Bubbles of Thoughts

"You Gotta See This" Video Contest by AMO

2009-11-11T08:16:00.000-08:00

Just a few months ago, I had an eye checkup as I was already complaining about eye strain. During the checkup, I found out that my left eye has a blurred vision as compared to my right one. Luckily, the attendant told me that I don't need a pair of eyeglasses or contacts. My friend, Peach, however, needs to change hers since her eye condition has become worse. It was during this time that we talked about Lasik and how it becomes her best option to lose that pair of spectacle and never worry anything in the future since according to my research the procedure will completely correct and repair the vision.

Incidentally, I found out about this contest concerning laser vision correction. It is about “You Gotta See This” Video Contest, brought by Abbott Medical Optics Inc. (AMO). AMO has been a leader in laser vision correction and the people behind it wanted to help improve the lives of the people by offering solutions to eye problems. And by offering this contest, it is giving people the opportunity to be more aware of how they can have better lives by having better vision.

The contest is inviting participants to make and upload a video showing how an improved vision could change your life. Of course, the participants will have the chance to win cash and prizes. They can submit any video, as long as it falls under any of the categories:

• “My contacts are getting in the way of my good time”
• “My favorite sport or activity would be so much cooler with better vision”
• “You should see life after the iLASIK® Procedure”

The prizes at stake are as follows:

$5,000 Grand Prize

First Prize (one in each video category):

HDTV package — a $2,500 value

Second Prize (one in each video category):

The Flip UltraHD™ camcorder — a $199.99 value

To win, you can tell your friends and relatives to see and vote for your submitted video. The votes play a big factor to make your entry win one of those fabulous prizes. If you want to learn more about this contest, you can visit this site, iLASIK Video Contest.

I can't wait to see the participating videos and how the lives of the owners were transformed because of having a better vision, and of course, on who will win this contest. I can relate well to the advocacy of this contest because I can feel for the people experiencing the inconveniences because of suffering from poor vision. I hope that whoever reads this post will be inspired and will want to know more about AMO and iLasik.

My 7th Month Pregnancy

2009-11-09T07:44:00.000-08:00

I am now on my 7th month. I am starting to feel really heavy, though I really haven't had gained more than 5 lbs each month. As per my last weigh-in on Nov. 5, I was only at 110 lbs. My back is also starting to ache, perhaps from the weight inside my tummy. It is now easy for me to get tired whenever I am out just strolling at the mall. And unlike the last time, my baby is now stronger. She would do a 'somersault' inside my womb. She would kick really hard that sometimes the hit hurts and makes me gasp for some breath for a few seconds.

It has sometimes become uncomfortable for me, but I feel the fulfillment of being a mother nurturing her baby inside her womb. I must say that am enjoying all these inconveniences. Even the strong kicks and somersaults bring me unexplainable joy and pride in my heart. I can't describe the feeling every time she would move. I can't fathom the weird yet contented feeling whenever I feel uncomfortable because she feels heavy now. It's perhaps an emotion that only expecting women and moms can understand and share with me.

This is already my second pregnancy but it feels like it's my first, making me very excited to finally see and meet my baby girl. And the fact that Yad is also very excited for the baby to come out doubles my happiness and fulfillment. I can see it in his eyes whenever we would talk about her. He already has plans on how he would take care of his baby sister. I am thankful that he isn't the type of kids who get jealous because of the normal scenes families get when a newborn is added. He already talks about learning how to change diapers and how he would take care of his little sister.

Baby, we are happy that you came into our lives. You are a blessing that I know will keep our lives fulfilled, happy, and contented. You will become a reason for everyone of us to continue fighting whatever the odd is. You will become an inspiration to me, your Mommy, Kuya Yad, and Daddy D. We can't wait for you to come out into this world and share the goodness of what it can offer us. We love you, baby!

DCTV - This Is A Letter For You!

2009-11-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

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Dear DCTV,

Here, please take a look first at the image above. I have been getting used to seeing that page and it has been my companion for a week that I thought we've already made friends and that it'll stick with me for a long time just like a loyal friend would.

What happened to our sweet deal, huh? Have you checked the paper that we both signed more than a year ago?

I have been very pissed lately with you, DCTV. It's almost a week since my internet connection was off and also a week of interruptions on my freelance writing gigs. You promised to restore it last week, but what? Still nothing? And guess what? I have been having bouts of intermittent connections for the past months too, for reasons that I don't have any idea of. Okay, I give credits to you for sending technicians aboard to fix whatever is there to fix, but why do the same trouble has to come back again? I do think, this all happened because of your poor service commitment to your loyal clients. And again, here is my news, I have confirmed that you have not been attending to your server, particularly to where my IP is connected, causing my internet to get ruined. So, isn't that called poor service?

