into the Penguin's Palace-s

penguin's current fav song..

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 17:55:00 +0000

wonder if i tailored my life into this juz because i like the song

after all they say, our story is written by our own hands.

i wonder why sad songs are created, maybe the singer is sad, maybe the target market for sad people are more than happy people, maybe its for sad people to be sadder, maybe it tells us even though the singer is sad, she is still hot. hence life could get better?

10 months

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 27 Jul 2010 09:28:00 +0000

love wise:

i tot i fell in in love with a guy i barely met n made him come back from japan for me,i dated my friends's bro whom i didnt even like, i got fooled n went out with a guy whom i found out later was dating my enemy. i crazily fell a lil bit in love with a "man behind mask" who smiled at me at work on a horrible day at a horrible beginning, oops all that within 3 months. for eight months later i tot i would marry an indian surgeon.yes indian isnt it ironic? and now i m just in a mess. AGAIN

work wise:

i got bullied terribly when i started out housemanship.yes guys i ll never forget u . well i m berdendam what to do kan? after i was done with surgery, i went to paeds, the most i hate is actually medical posting its a mess. i met the worst sadist MSK . he harasses me everytime he sees me and verbally mentally abuses me. yes i met hamsap bosses whom i really couldnt do anything about, its was a MRI CT scan nightmare. i tot plp get sexual harrassment everywhere but in the medical profession, but nope.. medical ppl are ppl too they too harrasses plp sexually. well it was a mild one so what ever just becareful.. i liked paeds, i like surgery, i dont like adult medical, but medical mos are much nicer than surgical people.

already in my 3rd posting, i think my tulan-ness are surgical based, my lil crying sympathetic heart is for paeds. i havent done orthopods but dont think i'll ever like it because of the bedsores its really irritating.

i think i dont like it because i m not good at it, i only like stuff that i m good at. but what am i good for? should u be a clown if u like to make ppl happy? i like attention, does it mean i should be a celebrity? or just be what im good at - a drama queen LOL

family wise:

my sis gave birth, its the most wonderful thing n i couldnt be there because im fucked up

dad with his diabetes i still cant manage it

money wise:

i m poor but im buying an apartment ithink i m crazy

im scared

photo wise:

i kinda paused... there is not many nice things that i could have much time to stop, capture n feel.

isnt it funny? its like i m doing a discharge summary.

a whooping one month!

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 12:31:00 +0000

Selamat sejahtera kepada haridin haridat sekalian

Patik telah MIA for 1 month kerana telah start berkerja kat Penang Hospital..

I am currently working in the Surgical department, yes i am the most junior of all, for the 1st 2 weeks new posters in every department have to TAG, that means to be a TAGGER , which means 6 am -12 am every single day for 2 weeks (NO,no there are no weekends)

and no too, being a tagger doesnt mean to just watch, it's a period where you are suppose to learn up everything asap to be able to be ON CALL.

On call means to be taking care of the whole ward alone after everyone goes home at 5 until the next morning, then continue working until 5 pm. yes 36 hours standby..

there are 5 types of calls in surgical dept, 1st call(active male ward), 2nd call(active female ward), 3rd call (passive male ward), OT(operation teatre) call, and HDA( high dependency A?) call.

currently 1've done 3 calls, which include OT call and 2 passive calls. there was one i did back to back call, which means to be on call 2 days in a roll.

My next call is tomorrow which is an active call.. so scared.. hopefully no one dies.. so far no one died in my care.. hopefully trow no one will be the 1st, i visited the female active ward after work today, there was some unstable patients lying there.. with family members reading quran.. T.T

My life pretty much resolve around only the hospital and the patients and the only friends i have in penang are Doctors.

HAHAHAH

vce dasvidania.. i wanna go recharge for my call trow.. zzz

pre Pangkorness

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:59:00 +0000

CPY i miss u! oh that's my kaki lepak/ "since young play until big punye gf" ^_^.

everyday is better bcos of u ! :D thank you for temaning me this holzz.. dunno what i'll do with out u ler baby *kiss

I miss u cos i saw a dog that look like ur dog...

I'll be leaving for my Kursus Kenegaraan trow.. to Pangkor..

Lets wrap up my Ipoh adventures in my express collages huhu~

I hope I ll get KL, so that i can be close to my sisters.. Yesterday i saw my senior, she had half day holiday for hari selangor! how cool is that?!! i thought we ll never get any off days..

Good News, my 40kg clothes has finally arrived! check out my cool packaging =_=

Neway, I ve been really bZ these few days, bcos i gotta go shopping for working clothes, yes i am a working adult now, i wanna high cut skirt n hight cut pants! :( but i think some bitchy old MO in th hospital will say i mengada-gada, so tak boleh so high profile.

