Perfectly Imperfect

song that means alot again ;)

2011-04-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

Pink - Fuckin’ Perfect Lyrics
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss “no way it’s all good”
It didn’t slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I’m still around…
Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me
You’re so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you same
Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me
The world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my genes, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less then, fuckin’ perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing you’re fuckin’ perfect, to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect
Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing you’re fucking perfect to me

Romeo and juliet

2011-03-18T15:16:00.001-07:00

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2011-03-01T07:46:00.003-08:00

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thiswill bring tears to yr eyes

2011-02-17T02:57:00.000-08:00

This is a true story about a man named Rashed. He tells his story as follows...

I was not more than thirty years old when my wife gave birth to my first child. I still remember that night.

I had stayed out all night long with my friends, as was my habit. It was a night filled with useless talk, and worse, with backbiting, gossiping, and making fun of people. I was mostly the one who made people laugh; I would mock others and my friends would laugh and laugh. I remember on that night that I'd made them laugh a lot. I had an amazing ability to imitate others – I could change the sound of my voice until I sounded exactly like the person I was mocking. No one was safe from my biting mockery, even my friends; some people started avoiding me just to be safe from my tongue. I remember on that night, I had made fun of a blind man who I'd seen begging in the market. What was worse, I had put my foot out in front him – he tripped and fell, and started turning his head around, not knowing what to say.

I went back to my house, late as usual, and I found my wife waiting for me. She was in a terrible state, and said in a quivering voice, "Rashed... where were you?"

"Where would I be, on Mars?" I said sarcastically, "With my friends of course."

She was visibly exhausted, and holding back tears, she said, "Rashed, I'm so tired. It seems the baby is going to come soon." A silent tear fell on her cheek.

I felt that I had neglected my wife. I should have taken care of her and not stayed out so much all those nights... especially since she was in her ninth month. I quickly took her to the hospital; she went into the delivery room, and suffered through long hours of pain.

I waited patiently for her to give birth… but her delivery was difficult, and I waited a long time until I got tired. So I went home and left my phone number with the hospital so they could call with the good news. An hour later, they called me to congratulate me on the birth of Salem. I went to the hospital immediately. As soon as they saw me, they asked me to go see the doctor who had overlooked my wife's delivery.
"What doctor?" I cried out, "I just want to see my son Salem!"

"First go see the doctor," they said.

I went to the doctor, and she started talking to me about trials, and about being satisfied with Allah's decree. Then she said, "Your son has a serious deformity in his eyes, and it seems that he has no vision." I lowered my head while I fought back tears... I remembered that blind man begging in the market who I'd tripped and made others laugh at.

Subhan Allah, you get what you give! I stayed brooding quietly for a while... I didn't know what to say. Then I remembered by wife and son. I thanked the doctor for her kindness, and went to go see my wife. My wife wasn't sad. She believed in the decree of Allah... she was content... How often had she advised me to stop mocking people! "Don't backbite people," she always used to repeat... We left the hospital, and Salem came with us.

In reality, I didn't pay much attention to him. I pretended that he wasn't in the house with us. When he started crying loudly, I'd escape to the living room to sleep there. My wife took good care of him, and loved him a lot. As for myself, I didn't hate him, but I couldn't love him either.

Salem grew. He started to crawl, and had a strange way of crawling. When he was almost one year old, he started trying to walk, and we discovered that he was crippled. I felt like he was an even greater burden on me. After him, my wife gave birth to Umar and Khaled. The years passed, and Salem grew, and his brothers grew. I never liked to sit at home, I was always out with my friends... in reality, I was like a plaything at their disposal [entertaining them whenever they wanted].

My wife never gave up on my reform. She always made du'aa for my guidance. She never got angry with my reckless behavior, but she would get really sad if she saw me neglecting Salem and paying attention to the rest of his brothers. Salem grew, and my worries grew with him. I didn't mind when my wife asked to enroll him in a special school for the handicapped.

I didn't really feel the passing of the years. My days were all the same. Work and sleep and food and staying out with friends. One Friday, I woke up at 11 am. This was early for me. I was invited to a gathering, so I got dressed and perfumed, and was about to go out. I passed by our living room, and was startled by the sight of Salem – he was sobbing! This was the first time I had noticed Salem crying since he was a baby. Ten years had passed, and I hadn't paid attention to him. I tried to ignore him now, but I couldn't take it... I heard him calling out to his mother while I was in the room. I turned towards him, and went closer. "Salem! Why are you crying?" I asked.

