media reporting death as result in government's failure got fired or separate in glass house of alien. there is no bone nor backbone at all in China journalists or journalism. punishment never disclosed. the afford from the victims and all invisible constrains cast on them, never can spread out to social commonsense nor turn clear. that's rightly the effect of terror the dictator want to exert.

Do you know of any journalists that have been censored by the Chinese Government?

first, there is very rare in Chinese licensed journalists who still had the self-responsibility for the right, for the independence. second, if there is standout, u don't know, for that forever their last struggle before their free fall into noname.

What kinds of bans or restrictions have been placed on internet use and what, if any, reasons does the government give for these restrictions?

every computer in Internet cafes within China mainland with their own watch dog, every web accessed equipments registered and under the surveillance, with their only id. if there is something clear in the dictating country like China mainland, that's the only one: everyone, men or thing, has its individual secret log, maintained and focused by the dog dominated country, with its ruling hand.

How do you get around the restrictions? Do you think China will change its policies?

years ago i tried proxy and sometimes work. but these days the technology adopted by China Internet cop more and more stronger and failed more and more proxies. the machine dog team boast its tech to apply for its bonus bone from the dog-minded dictator, so it wouldn't loose its reign, never, before their total collapse.

What is your goal for China regarding free speech?

i live in God's shine, and never worry the future of China in my best wish. God saves and only he has the final word. i live with peace in the view of the end of the dirty state power theft. they can be also included in God's set for China's march toward ONE World within he glads.

How does your faith in God relate to this goal?

i in depth belief of God, Christian God, i was educated from distress of love with a beautiful tall Chinese collegian. i was educated by spiritual ebook written by American. i know now i was chosen to follow my fate, to resume his glory, to resume my ancestor's glory, on this old land. i can be meaningless like a wind or breeze, i can be weighted as the highest monument people and people to arrive had to raise their heads to watch. i don't assert my deed in the world, but i assert i forever in shine.

How do the restrictions on journalists and internet censorship relate to the Tiananmen Square massacre that occurred on June 4, 1989?

u can google, which also under surveillance in China and bring less result page than u can. a google group at https://groups.google.com/group/fans i can mention, even quite trifle, but u can read complains and curses upon the surveillance and 6.4 special blockage, if u can read Chinese. even in the group, there is i guess spy from the state intelligent.

BTW, i want post this email to my blog, at http://benzillar.blogspot.com .i can delay posting after u make usage of it. i wait for ur response and do it before next Monday, in ur curtsy.

best wishes,

benzrad

benzyrnill, set to fly - do it, make it.
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盲言之芒岩
你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼

http://be21zh.org

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bright days.

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 04:23:00 -0700

stream in front cannel of the village.

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

duck family in front cannel stream of the village.

its has been near a week since my last post. in these week i customized my windows boot screen and logon

interface, and tried to update baby's desktop in Qiqihar. i also fine tuned my family facebook

accounts, adding openid service, fit logos of my groups and pages there. also i claimed new sites from google sites, ie. sites for my girl zhou, like http://sites.google.com/site/gozhous/ ,http://sites.google.com/site/godzhous/ ,for my baby's mother, ema, like http://sites.google.com/site/emagarton and http://sites.google.com/site/emagartom , i also fine tuned my family accounts at plaxo, adding logon with facebook connect, claimed family accounts at yahoo profiles, which substitutes old yahoo blog system yahoo 360. i also created a profile for my cyber enterprise, be21zh.org, in title bebazh, for facebook don't allow number in user name. i customized my family twitter accounts with new background images i designed, after learning from other twitters' background. for diigo refused updating my imported bookmarks for several months, i tried to create a new diigo account to import my local bookmarks again, but after some delay just after imported, it again lost my import and bookmarked nothing. i guess China surveillance likely controlled my all diigo accounts and locked them up. diigo is a Chinese enterprise based in US, while heavily rely its team in western China. anything u trust to Chinese in mainland would be a mistake, for mainland Chinese is mostly a betrayal, they born after cleanse too weak to be good. i direct message and also feedback via page to the company, but never got a reply.

the long drizzle days passed, which likely brought some drain to south China while the northern China suffered drought. i later realized that Masheng letting girl lǘ on duty. i quite enjoy the rains, even mostly i busy online and seldom talk with it. i love girl lǘ even i now can't figure out how is like when i live with her aside. the rainning days let me stayed all time at home and engaged till exhaust. now its a bright morning, its 2 or 3 days after the same weather. i enjoy working in the open air on my dad's front yard in bright light and breezes. its temperature really nice, to let u best fit. last dusk i realized that my broadband here was offered by Masheng, and she did company me all these days before i returned hometown. i beg Masheng sooner join me and take care of my life in garden, in her garden.