That's me in Formal attire!

*7th Sept is my Virgo sis's 20th bday, we celebrated at home on Sat, then again in KL on Mon, :D

Yummy Choc Molten Cake @ Chilis

* on Sunday night i dine-in @Bubba Gump/Bubblegum & shrimp , Sunway. it was a really shrimpy dinner, shrimps everywhere, The service was really good compared to MidValley's Chilis.

AMARAN: dun tamak for their birthday treats @ Bubba Gump & Shrimp, bcos the birthday boy accross the room had to stand on the chair and shake his bootie along with their 3 minute birthday song!! Jangan Tamak jika tak mau shake bootie!!!

After that we went down to KL.. SKY BAR ^_^ first time there v exited to see sexy pretty girls in gorgeous dresses and a pool in the middle of the bar, and Most, the NIGHT VIEW of KL from 33rd floor was breathtaking!! pity that i only had with me my Iphone camera.. bit wasted.

I think i ll be back there again for some serious photo session! But the drinks super mahal $$$ , next time my treat *winks!

Latest UPDATE, i cut my hair again!! cool boh? ^_^

ok YAWN.. gotto get ready for pangkor trow, Signing OFF for now, TC!

Penguin Pangkor !

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 10:59:00 +0000

OK i ve got my call!!! the call i've been dreading the whole day, but not on my phone.
at 6:36 pm DAD came in to my room, told me my induction course is on the 9th at Pangkor Coral Bay Resort.

I looked at my phone, then look back at him and asked "how you know?"
Dad evil dun wanna tell and said he dreamt bout it. RWER, after almost 15 minutes of begging only he told me.. he say i stupid didnt check his phone...

Finally i got a date, finally the waiting is over! MERDEKA! suddenly i feel grown up, i turn to dad, suddenly he looks older than when i left for Moscow.. :( suddenly mata berair.. ok banjir dy..

ok pangkor, here i come...

3rd of Sept 2009, a Thursday

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 03:23:00 +0000

I got a shocking msg this morning, DHANI got the call.. the call anticipated but also feared by all medic grad... INDUCTION CALL... he is gonna be reporting @ port dickson this 9, (6 days from the call).

Is my call coming too?, my phone screamed while i was chatting with dhani on MSN.. *phew maxis ADV only.. *phew..

I want that call, because i am too bored n tired of waiting, restless, i ve never had such a long and lazy holiday b4 in my entire life. too much rest.

But i am also scared.

Yesterday i went to Klinik Kesihatan Ipoh again for my 2nd round Medical Check Up, i met a 1981 Punjabi Dr, lets call him Dr Singh, he was telling me

"ohh russian grad, hehe better becareful ar.. many got extended uh"

STRESS, plus he also commented on my ketakde semangatness.. ok it was hot, n the cue was long kay.. :(, but the truth is when he started talking bout extension of russian grads n i terus takde semangat dy then he terus detect my status malei..,after that i felt scared n sad and everything negative..

the negativity outburst continued the whole day.. and night...and dawn.. i hate my negativity, it destroys me and the people i love.

i need to buy working clothes...

i shall carry my lazy ass to kl to shop.. dun really have mood to shop lately becos i dun want to use my credit card.. *rephrase my dad's credit card

why arent there hospital tokyo on the houseman list..

kay.. gtg ciao..

aku EMO *bish sendiri

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 15:40:00 +0000

Bimbotic Penguin

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 14:44:00 +0000

Its a boring day LALLALA, so i decided to dress up secretly in my room for no apparent reason to celebrate my RM29 sunglasses ! Woohoo,

*sorry my mirror is very dirty, thats why i like fitting rooms' mirrors.. :P
ok i ll clean it later.. trow kay... :P

I've been walking & driving under malaysian sun for 2 months without sunglasses, i didnt want to buy one bcos i bought one mahal one recently from moscow, but it is in my boxes, which are still traveling .... bis... cis....

oh.. i had my first nail art done last week... damn cheap 18rm nia.

so.. must celebrate also...

backache..

zzz

<3

To you On September. bfms

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 14:33:00 +0000

Happy Hari Hachini ^_^

Tanah + Air = Lumpur, HAPPY MERDEKA

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 16:16:00 +0000

LUMPUR by KAMAL SABRAN. i wonder why they choose this film of the 15 to be launched on this very Merdeka moment.

Tanah Air in malay means "country of origin"
Tanah = land/soil
Air = water.
Lumpur= mud (soil+water)

Which is also the name of the capital of our country MALAYSIA, KUALA LUMPUR.

Can't live with it, Can't live without it?

