Jack ☻

I haven't even started

2016-09-30T22:48:00.000+03:00

I haven't even started

Hello there my dear reader, my old and only friend, it seems that we must meet again.

How are you dude ? How do you feel today, while you are reading this ? I really do care to know, I found that although I am nothing more than a social chameleon, I do care about some people. Some old forgotten friends, it's a shame I know that we broke apart so much, I can't remember when I wrote something her, I don't like to brag about myself anymore, it seems that whatever I do my path is already laid.. So I quit my job and just stood home for some time, I studied a little, I meditate about what the fuck makes me happy, what do I want ? Money ? Women ? Fame ? And than, somehow, I knew ... I am self sufficient, I don't need money..eventually I'll end up tree feet under and all the money in the world won't mean a thing, I don't want women... heck is hard enough with one, why the fuck would I like to fuck my life even more ?! And when it comes to fame.. I am to small that Illuminati would want me to sing alongside Miley Cyrus ..and sell my soul to the Devil.

Well ..enough with my rambling.. I just wanted to say " Hi " .. be good have fun and do what makes you happy, the only thing it matters is for you to be happy, don't forget, you are the center of your own universe.. so don't be a fuckin' black hole.. shine you crazy diamond !

Not dead..

2015-05-07T00:56:00.001+03:00

Meh.. here I am once again, maybe for the last time . I don't know why but I think that being close to 30 ( I am talking about years you silly goose ) kinda makes me nostalgic, old, somehow retarded ..
I am constantly thinking how to improve myself but frankly speaking I don't do to much to ascend to higher plains of existence... I am just the same old asshole waiting to make fun of you, poking you with a stick when you are down and so on ..
Maybe it's time to think about having kids, staying with the girl I love for the rest of my life ..maybe..
I hear his voice deep inside of me, Jack is not really dead nor gone.. he's still roaming my mind from time to time, making me do some utterly stupid shit like trying to feel sorry for some things I did in the past just to commit more ..
I am rambling again.. sorry .. I will go now . Just take care of yourselves have fun and smile.. I guess the best things you can do in this life is to smile and be yourself .

Hello old friend,

2014-05-29T00:16:00.001+03:00

Hello there my one and only reader ! How are you ? What brought you here today ? Please let me know how much you have missed me .
For I am Jack and in Jack you should trust ! I have been gone in a long journey, a so called life twisting and bending journey which kinda consumed some of my free will . For almost two years I forgot about the fact that the world is what I want it to be, that the world is in my palm and I can do whatever the fuck I want with it . But fear not my protégé ! I will never change .
Shall I tell you a short resume about what happened since I left this god forsaken blog ?
Well .. nothing .. I didn't do anything special in particular.. I just went with the flow and locked Jack more and more inside of me . I kinda forgot about him after some time . I have a girlfriend for about a year and eight months ( or so ) .. I moved allot from one place to another , I work for some debt collectors ...
I am pretty much bored about how things turned out to be . I always thought that is in our human nature to fend for ourselves and to use another human to achieve our goals . The fact that I locked Jack in a corner of my mind was somehow a mistake . I work with people and around people day by day ...and what I found out after three years ? That Jack was right .. humans can't be trusted , trust only in yourself , fight for what is yours , never back down when you are right !
The weak will make you their leader , the strong will try to crush you, you must be above them, never between , never part of them .

Stay safe , and always stay true to your belief in you ! Never forget that you make your own world, you can choose your universe and your role in it !

Happy New Year !

2012-12-21T01:21:00.000+02:00

Hello folks , long time no see and as I was expecting I guess nobody is around here anymore. I strongly hope you aren't dead already.. I tried to warn you about the Mayan Calendar.. I am pretty much safe because right beside me is one of the last few working Mayans working at a new Calendar ending in 6969 ..don't ask questions .. just wanted to be a nice round number . Well I am still here as you may have already observed , I am well and pretty happy, I still strongly believe in the fact that you as an individual must do whatever makes you happy but without affecting others in a bad way . We are mere mortals, and all in one perishable beings , our time is short and we must find a way to make our staying worth . A New Year comes , probably I won't have the time to write another post ( because mr Hugh Hefner just gave me an sms telling me that he wants his favorite PlayBoy bunnies back ) and also because I am pretty much busy with making myself and my girlfriend happy at this moment . Your truly one and only mr. Jack Crowley aka Jack aka that guy I used to love to hate . Happy New Year !