here China surveillance tighten rein with crazy, lots of sites blocked deadly, failed most web proxies. some sites accessible last day, like yahoo profiles, scribd.com, etc, with which i can draw a conclusion with safe that the ban list on China Internet gateway tailored for me, and the China Internet cop monitor my web activities and steal my web form submissions real time.

ok, its a bit wasteful to utter about the evil in China. God's day to cleanse it never changes. i look forward to my ancestor's fond over it can boost it better in coming world conflicts and starve.

here is my sites recently claimed.

on vodspot.tv:

zhuson, united US and China under God's shine

zhudajiu朱大九——龙泉之眼

dajiuzh——朱大九走向世界

songdod, song for God, on and forever

beinzh, burning people in destructive nation gozhous, God over US and Japan and China

on google sites:

gozhus, shares God's shine between US and China

godzhous, God's love among nation of US, Japan, and China

godzhus, God shines over US and China

emagartendreamthatflies | emagarten

emagartom, sunshine kills

emagarton, dream blossoms

on yahoo profiles:

benzillar | benzradi

be21zh.org | be21zh

zhudajiu | zhudajiu

zhuson | zhuson@ymail

zhusis | zhuson

emakingir | emakingir

emagarten | emagarten

warrenzh | flickr

warrendzh | warrentzh

warranzh | warranzh

warrenzhu | flickr

warrinzhu | warrenzeu

on facebook:

Beba Zh

on diigo bookmarks user:

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mobile:+8615845661821
skype:benzyrnill
yahoo:benzradi
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盲言之芒岩
你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼

http://be21zh.org

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a raining day, busy with microblogs' impression improvement.

Mon, 25 May 2009 14:12:00 -0700

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

it has been more than a week since i update my album here. i recently surfed lately in night, so gotup later than usual. these days frequent cloudy days, so i can work in open air in my dad's house' front yard for more than 7 hours or so. there r also raining days. last sunset when i sang a love song, it drizzled, from a sunny day. this morning before i gotup it rained and continued since them. i worked in my bedroom under lamp most of the day, busy with fine tuned the background picture of my family twitter accounts, and i think its rewarding. i got break till after 3pm and satisfied. after rested some time i decided to blog it, and update my album with shots, mostly still life in the rain.

those days i also spent lots of time got myself familiar with the expanding service of qq, a domestic mainstream service provider. i also fine tuned my microblog with 3 domestic sp, ie. qq's taotao, jiwai.de, fanfou.com, founding can update all of them via qq's signature. i also setup my cellphone, so as to post on the move, and autopost to other microblog portal, including my twitter.

i do anything under God's guide. still, i got revenge from my nephew, who i love best among the next generation of my old family. i started to comment on his blog at qzone, a service of qq, when he complained pains of losing a love, then he silenced, till recently he practicing in remote province before his graduation. this time he despised love and friendship. i commented that they do exist and should be cherished. i told him he in God's fond. that ignite his revenge. he didn't deleted all posting, but changed his homepage with picture of sword and titled it "killing". i never forget anything i did, but i surely see the gaps between the faith and the person self-contented in material world.

ok, its a peaceful night, and the rain likely stopped. i thank u, Masheng, let me the baptism and time to linger indoor and watch the rain. its really too beautiful.

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raining afternoon, front yard of my past dad's old house.

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skype:benzyrnill
yahoo:benzradi
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盲言之芒岩
你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼

http://be21zh.org

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drizzle since last afternoon, heavenly love.

Wed, 20 May 2009 09:12:00 -0700

bulls on the grass in back of the village

the only pig nearby, eating his own.

drizzle gathered on stone stool.

benzrad, me, pose for a shot.

yesterday is a cloudy day first, i busy with reading and blogging. after noon i quit from notebook and dozed awhile on bed. when i missing years in Nankai Univ., where i met Masheng heavenly, it started to drizzle, out of my surprise. in the night i sms exchanged a lot with a facebook girl friend, who from Guangdong, south China, but now study in Shanghai. it later turned into a loving chase. the rain continued all night. in the mornign today i continued to ask the girl about my love and possible marriage. she defied it. i then sorted my recent photos and video, esp. this morning of the drizzle, online album and locally, till late afternoon. now i was left alone with my cool world of waiting and solitary for the descend of my Japanese fiancee. that's fine.

wet ground in front yard of my past dad's old house.

the same video on facebook.

