the unsaid...

TV Series: Debris

2025-11-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

This is the 3rd time I binge watching this TV series since I first watched it in August.

I love it so much... and still upset it's only for 1 season. Whyyyyyyy???

I love the suspense, the mysteries, the weird encounters... a bit like X-Files and similarly intriguing.

I LOVE IT!

Bryan and Finola made an amazing team with a lot of trust & care for each other. They remind me of Mulder & Scully.

I wish there are more seasons for Debris... huhu... but I don't think that's going to happen. For now, I'll keep watching this one and only season over & over until I can't watch it anymore. *sad*

Bryan & Finola such a good team.

TV Series: Normal People

2025-09-26T16:34:00.000+08:00

I just watched the TV show 'Normal People'... I can only stomach until episode 6.

This show is based on the novel by Sally Rooney. I have a feeling that the author was exploring love of people with self-confidence issues... because the characters Connell and Marianne have exactly that.

Connell treats Marianne the way he did maybe because he feels inferior.

Marianne tolerated Connell treating her that way maybe because she feels that is the right way to be treated by someone who claims to love her.

So far, the only character that I like and have a lot of sense is Lorraine, Connell's mother.

The rest, hmmmppphhhh...

The wise Lorraine

You tell him mom... Your son is a real jerk.

For me, this show convinced me that it is always better for men to make the first move...

If someone already shown you who they really are, believe them...

And may this kind of love never find me... ahaks!

This quote is accurate on so many situations...

Movie: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I wish y'all happiness.

Remember, you already have true & divine love from up above.

Movie scenes with lovely photography shots

2025-09-16T10:05:00.001+08:00

I wish I could have taken/ shot photos like this. The composition, the colour, the feelings... lovely 💖

Anne of Green Gables

Lessons in Chemistry

Reading List - 2024

2024-12-31T23:59:00.306+08:00

I didn't read as much as I wanted or planned to.

But hey, 2024 is much better than the past 10 years. 😉

The second half of 2024 witnessed the rise of the book nerd that is me. I love it!

1. Perempuan Busana Merah by Ramlee Awang Murshid (RAM)
As usual, RAM is brilliant in linking the stories and holding them together even though the story keeps jumping between reality and fantasy even though the whole story is a fantasy. It maintained my interest, grasped my curiosity, and kept me glued that I finished reading the book in one night, sacrificing my sleep. Luckily, it's just a thin book. Towards the end, it was confusing and uninteresting to me. The ending stressed me out. I don't like it. Hmmmphhhh... It's not my cup of tea.

2. Dari Lembah Cita- cita ~ Pedoman Perjuangan Anak Muda by Hamka

Hamka's writing is always a few levels higher than the Bahasa Melayu that I'm used to. All his writings, literature or not are always literature-like. The way he arranged his sentences and even the words in his sentences challenged my simple mind. I wish I could write as well as Hamka. The kind of writing that inspires even through one simple sentence.

Anyway, this book serves as a guideline on how to accomplish our ambitions. Learning from someone like Hamka, means that your path to success is guided by Islamic values and keeps you on the guided path.

3. Pirate - Clive Cussler and Robin Burcell

Clive Cussler again successfully served me the actions & adventures that I craved for. But after a while, I got bored reading the story about people running around chasing treasures. Maybe I was not in the mood for a story about being chased by thugs.

4. One Day - David Nicholls

Some books immediately grabbed my interest right from the first paragraph. This book is one of them. Some books made me want to skip lines, paragraphs, pages... and sometimes chapters. Just so I can finish reading it faster. This is not one of the books.

Some books have been adapted into movies or tv series. So, I figured ok that's enough. No need to read the book anymore. Watching the movies or the tv series is enough. This book is not that book.

You'll get hooked on this book immediately from the first page.

This book has been adapted into both a movie and a tv series.

I watched the movie and thought, gosh... why so sad.

