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what goes around comes back around

2011-10-17T22:18:00.001+08:00

hihi.. nahh.. no one is getting what they deserve.. they should though. it's just a snippet from Beyonce's song, the best thing i never had. i just thought i should write tonight. i have a lot to say but typical me.. when i start typing.. i can't get the words out right.

"i bet it sucks to be you right now"

i miss diving.. i'm broke and yet i'm happy. surprising what freedom can do to you.

budak kecik

2011-09-07T03:31:00.000+08:00

a 20 year old kid hit on me yesterday on twitter. he said he thought i was 20+ .. hehe power of tabloq.. (selling now RM60 for 13 units - via post only - postage included) anyway, this kid.. he's been bugging me ever since he got my no. my bad. i thought he's older. :P what was i thinking!?!!?? he called me in the morning, at night.. even called me on his mom's phone.. yes.. his mother's phone. the text messages! omg... he's texting me for every single thing he does. he wants to eat bakso, he texted me.. he's back from class (he's 20 years old .. ;p) he texted me. was i this annoying when i was 20? thank God i didn't have handphones when i was 20. hahahah i'd probably be worse! :( anyway, it's only been a day and about an hour ago he texted me and asked me if i could do some phone sex with him. WTF!

jahat tak aku?

2011-06-18T01:25:00.000+08:00

jahat tak kalau aku doa dia break up dengan girlfriend dia?
jahat tak kalau aku doa dia sayang kat aku..?
jahat tak kalau aku doa dia kawen ngan aku?
jahat tak aku?
jahat tak?

i just want him soo bad.. :(

tabloq

2011-05-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

tabloq.. sangat berkesan utk mengubati pelbagai masalah kulit. i used it after my dive trip, and two weeks later my face has become so fair. kalau nak order... boleh contact as follows:

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RIP

2011-04-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

a friend passed away last night. aku tak tau dia muslim ke tak. he told me he was at some point bearing the name Redzuan bin Abdullah. but just now, someone told me, he was bluffing.. probably to stay close. i never get to dive with him ever. but bumped into him a few times when at tioman/redang/ and other diver's meets. and we got close one time a long time ago.. until he got angry coz i didn't go to tioman with him. and chose to head to redang instead. then i heard he opened a dive shop at endah parade. promised the (i just found out) love of his life, helen who is quite close since she worked at SD before, that i would go.. i never did. i wish i did when he was alive. so maybe we could patch things up.

i believe i'm sad because we ended that "friendship" so abruptly and at unfriendly terms. i wish i could turn back time and apologized for whatever reasons he was angry with me. so i hope he's listening/reading this. i'm sorry i didn't go to tioman with you. i'm sorry things got bad between us. i'm sorry i was so hot-tempered. i'm sorry for all my wrong doings. thank you for your friendship. you've been nothing but nice when we were friends. goodbye my friend. RIP blackbear @cva qma

lawak yang kurang ajar

2011-04-06T15:35:00.000+08:00

no fat jokes. that's all i ask. tak boleh ke stop with the fat jokes? so what if i'm fat? so what if i'm fatter than other girls. konon nak menyakat. ingat orang suka ke? bodoh... and u expect to do business with me? dream on! menyampah aku.

aku frust lagi.. huhuhuh

2011-04-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

ok.. recently there's this guy ... tak la handsome. sabahan. i think.. the body.. pergh!!! so fine. and he's soooo well-mannered. that.. ermm.. aku tak sangka he'd do that to me :(

according to big john, he's a playboy and he is sort of a gold digger. sayang sungguh. he actually kikis duit pompuan instructor sorang ni.. sampai RM14k. gile babs.

lesson learned. before raba seseorang itu, kena tanya kawan2 dulu pasal dia. i'll miss the six packs abs.

in penang and loving it..

