Live My Life Better

His first I Love You to me

2012-02-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

We kept posted our holiday pics on FB and his family members were keeping their eyes on us closely as he did not tell them he was gone for holiday with a woman ( me). So once our vacation photos posted on his wall or he was tagged from mine. We kept having ' like' a lot and comments.

One afternoon, I checked if there was any more 'like' or comment on FB, there was none. Then he said no one loves us now.. is ok we have each other ( hugged me tight from behind). I said 'yea?.....' , tried to turn my head to look at him, at the same time he said ' I love you'. I asked ' really?' He answered ' Yes, I love you.' I said ' I love you too.'

Happy Holidays !!!

2011-12-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

It is a bit late to post greetings BUT I wish all of you have had a great Christmas and a Very Happy And Fruitful New Year!

OK My story for past few months...

I just mainly too busy with this EXCELLENT job and my study , plus a LOT happenings...long story short... Dave is having a new job and leaving HK, after 11 years, YES 11 Years!! He has to leave for a new chapter of his life, marching to his bright and successful path of career. It is hurtful for his leaving, given he is the only one I can lean on. Obvisouly, he is someone that no one could replace in my heart so far.

But when a door shuts, a window opens. The chapter with Dave comes to the end and a new chapter is being started. As I mentioned, I have been chatting with a guy from USA since May, and we decided to meet up after tons of chats and lately with cam chats. We are ready to meet in Canada for CNY holidays. I don't know what would happen to us and not even sure if all could work out and how to work out, I just don't know. I am not expecting any great fruitful results with this trip honestly. I can't deal with too many things at once.

Few things has to be paused

2011-11-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

One of my big tooth broke, and finally I need to go dentist and hug money has to be spent. Did I tell you I don't go to dentist ? They scared me when I was a kid. And ended up I would not go to them if it is bit emergency. But I regret now. It costs me a lot more than going for regular check up. Sigh. So 3080usd for tooth removing n implant a new one .. plus other charges. Dentists must be really rich .

Hence , because of that spending, my study at the university and yoga has to be on pause for few months .

Plus another spending I actually have full paid already is a flight ticket to Toronto. We are going in two months. Hope everything gos well .

When I was taking those photos.....

2011-11-15T17:18:00.001+08:00

We had a pre trip hiking on Sat and the teacher annoys me so much, who I had mentioned before she kept telling me to wait for her and she grabbed my arm while I was taking pictures..she weighted herself with her grab,SHE IS BIG !.I stretched my neck and shoulder ( right side) ... ENDED up suffering from tendinitis. Back of my right ear, deep inside been hurting since Sat afternoon and I thought of something more serious it could be. My guess was inner ear infection or something. but not...

Anyway, here are some photos to share, Pok Fu Lam Reservoir

BBQ day

2011-10-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

My online guy told me to try to be friend with workmates even they are insane, try to understand the politics there and play along. Well, not everyone there is weird. There are a few decent people still. And we had BBQ at countryside near a pier yesterday. Weather was great and a few shots for the views. and a few cows came across to get food.

What's wrong with her?

2011-10-06T19:25:00.001+08:00

One of the teacher at work, she has been friendly since my day 1 and we had Starbucks coffee a couple of times. Since mid of September, she asked me if we could go again on 29th Oct after pay day. I said sure. Since then , she kept reminding me about our 'DATE' every time she saw me. Imagine, I could see her few times a day... " hey remember we go to have coffee on 29th? ' repeatedly for a month!!!!! Everyday, few times a day!!!! Actually we weren't that clicked during our chats. I have no idea WHY SHE HAS TO MAKE ME TO GO COFFEE WITH HER? OK 29th was a typhoon signal 8 day, a extra day off for us. After that she has been trying reschedule it for the whole week, at last , this morning, when I got too cranky, I said to her 'I don't know, I am too busy to enjoy a coffee now..'

Everyone is married, but not me..

2011-10-05T19:10:00.000+08:00

I felt really depressed on the weekend because all I read on the news was 2 singers and 1 TV star, who are my age, they got married happily. And I am still so unsure and not really dating one. I don't know why it is so hard to find a guy who really into having a relationship. I don't know how to meet the right one . You may say I should go out more, which is true and right thing to do . I probably should do that...

Ok She is a Bitch

2011-09-24T20:25:00.002+08:00

I have no ideas why I keep having bad bosses, one after one. The one I have now is driving me nuts. I would diagnosis myself have e signs of mental problems. She bullshitted to me this morning again . Well all lies and non sense conversation. I do believe she doesn't know what she is talking about a lot of time as she speaks without her brain. And YES I DO have to learn how to deal with different people and bosses. This sort of ART I have never learned ARGHH... Somehow, I would doubt it is me too dumb to understand or it is her problems...

Well I should focus on my life and long term goals of my life. OK, so what is happening in my life?
1. I have doing my qualification studies and I have a long way to go
2. I feel great to chat with a new guy whose I know from online since end of May and we decided to meet in Canada. He is from USA. Hence, AT SOME POINTS I do NEED this job to make money for the ticket and the holiday.