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updated picasaweb album

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mobile:+8615845661821
skype:benzyrnill
yahoo:benzradi
icq:134279664
gtalk:dabbog@gmail.com
QQ: 570503557
dabbog@gmail.com

盲言之芒岩
你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼

http://be21zh.org

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retouched logo of my site, zhudajiu, for my hometown in the same title

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:59:00 -0700

its first version finished years ago. after equipped with xara warez, and lots of fonts, i felt i can improve it with more stunning effect. this morning is a cloudy day in my hometown, where i had spent near a month in it. the task cost me 2 hours or more. i got 2 versions, with which i don't want missing any one. so i uploaded both new versions to my google sites and google groups. blogger.com and blogspot.com still being blocked within China under its surveillance, so i can't update my blogs on google blog portal with the new version.

ok, its a nice silent morning. only i worked in the front yard of my past dad's old house. villagers all busy in field, for rapeseed due to harvest. last night i taught my old mother a lesson, when she in anxious and tried to flatter neighbor wives to eat some shrimp my nephew gave to me. i don't allow others partake my food without my consent. no one in the world can put a finger print on the glory of my dad, or my Royal, under God's shine. later i chatted with my baby, warren zhu, the God of universe, and the hope of China, online. i tried to vendor some kid games on verycd.com but likely baby these days interests on pc games deceased. in the dawn i dreamed of tribes or minorities like Uygur, and the problem to join them or merging them into mine. the unavoidable conflicts including the believes, let any changes hard to born. after woke up, i decided to stay in the faith of one world of God, the Mightiest and the only creator, who never has problem nor difficulty.

last time my baby urged me to return to Qiqihar, where my old social relation still in work. now i have no problem to stay here till end of August this year. its my time to live with Masheng, my second wife and the crowned Queen of my Empire. i also asked girl zhou and girl of Taiwan join my honeymoon this moment. i will see their houses in Wuhan, Beijing, Shanghai, prepared for me soon.

below is my works just finished.

logo v3 for site zhudajiu朱大九——龙泉之眼 at http://zhu.be21zh.org

logo v4 for site zhudajiu朱大九——龙泉之眼 at http://groups.google.com/group/zhudajiu

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an aged villager's funeral: hometown journey

Sun, 17 May 2009 05:02:00 -0700

i had reported the passing granny, Dai in family name, in my previous twitter. yesterday her funeral held by her offspring. granny Dai is the wife of an zhu, who passed earlier than her many years without any child, in the village. she is a short and a bit fat woman, generally hospitable. she and her husband adopted a girl, who married her neighbor in the village, 3th son of a family with 3 sons and a daughter. so all the offspring of her son-in-law and his relatives joined the funeral and mourning as her sons. its in a long time my first time to witness a village funeral, and many moments in the process when i shot photos and videos for the event i preview the funeral of my past dad, whose funeral i missed and never assured all went right. i many times felt would cry but my camera let me engaged. its also likely my first performance in front of my countryside patriots since my falling into madness several years ago, after so many years they seeing me as the gifted and looked up in expectation of achievement, for i was enrolled by a prodigious university, Nankai Univ., in China, first in the history of zhudajiu, my hometown village. nowadays i really in broad view of my world, and devoted to lead God's glory and sovereign on the land, as well as the nation in my coming kingdom of 1109 years. in the days since my return to the village, i really felt my Royal was inspired by the world that belongs to me, not all the folks in the village, for i perceived so many evil eyes and souls in the village, esp. the blood connected pals, who shown lots of hatred toward my past dad and my old family. God surely let anyone has his goal and pleasure of self-realization independently, but leader like my past dad, should not be hated for his brilliance. only ill hearts and hatreds-filled persons can do. i really saw in these days that God's glory is the kind that its perfection never seen before on the earth, its just too perfect to leave any dent of trifle or meaningfulless among men. it lasts every moments and flashs like beam of light, flows across like breeze in a pulse.

half of yesterday was in rain. it started soon after the coffin left the square of the village and after i sorted photos and videos just shot in front yard of my past dad's house, via my notebook and camera. it just so auspicious for me, for i love rain, love baptism, love seeing Masheng rest herself and girl l? in duty in the Sun's setting. i love the constrain rain brings to too bustle persons and ceases to enjoy the superpower of the nature. some women watched my photos, then all cooking utilities moved to my dad's old house, and since them lots of villages busy in the house, cooking, arranging, or watching my works on tv or web in my bedroom.

its a nice day, the daughter-in-law of my elder brother brought her webcam to me and i succeeded to install it. my baby still in these days loathed to talk with me, but i felt i can have more chance to talk with him and his mother online.

ok, below is my works for the funeral, which also reminded me one of my teacher, Daijun (in same family name of the past granny), whose fond on me envied by my alumni including those scores in subjects higher than mine and generally more important in class ( they told me later when i in college, while i never felt the fond when i cramming myself for college entrance exam and in depression), in my senior middle school, Huanggang Middle School.

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Ps: shits! the China surveillance now blocked blogger.com and all my blogspot blogs. i had problem to post my album in flash and 4 videos. what they wan to hell do?

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a blessed day, breeze after rainning night.