Be a man and learn to act !

2012-09-18T23:24:00.000+03:00

I don't have the time to write a post.. I have a life.. I am not a blogger I am more like that bad ass motherfucker you grew to envy time after time . I just wanted to say I'm still alive , currently I am probably better in any way or form than ever . I still love you people so be good , have fun remember to live your life and smile.. I guess that's one important thing . Also for the brothers that are reading this post, I have a task for you, in the next month I want you to approach girls, randomly .. just to her and say " sorry .. I don't really know how to do this but I think you are gorgeous, something about you radiates from within, I don't want to disturb if it's not ok I will just leave, but god knows I don't want to " . It's fucking easy either the girl will say ..something good either they will laugh or be retarded..and confuse the fuck out of you . Anyway I will probably don't get any comments about how this task worked out ..but if you are up for this challenge give me a message and I will drink one beer for your guts to talk to a girl, two beers for making an conversation , and five beers for dating her Good luck champs !

Dreams... meh

2012-07-25T02:09:00.000+03:00

I wanted to say something , but I am not drunk nor high/ So I deleted the entire post because it was a waste of your time/ I was looking at some photos of you and I/ Now I somehow regret I never said goodbye/

Bad Jack is back

2012-06-19T23:44:00.000+03:00

The dark brother was covered in red clothes and was running to complete the circle. He had the potions and the signs , the Master shall be summoned ! The world will live another glorious day ! He entered his room , opened the bottle of beer , drank it like it was no tomorrow, snorted the fairy dust , and relaxed . 3 21 And Kaboom... Jack was summoned ! Welcome back to this shitty as blog people of the internets first of all I will surely want to kiss you all inspite your age sex religion or location , because you , you inglorious basterds , you are the reason I still write this shitty posts , somehow I feel the need to slap your tits once in a while , somehow I feel the need to say : man the fuck up you silly ass clown , it is time for glory not tears ! Tears are for pussies , that's even more fucked up, I had many pussies but non was crying .. almost all of them had a passion for food and sleeping on top of me..although one had some serious drug habits and was a drug dealer , the Petas Cartel ... this is a fuckin' picture of him all high and shit : That tomcat was fuckin' dangerous once I tried to give him a bath , next mornin' I woke up with a horse head under my sheets . Ok now let's be painfully serious , I just put an end to my nicotine addiction , because fuck that THC is better . In other news my ass reports that it still doesn't want to give a shit about your sorry ass opinion about me , I rull' so fuck the Universe if you say something that is contrary of what I just said . Also .. peace love and some motherfuckin' butterflies and icecream ! Ok .. now I will go to drink the rest of my beer commenting on my "friends" crapbook pages .. I will be serious and sincere .. so prepare yourself the shitstorm approaches ..

June 17

2012-06-17T14:44:00.000+03:00

Another week has past and so this damned weekend . I wish I could say I have done some legendary things this week, things that you will be eager to hear . Unfortunately I didn't , I just woke up , got my ass to work and back ..all this excitement for 5 days straight . I wanted to write something the other night , but I was piss drunk so I decided to go outside and take a long walk , simple pleasures of life... sometimes shouldn't be combined . I guess I am getting old , meh.. I just wanted to be more and more stupid , to achieve that nirvana derived from that state of mind .. ignorance is bliss , but if you can't ignore everything what the actual fuck are you doing ? Not succeeding at being stupid is a fail or a win !? Seriously I don't care much about this , I just want a couple more days of freedom a couple more beers in the fridge and some normal humans to interact with. Are you there ? Could you give me a sign that is somehow ok to write ? I don't feel the need anymore to do this .. or I am not drunk enough , don't know , I just want to move on and explore some new places , meet some new people to restore some of my lost faith in humanity . For now I will leave you with this song , wish you all the best wherever you are .

