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From Victim to Victor: My Ordeal with Cyber Fraud and the Road to Recovery

2024-07-04T09:50:00.000-07:00

I'm writing today to share a personal experience that left me shaken but ultimately empowered. As a Public Sector Bank Manager, I prided myself on financial literacy. However, my heart and soul were burnt to ashes on June 20th when I fell prey to a high-tech cyber fraud.

The Slippery Slope:

It all started at 11 AM with a call, claiming to be from Telecom Regulatory Authority of India (TRAI). They said that a SIM card under my Aadhaar had been created for nefarious activities. Despite my denial for the same, they somehow convinced me. They asked me to "raise" this issue with Mumbai Police and patched my call through the said 'Mumbai Police' from Colaba.

I was being led deeper into a trap, but I had no hint of that then. The call was answered by a 'so-called' IPS officer, his voice filled with urgency. He convinced me to install Skype for further enquiries and made me write few statements to get freed from this trap.

The Descent into Fear:

I was locked in my room while my family living their daily routine outside unaware of the trauma, I was in. I received several accusations and threats. Fearful, I lost my sense of sane. They asked for personal information, including Aadhar details. They even told me that I was a prime suspect in a money laundering case involving Naresh Goyal. In a state of mental manipulation, I did as they asked. Not doubting on their ill-intentions, I kept following their instructions. They drilled me about my finances – bankbalances, income, expenses. After 5 hours, they asked me to transfer my bank funds to a "secret surveillance account" on the promise that the RBI would monitor my accounts for fraudulent transactions. Believing their lies, I broke my Fixed Deposits, transferring a significant sum – a whopping ₹17 lacs. It wasn't until my family intervened, breaking the spell, that I realised I had been victimised. Moreover, the defraudershad almost convinced me to transfer an additional Rs 3 lakhs, but fortunately, I got senses back and did not make this mistake.

The Aftermath and the Fight:

As the call ended, I began to feel humiliated and stupid. However, thanks to my extremely loving family I didn’t feelbeing a victim. I then lodged an FIR in the cybercrime helpline (1930) on the same day. The cyber trail led to a branch of IndusInd Bank where, within 15 minutes, the cash was transferred into three accounts — Yes Bank for Rs10 lakh: AU Finance Bank for Rs. 3.00 lakh and Cosmos Cooperative Bank for Rs. 4.00 Lakh. And from here, the money was withdrawn across three different places in Indore, Nagaur, and Ahmedabad, painted a grim picture and almost nil chances for recovery. The emotional toll was immense. Constant worry, and the concerning anxiety of losing everything – these were my mates.

The Long Road Back:

The odds of recovering cash withdrawals seemed bleak. However, due to the support of my family, friends, colleagues and the exceptional Rajasthan Police and Indore Police, I wouldn't give up. My friends, rallied behind me. They offered not just emotional support, but also practical help. They researched recovery options, connected me with resources, and helped me stay focused through the nightmare.

The Power of Knowledge and Connecting the Dots:

I had a weapon in this war — my knowledge of the financial system from working as a banker. Using the financial data, I carefullyfollowed a paper trail from one account to another in order to complete the puzzle. There were moments of frustration, dead ends that seemed to lead nowhere. But slowly, a pattern emerged.

Using my banking experience, I was able to connect the dots. The seemingly random accounts led to specific locations – the end users who had withdrawn the stolen money in cash. This was a crucial breakthrough.

A Collaborative Effort:

Armed with this information, we informed the police. Their swift action was instrumental in capturing the culprits. Commissioner Shri, Bishu Joseph Sir, DIG Kunwar Rastradeep Sir, SHO SharvanKumar Sir, Mr. Pradeep, and Mr. Sandeep displayed remarkable dedication. Furthermore, a special thanks goes to DIG Amit SinghSir of Indore, Madhya Pradesh. Although the case wasn't in his jurisdiction, he went above and beyond, apprehending the culprits and ensuring the return of my stolen money. Nevertheless, I would also mention two persons, who stood by me in this need. They are my friends Namarta Choudhary and Rajesh. Without their support, it would not have been possible for me to accomplish my recovery task.

A Message of Hope:

My journey through cyber fraud recovery was exhausting, fueled by a vigorous combination of personal resilience, unwavering support, and the expertise of the police department. Though people made perceptions about me as per their limited knowledge and experiences, but I didn’t lose hope. This experience has instilled in me a renewed sense of purpose – to educate others and empower them to protect themselves from these sophisticated scams.

Remember, even when faced with apparently impossible odds, there is always hope. With the right support system and a never-give-up attitude, you too can overcome the challenges of cybercrime. Let us unite against cybercrimes and support each other in the fight. Have faith in our country's system, and never lose hope. Share your story, raise awareness, and let's outsmart cyber fraudsters together. We will not be silenced. We will not be defeated.

In the end, it was a victory not just for me, but for all those who have suffered at the hands of cyber fraudsters.

Lessons Learned:

This ordeal was a frightening reminder of how sophisticated cybercriminals can be. Here's what I learned:

• Never share personal information over the phone.

• Verify the caller's identity before taking any action.

• Report suspicious activity immediately.

• Stay vigilant and educate others.

HAPPY 2021- LETS UNFOLD THE MIRACLES

2020-12-31T07:20:00.003-08:00

Okay so all set for New Year!!!

And New beginnings !!!!

In a while calls and messages will bombard our cellphones like previous years and we will give ourselves one more chance to wish or pray for new things.

2020 too started with the same excitement and zeal and none of us had even an iota of doubt that this year would be the worst one for us in a decadal time frame.

2020 will soon become an old chapter in our history books but on a slightly different note.

Years passed by but none of us were ever forced to recall a time which 2020 will make us remind in times to come.

Pandemic, lockdown, online classes were few new words which we all learnt in 2020 and from a small kid to an old age person all sailed in the same boat.

Well for all good and bad things, this year has finally come to an end. We have endured enough and now it’s time to await for happiness and pleasure.

2020 has taught us some great lessons and least we learnt is that it’s waste to expect much. We have no idea how brutally will our plans ruin and how apathetically will our dreams Shatter.

But as they say even a bad thing can teach you something and 2020 is no exception.

So many new things happened this year which we probably wouldn’t have learnt in our 20/30 years of life.

Our toddlers are growing with mask on their face. They understand that this is another necessitated cloth on their body which is needed before they go out of the house. Our generation has learnt to enjoy at home with our families.

