EDDIE'S LIFE: A SOUL SURVIVOR

THESE DAWGS DON'T BITE

2011-12-04T15:23:00.000-08:00

THE score was 10 to 0 in the s.e.c. championship game here at the GEORGIA dome and i thought that maybe just maybe the Georgia bulldogs would actually pull it off, i was thinking that this time they would win a big game. Nice thought, first of all it should have been 21-0 in the first half but then the dawgs started to become what they are, mediocre. It's unbelievable that Georgia is thinking of extending the contract of the current coach for 5 years! what!! I'm here at the CORNER BAKERY about to fall outta my seat laughing, can you imagine if the coach at L.S.U. ALABAMA or U.S.C. asked for a 5 year extension after not winning a damn thing for 10 years? what!!! But it seems to me a 9-3 record is o.k. for the people of this state, they don' mind being mediocre. Oh well, I made a vow on my birthday to fast at least once a week for the next year and i really feel good after i do, i guess its because i slow down and I'm not running so fast all day long thinking of what to eat. Getting ready for the finals, I've already taken one, it was a 100 questions long! whew! but i got through it. Well my buddy HERMAN CAIN had to drop out i was hoping that he would stay in but once again a woman has brought a good man down, and they love it. But you know what they say, 'you can't keep a good man down'

THE GREATEST MIRACLE IN THE WORLD

2011-11-27T16:01:00.000-08:00

THAT'S the book i just finished, almost, i have 3 more pages. Ever read a book and you didn't wanna finish cause it was so good? well this book is only 108 pages but its taken me about 4 days to read it, i keep putting it down to contemplate what I've just read. Rag-pickers, that's such a novel idea that one day i would like to be one, i know about having to pick yourself off the floor and start all over. I found this little book here at the shelter along with an advanced uncorrected proof copy of 'STORMY WEATHER' about the life of LENA HORNE. This has been a treasure, so inspiring, so informative and motivating especially in the end where he talks about going the extra mile, i also like when he talks about our mind, the part on page 24 where he quotes the author of as a man thinketh "a man's mind is like a garden which may be intelligently cultivated or allowed to run wild, but whether cultivated or neglected, it would produce". Feeling kinda sad that the long holiday weekend is over, i gave thanks. Getting ready for the final exams I'm studying my butt off but i could do a lot better. I was studying at STARBUCKS today with all the kids from GA TECH, man a lot of these kids study 4 and 5 hours straight! wow! i can't, after 2 hours i gotta take a break.

MY ZOO CLASS

2011-11-20T13:54:00.000-08:00

I swear i don't see how any instructor at this school teaches, this place is a zoo. Example, in my math class this little old white lady is trying to explain this complicated geometry problem when this sistah who came in late told the professor 'i don't understand this shit' the professor says 'maybe if you came to class you could better understand' she promptly cursed-out the teacher, i went by her office and asked her why she didn't call the police? In this same class a couple behind me is holding a very loud conversation and this little old lady is turning red in the face. Meanwhile in the back of the class a lesbian and a young man are competing for the favors of this pretty young girl, the other day the young man won-out he and the young lady left in the middle of class, today the lesbian seem to be wining. that's not all, we have a 350lb man in the back of the class who ask a stupid question one minute an 2 minutes later is snoring so loud we have to wake him up to continue class. And you wonder why black students rank last among all racial groups? wonder no more.

A BAD DECISION

2011-11-13T15:45:00.000-08:00

YES, It was a very bad decision for the coach of the ATLANTA FALCONS to go for it on 4th down in overtime on your end of the field! unbelievable!! why? oh well, the T.V. went out at the shelter so i had to keep up with the game on my computer, it wasn't bad, kinda fun. Its the end of a beautiful day, i attended a very good A.A. meeting this morning, the topics was about our relationships with our families. One guy who shared about his relationship with his father brought me to tears, he talked about how he didn't appreciate his father and never told him and now that he's passed how much he regrets it. He talked about how his father did nothing but work hard and provide for his family and that somehow he thought that wasn't good enough. i don't ever remember me or anyone telling my DAD how much we appreciate him and thank you DAD for being a great father, mother got all the credit, and still does. Not one of his children attend his church or practice his faith, we all followed mother, which now i can understand he didn't mind at all, he needed a break. I took video of some army soldiers who had walked 48 miles and were still walking when i saw them!! wow! happy veterans day!