Le post , le lelele

2012-05-26T22:13:00.001+03:00

Cough*..Stay a while and listen ugh.. hi, how are you today ? Not that I care but I needed an intro because I have no idea why am I still writing this , I mean I don't do this for you , maybe I am kinda selfish and I do this for myself or maybe I just like to type stupid things that just pop-up in my head . Anyway .. should we talk about the weather and try to make a conversation ? Fuck that .. look the thing that really bothers me is why am I not writing my so called blog in Romanian , I mean I am pretty proud for being Romanian , I always enjoyed the history of our great nation ( read that with an " Borat " accent ..is much more cooler ) . So after I analysed who is reading this stuff .. and found out that some users are just looking for porn and stumble on this .. I kinda laughed to be sincere . I imagine that those tags with " naked J-Lo , naked Emma Watson , naked Bill Cosby " did their job well . So I won't change my language, I am writing in English because is so much funnier..and also the auto correct function doesn't work for Romanian .. Meh..outside is pouring ..is raining like this for a couple of weeks now , the sky is grim and the weather makes me wanna write a dark "noir" novel , but than I remember nobody reads anymore , for whom I shall write ? For myself ? For my kids ? I ain't gone kids , and they will probably be connected to the internet since birth , I imagine my first born talking in memes : Me at the hospital .. my wife is in labor .. the doctor delivers the baby safe and sound .. the baby opens his eyes slowly looks at me and shouts : " LE FUUUUUU " and I like a trolldad which I will be fly out of the picture " le lol " le le le le Ok ..don't be confused if you didn't get the joke.. is kinda stupid.. Ok now for a moment let's be serious about this, I would like to say hello to those friends that somehow still read my blog but aren't talking to me anymore . I still love you people but I understand that I am an jackass so it's ok that you don't want to keep in touch anymore ... it's just that when the zombie apocalypse will come I won't do jackshit to save your sorry asses , just sayin' stand by me and everythin' gonna be ok for ya folks . And because I already want to delete this post ..I will end this non sense here . Sometimes I wonder why girls hate me .. I mean sandwiches aren't making themselves in the kitchen are they ?!

That's me at my country side.. I mean that's a field and ..I was just walking with my brother towards an old cemetery to pay our respects to some old dead folks from our family . (Look closely at my left hand , yeh.. you got it . wink* ;) be good and take care of you )

Life is ours, we live it our way

2012-04-21T03:37:00.000+03:00

Oh..hello there, let me just put on my headphones and pop up another beer ..
Good.. now I am back .. oh this beer .. I love it, I had some medical problems so I wasn't allowed to drink for about 16 days . It was pretty painful , but now I have a sweet six pack right next to me .
You know I also wasn't allowed to go to work for some time so I had plenty of spare time to think about myself and what am I doing with my life . Obviously I concluded that I am too fucking awesome and that it's imperative necessary to stay as hidden as possible and not letting the majority of the people to see my awesomeness in his purest form possible, I am afraid they would cause riots , churches will be raped women will be burned and so on ..
Seriously now, for a reason I don't fully understand right now it seems that the shit is about to hit the fan , I am older than ever before and the fact that I know I am not the brightest crayon from the pack doesn't help me too much . At work is ok , in fact I may have some chances not to get fired , at home I am making a perfect team with myself ... like look at those beers I bought them for me .. I can't say anything else .. who would go at 2 : 30 in the morning , ignoring two packs of stray dogs , and buy me an six pack ? I would ! Fuck yeah !
Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time just to straighten up some things , some ugly things I did in the past , I am not always sorry about what have I done , but sometimes , just sometimes, I wish I could thank some people for being part of my life , even if that time passed by very quickly , the memories and the feelings that those people gave me left a mark ( not a scar ) on my heart . Sometimes I wish the world would be as I see it right now after three beers .. lovely , with people in which you can trust .. sadly only an foul would trust someone else . As much as we like to think about ourselves as social beings , the only thing that keeps as together is the egoistic need of one and another . If we could be self sustaining physically and psychically we would not give a fuck about others . That is just my opinion .. and another golden rule is " Do not take any advice about life or love from anybody . This is YOUR life .. THEY can't know 100% what is good or bad for you .. think for yourself and make decisions after you thoughtfully compared the risks and the advantages . Look at me ..saying don't listen to any advice and I am giving them like you just crack opened a bag of fortune cookies .
Anyhow... what I wanted to say is .. enjoy your life , enjoy what you feel and enjoy the moments with your family and friends , don't collect things..objects ..collect moments , collect joy through memories , it will come a time when all we will have would be those memories .
May you all be blessed by some super power out there in the Universe... God.. Flying Spaghetti Monster or even Cthulhu ruler of all and beyond . I don't know how much of the old " Jack " is in me , it seems that he's fading away , so be good folks , as I stated before I love each and everyone of you , stay safe !

Oh and this is for you , for the ones that keep coming here to find out if I am still living , I do miss you, so close no matter how far

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2012-03-18T01:11:00.000+02:00

The skies are black, the Moon is red , the thunder roars and Jack is back !

