It hurts me;
it cuts deeply into my heart
with this warm, sharp and hollow feeling.
It brings me tears and the thoughts
seem to wander further and further away
in no mans land.

I don’t know what to tell you,
I’m completely speechless.
And maybe in some way
I have missed it all
missed something I never had.

I know it’s strange
because you give me this look
like you’re in love with me.
But I know that can’t true,
not someone like you.

I just can’t take it anymore
these compliments you give to me.
Please stop,
I don’t want to cry.

I have this thought in my head
I don’t know if it’s suppose to
but it’s itching my headquarters.

I’m not quite sure what to feel
this emotion, freezing cold;
I am a hot child.

Will this day bring anything positive
or am I a negative child
in these days of destruction.

I can’t even answer my own question
so that’s why I ask myself this again.

Hoping you one day understand
hoping you will see me again
like you used to.

Hoping I’ll never get pass this
because I want to die in your arms.

I want to feel this,
I don’t want to vanish
without you on my mind.

I may never forgive you for what you did
I may never understand the reasons why
but the only thing that seems true
is my love for you.

I cannot tell you goodbye
because you’re already gone.
I cannot say I love you
because you would only ignore me.

I write this little note to you my love
because I will not regret one minute we had
and I will not stand here anymore
watching you twist my world around.

I know my chances are lost
so I shouldn’t be lying to myself again
thinking you’d ever look my way again.

It’s sad, it’s so sad
this love is watering my cheeks
this disaster, this love.

When I listen to the complaints
I make dirty noises
but why should I care?
I’m only a vacuum cleaner.

I crawl around the floor all day
for I got this big long thing in my hand
that does all the dirty work.

When I’m all done
I can see the smiling faces
saying good job, well done!

If I had the power to walk by your side
and to see you grow up
when life takes another turn.

If I had the words
that I’ve always wished I had
to reach for your soul and
speak with you for a bit.

And then I’d take this train
travel my way, all the way
to the other side of this land.

If I could see you now
I’d look into your eyes.
Touch your cheek with my hand
and see you smiling at me.

Then I would wish no other
than a life-time with such a beautiful
and such peaceful human being.

Jag tittade på TV
det är några timmar sen.
jag kände mig ensam
och allt var tyst när TV:n stod på
och när jag grät av tomhet.

Det kanske inte betyder någonting
men det gjorde ont inuti mig
när jag kände tårarna på min kind.

Allting känns annorlunda nu
men det kan vara en förvriden verklighet.

Vid den här tiden på året för 365 dagar sen
hade jag familj, barn och någon vid min sida
som jag älskade.

Det känns konstigt att andas untan dem.
Jag saknar det där, ja livet.

Tystnaden hör inte mig,
det ekar i väggarna av onda sår.
Jag undrar när jag sitter här
och lyssnar på orden.

Jag undrar bara varför.

Ice cream on a hot day
sunshine in the month of may,
skating on the boardwalk today.
I found a lucky penny
picking it up I smiled at the many.

Walking the dog at the river,
laying in the cool grass I shiver.
Gazing up at the clouds in the sky
wishing I was a bird that could fly.

Biking about I wave at the neighbours
mowing lawns as a favour.
Having dinner with friends at night
laughing about all those silly fights.

Stepping into a hot shower
soaping up and smelling like a flower.
Climbing in between fresh sheets
feeling soft breath on my cheek.
Bright moonlight shining through the curtain
peaceful dreams that’s for certain.

It cuts deep into my flesh,
I feel poisoned, I feel weak.

Everything is spinning,
everything is in blur.

I fall down;
they to break through
my thick skin
these tears of mine.

I feel them underneath
screaming at me
Let me go! Let me go!

As I lay there in my own blood
I can see them standing infront of me.
Looking down at me, laughing.

They have silenced me,
I’m becoming numb.

I try to rise knowing that
they can cut me down any moment,
finishing me off.

I step back, looking into their eyes
and turns around, limping.
I begin to walk away.

I need to hear you say it,
I need to see your lips move.
I need to see it in your eyes
as you tell me.

I need to feel you
as you hold me in your arms,
as you tell me the words.

I need to feel you
inside of me,
spreading inside of me.

I want you to say it, right now.
Say the words, say it now.

I need it to survive,
I need it to breath.
Save me, save me now.
Save me please.

Say it, say it please.

I love you.