I delayed watching the tv series. But when I got to it, I bawled my eyes out and got depressed for almost 2 weeks watching the last episode over and over. Leo Woodall is so good in the tv series. He's the reason for my depression! Grrrr... His acting was excellent. Reminds me of James McAvoy. I wish him opportunities to shine even brighter.

Then I decided, I needed to read the book. I need to know more about what happened between Emma Morley and Dexter Mayhew. Maybe once I know more, I'll be less sad because the story of two people having the chance to spend only two happy years together after ten years of misses is so very sad.

I'm still sad after reading the book. I feel like kicking Dexter Mayhew after I finished reading chapter 3... urrrgghhhhhhh....

But not sad, sad. Happy sad?

Gosh, I need to improve my vocabulary.

David Nicholls, you're too good at this.

I hope my novel will be as good as this.

I must read more... *sigh*

Favourite Quotes from Star Trek Enterprise

2024-10-15T17:53:00.002+08:00

Bridgerton Season 3: What do you think?

2024-06-25T00:26:00.002+08:00

I think, I'm loving the sweet love stories. Colin Bridgerton & Penelope Featherington, Francesca Bridgerton & John Kilmartin.

Although I do not understand why each couple didn't get a season each.

So many stories crammed into one season. Argggghhhh... messy!

So many unnecessary scenes that I don't think provide any value to the series.

Benedict scenes... urgghhhhh... Michaela... why?! *fed-up*

The dresses, the suits, the flowers, the settings... beautiful.

Colin in in the beginning... awkwardly flirting... ewwww... But the glow-up, wow. Then, when Colin tries to redeem his friendship with Penelope, when he is jealous, his tortured heart... him getting angry, being protective, and taking charge... loveeeeee... I feel like Colin is so innocent and forgiving. As Penelope said, he is a good man. That is so true... I almost wish that he found someone better.

Penelope glows up. Love! Is that it? What else do I love about Penelope? Hmmmm... oh yeah, I love that towards the end she finally owned up to her faults and when I finally realized that she was a very successful writer, I was inspired. However, I was unimpressed with Penelope's heavy breathing... her chest up & down non-stop, and after a few times of that, I was fed up again.

I love how Francesca & John, as introverted and quiet as they are, can still be firm and sure about what they want and not afraid to pursue their wishes.

John Kilmartin seriously can make anyone fall in love with him by just his presence.

Francesca Bridgerton can make anyone fall in love with him with her killer smile and sweet voice. And also, by that determined character of hers. Love! You go, girl!

Gosh she's beautiful! As Claudia Jessie once said to Hannah Dodd, "Have you seen you?!"

I love the mothers... Violet Bridgerton especially. How she knows her children and how her advice is always on point. Portia Featherington is no less. She works hard for her family's survival.

Mama Bridgerton always knows the right thing to say...

Mama Bridgerton always knows what's going on with her children. You're always on her radar. No need to throw tantrums...

Mommy Featherington... it's a tough world, but I'm a tough woman. An occasional headache, so what?

Eloise Bridgerton and Cressida Cowper made an unusually good friendship. I love that Eloise finally takes charge of her life and goes looking for some adventures in Scotland.

An enlightening friendship?

Eloise is off to Scotland. Benedict ought to be looking for a better adventure too.

Lady Danbury... as smart as always. Such a philanthropist.

I slay and I know it...

*****

“I think you should consider yourself uncommonly lucky you have never been in love.”

I was getting mad at Penelope again when Colin said this to Eloise. We still remember Theo Sharpe right. Eloise and Theo were good together. Not ideal considering the difference in their social statuses, but good, nonetheless.

*****

My favourite ball of all.

The Butterfly ball!

Now Varley, the bugs!
Genius!

*****

"How lucky I am to stand by your side and soak up even a little bit of your light."

"If my only purpose in life is to love a woman as great as you, then I will be a very fulfilled man indeed."

You are a very good man Mr. Bridgerton.
Yes you areeeee...

*****

Arghhhh... this Colin Bridgerton guy is making us set unrealistic expectations again.

