Driving from within

2006-09-25T19:23:00.000+08:00

Being sick today, it's a day of rest today. Taking this time to do those little stuff I won't do during normal days (including normal holidays),

As far as I remember, I would be sick from time to time. Every time I am sick, it feels like I am really having a rest, no matter physically and mentally. In particular, my mind can really take an active rest, i.e. having time to think, imagine, evaluate.

Maybe I can really take this kind of rest day as a milestone for self-evaluation. Everytime I have this chance, I should evaluate and set some targets. And then the next time I am sick again, I should think about what I thought last time and see if I really did something.

mm.... let me think and write more about what the milestone is about this time.

2006-09-20T10:29:00.000+08:00

Had lunch with Director of HKO and a group of colleagues yesterday. Actually the DHKO would invite colleagues for lunch from time to time.

Maybe the colleagues are responsible for doing IT, what we talked about during lunch was about IT, what 's the difference of doing IT here and out there, what's the trend of doing IT in HK, etc. For one thing, I knew more about what the project manager did before coming to work here. He worked in several Tel Co. before. What I think is how come he 'd choose to work here, even he had experience of managing bigger projects (which maybe across borders).

For another thing, I know that it's much more comfortable to work here than outside. What did I learn here? What skills do I lack in order to work outside? I thought it's reasonable for the project manager to comment on me as he had much more experience, though I dun like his way of communication. Sometimes I 'd a bit worried of not getting used to work outside. But I dun wanna be like now as always.

2006-09-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

Frankly I dun really like the project manager at all.

First from the first impression long time ago, and now from the way he talks.

2006-09-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

Knowing that HKO will recruite Scientific Officer again... really want to have a try again.

Maybe this is a chance.

2006-09-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

尋日上堂之間, 同阿 Roy 傾開做野既事, 提及到 "際遇".一個人既事業人工, 與其工作年期係冇直接關係. 而家同我同 team 既一位同事係我之前 Degree 既同學, 佢比我早兩年出身 (因為佢冇讀 Mphil ), 但係佢轉 post 之前既人工比我現在既人工還少. (而家轉左post 人工當堂多左 x K).

又例如 Robin... 一個人既事業人工, 其實真係好睇一個人既際遇, 意思係由佢出來做野, 當中做過既工種, 係什麼公司做過, 不過我覺得最重要係識到什麼人(包括你既客仔), 這些先係 Invaluable Asset.

阿Roy話佢遲可能會讀個 finance 既, master 然後可能轉去做一d financial market 既工種. 我曾也有這想法. 佢而家係做緊同 stock exchange有關既 application, 會熟悉financial market 既運作, 當中也識到bank 既客戶, 所以要轉 field 也是非難事. But for me, it's not so easy.

Just like playing RPG game, you know the size of the area, but there 's still much black area to be explored.

2006-09-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

Such a good news that my boss 信哥 gonna have a child!

I think we 're becoming better and better friends.

Unintentionally, 信哥 told me his age, 36, and his horoscope, scorpio. Frankly, i believe more and more that I can communicate well with scorpio, no matter it's male or female.

2006-08-30T12:10:00.000+08:00

Still remembering the scene on Sunday, we PolyU rowing team won the Men Overall Championship, and most importantly, the champion of Men Coxed Eight, which this is the first time over 12 years. And it's my pleasure that I trained such a boat. But I think without the crews of these nature and characters, we won't have won it.

2006-08-23T09:01:00.000+08:00

Gotta focus more on the career after this week.

Really wanna take a leave next monday, but it looks a bit difficult.

2006-08-22T13:26:00.000+08:00

終於買左孔少林和方卓如既"原是物語"和"國金外望".

其實只係睇兩本書既封面就估到兩本書係一對的 (不是兩個作者係一對), 果然連序都係共用.

算唔算閒書兩本? 可能係, 因為只可以睇到佢地用幽默手法寫財經時事, 但睇唔到佢地有幾博大精深.

2006-08-15T09:10:00.000+08:00

我們都走到了十字路口

其實我都喜歡信報, 不知道是不是由於它差不多每一版都是字多圖少的關係.

時不時都會想, 究竟孔少林, 方卓如離開是否與信報股權即將出售有關... maybe just an my own imagination.

其實現在不一定要看某報紙先可以看到某作者的專欄, 倒不如直接看其Blog 便可以.

2006-08-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

Finally I finished reading the book "The world is flat". Ironically, I could finish it because I had quite much time to finish the remaining 30-40 pages, since I accompanied with my little brother to find vacancy in Form 6.

Took a leave yesterday, and then got up even earlier than normal, and then went to the Rosaryhill with my brother. Waiting there for 3 hours, I was relieved finally, cos he got accepted by the school.

Actually among the candidates in the final round (or I 'd call it repechage), he should rank top among, so I was not so worried actually. But I have to wait for the truth anyway.

2006-08-10T09:37:00.000+08:00

Some more recent pic of my favourite MJ.

2006-08-10T09:10:00.000+08:00

Comparing with me and my elder bro, my dad looked comparatively calm on the results of my little bro. Maybe for one, he didn't expect him to get a very good result, though he also didn't expect he would be in such a marginal case. Also, he looked calm because he might be confident that my little bro could do well in the coming days.