I hate at the thought that I am paying you a complete month's subscription fee but I cannot fully take advantage of the agreed unlimited supply of online connection. Shouldn't you be paying me back for the week's loss of service? Or since I've already settled my latest account, at least a discount for my next bill? To think that I've already bought a Globe Tattoo and made unnecessary expenses because of your poor service! Shouldn't you be reimbursing that as well? And lastly, shouldn't I be considering calling our signed deal off and changing the internet subscription company now?

A Pissed Customer,

Jirl

Let's Make Our Travel Dream Come True With Accor Hotels 3-Day Super Sale Asia Pacific

2009-10-27T09:23:00.001-07:00

Traveling to places abroad is a dream that is hard to achieve especially for the individuals who have always lived a 'make-ends-meet' lifestyle. There are just too many basic expenses and bills to take care of, that thinking of spending huge money over travels seemed not a very good idea at all.

I myself have been dying to go to Thailand, Korea, Japan and New Zealand for several years now, but I still can't because of financial constraints as one of the primary reasons. The fact that I am going to give birth to a baby girl in three months time doesn't help either. And the thought of the hospital bills, medicines, infant milk, diapers, baby essentials, and others makes traveling out of the options for another year or so.

Going out of the country is not exactly cheap, knowing how expensive hotel room rates are, not to mention the cost of a round-trip plane tickets was once so sky high. It is a good thing for us nowadays here in the Philippines that low ticket airfares have become available ever since the local airline companies begun sending out promotional campaigns to allow and help people of nearly all walks of life achieve their dream of flying.

Not a long time ago, plane tickets were so absurdly expensive that only the privileged ones can avail of the air flight. But now, everyone is given the chance to travel via air. In fact, many of my friends and colleagues already took the advantage and had been to Hongkong, Singapore, Thailand, and Cambodia because of the local airline companies' low ticket costs promotional campaign.

And now that another inexpensive travel campaign courtesy of Accor Hotels 3-Day Super Sale Asia Pacific has recently been released, traveling abroad has become very flexible for a majority of the people. Yes, if you have been waiting for this kind of opportunity, you can avail now because from October 27-30, there are super low room rates starting from US$30/night offered by this campaign.

There are over a million room nights which will be held on sale, and can be availed at participating hotels in the world's most exciting cities of Asia Pacific, including:

Thailand
Korea
China
Japan
HongKong
Australia
Singapore
Vietnam
Malaysia
New Zealand
Fiji
Indonesia
Taiwan
India
Bali

Staying period will be from December 2009 t0 April 2010, a time I believe is perfect to make our dream travel come true. And oh! Various hotels participating in this Super Sale super low room rates include:

Sofitel
Pullman
Grand Mercure
Novotel
Mercure
All Seasons, and
Ibis hotels

Why don't we check this out by visiting the website? I can't wait to tell my friends and relatives about this super fantastic deal. I know they would be raving about it particularly because they are planning again to take some time off and go out on another trip abroad.

With this promotional campaign, plus the low airplane ticket rates, I know it will be possible for me as well to make one of my dreams come true in the near future. I just hope though that similar campaign will be released in the future when I am ready to take long travel time. In the meantime, I will regularly check the website for updates.

Bon voyage to us all!

And Yes, They Are Right! It's A Baby Girl!

2009-10-27T09:06:00.000-07:00

After six months of guessing, I am finally certain about the gender of my baby. It's a baby girl! I'm so thrilled after the OB-Gyne/Sonologist told me the ultrasound result showed a female in the scan. You could just imagine how I am exhilarated at the thought that on February 01, 2010 I am going to give birth to a baby girl I have been waiting all my life. Now, I feel complete. With Yad and his baby sister, I am so thankful to the Lord for giving me this blessing!

Sponzai

2009-10-25T07:44:00.001-07:00

All an eagle would really like, is a teapot

My 2nd Ultrasound

2009-10-22T21:34:00.000-07:00

I underwent my second ultrasound this afternoon. As I've mentioned in my last post, I wasn't supposed to undergo another test yet, but since I was really eager and excited to learn of my 2nd baby's gender, I urged my OB-Gyne to give me a recommendation. So, at 3:00PM this afternoon, the sonologist had a run over my belly with her apparatus to scan it. Boy, was I surprised with the result, or more appropriately, the discovery of my present pregnancy condition. It wasn't something that I would wish for, or any mom would for that matter, but I was really stunned after the sonologist announced it. It never crossed my mind until today that my condition would be like this, but I hope it would still change. I am not ready to divulge about it here unless I had a talk with my OB-Gyne first, so I am going to have an early checkup this week because this is something that I wasn't prepared for.

