My Disappearing Act (A Weight Loss Journey)

2012-05-27T14:48:00.001-07:00

Its been a while. I hit a stall and was stuck in the 180's for a couple of weeks. That was very frustrating. Today I weighed 178 lbs, so the stall is over. Hallelujah!!! I have become addicted to Sugar Free Popsicles, I eat them all day long. Hopefully the weight is going to keep coming off. Fingers crossed!!

2012-04-10T15:26:00.001-07:00

Happiness is a journey. Not a Destination.

197# today!

2012-04-08T10:05:00.001-07:00

Made it to Onederland. 198 lbs today! Happy Easter!

2012-04-04T18:21:00.001-07:00

202.4 lbs today.

Tried quinoa today. Not bad. Need to play with some flavors.

Quote: "Where there are choices to make, make the one you won't regret."

2012-04-03T23:25:00.002-07:00

203.8 pounds today!! That's 30 pounds since I began my journey last August. I am 2 weeks post-op now and ready to start pureed foods.

Quote of the Day:
"If you eat what you've always eaten, you will weigh what you've always weighed..."

2012-04-01T15:21:00.001-07:00

I decided I am going to start posting a motivational quote at least once a day, that way maybe I will remember to post more often. I made myself a food journal and have written tons of motivational quotes all throughout the book, so why not have some on my blog. Here goes...

"Calories (noun) - tiny creatures that live in your closet and sew your clothes a little bit tighter every night."

2012-04-01T15:16:00.002-07:00

On March 7th, 2012, I began my pre-operative diet, which consists of foods (purchased from my surgeon's office) that added up to a daily intake of 800-900 calories, <7g sugar, only 30-60g carbs and a LOT of protein. Anyways these are my measurements...

Weight: 227 lbs (my highest weight was around 240, March 2009)
Chest: 45" (Breast: 53-1/2")
Waist: 47-1/2"
Hips: 50"
Neck: 17-1/4"
Arms: 14"
Thighs: 22"
Calves: 15-3/4"

The 2 photos below were taken on my 12th wedding anniversary (March 4, 2012)

March 19th, 2012 - The evening before my surgery, I decided to have my measurements taken again. This is what they were...

Weight: 214 pounds (holy crap - could not believe that I could lose that much in just 2 weeks)
Chest: 45" (Breasts: 51")
Waist: 48"
Hips: 49-1/2"
Neck: 17"
Arms: 13-1/2"
Thighs: 21-1/2"
Calves: 15-1/2"

And as of today, Sunday, April 1, 2012, (13 days post-op) I weigh 205 pounds. I can not wait until I actually start exercising and watch the pounds disappear!

Monday, March 19th

2012-03-19T08:34:00.001-07:00

I can't believe that tomorrow is the day that my life will change forever. The last 6 months have gone by very quickly. I have lots to do today. I always forget things, so I want to make sure I have everything I need. Bye for now.

Venting

2012-03-17T20:51:00.000-07:00

Is it to much for me to ask that my family not argue for the next 3 days? I guess so. All I wanted was to be the center of attention in my house just this once. I could die on the operating table and the last memories of me would be me screaming at my husband and kids. Bullshit! Then again I have been feeling very crabby lately. This pre-op diet is awful and I know that my diet for at least a month after surgery will consist of mostly liquids. I am missing my comfort foods already. Good thing about the RNY is that even if I do go back to eating junk, my "pouch" will just get pissed and then I will feel literally like I want to die. Thats what dumping is. Not sure if I ever want to experience that feeling. I am committed to doing this!!! I will follow the rules and I will become a slave to my stomach pouch!

My before pics - March 4, 2012

2012-03-16T23:55:00.000-07:00

2012-03-16T23:23:00.006-07:00

Only 3 more days to go

So I am having my Roux-en-y Surgery on Tuesday, March 20th at 9:00 a.m. I've been brave for the last 6 months. Yes it takes 6 months of appointments with various psychologists, nutritionists and doctors to get approved from my insurance. But it was worth all the wait. I was 230 pounds when I started my journey back in August of 2011. At my pre-op appointment I was 227 pounds. I was down to 222 pounds, but then the holidays came and screwed me. Anyways, my Dr. (Dr. Stephen Boyce) requires all of his patients to go on a pre-op diet, which includes foods that he sells in his office. I have been on this diet since March 8th and have already lost 12 pounds. As of today I weighed 215 pounds. I haven't been 215 pounds in years. My highest weight was around 250 pounds. I had heard from a very good friend about her surgery, so I decided to look into for myself. Best decision I have made in a long time. I am tired of being the FAT girl. I want to be the skinny girl that I see in my head, the one who is supposed to the person I see in the mirror.

2012-03-16T23:23:00.002-07:00

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Pre-Op Preparations

Since I am so FREAKED OUT about the possibility of losing my hair after surgery, I decided to dye it back to my natural color (I have been a blonde for quite a while), so that I won't have to worry about dyeing it post-op. Anyways,my natural color was always a light brown color, but for some unknown reason, the roots on the top of my head are such a dark brown, they are almost black. Well I went to the salon to have them dye my hair a brown color (like in the picture I have on this profile). The stylist started putting the dye onto my bleached blonde hair and immediately notice something strange. My hair was turning an ashy green brown. YUCK. So we start trying to figure out what the hell I did to my hair. It seems that by using the Blonde Lightener Kit from Walmart with 40 volume developer has stripped the keratin from my hair. I had no options but to go with the exact root color BLACK. Oh my god I have black hair. Funny thing is I have to go back to stylist on Thursday to have it redone, because my hair was so f'd up, there are some yellowish streaks throughout the back of my hair. So here I am pale faced and black hair. Probably going to get some red extensions to add some contrast, cause I am hating the way this looks. Its all for the greater good though, right?

2012-03-16T23:18:00.001-07:00

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Thinking about Gastric Bypass

Well not thinking about it anymore, I am going to do it. I began the required 6 month doctor supervised diets and other nonsense, back in September. I go to the New Life Center once a month and meet with various doctors and associates, all so that they can submit letters to my insurance company, so that they will cover the surgery. The surgery costs $22,000.00 and all I have to do is pay half of the program fee, which is $3000.00. Seems like a deal to me. I can not wait to have the surgery and watch these pounds just melt away.