On the other hand, I think between my elder bro and my younger bro, my dad would concern my elder bro more.

Besides concerning my bro, I concern if my dad would feel sad on this, and on the "performance" of we three brothers so far. I dunno if we once again let him down. One thing worthwhile to mention is, my dad was making up the photos taken in the recent England trip which included him, mum and my little bro, while also looking at the photos taken in the England trip more than ten years ago, which included me, my elder bro and my mum. It was quite interesting that he just enjoyed looking at the photos, comparing us in this ten years time. I dunno what was in his mind, but it made me think that no matter what we did right now, he would enjoy at the moment of having three children. Maybe this is what all parents in this world would think afterall.

For me, besides letting him recalling the past memory, what I wanna do is, to make him and my mum enjoying in the coming days. This is not a "maybe", but a must for every children in this world have to do for their parents.

once in a while, I 'd think about this song.

2006-08-09T11:58:00.000+08:00

Just knew that my little brother got 13 marks in his HKCEE.

Before I thought those words on the newspaper "成績不是一切" was just for encouraging those who didn't do well. But now I think it's really the case. At least, the results you got at this moment really doesn't affect much to your future.

But at this moment... we/he really have to think about his future path.

2006-08-09T08:59:00.000+08:00

Sunday變身禮品服務公司

2006-08-09T08:54:00.000+08:00

Is Enterprise Software Dead?
— Despite the common wisdom that VCs are stupid (yes, some of them are. I maintain a personal list of VCs who I would advise companies to stay away from), I actually think quite a few of them are really smart and I have always learned a lot from conversations with them. What is their issue with enterprise software? Is there money to be made with enterprise software? What is going on?

2006-08-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

So nice to see him still playing...MJ

2006-08-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

These days I got no time to think much. I mean I usually think of the meaning of the things around, the meaning of life. However, there is just no time for me to do so.

What I have in mind is, about doing testing in the system, and about training them, and the remaining part of my mind is, I 'd look for more time to rest.

It maybe like a robot actually, but I think there maybe many ppl in Hong Kong doing the same thing as me.

Bought the "Made by Soft Hard" today. Though it is a comedy, I think it's part of the HK culture. Well, comparing with those "alternative" film and music usually talked by my colleagues, I think it is more familiar to me. It's not about taste, it's about the history of HK. Maybe I like the culture about the comedy of HK, that's why I like to collect the movies of Sam Hui, and his brother, and also Stephen Chow.

2006-07-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

These days, there are so many instances that I can realize how I have let others (especially my dad) angry, disappointed and getting accustomed.

Maybe that's what I deserved.

2006-07-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-28T09:22:00.000+08:00

Afterall, I am an emotional person. Sometimes I 'd think something big such that I 'd feel energetic, but sometimes I 'd think something big such that I 'd feel bad.

Over these two days, I feel better maybe not because I 'd overcome the difficulty, but because I made some contact with friends that relieved me. Yesterday I went back to polyu to have lunch with some friends, and the day before I had lunch with my previous boss (and now I think we 're friends). It's a bit odd that even I didn't find ways to overcome the difficulty, I felt that I can overcome the difficulty.

Well the conclusion is, the job and the environment made me not having a chance to get relieved. I think more importantly, I couldn't talk freely with ppl in the current team, particularly with the project manager and my current boss. I think it doesn't matter whether I 'd like to talk or not, it matters that whether we match or not.

2006-07-26T17:11:00.000+08:00

Frankly, the sense of belonging to this company is not so strong as before now.

Though I know I am working in a system related to the service provided by the company, it looks I am just working on this system while not knowing what's going on in this company.

2006-07-21T08:48:00.000+08:00

Having the confidence / trust lost by others is really harsh.

Seems my boss lost the confidence on me. On the meeting yesterday, when it's my turn to report my progress, he looked inpatient to listen to me, just stopped me and then asked what I would do, like giving me a checklist of what I should do.

I think he didn't respect me, maybe because he thought I didn't respect my work before. Frankly, it's quite discouraging when your boss did this to you, but this did not make me giving up. I understand that I had to do much more to regain the trust of my boss. To do so, there's no other way than to focusing on my work.

2006-07-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Dunno what to write here these days...

It doesn't mean I dun have anything in my mind, but I thought something that I wanna write is nothing special, or it 's worthless to write here.

Frankly, busy in coaching in summer made me having little private time, not being able to concentrate on the job, not being able to take any opportunities.

Being bothered so much in summer, I 'd take sick leaves even being just a little bit sick (so little bit that I can even go to gym), so that I can really take a rest. To me, taking rest means I can take care my family business, buying stuff for home, fixing any failure at home (like the door bell I tried to fix today, though still not fixed).

Ai... I am not cheating my boss. Being annoyed is already unhealthy. Stopping for a while, will make me mentally healthy and energetic for the coming days.

2006-07-14T08:50:00.000+08:00

今朝經過九龍公園個間mcdonald, 又見番個 manager. 好一段時間冇見佢，佢其實係我地03 去泰國時認識. 個時我覺得佢好似一個細路女, 但今日見到佢已經成熟左, 而且仲就來做人阿媽!

歲月不留人，冇人會等你．