This human race has definitely learnt something

And with all those learnt lessons, we are now embarking into 2021.

2021 is special in two senses-

One it’s most awaited year as with this new year we are hoping to get rid of pain and sufferings of 2020

And second it’s a start of a new decade which promises to fulfill some promises specially kept assigned for coming decade to take care of.

I don’t know if expecting 2021 to be a blissful year just because we have suffered enough will be right thing to do but then we don’t have any other choice.

I just hope pray and wish this year to be different from 2020 in a good sense and Believe it to bring a new beginning in our lives.

We have shed enough tears and now it’s time to be bright with a milkyway light.

So let’s end this decade on a good note by reminding of all the good times of passing year and welcome a new year and new decade with more power and energy and positivity.!!!!

She Who is she A mother or a sister Or a daughter?

2020-10-01T00:09:00.002-07:00

She can be you, I or anyone else for that matter,

But,

The true essence of being her is intact in every manner.

All her life is spent in playing different roles,

But how come does she rock and roll them all.

Is she a magic or a fairy of dreamland stepped down to the Earth?

Or is she herself a Durga or Kali for the world to work..

Who is she, I am unable to comprehend,

Because the misery of her asks me questions thousand.

Despite her essence to run the world,

Why is she proclaimed to be a puppet for the men to have fun.

If she is meant to be worshipped before man,

Then why does she have to endure all the pain.

Sacrifice, suffering, tolerance or duty and care,

why is her life confined to this scary nightmare.

From eve teasing, honor killing, rape to sexual violence,

Why is she supposed to suppress her trauma with silence.

Fearing stigma and suppressing memories

is what she expected to feat,

Because the deaf and oppressive patriarchal society is ready to snitch her beam.

If being a "SHE" comes with these disrespectful freebies

Then how can she be a goddess instead she prefers lying like mummies..

WHAT DO WE WANT—A CAGED LIFE OF LOCKDOWN OR A LIFE OF REAL HAPPINESS- THE WAR IN MIND CONTINUES……

2020-04-11T03:33:00.006-07:00

It’s been ages when I last took my laptop in my lap and wrote down every bit of thoughts running inside. Today also, I didn’t intend to write anything but my cataleptic mind and more than that my unconscious fingers are themselves taking the cues and running on this keypad like never before.

This is not just my story this time. For the first time in my life I am feeling like I am living the parallel life of what my neighborhood kid is going trough or what the celebrities whose lives always gave me a fairly good amount of fantasy are up to. There is no difference at all.

Mornings are no unlike and are following a similar pattern each day with no exception. From eldest member of the family to a little 1 year kid, everyone is sailing in the same boat. Their morning starts late these days. Breakfast, lunch and dinner, a mid day sleep and then comes night with a little to- do list. People absolutely have no idea, what are they doing. In my decadal life of consciousness about the universe never ever I have seen something like this before. Even the families with rigid discipline culture have become standstill. Eat, sleep and repeat is new normal. And surprisingly no one in this vast universe is doing anything different.

Yes this is the story of this LOCKDOWN. This is not something our government has imposed on us. This is what we have created for ourselves. This is what we ourselves have nurtured for years and finally when it is giving its fruits, why do they taste sour to us now?

The earth is still rotating on its axis. The moon is still in its orbit to service its planet. The rain pattern is as usual. The crops are still on time. Then what has changed? If the universe is at its place and all the components making up this world are on their duties like they have always been on even before the inception of the life then what has been altered? Why are we feeling like everything has changed?

Yes one thing that has changed is the way the world was operating a month back. All the big and small nations all have come to a halt. There is no race of becoming super power and showing the supremacy of one over other. From the richest billionaire to the poorest of poor all have been trapped in an unusual cage. People are restricted to their houses like that despondent bird that has been caged albeit it’s their personal choice. They are trying hard to get out of these self created prison bars but surprisingly there are no bars at all. They are free as before yet they feel suffocated. The nature is singing its own verse and people have failed to understand those lyrics and for the first time the music seems unpleasant to their ears.

But my question is- Isn’t it what we always wanted? We always craved for the calm and composed holidays where we could actually detach ourselves from the clutches of work, relations and more importantly from our own thoughts. And now it is here. We all have ample of time. No one to disturb us. No one to even ask to get ready and go for work. But alas! We are not liking it.

No surprise … We humans have been designed only this way. We don’t like the things that come to us with so much ease. Though we like freebies but do we really like freebies?

This question stroked in me a different type of curiosity. What does this human race actually want? The story of eve and Manu through which we have been trying to justify our foundation on this earth since ages has put before me a question. Nature created us or we created this nature?

I have always been told and I am sure each one of us has been given same life lessons that “THERE IS NOONE ABOVE GOD. But the problem with this human race is that we don’t easily believe until and unless we encounter the things ourselves.

We all have been living in this utterly crafted misconception that we are above everything. With successful attempts of encroaching the Mars, Moon, Jupiter and now with the anticipated steps leading even to Sun, we are contemplating a whole new world which will operate on our directions. With the most advanced technological gadgets in our hands and robots dancing on our terms, we have made ourselves the heroes of the story.

But are we the real Heroes?

Well, I leave this to you all. Think, Think and Think!!!! I am sure someone among us definitely has an answer to this question. I want to know- What do we really want. What kind of life, we dream for ourselves? A life full of sci-fi technologies where just pressing a button would fulfill all your wishes like a genie of the bottle or chirag of Alladin did in our childhood stories or we want a life full of real happiness and pleasure that lies in the synchronization of this nature and its elements.

Think…..

From mistakes to life to Happiness,

2019-02-02T10:39:00.000-08:00

From mistakes to life to Happiness,

I learned to walk on the paths rough and hard.

Fragile, groped and shivered at the start

I learned to pass a tremble with a scare.

Recreating myself to beam again with light,

I crossed a sea of thoughts which I once did hide.

Accommodating the good, forgetting the worse,

I learned to appreciate the blessing which was once considered curse.

Transforming from nothing to something to everything

I m beckoning back at the world without any agony and crying

Because everything adds and will add and it is worth to add

From mistake to life to Happiness!!!!!

When Heart Aches and Mind Wanders!!!

2019-01-20T22:30:00.001-08:00

Amidst the chaos that life created for me

Backing up with the dillema I Am in

For, the miseries and memories of life,

Please stop chasing me..

The peace I wanted,

The life I dreamt

For, the pain and sufferings

Please stop suffocating me.