IT WAS TIME JOE

2011-11-10T09:17:00.000-08:00

JOE PATERNO, long time coach of PENN STATE has been fired. 10 years too late in my opinion. It was selfish for him to hold on this long and stupidity for the school to go along. It really hurts me to see my buddy HERMAN CAIN twist in the wind like he has this past week. my professor and classmates had fun watching his accusers press conference, i like the part about her hotel room being 'upgraded' by HERMAN. I like HERMAN, he's a real man, something you don't see a lot of these days. I was talking to a young man the other day about how he was wearing his pants, I ask him "as a man why would you ever wanna bring attention to your behind? why?? thats what women do! makes me wanna vomit. Tomorrow is veterans day and i've promised myself i want be a hog like last year, when i ate myself sick with all of the restaurants serving vets free. I gotta get outta here cause they're serving vets here at the school with a big meal at noon. SAINTS VS FALCONS here at the dome, its gonna be a good one.

MY ENVY

2011-11-05T16:45:00.000-07:00

ITS a beautiful fall night here and I'm sitting in a restaurant called the CORNER BAKERY tapping on my new DR DRE H.P. ENVY COMPUTER. wow! life is good! I'm so happy to have my own computer! an a premium one at that, man! There's so much to talk about, so much that i wanna talk about, HERMAN CAIN, bullying, the pretty girl in my humanities class who reads at 7th grade level, the guys at the shelter who hate the news, it goes on and on. But i think I'll just talk about how blessed i am, because i have so much to be thankful for, after all its getting to be the season to give thanks. I love this time of the year the weather is crisp and clean and i get to put on my BILL COSBY sweater that I'm wearing now. I forget that i can actually send you a picture or video right now, i have a web-cam, i just don't know how to use it yet. Well I'd better get going I'm gonna try to get a work-out in before i go in. HERMAN CAIN 2012!! OH! I almost forgot! the fantasy 5 is 500,000 tonite!! and one of my #s is 6,7,11,12,31. give me my birthday present!! give it up!!!!

H. P. ENVY AND DR DRE-BEATS

2011-10-24T13:51:00.000-07:00

IT'S A MIRACLE!! I just won a brand new computer and studio headphones!!!! wow!! in august i entered a contest at lenox mall where they took my picture and gave me a tee-shirt i thought nothing of it when i filled out a paper about a contest with a chance to win a computer and studio head-phones by DR DRE! lo and behold i get a letter telling me I'm the winner!! yeah right, i didn't respond, the lady e-mail me again telling me that this is not spam and to give her my address, i did. I go and check my mail today and OMG!! WOW! ITS A MIRACLE!! i kept repeating over and over OMG!! man I've been needing a computer for so long!! and now I've got a top of the line H.P. ENVY DR DRE beats computer with the $600 beats studio headphones. WOW!! the professor says the package is worth around $2500!! wow!! my only problem now is how do i keep other peoples hands off of my miracle. especially since i live in a homeless shelter. man. but I'm grateful, THANK YOU GOD!!! now i don't have to wait on a computer at the library i can use mine whenever i want. WOW!! THANK YOU GOD!!! THANK YOU!!OH! the fantasy 5 tonight is 425,000! my# are 5, 10, 12,18 31. do you believe in miracles! I not only believe in em, I depend on em! the POWERBALL WED IS 175,000,000 WOW! and I'm in line for another blessing! another MIRACLE!!!

THE WRONG HEROES

2011-09-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

WHY? i wonder in the black community do we celebrate black criminals. WHY? i just don't understand it. from O.J. to M.J. to TROY DAVIS, to the man in PHILADELPHIA accused of killing a cop, and to TOOKIE WILLIAMS in CALIFORNIA it seems that ours heroes are thugs and accused and convicted murderers, WHY? I remember while living in LOS ANGELES in the mid-90's when convicted killer TOOKIE WILLIAMS was schedule to die, the head of the N.A.A.C.P. rode out to the west coast on a private jet trying to stop his execution! there were so many black celebrities speaking on behalf of this man i can't even start to name em, some of the biggest names in show business and politics. here was a man convicted of killing 4 people, a 7-11 clerk, who he shot execution style in the back, then he kills 3 more people during a robbery at a motel. and he's a hero? WHAT!! and that's not the worst thing that he did , not even close!! this thug started a street gang (the crips) who's responsible for the killing of thousands of black men, just during the period that i was living in LOS ANGELES. THOUSANDS. so why are these people celebrated? i just don't understand it. here at school they have posted these free TROY DAVIS posters all around as if its a given that we oppose his execution, I DON'T!

