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blogger mobile apps

2017-02-01T01:34:00.001+08:00

wow,

This mobile apps just allow me to write post and upload photo.

Nothing much I can do it seems.

Is ok. Slowly we improve.

Many things to explore on blogger!

2017-01-19T02:33:00.005+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

This blog has been idle for like a year. And it looks like I am only updating it once a year. ( Think positive, no sighing)

This year, was checking around, and Google just have too many to offer. Many things that I can utilize to discover my talents, find myself. However, I think I might be too lazy to bother, or worse, to learn.

To be honest, I have the thought to continue my study. I want to achieve more salary. I have a feeling that I maybe weak in business, or just plain lazy. Thus, the feeling of insecurities, if I can do well in my studies.

Life in Malaysia now, even in Kuching is not that easy anymore. Need more money. Probably, more money is just to boast my ego. My ego to my family. Probably, inside me, I am just dying to show them that I can buy a new home, or I need a new house for me-self. And this is all yet is about me. I want this, I want that.

Wow, if you ask me a few years back, my answer would be very simple. Funny how it takes 28 year old me (coming to 29 in 2 months) to finally think like what people expects me to do. Been married for almost 3 years, but only now have the sense to think of my future, or think like normal adult my elders have trying to tell me?

*Laugh with me, ha ha ha

Is it too late? I don't really feel it is too late. It is just, now that it just come to me. I not sure why now, and why not earlier.

Probably, the thought of having children makes me think like this. An adult, a proper adult that lives to other people expectation.

But, life is too short to think about it seriously.

What say you?

Oh ya, anyway, I have other blog, which I focus on food, but yet to update. I want to update about lasagna. I am selling lasagna now. I wonder, if i can make proper business plan for my lasagna.

Just hope everything goes well (too lazy to pray).

Sigh (think positive). What am I hardworking on? *Looking at the blurry future ahead.

Just that, AlhamdulIllah, Allah loves me regardless of who I am. Allah provides me many things I need, even though I am one of the worst servant of Allah.

Another thing about me, not many people know I am a Muslim. Or they know, but hate to believe it. Or they just don't care. Or they are frustrating. Life is frustrating in a way. How it ended up like this, let it be my secret between me and my Creator.

Last time, I can talk about spiritual things with a friend. But now, I still feel that spiritual thingy, is just that, it is not something that can be told to anybody. Even last time, only 1 friend applied. How I miss to talk spiritual thing. Let me just being judge-y, it is more that I can't talk about it because the community I am in now are more judge-y, loves to judge and even before you start to speak, they already judge you in their mind. The person that I can talk to, that I feel light, is very far away, in terms of time, space, location, deen, imaan, in Malay I can say darjaat.

Wow, I am definitely straying from my initial post. Alright, time to sleep.

May Allah grant me another day to blog tomorrow, InsyaAllah.

Assalamualaikum.

'It is true that money can buy rice, but if you don't have reason to buy rice, what good is in money'

2016-06-04T02:56:00.003+08:00

i make awesome quote on money and love just now..it is so awesome and 20% original.

'It is true that money can buy rice, but if you don't have reason to buy rice, what good is in money'

naaah, but i think, at least more money i can buy more things for myself...but then again, stuffs nowadays is expensive af...

maybe, i should pray harder to God to grant me sustenance, and patience....

pray out of sincerity? only solihin can do that...me is far from 1% a solihin is...

i don't know much, but i think many of us pray, to have more money, more kids, more wife, prettier face, macho muscle, straight As, good life, good/ salih children...i think, praying out of sincerity, is the hardest thing...don't you think so? even love other human out of sincerity, i still find it hard...a little bit inside, is there is still a wanting of things..like, i love you so much but you have to be loyal only to me...i love my son, and i will love him as much and i hope/ want he grow like this, that....

it is not fair for the other people, and when they rebel, we ourselves will feel it is unfair to us.

Playing

2013-10-31T19:25:00.001+08:00

Wow.

It has been a very long time since I did not update my online diary.

What there is to write anyway?

Hahaha

Tentang rasa - Astrid

2013-10-31T19:08:00.000+08:00

Lirik

Aku tersesat
Menuju hatimu
Beri aku jalan yang indah
Ijinkan ku lepas penatku
‘tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Tentang cinta yang datang perlahan
Membuatku takut kehilangan
Ku titipkan cahaya terang
Tak padam di dera goda dan masa

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

http://liriklagu4u.com/lirik-lagu-tentang-rasa-astrid-ost-nada-cinta/

2013

2013-05-17T10:29:00.001+08:00

Its been a year since i left out my blog...i've travelled far and wondered far into an adventure that i never thought i would...

Too many stories that i can tell about myself. But for now, let it only be for me and time to enjoy my story. Let it be.

Somewhere in Life

2012-02-02T02:43:00.000+08:00

It has been ages since I last updated my personal blog. My food blog also have been long forgotten. I've been busy with friends, work and families since last I updated my blog. I have many input for food blog, but let me get to that later.

I just want to share to the world how I feel now. Been very busy, and I just don't feel like I want to sleep regardless of many shots that I've taken in one of the boss' house during our visit for Chinese New Year. I think, if i just stay put, close my eyes, I would have doze off easily.

Now, once again I am struggling with adult life. I am falling into different kind of Eros love. This one is less pure (I think). I got jealous, but somehow I can get pull myself together and not destroying any relationship around me. Its been an agonizing pain since I realize that I do, have fallen into another pit hole.

I tell you why it is more agonizing than ever.

One, he always look at people. I also always look cautiously at people. I know every stare; I can differentiate lust, jealousy of other people, anger, intimidation. That is how I keep out from further stabbing people, unless when I want to. He, well, he also stares when he looks. I always move my head, and my eyes to see life, to see drama and to see people. But when I look at him, trying to get some drama, he also looking at me, trying to watch drama. That is what I think. But I pull that thought away from me for the reason I could not see his eyes looking at me at the same time I watch is because I did not wear my glasses. Moreover, now I think his eyes getting smaller, and my sight are going worse.He likes to watch as I like to watch. He is also observant as I do. I don't mind that. At some point, I think that the way he watch me is the same as the way he watch other people, like me watching other people, that is to capture some real life drama.