The road I travelled

The destination I reached

For, the lessons and learnings

Please start encouraging me

The past I survived

The future I nurtured

For, the new journeys and stories

Please start accommodating me..

The story I wanted

The verses I wished

For, the poetrys and Rhymes

Please start breathing into me..

If she was a Daughter, You Would have Given her JUSTICE

2015-03-05T08:12:00.002-08:00

I DONT KNOW HOW I CAME TO WRITE THIS PARAGRAPH,

But after watching that video, it just went on.

And even after many efforts on Government’s part and putting the ban, the BBC made documentary has been released. What will be the consequences of this stride, time has all those answers but this movie has surely left many questions before us

Was banning the movie really a solution- And with the display of the truth, the war in government corridors is about to instigate, though it has become much arguable debate already. But i ask- is this needed? Why didn’t government want this movie to be released in India? Were they feared about the standing of our country in international streets or were they concerned about the ill-thought procedure of our country men, which the world has come to know. Were they afraid about the unsafe places of India that would hamper its tourism business or were they enraged about some another political issue, which would dent their political matters.

I don’t understand but yes I do have my views like any other common girl of this age would have been thought- this is not something you should ban, in fact it should compulsorily be showcased to every school, college, offices and everywhere so the people of this country come to know, what India is all about. What is value of woman here? What is the worth of those tears of a mother who saw her young daughter dying in front of her eyes?

They call it “India’s Daughter? Are we really the daughter of this vast country? If we are than does a mother treat her daughters like this? A big question mark and perhaps nobody is able to answer.

When will the victim get justice- As I mentioned earlier, Government is only concerned about how did some alien person come to India’s prison and interviewed the accused? Do we really need to find out an answer for this? Will anyone answer? What will this ban actually mean? It will stop prospective rapes? Will this save every daughter of this country? if you have answer in affirmative, go and ban the documentary. But sadly, there is nothing like this.

Everything is clear before that goddess of justice. Every face has been recognised. The crime has been admitted than why you are DELAYING the procedure. What is the need of pushing the case in different courts, what is the need of appeal and appeal all over again? is it not the duty of Supreme court to announce its final deicison as soon as possible or will it wait for some other defecnce on the accused parts even after knowing that he is an Accused?

How much more delay you are going to make? Or will the victim never get the needed justice?

Should Such LAWYERS be allowed to Practice further- it is true it’s the duty of the lawyer to defend his client? Ok fine but does your advocacy mean to save an accused who has brutally killed a young girl? He said don’t allow your daughters to go outside with someone unknown? Mr. Advocate- are you really a man? Sir, a real man is not one who disallows girl to go out at 9 PM, the real man is one who can stop the ill happening before his eyes.

Should the Accused need not have any Regret- This is what the man-oriented society all about. Even after committing a monstrous crime, you are blaming a girl who did not even know what had happened with her? You wanted to teach a lesson.

Oh wow, what kind of lesson you man wants to teach us? We should not go outside; we should not wear clothes of our choice or anything else? If we are chilling outside, we deserve to be raped? Or something worse than this

This is the extreme limit and then the SC is waiting for another defence on accused part? Does not he need a hang up now? Stop blaming the girl, stop blaming their parenting and stop blaming the thought they carry. They are really far better than yours.

To sum up.

Dear Government-

it is enough now. Are we going to see that juvenile accused wandering in the streets after few years? Yes you have a juvenile justice act but is not he a victim?. He did a heinous crime than why can he not be punished just because he is lacking 1/2 years in attaining his majority. Are you sure he will not trail other victim after his release?

The world has known the ugliness concealed behind the beautiful veil of this great India. They have openly claimed Delhi as RAPE Capital of the globe.

Are you still waiting for some more comments from International corridors? or is it enough for you to take needed actions now? So to all the respected rulers of my country- please know the fact that you need to see the things getting worse around you. The kind of embarrassment you fear about is not because of global unveiling of your country’s reality but it is inside in your nation. You need to tackle with your own dreadful veracity.

And lastly - To all such ill-minded people. Stop discriminate a girl and a boy. She also has the same mind, same heart and same feeling as you have. Stop crushing her dream

And LET HER SURVIVE

LET HER LIVE!!!!!!

- Tanwi

Perhaps Another Daughter

Perhaps Unreal turns out to be Real!

2014-09-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

It was a unreal life,

A unreal me and a unreal dream,

Roving through those unreal tunnels,

With hope of getting the real soon!!

But

It was nothing but a unreal fantasy,

The unreal characters, the unreal story!!

This feels me so many whiles,

But the real I was never wished to come to light!!

I wandered millions of instants

Thinking its real; rest is mere piece of mucks!!

I trust my soul and followed the trance,

But how could illusions lead me to the right path?

I thought again and again,

To get the answer that was still unseen!!

Is dis what i want to draw my life alike,

Or do i need a real picture throughout the life.

On my way of thinking, night turns in to light,

And an answer is awaiting me to realize.

So here i come out the veil

The real me with no reel!

No more unreality, no more delusion

This is the time to take the real roam!!!

A Battle between Heart and mind—No, perhaps fight between mind vs mind

2014-07-29T01:25:00.003-07:00

So after a long break, thoughts caught me again and as always i am not ready how to make a beautiful wreath out of them. Let’s see how i do it.

It’s a beautiful night; in fact i must say nights are always beautiful, peace all around, innocent sleeping faces, lights off and a lovely calmness. Stars are also there but in a packed home, sorry you are not going to enjoy watching them, so here i have to adjust with ceilings and walls. :-P

I want to inscribe everything running inside me but still something is going mistaken. A lot of things perhaps bothering me to come outside and i have to make choice which one should get place.

Well ok I am done. Why should not i write about this dilemma of human heart and mind?

Actually these two are the worst weapons and also greatest hoarder many times. Firstly a war between both of them never stops; secondly you never know which one to follow.

Seriously I never apprehend the notion why Heart behaves so babyishly or fervently. Perhaps god has put extra sensitive hormones in it. Or is it mind which is more sensible?

So, the confusion is who will decide either i am thinking with my mind or with my heart? :-P

Believe me this is question which is torturing me since the time i started intuiting the things.

They say follow your heart, i say where it is?

I am not clear yet which is mind's solution and which one is of heart.

A very torturing war i must say.

If thinking is task of brain; how can heart do this function? Is not blood pumping its task? And if heart thinks then what brain's function is all about?
My whole study of biology gets question mark here and i am left with no answer in fact.