Tue, 12 May 2009 09:32:00 -0700

family of neighbor.

the road to zhudajiu, my hometown village.

it has been days since i returned from Tianzhen, the town my elder sisters, including my most cherished family member, my youngest elder sister, live. the decision to return Zhudajiu, my hometown village, was when i caught sight of the burning sunshine outside of elder sister's house's window, which is rightly my long time dream in Qiqiqhar, northeastern China, and the cause of my hometown journy. another reason is the rain here, so plenty each time it pours and times it occurs. this morning and recent days i reviewed the love from a girl student under family name lǘ (in Chinese the syllabus can also mean rain), when she regularly haunted emakingir's house for English tutorial even her English score quite satisfying in ema's school. she loves me and shown it with her best way she can adopt. she even descended to fight with ema around the table in ema's house to exam if she qualified to win me aside her in her life from my old family. i today learned from holy message that her love to me is true and divined. i would grant her to make ways to reach me and live along me in my life.

that love also remind me a early love occurred in my senior middle school, in a prodigious school, Huanggang middle school, Hubei Prov., central China. a girl always with marvelous scholar scores and frequent the top score owner in our grade, in the same family name lǘ, visited my hometown and slept in our old house a night when we took occasionally, at least for me, the same ship returning our hometown in vacation. i never second time receive the same level of brave a girl can shown upon her beloved. at that time we r in our fifteen's and i never dared to attracted her fond, for in most of my senior middle school years i was depressed by insufficience on score in exams. i don't know the night what happened to her, but she didn't contact me anymore after it, in the rest of our senior middle school years. i missed her very much but never had the confidence to invite her interview with me again. the last time i cared her up in my heart is when i saw she sat with a guy from the same county of hers on the grass in the school in sunset and talked. i then sure i was a loser and i put my long time love for her into death pool. the guy later didn't become her husband, but gracefully and enviable for most Chinese young men migrated into US with a scholar career. he is rightly the man help me get my first domain, be21zh.org, from American domain registrargodaddy.com. while the lǘ, palely settled in a secondary city, Yichang, within Hubei Prov., likely continued to research her major in college, virus. i never had an insight of the life or psychic set of a extradinarily able girl or woman, and also never got insight to the brave and sudden visit she brought to me the quite early year in our youth. she was a puzzle in my life, and i awared it before i first time fell into madness, back to 1999 or so.

its a cool day, after 2 days of first wave of heat in the summer here in Hubei Prov., central China. i enjoyed the dry and solid heat in burning sunshine very much, as i long time expected and the meaning of my hometown journey, the great gift from my Japanese girl and fiancee, Masheng. it started to rain in sunset, a real surprise for me, for it don't usually have too many rains on the latitude in summer. most of my beloved, r strong and powerful girls, i know, and i enjoyed my favored fate with so many beautiful creatures of God, they r in fact one of my wife, but very different facets of one diamond of the most beautiful. they live with strenth in my universe in my shine, all the one and Mightiest God's set.

its now just after noon, and breeze let me glad. with the help of Masheng, i now befriend with wind, esp. breeze. quite some other sounds still kinds of alarms for me, let me in fear of God's rage, or enemies' conspire that can hinder the way toward my Royal or kingdom, but i will live with all power from God, and live in joy forever gradually.

ps: when i posting recent 2 blogs, folks' hatreds arriving, a weeping women came to my old house to tell her being beaten by the same villagers. its all the demons against my Royal, here esp. my past dad, the God. they surely only one way to leak their failure and envies, that's death, sooner or later.

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life in unstable: hometown journey

Tue, 12 May 2009 08:35:00 -0700

i was asked to visit my elder sisters' home before i arrived my hometown. so, after stayed at hometown village, zhudajiu, for more than a week, i visited Tianzhen, the town i haunted when i studied in junior middle school some mile away, and my past eldest sister lived near the town when then worker class in China society in rural area still domineer and enviable. all my sisters married in the town but i most missing my eldest sister, who once the proud of my old family, and commit suicide by jumping into Changjiang river in a dawn after quarreled with her husband when her 2 children still in their childhood. that's the bravest deed i ever known. so many year i still got courage from her, knowing that one thing anyone can pick, death.

in the week in the town, i slept in my youngest elder sister's house, while went to work online in my second elder sister's house, where evils frequently challenged me. the house owner, my elder sister's husband, a family name ruan (the same syllabus in Chinese can mean soft), just like my baby's grandma, is really a demon, the 2 nephews from the start peeking my life and attempted to mimic me. God knows how they frustrated in the process of stealth and envy.

this week, i almost did what i in view that's important. my sleep was not smooth, for weak sound, like crack or steps around, can woke me up. my elder sisters, as well as their husbands, all in rotation of working time table, cater to the full orders in the cement factory they work for. most of time i was alone slept in the whole house, on second floor. in my hometown village, even more sounds in nights, for the mountains and forest so close, and there r cattle. so i usually listening till mid night exhaust took me into sleep. quite some of them really holy message, God sees my life sounder here in coming months.

its the first morning i returned hometown village from Tianzhen town. last night i listen a lot, and dreamed a lot. i dreamed of God and his way of evolution, from one to 2, to 4, etc. i also felt the perished environment, including the ill will from my mother, my sister-in-law or my eldest brother. i dreamed surveillance in college, and among the students of God message, including that from my blogs. i also know my beloved suffering surveillance exerted by the China authority nowadays.