About the gender of the baby, I'll write about it in my next post.

They Say I Am Going To Have A Baby Girl! :-)

2009-10-17T21:39:00.000-07:00

I've been meaning to post something here for the last two weeks, but it just happened now. Pardon me again for that as I only found myself willing to put another entry here today. There has been much going on lately with me and it was expected since I am into another relevant phase of my life.

Regarding my pregnancy, I am now on my 24th week (as per my last visit to my OB-gyne on October 7th, she told me I was on my way to 23-24 week), or perhaps older. I and Daddy R found it confusing as we thought I am still a little early on my pregnancy. But if that's what the OB said, so be it. I don't want to do more computations for now. All I'm waiting is February 2, 2010, the baby's due to come out.
I found my second pregnancy way easier to handle than my first. In fact, after going through the first semester which involved a lot of morning sickness and other unpleasant experiences, I am now really enjoying this whole thing. I am so excited for the baby to come out. Perhaps, one big factor for this excitement is the fact that almost all of my colleagues I bump into believe I am gonna have a baby girl this time because of the aura I exude.

As most of my friends already knew, I have been desperately longing to have a baby girl - largely because I don't have a sister; and all my life, was deprived of the stuff that usually shared between two girl siblings. You could just imagine how I long to be with at least a sister to share clothes, gossips and heartaches with.

All my pre-pubescent, teenage, and adult life, there was never a sister to consult with and so at the back of my mind, I was partly (only partly) blaming my being a unica hija in the family to lack the needed factors during my growing up as a female. I mean, my mother could have replaced a sister's position, but I always thought she can never do that since it's so different. So, perhaps you see now why I have been so obsessed at having a baby girl?

If this baby comes out of my womb with a feminine genitalia, I would probably be the merriest mom on the world. Not that I'm being unfair or biased here or I'd be disappointed if it's gonna be a boy, since I knew in my heart I would still be the merriest mom come February 2 regardless of the gender; but the thought of having a baby girl just couldn't get through me.

It really electrifies more my anticipation to bond with her for the rest of her life. I knew it would be like having a dream come true for me. Dressing her up, guiding her until she grows up and becomes the fine woman every man will adore and respect, and simply just talking to her like we're buddies, are thoughts that touch and extend my already uplifted-due-to-my-pregnancy emotions.
Daddy R wanted another baby boy and said we could have a girl for the third member of the siblings. But, given the rather complex situation, I am not banking on that chance that is likely or unlikely to happen in the future. Obviously, we were having conflicted interests when it comes to kids, but in fairness to him, he has said twice that whatever it is to come out, we will welcome with the whole of our hearts. If it's a girl, the favor was on me. If it's a boy, then it's his. Whatever it is, this second baby is another greatest thing that happened to our lives, next to Yad.

Because I can't contain my excitement, I am going to undergo an ultrasound come Monday to determine the gender of the baby even if the OB-gyne did not think it was a good idea at this stage. She said that I could have the test next month so we'd have clear results, but no, I want to know now. I am just too excited that I cannot sleep on this thought each evening. So, goodluck to us, Daddy R! Whoever's favor wins, we are gonna have a helluva new life with our second tot!

Baby, I am so excited, so please show up your cute little, ehem, genitals as mommy is having her ultrasound examinations, alright? We love you so much!

Busted Desktop!

2009-10-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

After a few days of being offline, I am back. The reason of my "absence," is due to a busted desktop. Yes, my desktop went useless after it's hard disk got stuck up. I made several attempts to make it work, hoping it was just a mild technical problem that goes away after I allowed my desktop to rest for a while. Unfortunately, only for futile efforts. I remember posting an entry here days back about requiring a new memory as my computer was starting to act up. Now, it turned out it needed a different computer replacement part.
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After coaxing the husband of my cousin Weng to check my computer, we found out that I need a new hard drive. Waaahhh! That spells shelling a few thousands of pesos! Too bad for me because I was trying to save up for the past days to pay a yearlong debt to a friend, and for the expenses I am about to occur in the near future for my plans of moving out. Added to the injury is the fact that I can no longer retrieve all the files I compiled since 2006. Great!