On 15Malaysia FB site , they gave us malaysian a chance to make a wish upon midnight.
This is what i wish for Merdeka this year;

to be free from H1N1, thus hoping that our government will take better measures, our country needs soup to keep our hands clean to prevent H1N1 infection. Pls provide public soaps in public toilets.

Africa wish for food, when they have diamonds
Malaysian wish for soap, this is all poor management. ZZZZZZZZ

Another story from my dad,

Many many years ago when he was still a child in a kampung running around barefooted, Daddy was always very well treated by malay soldiers ( that time msia was under jajahan british) eg; he gets sweets n etc..

According to him, 3 races were much more ONE than it is today.

It sounds like MERDEKA was what made ONE malaysia, three.

WHY? because b4 Merdeka there were equality, everyone was treated the same, no specials, no extras.

How to be one if equilibrium cant be achieved, so i think the person who said ONE should really g o$(*#&*(@&$*(&@ IT self , dont say it if u dont mean to change it.

HAPPY MERDEKA wtf.

Penguin on H1N1

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 10:33:00 +0000

my dad calls it "hini" claiming it is the best way to pronounce it instead of saying "H-1-N-1",

Well what ever it's called,does it even matter?, We are ONE world in a midst of a pandemic outbreak and some, can even still argue bout what should it be called and what it shouldn't be called, Mexicans felt offended when some called it Mexican flu , Muslim finds it tak halal when they catch swine flu? wash ur nose with tanah liat ? =_=

i dunno, i dun care.

The importance is to control it.
The biggest step is by

1.controlling hygiene status be it individual, private area or public places.
(hand sanitizers, soaps in public toilets, frequent sanitization of public places eg lifts, lrts, escalators, public toilets.)

2.wearing mask in crowded area./when u have a flu/cough

3.disposal of viral infected tissues

*i'd like to clarify that wearing a mask does not protect you from the disease if you are dirty.

HAND SANITIZING.

Imagine, u are going to a stall for food, you touch the chair and the newspaper, the fork n spoons, THEN you rub your eyes, adjust your hair etc... How would u know the places you have touched are not infected with maybe a sneeze or a cough by a H1N1 carrier?

* so wash your hands frequently and stop touching ur face if u haven't do so, a good way of training your self is to have nail art done, so that u will be very cautious of your hands. :D

THE MASK

The main function of the mask, is to prevent respiratory droplet transmission, so u will only have to wear it if u have flu, or the people close to you are flu-ing, or you are at a crowded area where anyone can cough/sneeze in your face.

It is responsible for flu-ing ppl to wear a mask to refrain from infecting others / contaminating public places. It personally think that flu-ing/coughing people who does not take an effort to isolate their viruses should be punished.

Many asked me, what's the biggest difference wbout Being back from Moscow, to Malaysia? and my current answer is HYGIENE.

The hygiene in public places especially
1.most eating places are making us obviously 3rd world.
2.almost all public toilets are not routinely sanitized and have no soaps!

I personally think that, those are the main source of uncontrollable spread.

Look at PUDU station's food stalls! which ministry of health approve that level of hygiene for food stalls?

Now,Look at our public toilets, do they have soaps?

But, what more should one demand of those innocent public places if our KLINIK KESIHATAN AWAM (Ipoh) gives out tissue thin mask(only to those with fever), and definitely NO SOAP in their toilets? At the public waiting area, i could still see uncovered cough everywhere, and worse, big giant stand fans transferring those coughs to me.

Is our country that poor, that we can't afford mask and soap?

Yesterday WHO has warned bout a 4x more aggressive strain. I am a healthcare worker,how much can i help if the government is so stingy on soap n mask? How many more gerai makanan kotor will continue the spread of these viruses. *sigh.

B-I-S-M-I-L-A-H

as usual, serahkan lah kepada you know who.

Penguins Celebrated in Tokyo~~

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 09:55:00 +0000

kawaii?

hopefully one day i can bring my penguin to tokyo as well :D

Actually it is not a Penguin celebration it's just one of the funny parades they have for the Asakusa Samba Festival ^_^ (june-aug) wonder whats izzit for? wiki takde kata~~

On another issue, I need an Iphone 3g cover!!!! but cant seem to find one in Ipoh =_=" bad news is my friends from KL also kata takde much choices in KL as well..

" i want this! "

Iphone sifu introduced this More-thing http://more-thing.com/ where u can get decent acceptable i covers :) but its quite costly ... plus have to order it online.. which i can't because i malu to use my dad's credit card, since that i've graduated ... zzzz i hope i can start work early and get my life slightly more settled.

so KKM & SPA cepatly memberitahu aku manakah akan aku bekerja jilakau tidak gua tak boleh settle down, tipa tipa hari ku menunggu pangilan atau surat saje kat rumah..=_=" hidup ini sudah sikit sikit boring... sila cepat KKM!

this is what i m gonna do after i know where am i going to be working.