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the plenty land: my hometown journey

Sun, 03 May 2009 04:48:00 -0700

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the front yard of my past dad's old house

my dad's old house had been surrounded by evil minded follower villagers. but the most precious asset, the broad front yard paved by mostly large stones, made by my dad when he worked, is almost intact even the front side sliding under evil power. here is the introduction.

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rain day, the second day of my arrival of my hometown

my hometown, Central China, is a rain plenty place. it rained just shown welcome in the first day on my arrival. then drizzled in night. i usually blessed by my God if i was in move by love, or the evils trying to dirt my ground. the rain in my hometown usually heavy, can flow on ground like stream. its so nice to see u again when i m in the first year of my 40s.

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a talk between a post-graduate, also a hometown folk, and me via im, about my hometown journey.

Sat, 02 May 2009 14:01:00 -0700

日期:2009-5-1

benzrad

16:12:04

我现在朱大九。估计呆4个月。

朱水文

16:12:31

你为撒回去呢？

朱水文

16:12:35

benzrad

16:12:57

想老家啊。该干了早干。

朱水文

16:13:13

不用上班吗？

benzrad

16:13:27

在老家听说你结完婚了。

朱水文

16:13:48

我不是今年过年来跟你提过吗？

benzrad

16:13:53

班上就那么回事。天意啊。

benzrad

16:14:02

不记得。

朱水文

16:14:07

咋这么说呢？

朱水文

16:14:14

benzrad

16:14:34

你忙，我忙别的。

朱水文

16:14:42

好的

日期:2009-5-2

朱水文

16:13:13

？？

benzrad

16:13:14

您好，我现在有事不在，一会再和您联系。

朱水文

16:13:15

在吗？

benzrad

16:33:59

刚注意。

朱水文

16:34:33

你在家里可好

benzrad

16:34:58

还行。正在整理照片和博客。

朱水文

16:35:20

哦

benzrad

16:35:27

照片这两天上传，有近200张，风景和任务。

benzrad

16:35:32

人物。

benzrad

16:35:56

昨天刚上网。憋了十几天。

朱水文

16:35:57

不错

朱水文

16:36:10

这10几天干吗去了？

benzrad

16:36:51

关心这个啊？看天看地看风景呗。

朱水文

16:37:27

朱大九的风景不错

benzrad

16:38:40

是啊，也有败家子

朱水文

16:38:55

谁？

benzrad

16:40:36

开山的，投水的。

朱水文

16:48:41

我最烦的是村里垃圾太多，特别是白色污染。

本来乡村应该是山清水秀，鸡叫狗吠，一派祥和。但好像现在不是。。。。

benzrad

16:53:24

白色污染那是全球性的，我没在意。关键是固态的东西，恒久的东西，像后壁山，大坝等。

benzrad

16:55:51

稍远一些的动工的更多，出了水库外边的那些山，不少都派了值得疑虑的用场，像取石，殡葬，石灰等。

朱水文

16:56:55

发展没有规划

朱水文

16:57:01

乱

benzrad

16:57:18

还有风水这一层

朱水文

16:57:47

你是说破坏了我们村的风水？

benzrad

16:59:04

那个我暂时不懂，但是山气水脉，天灵地育之类我很信。

benzrad

17:01:36

听说你弟弟找着了，真让人唏嘘。

朱水文

17:02:34

是啊，

我前不久去看他了

朱水文

17:02:51

还行，就是没找到钱

朱水文

17:03:07

人身体各方面还行

benzrad

17:03:51

你弟弟那个可能很阳气的。不为人用可能挺佑家人的。

benzrad

17:04:26

梦想多远，就能走多远。

benzrad

17:05:07

过去人的出息是大约可以用里程来计的。

朱水文

17:05:45

"你弟弟那个可能很阳气的。不为人用可能挺佑家人的"