2011-02-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

i arrived in penang a few days ago to attend jas's wedding.. i'm heading home tomorrow night and suddenly i felt as if i should've stayed longer.. yon and i explored, if you can call that, penang on the day of my arrival and then spent two days at jas's wedding. sorry yon.. i had to drag you with me. hehhee blame jas for this! and today i spent the entire day uploading some highlights from the wedding. i almost posted the entire album. then i realized i shouldn't hehe :p mentang2 wifi laju kat rumah yon :p

yon took me to sample some of the best foods in penang, kedah and also perak. kekeke.. she lives right near the border of all three states and so it only takes 10 minutes to cross the borders of all three states :) i'll be writing about the foods i sampled during my stay in penang. we didn't go to any of the places we planned except maybe jas's house. but i had fun and i hope yon did too..

thanks yon for your hospitality :) tak pe.. nanti ko folo aku ke mabul, i'll make sure all the seafoods come to you :)

jas is getting married

2011-02-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

and i was asked to photograph the wedding. aduhaii.. it's been almost 2 years since i last was hired to photograph a wedding and it was disastrous.

am at mcD ni.. hogging the wifi. need to do some homework before shooting jas. bukan dengan senapang ek? kekeke.. i will be using my faithful D80 and also my 50 mm + my WA 10-20 mm.. i think they should be enough kot. orang lain pakai 17-50 mm je.. kan? mm.. ok la tu..

anyway, to jas, have a wonderful life as a wife. it's a huge responsibility tau. not just fun and sex. i mean games :p

I AM NOT A HOMEWRECKER!

2011-01-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

at least i don't wanna be one.

a friend of mine is in the midst of a marriage problem. the wife is paranoid.. of me. of all people, she chose to think that i want to steal her husband by taking him to mabul. hello! am trying to make money la idiot! and he's the one who wanted to go to mabul ok? and you, the husband should not blame me for your wife leaving! aku tak paham.. kenapa nak blame aku tu.. your problem dah lama ok? bukan nye started this morning. and if she comes back to you, she should know that you're going there in march! dah tu ko hilang seminggu nak kata apa? bangang sehh.. aku tak tau laa... haisshhhh... dah la.. ko dok je la gua mana2.. berdua.. buang fon, laptop segala. away from everyone. senang. main la 10 kali sehari ke for all i care. memang aku tengah mencari. tapi aku nak yang single and available. faham!

btw, the trip to mabul is still on. if you'd like, you can contact me at marina.yusoff@gmail.com or send me a personal message on facebook and i'll feed in the details ;)

happy new year 2011

2011-01-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

it's a new decade.. new year.. new beginning. it's been a wonderful year 2010. it has its ups and downs but i left it feeling content, and happy. so it was a good year :) i wish for a better me this coming year. insya Allah...

i am trying to be a good friend

2010-12-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

i pity him. he's at perhaps his lowest right now.. i felt the need to be there. i was once there. i don't want to see a friend to go through what i went through. the feeling of loneliness.. that nobody cared. wanting to die wishing for everything to end. i don't want that to happen. i hope what i've done is enough.

kisah cerai

2010-12-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

sahabat aku sekarang ada dua orang yang tengah dalam ermm perpisahan. separation. not yet cerai. aku tak tau nak bagi nasihat apa. tapi yang pasti nye i know i have to be there for both of them. separation is hard to accept. apatah lagi cerai. i hope they won't go through it. but i also wish for the best for them .... seperti kata haji malik, mm.. semua nya dah tertulis. life is like a script that we go through. main-main cuma... semoga sahabat2 aku dilindungiNya. amin.

dedicated to my friends at tnbr.

2010-12-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

i shed a tear when kak ida gave me my farewell gift earlier. and i shed some tears just now when i recited yassin. praying for myself, and my friends. it's hard to leave the workplace. it's harder to leave your friends. i've known some for 10 years. hj malik once told me, the only person you can trust is the person you've traveled with, eaten with, and slept with. and with most of the people i knew at tnbr, i've done them all.

i wish i could take all of you with me. you guys made my workplace bearable. i guess towards the end, you guys kept me going day after day. the days when we had our potlucks, the mornings we had our breakfast, the jokes we pulled on dalia, and the time we shared - i will always cherish and will not forget this friendship.

