BlAcK mAgIc RoBi

About a fly

2012-01-29T07:35:00.000-08:00

I was tempted to write this post when this afternoon during lunch, my cousin skillfully swatted a fly with a roll of newspaper and injured it. This made it easier to catch and afterward kill and throw it in the bin, and also made me think what right did we have to kill the fly.

People perceive flies as pests, trying to dirty our food by stepping and vomiting all over it. Yet what was it really trying to do? Pestering us, or finding food to survive? So what is so wrong about it? Yet it is just so hard and tiring to simply wave it away. We just can't eat in peace!

Then what are we? Pests as well? We overfish, we over-hunt, we cut down trees. We're stealing another's food, we're stealing another's home. Yet we're just trying to survive, or are we? Why can't we just take enough? Because those who take enough suffer. The crocodile that kills its prey that lasts him a few days gets skinned. The elephant that roams in the jungle gets her tusks chopped off and her home deforested. It's not just slightly more than what we need, it's overwhelmingly too much. Why are we stealing so much of theirs?

It's not so much of whether nature can heal itself. Some tell us not to underestimate the healing powers of nature. Yet we have to ask ourselves, even if starfish can regenerate its limbs, is it right to slice off its arms just in the name of fun? How human are you? Very human.

vids~

2012-01-17T06:19:00.001-08:00

Time has a way of changing things

2012-01-01T19:49:00.000-08:00

No wonder people can get so fascinated by time. I've been wanting to write something that's been on my mind for a few days, yet there has been so many obstacles. I was on holiday, I wanted to write it well, I didn't know how to write it. And I didn't wanna refer to anyone. Yet I also needed enough anger to well up in me, despite the rapid flushes that occur so frequently, a little too frequently. It makes me think, if those things that anger me truly mean something.

2011 has passed so quickly. I've made many mistakes, yet I've learnt a lot (tho it could have been more)..

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..yup that's a bucket of cold water. Come to think of it, at this point in time, I really feel like buckets of cold water are being thrown over me. It makes me want to become a fish. How do I persuade God to let me become one? I'm so angry. Yet am I angry at the people who throw those buckets of water, or myself for not being able to persuade Him. The line between those two seems to be so thin once I think of it. I had thought it was those people who threw those buckets of cold water.

I had wanted to write, that it was so ironic that I can be so angry at one person yet can't get that angry. I guess many things can be ironic. Well everything I guess, since particles have their own anti-particles. This confusion hadn't really frustrated me tho. It was just something at the back of my mind.

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Well, I've finally written this. And I understand now. It's hard but I'm gonna try hard.
Writing has a way of solving things.
Time is just the medium.
And you're the writer.

Not gooooood....

2011-10-18T10:51:00.000-07:00

Follow me at Elo's Animal Guide and Human/dancer. (both are blogs)

funny how goooood may have different pronunciations since there're soo many oooos and it's ambiguous which word I'm trying to mean. But u know la! HAHA

Chem B and physics B and math E. The rest duno yet..Disappointing of course but I'd rather think of other stuff than wallow in self-pity. LOL i never thought I'd use this phrase cuz I find it quite clichéd.. Wudn't it be cool if I got an A for Bio and i'd have BABE~ THE PIG HAHAHA:P

Anw overall this promos has been quite screwed to be honest. Made mistakes like reading off the calculator wrongly-.- And I still haven't mastered the art of using the right terms, esp for chem. haven't reviewed my physics paper yet. And time is still ticking the crap outta me. Didn't make myself think logically enough during the exams..carelessness is just gonna grab all those valuable marks away from me>.< Oh yeah but I made some conceptual errors in my chem paper tho..But I'll classify them under carelessness cuz usually I didn't read the question carefully/completely, or I didn't contextualize the question. Just seems like my mind was in a mess.

K that's the end of Chem and Math review. Oh but I haven't reviewed Chem MCQ. minus 10 marks AIYO! SO 10 more questions to review!!

Really have to be more careful next time.
Really don't know if this means my chances of taking h3 are gone.

At least ML said they may still consider me(OMG even when I got an E?!)..

Do I sound like I'm wallowing in self-pity? Haha mayb u think I do:P

ANW I've been quite happy with post-promos stuff I've done~ Gonna train hard too!! ARGH MUSCLE ACHE LIKE CRAZY NOW...STARVING LOL.

K now I've to think of, how I'm gonna cope next year. Especially if they REALLY let me take h3. That would need luck and I hope I'll have it in this time of GREAT and DESPO NEED!!!!!

TTFN!