But since it is through this desktop and my internet connection where I earn some moolah from my freelance gigs, I have no choice but to buy a new hard disk. So, much as I hate parting with some of my of earned money, I went out late this afternoon to buy a new hard drive. Found one, got it installed, for free because Lan won't charge me a dime for his services (Thanks to you!). So I am here once again.

Sigh! The downside of technologies! You gotta maintain them to give you good functioning life for a long while. And when you mean maintenance, it involves doing upgrades, periodic checkups, taking good care of what you do with them, and so on and so forth. Anyway, I'm just a little lucky that I got some ready cash to spend for this necessity.

Now, I am here to accept freelance writing gigs again. Sigh, if only we no longer need freelance gigs here! Anyway, I am thankful that there are freelance jobs available, so work-at-home moms, like me, can still earn money while steady employment is not for me to take yet.

Mystery Shoppers Wanted!

2009-09-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

Out of boredom, I opened the Facebook application, Restaurant City, to entertain myself a little early this afternoon. While it was loading, I noticed the ad placed at the right part of the page named "Mystery Shoppers Wanted." I have a vague notion of what mystery shoppers are so it caught my interest. I clicked on it to see what it was about and seconds later was directed into this site. Click if you want to see.

I know there are existing real mystery shopping jobs out there, but this one wasn't anywhere near it. Let me tell you how I found this out:

If you open the site, you will find a testimonial story of a certain Rosario Bautista, attesting to the fact how she earned quite a huge sum of money (Php70,000 after only a week, what the heck!) allegedly coming from Google by simply posting links.

Yes, you read it right. Google, the giant internet company. I know Google pays people posting links, but only via Adsense. And you have to have a blog or website in order to become a member. I'm a legitimate Adsense member myself, but to this date I haven't earned a dime (that's because of my blog's anonymity for quite a while).

To continue my story, I got excited and interested (who wouldn't when you are promised to earn quick cash by doing simple instructions?). I then opened the site she claimed the reason of her quick cash flow. It's called "Internet Home Business Kit." Her story was supported by a number of comments/testimonials how it likewise worked for them so it even fueled my excitement. If you too got interested after reading it and convinced by the simple instructions, I don't blame you, because I myself was already on the verge of filling out the needed information. It's a good thing that I stopped to do some precautionary measures first. So, don't just fill out any information yet, especially the credit card section.

As many of my friends know what I have been doing for a living while I am unemployed and a student at the moment, I have been writing web articles of different topics, which included online opportunities, homebased residual income opportunities, work-at-home online jobs, etc. etc. Why I am telling you this? Because this job has given me lots of advantages other than financial benefits, specifically as it is through some of my freelance writing gigs that I got indirectly and a little educated yet enough for me to identify legitimate from illegitimate homebased online jobs.

So while I am guilty at believing for a minute that this "Internet Home Business Kit" might be legitimate and so tried filling out that form, I did the first thing that I always do before hitting the submit button (or joining any earn money online scheme), research before proceeding.

What did I find? For experienced online people (like me?), you guessed it right:

Yes, IT IS PURE SCAM!

The Facebook ad "Mystery Shoppers Wanted" is misleading. And more importantly, illegitimate too because the site is run by some people belonging to category of freeloaders, scammers, and fraudsters. They make their evilish intentions work by directing you to input very minimal yet confidential information, such as your Visa or Mastercard information, and promising to send you a free kit with instructions how to earn online money from Google in exchange of a measly USD3.99 for the shipping fee. It turned out, that system charges your credit or debit card higher. If you already filled that form out, chances are, your card is already debited with as high as USD88.00 or even more.

And, pun intended, congratulations! Because you just recently became the victim of those unscrupulous, evilish freeloaders/fraudsters!

Here's the lesson I learned a long time ago:

If you are inexperienced in the field of legitimate online work at home jobs, beware at filling out forms, and by golly, at paying any amount, no matter how little or big, without doing a research first. While there are numerous kinds of legitimate online homebased jobs, a double or triple even of that number is alloted for scammers.

So, addicted Facebookers, and even non-facebookers yet frequent online users, be very aware and don't just get easily smitten by those false misleading claims. Educate yourself about this matter. There are lots of information you can get from the internet, don't just turn on your desktop and use ~~waste~~ it to Facebook, Youtube, download, chat, and social network. Research, research, research, and research!

Read the supporting article I researched for this issue.

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Does He Remember Today Is Our Appointment With The Doctor?

2009-09-22T19:31:00.000-07:00

It was only last night that I remember today is my monthly pre-natal checkup. If I didn't remember this important pregnancy date until last night, I am more than a hundred percent it never crossed Daddy R's mind that he gotta be here today.

