It's My Life...

I love him...

2012-01-07T22:43:00.001-08:00

So a lot has happened since I have posted last... but I'm not going into details... The most important thing you should know is that I'm in love with Randy... I'm ready to marry this man and dedicate myself to him for the rest of our lives.

I'm so in love with him and I want to spend everyday with him. I never want to be without him. <3

I love you Randy!

Day Thirty – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

2011-07-18T09:47:00.000-07:00

I was able to buy a makeup bag and got some free makeup too!
I was able to buy a petti romper for Hailey. I'm still waiting for it to come.
I don't know anything else that is good really.

I'll post a picture of me later.

Day Twenty Nine – Something you could never get tired of doing.

2011-07-18T09:35:00.001-07:00

I could never get tired of being with Hailey.

She's my world. I love watching her, she learns new things, the excitement in her eyes... the new tastes of food that make her light up, the way she dances when she eats, the way she says "hey" and waves to people on tv, the way she loves to lounge around with me...

Everything about her is awesome and I'll never get tired of being around her. <3

Day Twenty Eight – In this past month, what have you learned?

2011-07-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I'm not sure what I've learned... lol

That sounds crazy but I'm serious.

Day Twenty Seven – What kind of person attracts you?

2011-07-14T18:47:00.000-07:00

Eyes and lips are always the first thing I notice... I like a person who is amazing, funny, intelligent, kind, courageous, generous, and has a great sense of humor.

I like a person who isn't jealous, a person who does their own thing and lets me do my own thing.

I love my Randy <3

Day Twenty Six – A photo of somewhere you want to go.

2011-07-14T18:43:00.000-07:00

I'd have to say that I want to take Randy and Hailey to the beach. Neither of them have ever been and it would be awesome to take them...

Day Twenty Five – Who are you?

2011-07-14T18:41:00.000-07:00

Who am I?! That's a very good question... For a while now I've wondered this myself, so I suppose now is a good time to figure that out.

My name is Sianna. I've never really paid attention to what other people think about me until recently. I'll edit.

Day Twenty Four – A photo of something that means a lot to you.

2011-07-14T18:38:00.000-07:00

I'll add a photo in a little bit. My camera is dead.

Makeover!

2011-07-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

I put makeup on Hailey today... She sat perfectly still and loved it... Well, it was just eye shadow, but she was so well behaved. She talked to herself for like an hour afterward in the mirror haha

catching up again

2011-07-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

It's never fun. I'll catch up some more and tell you more about me and finish the 30 day blog challenge thing soon. I'm super tired and really need some sleep. It's 12:22 am, and this is the earliest I have been this tired in a long time. Wish me luck on this whole sleeping thing :)

thanks again for reading.

Day Twenty Three – 15 facts about you.

2011-07-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

My name is Sianna, I pronounce it See On Uh. My family has always called me Shawna, pronounced Shaah Nuh. My dad has never called me Sianna, and he says my name is Shawna, it's just spelled differently.
I have been in love and living with my fiance since 2006. We also got engaged in 2006.
I have only one daughter, her name is Hailey and she's the best thing I have ever accomplished.
I'm a stay at home mother. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I can't imagine leaving my daughter and missing out on any new words or anything new that she learns. I love spending every hour of my day with her.
I'm 21 years old, I feel like an old woman sometimes. I think I am bipolar, and I'm terrified that I will also get fibromayalgia (my mother has it, and it's hell on her).
I'm terrified of falling. There is honestly nothing in the world scarier than falling to me.
I've never loved anybody as much as I love Randy and Hailey. Randy and I may have our ups and downs, but through it all I can't imagine life without him. He's my world.
I have 3 brothers (Chris, Cody and Denny), and 2 sisters (Kelly and Toni). I don't speak to my sister Toni, she's in her own crazy world. Between all of my siblings I have 7 nieces and 4 nephews. Their names are Jessica, Scarlet, William, Lillian, Emerald, Caleb, Blake, Gabriel, Karleigh, Trinity, and Patience. Patience passed away, although she's still in our hearts. <3
I've only been in 2 relationships... My first relationship wasn't really a relationship, more like a slave to him... He was abusive mentally and physically and I'm so thankful to be alive and to be far away from him. I hate him. My 2nd relationship, is the one I'm in now... Randy is the most amazing man, father, and lover I have ever met... I couldn't be more thankful to have him in my life. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone and I'll tell the world that.
I'm a designer. I make almost anything that can be made with photoshop. I like to think I have a creative side at times... I design, make bows, make tutus, and do hair and makeup.
I can never fall asleep at night... Not at a decent time. Sometimes, I cry because I can't sleep and I want to so bad...
I had Hailey via cesarean section (C-Section). It was the best day of my life... I know I'd rather have c-sections than ever do the whole pushing and contractions thing again.
In total I have had 4 surgeries. I have had my tonsils and adenoids removed, had my appendix rupture and the pieces removed, had an ulcer removed from the top of my head, and had a c-section having my daughter.
I spend my days playing with my daughter and teaching her colors, numbers, songs, words, and anything else I can. I rarely leave my home. I sometimes go to my parents' house and spend the night.
I honestly don't know interesting facts about me. I'm sorry if this was very boring and annoying.