Isn't it, its only mind that thinks?
In my opinion there are two parts of mind ( I am not talking about biological classification)
and both of them ponder differently like two perception of a thing i.e. right or wrong.

One part of mind thinks sensitively and other practically. When the sensible part outshines, we calls it thinking from heart.
So is it sufficient to satisfy me?
No, not yet
perhaps I have not yet discovered any supposition and these wandering thoughts will be shattered as such.

What i believe is,
at every decision you have to use your practical mind because sensible part can’t access itself separately, that has to take support in order to give itself a meaning.
So, it’s the practicality which is going to carry the day.

For example-
i think i should do something, I desperately want to execute whatever is running in my mind but i don’t do that. Why? Because, my mind forbade me to do so and finally practical mind takes the lead.

For 2nd example-
if i say i should do it or not?
M I asking my heart (that is sensitive part of mind) to tell me?
Or m I asking my mind to analyze should i do it?

Then

I follow only the answer given by mind i.e. second part

So, all I want to connote is you are ultimately going to follow your mind, because being a matured human, your senses ask you to analyze the thing.

And at that juncture the question of heart itself gets missing.

Fine, maybe it went quite confusing, and this war is never ever going to solve.
So with no hope to solving the puzzle
i shut up my mind and its thoughts and think something else.

Waiting to get the answer from someone somewhere…..

Have a nice day J

ज़िन्दगी..........

2014-04-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

भोर के सूरज से शुरू होती ये कहानी,
रात के अँधेरे में गुम हो जाती है,
दिन प्रतिदिन ये क्रम चलता एक दिन ज़िन्दगी ही अस्त हो जाती है!

एक आशा , एक उम्मीद जन्म लेती रोज,
कुछ पूरी हो पाती, कुछ दम तोड़ती, कुछ दबा दी जाती है,
ना जाने कितने उत्साह , उमंग और उदासी के बीच , ये ज़िन्दगी जी जाती है!

कोई रोता कोई हस्ता ,
किसी के होंठो कि मुस्कान झूठी है,
हर कोई भाग रहा रंग बदलती इस ज़िन्दगी में,
फिर भी सबकी दौड़ अधूरी है!!

जीवन चाह रहा हर कोई यहाँ,
पर जीना किसी को आता नही,
हर पल मर रहे लोग यहाँ,
पर मौत को कोई पाता नही.!

कल की कल्पना में उड़ान भरता हर कोई ,
पर बीते कल से कोई निकलता नही,
भविष्य क सपने ऐसे बुने कि
आज को कोई याद करता नही!!

कोई पूछे मुझसे क्या मतलब इस नैया का जो अंततः डूब जानी हैं,
क्यों कैसे जीए इस ज़िन्दगी को ,जो खुद ख़त्म हो जानी है!

उत्तर बेशक नही मेरे पास देने को कि क्यों ये कहानी वही पुरानी है?

बस दिल में एक अहसास और आँखों में विशवास है,

माना कि नही मुझे तुझ पर कोई एतबार है,

पर

कैसी भी हो ज़िंदगी मुझे तुझे से प्यार है!!

तू चाहए रास्ते को मोड़े, या होंसलो को तोड़े.

या तू चाहए लुटाना मुझ पर दुःख बार- बार है,

पर

कैसी भी हो ज़िंदगी मुझे तुझे से प्यार है!!!!!!!

God- Your Disguise Character confuses me !!

2014-02-02T23:35:00.000-08:00

It happened today when a cartoon movie “My friend Ganesha” took away all my attraction and forced me to think a million times about the drama, this god character does. I definitely must appreciate the coolness of virtual cinema. It is really charismatic. You think of god, you get the god before you. In the movie the Ganesha helps people as he is just another human being residing with the others likewise. Well, it’s not the only movie; some of them have also shown their brilliance by lifting the veil from god making him real.

I thought for a while why can’t he live with us or it could really happen that God would live with us, talk with us, wipe away all the problems. That would certainly have been really cool but this cannot happen in real.

Alas !! It can never be.

One thing that always unanswered me, Puzzled me up

Is god there?

I can even think of the probable answers of why there are seven colors of rainbow? Why the earth only holds the indispensable elements to survive here? But, when it comes to existence of god, my whole cleverness gets questioned. As sometimes yes, he is but at the other no, he is not. And sadly there are no convincing reasons to verify this yes and no. People argue on the existence of god. Is not that pointless?

They discuss as they have seen him. Mere Bible, Geeta, Quran can’t attest the reality of god. I even speculate who wrote them actually. Did anyone see those writers or these mythological stories have left huge brunt on us that we endow the entire writing with legitimacy?

Well, I doubt the legality of this truth too. And when the god can’t come before me, how can I be so imprudent to acknowledge the existence of god.

So that moment I decided not to recall him anymore

(As I was lying to myself or to him just for his respond to my action)

Sadly he didn't respond

As he never does still the belief that he is hearing me somewhere keeps me recalling him again and again even after his betray. I lie to myself daily just for him and he said lying is sin. So it’s what he wants me to do or to many more fatalities of his so called blessing. Why don’t you answer me, why can’t you see the pain inside?

Yes God, it’s you whom I bear in mind more than my breath but sadly you never heard and I know you won’t do.

And the bitter truth

Still I have to recall you forever!

Well many of us pass through the same state of mind, where there is no option except to ask the god as why don’t you do something (as he will come and do wonder). No matter how much IQ we human being have, It also does not matter, How much technologically advanced we human being are,

We are still unable to solve the puzzle named god. We can reach up to mars .We can find out life under the sea, but its god’ s identity who fails every bit of knowledge of human beings. Seems like god puts a challenge before us-

Find out me if you can.

But we can’t, and we never did.

And they said god is there

is it?

Either prove your validity of statement or just not recall the god.

I surely need to praise this god character, which without its presence keeps his charisma alive.

He is the real marionette jogger, who is amazingly rolling us.

We don’t know him but People say he is everywhere

Is not it something I already know? I can bet it’s not the human power which is operating the universe. It’s not the human power, which is in charge of the rain, winter or spring. It’s not the human power that controls the blossoming of flowers, blowing of breezes.

Yes I know

No one but the supernatural power is doing this.

But where is It.?

When everything, he is driving is visible to us than why does not the driver appear before us?

Is it-

He plays a disguised act and we all redundantly accompany him? He had made all of us so dependent upon him that He is the only character who is sure to be recalled at last.

