!koolvista.!

I!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:09:00 +0000

Where's that ? It just beating out loud ..trying to break out..its painful.It keeps me awake all night .Its not listening .Its calm yet its moving .I don't know how to tell you that but yes its real.
   The mind wants to fly in the sky like an eagle ,where there should not be limits to interpretation, like a free bird ,like sun in the sky ,like the blood though my veins .All i need is way to come out .
Who knows why this mind wanders in the fictitious jungle of thoughts,where is the real me!
Really I am addicted ,I want to muse what ever i like .That's enough .
   Its all a big puzzle to me .I am trying to give myself a direction.How to tell you,how crucifying it is to not have you around me ,it feels like I have been without breath . Every time ,I walk the path alone ,it just look out for you around me ,suddenly to realize that you are in HYBD.My mind just look for your shadow and then it cajoles itself of being the sole passerby moving along the road.Its so veinomous.

   " TERE BIN KAHA HAMSE JIA JAYEGA".

You are the music to me that i am trying to put down in words..Words often carry the soul power to percolate through the eyes and all i just want to offer these to your beautiful heart .Your affection give my words a meaning and soul with which can fly anywhere without any limitations.
My thirsty soul just got some feeling of being drenched after seeing you through the eyes of camera.I just felt so thrilled .Felt like just get into those photos of yours and just hug you and tell how it ................!
You look so beautiful holding the tubby.felt like being there at your b'day.You look delighted .
i wish you LOVE my soul!TC.Just look into the picture below,it depicts all me engulfed in you..

for u!

!You+Me!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 19:40:00 +0000

   My love I am so sorry for being so arrogant with you so far .But its all about loving you like anything.I have been breathing so far but it was going to the heart .You know how the heart pumps blood in the same manner when I feel you ,my heart really starts pumping blood like anything.

   My heart is so fragile and I have offered it to you with a sense of relief and believe that it mean lot to me .Probably it so little that I can offer you now .But I will offer myself when the time arises because love demand sacrifices.

   When I say 'I Love You' every time I speak with you over the phone and when I meet you,I mean I owe you my everything despite what happened and what will happen.Probably Love is faith for me that I have on you .If I ever break that faith probably my life will be of no use. I always boast my feelings upon you but I am really sorry for being so rude with you.May be I might be wrong.

   I don't know how significant my words are for you,probably they are negligible to describe what I really feel about you.My words are my faith because they only come out when I feel something from inside .At times I remain calm just to feel them .

  All I could offer you is my little heart .Keep it with you.Be with me forever.Because I begin with You and You have to define my End.

I always recite these lines whenever i don't have you besides me .
"Come on hold my hand,
I want to contact your living;
Not sure I understand,This role I have been given;
I sit and talk to God & He just laughs at my plans;
My head speaks a language ,I don't understand;
I just want to feel real Love ,Feel the home that I live In;
Coz I got so much life running through my veins going to waste!!!

Be with me .For me my whole world lies within you. Its just You and nothing else..
You mean the music to me who gave me the lyrics to write .I am all yours ..just yours.

!faith!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 19:40:00 +0000

Whats lies within my mind? Its all so strange at times .Sometimes its me ,sometimes its and all of it lies between you and me .The Mind is full of strange of weird things and at times it all think of a little faith .It then thinks of you .Probably thinking about you brings a little peace to my mind which is so full of weird thoughts .Sometimes it could ,sometimes it couldn't convey the feelings it carries .But yet your touch makes it happy and it feels the joy that all my mind search for .
If something that true is mind .It speaks with you .It teaches you to be good and follow faith .It gives you the courage that is really needed when you feel all alone .It keeps on telling myself to keep doing it till i get it right .It all lies within me !!

!Proto @ its best..MAsti Ki Paathshala!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 20:42:00 +0000

Proto'10 ...SOme of the glimpses of the event bringing me closer to what I always think about .Meeting Mr.Shankar was indeed delighted me too.More to learn from these great people..It all coz of you ..

!MoOD Indigo!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 20:25:00 +0000

It was the an awesome feel with U my Love !Kudos to you..

