The Volcano

Felt lame, might delete later.

2026-05-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

Those things where I would blow off steam by texting him. That forbidden outlet. I miss it.

Go Reds!

2026-04-25T11:55:19.342-07:00

Oingo Boingo, "Just Another Day"

2026-04-25T11:54:00.000-07:00

But there's a smile on my face,
For everyone
There's a golden coin,
That reflects the sun
There's a lonely place,
That's always cold
There's a place in the stars,
For when you get old.

From one of my clients/friends

2026-04-25T11:29:11.119-07:00

This has been very important to me. I’m so grateful for writing and for you for helping me.

Great therapy session

2026-04-22T11:10:24.909-07:00

Bethany is a genius!

Spending my morning researching Pardubice

2026-04-21T11:12:00.000-07:00

I once lived there, but not for eons. Another lifetime.

More Ahoj

2026-04-20T13:58:00.000-07:00

More than anything I want coffee. “That is not a problem. We’ll find you a place.” He steers me down the street and around the corner and there you have it: Wenceslas Square, a wide expanse marked by a memorial toward the top of its slope. “This is for Jan Palach,” Jaroslav says. “He protested by setting himself on fire.”

For a minute, I can see it, hear it, feel it, smell it: the crackling, the burning. What is the last thing you feel when flames are surrounding you on all sides? What do you think about? What do you wish for? Most of all, do you have regrets? I don’t.

But I’ve never burned to death.

“Here,” Jaroslav points to a second-story window. “Coffee.”

Dunkin’ goddamned Donuts. He must assume that an American would be drawn to it. Well, whatever. Beggars, choosers, and me.

From AHOJ

2026-04-20T12:42:00.000-07:00

I’m leaning toward going. No real ah-ha! moment here, only facts nudging me closer to inevitability. My mind acts as the lawyer presenting a closing statement: ladies and gentlemen of the jury, the accused has no job, no money, no real way of getting by here in the States. Moreover, she has no boyfriend, so she’s not even getting laid. In summation, I suggest she keep her bags packed.

Random

2026-04-20T09:35:00.000-07:00

Marcus just told me that Groucho Marx and Alice Cooper were friends. Who knew?

Prince, "Cream"

2026-04-16T18:47:00.000-07:00

You've got the horn, so why don't you blow it?

2017

2026-04-15T11:20:00.000-07:00

Michael took this at my birthday party. I'll give him this: he could take a picture.

Today's mood

2026-04-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

52

2026-04-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

And glad to be alive! I feel very happy right now.

Current view:

It's our 18th wedding anniversary!

2026-04-06T11:16:00.720-07:00

Yay! (There's so much more to say, but that will suffice.)

Mendocino, 2014

2026-04-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

Truth

2026-04-05T05:29:33.956-07:00

The only way out is through.

South Lake Tahoe, this week

2026-04-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

Jenner-by-the-Sea, 2016

2026-04-05T04:53:00.000-07:00

Ugh!

2026-04-04T14:23:00.000-07:00

I thought I was done writing about this in Bearded Lady. Apparently not. Yes, I'm vaguebooking. Sue me.

Texting with Marcus

2026-04-03T18:14:00.000-07:00

HIM: You shall be forever balancing parenthood and the rest of life. And chafing against the tensions thereof.

ME: Thank God. I'm serious. And I speak as someone who gets driven nuts by a 10-year-old on the regular.

HIM: Thank Her for what? (That was just to look woke.)

ME: I've realized I will chafe against life's tensions whether they exist or not ... I seem to be that kind of person. Might as well have a little mini-me.

HIM: WAIT TIL TEEN. Yeah, that's a great attitude you have. Truly. Despite my hoo haa.

The dream

2026-04-03T17:53:00.000-07:00

In the dream, Adam asked for a divorce. Actually, he didn't so much ask as demand. It was one of those dreams that just picks back up after you've awoken, sweaty and scared, to a breath of relief.

For the record, this has never happened. When I've gotten pissed at him, I've used the d-word. I haven't done it for a long time.

Oh, and he'd already started dating someone else. What the?

The Killers

2026-03-28T10:49:00.000-07:00

Are we human, or are we dancer?

From Conflagration

2026-03-24T17:53:00.000-07:00

Lilith grew up to the tune of the sirens, that wailing wind, but never got used to them. That was easily half the reason she left – she couldn’t take the idea of the already half-destroyed city being chipped away around her. Sometimes you leave what you love because seeing it decimated hurts your heart, your being. You would rather be without it than let it be without itself.

What it sounds like to work with Adam in the room

2026-03-24T14:04:00.000-07:00

"The range doesn't cover the stability specification."

"They didn't even calculate the range. They just did it based on sample."

"When I try to put in the numbers ..."

This song always makes me cry

2026-03-09T14:04:11.236-07:00