But is expecting a man to be a good man, unrealistic? Not at all 💖

Wishing all of us looking for true love, a true love. 💋

Until next time!

Lukola theme song

2024-05-14T17:15:00.003+08:00

I know they already have their song. But this song keeps playing in my brain every time I see them together. *** I'm not hopping off this delulu train anytime soon ***

💘We Could Be in Love💘

🎤 Brad Kane and Lea Salonga

Be still my heart

Lately, its mind is all its own

It would go far and wide

Just to be near you

Even the stars, shining up bright

I've noticed when you're close to me

Still it remains a mystery.

Anyone who's seen us

Knows what's goin' on between us

It doesn't take a genius

To read between the lines

And it's not just wishful thinking

Or only me who's dreaming

I know what these are symptoms of

We could be in love.

I ask myself why

I sleep like a baby through the night

Maybe it helps to know

You'll be there tomorrow

Don't open my eyes

I'll wake from the spell I'm under

Makes me wonder how (tell me how)

I could live without you now.

And what about the laughter

The happy ever after?

Like voices of sweet angels

Calling out our names

And it's not just wishful thinking

Or only me who's dreaming

I know what these are symptoms of

We could be in love.

All my life, I have dreamed of this

But I could not see your face

Don't ask why two such distant stars

Can fall right into place.

And it's not just wishful thinking

Or only me who's dreaming

I know what these are symptoms of

We could be in love.

Kuch kuch hota hai... you bet 😉

Bridgerton: Polin or Lukola?

2024-05-13T16:03:00.311+08:00

Ok, so four more days before Bridgerton season 3 starts on Netflix. I'm so excited but trying to keep my chill and contain the excitement. Trying unsuccessfully...

Right now, I need to let these thoughts off my brain... So, hop on my train and join me on my ride to delulu land.

Since season 1, Penelope and Eloise have been my favourite characters. The best friends who were always there for each other. Eloise is so gorgeous and rebellious; Penelope is so cute and innocent. Both are equally smart. I love that!

Rebellious and innocent 😍

I don't really care for the Bridgerton brothers. I'm not denying the fact that they are all really good-looking. But then, all of the Bridgerton siblings are blessed with good looks and good fortune.

However, since season 1, we've seen something going on between Penelope and Colin. The longing looks between them. How Penelope always cared about Colin and how Colin always protected Penelope. I was hoping for Penelope and Colin to become something more and at the same time realize that they were somehow not ready for that 'something more'.

I'm just noticing that. How did the writers do that? I'm amazed...

I've got you Pen. Don't you worry about a thing...

The end of season 2 revealed that Penelope is Lady Whistledown (whatttttt???!!!) and Colin said 'I would never dream of courting Penelope Featherington' (Colin! How could you?!)

Can you imagine my excitement when I found out that season three is about Penelope and Colin?

It's finally time for Pen to rise and for Colin to suffer a tiny little bit for what he said. Heheheee...

I hope season 3 is the time for Penelope to shine, not hold back, to pursue and create her own happily ever after.

I hope season 3 is also the time for Colin to find whatever he is searching for because since season one he looks like he's been searching for something.

I'm also hoping that Colin will finally 'find' Penelope in season 3. Poor Pen... Holding in all that feeling. And what a loss for Colin if he couldn't find the happiness that could have been his.

Your dreams are grander than you let on...
My purpose shall set me free...
You cared for me. You would never forsake me...
So many things going on in one scene.
Truly, matters of the heart cannot be seen by the eyes.

I've read Julia Quinn's Bridgerton books, but I don't think I've read 'Romancing Mr. Bridgerton'. I didn't know this book was about Penelope & Colin. If I did, I would have grabbed and read the book since Bridgerton first came out on Netflix.

But, now that season 3 is coming out soon, it's too late for me to read the book. I don't want the book to ruin the suspense of season 3. So, I will just wait here patiently for the day to come.