But, what I could not stand, is a butterfly that I feel in my stomach, or somewhere inside me when he really look deep into my eyes. I feel vulnerable. I could not fight that stare sometimes. Sometimes I feel bittersweet, sometimes I feel intimidated. Or, is it really butterfly in my stomach, or butterfly in my heart? But I do feel sometime inside me stirred.

Then, this felt jealous for the really first time! I could not believe it. Even though I did liked someone for the past few years, and quite a long time, but I never felt jealous. This is the very first person. I breath is as if it was taken away, it stuck somewhere in my chest, my head start to spin, my eyes get blurry, and everything gets blurry. I catch my breath each time he is with someone. And I can feel that I holding my breath every time he pass by me.

I can tell you all about him, but I guess all I want to share here is that butterfly and the jealousy and his killer stare. But, I have my own exit plan. I don't know if there will ever be something between us. I only can let God to plan for me. I decided to not to do anything about it, or I'll let future Prez to think (haha, HIMYM line). My exit plan, is this cute customer. Now, every time this pain come like a sickness, automatically my brain will slide this cutie.

Haha.

LoL.

Now that I am going to end this post, my last thoughts are "I think my heart knows what I need, but my brain keeps me to what i want." "Which thoughts really do matter?"

Na, I think I am going to resolve by saying "Just give it to God, He knows best, let Him decide". There is one movie I watched, which I forgot, says "That is only for p***s*! If you really want it, then get it and fight for it. Don't just wait and watch!"

Yeah, I could not agree more. But if only I knew how to actually fight for it. I am a bit scared that I fight for the wrong reason.

Anyway, if only I knew. I really have no idea how to handle.

OK. Nice. Going to sleep. Goodnight.

But

i LOvE U

2011-12-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

...

LoVE that is not co-related

2011-11-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

Tonight, I want to share about love.

There are many things that we can say about love. First of all, I would like to express love for my country, and my state.

This is to make myself clear. I have posted some nationalistic point-of-view of me in my post. I love my country, and sometimes I get a bit over myself when discussing about this. I really do feel this burning desire to speak up and actually do something about it. But I guess, it was suppressed by things that happens, and I have changed a lot in my mind, spirit, the way of thinking and some change in heart and plans. So now, I am not in that fire mood or to be too keen on writing for all that stuff. It makes me tired, and I don't feel that my voice is heard. When I wrote those intellect-like-article, I felt confident about it. I thought I did a great job by writing it. And now, I realise, nobody wants to read it. Even I do not feel that I want to look at it again and read all the comment. Deep within me, I feel embarrassed by those thing that I did.

This journey helps to make me decide, that I do not want to do posts and articles such in 'Borneo Youth Declaration', or 'Brain Drain & Brain Gain', or about how my country should this, or should that, or some people should this or that. I don't have enough courage to face the consequences. I would prefer and like to stay low, and write something which is fictional, anonymous but effective. Or it does not have to stay effective, as long as I feel 'me' in my writing, and still have that anonymous aura my own writing. Let the issue be there, but indirectly. It may be coward, but that is the only way I know to actually write something. I don't really care if nobody read it. It may be better that way.

How is this related to my love for my country? It is related, but I like to keep it anonymous, to protect myself, because whatever I said, according to the law, will be used against me in the court if anything would happen. (hahaha)

However, I would like to express my love to something more intimate. Love for another. But i would like to save it for another post. I am pretty tired now, and will be visiting ship with someone this morning later on, and need some sleep.

(looks like this post is more to statement that a sharing from me)

Another thing, my now on, I want to erase all y association with TLS. I am not proud of my extension to the matter that occur after the TLS. The program does do me good, but my action for writing about it, more on to how I wrote it, is not something I proud of. It will still be inside this blog, but I would not touch that matter again.

Good night everyone

*kisses*

How I learn to blog?

2011-03-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

After two heavy entries that I have wrote (about BYD and Brain Drain, TLS - I have more actually, but my brain is drained enough), tonight I decided to blabbering and talk gibberish :D , which I love. The reason I start a blog, and the reason why I don't really want my blog to have readers :D :D :D (big smile on the face). When I talk gibberish, it is because it is personal, and some might say useless entry, because all I blab is about this and that. But some entry before this, which I admit purposely wrote to share innocent heartwarming experience that I grasp from my own memory (Playing in the Rain, Journey to Uncertainties), some are religious, (Rosary session, Noah's journey), some information(uTorrent) and bits of things.

Tonight, just now, there was a session with YB Larry Sng (I look up his picture on google, very different from what I have actually see). Oh, by the way, I am actually looking up my ADD MATHS F5 book to learn back how to analyze graph, but the topic was actually in the F4 Maths book (my time). Why do we have two maths subject?

So, I have took pictures with many amazing leaders. Which makes me wondering. Before that, there are some topics that we chatted about I don't really understand. I understand more on Prof. Oseroff's session during TLS, maybe because I am from science background, and I was really fascinated by the session (:D). I understand bits on the situation that we chatted on, and some figures, some people... etc etc

But ya'know. I am wondering, those people meet big guys. Meet politician, sit next to PM, CM, etc. etc. Some do big things. Go to Youth Rally, Conference, etc etc. I never do that. And I've been thinking, what am I doing all this time? I don't recall MPP in UMS ever did meet many great awesome people that they should meet. Maybe some. Maybe they did. I don't know. Should I? I really feel I am a little ant in a group of big birds like eagle. But still, I try to defeat my feeling of being the loser, fight my innocent shyness, and fight my way, emotions and etc etc to go see this leaders for myself. I will talk about leadership later in my other entry.

You should be wondering by now. How did I meet this guys? I think it started this way. It is a long way. It is like crawling. It took me a long time. A late achiever, maybe? Then, in 2008, some of my friends blog. I don't blog. I say I don't want to blog. What the he*k is blog? Whatever. But then I started to blog, after Googling it and people say people / teenage blog to express themselves and etc etc. So, I feel like i want to blabbering, and I want people to read that gibberish thing. I think my first blog was in Friendster, but I did not maintain it. Then I went to wordpress, but then I read my friend's entry that we can monetize our blog with blogspot. Money! I was impressed by money that time. Money is good. :D . So, I delete my Wordpress after a few post in blog, because i could not maintain 2 blogs a time, and i think i can use Blogspot easily, even the compose panel is small for me. I prefer use M.Words, then paste it here.