Thanks for reading!

Day Twenty Two – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

2011-07-12T21:02:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'll write a letter... but I'm not naming names... and it will probably be a little confusing and without many details.

Dear Person,
       I can't believe all of the lies that you tell. I can't understand why you are so set of ruining everybody's life that you ever meet. That is NOT a dramatization and you know it. You have taken her away from the only people who truly loved her and treated her great.
       Your family calls her a devil child and she has told us how poorly they treat her. I really hope that you're not pregnant again... I'm sure it's just another one of your lies... The reason I say I hope you're not pregnant is because the things you have put your children through already is enough. I don't think you should honestly have your children... I think your oldest should be with your father, your middle child with her father, and your youngest should be with her father.
        You can't honestly think you are a good person or a good mother in your insane mind. Through the 10 years that you have had your children, you have constantly taken them to the doctor... You've had them be questioned and searched in places children shouldn't even be thinking about and damn sure shouldn't have someone poking around down there... Doctor or not. You are the one abusing those kids. Nobody else.
        You have been through man after man, you have married 4 or 5 of them, I stopped counting.... You have put or have tried to put all of the men that you have been in relationships with in jail just to get out of the relationships. You have constantly lied and tried to tear up other people's relationships, whether they were just friendships or romantic relationships.
         You have contracted diseases and spread them around to God only knows who... You have stuck suppositories in your children for years that were NOT even prescribed to them, you have still taken their temperatures rectally and your children are 10, 7, and 5. Come on now. You seriously have problems and it's getting to be ridiculous.
          I had enough of you in 2006, and now the things that you have done have gone entirely too far. I honestly hope I NEVER see you again. I hate you, and it takes a lot to hate someone. You are a cold hearted, slutty, nasty, terrible person and I can't even fathom why the Lord above has let these charades go on for so long.
          I really hope you never speak to me again. I hope that your children are put in the proper care that they need to be in... I hope they find great homes, I hope that you go to jail for the lies and abuse. I hope you spend a lot of time wondering what you could have done differently, no... I hope you spend time knowing what you did wrong and suffer in your thoughts. I don't know when or even if you will ever get Karma to smack you right in the head... but I hope and pray that it's soon.
         You don't deserve the things you have. You don't deserve to live the way that you do... Your children deserve the world, they deserve so much better than you and I pray that they get the best and that they one day get to live a stable life.

Day Twenty One – A photo of something that makes you happy.

2011-07-08T18:20:00.000-07:00

Randy & Hailey spending time together.

I love them so much.

This picture makes me happy :)

Granny Holden

2011-07-08T16:57:00.000-07:00

My great grandmother "Granny" Holden passed away last night... It's so sad. I haven't seen her in years, so I wasn't very close to her, but I remember how she made me feel so comfortable and so welcome. I'm really going to miss her. I hate that Hailey never met her...