When he heard my voice, he stopped crying. Then when he realized how close I was, he started feeling around him with his small hands. What was wrong with him? I discovered that he was trying to move away from me! It was as if he was saying, "Now, you've decided to notice me? Where have you been for the last ten years?" I followed him... he had gone into his room. At first, he refused to tell me why he'd been crying. I tried to be gentle with him... Salem started to tell me why he'd been crying, while I listened and trembled.

Do you know what the reason was?! His brother Umar, the one who used to take him to the masjid, was late. And because it was Jumu'ah prayer, Salem was afraid he wouldn't find a place in the first row. He called out to Umar... and he called out to his mother... but nobody answered, so he cried. I sat there looking at the tears flowing from his blind eyes. I couldn't bear the rest of his words. I put my hand over his mouth and said, "Is this why you were crying, Salem!"

"Yes," he said.

I forgot about my friends, I forgot about the gathering, and I said, "Don't be sad, Salem. Do you know who's going to take you to the masjid today?"

"Umar, of course," he said, "... but he's always late."

"No," I said, "I'm going to take you."

Salem was shocked... he couldn't believe it. He thought I was mocking him. His tears came and he started crying. I wiped his tears with my hand and then took hold of his hand. I wanted to take him to the masjid by car. He refused and said, "The masjid is near... I want to walk there." Yes, by Allah, he said this to me.

I couldn't remember when was the last time I had entered the masjid , but it was the first time I felt fear and regret for what I'd neglected in the long years that had passed. The masjid was filled with worshippers, but I still found a place for Salem in the first row. We listened to the Jumu'ah khutbah together, and he prayed next to me. But really, I was the one praying next to him.

After the prayer, Salem asked me for a Quraan. I was surprised! How was he going to read when he was blind? I almost ignored his request, but I decided to humor him out of fear of hurting his feelings. I passed him a Quraan. He asked me to open the Quraan to Surat al-Kahf. I started flipping through the pages and looking through the index until I found it. He took the Quraan from me, put it in front of him, and started reading the Surah... with his eyes closed... Ya Allah! He had the whole Surah memorized.

I was ashamed of myself. I picked up a Quraan... I felt my limbs tremble... I read and I read. I asked Allah to forgive me and to guide me. I couldn't take it... I started crying like a child. There were still some people in the masjid praying sunnah... I was embarrassed by their presence, so I tried to hold my tears. My crying turned into whimpering and long, sobbing breaths. The only thing I felt was a small hand reaching out to my face, and then wiping the tears away. It was Salem! I pulled him to my chest... I looked at him. I said to myself... you're not the blind one, but I am, for having drifted after immoral people who were pulling me to hellfire. We went back home. My wife was extremely worried about Salem, but her worry turned into tears [of joy] when she found out I had prayed Jumu'ah with Salem.

From that day on, I never missed the congregational prayer in the masjid. I left my bad friends... and I made righteous friends among people I met at the masjid. I tasted the sweetness of Iman with them. I learned things from them that distracted me from this world. I never missed out on gatherings of remembrance [halaqas], or on the witr prayer. I recited the entire Qur'an, several times, in one month. I moistened my tongue with the remembrance of Allah, that He might forgive my backbiting and mocking of the people. I felt closer to my family. The looks of fear and pity that had occupied my wife's eyes disappeared. A smile now never parted from the face of my son Salem. Anyone who saw him would have felt that he owned the world and everything in it. I praised and thanked Allah a lot for His blessings.

One day, my righteous friends decided to go to a far away location for da'wah. I hesitated about going. I prayed istikharah, and consulted with my wife. I thought she would refuse... but the opposite happened! She was extremely happy, and even encouraged me... because in the past, she had seen me traveling without consulting her, for the purpose of sin and evil. I went to Salem, and told him I would be traveling. With tears, he wrapped me up in his small arms...