!SaJni!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 20:04:00 +0000

Thats what i always call you my love .You drive me crazy .Perhaps all I can say is that you are all over me.Probably Its true that my heart is now becoming more and more pure and without dogmas .Your touch and care brings to me joy that cant be compared with any other thing in my Life.

I owe you all my life to you my sweetheart..You make me fly like an eagle with zeal and courage.Always wishing for my Goodness and well being .Often I might have been rude to you but thats all because I Love you a lot.Staying away from you for a moment is a cunning experience.Its like a knife slowly piercing my heart and blood coming out of me asking for you.This whole body and soul belongs to you .

My love for you is my faith in you .All within my breath lies your aroma that goes deep down within my heart and it spreads the fragrance that even make the king Rose jealous of you .Probably I could write all this because i am drenched and blessed by your love .I everyday say to GOD whenever i meet him one word Thank you for bestowing your faith and love in me .It means a lot to me coz you mean Life to me .Its precious and its worthless .I all belong to you my soul mate.Your presence in my life means life to me .

Whenever you touch me,that touch percolates through my veins to my heart and to the soul as like the rain god showers rain and the whole earth blooms like a new born baby.I have now realized how precious you are to me.Take away all of me in you and we become a true soul.....

!Haya!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 19:33:00 +0000

"keh diya ??? ha ho meri dilruba

o dheere dheere itane hum paas aa gaye
kaliya jhuki bhavare sharma gaye
tum hi jindagi ho, tum hi pyaar ho
meri khaamoshi mera ijhahaar ho
keh diya ??? ha ho meri dilruba

hasdo hasdo jara dekho chanda se kuchh keh do
hasdo jara inhi lamho ko sajane do
sitaaron se baatein karenge chalo
hatheli pe abb gul khilenge chalo
tum hi jindagi ho, tum hi pyaar ho
meri khaamoshi mera ijhahaar ho
keh diya ??? ha ho meri dilruba"

                                            (Courtsey:STRINGS)

      Thats what comes out when I think about Your presence in my LIFE !

Tumhara wo sharmana ,

sharmake palkhen jhukana ,

tumse najre milte hi tumhari dhadkan ka badh jana ,

Aur tumhari ye husn ki HAYA ne hame tumhara ashiq bana diya hai!

   Tumhari Ye Narmi,

   Ankhon ka noor ,

   Ishq Ki Chahat,

   Dil ki sachhai,

   Ek apnapan;

 has all took over my heart .It brought me close to your heart .It all reminds me, my existence in this LiFE.At times my feelings took over me heart and I tend to loose control over myself but yet it is all to make you feel happy .Its all about giving the best of me !

          I know its kind of very difficult at times for me when i Think about You.My Heart cries out in pain when I don't have you around me and that why when I meet you,it tries to emerge out like the volcano full of feelings that i care ,I love you ,That i think of you always ,TO tell you that you are my desire ,To show you affection ,TO convey you that I worship you ,To breath you ,to show you that you are the one flowing in my Veins,that your Thoughts have just filled my MIND with LOVE ,GRATITUDE & PEACE .

                Its all very strange when you think of it ,but thats what i feel .ALL my feelings are for you."Pyaar kiya nahi jata ho jata hai" ,thats true and thats what has happened .Its about our  relationship of LOVE and the peace that it spread around,It soothens my heart ,it nourishes me,It brings out the serenity within me .Its about you and me my SAJNI.

      Your LOVE is precious for me and its a promise made in the heart that you will have the best in me .I have given my soul to you and will be with you forever and ever .

!MOOD-i-GAZAL!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 20:37:00 +0000

   Its shear exuberance!  Its all about the energy that blows through your veins .Really its the passion that drives you ahead .That's what you can expect out of the Mood Indigo 09.

   Today was my first day at the Cult-Fest .It was awesome.Listening to the soulful sounds makes you feel on the dance floor .Its the confluence of the Raga with Rasa and the magic it creates makes you feel the solitude.