Pursuing a purpose, together 😍

There are a lot of PRs going on promoting season 3. Nicola Coughlan (Penelope Featherington) & Luke Newton (Colin Bridgerton) are all over social media. And oh em geeeee...

They both looked so good, individually and together. Most of the time, they look unbelievably good & too comfortable together. Their chemistry and friendship brought smiles to my face and cheered up my dull days. Looking at them as an outsider, I couldn't help thinking that there is something more and deeper feelings than friendship between them. Seems like season 3 is both 'Polin' and 'Lukola' stories! How wonderful!

I'm pretty sure, we, the fans who are all aboard riding this delulu train are hoping hard for 'Lukola' to 'find' each other. Just like Polin!

We can only hope & wish. And pray. Sometimes, wishes do come true.

In the meantime, I keep 'Lukola' in this delulu land coz in delulu land, magic happens, and dreams come true, and couples who are supposed to be together are married and live happily ever after.

That's what we wish for 'Lukola'. But of course, we still will support them in whatever 'kaibigan' that they wish to be.

Be still my heart... Which kind of 'kaibigan' is this?

Gosh, I'm deep in delulu land. Why not?! In delulu land, everything is trululu.

Ok enough... bye. I can't differentiate Polin vs Lukola anymore. Not sure which one I ship harder. Hahahaaaa...

I really hope season 3 will not let us down and will live up to the hype of all these PRs.

May you both find your happily ever after. Hopefully, with each other... 💝

I sign off skipping further into delulu land.

See y'all soon!

Go Jetters and Souvenir Selfie...

2023-09-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

Is a concept that I really like right now.

Somehow nowadays, I'm not really fond with the idea of posing for photos. I prefer to take photos of sceneries when I travel. Plus, the aspiring landscape photographer in me hasn't been practising and is now rusty.

But I do like to take one or two group photos just to captured the memories.

So, I really do appreciate Go Jetters and its idea of souvenir selfie. One comprehensive photo that summarized the event and captured the emotions. I should practice souvenir selfie more often.

Would you just look at how nice their photos are.

I love the Go Jetters and Grandmaster Glitch and the Grimbots.

Four heroes always learning, there's just so much to explore!

Go go, go go, Go Jetters.

It's been too long...

2022-11-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

It's been 7 years since I last wrote here... can you believe it? 7 years!

I wonder if people still read blogs nowadays... hmmm...

In the last 7 years, I believe people have moved to other social media platforms. Blogs may not be relevant anymore. Nowadays, YouTube, Instagram, Twitter, and TikTok have taken over. Not forgetting Facebook and some other apps that I know nothing about.

So, here I am, contemplating whether I should start writing here again. I've failed at so many attempts before this. The willpower is so weak, the heart is tired, the brain is cloudy, and the ideas are blocked. The words are all jumbled up in my mind and there is no excitement.

The state of heart & mind... have been like this for a longggg time.

But now, somehow the writer in me is getting restless. It had stayed dormant for so long... tied up in a dimly lit room, surrounded by thick tall walls. It's time for it to be free, to come out and face the world. Suddenly, the writer remembers the happiness of writing.

There are so many things that have been left unsaid... It's time to clear out all the spider webs in this room.

I'll start writing again. I will fight the pressure to stay under my 'coconut shell'. It doesn't matter if no one reads this blog, it only matters that I keep on writing. There is joy in written words, and I hope to spread that joy.

I'll see y'all in my next post. Stay tuned!

A beautiful day in KL...

2015-11-02T22:48:00.001+08:00

My besties & I joined The Fabulous KL foodhunt last Saturday. It was fun to run around Kuala Lumpur, finding food to eat. I was lucky enough to get to eat a delicious Nasi Kukus Ayam Dara at Taman Melati. The dish was so yummy, I was sad that I had to eat it during a competition *sigh*.

Anyway, I actually want to share some beautiful photos of Kuala Lumpur that I captured on that day. KL was really beautiful since the early light until the late evening. I'm so glad that I was outside enjoying the beauty of it all...