1. apply own bank account(which the gov will pay me through)
2. apply own credit card (then i can buy my i-cover .wtf, i m so pathetic)
3. buy a car/ settle loan etc.
4. move into my own place near my working hospital
5.have everything organised neatly and presentably. i want queen size bed! and big big table!
6. start earning money =_=

I hope that i will be able to pay my bills.

Penguin tak mau teman lelaki, Penguin mau lelaki sejati ~ uhh

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 05:04:00 +0000

I don't wanna BOYFRIEND~~ i want a real man~~ LOL
neway hot video from Jolin n a REAL MAN, he really very real man ~ especialy with his mulut senget sexy, and techtone chinese rap YUMZ.

Baby Bro, learn this mulut senget, this is good mulut senget.

*baby bro recently pose dengan mulut senget in our family photo,

DAD: why baby like to pose with mulut senget
me: dunno
(his mulut senget x very successful)
Photographer explains to dad: erm i think i can straighten his mouth with the computer
*me sweat , how to straighten la?
Baby bro: NooooO! dun touch my mouth!

Love jolin's "real man's move" (the lagak bermuscle move) sexy.. ^_^

Penguin Runsing

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 18:40:00 +0000

Mengapa aku runsing?

1. Internet aku teruk, google chrome aku asyik crash dan selalu berkata link yang aku tekan rosak. Adakah begitu banyak link yang rusaok secara tiba tiba selepas aku membeli celcom broadband?

2. Aku berasa aku telah ditipu un tuk membeli Modem Celcom Broadband berharga Rm270 oleh seorang lelaki yang bernama Wan, memakai t shirt Celcom, yang menerkam aku di luar Kedai Celcom ,GreenTown Perak. Sehari selepas saya ternampak modem itu dijual dengan harga yang lebih murah, aku tak ingin pandang iklan itu jadi saya masih tak tau berapakah harga modem itu sebenar.

3.Seorang blogger yang bernama POTS yang berani telah ditipu streamyx, kemudian celcom, dan sekarang sedang mengunakan Digi broadband dengan gembira sekali. Ini telah meng-confirm-kan bahawa saya telah ditipu Celcom Broadband.

4. Aku rasa aku confirm ditipu =_=

5. Dalam isu yang tidak berkenaan dengan internet, Adik aku nak menjadi seorang doktor seperti aku, aku rasa mungkin jadi doktor bukanlah baik sangat, tapi semua cina pikir jadi doktor boleh jadi berstatus dan kaya dan banyak perempuan akan suka.
Tak Tau Lah, aku pun tak ingin menghalang pemikiran kanak kanak muda yang bercita cita dan positiv

6. Adik aku tak tau nak pergi MAHSA atau MELAKA MANIPAL. MMMC bertwinning dengan Uni Manipal di India yang telah pun di Derecognized of oleh Kementerian Kesihatan India, tetapi mengapa Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia masih recognise dia? AKU RUNSING untuk ayah dan adik ku yang turut runsing. MAHSA tahun pertama membuat MBBS, tapi mempunyai akar akar Nursing,Pharmacoly, dan Dentistry.
-Mahsa 260 000, MMMC 300 000.
-Mahsa guna Hospital Kuala Lumpur,
-India kotor dan berpenyakit banyak, ramai yang kena hep A (dengar kata)
-India benda murah, taxi pun hanya rm 1.50 max, air 20l rm5, hostel budak international macam hotel kononnya, tapi tentang kualiti pengajaran aku tak de idea langsung.

7. SWIFT? VIOS? CITY?, bestari telah kalah. aku tak boleh menerima hakikat bahawa plastik plastik dia sangat ciplak terutamanya handle pintu dia. Penjual dia pun Bodoh berbanding syarikat kereta lain.

aku telah test drive kereta auto kali pertama didalam hidupku, iaitu swift. tak tau kenapa sebelum ini aku tidak ada "rush" untuk mentestdrive kereta di honda dan di toyota. mungkin kerana aku takut akan kereta yang bersaiz besar, (kerana aku hanya pernah memandu si kancil putihku yang manual)

aku rasa aku patut summarize banyak lagi maklumat tentang kereta. aku akan blog tentang kereta di post seterusnya, selepas aku testdrive ya.

you know you love me

lamenyer

xoxo penguin.

Dasvidania Moskva, Selamat Sejahtera KKM

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:30:00 +0000

It's that time of the year again, when i would usually be packing to head for Moscow for another year, it's feeling weird rite now, sending my beloved sister off instead of me leaving, I hope she will be fine in there. I feel that i miss her, and that i wouldn't mind going back there again with her,maybe because i also miss the fast internet connection =_=". (let's skip the part bout sucky msian internet)

2 years ago, my sister joined me in Moscow in pursue of a medical degree. Moscow has been a place i grew much into who i am today, the daring me, the adventurous me, the russian me, also the now alil bit selfish, evil, maybe smarter me.