So, no option other than being puppet of his hand, I concluded without any conclusion. I ended up my thoughts and have admitted that itinerating for the answer if god is there, will prove nothing except my stupidity.

But yes, When People say, god does right, I would definitely say, everything you do can’t be right always. You should need to review of your actions as you make us to evaluate ours.

In hope of seeing you sometime,

Now I stop wandering

So god

Keep in mind, your answers will be waited J :P

Another New Year, Do Resolution really work?

2013-12-31T01:39:00.004-08:00

Just another 31st December and like many other fleeting years, 2013 will soon turn out to be a lasting memory in few hours, when the fresh sunlight of 2014 will embrace the world. Years come and go and no doubt will keep the trend continue but in between what we do, how we live, become memories..The idea of this blog came, when I asked someone to change something and he replied, few days, will do it from January 1st. So, before we bring the curtains down and wish each other happy new year, let me also think some do over, I would make in 2014.

January 1st is generally considered an all together different day and almost each one of us is supposed to kick off something which we are not so interested to do on any other calendar date. Accordingly, animating the ongoing trend and with the same kind of temptation to start New Year with bang, I also thought every possible thing, I should do in the coming year. Should I improve myself better? Should I reorganize the paths, I chose for myself? In short, I was supposed to ponder only on what should I do on 1st Jan itself, that would result in to a certainly a better year ahead.

But soon I realized, possibly with these such beliefs, I started the journey of 2013 also. Perhaps, I made many promises to be fulfilled in the long span of 365 days. But when all those 12 months are about to pass, I wondered, how many such resolutions I kept, how many promises I followed and when my mind is wandering to make such new resolutions, the thing pinches is-

Since the time, I started knowing the connotation of resolutions; I have made hundred of promises on 1st Jan and have broken them as well. So, why the 2014 would be different? If changing oneself was actually so easy, we would have earned a long fan following until now. But, no, it’s not easy at all. I realize, 1 st Jan 2014 also can’t be a voucher to a healthier living and obviously why should it be? Isn’t it just another calendar date that comes after 31st and are not we all going to follow the same routine, doing the same chores on Jan 1st too?. So, why do all of us are so focused to bring out some changes in ourselves on 1st Jan only. Why not Feb 1st, March 1st and any other date of 12 months calendar. If changing oneself is persistent, I think people should start this from their b’day, at least they smear a new year in their life and we can count them too.

When, the 2013 is about to pass, if I figure out, perhaps I did many thing in the last year, which I should not have done, I sheltered many dreams away and opened gates to new ones. I made many wrong decisions, which if not made; life would have been different. So is this what, I resolutioned on 1st day of 2013, perhaps no.

In fact, there is no genuine revamp in life. And if the rest 364 days are going to be same, why should we give control of our life to Jan 1st only. Can’t we start anything new on any date; do we really need any particular date to alter ourselves? We can do it anytime, we want to do. Indeed taking recontrol of our life can be started this moment.

Though, refurbishment of life might not be held true, but do you really think that keep repeating the similar mistake again, just waiting New Year to stop you is right?Do you really need a new year to inhale a new life in to you?Well, you truly don’t need 1st Jan to revolutionize yourself and as the history showcases, you never did. It’s time to impede you from the justifications and senseless resolutions.

You can start today, you can start now.As it is not at all too delayed to embark on, it’s not at all too early to be perfect!! “

The Old year has faded, the New Year has come
In between, what we did, become the memories awesome
We don’t care, until it pinch
We don’t change, until it entail
We party until the dreams are derelict
We curse the life until it offers new wing
We love, we hate, we fear
That's the burden of another year
So, lets the life keep going on
Let’s, cheer the year, lets fade the fear!!”

Recibimiento 2K14
Adieu 2K13.....

And at the End ….

2013-12-09T21:29:00.001-08:00

You need to pave your trip alone,

No matter, if the whole clan was meant to escort you!

You need to craft your conduits alone,

No matter, if the deity was commended to execute for you!

You need to pick your trail alone,

No matter, if your leaders were supposed to perform for you!

You need to impede the winds alone,

No matter, if your companions were entrusted to walk with you!

Drizzling, frost or autumn,

The life is yours alone

Yes a time comes when,

Even being delimited by people

It’s the life you need to live alone.

Alone, Alone, Alone

As you was born alone

As, you will die alone,

It’s the vital ride of living,

You need to cross alone.!!!

Shopping in 2030, Imaginations do wonders – Lets figure out

2013-09-11T06:09:00.001-07:00

Shopping is an expression which crafts an all together different feeling, eagerness or appetite in each human heart irrespective of the age factor and more surprisingly when it is mingled with imagination , I need not to explain, how radically thrilling it will be?

Since the time, I started sensing the literal mean of shopping; the same has transformed itself immeasurably. Not so long ago. Whenever the idea of shopping used to come in our mind, we imagined going to a market where so many shops, sellers would welcome you with different -2 products and you need to approach a particular shop for the things you desire to take home. But now, either calls it globalization effects or technological advancement, the concept of shopping has changed a lot. On one hand, shopping malls have progressively surpassed the single commodity market, on other side, online shopping or e-shopping has made its foothold alongside conventional shopping.

It is 2013 and no one can deny the blessings of internet technology which made it possible to purchase the things sitting at home. Obviously we should be very grateful to the e- shopping sites like e-bay and lot more which let us shop within minutes with variety of options to choose from. Few clicks and your shopping is done. No wastage of time and no tension of bargaining. You need not to go anywhere and life seems so easy. And it is very apparent that within 10 or 20 years, online shopping will come out as a big mean of purchase as busyness or laziness whatever case will push us to sit at home and let the things drive human kind.

But when it comes specifically to imagine the concept of shopping in 2030, it takes us on utterly singular prospect, because imagination has no limits, its deeper then sea and higher then sky and above all, human imagination is most dangerous things ever.

I am sure, at the first glance of this question; many of people will take themselves in totally different world where robots are doing their all tasks, digitalisation all around and world is digitalized with wearable technology ahead of the age of small screens, though Smartphone, tab will still be there but with some more advancements. All will be enduringly connected with digitally connected glasses, watches and contact lenses and lot more. Where you need not to even click, you just command and your shopping is done.

Alongside, there is surely a group of people who will think about expansion of traditional shopping with superior shopping malls, where though they need to shop walking in the store, personalized references will be the principle influence of their buying decision.