i hope we'd stay friends, through thick and thin. afterall we still have facebooks and gtalk. we can still call each other. plus all the business ventures we planned. i'll come visit from time to time. to send izad's chickens, and kak ida's rendang. insya Allah, you're always in my heart.

sending hugs and kisses.
i love you,
marina.

i can't share this blog with people i know.. well most of them anyways

2010-12-03T11:07:00.001+08:00

damn.. i shouldn't have written about them here.. hahahah ;p

mm... counting up to 33

2010-12-03T11:04:00.000+08:00

wah.. lagi baper hari je lagi i'll be 33 years old.. hehehe.. i feel so old. watching my nieces grow into beautiful little girls.. dulu afrina nak angkat kepala pun susah, now she can feel hurt when i tease her when she said things wrongly. dulu i couldn't even hold arianna without making her cry, now she'll walk to my room and look for me herself.

all these.. make me feel like having my own baby. *sigh* when yaa? i'll just wait for the day patiently.

pulut kuning dengan rendang

2010-12-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

aku: assalamualaikum.
   sorry la tadi.. tak nampak.
dia: tak pe la.. no hall (he seemed annoyed)
dia: tak masak?
aku: tak.. tadi dah keluar beli sandwich kat bakery. hehe
   malas nak masak.
   weekend kot. kena masak ada orang order rendang.
   tak buat lagi.
dia: tak keje ke?
aku: keje...?
   mm.. itu la keje i.
   bisnes sikit-sikit..
dia: woo.. best nye.. (impressed? hehe ada can ni)
   pandai buat pulut kuning tak?
aku: hehe tak belajar lagi la.. (tanya la if aku pandai wat kari ke.. apa ke.. ni benda susah2 ko tanya)
dia: tinggal dengan siapa?
aku: with mum
dia: ohh..
   dad?
aku: divorced.
   dia kat ipoh
dia: oo.. mine passed away.. (anak yatim? mm bagus ni)
aku: oo.. sorry :(
   your mum?
dia: passed away.. (ok.. i truly believe that he's actually my dream guy)
   adik-adik?
aku: oh sorry jugak :(
   my sisters dah kawen.. my brothers dok ngan kawan2.. bujang!
dia: umur you berapa? (sure aku fail di sini :()
aku: 33 on the 9th.. you?
dia: happy birthday in advanced.
   31 (sah lagi confirmed. i dun stand a chance.. goodbye handsome)
aku: thanks.. i love birthdays
   so, bila nak ajar i editing ni?
dia: ok dear.. gotta go.
   nak sambung jemur baju. (sob sob)


*the end*

wow.. 1 more month

2010-11-25T09:14:00.002+08:00

am seeing more opportunities out there. i can't wait. i'm scared. and yet excited.i'll be saying goodbye to many. and hello to lots more.

ni apa punya iklan google adsense kasi aku nye blog ni

2010-11-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

kasi ketatkan pantat? hahahahhahahahaha.. kang nak ketat sangat sampai tertutup terus baru padan muka

long weekend.

2010-10-11T01:12:00.003+08:00

1. aku tak tau nak layan lelaki.

dah lama dah bos aku bagi tau. aku tak reti nak layan lelaki. that's why dia rasa aku tak kawen2.. aku pun rasa gitu sekarang. sebab aku mmg tak sabar. bila ada lelaki marah aku, aku marah dia balik. actually before dia marah aku, aku dah marah dia dulu. so mmg aku tak tau macammana nak layan hati lelaki. aku ego la kot. tak kisah la.. (see.. aku mula dah)

2. aku heran tengok orang macam ni..