So, I, blog, and maybe after few things, my friend introduce me with Sarawak Bloggers fan page. During 2009 i think, or it was the beginning of 2010. I just 'like' it, with no real intention. I did some digging, but then nothing. At half year towards the end of 2010, I start to dig more in Sarawak Bloggers, and I registered as casual personal blogger. :D. The next year (2011), I read Facebook post from Swak Bloggers about TLS. That is the starting point. I started to write about TLS like I am doing an article or assignment. I want to polish my writing skill. I call myself an aspiring writer in training (long training). I even have some projects in my hand. I have a finished 'cerpen' haven't give to editors, 2 unfinished cerpen and 3 novels of different background and story. I figure out that I want to do it with my own pace.

I am bored already. So I want to spill on what I will be doing in my blog. Now, I am currently in my own project in finding what is so good about the leaders. It was based on the leaders that I have meet personally. I will blog about it later. There will be pictures of me and the leader, and some just picture, and etc etc.

There are so many 'etc's' here right?

I think I have blabbering enough. So, goodbye and until we meet again in my next post. See ya!!
I have read 3 Mitch Albom's book. My fav is "Have a little Faith". I take several years to finish "The 5 people you meet in heaven", months on "Tuesday with Morrie", and just a few days on "Have a Little Faith".

Big Smiles :D. Love. Dream!

What is it about Borneo Youth Declaration (BYD)?

2011-03-22T13:04:00.001+08:00

Borneo Youth Declaration (BYD)

Introduction

Initiated by the organizer of Tomorrows Leader Summit 2011 (TLS 2011), Glenreagh Sdn. Bhd., this declaration was meant to help the voices of the youth in Borneo specifically, and youths over the world to be heard by leaders of various government and NGO’s organization. Quoted from Sarawak Bloggers, BYD is a

“…pre-policy document with actionable items and definable project recommendations. It provides a lasting impact on the day to day lives of the Youth in the ASEAN region. The attendees of the TLS will therefore be eligible to help to shape the future thinking of the generation by putting in their input for the BYD during the TLS, and hence hopefully it helps future generations to have a clearer goal of what they could do for their state, country and region.”

From the organizer itself, BYD is

“…this document will contain the outcomes and decisions reached by those attending and it is envisaged that it will touch upon areas where the youth feel the need to express what directions need to be followed for the sustainable development of theirs and following generations.”

These statements clearly said that the delegates from TLS decide what must be put inside the declaration. The declaration is based on the theme, Developing High Income Youth.

On 20^th March 2011, supposed to be only one and a half hour was allocated for the discussion and adoption of the BYD draft. It does not happen.

What is inside the draft

TOMORROW’S LEADERS SUMMIT

‘DEVELOPING HIGH INCOME YOUTH’

18^th – 20^th MARCH 2011

Borneo Convention Centre Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia

Borneo Youth Declaration

We, the participation of the Tomorrow’s Leaders Summit convened in Kuching from 18^th – 20^th March 2011 in Borneo Convention Centre Kuching, Sarawak Malaysia to discuss on the selected theme of “Developing High Income Youth”. Various speakers from different fields of expertise shared their knowledge and experiences with the participants following which they took part in the group panel discussion that highlighted the goals of the summit.

The guiding principles for this declaration were based on the following objectives:

- To provide a focal point for enhancement of tomorrow’s leader in all fields of endeavor making a positive contribution to the society;

- To enhance and promote this important sector as a requirement for sustained development;

- To gather local experts, leaders and specialist to share their views, knowledge and expertise to develop thought leadership;

- To be an arena for discussion, networking and collaboration to stimulate the growth and development of global youth leadership sector;

- To facilitate the resolution of problems and issues;

- To highlight areas of economy value and to facilitate the required investment into the future; and

- To facilitate the exchange of information and to coordinate global cooperation.

The participants attended multi-disciplined workshops and the Youth Transformation Lab where they made the following recommendations:

· Establish a common ground to address the educational imbalance between the generations by providing the youth with various structural leadership platforms that will involve them in the decision making process.

· Acknowledge and develop the economic value of young people in order to generate high income youth.

· Create and develop policies that will promote the role of youth leadership in the democratic process.

· Create and develop sustainable action plans that help to provide equal opportunities for both genders in urban and rural areas for the development of high income youth.

· Create awareness among the young people with an emphasis on social media to spread knowledge and skills with the use of local, regional and global programs to assist in addressing the potential growth of high income youth.

· Provision of entrepreneurship development opportunities and necessary resources to the youth by all the stake holders.

· Ensure efficient and functional budgetary provision to create training and mentoring centers that will enable youth to develop the skills that will allow them to participate in knowledge economy.

· Enable youth to overcome barriers and promote their participation in a borderless knowledge market economy through the use of science, technology and innovation.

· Make use of globalization to encourage the development of human capital among the young people which will lead to sustainable development of the community at large and produce high income youth.

· Mobilize and utilize the young people intra and internationally for the improvement and development of their communities of origin to encourage the positive effects of brain gain and repatriation of knowledge resources.

· Assist the youth to identify market gaps and exploit them to help increase the personal. Local income potential while providing necessary goods and services in a sustainable manner.

· Fast track highly capable young leaders who possess the required social, emotional, mental and physical quotas to push them to the forefront so that they can be role models to the youth.

· Take responsibility in using their creative abilities to develop new high income opportunities for themselves.

In conclusion, we the participants of the Tomorrow’s Leaders Summit recognize and acknowledge the importance of youth leaders and the development of high income youth. We also recognize that the implementation of the above recommendations will only be achieved with the support of the public and private sector. However, the success or failure of the implementation of these recommendations ultimately lies with each individual.

-end-

20^th March 2011, Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia.

From what I read and go through this draft and I think most of the youths that attend TLS would agree:

1. Most of the ideas come from the theme ‘Developing High Income Youths’ forum. Questions to ponder on; Do the youths that listen understand the theme clearly or do they have the same idea of the theme with the panelist? Maybe they have different ideas on what they think about the theme.

2. It stated that the recommendation was based on the workshops and Youth Transformation Labs. Weird as none of the youth remembers doing the draft during Youth Transformation Lab, and even the workshops I attend, did not require us to draft an idea and submit them. From what I read, the recommendation was just a gist of our workshop. It does not reflect what we want or what we thought. Most of time, what youths do during the workshop is sit and listen. I did not go to the Youth Transformation Lab, so I hope there is someone outside blog about it, or tell us.