Tumblr!!

2011-10-12T04:34:00.000-07:00

Follow me @ elosanimalguide.tumblr.com and black-magic-robi.tumblr.com.

PvsP

2011-09-11T00:30:00.000-07:00

even tho I slept at 5am in the morn, I didn't really feel like I was gona die. Managed to survive the whole day!!^^ the matches were damn fun especially the last 2. Kinda scary standing in the front row trying to defend but it was real satisfying when u manage to save the ball or even gain a point~ Playing in mixed teams are so much awesome-ness!

Actually in the morn it was kinda bad cuz it was real hot and the atmosphere was kinda just not right. But after that it became alright~ so everything became okay. Haha ppl must think I've got some attitude prob>.<

MAF was nice cuz the deco was pretty(: prob H's work!! The rest was kinda so-so..the singing was nice tho. They cud just do away with the cheer. Everyone was just aiya kk we're just gona cheer to support you. Not much 气氛..became really tired after that..eyes really dry.. so we went home! thank God C's dad came to fetch^^

Sigh I miss CS so much! Miss goin out with my OG..
Feel so dead now...

TTFN!~

Tues

2011-08-23T06:15:00.001-07:00

Man I kinda lost track of what day it is>.<

Anw it's the 4th day of our VIETNAM VB COMPS TRIP!(: Everything's been awesome. The team's awesome. Quite bonded^^ Everyone's high and happy.

And we won our match against Macau today!! 25-18, 25-15, 25-12. Wet towel: we were at a height advantage. We've to meet stronger teams and we've to play even better! And I'm sure we'll continue to improve. Everyone's playing awesome!!(:

Made some mistakes>.< But otherwise quite happy and on form^^

CS this year is quite awesome. Everyone's high and happy:D Haha I admit I'm not as high as them but it's just my personality. It's really enjoyable to be with them^^

Oh forgot to say we lost to Iran ytd..Quite close lah.. 25-17, 25-20, 25-20 I THINK. But we played quite well!! They're really so tall.. so hard to block!! And they're so much bigger sized than us. But I thought they were playable so not bad a job done by us^^

WHOA SO MUCH LAUNDRY>.< And the fan dropped..Lol almost forgot abt it..Our room is a mess LOLLLLL.

ARGH have to go watch Hong Kong against Iran(Y) soon so..

TTFN!~

Censored

2011-08-13T04:25:00.000-07:00

Freedom of expression? In reality, it's impossible. It's like the fragile economy. Once you change something, there'll be many repercussions. If one says smth wrong, it'll affect your life. It depends on the severity too tho. If the issue is large, obviously the effects are significant. But sometimes even a small issue can cause huge problems. That's how life is. That's how sad life can be.

But I believe there are always beautiful things in life. And it's these sad things that make them even more beautiful and rare(:

Gonna rush to change now or I won't have dinner!>.<

TTFN!~

Motivated(:

2011-08-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

haha I've been playing quite well these few days(: well not EXCEPTIONALLY WELL but compared to the trngs before this "good" period, it's good progress(: HAHA cuz I've been on the decline so I'm happy and high that I'm climbing back up the mountain!!:D

LOL and I need to get the "scoring rhythm" back. Haven't really been able to score well in tests:/ It's most irritating when you understand the concepts but are unable to express them using the expected key words.

Anw these few days have been good. But I NEED to strive for the better cuz there're always ppl in the world better than you! The world is so rapidly improving and we need to keep up!! Haha at least that's a way of keeping myself satisfied. Competition can be healthy(:

K it's late alr and I'm sleepy so..

TTFN~

Everything will be alright(:

2011-07-19T02:57:00.000-07:00

Let this apply to all my friends(: Somehow quite a few of my friends aren't that happy:( Well, for various reasons..

Anw I also used that as my title to cheer myself on(: I guess I naturally display my happy side..And my tired side apparently HAHA. Sigh I'm feeling less and less passion for school..Just wana stay at home to use the Internet. Much more inspirational. Haven't even had time to go to the lib to get more animal books!!>.< AIYA I feel I'm wasting so much time in school!! So many other things in the world!!!!!! Aiya actually I shouldn't be saying all these cuz it's not like I'm doing fantastically well..But my sucky grades don't really spur me on..:/

Half the year's alr passed..soon the J2s will leave..:( I really wonder what it would be like without them around..sigh..missing people is tough..ARGHHHHH):

SHALL GO PRAC GUITAR NOWWWW!!^^

TTFN!~

Life's got its ups and downs

2011-07-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

Hmm I don't know if I should be up or down cuz bad things keep happening around me these few days! So I seem to be so fortunate..I guess it's the balance of things. There will always be both bad and good things happening simultaneously. And all the events have taught me not to be too sad over things we've lost. They're probably lost for a reason..and u'll learn something from that loss. Appreciate what you have now!!