Being a pregnant mommy, I always want the daddy of my baby to be with me always, especially during my monthly checkups and when I am craving for something to eat or when I am going to shop maternity or baby clothes/essentials, or other pregnancy-related activities. But as hard the situation that it is today, I can't always get what I want now. He is so busy that I have to always remind him whenever I need him to accompany me to the doctor and share the experiences of dealing with this whole pregnancy.

"..Sometimes, I can't help but take pity because of the thought that why do I have to go alone when we did and wanted this together?"

I always believe that it is a conjugal interest or initiative or obligation, or whatever you call it, for mom and dad to go to the OB together so both will have knowledge of the condition not only of the baby's but the mom's as well. I am not saying that dads have to come each time but I am more compelled to think that they should feel obliged especially to hear the first heartbeats of the baby, hold her hands during ultrasounds, learn of the baby's sex, check its anatomy, and other similar significant events.

Besides, it is bonding moment for us three together. I always feel great when Daddy R drives me to the clinic and supports me when I have to go into the cubicle of the OB-gyne. Somehow, it gives me the sense of security, protection, care, and love. I always treasure the moment that he has to get himself involved during my second pregnancy. After all, he wasn't there the entire time when I was doing the same with Yad, our first-born, was he?

"...Would it be unfair for me to assume or expect he would be more than thrilled now to share this whole experience since we never get to during my first pregnancy of Yad and so this second has become our real 'first family experience?' Forgive me, but I feel terribly devastated now. Sob!"

During my previous prenatal visits, I don't care if I look like a nagging partner just to convince him to go with me and we do it together. But today, I don't feel like doing the same. As proud as I always am, I get tired of constantly reminding him that today is my checkup so he needs to stop whatever he is doing and accompany me. I get tired of the thought that he is not thinking enough of us to always forget this special date. And so, my pained ego says again, don't make the first move...

... And yet, I don't want to go alone... What am I gonna do?:-(

" ...It saddens me to think that his business and other occupancies matter more to him than us. It depresses me to think that money comes first before family."

Now, I'm really having second thoughts as to contact Daddy R and remind him that today is our appointment with the doctor. I really want him to remember and contact me first. How happy and fulfilled would I feel if he calls me first and asks me to prepare because we have to go to the doctor now.

"...Sigh. I feel so discontented... though it is not so right."

I know I have to be positive with all these things, but yeah, of course, I never forget it and I am always full of hope albeit it doesn't always manifest because I am always grumpy and critical towards him whenever we are together.

"But... If only he knew... that I feel so BLESSED that he is here for us now and is giving me a brand new joy with this second baby."

... I just wish he'd give me more reasons to keep feeling that way.

Lord, INSHALLAH!

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God Has The Highest Good For Me, I Know...

2009-09-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm doing a quick post yet again for this day since my day is filled with hectic schedule, from school to an appointment/meeting with colleagues to dropping by some places for importat errands. I have to drop by at Yona's office at Circa to get an important document Ry had sent through his brother Rowell. By the way, Ry, thanks much! I owe you one for that. I also have to go to Peachy's house again to borrow some important documents which are necessary for my meeting later after lunch.

Anyway, back to why I am doing this quick post, I have browsed some Friendster pages this morning and I now realized I am regretting this action as it has done nothing but clouded my already shrouded/blackened emotions. Now, I am feeling very bad about something for the nth time, to the point that I am now holding back my tears. There's a huge lump in my throat that I am trying to gulp back with difficulty caused probably by the rising anger and pity in my heart.

After all those months, it still pains me a lot. I can't remember ever feeling this way. I can't believe this is happening to me. I don't know when I would ever overcome this nagging reality. I know it is unhealthy to wallow in anger and pity, not to mention that it could affect the precious thing I am carrying in my womb, but in times like this, I really can't help it.

There's always a time when I can't help but look back at what happened and wish I could turn back time or erase the memories so everything would go back to its normal life again. It is also during these times that I really need to gather all my strengths and guts so I can face all the troubles in my life. Or else, you will never see me smiling again.

There is no doubt that I can make things run the way I want them too, but I knew also that they

would not always be according to my will. All I know is that there is sunshine after the rain. Glory after sufferings. Light after darkness. And hope after pain. My baby and Yad alone are already one of the greatest blessings in my life. I am leaving it all up to God above. He knows what's best for me and He has this great plan documented in His book for my future. I may never knew it at this time, but I knew everything and everybody will be in the right places at the right time.