What the youths of Borneo says

However, the youths of Borneo attending the TLS did not agree with the content of the draft. Arguments were made by youths. Majority of the youth feels that they did not involve in making the draft and the efforts in making this a reality are blurry. Some recommendation made by the youths include form a bodies of youths from Borneo to operate the process of the declaration.

The delegates admit that they do not know the procedures in making a declaration. This shows that the youth of Borneo particularly does not want to accept things that they does not understand.

The organizers said that they did mention BYD on the website, expose and advertise about BYD. They even said that they are sorry the delegates did not read the article. I read these articles before the event, but I still think that it is not generous enough; making the youth’s feel that something more has to be done to make BYD a reality.

Websites that mention BYD:

1. http://www.tomorrowsleaders.biz/b-y-d/

2. http://sarawak-bloggers.org/borneo-youth-declaration-at-the-tls-2011/

Many youth agree that early BYD draft doesn’t not reflect what they want. The youths says that:

1. Not many youths involve making the draft.

2. Only a little portion of youths from all over Borneo (with majority from Sarawak), and some from the all over the world are there to discuss it.

3. The draft is too sudden. The youths are not satisfied because for 3 days in the summit, a draft was presented without awareness. During the presentation of the draft, it hits the youth that the presentation is very not appropriate. They are many things should be done. They feel that they don’t even know how to make a declaration. They should know more about the declaration and did not agree right away to whatever people serve them. They feel they should understand the procedures, and a 2 hour discussion is not enough to come out with a declaration that will benefit all.

4. Some people did agree with the recommendation, but they also want to be involve, and would like more youths to be exposed to this issue.

The Borneo Youth Declaration was delayed. No understanding between the youths and organizer were made. Youths agree to have BYD, but not at that moment. Decisions were made, and this is what both parties agreed on:

Another conference for the youth leaders to understand how to develop an international declaration.

1. Proposal research and findings on what the youth really want. This was agreed as there is a lack of understanding of the Youth of Borneo.

2. Set up an executive committee bodies lead by Borneo Youth, members of Borneo Youth and neutral representative.

3. Workshop and training to develop a policy or document in the process of making international declaration

4. Agree that each of the component areas of Borneo has sufficient representation in any committee. (Sarawak, Sabah, Brunei, Kalimantan, Labuan)

These agreements were write by the organizers, however, I did change it a bit ;).

In case you are wondering about TLS:

1. http://www.tomorrowsleaders.biz/

2. http://sarawak-bloggers.org/get-free-passes-to-the-tomorrow-leaders-summit-2011/

3. More link in link (2), there are many bloggers write about TLS, just visit their blogs.

Conclusion.

Frankly speaking, I am aware that there might be not further effort made by the organizer. To organize this kind of thing is not easy. The main organizer has to get sponsors, and have to plan lots of things. I don’t think they expect that this kind of thing will happen. Now they know that they should not play around with Borneo Youths. We can be fierce in protecting our rights.

I personally would like to make BYD a realization, not just for youths in Borneo, but also youths elsewhere, especially those from the developing country and third world country. I am sure that the voice of youths from these countries was not heard by anyone.

So, here I call all the youths to stand united. During the BYD discussion, Youth Works Asia, whose CEO is Mr. Bernard Hor, has given his commitment to help us make this a reality. Now, it is our turn to commit. Will you?

Devotional pages for BYD.

Towards the Realisation of Borneo Youth Declaration.

1. http://www.borneocolours.com/bc-buddy/groups/viewgroup/53-Towards+The+Realization+of+Borneo+Youth+Declaration

2. http://www.facebook.com/pages/Towards-the-Realisation-of-Borneo-Youth-Declaration/197816553585584?ref=ts

leaders of 2-hour group discussion on BYD

one of the youth from UITM speaks his opinion,

Bernard Hor, CEO of Youth Works Asia

2 of the youths leaders, the young women sitting is the spark that leads to the debate

youth from Sabah, founder of borneocolours.com


organizer and the moderator for BYD session.

some of the information might be not correct. If it is not, please comment to correct it. Thank you.

Brain Drain in Malaysia

2011-03-21T02:44:00.001+08:00

Wow. What can I said. This issue actually never occurs to me. Or it did, but I don’t know what people call it. This is one of the workshops that I attend during Tomorrows Leader Summit 2011. The workshop was facilitate by Mr Rau a/l Muniandy. He is someone from MOSTI (Malaysia’s Ministry of Science and Technology), just worked there. Honestly, I don’t really want to be in that particular room. I expect it would be something else, but we discuss something that is serious and hopelessly bland, and I was forced to think like the government during this session. And believe me, I don’t really want to think like a government. Somehow, this issue did create this critical mind in me. I was drawn to blog about it.

The topic starts just like how many other topics start. However, things get heated when we were asked to consider why this phenomenon happens in our country. Most of us in the room did not really into the discussion, but there was this two young women, debate over the rational of the young minds migrated to somewhere else.

Oh yeah, before I go further, let us understand first what is Brain Drain. Brain drain happens when skilled or professional or talented citizen decided to migrate to other country or place for some particular reason. They may go back to their first country, or may not. Nearest examples: there are many talented Malaysian, especially the Chinese, migrated to Singapore. The reasons can be:

1. Personal. Or simply means that they want to live somewhere else.

2. They don’t feel like they belong to the country, or frustrated that the original country is not up to their pace. Or maybe they don’t feel they have the opportunities in the original country, and want to try their luck outside. This may due to political reason.

3. Political stability is one of the causes. Imagine in a place where war constantly happen. We can’t even sleep at night.

4. Safety reason. Throughout the history, many people move from one place to the other because of the natural disaster that might occur without warning. These people wanted to protect their family to a place where natural disaster is not a problem.

5. Getting some experience maybe? From other country before they come back.

6. High income and high currency value (perhaps) in a particular country. This has been the main debate as of why Malaysian student who study outside country did not want to come back to Malaysia. Some people claim that they just want more money.

I am very sure that the list goes on and on. There are so many valid reasons out there. But today, I want to discuss more about the students that was sent and sponsored by the government that refuse to come back to serve in Malaysia. There is a lot of talented Malaysian working at another side of the world until it is crucial for the government to make plans and incentive to get people back to Malaysia. I found this article from a blog that I follow. It somehow relevant to my discussion.

http://www.loyarburok.com/human-rights/why-you-can-i-cannot/why-malaysia/

Back to the two debating young women. Let’s just call them A and B. Both have friends study oversea. They see things differently. I think one of these two young women was studying oversea before, but she came back. I think it was A.