DOROTHY DANDRIDGE

2011-08-29T13:14:00.000-07:00

A BIOGRAPHY is the name of the book I'm reading by DONALD BOGLE, I'm on page 366 and so far I've come to the conclusion that ms DANDRIGE was a whore. I'M sorry, but that's all i can say, i know that a beautiful black women in the 40's 50's had to sleep with the rich and powerful to get ahead but according to this book DOROTHY is sleeping with just about every and any white man in the industry even though some refuse to be seen with her in public or during daylight hours, wow!. I also resent how she's treating her father, her father did not desert the family, her mother did, yet she refuses to meet him when she goes home to perform in CLEVELAND, not only did her mother break up the family she runs off with another woman! a woman who abuses Dorothy and her sister with horrible beatings and even stick her finger inside Dorothy to see if she's still a virgin, unreal! and she hates her dad?? what!! Well I'm back in school and again i have a full load (15 units) i have some very interesting classes. I'm about to run outta money, man its was so good having money for the last month, i spend money like crazy i have no discipline when it comes to money yesterday i spent 20 dollars just on food and i didn't eat any meat, unreal! I spend all my money on food and lottery tickets and I'm on the fantasy 5 tonite cause its 420,000$$$ and I'm all over it, one of my numbers is 9,14,16 31,32. luck be a lady tonite!!!!

BROADCASTING MYSELF

2011-08-20T14:41:00.000-07:00

I STARTED off in LOS ANGELES with a tape recorder then i got a digital voice recorder and in ATLANTA i purchased a video camera and now I'm making full use of it. I'm on youtube. yeah baby!!
i know how to upload my videos, so man its gonna be a gas, the only setback is my teeth they look horrible!! oh well, I'll get em fixed real soon. my nephew ROY JR just had a massive heart attack yesterday so I'm praying for him he's few years younger than me. I'm kinda hungry from not eating any meat but i feel better, my brother and nephew is motivation enough to keep me going. gotta go the library is closing

PENNY PRIDE

2011-08-15T09:31:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY, yesterday, i went to BUCKHEAD to grab a bite to eat, if you been following me you know that i'm going without meat this month for the first time in my llife. just one question before i get to what i wanna talk about, is it o.k. for a vegeterian to eat fish?? or can you be a vegeterian an eat fish? well i hope so cause yesterday i had some fish, and it was good. anyway i finished eating and walked to the corner to get on the bus when i got on the bus i walked to the back and had a seat, well in the seat beside me was a big pile of pennies, just sitting there, so i ask the sistah who was sitting next to em if they were hers, she shook her head with prideful 'NO' as if pennies was so beneath her, wow! and none of the other folk in the vicinity would even look my way as i was asking about the pennies. WHAT! these are not rich folk, not by a long shot, were on the bus o.k? so i proceded to pickup and count the pennies and put em in my pocket, it came to 57, 57 cents and no one on a public transit bus would dare put em in their pocket. what!! unbelievable!! and i'll bet you 57 cents that half of these people didn't have 5 bucks in their pockets! being homeless and poor myself for the last 5 years i know see why poor people are poor. their dumb and lazy! with a bad attitude to go with it. i'm gonna be blessed real soon as a matter of fact i'm allready blessed i have a healthy body, mind, and spirit. i'm gonna play the lotto with these pennies, as a matter of fact i've already picked up my numbers this morning, i'm on the fantasy 5 tonight its 300,000 i'm also on the pick 4 and mega, my numbers are 23-25-34-42-46. MB 21 I'm telling you right now GOD is gonna bless me for picking up those pennies. i may not when tonight but i'll tell you what, i'm in line for my blessing!