As what I would always say it: INSHALLAH!

Need A Memory

2009-09-18T23:25:00.000-07:00

I'm having a problem with my desktop lately. There are times when it is so slow that I have to wait for a while before a page can load up. I have it reformatted not too long ago so I knew it wasn't about the virus. The internet connection service is also doing well. So, that makes me think I need to get an additional RAM, at least another 512MB, or 1GB.

Gotta Be More Careful W/ This Pregnancy

2009-09-16T21:47:00.000-07:00

Just got back from downtown Legazpi. Was so warm outside I thought my body will give in from the tormenting and exhausting hot temperature. Although I've gone to DTI only this morning, it was tiring since I have to go back and forth to DTI and outside to have some documents photocopied and my 500 bill changed.

The fact that I am five months along the way didn't help. When I got back home, I was a little afraid because my lower abdomen was in a little pain. It's like the baby was pushed low that it was about to come out. I instantly took a bed rest and though I have a meeting later this afternoon, I ignored the fact that I might be late. My baby is more important than anything else, so my colleagues would have to wait for me.

Anyway, I have to be more careful next time if I don't want to lose my baby. Walking too much, I think, is not advised at this stage of pregnancy. I must not forget to consult my OB regarding this matter later at my next visit this week.

I wish Daddy R is here all the time so there'll be someone who will drive for me wherever I go. But, of course, that is impossible at the moment. He has more important things to do than be at my side all day and night, right Daddy?

Well, maybe you can give me a car and a driver instead?

Daddy R, are you reading my blog?

Tame Me... If You Can

2009-09-10T06:58:00.000-07:00

Can you tame me? Coz I doubt if you can. And if you think you can, how?

Forgive me, but there is no doubt in my mind that am really doubting if you can...

You see, it's gonna be hard because you yourself has not been a good example to me. How can you tell what is good for me when you did me wrong in the first place? How can you say that I am sheerly a stubborn woman, when it was you who enforced my mind to be always searching for truth, or my heart to become hard like I was never before? I am in utter confusion, my dear! You brought this on...

So sorry that I'm being hard on you during my difficult times.

I cannot always submit to you because I cannot pretend that I like submitting to whatever you say. I was willing to surrender once, but what happened? How did it go? How did things can go wrong this way?

Is there room for forgiveness? Is there any for me to lighten up to you? I am begging you, please tell me how... 'Coz it's always been hard to wallow in this dark pit of emotion. But, I admit, I still wanna be what you desire for me to be one day... even though I get so crazy b'coz of your craziness...

'coz you see?

...you are an important piece of my life.

But Dear One, I know, Inshallah!

Found An Apartment...

2009-09-09T19:49:00.000-07:00

I almost forgot I have a Midterm Exam at 1:00 PM today. And it's almost 11:00 AM, so I know I have to be preparing especially since I haven't browsed my notes yet. Anyway, I will do just a quick post.

The other day, I found an apartment in downtown Legazpi. I should say I liked it coz it's relatively big enough for a starting family. The 2-storey apartment is nice, clean, has 2 bedrooms, a bath, a living/receiving room, kitchen-cum-dining, dirty kitchen, and laundry area. The two adjoining bedrooms are upstairs, and this is the only fault I can see since I don't know if it's alright for an expectant mom to do the stairs daily. Anyway, I have to do some consultation regarding with that matter.

The apartment is one of the five units in the compound. I like it because only two of the five units are being rented. The other one has already been occupied while the other one was just recently vacated on that day so I must be really quick if I really wanted it. The other three were up for renovation. You know these days? Everyone seems to be looking for a place coz we found it kind of hard to locate a nice vacant house or apartment. Or maybe, we were just being choosy, that's why.

But anyway, the place will be safe for the kids because of the gate. According to the other tenant, the location is quiet and safe. No delinquent reports. Good, coz all the more that I'm liking it. And oh! I haven't mentioned it's near Estevez Hospital, so just in case it's my due, no problem to hospital access.

The only big deal will be the other person as he hasn't seen it yet since he didn't arrive yesterday. I hope he will today so I can show him the place and the apartment. I hope he likes and approves as it will still be up to his judgment if we can have it or not. *Fingers crossed*

Have to go now! Gotta hit my notes for the exams! Have a great day, everyone! Ciao!

Inshallah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA MARY! goodluck to my physics exams today too...

2009-09-07T19:40:00.000-07:00

It's the 8th of the month. And it's also the birthday of our Beloved Mama Mary.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA MARY! MAY YOU CONTINUE TO GUIDE AND EMBRACE US WITH YOUR LOVING HANDS!