So, A’s argument. She has many friends study oversea, including her. She came back, her friends don’t. She stressed that even though her friends are not yet home, they still love Malaysia and defend that they are the most patriotic or so when talk about Malaysia.

This B girl, does not agree. She said that loving the country is not as same as being patriotic. Personally, I think she does not know what she said. It’s not that I support A’s opinion, but she has to look up what is the difference between being patriotic and being nationalistic. Patriotism and nationalism is two different things. I did not tell her this. Maybe she knows. B thinks, that her friends that does not want to go back to serve Malaysia is selfish, thinks about their own, their backs and their families without consider that the country need their expertise. Then, she continued her statement that, those people would not want to go back to Malaysia because when they return here, they expected their income will be higher than anybody else, because they think they deserve it and they have the experience. If Malaysia did not provide better life for these people, they would not want to come back. Hurm, I remember during the forum, we are labeled as incentive-generation. We need incentive to move forward. What an ungrateful generation, is it not?

Before time was wasted more, they were stopped by the moderator (Cyril Dason) and Mr Rau himself. I wonder if that is the right thing to do. I mean, it is right, but somehow, they way that someone did it (not both of them, just one of them), does not really want to hear us. We just leave that aside.

I did not write this article to give a conclusion, I would rather you make the conclusion yourself. There is not much agreement to this matter during this session as we were stopped as time is so jealous of us. Think what you want to think, and never restrain yourself.

We move on to brainstorming on how to bring back the youth to serve their own country. Mr Rau did share good things, as in what to consider before making a big plan. The process was called the LOGIC MODEL. It consists of step-by-step method on doing the best thing based on resources that we have in hand, and explaining the 4W1H.

1. Input

2. Objective

3. Rational

4. Goal

5. Activity

6. Output

7. Outcome; Short-term (effect on mindset, feeling) , Midterm, Long-term

These steps also relevant when making a major decision in life. I am quite tired, so I guess this is for the night. Hope this scribble does get attention of somebody. It may not be much detail, or maybe a bit boring or not interesting. But I am learning :).

Goodnight.

meet Cyril Dason(left), of Sarawak Blogger, and Mr Rau, of MOSTI

How to write a C.V.?

2011-03-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

Currently, my mind was bothered by this kind of thing. I have a resume, but in Malaysia, we usually use C.V. And guess what, its my fault that I did not read further that what employer wants is C.V. I am that kind of person who lags the most because I just don't know what to put. There is nothing in my life that I excel too much. I am not prefect, in sports I wasn't even the chosen one. One thing that I hate of my high school is there is nothing I can do to show my excellence except study. And that wasn't enough. There are many more students that are smarter than me. I am losing hope now. I have nothing to brag, which makes me wonder, how the heck I can get into an undergrad school? I don't know where in the world I belong this place. I just don't know how all this happens that lead to this. Most of people around me that I know, my classmates during school, or my classmates during my undergrad, is they are prefect, or at least leader, major leader in something. How the heck did I get in there in the first place? If God let that, I don't understand why He did that. He better have good reason. There are some steps that I have planned. It was what I am going to do. Well, it doesn't really include employment, but I will strive to excel until the end of my life. I will use my whole energy for that and that alone, I will win, fail, upset, and excel more. The journey may be rough (I warned myself) but this that is what I am going to do.

Anyway, if this is not what you want from my blog, you can always google "How to write a C.V.". Sorry if u ended up here without gain anything. Anyway, maybe my writing did cheer you up. At least, you know that you are not the only one who are like me, almost a loser, but lost somewhere in the middle. Hanging without hanger. Fuh.

But, I guess its unfair to blame all in my situation. I myself did not really look for job myself. I only send few failing resume, haven't try send C.V. because it was such a headache and heartache. Never mind, I think I have to really start my resume.

Smile always in every situation.

I insert a Wizard of Oz add from Amazon, because, I reminded by the Lion, who is looking for Courage. This novel, really touch me of how all the character go out there, looking for something. The Lion thinks he is a coward, but actually, he is the most brave, because he manage to start that steps to find Courage. Will read it again. So, I just want to share my inspiration.

Campaign!!!

2011-03-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

Hi ya'll!!!

There is this campaign from Says.my. I am a bit late, but still, I want to post it and link it to you.

enjoy!!

Join SAYS.my

What you can gain from the TLS?

2011-03-01T03:20:00.011+08:00

Tomorrow’s Leaders Summit 2011

What?! Oweemgee… Who does not want to be there? There are lots of reasons to be there. You can meet great people; cool guys, cool people, experienced men and women from parts of the world, ready to reveal their recipes to success. Now, who wouldn’t want that? I am pretty exited here. I don’t really know about this event until I was called to click this tiny event forwarded by Sarawak Bloggers on Facebook.

Right now is the time where we the young generation to think ahead for our beloved home, Sarawak and her future in this nation and in the whole globe. During TLS, you will be exposed to the latest trend of the world, so during this particular moment, the globe is at the tips of your hands. You may not know everything from TLS, but you will know something that other people does not know. The power of dream, power of education, and the power of human needs, all will be exposed at TLS by the selected speakers who have been there, done that. If you are one of the youths who keeps wondering, ‘How can I help my country?’, ‘What can I do for my state?’, or ‘What am I going to do with my life?’, now this is the answers to your question. I could not stress more of the benefits and knowledge that you will get just from this full-packed event that is made, just for you. It’s worth the ringgit.

Courtesy from http://newsroom.ucr.edu/news_item.html?action=page&id=2010

Let me inspire you with some great people who will be at the TLS. Professor Douglass D. Osheroff,(picture above) Nobel Prize achiever in Physics, Miss Universe Malaysia Andrea Fonseka, even Our own Chief Minister of Sarawak, Pehin Sri Haji Abdul Taib Mahmud. You don’t need the detail of their achievement (nah), but they can share with you how they lead their life. They tell you stories of how they reach to where they are now. You will also be meeting many young entrepreneurs, notorious leaders (including the ministers, yo!), and notable local artiste! Yes, you can dig up many success recipes from various backgrounds and use it to make your own inspiring journey. One day, maybe YOU will be the one standing up there giving inspiration to young ones way in the future.