Dad says its environmental changes, and that i m now more sensitive, aggressive and protective.

Its a life where you have no one real to turn to in times of need, to depend solely on myself, It's where i earned my first rubble(Russian currency), experienced my first courtship, learned to live with others, where i first touched snow, where i first flew to, where i first fell down from a bus, where i first fought in public, where i first hit thieves and hamsap man in public,where i realized i can be very rude to evil old ladies, where i suddenly became a teacher, so many first times that i can never finish listing down.

So many first i never knew i would have.

Many ups and downs, it all comes down to this precious lil thing called EXPERIENCE= frown lines and wrinkles. I will never forget how they were formed.

Being back in Malaysia , i need to be adjusted again to a place where i thought i knew, times have changed, Malaysia is not what it was when i left. Old Town Kopitiam has now been franchised all over the country, when i first left it was only a dirty old shop with the best coffee only ipohians can taste. THC, i hope that when u finally really come back, i will expand (not physically) like oldtown kopitiam. =_=

Moscow being famous for its vodka, has indeed broaden my horizon of alcohols, ( i am not much not a drinker back then in msia ), Today, when i am accompanying my dad to dinners i would always try the table wine or have a few beers,

DAD said " i think next life u'll become a muslim"

( after listening to the news bout a muslim girl being punished for having a beer)

I said " Dad, i think next life you'll be born in ice age where ur thinking will fit"

:P

On another occasion,

Dad said : " i told grandma that i feel that you are on top on my wings, i am used to you being under my wings my whole life, Now that you are leaving again for work, to be independent i feel abit unhappy, i wonder why"

grandma: " last time when u were leaving home for work, you (dad) wanted to take your graduation picture along, i also felt bit beh syiok, like how u are feeling now, its normal"

well, thats life, it goes chapter by chapter, u'll miss it but it will never miss you. you can always turn back n read but not to write it again. I wonder what will i be writing in another 6 years. OhNO thats when i am 30! hopefully i can write bout how many life i saved, how many hearts i touched, and my blissful marriage!! my loving husband, my cute children, and maybe share kitchen RECIPES? i 'll be an auntie blogger in no time, I became a Doctor in a just a few pieces of calender.

Its a new Chapter coming soon! MARA KEHADAPAN!

我不是一定要你回来~~~

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 03:22:00 +0000

徐佳莹 – 失落沙洲 ( The missing shoal) "shī luò shā zhōu"

This song keep repeating in my head after i heard it from MYFM, tried to find out what song is it for quite a few weeks, i guess it mirrors my feelings during this summer, sometimes life is like that, there is no solution just endurance.

Below are the sacred lyrics by me, these are translations from a Banana, for bigger bananas.. kalau salah tolong tunjukan ya? ^_^

又来到这个港口Here I am again at this harbor,
YOU LAI DAO ZHE GE GANG KOU
没有原因的拘留Waiting without a proper reason,
MEI YOU YUAN YIN DE JU LIU
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟My heart follows the rhythm of the floating boat,
WO DE XIN CHENG ZHE, BAN BO DE QING ZHOU
寻找失落的沙洲Searching for the lost shoal,
XUN ZHAO SHI LUO DE SHA ZHOU
随时间的海浪漂流Time passes like the sea waves,
SUI SHI JIAN DE HAI LANG PIAO LIU
我用力张开双手I use all my might to and held out my arms,
WO YONG LI ZHANG KAI SHUANG SHOU
拥抱那么多起起落落Enduring all the ups and downs,
YONG BAO NA MA DUO, QI QI LUO LUO
想念的还是你望着我的眼波What I miss is still the way your eyes look at me, ,
XIANG NIAN DE, HAI SHI NI WANG ZHE WO DE YAN PO

我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back,
WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当又一个人看海But it’s when I face the sea alone, ,
ZHI SHI DANG YOU YI GE REN KAN HAI
回头才发现你不在To realize that you are not here when I turn around,
HUI TOU CAI FA XIAN NI BU ZAI
留下我迂回的徘徊Leaving behind a wandering detour,
LIU XIA WO YU HUI DE PAI HUAI
我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back, ,
WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当又把回忆翻开But it’s when I open our book of memories again,
ZHI SHI DANG YOU BA HUI YI FAN KAI
除了你之外的空白Other than the loneliness that replaced you,
CHU LE NI ZHI WAI DE KONG BAI
还有谁能来教我爱Who else can teach me how to love?
HAI YOU SHEI NENG LAI JIAO WO AI