It's also our first day of midterm exams. Well, it's actually the third (or fourth if they included Saturday) day. The midterm started on Wednesday, September 2, but since that day was declared as no classes, the first day was moved today. Thursday and Friday schedule of exams was retained as second and third, respectively. Anyway, I was just telling you this to show how is AUL when it comes to doing schedules and re-schedules hehehe.

So, since it's Mama Mary's birthday today, I know She will be guiding me during my entire Physics exams. I know you love me, Ever Loving Mother of all Filipinos! I love you too, my Mama Mary!

Happy Long Weekend Vacation!

2009-09-06T19:16:00.000-07:00

It's a non-working holiday here in the Philippines! Not surprisingly, PGMA declared the burial of Ka Erdy Manalo, the 84-yr(?) old Iglesia Ni Cristo's leader!

It also means, no classes and midterm exams for us today! Yay!

Well, not entirely no exams as the day was only moved for tomorrow. So, I still gotta hit my notes else I'd flank my Physics.

Anyway, I just wish we are all having a happy long vacation!

Blog Revamped! Need Your Links Back!

2009-09-05T23:56:00.001-07:00

Obviously, I have my blog newly revamped.

I didn't remember how tedious revamping a blog site can be until just now. The last time I remodeled this site was probably two years ago. The last 3months or so, this was left almost untouched, so I found myself starting from scratch.

You can just imagine the time I spent searching blogger templates, editing html stuff, moving widgets, and etc. Lucky for me, I found this newly-uploaded template from this source. If you want to remodel your site, you can find free templates from that website too.

Anyway, since I've changed the theme of this blog site, I've lost all the old widgets, links, and stuff including blog lists. So, if you want the link of your site added, kindly put your url in the comment section so I can add it again. For my co-bloggers and friends who know my YM or email, you can just buzz me the URLs of your site/s. I will gladly put them back.

Do you like my new template? I love it. It's called COFFEEDESK. I am a caffeine addict, so no need to explain, lol! Which makes me remember, I can't take any caffeinated beverage because of my condition not until february 2, 2010. Boohoo for that!

Back to topic, I still have got a lot to do with this site. I need to recover the old links, widgets, and banners from the websites I previously signed with. It will take more time to do that, but in the meantime, I will settle for what this site has for now.

Why I have revamped this site, you may ask? As I've mentioned from my previous posts, I wanna revive this blog for the second time. And this is just the start of all of it.

Once again, I am back to the blogosphere! So, welcome me, you there co-bloggers!

My Decision Will Be My Decision

2009-09-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

He is not amenable to my decision of my moving out...yet. Says it is not safe for me since I would be alone most of the time when I finally move into the house. Despite my few efforts of convincing him, Yad still doesn't want to come with us because he's a heavy heart leaving mama and papa, plus his tito's.

Yad grew up closer to my mother than me because she was the one who raised and took care of him from the very first day he was born. I don't know how to convince him, but I know he's just in a state of shock. This is gonna be his first major change in his life after all; so I understand how difficult it could be for him.

As for him, I understand his point, because he would be gone most days of the week due to his business and other reasons. He is worried for my safety when there is no one to look after me when we finally move in to a new house. I am in a delicate condition right now, with my 4th going to 5th month expectancy.

Yet, I need this big decision because if not now, when would I ever start growing up and taking care of myself or learning how to care for my own family? Of course, as he would always say, I am always the same obstinate Jirlie. Stubborn mind in a naive, vulnerable small woman that I am.

So, end of the story?

After several attempts of talking me out of my decision, it is clear to him that no more conversation for this issue as I firmly made up my mind the moment I made it. Well, I hope so! In the meantime, I would continue looking for a nice place and start packing my clothes (and Yad's, for God's sake, he will come whether he likes it or not!) as soon as we find one. Period.

Soon, Moving Out - Big Decision, Big Step Of A Future

2009-09-02T22:01:00.000-07:00

Middle Term Examination Week...

I can't believe it's less than two months before the semester ends. I thought I'll never do it, but way to go, I am at last very near it! You go, Jirl!

On another topic...

I am off to school in a little while to check my schedule of exams.

And also off to some places to look for a house for rent after school.

Yes, I am moving out.

Because I need to build a life of my own. Not under my parents' protection and care. Because I am no longer their only little girl who will continue to depend on them with every failure I make myself. I must learn to live on my own. I must learn to get by without their hands on me every time I stumble to the ground and am on my knees.