Well, coming to my imagination of shopping in 2030, I being practical say that although 2030 will mark huge transformation in the shopping ways in form of digitalization, the traditional means of shopping will still be there alongside. Yes, it is true, the dependency on online purchasing will be higher but we can’t leave the other side of coin unseen which says, mass of the population does not trust the e- shopping concept. They doubt the payment mode; they still don’t accept the trustworthiness of online sites and their means of selling things. It’s acceptable that mindset of people is changing, but the very question is how much? We need to admit the fact that crowd still like to go for traditional shopping stores, where they can look, judge, try the stuff personally and then take them home after being fully satisfied.

However, it may happen that with population increasing at a rapid pace and limited area to survive, there will not be enough space to build new shopping malls and people will gravitate towards online shopping, but saying the complete digitalization will not be true. And in the country like India, where hardly 1/10 people go for online shopping, the conventional shopping will still be on top, as here people not only willing to observe look, ambience, presentation, but quality and quantity also matter a lot. And, it is masses we talk about, so shopping in 2030 will be both online and traditional.

Nevertheless, shopping in 2030 will exclusively be different concept and it may be even like that, where our imagination can’t reach right now. As my imagination say, it may be like that we even won’t need to click, we would just fix our eyes on the desired thing and it will be ours, the virtual screen will talk with us directly. It may be like that you need eye glasses, the virtual screen asks few questions and figure out your eye number and in few minutes, your specs are at your hand.

So to sum up, whet will be there in 2030, it’s all about future and future is unknown puzzle and as people say, let it be future, otherwise present will seem boring. So, until we get a clue,

Keep Guessing and keep shopping along with keep smiling J

Another independence day- Do the years will pass away just like this?

2013-08-15T05:52:00.000-07:00

India -- the sense of being Indian fills up my heart with a fortitude to transform my country from what it is to what it should be but many of us despite having the same feeling, could not do a bit to make India a better place to live in. The reason is very simple as the nightmare of making India, a world power in each of vicinities dies everyday when the news channels unveil the myth of happy India and showcases the factual despondent India to us.

Well, today is Independence day- the 67^th independence day of India. Not to be surprised 66 years of liberated India have been passed but the very question arises, where we are and where we needed to be in this long span of time period?

It needs not to be portraying as how many efforts it took to make India liberal and set it free. The resist which began in 1857 resulted out in a countrywide independence movement and made India free on 15 august 1947. How the freedom was perceived that time by our freedom fighters is well elaborated in our very first Prime minister’s Tryst with destiny speech. By the speech he wanted to let the Indian be acquainted with the fact that the event marked the start of a new era of escape from the British colonizers that took place in India for more than 200 years.

I am sure at that time, Nehru ji surely dreamt of a India that will no more endure the slavery of any align element. He definitely reveried that The India which got free after so many sacrifices will maintain its liberalization as it is forever.

But Are we free???
I don’t think so
No doubt India has transformed itself from emerging in to Emerged economy. The increasing literacy rate, the pace of industrialization, all sound nice in the context of India. The statistics of qualified engineers, doctors, managers are increasing at a steady rate. The numbers of human resourcse are increasing in India. Moreover, despite having resources crisis, our cohort did not overlook the great BHbaha/ Aryabhat and we are able to preserve our position in Science and technology. We are still ahead of many others when it comes to maintain the culture and values of ancient country.

Yet, In spite of so many positivity, if we look in to the map, we will find,India is only left with English speaking terrain of billionaire entrepreneurs, wrangling politicians and outrage prone actors enjoying their luxury life in AC rooms. If an effort is made to look outside these ac rooms in to the narrow streets of country, no revelation, the actual India will welcome you with the depression, it is wearing.

Be it economy or politics of India, all are going down. The youth don’t want to be part of politics as it has become very filthy and the pity thing is all of us even while knowing the condition, don’t do any bit to reduce its dirt.This, the weakened government in the history of India will certainly put down the sincere efforts made by freedom fighters.

The politicians have perhaps forgot the combined efforts of fighters of many separate philosophies to make India free , in fact they are much busy in discussing the internal politics issues - why the offence is done in the present government . They do not take a bit to know how to reduce that offence.The current scenario of UPA government and many oppositions are perfect example of this burning problem. The less secure system ad weak government is making outsiders to drop interest in our currency as the real value of rupee is falling down and all credit goes to our supreme politicians.

Who will take care of this?
Our prime minister, our president, who have given another brilliant speech on this day?
.They all say what India has achieved but damn, no one gave explanation, why could not India achieve, what was aimed?

NO matter how many years have passed since our independence, we are still trapped in the cage of poor politics, poverty and corruption. The real devotion is needed badly now. It is the time when the Indian people call for the same honesty, bravery and sensibility to each other and their country so that the soul of nation stays corruption free.

Well, I am not pointing out any discrepancy; I am also not talking about any excellence. All I want is to have a better India as what it could be.
All, I want is to make you all realize the actual India for which many lives lost.
I also don’t want to let go away the respect, sprit of patriotism after the day ends.
So on this day of 67^th Independence Day, Let’s take a vow of keeping the fortitude of nationalism sweltering inside every true Indian, until we succeed in making India a corrupt free economy.

Jai hind

Yet Another Evening But with Entirely Different Prospect

2013-07-28T09:11:00.002-07:00

It was 6.30 in evening, A Sunday evening without fun& frolic generally seems incomplete as it is the only time that is considered to be spent with friends and family chit chatting, hanging around and having fun. But unlike to any other who was actually proving meaning to this evening, there was me, to whom, this sunset was very tranquil and monotonous akin to any other working day evening. I was having P.D. in my hand and to be very honest, even after turning on 100 pages, I could memorize not even a single word of this magazine, perhaps my mind was not with me. And then happened another unusual thing,

Even after making up my mind up not to write again, I saw my hands running on paper and after this it went on. Writing- Aha, my all time favorite passion, I think, it has some ingrained magnetism as it was again forcing me to excavate all the suppressed feeling once I concealed. All the ideas which always wanted to come outside and just because of my bolshie wish could not get a chance to breath, were almost on the paper. It seemed like my obstinacies lost to my passion of writing.

I was sitting in the room all alone. A room with west facing always gives you a chance to witnessing the drowning sun in to dusk. The orangey sky was looking very beautiful and unwantedly wrapped my mind with so many thoughts. Well, hopelessly a strong wish to engrave all the ideas on paper, I was keeping on writing… Writing..

It was making me fanatical; I just wanted to pour all the bits and pieces resting in my mind and heart on paper

I just wished to lay every fancy I wanted to execute earlier

I desired to scratch all the arguments, I felt to do with my friend previously.