   I just wondered if I hadn't been there I would have missed the precious feel.Yes thats right its a FEEL which can't be bought ,can't be stolen.Its just the music that you feel and it makes you crazy.You just forget all that cacophony and you get lost in the sounds of these people who are the best in their own way .
The pronite today was the most wonderful experience that I can catch with my eyes and save these memories forever in my heart .
   Pandit Biswajit Roy Chaudhari was way ahead in his energy levels .When Panditji started playing his Sarod ,it was like the chords of your mind getting struck and the feeling of joy ,happiness and peace just reeling my senses .When he actually touches his Sarod ,it was like a flow of current traversing through his soul touching the strings of his Sarod making the resonance and the waves coming out of that unique confluence transcends our harsh souls into a little born baby .Listening to these people really make you wonder of how fragile we are .Their music teaches us the divinity .It makes you more real and brings out the goodness within you.
   The raga Mrs.Kulkarni played was too good for me too realize that they are miles apart and to understand a bit their music you have to first understand ourselves because these people have put their heart and souls in their music and when they sing they offer prayers to the almighty .
   But the person who stole away the night was Mr.Talat Aziz .From the very moment he entered on the stage,he was able to communicate with the audience .It was all his passion for the GAZAL gayki that ruled the hearts of audience .The person who played the TABLA and the person who played that sweet instrument(couldn't recall its name) really made the blast on the stage .The fusion coming out of their instruments was awesome and one can feel their devotion and the way it was being played .

   "Sahil se bhi tera shikwa na kare " has really taken away my heart .It was all about the kind of intonation of the his words coming out of his singing that makes his GAZAL more appealing to me .It was really co-relating with what I was really feeling .I was so lost in his music for the time being I just got amused and I just closed my eyes and it was all bright as if i am in the heaven with my Gazal.

Ik to mere sath GAZAL thi aur jise Talatji ne badi khubsurti se ga diya .

The little experience that he shared during his interview by a girl and the answer to her que was something he described in his words as,
   "Tuzsa kaun mohabat karega " stolen the entire show .It was really true and i was feeling the same .
The last Gazal that Talatji sang couldn't stop the audience to dance on their feet.It was really a wonderful night with you my dear .
   "Tera ishk mere dil ka fasana hai ,
   Teri Khushboo is ka yeh dil diwana Hai:
   Na jane tune jo chu liya hai ,
   Tu is Dil ki Gazal ban chuki hai "
All that time I spent with you is a blessing from the GOD and you are my sweet angel!

Tu hai meri GAZAL!!

!Life!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 05:14:00 +0000

I often wondered how it would have been if all this wouldn’t have been there. For a while a shiver of thought just triggers my senses and brings a very awkward feeling.Life just can’t be imagined but it can be felt though these beautiful senses the God bestowed upon us.

"It’s the touch that we can perceive,

It’s the beauty that we can watch,

It’s the smell that travels through our nostrils,

It’s the sweet sound which travels through our mind and touch our souls."

Really its beyond what I have thought .I can certainly consider myself to be lucky of having being evolved through the wonders of this creation. It’s a soul searching experience .Its beyond of what I can imagine!

Yesterday I really felt life when I took the cute little girl “Reva” in my hand .Holding her in my hands was a bliss .I felt blessed by GOD of having sent a little angel .The joy in her beautiful eyes was spreading the magic of love, whenever she cried it was like she was offering prayers to GOD.I imagined what could have been more beautiful than having to hold LIFE in your hands .I can still feel her touch.

“Uski masumiyat kuch fasana bayan kar rahi thi,

Jo such main bata pana mushkil hai!!!!!

Bas kuch likh nahi pa raha hu !!

!Its gonna be love,its gonna be YOU!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 08:29:00 +0000

When ever I listen to these lines , I can feel your presence .I can feel the cold breeze touching my ears ..I feel the symphony of love coming out of my mind .Probably You have once again filled my mind with thoughts.

So far it was cacophony,but its now only the music within that I can sing with you . Your candid splendor enlightens my feeling .They gave me new dimension to think upon .I was so lost but all I can say I am emerging out .Your presence always make me perfect.Its like the holy Ganges .I often feel probably this is what journey is ! Its beyond ! Its obvious !