Besides, I am making my own family now. So, isn't it inappropriate for me to still shelter myself around my parents and brothers?

I am a little afraid, but hey! If others can, why can't I? I am also a little excited, but fear's a larger quantity of what's been creeping my thoughts since I've come to this HUGE decision.

But I know, I will learn. Maybe not from the start. But, eventually, I will be standing on my own two little, vulnerable feet. One person is guiding me, so at least, that helps me feel a little better.

Inshallah!

I'm gonna be back...

2009-09-01T22:28:00.000-07:00

I hope to get back in the blogosphere! Soon, I will! After all this chaos of my life started simplifying itself, and then I will be here! Go Jirl!

One Web of Lies and Thousand More Faith and Trust

2009-08-19T23:21:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I posted an entry here. I know. There is no excuse. But now, I will start trying my best to be a regular postee in my own blog. Sounds an easy task, but man, that's become a tough one for me since I started dealing with drastic changes in my life for the past months. I am dying to have something to do during those times, something that will really take my mind off things.

But blogging became never one of them.

I should have paid attention to this blog, especially this one's become my sanctuary in the past when I wanted to blurt things up in the absence of my real best friends, never mind the fact that it's also provided me good monetary opportunities.

But if you know me, a master of procrastinating things and an expert of becoming sedentary for a quite a time, blogging, despite with all the goodness that it's brought on, will really just become a thing of the past.

Thank goodness that I have started eliminating these bad habits, and so far, so good... Now, I am trying to momentarily deviate myself away from my current predicaments.

It's good for me.

After all, I am gonna have another serious turn of my life, one that's sure to bring a not-so unfamiliar angles of future for me.

I have been hurting for the past months.
I have pitying myself for the past months.
I have been allowing anger to take hold of me for the past 3 months.
I have been letting all negativity to flow in me that I have become bitter and bitter as the days wore on and until I found myself doing nothing but cry in the middle of my solitude moments and making me despise one person each time.

For the most part, I would hate the lies webbed and entangled to us. But I realize, if not for my painfully naivete and little less careful manner, all this wouldn't happen.

And so, I am a little easier on you now. Just for the reason that I was also a part of it.

As they say, nothing and no one's accountable for what is happening to you, except you...

....BUT STILL... EVEN SO...

you are that person who started all of it.

So, don't blame me if I continue to blame you and hold accountable for the big part of all this

But don't worry, you little master-webber-of-lies!

I am a little alright now. And yes, though I can't believe it, YOU STILL HOLD A VERY SOFT SPOT HERE IN MY HEART...

After all the meditations and realizations, I decided I am making things even worse than it was by wallowing in self-pity. There's no good in living in what-has-been and what-would-have-been, or what-ifs and if-I-only-knew. I must live to look forward to the good things that will come out from all of this. This is God's perfect plan for me, and a perfect way to trust and have faith in Him even more today...

Before I am consumed by my own emotions of anger, hatred, regrets, and despise, I am moving forward. Just to show to you that I never surrender. Just to show to myself that I am still a child of God, whom will never leave me especially in the midst of storms. I am a woman, a strong woman. I will get by, will work through this situation just as gracefully and effectively as I always be.

Now, why don't I keep my attitude positive and hopeful? Let's see what happens next.

All Good Luck is in me!

"I Am A Strong Woman, Perfected By God In His Image!"

For The Nth Time, Lights Off Here In Ligao!

2009-07-03T22:31:00.000-07:00

For the nth time, the lights went off and nothing was saved so I am starting again with this post. I am not home, I am here in Ligao City, in an internet shop, while waiting Dadi to return from his visit to the quarry site for machine testing. It's really frustrating, but I know, it was beyond my control. So, hold your temper, little Jirl!

Try Again...

2009-07-03T22:06:00.000-07:00

Just when I was about to finish my entry, the lights went off and nothing was saved. So, here I am again, starting from scratch. Sigh! By the way, I am not home. I am here in Ligao, in an internet shop, waiting for Dadi to come back from the site he is visiting for machine testing.

My post was about trying to revive this blog. It has been months since my last update, so I am pretty much stuck up at what I should do to make this blog alive again. In the months that this site went stagnant was also the months that brought so much changes in my life. If I would to with them down here one by one, one day or few days would not be enough for me to do so.

So, even though It's hard starting this blog for the second time, I am trying. I have not only missed the blogging times when I wanted to put down my opinions and personal thoughts but lost so many opportunities, and maybe a few hundreds of dollars in equivalent.

But never mind, what's important is that I am back again...