又回到这个尽头Back again at this scene,
YOU HUI DAO ZHE GE JIN TOU
我也想再往前走I too, want to move forward,
WO YE XIANG ZAI WANG QIAN ZOU
只是越看见海阔天空But the wider the horizon i see,
ZHI SHI YUE KAN JIAN, HAI KUO TIAN KONG
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动The deeper my regrets, to not be able to share them with you,
YUE YI HAN, MEI YOU NI FEN XIANG WO DE GAN DONG
我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back,

WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当又一个人看海But it’s when I face the sea alone,
ZHI SHI DANG YOU YI GE REN KAN HAI
回头才发现你不在To realize that you are not here when I turn around,
HUI TOU CAI FA XIAN NI BU ZAI
留下我迂回的徘徊Leaving behind a wandering detour,
LIU XIA WO YU HUI DE PAI HUAI
我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back,
WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当又把回忆翻开But it’s when I open our book of memories again,
ZHI SHI DANG YOU BA HUI YI FAN KAI
除了你之外的空白Other than the loneliness that replaced you,
CHU LE NI ZHI WAI DE KONG BAI
还有谁能来教我爱Who else can teach me how to love?
HAI YOU SHEI NENG LAI JIAO WO AI

我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back,
WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当又一个人看海But it’s when I face the sea alone,
ZHI SHI DANG YOU YI GE REN KAN HAI
疲惫的身影不是我The beaten silhouette isn’t me,
PI BEI DE SHEN YING BU SHI WO
不是你想看见的我It’s not the me you want to see,
BU SHI NI XIANG KAN JIAN DE WO
我不是一定要你回来It’s not that I insist on you coming back,
WO BU SHI YI DING YAO NI HUI LAI
只是当独自走入人海But it’s when I walk in the crowd alone,
ZHI SHI DANG DU ZI ZOU RU REN HAI
除了你之外的依赖Other than my dependence on you,
CHU LE NI ZHI WAI DE YI LAI
还有谁能教我勇敢Who else would teach be to be brave.
HAI YOU SHEI NENG JIAO WO YONG GAN

除了你之外的空白Other than the emptiness replacing you,
CHU LE NI ZHI WAI DE KONG BAI
还有谁能来教我爱Who else can teach me how to love?
HAI YOU SHEI NENG LAI JIAO WO AI

Chocolate .I, Tan Pen Guin, wants to change.

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 18:27:00 +0000

Chocolate by late Yasmin Ahmad, 15 Malaysia.

I didn't really get Yasmin, My first reaction was, "Its overrated", and felt that it promotes racism through it's realistic ending- (originally kind chinese-boy snapped back into the reality of racism by his mother's words)

Sometimes i am slow, sometimes i need time to absorb and digestion takes maybe several hours but the importance is i finally understood Yasmin's message. Thanks to bfms. And of course my brain.

I have to admit i am quite biased and realistic-racist , just like the Mother.
(to realize and confirm that the current Msia is not a place for chinese)

15 Malaysia is an effort by many talents to counter-racism. To see such energy from the nation fighting racism, i, Tan Pen Guin is touched. I guess it is time for me to change my direction of thinking, for the better of the next generation even if 1 Malaysia cannot happen now, at least if we start now, we can create an avenue for the basic of all changes. MINDSETS.

In this short film, it portrays the Most common Stereotypical Mindset of most Chinese-Malaysian. Which it's etiology came from the effect the our SYSTEM. Politics. and Government. And this Mother's Stereotype caused the boy to reverse his kind gesture towards the malay girl. ( he was rude, then he changed, then after his mother shouted at him for talking too long to the malay girl he took back that kindness and treated the girl rudely again)

Many developed this stereotypic mind over these 52 years. And yes It is unhealthy, It is one of the major reasons of WHY our country is in a plateau!and so it is time to change.

I hope one day we Chinese-Malaysian can afford to leave this MINDSET behind. Move forward, towards a Progressive nation. To be just Malaysian

To those who are reading this, don't be just because others are. Be what you think you should, To Lead those who might not be here reading this or getting Yasmin's message. You can be the kick start to change that mindset starting from your small community.

For children like Tan Hong Ming.

Our children are colourblind, shouldnt we keep them that way?
HOW?
Children see, Children learn.

Yes it is difficult, it might be unaffordable. but LETS TRY.

Our NameWee is back! quoting MALAYSIA boleh..

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 05:40:00 +0000

我爱我的国家, 有国才有家, 有家才有我

NameWee is BACK! n is supporting 15 Malaysia in conjunction with the 52th Merdeka with Ho YuHang's Short movie.- Potong-Saga

So,who is this Ho YuHong? apparently he is quite famous la... just that i never notice nia.. his fb pic is this nia..
so mysterious. i likey ^_^

I m sure most of u have seen it , but posting it anyway in case someone hasn't. cos its Too Good to be Missed by anyone.