I really want to get to TLS! These creative people who organize this event are equally brilliant. Did I mention of amazing workshops and program they are organizing just for us? Yeah, you and me, there will be workshop and off site program on science, technology, fashion, arts, humanity, environment and business all in one day. That is my friend, is just to create a better you, better us. It cannot be better than this. You will definitely change into a leader that you never knew once you attend this prestigious event. Oh yeah, there is a slot, called the Un-Conference. This is great. You can show off your leadership skills and voice out your precious ideas and thoughts to stimulate that young brains.

So why is this big deal about leadership skills? Oh, they are very important. You are your own leader. How you lead yourself will affect not just you, but all that is around you. Leadership taught people to be better person. Some of the leader’s traits are ethical, responsible, hardworking, creative and humble. We want to create a better society where it comprises of each one of us. When we are a better leader of ourselves, we will become strong civilized society. We, you and me are Sarawak’s future and we can shape her future for our children. This is our legacy.

Tomorrow’s Leader Summit? How? What? When? Wait! All your questions will be answered. Go here (www.tomorrowsleaders.biz). Now go and become delegates! Nourish and polish those leadership skills that you have in you. See you there!

Wanna grab some free pass? Click this image ;) . It can tell you the magic words.

Courtesy from http://sarawak-bloggers.org/get-free-passes-to-the-tomorrow-leaders-summit-2011/

Courtesy from http://www.tomorrowsleaders.biz/

TLS stands for Tomorrow’s Leaders Summit

Disclaimer: All the picture under this title is not mine, but I got them from the respective websites that I have mentioned.

Izit really possible?

2011-03-01T00:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah...Izit really possible for me to have blogging idea a few minutes ago, but then vanish in thin air???

There are so many things i can write, but I don't. I have to keep writing. This might be my income factor when I really don't have any job left for me. Hehehe

So, at least i write something. Then, chow??? I think I seriously need to write on a notebook. Have to learn to carry pen and notebook everywhere.

God bless you, and me. :)

Addiction 1

2011-02-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

I am currently in love playing Godswar!!!! Addicted? I guess so.. The character is cute, and the game concept is wonderful.Godswar is a type of MMORPG, massive multiplayer online role player game. It means, lots of people plays it, it is online in real time, and it is a role playing game, which mean you play a role in building the character as however you want. Yeah, I kinda like it. I introduce to you, my character.

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Introduce to you, Cucumber. This image was taken from Godswar game. All rights are theirs. gw.igg.com.

Hahaha Note the pumpkin head. One of the thing that characters sell. I bought it, from a Mythcrafter obviously because they are the profession that can make this outfit. It last only a day thought. Hahaha. Love the weirdness.

This game's storyline and characters are based on the Greek mythology. So, for those who like to kills, train the brain with strategically planned team, can play this. The monsters are hard to kill, so that is definitely makes you addict. Its free, as there are these maller, that bought items using real money. Come, join us.

At first, I play this game from Facebook server. But because of certain problems, come from me, nothing to do with server or what, I made up my mind to play from the real client. It is more satisfying for me. Moreover, the experience from the Facebook server really helps me create more systematic and better character here.

Anyway, I come from server Valentine (ridiculous name bcoz no connection with Greeks, I know), and I am of Spartan Polis. C'yA!!!

Highly recommended.

mY gUitaR

2011-01-10T13:11:00.001+08:00

Tonight's topic is, mY gUiTar...

I don't remember when i bought this guitar, but I know the brand, it is Ibanez, model V50NJP (wish i bought the black one, it looks shiny, but i think i can adjust the looks of my guitar when i have more money). I bought it just after i got my pay from Boulevard Hypermall. The Price? This young wood cost me RM475. Worth it? I don't know, but for me, I think it works just the way a good guitar should be. Nice music come out from it. At least, the sound I make sounds better than when I buy a cheaper brand. Here is my guitar. And oh, all these picture is from my newley bought Blue Canon Powershoot A495, bought on 6 Jan 2011. Yeah , I know I wasted lot of money, but hey, money can be earn.

The body.

The head of my guitar

The whole thing, with the bed. (^^,)

The string and the neck.

Journey to uncertainties.

2011-01-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I am not blogging. So, today, I would like to share about a journey that I have in this very particular day. At about 3 o'clock, because of some havoc in the house, I decided to go out and telling my mum that I am going for a movie. However, as I drive with my dearly Viva, when I reach the traffic light, I turn left. Somehow, in my own subconsciousness, I like to turn left when I reach a diverged road. So, off I drive along the road to Kota Padawan.

Let me remind you something about my Viva, the Viva. 2 days before, I have loaded RM20 worth of 10.8 l petrol RON95 at Petronas Tabuan Jaya after a weird medium-long journey with my friend, Len. In my mind back then, we have drive so much because we went to food hunting, and reach the said stall only when we are on our way back.

So, 2 days later, i went to Kota Padawan with the same load, continuous load from my journey the other day. The fuel worth 3 bars in the Viva's petrol indicator. ONLY 3 bars, so with this 3 bars, I drive around Padawan area. The roads are all tar, in good condition but at some small point, it was not really good.

At first, I drive straight from Kota Padawan, pass by Semenggok, and straight to Bunuk, without turning. I thought there is road continuously from Bunuk, but unfortunately, it was the dead end. The end of the village is traditional Bidayuh long house. I have to go back to a junction I passed by just before arriving the village. Then I realize, sometimes, it was not the straight road that brings me to my destination. Sometimes, in my life, i have to turn a bit, to reach my destination safely, and maybe on time.

Thus, I use Borneo Heights Road (Jln Puncak Borneo). By that time, I was determine to reach the feet of Borneo Heights. From the junction's signboard, it says 26 km to Borneo Heights. It was not a big number to me, until I myself travel the road. It didn't take me hours of course, but it was a long journey because I was alone.

So, off I go, pass by many famous villages including a very legendary river, The Giam, as it was famous to take life of those who it want to takes. I have someone I know died in the mercy of that river. I passed by 7 bridge that was name Aman Bridge (Jambatan Aman, or Sg Aman, maybe?). I passed by the vicious and breathtaking view of the Padawan's mountains (it wasn't tall nor cold like the Kinabalu, but lack of villages and peoples makes the road even eerie, but I call it mountain because that what we usually call). It was even breathtaking with the clouds surrounding the mountains, as if it wants to swallow me, and its like calling me to join them. It was like I am driving pass the spirits of the forest.