这怎么理解？

benzrad

17:07:16

有时候出人意外是很有价值的，就像好点子。科学的进步就是假说包容力的扩展。

benzrad

17:07:58

不为人知的空间是极其稀罕的。我这么觉得。

朱水文

17:08:18

感觉你思想很有深度

朱水文

17:08:25

谢谢你！

朱水文

17:08:30

对了，

我准备进四川工作了啊。

benzrad

17:08:40

你的头像很让我反感，蓝色和狗都很倒霉的。

朱水文

17:08:58

那我准备换一个

朱水文

17:09:12

你给点意见我，

benzrad

17:09:31

随你。反正你的爱好引起我的警惕。

benzrad

17:09:53

人自有命，没啥可说的。

朱水文

17:11:55

你刷新下，

我头像换了啊

朱水文

17:12:15

你感觉这个怎么样？

benzrad

17:12:32

随便的了。人缘不是强求的。

朱水文

17:12:57

你怎么每次说话这样深度呢？

你的建议我愿意采纳

朱水文

17:14:01

我很愿跟你做朋友

benzrad

17:15:37

师傅，不是愿不愿意，是命然。另外，我想把这个谈话发到我的博客，行不？你要求的话我可以去掉你的名字或甚至你的发言。我也觉得我说的有精彩。

朱水文

17:16:08

当然可以

benzrad

17:16:15

尤其是关于朱大九的，只是我想记录的。

benzrad

17:16:19

谢谢。

朱水文

17:16:42

基督教也老提到'命'这个字眼吗

benzrad

17:19:41

天使不是吗？上帝之路已经有许多先知和天使在前驱和善后。约翰不是吗？圣经说他是先于基督到达的，把受洗者领到基督前。

朱水文

17:21:27

受教

benzrad 17:27:56

还有东方三王来拜。流数和摩西就更是啦。我就看过旧约的前面到约翰的几章。希望有机会读完。

benzrad 17:28:55

小布什也不爱看书。神授不用学者和法师或律师。

benzrad 17:29:45

就一个信。

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enjoy my life: in hometown journey

Sat, 02 May 2009 13:36:00 -0700

bird on top of roof of my eldest brother.

children in my hometown village

sweat girl guested in the town my elder sisters live.

benzrad, me, posed in front of the old but prosperous tree near my past dad's house.

it has been quite some time after i had the idea that i can retreat to my hometown to live with my current earnings. and time to cultivate in the hometown ecosystem to promote and protect its fame as well as the power source of my Royal. when i dozed more and more in my baby's mother, emakingir's house in weekends, and peeking eyes disturbing my relation with my baby, i suddenly had the idea that i can left Qiqihar, where i worked for 18 years since my graduation, and spare more time for the descending of my fiancees, including girls from US, Japan, Taiwan, and the mainland of China. last time, several weeks ago i discussed it with baby but he disagreed with me and refuted it by won me in our bet. i told him i think its time for me to travel and fetch my girls who waited for me so long, even they live well in their each respectable famous family. i told ema my decision at noon after she brought baby back home. i got train tickets in hours on my own, queued in the ticket box office. in the night ema prepared my travel suite. my new camera from my Masheng, and notebook from my girl zhou, just fit my need to work/blog on the move or remotely.

its a interesting tour from Qiqihar to Zhudajiu, my hometown village, central China. first time i gather the courage to watch people in the eye of looking around for & choosing my gifted girls. it costs some time before i did that. in the train from Qiqihar to Beijing, at first i still merged in the mob, till i found a tall slim girl, likely a student, a row of seats behind me, and a girl with her parents in a row in front of me, aboard on Tianjin, where i spent 4 years to graduate from Nankai Univ. on train from Beijing to Wuhan, i turned talkative for my neighbor seat rightly a girl, and the facing seat active talked to her, even they don't previously knew each other. the facing seat, a boy officer in China air force, hideous about his career, also from Hubei Prov., let me know i should not trust easily the ranks in the army of my kingdom. i got help from a train cop, also from my girl zhou, to learn the fact. i shown the crowd around in trains my favorite gears, my camera and notebook, and my best gift from God, my baby son, warren zhu, the God, and hope of China. i even got 2 easy friends with their im (instant message). on highway bus from Wuhan to Wuxue, my hometown county city, 2 retired women aside me talked about their migration to Wuhan, the capital of the province, from Wuxue, let me know that the most benefited group in China was the cadre class, the officer all over the ruling machine. they also tentatively encouraged me to live in Wuhan in coming years in my life, in God's setting.

i took a taxi directly to my hometown village, at a price of ￥30. the taxi was new and its driver likely prepared, i was depressed to worry my life to be too hard in my dad's house, while only my mother left and almost no income except her children's support, just after i sat. when i found my mother, she sighed and complained aging. but soon i recovered from the impressed anxiousness of hard living with my poor economy, even i do own the whole China, and the strongest in economy, my Japanese fiancee Masheng Youjizi, who had bought my palace in my hometown and aided me already for times. my mother soon revitalized and busy with treating me and visiting country folks. and soon my 3rd elder sister, my most cherished sibling beside my past eldest sister, arrived with her husband. her husband and she cooked most dishes for my first meal in hometown journey.