I was away from home for three and a half months. In that period, whenever I got a chance, I called my wife and talked to my children. I missed them so much... and oh, how I missed Salem! I wanted to hear his voice... he was the only one who hadn't talked to me since I'd traveled. He was either at school or at the masjid whenever I called them.Whenever I would tell my wife how much I missed him, she would laugh happily, joyfully, except for the last time I called her. I didn't hear her expected laugh. Her voice changed. I said to her, "Give my salam to Salem," and she said, "Insha'Allah," and was quiet.

At last, I went back home. I knocked on the door. I hoped that it was Salem who would open up for me, but was surprised to find my son Khaled, who was not more than four years old. I picked him up in my arms while he squealed, "Baba! Baba!" I don't know why my heart tensed when I entered the house.

I sought refuge in Allah from the accursed Shaytan... I approached my wife... her face was different. As if she was pretending to be happy. I inspected her closely then said, "What's wrong with you?" "Nothing," she said. Suddenly, I remembered Salem. "Where's Salem?" I asked. She lowered her head. She didn't answer. Hot tears fell on her cheeks.

"Salem! Where's Salem?" I cried out.

At that moment, I only heard the sound of my son Khaled talking in his own way, saying, "Baba... Thalem went to pawadise... with Allah..."

My wife couldn't take it. She broke down crying. She almost fell to the floor, and left the room. Later, I found out that Salem had contracted a fever two weeks before I'd returned, so my wife took him to the hospital... the fever got more and more severe, and didn't leave him... until his soul left his body...

And if this earth closes in on you in spite of its vastness, and your soul closes is on you because of what it's carrying… call out, "Oh Allah!" If solutions run out, and paths are constricted, and ropes are cut off, and your hopes are no more… call out, "Oh Allah." Allah wished to guide Salem's father on the hands of Salem, before Salem's death. How merciful is Allah!

Get OUT !!!!!!

2010-12-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

I’ve been waiting all day for ya babe
so won’t you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we’re gonna be together always
hope you know that when this late at night
I hold on to a pillow tight
I think ‘bout how you promised me forever
I never thought that anyone could make me feel this way
now that you’re here boy all I want is just a chance to say

get out (leave) right now
it’s the end of you and me
it’s too late (now) and I can’t wait for you to be gone
cause I know about her (move)
and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)

tell me why you looking so confused
when I’m the one that didn’t know the truth
how could you ever be so cold?
you go behind my back and call my friend
boy you must’ve fall and bumped your head
because you left your number on her phone
so now that after all that you’ve said and done
maybe I’m the one to blame but
to think the one that you could be the one
well it didn’t work out that way

get out (leave) right now
it’s the end of you and me
it’s too late (now) and I can’t wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know about her (move)
and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies (all the lies)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)

I wanted you right here with me
but I have no choice you’ve got to leave
because my heart is breaking with
every word I’m saying, I gave up everything I had
on something that just would not last
but I refuse to cry
no tears will fall from these eyes (ohh, ohh)

get out

get out (leave) right now
it’s the end of you and me (you and me)
it’s too late (now) and I can’t wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know about her (move)
and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies (how did I …)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) right now
it’s the end of you and me (hey yeah)
it’s too late (now) and I can’t wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know about her (move)
and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right (treat me right)
but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) (you and me)
it’s too late (too late) (now)

about her (now) (why)

you said that you would treat me right
but you were just a waste of time (ohh)

when a song explains ur feelings

2010-09-20T07:02:00.001-07:00

Yeeeeeyeeeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm ridin solo, sooloooo.

Yeah, I'm feeling good tonight, finally doing me and it feels so right, oh,
Time to do the things I like,
going to the club everything's alright, oh,

No one to answer to,
no one that's gonna argue, no,
And since I got the hold off me,
I'm living life now that I'm free, yeah,

Telling me to get my shit together
now I got my shit together, yeah,
Now I made it through the weather
better days are gonna get better

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now,
the pain is goooone,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.

Now I'm feeling how I should,
never knew single could feel this good, oh,
Stop playing miss understood,
back in the game, who knew I would, oh,
So flex how I spread my wings, loving myself makes me wanna sing, oh,
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Telling me to get my shit together
now I got my shit together, yeah,
Now I made it through the weather
better days are gonna get better

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now,
the pain is goooone,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo

yeah it's like S... O... L... O...
S... O... L... O... S... O... L... O...
Living my life and got stress no more,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo

I'm riding solo, sooloooo,
I'm riding solo, sooloooo.

its been days

2010-08-29T09:14:00.000-07:00

It has been days since i filled this text box with jabber... lets just say Things havent been going as ive planned, college has been absolutely draining and the fast is getting to be badly this year..... so ive been drained most of the time...