Anw trngs have been awesome(: But hmm I feel like I'm trng hard but i'm not losing fats or gaining more muscles LOL. not hard enough?! Oh and Asians are comin soooooonnnn! SO EXCITED TO GO TO VIETNAM!(:

ASEAN was great this year. Made friends and swapped t-shirts. And went to USS!(: And I guess my mindset was right this time. I was such an idiot last year LOL>.<

Haha anw speaking of vb (last year's ASEAN was for vb), trngs are only once a week. and it clashes with dance-.- Is it really that hard to arrange trng on another day? sigh..But somehow the choice is quite easy to make, just that it's made hard by the consequences.

TTFN!~

WHAT'S HAPPENED TO ME?!

2011-06-27T04:13:00.000-07:00

Sigh..haven't been so affected so much before..I still can study (like I still can motivate myself) but I've no mood at all and I don't even want to make myself study. I just keep thinking of all the other things in life.. Why do our hormones work this way? But I guess I'm fortunate to be able to feel this way cuz it makes life much worth living. It's just quite scary still..scary to lose things..I'm scared that everything's not real. Why are there so many restrictions?:(

TTFN~~

d'Arts!

2011-06-11T09:27:00.001-07:00

My YFC grp!!<333

d'Arts is made of

We're supporting

Actually LAA gives the needy children who really want to learn the arts the chance to do so! But every year, they need $800k to sustain the school. Last year, there was a deficit of $200k..

ANY ARTISTS OUT THERE?!?!?! What would your world be like without having the chance to learn DANCE, MUSIC, DRAWING, CULINARY ARTS, ETC? These children REALLY WANT THE CHANCE!

It's so easy to help them. A little donation or just the spread of the word. Parents out there, how about sending your kids to learn the arts at LAA! You would be helping to sponsor a part of the fees for another child like yours!

All for a good cause!

Visit http://deearts.tumblr.com/ or our http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_150516721688831&ap=1 for more updates and ways to help LAA!

TTFN!<3

DANCE NITE 2011

2011-05-30T10:21:00.000-07:00

WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lol the audience was CRAZY!! HAHAHA!!

It's really the last time I'll be dancing with the J2s!!!!!!!!!!! Really emo T.T It's been such a short yet long journey. SYF, PT, fun, jokes, warm-ups, friends, etc etc it has all been so wonderful. I'm so glad I decided to join modern. BEST EXPERIENCE EVERRRRRR!!!!!!! Can't believe time just flies past so quickly. It's over in a flash. I really can still remember the first day of trng, thought I don't rmb the date haha>.<

SIGH!! I hope we'll keep in contact. J2s, I'll miss dancing with yall!<3

TTFN!

Too sensitive

2011-05-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

Am I reading too much into things? But sometimes my gut feel is really accurate..Haiz been thinking too much!! Is it worth it? I believe it is cuz the feeling makes u think about ur relationships and loads of other random stuff which I think are impt tho random.

ANW I've got loads of stuff to catch up on..Don't know why I'm here tho.. Bio, Chem, Econs.. Sigh.. But I'm quite motivated so I'm still fine(: Gona miss 2 papers and more lessons cuz of comps. J1 is really so eventful! It's been the best year of my life yet. It's e year b4 the critical year!! So I'm glad J1 turned out this way(: Everything is laying themselves out nicely. Tho there'll be things I dislike, I know they're things that should be the way they are. In life, we give and take!

TTFN!<3

Motivation!!

2011-05-07T23:40:00.000-07:00

YAY I'm starting to feel motivation to do work:) Don't know where it came from. But why am I still here? LOL. Well cuz I'm tired now after training..so this is kinda like, a relaxing thing to do?! 2 more days to train, and get back my spike..I really wana be able to play WITHOUT REGRETS on WED!!:D It's gona be a memorable match:) because it's gona be a tough match but I'll be playing with ppl I really love. This team is really special. It's hard to explain. Less than a year together but the relationship is real awesome. Mayb cuz it's JC and everything's diff. We're more grown up and all..

ANW gona gear up to do my pile of work. GP, math, econs, chem, bio, SL..