the second meal in my eldest brother's house, and the third in my second elder brother's house, which some distance from my dad's house in the same village, and whose scenario was splendid. in the coming days, i stayed all time in my dad's house and burning the sunshine my past dad worked with so many years. i also captured lots of people and still lives around the old house of my past dad with my new camera, a Japanese product. i recognized the perished environment, as well the hidden evils, compassed my dad's house. Masheng, with the Sun,talked with me all time. i gradually adopt frizzle as my friend and angel from Heaven. i also received several child time friends' visits, including my best&earliest friend, also a villager in zhudajiu, who now lives in Guilin, southwest China. visiting friends always let my mother, who is life time hospitable, glad.

today its the first day in my hometown journey connected to the Internet again. i first busy restored the down os on my nephew's desktop, just after i arrived the town where my 2 sisters alive lives, and bathed myself in my youngest elder sister's house. to my astonish, my sms posting to 2 domestic microblogs portal, qq's taotao, and hexun, which i linked to my dearest Japanese fiancee, Masheng, both failed to parse most of my status updates, which mostly combined 2 or more blog item in one sms. so i launched to repost and sometimes rewrote my twitter to log them. the nephews, in family name of ruan (the same syllabus can mean soft in English ), almost the same devil as my baby's grandma's family, under the same family name, busy with breaking my camera and notebook, just in vain to peek my power's source. i later prepared some working environment on the desktop, for i intended to linger in the town for a week. after some work, i connected to my baby son who occasionally online while gaming on pc in Qiqihar. i rabble a lot to him, whose mother, ema, join us together online. i told my baby i will have my Royal's palace in Wuhan and Beijing, arranged and attended by my girl zhou and my Taiwanese fiancee, while Masheng managed that in my hometown village and in its county, Wuxue, Tianzhen, where my sisters live, and Shanghai. i told baby all my property also his, and he is the greatest and singular in the universe. he dislikes my gossip as usual and turned to his favorite game in the mid.

its a peaceful night. it started to drizzle after i dined in my youngest elder sister's home. it more or less let me worry that dirty or ill will around can bring sorrow to my beloved, but now i decided that its a kind of baptism, and always means bless and innocent upon me and my Royal. its a lonely night where i blogging on the second floor in the house of my sister's, where is empty on the floor. i longing for reuniting with all my girls whose never fading beauty and charm can cure any fear or misfortune in my life.

bye, my dearest. its time to meet u in my dream.

Ps: last night i rained late, and continued this morning. my sleep in the new place was almost smoothly. this rain morning let me felt sorry and beautifully constrained. God, let me forever in ur arms. and in the morning after breakfast, i met a native little girl, who attracted me a lot and so did her by me, played mud near my sister's house with her 2 pal girls. she lives in Wuxue. God&Masheng, and my girl zhou, as well as my Taiwan girl, who all accompany me here in my hometown journey, witness it from the blessing.

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first gloomy morning, stayed with baby since noon.blessed with a drizzle in afternoon.

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 11:54:00 -0700

these days baby under his grandma's custody in daytime, for his previous kindergarten went bankrupt. i can't trust baby's health to the demon woman, so i constantly in anxiousness when i in office. 2 beginning days started with bright sunshine, then gradually turned into pale and weak afternoon, twice drove me heading home just after lunch in office. each time i saw the devil challenged me silently. i don't know how to rid baby off the dirty, but i think my presence at home can enhance baby's strength against evils the demon can exert. today its from the start a gloomy day, cloudy since the morning. i dozed a lot in office, to be exact, almost the full morning. baby recently also slept a lot, mostly from 12 to 4pm when the demon grandma slept aside him in bedroom, unlike usually only an hour after lunch. in office i dreamed of chasing an a bit fat girl, and won her against 2 of her admirers. when i woke up, the weak sunshine alarms my cares about baby in the arms of the grandma, i tried to read awhile, then let it go and left the office to home. baby seemingly OK, and we soon gaming on pc. his mother had arranged to check his health in hospital to assure the privilege to join his new kindergarten, which previously a affiliate unit of the company i once worked for, just minutes walks from my office. baby this afternoon woke up earlier and soon picked his favorite game on my notebook, while i attending downloading recently speedy, at same time skimmed some ebook. the anxiousness left me after i saw my baby, but a drizzle started after lunch really blessed me a lot. i love rain and drizzle so much, it recall my life memory of solitary and silence in hand with the nature, when i grew in my hometown in central China.

Ok, its a happy story about my concerns. i hope my dear in Japan can see my obligation to the Sun and the God of rain. i live in the shine of God and forever in his adoration. i look into every opportunity to unite with u in the same perfume of our bodies closely attached.