   !Its gonna be love,its gonna be YOU!
It will be You forever ,
It happen once ,
Rest all is ..................................!

!Resonance!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 08:02:00 +0000

Thats what love is ! Its enchanting .

Your touch has gone through my veins and has penetrated straight to my soul .Its all about your faith in me and the trust that you owe make me feel delighted .I can perceive your touch and can feel the emotions behind them .Though you wont say always it but i can feel their feelings .

   Your touch just says everything.It just cant be described but it can be only felt by me.When you coincide with me I feel the sense of fulfillment because we are at RESONANCE .I guess love is beyond physical attraction ,its just true and sacred.Its like worshiping the GOD.

   I felt the serenity of a rose petal when you touched me .I really mean it .It was the most beautiful feeling that U care .U care about me ,U care about what i feel .I want to promise you that I wont betray the trust that you have bestowed upon me .You are the affection that i cant see anywhere .
   Feelings come out only when they are true .They cant be bought or cant be pretentions.Love is a wonderful gift that I can never have in my life.You are a bliss to me .And that why perhaps I feel .
   You strike the chords of my soul and thats when the symphony of my heart sings and I feel the absolute Resonance !!

!soulmate !

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 08:28:00 +0000

Yes thats what I have been thinking of for a very longtime.I was trying to define her somehow her faint picture was there in my mind and finally I found her .It will always be the most beautiful moment of my life because it was picturesque .It was serene .The last couple of days I just couldn't sleep thinking all the way for what i am doing but somehow your faith in me kept me moving.The trust that you have shown in me was more important to me that I cant show but i can just feel it .

You always kept on saying that all the things cant be expressed and I am learning what you wanted to say.Probably its always being said that a woman completes a man .This is what i have learned after meeting you .I have found my soul mate in you .I know it was difficult for you to say that but you are always at calm and at ease with your own .Thats what makes you unique and I love that uniqueness ..You Took my breath away when you really said that .For a while a just forgotten everything as if nothing exists .But your touch said everything .I felt the Love and affection in your eyes that you bestowed upon me .

You are the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me and can never ever happen in my life!

I often felt what was going in my mind but after those moments i felt like blessed and drenched in a sweet rain and I can feel that beauty in your eyes that said the truth ..You are my Religion and you are my faith and I Love you so much ..You are my soul mate!!

!Connecting the DOTS!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 07:34:00 +0000

   What happens when we start connecting the dots ? It really takes you where you always wanted to be .If you really need something its all about the passion .Often we get lost as we keep on hearing the cacophony and live by the dogmas of others thinking .
   The college life was a real fest .At times I think how I would have been if I wouldn't have been there .A very strange feeling strikes the heart and the soul that time because we just cant live in fantasies and we have to look within us .Often we wait for the something very special and just forget the very moment .So i have decided live it once but do the best that I can .Life is An itinerary , A soul searching experience where every moment is special .Its How U Perceive it .Lets embrace change ! It gives the strength to find out the trueness in you and You always feel delighted .

!FeeL!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 19:49:00 +0000

"Come on hold my hand ,i want to contact the livin ;
Not sure i understand this role I have been given ;
I sit and talk to GOD & he just laughs at my plans ;
My Head speaks a language I don't Understand ;

I just want to FEEL, real Love, FEEL the Home that I livin;
Coz I got so much life running through my veins going to waste ;
I don't wanna Die but I can't livin in either;
Before I have arrived,I can see myself Coming;"

   I always recite these lines because they have taught me life .We being are human are fond of LOVE & its something which is real ,which is eternal .WE FEEL BLESSED to have it in our lives .
   All the time we are surrounded by so many people and often forget to live our lives ,we are more worried about others people feeling that we hardly give sometime to ourselves .I am very thankful to the almighty for all the love he has bestowed upon me .At times i felt its divine presence which is holy & enchanting .
   Love is the way of our lives and it taught me to live life once without giving any second thoughts to my actions .Lets spread the magic of this very beautiful feeling ! Lets get drenched in it because it penetrates straight through your heart and touches the soul .ITS the love that can go beyond and can bring out the real passion in you....Its U!!