Some of the road is decorated with the overgrown leaves from the tree. I think it will be very eerie if I happen to drive through there late evening.

As I cautiously driving, I look at the environment, I look at the buildings that I can found, roads that I remember, and it was as if I reminisce the events and journey with my late daddy. The journey is as if I am collecting the pieces of memories that I had. I remembered, sometimes, when I feel like I want to go out, I am very comfortable to ask my dad this "Dad, I don't want to be at home now, can we have a stroll outside?" I remembered, he always be my victim when I want to go out. And sometimes, he seems to know what I meant. He will drive, and drive and drive, while I enjoy the breathtaking view. Then, maybe we take a cup or two at the coffee shop, then go home, or sometimes visit granny at the village.

Back with my journey, at last I reach the feet of Borneo Heights! What I did not realize before is, Anah Rais village is just around the corner. Then I saw a smaller road that looks familiar with me. It is the road that leads to Kuching-Serian Highway. I have this feeling that I wouldn't take a long time to reach there. From that point, the road is smaller, steeper, and it was enough to make me nauseous.

Then, I found this junction, with larger road. But definitely, that road does not guarantee my destination. Another lesson, sometimes, the pretty road doesn't mean it lead you to your destination. I have to drive along the small road unwillingly, because I was so tempted to use that other road. Somewhere behind my back memory, I think that bigger road also connected to Kuching-Serian highway, but I could not take the risk, because I am afraid the fuel that I had is not sufficient enough for me to stray longer. I also have time limitations, so I really could not take that risk of arriving late to the urbanization.

Thus, I drive, drive and drive and the journey also get on my nerves as I wasn't expect it to be quite long. I expect it to be 15 minutes from the Borneo Heights' feet, but after 30 minutes only, I reach the highway. From the highway, I use Kota Samarahan highway to go to Kuching.

As a conclusion, I pass by a lot of village, and have travel for more than 100 km (I m sure)but not more than 150 km (I think) with about 10 liters of petrol. At Kuching only, after I fetch my friend Len, that my 3 bars petrol indicator decrease to 2 bars. We go to eat at TAR Road, her house is at TAZA Road, and we go karaoke at Stutong.

I don't really get what message I want to share, but I know this for sure : I love the beauty that I see. And I will definitely take some pictures for my readers to watch for themselves and as prove to what I meant, but not now. I don't have my camera. Next time, I will bring some friends to help, own some good camera, and I will take my time shooting the scenery, and present it.

However, this journey really remind me of the journey of the disciples in Acts, which popularly known as the Road to Emmaus. About how the people who relate to Jesus reminisce their memories on the death of Jesus. I have not know yet the outcome of the my journey, but I know, the beginning of their journey, is quite as same as the 2 disciples.

Something Bleeds

2010-06-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

I heard a footstep outside my door
Praying that it's u outside
i've been expecting for days for you
to take me somewhere we can go
but when i open the door,
i see none of you but the postman instead

he gave me a letter covered with perfumed red envelop
he smiles n walk away as he done his job
delivering this letter i wonder from who it is
as it was addressed to me

but something bleeds inside myself
as i read the letter
i open it up and found out that it was from you
and you said u wanna leave
forever form my life
and something bleeds inside me

he gave me the letter covered with perfumed red envelop

he smiles n walk away as he done his job

delivering this letter i wonder from who it is

as it was addressed to me

but something bleeds instead.......

thought of the day....

2010-03-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

Shalom friends and family…hehe…I just read my newly downloaded electronic English Bible(menunjuk2 ba ni), and I now at the part where God told Noah about He wanted to pour rain in seven days for 40 days 40 nights. Then I am started to wondering, what if I am at Noah’s place???if God ask me to build the ark according to His specification, I think I can do it…but to choose which animal to be saved, for me that is the tricky part…God’s command is to choose 7 clean animals and 1 unclean one, same goes to the birds…and guess what, Noah did all this without questioning God, and he wisely choose the 7 animals!!!u know why I have problem doing this???because my flaw wud be

1) I’ll be asking God ‘God, why cant u just forgive all of them, and don’t pour the rain? they are Your creation, please don’t kill them’, or something like, God, have mercy on them…I wud likely to ask, becoz I know im not as obedient as Noah , he really follow anything God said….well, wud u???i am sum1 with lots of things in mind, and reasons of doing things so and so, mama-huhu…so, what God’s likely want to do really makes me wondering…and now im started to pondering myself, am I sinning for questioning God’s voice each day of life, like, ur mum ask u to do something, u questioned first, then u do it….who didn’t do that????awesome…ur cool….

2) I really couldn’t choose who can go upboard and who shudnt…I mean, all the animals are good…I couldn’t imagine im choosing 7 species of clean animals out of thousands species of them, and 1 unclean out of many of the thousands….huhuhhu…

Noah must have really been blessed by God that he can do all this….he obediently follow God, just like his kin, Abraham and his other descendants. He did not questioned God, he please God, and he is a very obedient to God…decisions that Abraham made also hard, imagine, sacrificing ur own son just becoz God ask to, and without any questions……I wud cry if I were told to sacrifice my own son, but Abraham, he did not even cry (according to the Bible, and I myself oso believe he did not cry)..just really put urself in these kind of people’s shoes..They r just human like u and me, but they done great…..imagine u are them…

But don’t worry people, ordinary sinful people of the new era…actually there is one prophet who is much closer to us….yes, I think u know who he is…it is Jonah, or Yunus (b.melayu)…read about him…I think we are more like Jonah….always doubt God, and always question God, and sometimes runaway from God….but let us really follow Jonah, because he turn back to God…..and St.Peter oso did the same, he deny Jesus, but then he go back to Jesus……just to be sure, as friends, let us kindly reminding each other to help each other so that we do not stray to faraway from God..when we see our friend mcm stray2 cat, we catch them with our net…..hehe…..in the hope that when we (hopefully not) oso stray, they will become our angel who bring us back to God….hehe…ok ok…..byk cakap daa….ba, c u later…..hehe..gudnyte..

downloading torrent files . . .