Haze has subsided & the rain has become a frequent visitor this time of year... The sky is now cleared, the colour so blue not grey, it's mesmerizing. The sun can be stinging hot just before the cooling rain...

My favorite view has always been the morning sky after the rainy night...

All photos by me! Taken using Asus Zenfon2 with a bit of Instagram tweaking :)

From my garden...

2015-10-18T21:05:00.001+08:00

Hi Guys,

I've started gardening since the last AidilFitri. My first plant, a pomegranate plant. Mainly because there are so many advantages of pomegranates and they are so expensive in the market. So, I figured why not try to grow one. So I bought a small plant when I was back at my Grandma's house. And I checked yesterday, there is already one bud. I'm so psyched! I hope it will grow into a big healthy fruit.

Since I started gardening, I've started to realize things that I never realized before.
Have you ever seen the fruit or the flower of a curry plant? If you haven't, they look like pictures below.

In the spirit of becoming the true nature lover, I started to plant a few more flower & decorative plants. Now my lawn looks much greener, lovelier and prettier!

I've also planted a few more plants that my mother can use in her cooking. I have turmeric plant, Daun Kesum (the ones that we usually put in laksa) and kaffir lime. We already have lemongrass & pandan leaves growing healthily at home even before my gardening madness started.

I've failed a few times at planting ginger from it's root (or rhizome) so I paid no attention to last root that I planted. But almost after a month of ignoring it, I finally saw a leave coming out from it! I'm so happy!

All these while, I thought I don't have the green fingers. I mean, why should I think that because all the plants that I tried planting before ended up dead... even cactus! But now, seeing all the plants striving despite the hazy season, I finally realized something...

You don't really need green fingers to become good at gardening. I don't think it depends on 'luck'. It requires some work, consistency, persistency, caring and love... About the same with other things in life, wouldn't you agree?

I do talk to my plants & kiss them after I came home from work. Hehehehee... If you can see how beautiful they are, you'll kiss them too!

Next project, trying to grow some parsley... I have failed a few times at this. *sigh*

Ayo ke Jogja - Etc

2015-07-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hi Guys,

I have really put off my trip to Jogja's stories & photos. So I'm going to put a summary here. If you want to know anything, you can leave a comment. I'll reply (if you want me to email you, please leave your email address). I definitely recommend our tour guide (Dwi - he's so funny!) & driver (Dayu - such a careful driver). Dwi's phone number is on the photo.

It's always the people we travels with or met who made our trip a memorable one.

If you're looking for another option, one travel agent (Jati Wijaya) did leave his contact details at my Merapi post. You can contact them to find out further.

What I can tell you is, our trip to Jogja was amazing. I went to Jogja to see BOROBUDUR but really Dieng was the place that I like most. I wish to go there again someday. It's on the highland, it's very cold and it's filled with potato plantations. If you went to Sikidang, do try the boiled eggs. I think the eggs were delicious! The Keraton Palace felt so peaceful and Indrayanti beach really made me regret not bringing extra clothes. The clear cold water, the open sea... amazing! But the waves were high! I'm not used to it :)

Enjoy the photos!

Ayolah ke Jogja!

Would I Survive a Bear Attack?

2015-07-26T21:16:00.002+08:00

I watched this program on NatGeo last week, 'So You Think You'd Survive?' What would you do when faced with a certain situation & they provided 3 options for you to choose.

Its fun, like taking a personality quiz, testing my knowledge on life. So, I happily played along.
Then, one situation was presented.

What would you do when you're confronted by a black bear?

Looking at the options given, I know I had to go with C. Not because I'm a well trained black belt karate master or a kungfu shifu, but because I'm the worst at both running and climbing a tree. I run for like 100m and that's it. Climbing trees? Forget it... NO, thank you!

Therefore, I can only go with C... because I do have skills in making a lot of noises and I always imagined myself fighting like Bruce Lee with his one inch punch.. heheh...