!transitions!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 05:04:00 +0000

Its sweet .U often don't know what it is but yet its enchanting .It brings the feeling of ecstasy,it brings out the U within U .Often feelings go unheard but yet they are true .Its the sunshine which enlightens your inner urge to live the life with real zest ..
   There are so many things at the back of my mind but yet when they come out ,it describes the innocence that lies within.Everyday while passing by the lake it just reminds the same .I don't know what it is ,i hope U know it .Its like offering prayers to god ,its like getting drenched in the first rain,its like the smile of a new born baby & its like the dew on the petals of a flower.Its a vivid feeling which resonates with your heart and soul.
   It tries to read what is unheard so far ,it listens the music which penetrates straight to the heart .........Often it feels as if its serendipity but its real .Its comes out when the feelings are true.." Kabhi Kabhi Khud ko samaz pana bada mushkil hota hai" par ye zindgi aksar kuch aisa kar jati hai ki aap khud ko bhul jate ho.
   Thats why these feelings are transitions !!!!These are the confluence of your heart and soul.... Its just music and lyrics....

!the owl!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 05:08:00 +0000

Yes,i was thinking of writing down the story of an OWL.The story of this is kinda of weird and thats why its intresting .

The owl in my story just stays awake the whole night listening the crap of *******.My owl don't know why the hake he is doing it.But still he keeps on doing that .Listening to that cacaphony is at times becomes too suffocating but the thing at the back of his mind just cajoles him and pursuade him to do that .

While the owl moves on the world around him deep sleeps while he watch the whole night go by his eyes getting red,his throat getting dry but yet he remains awake .The owl tries to find out the serenity but its just lies within him.The owl has learned how to crawl the night .

WHEN the owl seees that the whole night has passed by ,he just wakes up in the morning breathing the fresh air..The owl reminds himself that yet its long but not far.IT needs some perseverscene and crazyness because ultimately its the accomplishemenst that matter .ALL that my owl needs to do is to ...............(he knows it )!!

!da MUSIC Gear!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 05:13:00 +0000

Music...which resonates with your feelings and gives the ultimate joy when you need it .The philips gear that i have with me is the true companion for me for the last couple of months .The kind of Rhythm it generates really touches the heart .

ITS really small but it does a big work .Would U Like to Have A Look at It !!!!

its really a masterpiece !!! the music it creates cant be described but it can be really felt when you are with your own ..

!clueless!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 02:23:00 +0000

The past couple of months were really clueless abt the what next .At times ,i just stopped thinking and let myself go loose as if i were a piece of paper which is getting blown away by the winds.Ya it was the most genuine and true moments that i can ever have .

With no more pretentions , i just walked by the path that was coming my way and probably this is how i found me ,myself and I.It was never far away it was just beneath ,hidden but still clueless.I got answers to some of the most weired questions that i came across all this time .

This is how you grow and get ready for the battle na ...for LIFE ! running but still clueless.

!Looking back!

noreply@blogger.com (kuldeep2005nasa) — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 20:28:00 +0000

Yes the title is so weird.I was really not knowing what i was doing at times but it gave me absolute freedom and joy while doing it.YOU might be thinking what this is all about but its hidden .so let it be..

From today onwards i have decided that let this wont be a blog but it should be simple expressions about the desires ,anger ,pain and joy.Let my ideas become more clear while i am doing it .so i have decided ,i should keep on jotting down whatever i come across .Whatever small it may be ,because its all small that becomes big enough that the existance gets some meaning.

The past one year has been a real experience for a LIFETIME.Yes i really mean it .

It was all about the Joy ,excitement,pain ,sleepless nights and long days ,walking the lone paths just with courage and faith .While everything was happening ,it gave me the faith and hope to come out some of the most weird situations.At times i came across the most leathal and most painful incidents .But i realised it later on that its all about accomplishments know matter what happens .

So looking back ,i will try and reiterate all moments that i came across in most simple and lucid manner .So that i make LIFE out of it .