2010-02-14T17:22:00.000+08:00

i finally understand the principles of downloading torrent files using utorrent. i thought that having only 1 torrent in a queue will fasten the download, but i am wrong. it all depend on how many peers and seeders out there is helping u to download the file.

for example, for the file that i download only have 3 connected seeders, it will download faster than another file that have only 1 connected seeders. thus, having multiple download would not slows down your connection for the first download. i hope u understand that. as for peers, it helps u to upload the files.

in my utorrent right now, i am downloading 11 episodes of jdrama Maou, starring Ohno Satoshi and Toma Ikuta. at first, i only download it one by one, for the first 3 episode. while waiting for the 2nd to finish downloading, i became impatient and i started to queueing all the other 9 episodes. i did the speed test many times, but at that time i still thinking that 1 download at one time is sufficient. until i get curious how that my internet download manager can have faster download, so i check the setting. my broadband speed is only 384 kbps, but in the internet download manager, at the connection tab, it was set to 10 mbps LAN connection speed. something like that, as i may write it wrongly. so i change my speed in utorrent to 10 mbps, and i see that all my torrent starting to download. at first i was worried that it will be slow, but as i bserve, it was a good thing as what affect the download rate is how many seeders and peers u are connected to...so now, my setting is for the most optimum setting, i change the speed to enable my torrent to have 8 active downloads. then, i can see all 8 downloads racing to finish the first. apparently, it is not the 4th episode which will finish first, but the 6th one.

before i realise this, i thought that accelerators and utorrent turbo can help me getting more speed, but now i have learn that those accelerators and turbos did practically nothing!!!

so, my advice, you doesn't have to install all that craps...i have uninstall mine...as those who have lots of experience said, it is better to refering to utorrents own speed guide than to install crappy turbos and accelerators...

that's all i want to share...chao2 miao!!

oh, F.Y.I, i download the torrent from d-addicts forum. all the best for torrent rooies out there!!!

playing in the rain

2010-02-12T07:07:00.000+08:00

            it is 6.30 am. i surf the net to get overview on 17th february 2010 weather forecast but i did not get it. instead, i have today's forecast. it says that there will be light rain in the evening. rain, it sound so nostalgic. it is early in the morning, and my roomate is not in the room. i could not sleep so i am awake since 11 am last afternoon. about the rain, i post something on my facebook wall about it; how i wish that it won't be raining during my sampling date, how i wish it won;t be bad weather, how i ask the rain not to come until the holidays are over. ironic, because i remember, when i was a primary school kid, i love rain. i would love to play in the rain with my sister.
          i remember that one evening after school. by that time my sis already change school to as same as mine, so she should be in primary 2 i guess. that means i was 10 years old. ok, this incident happens when i was about 10 to 11 years old. i remember, when we both go back from school, it haven't start rain yet, then we go to the backyard(sort of) of the house which dad brought in Tabuan Jaya. we still in our school uniform. ah, i think our grandma was there, taking care of the little boy, maybe. i couldn't remember well.
          but i remember this. i have told my sister in the school bus before reaching home about how i want to play in the rain. so when we reach home, i think both of us directly go to the backyard and looking at the sky, praying for rain to come. maybe my sister by that time was just following step by step that i walked. i reach out my hand to the unsheltered part of the backyard, hoping that some water will drip on it. the sky was very promising, and it did rain. we play in the rain, still in our school uniform ,and i believe we haven't have our lunch yet.
        we played with the water, splashing around, kick the muddle, behaving like kids who never saw rain, and we play and play. when the rain gets heavier, our play gets heavier to. we don't mind the hurt cause by the dripping rain or dust in the rain. we don't care about the fever that may will get us. maybe grandma was mad at that time, but we did not listen to her angryness. then the rain started to stop slowly. there is still a very light rain though, like when it first started. then , mummy and daddy come back from work (maybe that is how i remembered it). we didn't play as vigorously before, but we change our activity from splashing the water to capturing grasshoppers. the rain still drizzle about us. mummy questioned us about why we did not change yet, and nag if we did take our lunch or not. but i remember, i feel very satified, happy, good and innocent. daddy also ask question, but we were too happy with the grasshoppers and the rain and the rainbow that come thereafter, and the banana tree, and the green grass with some rain water 'accumulated' in specific spots.
         the plot here might change a bit from the reality, because it has been years since that occur. i'm almost 22 years old now. i love the old days. when i remember it, it gave me fresh memory about my daddy. he still alive and young then, with his bluish shirt and blue pants. i still can imagine the smell of the after rain. it feels so freash and alive. somehow, maybe all of us one family felt that, but we keep it to ourself.
         that innocent days are gone, and now i wish for it not rain to get my job now. as i grew up, i found out that rain doesn't bring your responsibilities and job anywhere. i become worried of rain, sometimes not because of the job, but i really feel troubled of rain at times since i get older. i couldn't remember why or when i feel uneasy, but sometimes i don't like the sound of the rain hitting on the roof. rain sometimes sooth me, it feels good to sleep during rainy seasons, but good rain provides that. some rain really are troublesome.
        i continue to get older, i get into high secondary school. i meet different people, different teachers, different so-called deliquents. the stories continues, and it goes on without stop or wait for us...now, i am not as fun as i am 20 years ago, and my sis have changed in many aspects, and my little bro have grown a bit, my mum getting older too, and my dad already went to heaven. as in today, it have been 110 since he left. i still miss him, and i will always, and i don't think i want to stop. its weird that one day you have a father, and the next day you don't have him, and you are still young and have to live the rest of your days without your father. if i live another 40 years, it wud have been 40 years without him. my bro wud have to live longer without a father. i do make the calculations, how my father would not be there at most of my time as an adult. i just started to begin, he left. i don;t know what my other siblings would think, but they will definitely have their own way of expressing it. for me, remembering my father during his life is wonderful, it hurt, but it is wonderful, just like when you first fall in love, or when you are experiencing love at first sight. and rain, no one could stop it, but it feels good to have someone to be with you during the pouring time.

none

2010-02-10T18:48:00.003+08:00

:'(

A poem to God

2010-02-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

God, i want to give you this song...it is not mine, but it has been hovering inside my head....

Hide me now
under Your wing
cover me
within Your mighty hand

when the ocean's rise and thunders roars
i will soar with You, above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
i will be still, and know You are God

find rest my soul
in Christ alone
know His power
in quiteness and trust