POTONG SAGA

The Making Of Ho YuHang's Potong Saga

watch it, 它可以很臭也可以很香, 只是看你又怎样的鼻抗

Don’t Want to Rest in Pieces like Final Destination

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 04:43:00 +0000

Nuffnang Contest Post

To win movie tickets to Final Destination premiere... what to do, mengangur-ing, no more student price, muz grab as many freebies as possible huhu~

No money can only watch trailer,
Join Nuffnang can go premiere!

Sorry dhani , u have to pose as a devil to get me free tickets here, if i get it we go watch tog lo ok? but i think bus tic from kluang to kl more exp =_=, same for ipoh-kl. But nvm la since we menganguring kan?

KKM (Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia) cepatla tell me when is our induction (for Housemans), We've been in stationary position for 2 months now, Holidays are suppose to be bout being FREE, with this uncertainty of when is our Induction an Posting, i cant leave my house for long. Maybe just run down to kl watch a free movie and if i get a phone call from KKM i'll have to report in upon summon. Letihnyer. I cant even go on a holiday now. What if i get called back after 2 days being in Tokyo? Wish i can split my self into 2. But not like in Pieces in Final Destination la..

KKM Bahagian Latihan! faster get a phone line! and tell me! tell me!

I want to go T-O-K-I-O, i wanna Holiday in peace. Not in pieces.

"15 Malaysia/Yasmin Ahmad" Fever Feeds

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 19:08:00 +0000

With the Yasmin Ahmad and 15 Malaysia Fever, i am constantly on YouTube's commercial channels

Today, i found these. It reminds me that i shall never forget my parents' love for me. And so do you. :)

warning: dont cry kay...*sob sob

*smaller videos dy bfms ^_^

Penguin's gonna VrooOm... soon la :)

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 16:23:00 +0000

I've been eyeing on a few cars.

1. Honda City ~89k interest rate:3.0 Positive points Style, stable 2nd hand value
2. Toyota Vios ~85K 2.88 Stability,stable 2nd hand
value, lower interest rate.
3. Naza Bestari~49k 3.5 Cheapest European Car

1. negative points : $$$
2. : $$$
3. : unpredictable 2nd hand value, NAZA service,questionable quality
assurance.

A friend who once worked in KL told me with a salary of 2-3k/month splurging it on a HC/TV (900/month) is quite taxing. with 33% of your money gone, KL expenses (TOL,PARKING,PETROL,RENT,PHONE BILLS, leisure) * there is almost no more left for food and definitely there will be no $ spared for leisure , he said " u wont have GUCCI, LV in ur arms la, u buy seed sales clothes nia la"

So, If i get Hosp.KL, i definitely x buy HC/TV dy. That is when Bestari comes in rescue. 499/month, at least i will have 400 extra =_=

For those who doesnt know bout Naza Bestari. Let me intro la , fuiyoh tiru paul tan blog car worr.. =_="

NO NB is not a KIA, it is a PEUGEOT 206 sold on different name by a NAZA msia. (just like whisper is sold as always in Moscow :D)= it is practically the same.

I know u all must be saying "of course buy NB la! 49k for Peugeot stuff wor"
but :( wa mm zhai la.. So today i tarik-ed Yan to NAZA center and inspect the NB myself.Just Physical Examination nia... no test done. (the manager say must pay 150 book only can let me test drive worrr *cis)

After 30 min of careful inspection, i found that most of the plastic parts are quite ciplak, i doubt if those are the original parts from peugeot. (the promoter also said only SOME small parts might be made by NAZA).

eg: the door knob/handle or whatever it is called, is quite flimsy.. as in almost like my kancil's door handle's material. Cheap Plastic. like can break if a strong friend tries to go inside ur NB.

But the other parts like the steering, dashboard etc still ok.. should be Peugeot's original parts...

i am especially thrilled by the gear box it's PORSCHE's tiptronic gear!!

while checking out how to spell tiptronic i found the 206 club! check out the lion's fans...

if i ever own NB, i ll probably change all the NAZA signs to PEUGEOT.. Front, back, steering,(rm 250). then the wheelcaps cost bout (60x4=RM240).. total RM500 for the logo rebranding of NB into Peugeot. great price rite? :D

chup i think i ll rebrand the engine also la.. Internal beauty also quite important kan? =_= (dun worry its really peugeot's engine.. just rebranded to NAZA..)

wonder why they wanna rebrand it NAZA then offer us to ciplak it into PEUGEOT, wonder if its legal to do that? but everyone is doing it ...so.. who cares la. why peugeot doesnt want to sell it straight. Maybe NAZA's boss is V V V POWER. Malaysia ma.. MESTI BOLEH! kan?