A MEATLESS MONTH

2011-08-03T10:45:00.000-07:00

ITS AUGUST and its hot!! a great time to fast and abstain from meat. becoming a vegetarian has always intrigued me but I've never tried it, I've decided to try it just for this month, also I've decided to fast every MONDAY and TUESDAY of this month and I'm thinking of making this a permanent part of my lifestyle. next year i plan to not eat meat from MAY1st to OCT 1st just to clean out all the junk i put in my system during the winter months. I'm going meatless this month in honor of my oldest sibling who passed away last week, he was a very accomplished man who did a fantastic job of raising a family, more about ROY after the funeral, a funeral that i cannot make and that sickens me, i just can't afford it and that in itself is embarrassing and shameful, but it is what it is. I haven't been able to sleep a lot since i heard of his death, by the way i heard of his passing on facebook so that should tell you something right there. I'm doing well in school its almost over(next week) so I'll get a break for a couple of weeks, I've learned so much about computers this summer, its amazing what these machines can do, navigating facebook and your e-mails is using only about 5% of the computer's capability, wow! well there's one way that i may be able to attend my brothers funeral and that's the lottery, the powerball is 160 million$$$ tonight and I'm all over it my#'s are 1,13,19,21,48 pb21 if i hit i'll call my family and say HOLD THE FUNERAL! HOLD THE FUNERAL!! i'm coming baby! i'll be there!!

THE NATIONAL BLACK ARTS FESTIVAL

2011-07-18T09:45:00.000-07:00

I had a great time at the N.B.A.F. yesterday it was a beautiful day i was right down front sitting on the grass enjoying the great view. the jazz was wonderful, what i noticed about the mostly black crowd was that no one was smoking and no one got drunk and no one was using profanity. it was a different class of people that I'm around these days. well I'm off my forced fast, i didn't realize that i had lost 7 pounds that fast. man! but i have to learn to not panic when I'm forced into change, i have to learn to not panic when i don't have food to eat or a place to sleep and to have faith that everything is gonna be alright, its gonna turn out o.k. I'm not gonna die just relax and let life flow. i believe being worried is not only bad for your health its a sign of weakness and mental instability. i know my spirit is hurt by it. let go and let GOD. the test is, its easy to say now cause I'm full but i need to practice this when I'm hungry and i have to sleep on the concrete like i did the night of the 10th.

STARVING STUDENT

2011-07-06T09:54:00.001-07:00

MAN am i hungry! I'm starving! i ate a big meal on the 4th at the A.A. clubhouse and it was good, we're supposed to make a donation but i didn't have anything to put in the basket, the man look at me kinda funny and i felt bad but i just didn't have it. so i get in line for the food and I'm loading up cause i don't know when I'll eat again i love bar-b-Que beans and i put so many on my plate until this girl behind me commented "my god you must be hungry" she thought i was just being greedy, its terrible when you eat for the next day because you eat too much and that's not good, i kept going back, i ate 2 hamburgers and a hot dog with plenty of beans and potato salad. you know I'm hungry cause I'm sitting here writing and thinking about food. well my food stamps come TUESDAY thank GOD. if i can just make it till morning I'll have some breakfast at this church that serves at 6:00 on Thursday and Friday. I'm reading SUGAR RAY LEONARD'S new book and its good, i didn't know that he had such a drug and alcohol problem. gotta go to my class.

UNDER THE STARS

2011-06-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

That's where i slept last night and it was not a camping trip at least not by choice. I had to choose between sleeping and getting my homework done, i chose to get caught up on my school-work i don't wanna fall to far behind. It was tough, i walk around till about 2:30 am and finally caught some sleep on a bus bench at the civic center train station. It was a rough day, first they cut the lock on the locker that i was keeping illegally at the gym, i was keeping a lot of my belongings there so i wouldn't have to drag them around all day, it was really convenient, now my bag is twice as heavy so I've had to downsize and give away some nice sandals that were given to me on Saturday. its gonna be a tough 2 weeks cause my food-stamps have run out and i can't get to the soup kitchens because all of my classes are during the day, I'm taking a full load this summer (17 units) and I'm struggling trying to keep up, all of the work including the home-work is submitted online on Microsoft word, and i don't know a damn thing about Microsoft office. oh well. I gotta get to the shelter on time today cause i can't go without sleep 2 days in a row, i gotta try to make it till Thursday because then the place will be empty on the 1st when people get their checks, unbelievable.

THE PLAYBOY JAZZ FESTIVAL!!!