I aspired to show all my anger, which I obscured before

And then I realized, what I am heading towards, what I am wandering for and even after writing so much of stuff, I was blank, where to start?

Another atypical thing happened as soon as I apprehended a ray of brightness on paper and I looked around. It was nothing but the light of my room, which was switched on by my sister. This means, I was lost this much that I didn’t even give a damn to darkness but end well, all well.

The gleam of that radiance left a question in me.

Have I transformed my happy go lucky life in to a tedious and deadly existence? Of course the answer was affirmed. Than another question that took my breath away.

Did I really need this transformation? And Don’t I need to reform it again?

Believe me; MY thought procedure got changed that moment. I realized, it all was going wrong. I was just wasting my precious & beautiful life just because of the tenderness, prevailing.

It was time to decide anything worth, it was time to uncover all the desires, I had suppressed.

The sun was almost in the lap of dusk now but unlike the dark covering day’s existence, my survival was giving my life new meaning. Yes I have to do it all again,

A new start, a new beginning with hopes to revive all the pleasure, I ever wanted in my life, shunning all the disappointments.

Perhaps. Things had changed because I found myself going outside the home. I was driving with all fun, which I used to shun before.

Wish to maintain my hopes alive.

Well many of us are trapped in the same predicament, Soreness has snatched all their zeal and they just sit at home alone with no hope to revive life again. To all of them, few lines I have to say-

Witnessing that blonde tint, blazing in the west

A gleam of glow enlightened my hope, offered me a gist

A sun that was about to set, elucidated my inner quest by

Excelling my hearts gate to trounce lives fade

Awake and realize that

A sun that burns for the rest

Time to be transform like that

Time to achieve forbidden glory

Of the live which is gloomy

You are the human on operation

With sublime gracious motivation

Stand up and fight back

To get back all which was forbidden.

The drowning sun will rise in another place

So lets the hidden dreams unwrap on another date.!!

There is no mean of time-expelled contentment

2013-06-10T03:04:00.001-07:00

What is life bursting of surprises?
Where pleasure comes after the countless cries.

There is no exuberance now in unfolding the clandestine,
As, a way of unfurling is now lifeless and obnoxious.

They say,Let the life unwraps its next chapter,
But what’s the worth of divulge, when desires have already blistered.

When things appear so close to seize,
Why holding them forever is retort unbearable.

On an intuitive road, a walk might seem calm,
But as soon as a distance is traversed, destination falls more apart.

When it is good to drizzle in raining, blossom in spring
It’s best to behold the things, when they are desired

Time goes on and in no way comes back,
The imaginings, hopes, desires evaporate, when does not congregate on time

Even time barred debt is called bad,
Then what would you call a reverie spurting after spring lasts?

There is no mean to live a superfluous life with optimism to meet dreams for a while
As it is analogous to death certain but covered under drape

God

If you call it a just right phenomenon to sprint this human race,
Let me correct you in this sophisticated world of mine

You are mistaken and your are defendant,
As it is not the life what your children ever wish to subsist.

Let us see the episodes of life when we have fancy to unfold
Then only it will be a way to prove its worth,
Please offer your clemency on us before the desires last forever,
Like dribbled seeds never aimed to reap again.!!!!

Love - A Mystery, A Experience or Blend of many Myriad Feelings!!!

2013-04-19T03:48:00.001-07:00

Once in life, you fall in love with someone. It might be temporary, might be at wrong time and might be with the wrong person. But as love looks for no time, no place, it only happens, you can’t question it at all. Love is an indeed nice thing ever happen to someone but what if your love is one sided. You love that person but he does not love you, or you don’t even know if he loves you. That is the situation of an unreciprocated love and unrequited love or untold, unuttered love, whatever the case might be. And many of us go through the same state of life.

No one knows when loves start, how it nurtures and how it grows and eventually how it grows cold. You are a happy go lucky person today and the very next day you come across a person by any of means, either through a common friend, in a social meet or through the online surfing. You get attracted to this person without even realizing that you are blowing in his/her thoughts. Seconds, minutes, hours and days pass away and you incline towards this person with no intention, with no clue at all. And the time comes when you start realizing that you are in love. In every thought of yours, in your dreams and even in your every heart beat the person gets his/her space. This one-sided love is twofold affair. In some cases, you are the centre of that one sided love or in some other, you fall for someone. Though in the first case, you might feel privileged that you are being loved by someone, it is equally painful experience like second one when you are the subject of one-sided love. Denying someone’s proposal might be easy for any of us but it equally carries the same pain inside. Well, keeping the other point sided; let’s come to the second case. How would you feel, if you are denied by someone or in case if you are not even able to let the person know about your love to him. The situation is indeed excruciating and more dramatic as well.

Love happens, no doubt it does. It is exceptionally hard to opt intentionally with whom, where, how and when. It is next to impossible that you can shun one sided love. Being trapped in this cage is itself very sad and bad. And what if it is your first love? Despite the fact how it starts, how it goes on and how it ends up, one sided love eventually takes you in to the one of the most painful misery of life. It is one of the cruelties of life that leads many of us in unwanted and undesired and unseen trails.

Then there might be two choices. Either you let that person know about your love or you stay quiet, waiting for some miracle to happen. For many of you it may look like that uttering your love to your beloved and getting the answer, no matter it is positive or negative gets you take away the pain, hammering you daily. But, no, letting know him/ her and getting the negative response, as he/ She does not feel like this, she/ he never thought this way breaks you inside and your so called dream shatters with no sound. And for the day, two or more, your life just gets stuck on the moment, with no idea of moving where and how further. The second case, when you are not going to say that love anyway to him/her, is equally or even more agonizing. The moments, when you know that you love that person, you want to embrace him/her, you want to spend your life with him. But the pity thing, you can’t even express your love.

That is the situation of unuttered one-sided love!!!

And here is a short story of that untold one-sided love. One sided love that has been led nowhere until now. Keep reading, will it could ever be uttered to beloved or akin to every 2nd love story on earth, this love story too will get vanished without even getting a start.

....... Continued

Is love there or is it Just a Dream soon to be Broken

2013-04-17T01:52:00.000-07:00

Is love an illusion
or it’s a obsession exists in heaven

Is it something to reap
or it is nurtured with each impelling heart beat!!

Does this really happen itself?
or
things compose it to happen?

Yes I heard
love does exist
but why it is not visible?

if love means you
why you are not reachable?