I think my lack of communication is what happened when i posted my last post... It takes me a looong time to get over things and i havent even tackled that one yet! reality its harder everytime ... I agree now when ppl say accept it when it happens.... than to pro long the pain, it only gets worse.

I'm not sure where im headed yet .. i just know its time.... time to settle down...
Iftaar time soon here... hope u all enjoy yrs

i miss you

2010-08-15T02:31:00.000-07:00

You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a floor out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

some songs.. just say it all !!!!

2010-08-10T14:03:00.000-07:00

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me, she f**kin' hates me
And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind in his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 2]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you're getting f**kin' sick of lookin' at em
You swore you'd never hit em, never do nothin' to hurt em
Now you're in each other's face spewin' venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you're in em
It's the face that's the culprit, controls you both
So they say it's best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over
But you promised her next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 3]
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won't be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar if she ever tries to f**kin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[Chorus]

what is real love

2010-08-05T14:12:00.000-07:00

I guess... falling inlove can be the highlight of someones life, but what really stands out for me is when couple keep falling more and more inlove with each other everyday even after they married for 10,20 30+ years. No one knows their life partner fully until they married , and one should never know everything about the other before ( and when i say this i don't mean secrets and stuff they should come out before marriage but on eachothers own time) i mean like funny things, personality, because those are the things that make u fall in love with him/her...

This is almost every girls dream, maybe its because we watched too many fairy tales when we were younger and have a different perception of life, like Gregg my art lecturer says.. but I don't care i will be with my prince forever...

justin bieber - one less lonely girl
i've decided to do a new thing to put the one song thats in my head at the time of writing the blog

what a feeling can do

2010-07-25T15:13:00.000-07:00

do you guys really wanna know what you do to us once we have fallen for you? especially if you play hard to get... goodness i really love those :P

so years or week or months whatever the time is goes by and you probably dont see him in that way... even if u slightly get the odd feeling of attachment you realise your friendship is was more important and then things are back to normal until one day you guys are close again and something happens he gives you something, and you wear it everday, and he buys you something, even though you dont use it ( coz u dont smoke) u still keep it with you , just coz it reminds u of how sweet he is.... running through town after a nice lunch on a monday afternoon to buy a something for u is... this is a dream come true... hw many guys are so spontaneous.?

then not hiding you from his friends and siblings.... sharing you with the world and holding your hand in the mall not giving a damn who saw , just you and his friends having breakfast friday morning after a late night...

only for you to realise his your best friend still and both of you dont want to screw it up...

you guys know how to get us hooked.... the only thing you have to learn now is to make sure we never cry.

bumpersticker quote because you love that i'm a nerd ! “No man is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry.”

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.

I'm going to miss YOU !!!

2010-07-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

after a suckky ass party where most of the group didnt help out .... anyway i was on my way to spend the night with my friends....

got the to room and got my cute silky polka dot pjs on.. haha i dont believe i wore them ! And then i was starved... joey and JC went to get me some mcdonalds... shew i have never had such a yummy burger....

the night turned out well and Ayoba, and i decided we need to call it a night so we watched some hectic crappy movie on tv and all went to bed....

woke up at 7.... showered and ( ate a sandwich) we all set sail to fetch jc in claremont

banana and caramel pancakes for 2 and 2 french toast , ice tea, grapetiser, ho tchocolate and a cappuccino was our breakfast !!
took the cutest of pics ... maybe il post them :P and then had a drive hom... since JC is joeys cuzzin and joey is going home today i wont see either of them for a looong time :( damn gonna miss those 2

luckily i have my besti ayoba with me !!!

p.s: ayoba is awesome

one thing ive learnt

2010-07-20T08:08:00.003-07:00

Make Sure you are God before u judge the next person

what a day

2010-07-19T13:52:00.000-07:00

SO after my first looong day back at college.... my bestie picked me and we went for lunch at some burger place in town!!! was rather yummy hey anyway that wasn't the shocking part :P

so driving we see these guys drinking beer... so i asked the other white dude wiith us why would anyone drink beer? anyway he explained how manly it is only to find out someone i knew was lekker drinking during the world cup .... one nice beer haha and then they freaken want to judge other people....

also that cricket grounds.... was used for them to smoke weed!!!! anyhoo i don't give a shit... my bestie takes good freaken care of me !!!!

thanks for the bday wishes

2010-07-18T11:43:00.001-07:00

wasalaams,
jazakkallah for my birthday wish, and in my head .. i always expected more from you on this day.. ever since the day it all ended...