2011-06-19T14:29:00.000-07:00

FATHERS day has not been the same since i left LOS ANGELES, for 23 years straight every fathers day i would be at one of the most beautiful events in the world the PLAYBOY JAZZ FESTIVAL at the HOLLYWOOD BOWL given by HUGH HEFNER publisher of PLAYBOY magazine. MY fathers day now are empty especially since i don't have a relationship with my children, oh well guess I'm not the only one. but man do i ever miss the PLAYBOY! this is my 5th straight year of not being there and each year i say well maybe next year. The P.J.F. has some very memorable moments in my life, life-changing moments. It was at the the playboy were i relapsed but i shouldn't say relapse because i never was in a program or in the fellowship as i am now. the Saturday before fathers day 2004 i saw this beautiful Mexican girl that i had been chasing, this girl had actually been to my house and refused my advances, pissed me off so i never called again, lo and behold here she is at the festival looking like JENNIFER LOPEZ! wow! and she's drinking some wine!! oh hell! I decided right then and there that i was gonna get her no matter what it took and since she was drinking i decided the the best way to get her home with me would be to drink with her, it worked, but it was one of the worst decisions of my life!! and I'm still paying for it. On that day i had a 70,000 a year job with a credit rating of 750, i was driving a brand new MERCEDES-BENZ and living in the south-bay section of the city, a 10 minute drive to the ocean. That decision cost me all of the above and I'm still stuck in homelessness. we spent a nice weekend together, but that nice weekend has turned into a 7-year nigthmare! oh GOD please haven't i suffered enough? Met this girl in the park today and talked her into giving me a nice fathers day present! until 2 crack heads came along and interrupted her, DAMMIT!! happy fathers day to my dear father WILLIE MATHENEY R.I.P. DAD

A LETTER TO KING JAMES

2011-06-13T14:06:00.000-07:00

DEAR LEBRON, I'm writing you this private letter in response to all the negative and hateful comments that i hear in the media. Today all I'm hearing is that you're a failure, what!! a failure? you mean the guy who's been to the finals twice and the m.v.p. twice and is being compared to MICHAEL and MAGIC and now they're saying you're a failure?? unbelievable. But LEBRON, here's what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid that you may actually start to believe em, you might just start to believe what the haters are saying and that's when the real trouble starts. LEBRON you're no failure, i read just the other day that you made 53 million dollars last year, 53 million! and that was just last year! think of all the money you've earned since turning pro, wow! man you live in a multimillion dollar mansion you drive nothing but the finest automobiles in the world and you're surrounded by friends and family who loves you (tell mom i said hi) man you're living like a king. LEBRON the next time SKIP BAYLESS or anyone else calls you're a failure you tell em to take a look at EDDIE MATHENEY, LEBRON I'm 56 years old and homeless, i slept on the floor at a homeless shelter last night, i have no job, no friends or family and i have exactly one dollar left, one greenback to my name, the only person on this earth who cares about me is the person i see when I'm brushing my teeth. LEBRON i would walk 25 miles in the hot sun just to be in your shoes for one day, just one day!! can you imagine!! relapse! relapse! so LEBRON the next time someone calls you're a failure tell em about me.

BACK TO THE WORLD

2011-06-11T11:15:00.000-07:00

I'M no longer in the nice suburb of CANDLER PARK, I'm back in DA hood. back to sleeping on the floor in the shelter, I'm back downtown. its kinda exciting and depressing at the same time, meaning I'm back in the flow and action of the city but i no longer enjoy the comfort and safety of knowing where I'm gonna sleep and eat everyday. Today i was back on the hustle i got 2 new shirts and then pulled of the t-shirt i was wearing and just left it at the train station cause i have nowhere to store clothes so whatever i find to wear during the day i just discard what i have on. I'm so luck to have a 24-hour gym somewhere i can go shave and take a shower, I'm also blessed to be clean and sober and i thank GOD for the fellowship of A.A. where i can go around friends and get a cup of coffee. I've been living like this for 5 years now i thought that if i stayed sober for this long that i would be living the good life, it hasn't worked out that way, but i thank GOD for my sobriety without it I'd be dead.

THE WRONG WAY

2011-06-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

TWICE! I know what's shared at a meeting should stay at the meeting but i gotta talk about this. a man shared at the meeting the other day that he was stopped by the ATLANTA police dept. drunk while driving the wrong way down a major street here in Atlanta, and the cops let him go!! WHAT!! unbelievable!! it gets worse, a couple of weeks later he gets caught again driving down the wrong way of a street, and yes the cops let him go! again! unreal! these 2 cops need to be fired to say the least maybe even prosecuted, this man could have killed someone! twice! by the way just a little footnote on the driver (shhh...he was white) but i still can't believe it cause there's plenty of whites who go to jail for D.U.I. I met another celebrity at the meeting he's a big time reporter for C.N.N. so now i have someone to pitch my show to, (stop laughing). well i gotta move Thursday so i guess its back to the shelter, back to the filth and stench. oh well.