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bright morning sunshine after gloomy and snow-raining day of yesterday

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 03:13:00 -0700

yesterday is a gloomy day. pale sky since the morning. its also cold in office. i busy with correcting links on my blogger blogs, after dozed enough, via colleague's Internet access when he absent. when it turned windier and colder, i left office to home to assure baby's free of the evil grandma who custody him these days, for baby's kindergarten in the process of bankrupt and its fate uncertain till 15th this month. baby slept all the afternoon since i arrived home. after the grandma left, it turns into sunshine again. baby played pc games all the night since woke up. his mom also glad when she join us from her school.

my once work place and still offers my salary from my kingdom, QRRS, now suffering insufficient orders, and had to arranged its employees into rotating vacation. i was arranged to rest since 27th of this month till May 4th. the length of time yet suffices me a hometown tour, nor the budget i now have does. but i still look forward opportunity of a hometown staying.

nothing can be compared with the brilliant and auspicious face of the sun. this morning i was so encouraged to see its OK for all i concerned. i know my baby, and my beloved girls, my fiancees, just righteous in growth and in divinity. i see his glory of God never more splendid.

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mostly bright days, trust more my concerns on baby to God

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 14:31:00 -0700

family dine out.

baby in gaze.

its a busy week. i totally immersed in the biography of warren baffett, the investment God in US. baby stayed mostly at home, under the custody of the devil grandma, for his kindergarten went bankrupt. every afternoon i felt i had to return home earlier to rid baby off dirt from the demon. i stayed mostly at noon in office, enjoying the subscribed ready food, which quite more delicious than that ema cooked. ema sometimes also stayed in her school, left baby in the control of the grandma, which left me quite unease. and 2 afternoon when i got home i found baby absent while the grandma's bike left on the ground. later ema said the grandma brought baby out. the first day of the working week the devil even brought baby to her own house, just after i broken her conspire in the last working week of trying to sleep with baby, and after the last weekends when ema told me her mother felt ill. she surely ill and from the beginning of her dirty life. dust to earth, evil to void.

this weekends i dozed a lot, to escape missing of my beloved. in fact yesterday i almost slept all day. till dinner i got active. i just dozed when i felt boring, with endless and hopeless missing my girls. this afternoon i finished reading to warren baffett's biography, there r quite wise in it. i link all heros to God's setting.

its a bright day today, even i seldom left bed and nor shoot photos. the mosting exciting season, the summer, is coming. i will see more messages from my fiancees.

dogs in China surveillance heavily hacking my pc, as long as it connected to Internet. i restored from backup several times, each time ran healthily hours, then lots of errs when ran programs, esp. the media player, downloader, favorite games, and browsers, including ie, firefox, chrome, etc. they also heavily blocking sites i frequent, let any operation online pains of lagged responses, and waiting and frustrations.

Internet in office totally down for me. i know dog barking closer. but all in end, its a dirty play of their own.

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bright days, tour Longsha park on a day after lunar Qingming Day

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 11:51:00 -0700

praying dad and baby son

baby and his mom in hill towner.

these days r quite some bright days. also quite some colleagues tried to contact me, likely some good news on me attacked greedy eyes. i more or less still in urgency to search for my beloved, to rid my longing for change, and revitalized my life with oil and water or stream. today is the second day of vacation lunar Qingming Day, the first year with such a national holiday. yesterday i dozed a lot to avoid missing and rampant message about my concerns. this morning i again want to sleep to dream of my beloved, but baby son disagreed. his mother joined her school in morning. he can't find funs alone in pc games. i played awhile with him after he cried for being alone. devils around let he and me encountered barrage when we worked together. that's common these days, quite some occasions i was under anxious about baby's future character or personality, and his position in my Royal, with my other sons and daughters, baby's sisters and brothers, arriving. spying eyes turning thick since my Royal's growth.

soon baby's mother returned. she rushed to put on baby to join her girl friend, a fat woman in family name of Guan ( means in English gate, or cadre with the same Chinese syllabus), i asked to join but ema doubted if i will be a barrage. but baby son insisted my companion. i found they gathered in Longsha park, the biggest garden in Qiqihar. we took photos. baby rode on puppy elephant. we saw animals in its zoo. then we dined nearby. we r the first arrived the restaurant and ordered first. but an later arrived group took a seat near us took first dish and many other dishes they ordered, let us waiting and in want. they r likely dogs in revenge, but also can be the hatred family members, who at a lose upon my pride and glory when bride their sisters, of my beloved. baby was unease with them and squadded in meals for many times. when we left, 3 girl also departing from a nearby restaurant. the guan soon left us to take her way and at once we felt better.

baby slept just after we left the bus. he slept on my shoulders when we went home. its a bright day so far. i sorted photos then also dozed. when i woke up, it turned gloomy. i know conspires against my Royal turns thick and haste. yesterday baby's kindergarten broke down. we had to find baby another kindergarten. but all after all, God seeing. He seeing and killing. that's rule the devils hated.

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