With my unfit physical, I have to stand my ground and prepare to fight if I'm confronted by a black bear...

But, look at the correct answer!

Looks like my physical weakness is working to my advantage this time.. yeee haaaaa... Maybe I won't hurt the bear much, but the bear definitely will have sore ears.

So now you know what to do when confronted by a bear.

Enough rambling for today...

Hopefully this will be a good enough warm up for me after not writing for so long.

Take care y'alls.

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri! Maaf Zahir & Batin!

Lunar Eclipse 04/04/2015

2015-04-04T23:18:00.001+08:00

I caught it at the late stage.
This is one of the moments when you wished that you had a very good camera and lens.
Until that time, this is the best that I could capture.
Enjoy!

Ayo ke Jogja ~ 4WD at Merapi

2015-04-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

Well, it was my first time riding along in a 4WD. Fortunately, it was such an awesome experience!

Our driver was a very polite and friendly young man. I didn't catch his name, but based on his name tag, it's IBENK. I hope I got that correctly and hopefully that's not his company's name or something... eiks!

I also didn't know for sure what is the cost of this activity because the price was already inclusive in our package and I never asked for an itemized bill. But, it was roughly IDR350,000 for a 2 hours ride.

I don't know all that for sure but what I do know is, you cannot miss this experience if you're ever in Jogja. They'll take you around in a 4WD around Mount Merapi (not to the top) and you'll get to see the after effect of Mount Merapi eruption in 2010. Lives were taken during the eruption, homes and possession lost, human endurance tested. After 5 years, the lands have started to flourish again.

You will also be taken on a ride full with 'free massages'. Heheheeee...

Our cool and friendly driver with the 4WD. He's so good at taking photos with 'Harry Potter flying on a broomstick' effect. I'm just saying in case you're interested in that kind of pose :) Find him... heheheee...

'Pesan Merapi', a message from Mount Merapi to the people who will be affected by its rage. To me, this shows how the people here are in understanding and at peace with the nature around them. And, there are always lessons to be learned from everything that happened.

Pesan Merapi:

Aku tidak suka mengalah juga tidak ingin mengalahkan. Tetapi pasti sampai janjinya.

Cuma mohon maaf, kalau ada yang tertabrak, terseret dan terbawa hanyut, kebanjiran

atau tenggelam, karena menghalang-halangi yang akan kulewati.

How small we are when challenged by nature. Nothing much we can do when nature runs amok. We can just watch it passed by, be patient, pray and save enough love, courage and strength to face the aftermath.

A watch that shows the exact time of Mount Merapi eruption and everything that remains.

Whatttttt????!!!

Top: The lava path during the eruption. The gorges are deep.

Bottom: There are 3 houses buried under this area.

The peak of Mount Merapi hidden behind the mist.

Who can imagined something so beautiful can cause such catastrophe. When it erupted, it brought agony with it. But, after it has calm down, the lands are fertile and the landscapes are breathtaking.

It takes, then it gives.

What choice that we have other than be at peace with and respect it?

A sticker on the jeep that captured my attention straightaway.

Right on!

Ayo ke Jogja

2015-04-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

'Third time's the charm' is the most accurate expression of our trip this time. We had planned and cancelled our trip to Jogja twice before. But this time, we were determined to make it happen.

So, with the charm of the third time, last minute's decisions and bookings, plus a new member to my usual travel gang, we had successfully arrived and had wonderful moments in Jogja. We travelled quite leisurely this time. Not a backpacker's style. I wonder whether it's age, or time constraint or low energy but we hired our own driver, guide and private van. Which saved us a lot of time and energy, and gave us the privileged of knowing two very friendly, kind and funny locals.

Main reason of going to Jogjakarta... BOROBUDUR.

But, Jogja has so many other amazing places that you can visit. Just go with the right gang and the right spirit (plus enough money on hand), you'll be surprised at how much fun you can have in such a simple place.