JOHN BROWN

2011-05-27T10:10:00.000-07:00

SAINT JOHN BROWN, cause that's what he was, i have never known or read about a more christian man than JOHN BROWN, never. if JOHN BROWN is not in heaven then we're all going to hell! he was in my opinion the reincarnation of JESUS CHRIST. he was no ordinary human being, his spirit and soul were special gifts from GOD to be worshiped by those who were blessed enough to know or read about this great man. His big mistake was to think that the people he would die for cared about their freedom as much as he did. The slaves that he freed the night of the raid on HARPER'S FERRY didn't care about their freedom, if black people had hated slavery half as much as JOHN BROWN slavery would have ended 200 years earlier. you can lead a horse to the water but you can't make him drink. this book'JOHN BROWN ABOLITIONIST THE MAN WHO KILLED SLAVERY, SPARKED THE CIVIL WAR, AND SEEDED CIVIL RIGHTS is one of the best books I've ever read and i'm not finished. its a beautiful day and I'm on my way to the gym, I'm getting buffed baby!

JUDGEMENT DAY

2011-05-21T11:38:00.000-07:00

THIS is it! this is the last day on earth, so what am i doing on my last day on earth? in in the library. actually its suppose to end at 6pm, what i did was buy me a powerball ticket and played my usual #21 except this time it has a lot more meaning. a friend of mine from JAMAICA says that a church in JAMAICA baptised 1,000 people because they wanted to be ready for this day. wow! so a lot of people really believe this stuff. I had a nasty argument this morning at the shelter i finally grew tired of this clown going unanswered every morning, trouble is i might get kicked out tonight because the manager heard me cursing this fool out. oh well, my time is almost up anyway. (June 9th) at least its not cold. who cares since the world is ending tonight? can you imagine the chaos if most people believed this? no woman would be safe! and what a party! wow! talk about relapsing and going to LAS VEGAS! MAN! alright stop it EDDIE. the lottery is 120 million tonight wow! DIE RICH!!

5 YEARS!

2011-05-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

ITS been 5 long tough years but i made it. I can't believe its been that long. I've been through a lot in those 5 years and i'm still going through it, 5 years sober and I'm still homeless even though i have a place to lay my head at night, i don't have a lease. I failed my compass test again this morning even after spending a whole month studying, it hurts. I thought i had it licked but i missed the cut-off score by 6 points. I'll just have to try again. I'm reading a great book now about highly successful people who repeatedly failed. I had jury duty this week and at first i hated the idea because i was in the middle of studying for the compass and this shit pops up! wow! so i go to court hoping I'm not picked out of 50 people, you know what happened? i got picked. I should have lied like some of the other people and said that i couldn't be impartial to a guy being accused of burglary. the guy sitting next to me told the judge that he couldn't be fair to a man who is representing himself. this was a 25 year old black man being accused of burglary, assault, domestic violence, and doing harm to a child i forget the official charge. anyway i was picked and the trial began, the prosecution talked and talked about the victim and finally got set to bring her out, were all sitting there waiting to see her, 9 whites and 3 blacks including myself. Out comes this blue-eyed blond! WOW! I almost fell outta my seat and i could tell the whites on the jury damned near had a heart-attack, were talking about conservative suburban upper- middle class whites, the guy next to me is the C.E.O. of a very big company. it was unbelievable, just amazing, well it turns out and this guy some how got it in that she was arrested in LAS VEGAS for prostitution, he met her at CHEETAHS. during brief moments of the trial the young man actually was doing O.K. but he needed an attorney badly. I suspect he fired his attorney because he insisted he plea bargain. I don't blame the guy because he had a good case. another juror and i finally folded our hands and agreed to the burglary charge but we all agreed he was not guilty on the other charges. more on this later, gotta go!