aku tau la tu birthday dia. tapi mm.. kalau dah dia ngan laki dia ajak pi makan, bukan ke patut nye dia yang bayar..? alasan dia tak bayar.. is dia tak kerja. hmm.. aku tak paham. tu la sebab nya aku tak pernah ajak orang kuar makan celebrate bday aku. melain kan aku betul2 ada extra rezeki. usually aku celebrate ngan normi je. aku belanja dia, dia belanja aku. bday dia sehari sebelum aku. and jangan terkejut. tu je la celebration aku tiap2 tahun. no fancy parties, no makan2.. unless aku ada extra duit. tu pun selalu nye aku masak. murah sikit. jimat beb, aku selama ni makan gaji je.. mm.. and she's my own sister. apa aku nak cakap. kang aku tegur, dia marah aku balik. so aku diam kan je. kalau aku voice it out to mum, she'll say ko jeles sangat kat dia tu apasal? asek nak dengki2 je.. ermm.. ok baik aku diam kan aje. aku malas nak ber konfrontasi. aku dah tua. malas dah.

3. adik2 aku nak kawen tahun depan.

dan aku la nampak nya tak kawen2.. masin mulut mama. awak tak kawen sampai tua. jaga mama aje. *sigh* aku nak kawen. there! i've said it! sapa tak nak kawen? mama suruh kurus kan badan. mm. aku tengok org lg gemuk dari aku boleh je kawen? mm.. perangai aku buruk sangat kot. ermm.. kalau huduh sangat perangai aku ni.. mmg tak layak kawen. so kan aku nantikan lelaki yang bakal jadi laki aku kat syurga nanti .. kalau dia yang aku kenal best gak kan? i wonder how that'd work? and i guess.. next year will be an extremely bz year for all of us. how i wish i cud get away.. maybe i shud move to another country?

4. i've resigned.

finally, i tendered my resignation on 1st oct. so my last day of work will be 1/1/11 nanti. cantik gak no. tu nooo... ermm.. now have to spend frugally. ni pun dah asek belanja jee.. this month habis buat bagi org makan je. have to watch my expenditure ni. :-/

5. aku bosan.

aku rasa bosan dengan persekitaran aku. i need my old self back. i think. i miss the detailed me. i miss the person yang well-liked by everyone. now everyone's scared of me. perhaps i AM hideous. like the hunchback of notre dame. takut orang tengok :'(

6. i'm lonely.

anyone wants to be my companion? i miss having someone to watch over me. like a big bro tapi at the same time can be very romantic. aku tak suka garang2.. aku tak nak abang misai. kalau boleh biarla besor.. tak de la aku buli. kang kecik sangat aku yang buli.

hmm..

2010-09-28T10:41:00.002+08:00

men only go for young girls. and when i say young.. i mean 18-25 year old girls. and not just any girl.. they have to be really cute.. have long hair that i always wanted and they also must be ~~gedik~~ cheeky. dumb chicks are a plus. and these men, no matter how old they are.. would go for these types of girls.

i thought i could get lucky with a 45 year old dude. someone told me that i should try my luck with men that age. as i'm already 29 + 4 years of experience *ahem*. just found out last night that he's going out with a 24 year old girl. WTF? she could be his daughter! urghh.. i need younger men.

do u remember him?

2010-09-28T10:38:00.002+08:00

well.. remember the "dude" that had 2 kids that totally rejected me before i even started? well he got married. to his ex-wife recently. ikss.. :( which proves my previous point.

men, relationship and love. they all suck :p

MEN

2010-09-26T11:02:00.004+08:00

men just love beating around the bush. i don't understand why. can't they just say what they want to say? instead of keeping us women guessing .. and assuming? JUST SAY IT damn it!

men, relationship, love, etc

2010-08-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

they all suck

ultimate rejection.. hampeh

2010-07-18T01:57:00.002+08:00

ada sorang hamba Allah ni, hensem banget. duda anak dua. aku tak kenal dia sangat, he's a friend of a friend. been divorced for 5 yrs he told me... he's a nice chap.. everytime we're both online, he'd chat with me. ok la. our first chat i initiated it. but hey.... aku desperate hokkay... but after that, he's the one yang start. good sign la kan?

anyway, tadi dia kata dia nak try get back together with his ex-wife. he couldn't get her off his mind. hampeh. now that's what i called the ultimate rejection. belum tekel dah kena reject. hampeh.