TTFN!:D

FAIL

2011-04-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

AIYUHHH SO SIAN lose to NY wth.. And I'm not doin well in sch yet I feel so slack AND I have no mood to study. They keep saying to enjoy J1 but I know I can't cuz I'm taking trip science and I hav 3 CCAs and I can't afford to slack for too long.. DYING FOR CHEM I found the lecture test quite ok but I stoned at the paper and I didn't do almost all the mcqs and I know I screwed up the first few qns which = screwed up everything.. it's not graded for me but STILL.. And I don't feel like studying cuz I know how to do the qns=.= SIAN..k finished ranting and I feel so much better. I should mug rite..since I feel I'm not doin well..but so lazyy...when u know u can do smth yet u can't..u just dun feel like mugging cuz it seems like a waste of time and there are so many better things for u to do..

TTFN!~

:DDDD

2011-04-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

Gosh I can't believe it.. Gold for high jump..:):):) was really shocked.. was quite stone during my finals.. but some energy frm don't know where got me over 1.53..I cleared 1.5 only on my 3rd attempt..but I got over 1.53 in one.. REALLY HOPE E STREAK CONTINUES. VB is REALLY IMPT TO ME!!!!!! trng's been awesome/terrible. Awesome cuz we have awesome coaches but terrible cuz of pt. BUT ANYTHIN TO WINNNNN!!

Anw I keep ponning lessons hahaXP but it's better this way cuz I learn better on my own I guess..Just need to fill in e blanks for bio and chem notes..but I guess I'm coping ok..just that I dun hav time for my own stuff..Actually that's not true I'm blogging omg..>.< I should be finishing up my tutorials so that I'll hav time for my vet science stuff.. GOSH NEED TO BE DISCIPLINED BB!

TTFN!~`

GWH

2011-04-01T08:31:00.000-07:00

OMFG hahaha. F=freaking haha:p GOLD WITH HONOURS! and only 2 JCs got it!:D haiz I wana see e video if they took one.. I bet it's fantastic:p The funniest thing is, I had so much make up on that my relatives and family didn't recognise me=.= Aish but it's sad that it's all over..so I was a little emo last night..

Anw I hav an elder bro in sch now haha:D

Gona sleep now hav to wake up really early tmr!

I don't think I'm gona blog much these few weeks cuz I'll hav vb comps etc..

TTFN!

emo-ing again

2011-03-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

Lols y am I goin thru this all over again? Anw it's caused by a few things.. and I'm tryin my best to control it/ handle it.

Anw ytd I went with C for Animal Welfare Symposium for Students :D Very very meaningful. Many things I don't wana believe but they're all happening right at our doorstep. Let's start with the first step. Go vegetarian. OH NO WHAT ABT MILK! I love milk:( Oh but I'm actually quite good. I drink milk formula. Hey but I don't know what it's made of. WHAT IF IT'S ALSO MADE OF COW'S MILK? shall go check haha.

Go to earthlings.com. Go vegetarian.

TTFN!~

really hols:)

2011-03-16T08:42:00.000-07:00

wow I can't believe it. I've been reaching home at 1030 for the past few nights, including today. Actually not 1030 only. 11-12 sometimes.. Gosh my OG's crazy we go out almost every day of e hols! But actually it's only the few of us.. not ALL of the OG is bonded. But it's not bad! quite a lot of peeps:D

Trng has been fun<3 but quite slack at parts. VB is ok..I try to put in effort but the effect doesn't show:( Nid to get back my techniqueT.T If it were like gym then that would be awesome! Can't believe I still can do some of the stunts:p haha.

I still have 4 subj of hw left. All the writing subj haha.. PW, GP, BIO, ECONS..

Lol my math results aren't out yet..I keep making careless mistakes. Like I'm half-blind..

Kk tmr is SYF rehearsal I'd better get to bed soooooon!

TTFN!<3

I LOVE OG18

2011-03-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

Yay another gathering! Went to botanical gardens to play frisbee and take loads of sik shots:P the frisbee dropped into the pond=.= so the cleaner got his huge net and hauled it back up for us. And e person who threw it in had to go wash it:P

then we went to eat our expensive lunch. then BOWLING! hais no strike at all:( where did my beginner's luck go to?!

then shopping at ion.

lol sounds like i totally screwed up my education. no time for hw at all. bleh.

but NOOOO I went to ny this morn and did some chem which I really really love:) And I managed to do my backflip and back summer. I feel so accomplished today:p

K really gotta sleep now. NIGHT NIGHT!