If love means your imaginings always
than
why do not you appear in real?

If love means you behind the closed eyes
than
why my vision is week to see you in open eyes?

A lot of queries waiting to be responded
but a response is always unspoken or even betrayed.

Diminishing memories of past would I soon forget

Or

Secluded and lonely I will be waiting whom I never met?

Where do I go where do i turn
For the love that I frantically yearn!

Crumpling with each passing flash,
Will I ever find you, i don’t know
The despair and pain casing every episode of life,
Taking my breath way with each ephemeral blow!!

The verity of all this is thus far to be seen
As for the moment i can feel you only in dream!!!

You made me alone or was I Unaccompanied Before & Always.??

2013-04-15T05:01:00.000-07:00

Once having the sparkling eyes bursting with smiles

I was the happiest person

With no pain of being alone within!

Contended i was all the way round

Certainly not shouted in soreness, never yell in trepidation!!!

Then you came or illusion I felt,

Things I enjoyed or you used me for fun!

First you made me feel elevated

Then why you left me betrayed and broken hearted.

Without asking me you contemplated me all right

Without even caring you found my pretended face fine!!!

Don’t be deceived by my face or my acts

As you have no idea

What is life, filled with pain?

Delimited by darkness, despair and inundated with disgrace

Its life of clamours with no one to blame!!

I live in a place that is yet unseen

Holding all the traumatized dreams

With no end in sight

I abode in a dream with no hope for fulfillment

I live a life without any bit of excitement

My life is full of sorrow with each day filed with misery

I breathe a life with broken heart and despair!!!

But

Damn

You never realize and you won’t ever do

My life is mine alone, and I have to admit it too

I will be the person with seclusion more and more

With no one there to hear my cries that will last evermore!!!

Blurred path & Dilemma are hard to Beat

2013-03-16T02:33:00.003-07:00

Vague shadows
superfluous yet once dreamt paths
so messed up life
with no thirst to go beyond.

A cycle with no axis

A design with no edge

A map with no site

A mind with no thought

A feeling of indecision is driving me harebrained

A feeling of scepticism is making me mislay the curb

The pain or happiness that

I sensed ago

Is impairing me hundred times more

And

Puzzled, perplexed, baffled my soul

Is forced to enjoy my mystifying equations

Bothered with every surrounding

It is feeble to cope against.

A big perplexity between mind & heart is

Almost taking my breath away

Favouring heart over mind points me irrational

And going with mind over heart projects me pragmatic

Tired, looser, sluttish and exhausted, me

Can’t move further anymore,

No idea where to lead

I am looking for my own demolition

Things seems like assorted island

I can see but I can’t touch

There is a heated wish to close all the ways

With burning desire to destroy all the trails

Yet perhaps somewhere I want to move LL

Conceivably from temptations of life, I must abstain

I close my eyes and pray to lord to defend me

From all the dilemmas, all the sadness and all the pains!!!

That Last Night!!!!

2013-02-21T21:51:00.003-08:00

Last Night I had a dream

That was ghastly merriment!!

The last dream of soreness,

The last dream of shed tears,

The last dream of murder myself,

The last dream of no more me,

And

The last dream of death!!

Alas

It was creepy pleasurable,

It was indeed implausible,

All is lost

Noting left

My dreams broke,

My aspiration bust,

And

Suddenly i looked out a new morning

Yes

It was the true one!!

The real sun calling me outside
The cool bridge asking to freak out

I woke up my senses

Yes i am alive

I was happy

But a thought broke my spirit

Saying what,

If there would not have been new morning,

If today’s sun would have not been meant for me,

Shocked, crimped and fizzled me,!!

Many tasks would have been undone,

Many promises would have been unfulfilled,

Many sorry would have been untold,

Many prayers’ would have been unpreyed,

Thing would have been untied, unheard and unsaid!!

Nooooo

I shouted how much i could,

No more last night please,

Give me one more day!!

To say all sorrys

To make all promises

To pray all prayers and

To live one more time, being me!!!!

Change is not life!!

2013-02-19T02:47:00.004-08:00

Gone are some of those blissful days

Either things changed or people did.

Here is bit altered life

With happiness in its lap but

surely lack of those moments of delight.

Those lovely flashes of joy with no demand of more to drop

Those little contentment’s with unbroken promises from heart core

Left with nothing but memories, with no hope to recapture them again

I heard

Change is life

But what is life with superfluous changes

When sun never forgets to shower its rays

When sea never forgets to wet your feet

When flower never forgets to offer fragrance

When tree never forgets to cover you under shed

Then

Why do we forget to stay same???

Yes, I Love Being a Girl

2013-02-07T01:20:00.002-08:00

Shattered equations and undefined trails,
it’s what I indeed feel being a girl.

With dusk covering day's existence,
with moon embracing night's darkness,
yes I feel being a girl is curse.

Being a girl, she wished to live,

Wish to adore and wish to give

But

Never last pleasing this her way,

She only means to be a girl till last day.

So with every new rays coming down from sky,

Showering its blessing to all except on girls,

Yes, Still

I like being a girl.

No people were never wrong if they kill that juvenile soul,
as a cruelty is there to give her a haul

Today That new rising sun too seems fake,

Laughing at a girl's misfortune,

Still
yes trapped in a dilemma
I Love being a girl.

Fanatical, comical, content and miserable, yes it’s called girl’s life

From fairy tales to being teens,

From toys to boys,

Never finding her contentment, yes its girl‘s life.

Being a girl, is all she can give,

Never expecting anything,

She is girl as long as she live.

Not free like sea not free like fowl

Being a girl she is fated to spoil

Pleasing you all day & night with no end,

Yes being a girl she is destined to cease in sand.

But, with all this truth, with all this fate

Yes,

Still

I proudly say, I love being a girl.!!!!

Untold Feelings Remain Unuttered!!!!!!!!

2013-02-05T04:19:00.001-08:00

I loved u but u didn’t care,
I liked u but u didn’t even realized,
I never told u and u never felt.
We both paved our separate ways,
and life never tried to congregate our trails.
Things kept running and we stayed busy in our own life,
But somewhere someday I decided to tell you,
though, one failed endeavor and I never Uttered my love to u.
now you are of someone's life but mine is still searching u.
I know u won’t come back
As You were never there
but No doubt
you r still my dream; my fantasy
running in my mind with no hope to incarcerate again
Yes, I am foolish who still love u beyond the limits of the heavens
perhaps in next Birth
You will b mine!!!