BACK TO BASICS

2011-03-22T13:16:00.000-07:00

I HAVE started all over in algebra, I've had to go all the way back to the beginning, but you know what I'm learning and I'm studying everyday. The typical day since i moved to candler park is they wake us at 5am, we go in watch the news and drink some coffee and eat a light breakfast, i love the fact that i can get up in the morning and catch the news, sometimes before i wouldn't know what was going on in the world until i got to the library. WE do some light cleanup and then they take us on this van to various parts of the city, i attend my 7:30 am A.A. meeting to get my day started right and then i head off to the gym. I wanna tell you the gym is the best investment that I've made since I've been in this city, i love it! not only do i get to shower everyday i get to work-out among like-minded people, normal people who are not homeless and are not hooked on any drugs and actually care enough about themselves to wanna be healthy people, people with jobs and careers who are working hard and striving. I'm working hard to get my body in shape, i wanna be looking good for the summer, speaking of summer! its 80 degrees outside! wow! it feels great!. after i leave the gym i head to school and hit the books. we have to be in by 6pm which i don't like but that's o.k. at least now I'm sleeping in the same bed everynight in a nice clean enviorment, there's a lot of rules but oh well, that's the way it goes. They feed us like crazy! so much food until I'm not hungry during the day. i know eating a lot of food and laying down is not good but i make sure i work it off on the treadmill and bike. I tried to get my teeth fixed today ( i need a new partial) but the v.a. said i didn't qualify " you maybe homeless but you're not in a homeless program" WHAT! but I'm homeless! "we don't care" they tell me they will see me only if I'm in pain. that's horrible. i have another option that I'll work on. but who knows i might never need the v.a. cause the lottery tonight is 244 MILLION!!!! and I'm all over it! my mega ball # is 44! so if it comes in baby you'll know I'm a rich ass!

FAILED

2011-03-15T12:08:00.000-07:00

WILLIE JOE, an older brother of mine use to tell me stories of guys flunking out when he was in college. when they could no longer make the grade they would give them a comic book and an apple and drive them to the bus station and send them home. Well i feel like I've been given my comic book and apple, I'm still around but i feel terrible, i totally tanked the test it was horrible. But i have another chance in 6 weeks, i have to get 20 hrs of tutoring and do lots of studying, dammit! oh well. I need a computer like a dead man needs a casket. i have to study by computer and i don't own one, what i would like is a nice brand new APPLE-I-PAD2 man that would be so nice. by the way I'm not the only one who failed, as a matter of fact i don't know of anyone who passed! man! this one girl was trying to blame the instructor for giving us the material too late and the school for not extending the quarter because we missed 2 weeks because of the ice storm, and although these were legitimate complaints i didn't want to storm the administration offices like she suggested and raise hell, who's to say i would have passed with an extra 2 weeks of classes. I do have some good news, i have a place to stay, I'm sleeping in the same bed every night. its a shelter out in the near suburbs in a real nice neighborhood, so nice that they don't want us walking to and from the shelter, they pick us up and take us out in a van. o.k. so that tells you the type of area were in. the food is great, i gotta be careful, but I'm in the gym everyday now and I'm working hard and loving it. isn't it horrible what just happened in JAPAN? man! unbelievable! guess what?? no one's looting. OH! I almost forgot!! the lottery tonight is 175 million$$$ and i'm all over it! my mega-ball # is 44 in honor of the PRESIDENT. so if it comes in #44 you'll know i'm a rich-ass!!

MY BLACK BURDEN

2011-03-08T15:21:00.000-08:00

JANSPORT is the brand name and its my backpack, and man is it heavy! I'm gonna weigh it tomorrow when i get to the gym and i bet its every bit of 50lbs. but since i don't have a locker i have to carry most of my belongings around with me especially my hygiene kit, and now that I've joined a gym i have to carry around my gym clothes and towels which makes it really heavy. its kinda embarrassing also because I'm not only homeless i look homeless. oh well. but hopefully a change is coming maybe as soon as tomorrow, in fact tonight maybe my last night in the shelter, i gotta take a T.B. test in the morning and by tomorrow night i could have a place to stay, at least temporarily. I took a kickboxing class last night at the gym, wow! it was great! i was the only man in the class!! why does this keep happening to me? but I'm loving it! i had a ball, they didn't know the old man could move like that. and man they had some real hotties in that class and in the gym period, this was the first time that i had been there in the evening so all the ladies were out. i gotta keep my cool, you can't really make some time when you don't have a place to stay. one girl asked me 'do you live alone'? not exactly. but who knows I'm on the lottery tonight and its 40 million!! remember i not only believe in miracles i depend on em!!