I wish our trip was a bit longer than 3 days and I wish we brought a bit more money (ngeee...) so that we can go to visit a lot of other places. But for now, I am very happy to have a chance to finally visit Jogjakarta and cross one more UNESCO site off my list.

Wait for more entries on my Jogja trip.

See y'all soon!

What do I get from Travelling?

2015-03-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

A few years back, somebody made a remark to me about travelling, which I couldn't really comprehend at that time.

'There's nothing special about travelling. You visit the place, do some sightseeing, shopping, spend a lot of your money, it's tiring and then you come back home which you feel really happy to do.'

I really couldn't understand that.

Although my home is my favourite place in this whole wide world, I always felt happy to leave it for a while and go explore some other places.

But, since last year, I've been thinking about this... What do I get from all the travelling that I've done other than some temporary excitement and happiness? Have all my travelling made me a better person than I was before?

That's a very tough question to answer because if I'm the judge of myself, the answer to that question is 'not so much'. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself, but that's how I feel.

So maybe after this, I should plan things to do on my travel carefully and start evaluating whether I have learned something from my travelling and whether it has positively changed me.

Wish me luck!

Not all those who wander are lost...

2015-03-12T09:00:00.000+08:00

Although, that was where she had been. Lost, not wandering...

2014 had been quite a testing year for her. She thought what happened last year did not have that much effect on her. But, losing a much beloved Father will leave a deep unexplained feeling inside anyone.

An independent, strong and adult daughter, is still a daughter. As much as she thinks that she's handling losing her father well, she apparently did not. Subliminally, without her knowledge, it did affect her.

Somehow, it left her struggling & wondering what is going wrong with her. Nothing interests her anymore. Her moods kept on plunging. She finally reached for help worrying that it will hit rock bottom. Aren't she glad that she did that?

So glad :)

She's back now. She thinks so... She can feel the energy and the excitement coming back into her. Bit by bit.

2015 has a new set of challenges for her. The big one served to her at the very early of the year. Even though the light at the end of the tunnel is still so very dim, she stays optimistic and hopeful.

She has little to worry about knowing that she has all the support and love from her incredible family and friends.

And for that, she is forever grateful.

"Be not sad (or afraid), surely Allah is with us."

Al-Fatihah - To my beloved Father, my Grandmother and the whole crews & passengers of flight MH370 who had all left us on the first week of March, 2014 (although I am still hopeful for MH370).

Al-Fatihah.

Don't Quit

2014-10-08T15:28:00.003+08:00

The last verse is like a mantra that keeps playing in my head whenever I feel like quitting. This has been with me since I was in high school but I still don't know who is the original author.

****

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is strange with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure comes about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell just how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Ben Affleck R.E.S.P.E.C.T!

2014-10-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

I read this post on 9gag last night and my first thought was... Wow! Ben Affleck! Wow!

Finally, someone said something that has to be said.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T!

http://9gag.com/gag/aj658D0/-respect-ben-affleck

You can search for the debate on YouTube --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vln9D81eO60

Listening to the interview, I feel offended. Especially when 'It's the only religion that acts like a MAFIA' was said. The woohooooo and the clapping from the audience was like adding salt on a wound.

I am offended. Deeply Offended.

Honestly, the 'ISLAM' that they discussed is NOT the Islam that I know.

The ISLAM that I know is peaceful, is fair and definitely does not oppress women.

Just look at me and all my female Muslim friends. We are smart & educated, we have careers, we wear hijab without it ever limit the things that we can do, the married ones are not abused by their husbands, the married ones even helped with the family economy, we have our freedom. I am free to travel even on my own without anyone ever holding me back. We can do everything we want and we also know how to protect our honour and always behave like a muslimah.

Obviously, I cannot deny the fact that there are Muslims who are extremists and the reason behind all these generalization on ISLAM... and on Muslims.

I admit that there are also Muslims who are unfair, who are always in rage, who oppress women, who are extremists, who are terrorists etc etc... But, are these behaviour limited to Muslims only? I don't think so.