My birthday this year was nothing less than i expected.. you have taught me that one shouldn't depend on another as no matter how true the next one could be... influence will always beat them...

I've always blamed you for making me weak as i never saw the bigger picture, but you have acyually made me a lot more stronger than i was before i knew you mr AA...

I have realised ... i should spend my life with someone who can be open and support me in what i do....

I Promise YOU !

2010-07-16T01:37:00.001-07:00

It's in the silences,
the words you never say
I see it in your eyes,
it always starts the same way
It seems like everyone we know,
is breaking up
Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

ooh I see you look at me,
when you think I'm not aware
You're searching for clues,
of just how deep my feelings are.
How do you prove the sky is blue, the oceans wide?
All I know is how I feel,
when I look into your eyes

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything that I am ooh yeah

Oh there are no guarantees
That's what you always say to me
But late at night I feel the tremble in your touch
Oh what I'm trying to say to you,
I never said to anyone I Promise

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
(I do my darling I promise you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again

With everything I am I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
( I love you I love you I love you I love you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

You're everything I am oh yeah
With everything I am

i got from a friend

2010-07-09T03:17:00.001-07:00

hadith: “No person who spreads nameemah (malicious gossip) will enter Paradise" - according to commentary this includes the one who speaks it and the one who listens to it. jumah mubarak

i hate that i love you

2010-07-06T06:49:00.003-07:00

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand ya
Most everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for a while?

No, but you won't let me
You upset me, girl, and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
Said, I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
[ Hate That I Love You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you, girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me, yay

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so, so

pity u cant erase the post from my memory!!

2010-07-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

you gave me a ring and said the day i stop loving u i should throw it away !!!!! well its gone !!!

how do you leave the one you love behind

2010-07-05T15:22:00.000-07:00

Its all good and well acknowledging the one you love but what good is it when u aren;t able to share you life with them?

we all speak of those we loved ( plural not meaning we loved more than one in this case) and how we wish we were with them and how our lives would be if we just kept them... I now write this for all those with their loved ones.... the saying let them go and if they return it was meant to be... or when they say distance makes the heart grow fonder!! it only pushes them further away... no matter what u are or who u are.. the minute the one has made a life for himself and started doing his own things..... even though she may be on his mine he is never coming back... so you love birds.. don't let each other go coz true love shouldn't need to be tested.... the only test is to see how long it last !!

i tell a million people i have moved on with a smile on my face but a tear in my heart.... i havent changed my routine....

funny story this.... off topic but just adding it because i dont have a headline for this post :P
i knew this guy who said he never went boxing while we were together only before and after... and once while we were together but rumour is he used to be their often :P funny how i was called the liar !! any whoo

i love germany !!!!

one statement .....

2010-07-01T13:25:00.001-07:00

promise?

2010-07-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

I should allow you to keep your promise? when did i stop you from keeping your promise ? im so confused !!!!!

blog post

2010-06-30T11:12:00.001-07:00

why? i cant even explain my feelings

The Ugly Truth

2010-06-15T17:30:00.000-07:00

so ... this isn't a review on the movie, but rather a realization ....
ever since Walt Disney movies girls are programmed to want their perfect prince, with good values, and perfection, but that's not our soul partner. We are so caught up in looking for that stable guy we will change without even realizing it just to make them want us...

our prince is the imperfect one, the one where u wont know whats gonna happen next and u can't know how it end...
Girls recheck ur checklists :P

....

2010-06-03T14:32:00.003-07:00

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I’m afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you’re beautiful
And it’s nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don’t give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

http://www.elyricsworld.com/what_do_you_want_from_me_lyrics_adam_lambert.html
(So I) just don’t give up
I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, i won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me