TTFN!<3

OUCH

2011-03-12T05:25:00.000-08:00

MY THROAT FREAKIN HURTS:( I'm so sad I got bitten by the flu bug=.=

yeah B it's hard to carry out cuz ppl only look at conventional med med certs.. lol.. I went to the doctor's and got my med and ate my med and I'm feeling terrible.. It's a total waste of money and time and energy..I wish I can have my own taste of homeopathy..

SYF IS COMING!!!!!!! :DDDDDD

COMPS ARE COMING!!!!!!! :DDDDDD But I don't feel very ready..

Don't really feel like writing these days.. My throat just makes me depressed and I'm in no mood to write proper stuff.

So goodnight.
~TTFN~

RAH!

2011-02-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

Haiz! I was waiting for someone to respond to my previous post b4 I write another post but haiz! obviously, no one did, so I shall just write a new post=.=

nyvb oh no! but nvm we still hav C div..I think I'll b able to go watch cuz by then I'll hav less frequent CCAs.

HCJC!! Haha I can't rmb if I've written anything abt it here so if there are any repeats, just bear with it. I LOVE MY OG AND CT! OG18 n 11S71 by the way. OG18 won the shirtilicious comp!!!!:D of course not the whole OG/CT is bonded but my OG has LOADS of enthu n super interesting ppl. My CT is also made of ppl taking trip science, BCML, BCMGerman+E, BCMA, BCMM, so it's super diverse, which I like cuz everyone is so interesting! Hmm Lecture-tutorial system is nice cuz we get to walk arnd (breathe the fresh air). And lectures are cool cuz there're sooo many ppl! lol I'm lame. But actually I don't get the point of lectures since we're supposed to self-study. So anything we don't understand we can just ask during tutorial. Mayb as time goes by and topics get harder, I'll get the point of lectures:p

CCAs have been AWESOME cuz of AWESOME ppl. And I'm quite okay now during vb trng..not too off-form. First few weeks of trngs i've been throwing tantrums and feeling frustrated cuz I cudn't spike properly..Y does this seem to happen every year lol? Anw I shud stop being so emotional on court>.< Doesn't help at all. another bad thing i'm encountering in ccas is that i think i'm gonna lose my parts in syf dance cuz i missed so many trngs:( ARGH i wish i cud help it..but when I dance i feel happy that's y i think ccas r still awesome.

Some updates about subjects: GP tutorials are so fun cuz we hav mini group tasks and the things we come up with are hilarious! hahahaha.. Econs is =.= I shall not elaborate or I'll enrage econs lovers. hehe..not much homework so yay:D But have other stuff to do..

Gona learn the last part of fac dance now! SO BB!

TTFN!~

Homeopathic medicine

2011-02-04T20:06:00.000-08:00

Did you know 80% (I think, anw if it's wrong, I am sure it's above 50%) of people in the US believe in alternative medicine (includes TCM, homeopathy, herbal etc.)?

Anw I don't know if I should believe in homeopathic medicine or not. I believe in natural cures so conventional is not really for me. So if I have fever I just go to sleep without paracetamol. Even if I break out in hives/ rash I don't use my eczema cream (hydrocortisone 2% or smth like that..)

So to let you know what homeopathy is all about, it is using very very diluted solutions of a certain substance to cure an illness. The substance itself should cause similar symptoms to the illness'. However because the substance is so diluted, it doesn't cause the symptoms but only triggers the body's immune system to fight against the illness.

I'm at a dilemma for a quite a few reasons.

1a) How do you cure the illness when it's not exactly the same illness (different cause), but just the same symptoms.
1b) But maybe the illness is the same. Different paths can lead to the same place.
1c) But then it means using a diluted form of something else instead of the homeopathic remedy can also cure the illness. Plus the body would already be trying to cure itself since it alr has the illness.
1d) Or maybe ONLY the homeopathic remedy can trigger the immune system to fight.

2) How can there be water memory?!

3) But there are SO MANY things we don't know about. One example is the beginning of the universe. We haven't conquered science. And actually, we're quite far from that.

4a) There are people who were cured by homeopathy.
b) But how true is that? Placebo effect?
c) But I've read a book by a vet and he said it cured his patients.

5a) The reason why pharmaceutical companies are against homeopathic medicine is cuz the remedies are very cheap to make. If everyone switches to taking homeopathic remedies instead of the expensive conventional medicine, profit goes down.
b) But if the demand is high, price will go up too.

So in conclusion, I shouldn't be believing in homeopathic medicine. However, there is actually not enough research going on for homeopathic medicine. So I'm still in a dilemma. The only point I agree with is 3).

Guys pls tell me your thoughts:)

TTFN!~