If you have checked on my monthly budget on google docs. You would probably find that I have saving up on travel. One thing I need to look after is my daily meals/dinning out spending. It is touching a thousand now. Plus the grocery shopping. I have nearly spent over 1500 HKD ( about 200USD) for myself. I will have to cut out a lot to 1000 HKD ( 130 USD) in the coming months. I will keep recording my daily spending which is really good to tracking my money. I need to keep doing it .

Yip! Yoga tomorrow!

How to unwind?

2011-09-17T15:34:00.000+08:00

I am not feeling alright with this job. I feel that I am so useless and not functioning ok as I was I can't meet her ( my boss)requirments and can't stand for her micro managment way, which drive me nuts. I can tell I am having some sort of depression..nevevous and sometimes I stop breathing. Hardly take off the work thing off my mind. I need to learn how to take off my mind from work and not let it bother me at all. Or I can tell I am going to be mental for real.

Life updates

2011-09-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

I have ...
* started new job about one and half month. Boss is so mean and I don't know HOW AM I DEAL with HER. I guess most bosses in the world have something wrong with their mind. My friends said they have had good boss, who are like friends. For me, it never happened. And I don't see it would happen. Micro managing me is a way to kill me fast. arrr.. I try to survive and hang in there, this is what I am trying right now.

*deleted/ removed the guy I mentioned few months ago, who I imagine in love with . Well ended up, he was just a cloud and not sure even he ever exist in this world. Why do I say that? Lies and never be real are the points. I am not that dumb to believe those lies, which didn't make sense at all.

*been updating my monthly budget plan on google. Welcome to check on it. Nothing fancy, just trying to save up money and pay back debts.

Inflation

2011-07-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

In my past few visits to supermarket, I wanted to buy meat and vegetables, but looked at the price, awwww, they are more expensive day after day!! I believe it is the same for all over the world. This is really bad, life is getting even harder with such inflation. And it is not about fresh food, even tinned food are so expensive now. I didn't really know what to get with my little budget for a week food. I felt hurt to get those expensive vegetables and meat... I ended up buying
4 banana, $0.84
loaf of wheat bread $1.27
3oranges $1.4
big jar of peanut butter $3.72
Fitfty50 strawberry jam $3.79
bag of dried seaweed 2.89
bag of rice noodles 1.86

Bag of seaweed is for my noodles and soup. They are cheap and full of vitamins and can store for long time. From avoiding buying fresh vegetables all the time, seaweed is really a good replacement.

And then I decided to go fresh market, to get some fresh vegetables total cost $4.3 with some a slice of winter gourd, 3 tomatoes, ginger, 1 Angled Loofah ( my favorite) ... these just for 2 days meals.

Ended up I didn't get any meat!!!

Flatten the belly

2011-07-20T16:41:00.003+08:00

OK Since June, I have been eating lesser and lesser and this month even lesser and lesser...

June meals, I mainly have peanut butter and Fifty 50 jam sandwiches for breakfast, Oatmeal with Black sesame powder for lunch plus soup and noodles and fruit for dinner. Starving month!!!

July, this month, I am having the same things but occasionally eating junks eg ice cream and chips and today Mc donald's mmmm bad huh? But I forced myself to attend more difficult yoga classes and to my best to all poses and fulfilled requirements from teachers, holding poses for longer time... Then paralyzed for a day or two.

Today, I changed yoga clothes at the studio and during the class, I realized my belly is flattened a lot more :) When I did forward bend , I didn't feel the muffin top is hanging out like before... where is it gone? I really don't care or miss it. I just don't want it come back again.... I haven't measured myself yet. But I will soon.

Here to share a few poses that I worked on so hard , which helped to have better arms and flatten belly. And I realized that the more you exercise , the less you crave.

Cobra Pose

Low Plank Pose

Triangle Pose

House MD

2011-07-19T10:07:00.002+08:00

I just finished watching House MD season 7. It is kind of sad at the end seeing House crashed his car into Chuddy's house. He is a loner without family ( this bit is similar to me), not to know how to love and beloved. BUT at least he has a good friend. I feel for House. I really do even it is just a TV series. I might be missed the bit about his family. But family is a cause and big reason to how we all become what we are today. When I look back to my childhood. my parents worked, my sisters are much older and no one did spend time with me. I was at day care or someone's home to be looking after. I grew up without emotion and love. And ended up I don't know how to love, well still learning. I didn't feel love or the hurt till I had my first bf. So long story short, if I would be parent one day, I wouldn't do the same as what my parents did to me. With the job I have, I try to love and connect with my students and hope they wouldn't ended up like me or house without emotion and love.

Now I am lookign for new TV series to watch, any suggestions?