I feel so bad, mom wanted me to go with her down there but we never went. This sucks. I didn't get to tell her good bye, or that I love her... I didn't get to tell her how wonderful she was.

This is really a sad day.

Day Twenty – The meaning behind your blog name.

2011-07-07T21:03:00.001-07:00

siannas kreations

Well, at one time my graphic design business was called Sianna Kreations, I just liked the name... So, I named my blog Sianna's Kreations (well, the URL) because if I'm sharing my life, then I'll most likely be sharing photos, and pics. of things I have made... Also, lots of my daughter, and I created her. lol

It's my life... Because it is my life, and if I'm going to blog I guess I'll be spilling my guts to you all most of the time so that's where the banner comes from.

Enjoy The Blog. Thanks for reading.

Day Nineteen – Your reflection in the mirror

2011-07-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

there you have it.
I don't usually look at myself in the mirror, but these pics are great... and I'm trying to get to where I have better self esteem... Working on getting some new makeup from Suzy at Brightside Boutique. I like looking on the brightside haha

Independence Day 2011

2011-07-05T00:43:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures of fireworks that I took... I love my camera.

Day Eighteen – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex

2011-07-04T23:36:00.000-07:00

Not dressing nicely
Not taking care of themselves, as in brushing teeth, not smelling badly etc...
Smacking their food while they chew
Breathing where I can hear them while they haven't been physically active
Not knowing how to spell or speak properly

And that's about it :)

Day Seventeen – How you hope your future will be like.

2011-07-04T23:34:00.000-07:00

In case you haven't noticed, I'm behind so I'm catching up...

Okay, I hope to be living in a house... not a trailer or an apartment... and I hope to have a car of my own, a nice or decent job, a good education and everything in the world that Hailey could possibly want and need.

I want her to have the world, she deserves it.

Day Sixteen – Your view on homosexuality.

2011-07-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

Ooooh controversy.

I honestly don't think it would ever be for me... Couldn't do that...

I don't judge others for being together, but I don't believe it's right...

Ugh, what I mean is, God wanted male and female together... That's how I was raised and that's how I feel it should be.

I'm not sure if that's a bad thing... I'm not sure exactly what to believe, but that's just how I feel.

Sorry if it offends anyone.

Day Fifteen – Something you don’t leave the house without.

2011-07-04T23:30:00.001-07:00

Hailey.

Honestly, I try to never leave without her... She's my everything...

If you don't accept Hailey for my answer then I'll say clothes lol

Remember...

2011-07-04T10:49:00.000-07:00

I think I'm weird... Most people probably just remember things by saying it over and over...

Okay here is my example...

I was trying to remember the song title "under the bridge" (from red hot chili peppers).

Anyway, my method to remember it was:
under the weather
under wear
new bridge beside the rec
under water
under the bridge

like who says those things over and over to remember something? lol

I'm weird if you ask me.

Day Fourteen – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

2011-07-01T23:07:00.000-07:00

The Secret Life Of The American Teenager.

I started watching it while I was pregnant with Hailey and haven't missed an episode yet. :)

My sick little baby...

2011-06-30T23:41:00.000-07:00

Hailey was sick today (okay, it's July 1st now, but I mean June 30th).

She laid around all day, she laid in my bed and watched Yo Gabba Gabba over and over... She danced a little bit, but after that she laid back down again... Her stomach was upset, and coming out both ways... Sorry for all of the information, it's mainly for me to look back at and know that she was sick.

Anyway, here is how she was today...

Oh and she was so hot and sweaty all day... I felt so bad for her... Her temperature wasn't really high, but I gave her some tylenol... :( I hope she feels better very soon.

I want a phone...

2011-06-30T23:31:00.000-07:00

I own 3 phones... One is an alltel phone, I can't use it because I don't have service on it, and don't have $35 for activation and minutes... The other two are the government phones, one I can't find the charger to and it's disconnected, and the other one is broken. lol

I fail at life.

I miss having a phone and being able to text if I want to, or call someone if I want or need to...

Idk.