Except for that terrorist part; lately I feel like for someone to be called a terrorist, that someone must be a Muslim. Otherwise, that someone will only be called a shooter or a hijacker.. something like that. You get the idea right?

The truth is, ISLAM is the one being oppressed right now.

So, I thank you Ben Affleck for keeping an open mind and giving ISLAM a chance of getting a defense in the western world.

Tentang Melayu...

2014-09-16T21:40:00.001+08:00

*In Malay

Awal pagi ini, entah bagaimana saya terbaca lagi berita tentang 'Melayu Pemalas'. Berita yang amat melemahkan hati. Sebagai seorang Melayu, saya tidak bersetuju sepenuhnya walaupun kenyataan itu ada benarnya. Tetapi, saya juga tidak begitu tersinggung kerana golongan 'Melayu Pemalas' hanyalah segelintir. Bukanlah 100%. Sekurang-kurangnya, 'Melayu Pemalas' yang saya kenali hanyalah seorang dua. Tidak sampai 5% pun.

Memang benar bangsa Melayu perlu berusaha untuk menjadi lebih rajin dan menjadi bangsa yang lebih maju serta berinovasi.

Rasanya, benar juga jika saya katakan sikap pemalas bukanlah khusus kepada bangsa Melayu saja.

Entah kenapa, kita sebagai orang Melayu sukanya bercerita tentang kelemahan dan kekurangan. Tidak nampak keistimewaan bangsa sendiri. Lalu saya berasa gembira dan bangga apabila seorang kawan di Facebook berkongsi kenyataan Tun Sambanthan terhadap orang Melayu.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10204357547640867&set=a.2289285873688.132885.1295203991&type=1&theater

Terima kasih Tun Sambanthan kerana mengingatkan bangsa Melayu tentang keistimewaan bangsa kami sendiri.

MH17 & MH370

2014-07-18T06:23:00.005+08:00

Saddest news over and over again...

I was not so sad when MH370 went missing. Because I live with hope and with that, I know I shouldn't give up on MH370 until hard evidence is found. As far as I know, they crews & passengers are still alive and MH370 is hidden somewhere... I don't know where, but it is somewhere...

MH17... was shot down. All the crews & passengers are dead.
My tears cannot stop coming...

Sadness aside... The ridiculousness of what happened to MH370 and MH17 is hard to process.

Don't you smell how fishy this is?
This smell very, very fishy!

MH370 went missing... without a trace... in 2014! No radar can trace it? The pilot went silence? There is no shred of evidence of the aircraft crashes or anything... At least something. But, there is nothing!

MH17 was shot down in a war conflicted zone? The military mistaken a passenger aircraft for a military one? Weird... I know, s**t happens... But, this is one unbelievable s**t!

Because of all these fishiness, I'm leaning towards believing conspiracy theories.I don't know which one is the right theory, but in my heart, somebody somewhere is gaining a BIG advantage by doing this to my country and to my favorite airline.

Whoever they are, one day karma will get to them...
I hope that day will not be too far away...

Al-Fatihah to all passangers and crews of MH17...

My deepest condolence to their families, relatives and friends.

MH370... Our prayers are still with you.

Malaysia is being tested in a great way again...

Let us stay united in this time of tribulation.

LEGO, Y U DO THIS?

2014-07-17T11:33:00.000+08:00

Dear Readers,

Would you please sign a petition to tell LEGO to break ties with Shell?

http://LegoBlockShell.org/

They are destroying the Arctic... I'm so sad...
Please help save our environment.
Signing a petition is the least we can do...

NOW EVERYTHING IS NOT AWESOME ANYMORE!!!

Stop One. Stop Them All.

2014-07-17T05:44:00.001+08:00

Dear Readers,

Let us all play a role in helping to save our world.
We have done so much damage to it...
Let's help to stop the damage, bit by bit...

“Earth provides enough to satisfy every man's needs, but not every man's greed.” - Mahatma Gandhi

Save our Earth. It's the only place we have to live.