Victoria Harbour

2011-07-18T18:49:00.002+08:00

Days without computer

2011-07-13T20:58:00.004+08:00

Having sent the laptop to repair, everything is paused in my life...I can't chase those tv show series... I can't hang around on the internet... I can't chat on MSN etc.. well those are my daily routine and keep me soooooo busy, especially I am in a handicap mode after yoga, my laptop is acting as laptop for real..
And now I got the time to catch up some offline work here.
I have actually sent the laptop to repair .
I have got a new bed fitted sheet from IKEA.
I have been reading book.
I have polished my feet nails.
I have few more forms to fill out and get thf things done.
Here a few pics of the town I will go at

Updates

2011-07-11T08:48:00.000+08:00

some updates for the past weeks
1. contracted signed for the new job, starting Aug 1st.
2. done with the medical check up and finger crossed will be ok..
3. having no work this month and trying to sharpen my forex trading skills , I have to back to demo and practice a bit more before I lost all my money. But august gonna be a headache.... sigh....

Few good things

2011-07-05T21:00:00.001+08:00

1. I have met up with old friends old boss., a bit catch up
2. Dave and me talk again and will meet up on weekend
3. Gonna have no work on this month ..on the bright side... I could get some rest and back to my trading on fore again
4. Done with my medical check up and I don't know what is the result like
5. Am at the yoga studio and gonna have some yoga tonight
6. My university staff was encouraging and thank her a lot
;) be happy and grateful

Hold on to NOW

2011-07-01T07:49:00.002+08:00

So I took the full time job offer and going back to continue my college study in the evening. That all will start in the beginning and end of August. The full time job isn't that what I want and happy with beside the money. Money is more important when come to the real life. I can't live for my dream without feeding myself food and fulfilling other responsibilities.

There are always some problems in daily life. And sometimes they really knock me down and I barely could get up again. And a quote I found on my phone app, which encouraged me.

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." ~Buddha

The coincident is I got the following msg from a mystery friend about the same time
" Do not live in the past, for it is gone....And do not be troubled by the future,for it is not here yet.Live in the present and make is so beautifull, that it will be worth remembering….have a great weekend"

I kind of believing this is a message to me and I need to hold on to now, what I have now and do my best.

Another sad news is I think I losing or have lost Dave. 10 years friendship just vanished. I don't know how to explain how it happened. But it has been fading out :/

Job offers

2011-06-23T09:12:00.001+08:00

I was in dilemma... I got 2 offers.

A school: nice boss and team but 2/3 day work at $1124 USD, not sure how many holidays per yr.. would be around 2 weeks I guess
B school: the boss seems nice but you never know, full time work at $1696 USD. 20 days annul leaves and medical and life insurance.

Both same distance from home. In fact school is in nicer area and is in where I always want to move to.

Anyway, I like school A better but I cant live on the money they offer. So I have to choose school B for sure and cross my fingers that they are not like the hell I lived for 1.5 yr and ended up became asthmatic.

Job Interviews

2011-06-15T06:17:00.001+08:00

Today and Saturday, I got interviews on both days. I wish to get nice school, which could let me more concentrate on teaching other than doing non teaching duties. Wish me luck...

Self -Condifent

2011-06-07T06:01:00.003+08:00

Self -Confident.

How to get it back when you lost it?

Morning coffee

2011-06-01T10:32:00.004+08:00

I didn't go to bed till 3 am and woke up at 7. Few hours sleep.. not quality one.. making me a sleep head all day .
What did I do last night? I was searching for jobs and YouTube +ING ...
Did I tell you I met a dog when I visited shenzhen? I loved him and miss him a lot. I have been thinking to adopt a puppy. Dogs are our good friends, I began to understand it.
I want a puppy that is small size... will not grow to a huge dog... I don't know dogs at all. I believe there are a lot to study and research before I adopt one home. I am not going to buy one I think... it costs fortune to buy one. I searched on the internet... there are some homeless puppy... I just need to wait and see...

Cooking photo

2011-05-31T21:34:00.002+08:00

Just some cooking pictures. I am having fun playing with the new app I downloaded, which can put few pictures in one frame, kind if fun I think.

Shenzhen trip

2011-05-30T21:05:00.003+08:00

friends cooking

So I finished the kinder job since May 21, I didn't go to Bangkok for holiday. But I visited friends who live in Shenzhen, China. It was surprisingly fast from HK to there, 40 mins bus ride from HK to Shekhao boarder, then 10 mins taxi, arrived their home already. Very convenient !

view from the balcony

My friends live on the top floor of the building, around 1000squarefeet, with 1 master bedroom suit and 2 other bedrooms, and bathroom. .. kitchen... lounge room and a little balcony to chit chat with friends while drinking beers!! And the rent is just about 5000HKD. This sort of flat in HK should about 25,000HKD per month!!

Somewhere in HK, before crossing the boarder to China


street

my feet

They are really nice guys, you could fall in them easily. But wait, it could be because we confused as we spent 24 hrs together! Oh well, chef friend had been really great that he cooked us dinner and breakfast. Hotel standard!! lovely yumm..


lounge room

Life in Shenzhen, according to my friends, they said' hate it here', well compare to HK, it is kind of boring. Beside things are cheap, it is boring. And has to know that Facebook is banned in China. So if you couldn't live without Facebook , then China isn't a place for you.. ok photo time...

Raw Food Weight Loss

2011-05-15T15:37:00.001+08:00