To foreign medical students.

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 15:53:00 +0000

Graduated, Passed SPA (Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam) interview, Registered with MMC (Malaysia Medical Council), Applied for Penang GH, HKL, and Malacca GH. And i am now waiting for KKM's bahagian latihan to register for a phone-line so that i can call them to ask "when is my induction course gonna start" yea bahagian latihan doesnt have a phone number yet, bcos they have just shifted office, yea and so there is no one to tell us about WHEN IS OUR INDUCTION gonna start.

Many juniors asked what should be done to apply for housemanship in Malaysia.
Easy. go to KKM, MMC, and SPA 's website. all the details are there, download the forms and u'll be on ur way to serving Malaysia.

1. fill in SPA online form before graduating, u'll receive a confirmation
2. Get your interview date-call SPA 3 weeks b4 u want to be interviewed
3. at the same time, register yourself with MMC (provisional registration)
4. also simultaneously, fill up BMD (borang maklumat diri) from KKM-Bahagian Sumber Manusia.( this is the form where u pen down your choices of Hosp.)

Alright all these forms can be downloaded online. So it's more convenient to fill them in first (double check what documents needed to be summited together). Those staying faraway from Putrajaya might think... "then i'll just pos laju it to Putrajaya" Yes that was what i did, but there is a major loophole here.

Pos Laju assures delivery to address in 24 hours, but at KKM, there is a "letter sorting department" and it usually takes more than a week for those pos lajus to reach their respective departments.

So, it is advisable that dear juniors to go straight up to Putrajaya upon landing in Malaysia to get all these done fast. Just make sure u bring whatever copies of documents required.

For the interview, guys wear normal formal stuff (shirt tie slacks leather shoes)
females - kebaya/kurung (anything malay will make them happy)

*some of my friends got nags from a lady for not wearing kurung/kebaya while we were waiting to be interviewed

*Read up isu semasa KKM (kempen kesihatan, carta oraganisasi, misi&visi KKM), isu semasa negara(currently SMART tunnel, 1 Malaysia), common diseases in Msia (dengue H1N1, chikungkunya)

last but not least, smile ^_^

JE. Japanese Encephalitis

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:55:00 +0000

Penguin is down with Japanese Encephalitis~~ wishing to be in Tokyo all the time

this is sung by my BF ! lol jk nia... i want to learn this song!

here's the lyrics and translations of the chorus :)

kay la kay la enough of my JE-ness, chinese version also quite cool except for the girl's weird pronouciation.

BTW i am interviewing for a part time job trow,(Medical Instrument Sales Rep) boss called up when i was sleeping, arranged date when i was sleeping , n i dun rmbr arranging the time until someone asked me "what time is ur interview trow ar?" =_= " i am seriously damn JE ....

came up with my CV today, feels great to write MD behind my name.

Temptations

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 18:03:00 +0000

felt thirsty just by looking at the beer. it must be really sedap :D
and that laugh behind is , contagious XD

back again part 2: The Par-tay i missed.

noreply@blogger.com (chubbipenguinwho?) — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 13:18:00 +0000

When i was still in my teens, I've always fantasize bout THE PARTY. U know, the one that every American gets at the end of their student life? The PARTY will definitely be fun, big, crazy and of course i ll be arriving with my uni-sweetheart, hand in hand, in a limo , a sexy dress, and everyone will be looking at u bla bla wtf. And you know what? NO, you don’t know..

In reality, especially for medical students stuck on a weird land with batchmates who are 90% girls. Things like this almost NEVER happen. Yea soTHE PARTY DID NOT happen, and i guess for that to happen to me it will require me to sign up with another university all over again, but no med school this time. Drs.. bla bla they are mostly just.. u know,all white and serious. =_=

But I still held my hopes high, and called up the coolest clubs in Moscow, but of course the coolest also mean the most $$$ . So I settled for a OK-la club.
A few nights I waited on my FB invitations, hoping that there will be more and more ppl appearing on the ATTENDING side. but. It was all in vain. =_=.

Since i know nothing big will happen at the end of my Student life, i decided to have AT-Least something small...so, a few friends who dreamt of THE PARTY, decided to compromise for a small one instead. So, we had the last drunkard party we'll remember for the rest of our life. It was pretty much fun, until the organizer fell asleep cosing the whole bunch of fun-doctors to be B-o-u-n-c-e-d OUT of the pricey VIP club. which was sadly- ME. =_=" yea, that was how my student life ended. yea.. laugh la laugh la.. be optimistic! i believe i ll be having a greater ADULT life..!
Now, u know...end.