I missed you internet, in fact I am writing this in a wordpad with no internet access whatsoever.. I will probably upload it later for the delight of my hot readers and my brothers in faith ! Manergy ! Let me take another sip of beer and let’s spread my brains onto this sheet of virtual paper.

I didn’t had any reasons to write , I didn’t had any funny things to say and frankly speaking we all know you are stupid and ugly so there is no point for me to show you the obvious . I wish I could saw your pretty faces reading this . I bet you’re so damn cute looking at this white text on the black background , all wondering what the fuck is he trying to say . Well I’v got an answer for you smarty panties : NOTHING

I am too tired and stupid to make sense at this hour so why the fuck are you still reading this bullshit ?!

I bet you like it rough . Do you want to know a fun thing ? After reading this you will see black stripes ..

Is because my background is black.. I kinda need to changed this blog’s appearance .. but guess what I am to fucking lazy to do it .. and I like black .

Oh bros and hoes I missed you ! And you know , all of you have a place in my heart !

So for my non romanian readers I will apologise but I will write some lines in my language for my dearest friends .

Nici macar nu ai idee cat trebuie sa ma abtin atunci cand sunt in preajma oamenilor , sunt mai antisocial ca dracu’ si mai uracios decat Sfantul Petru intr-un bordel de gay , dar in seara asta sunt mai iubitor decat Maica Tereza . Dumnezeu sa ma ierte caci nu-I voi duce numele in desert iar de asa va fi promit sa-l acompaniez .

Prieteni si critici , va iubesc deopotriva , va iubesc miseleste si anost , egoist si prefacut dar va iubesc , sa-mi fiti cuminti si sa traiti cat sa puteti cotiza la pensia mea ..pe care al dracu sa fiu daca nu o sa o beau tot in cinstea mea impreuna cu pustoaice de liceu !

Rusting

2012-02-08T23:45:00.001+02:00

Hello there , earthlings , how are you today ? Pretty good I surely hope , I am kinda frozen , outside is a frozen land, where is that god damn global warming when you need it ? Anyway I just wanted to salute you guys, thanks for coming by , I would love to invite you to a cup of mulled wine .. I just found out that boiled wine is called that way so now I am feeling, somehow, enlighten .
As for myself I am pretty much ok , I really wanted to say hello to some people I would probably never see them again in the close future . Be good and take care of yourselves .. and also .. yeah I am talking about you now .. be happy , smile a little and .. I'll leave this here .
miss you ugly one

Unbreakable

2012-01-03T02:56:00.000+02:00

Hello there people of the interweb, I wanted to talk with someone close to me , to someone close to my heart , I searched that person in all of my friends , in all the people I knew I wanted to share something deep and personal . Unfortunately I found none , no shoulder to lay my head upon , I was once an lunatic .. I ran from what I felt and I managed to carry that on for some time . Today though I felt like I was kneeling in front of my heart and my feelings , I can't and don't want to talk with just anybody about this .
      So I did the only thing that I knew it would somehow help me, I just opened a new tab , logged in and ...found another way to run from humanity.. It's silly and pitiful but I need to take this weight down from my chest .
      I loved a girl once , I was young and stupid, I couldn't believe that someone would love me back, but she did . She has a special place in my heart , although I tried to find another girl in which to bury my soul , I couldn't find the right one. I am feeding with feelings , I consumed a dozen girls and none satisfied my thirst for what I was feeling back then in her arms , kissing like there will be no tomorrow , knowing that she is mine and I am hers .
     My friends.. love is not only blind and stupid .. love is fucking retarded , I am trying to man the fuck up for about 8 hours and I am still not able to comprehend the fact that almost all the girls I knew once, have a happy life and they are carrying on with it like I wasn't even there .
     A part of me is laughing like a devil in the fires of Hell , a part of me takes pleasure from this , the other part is tormented by former sweet memories turned in sour patches for my souls wounds .
I don't know what is worse to be loved and not give a damn or to give a damn and not be loved.

This..this state of mind.. what I am feeling now , will hunt me forever , deep inside of me , I will not be able to rest until I find that girl, to rest my head to her chest and feel hear heart beating . To feel her living next to me ...
Sorry if I bored you.. I don't even know why I am apologizing , nobody reads this .. but in the case you had the chance to read this : Thank you.. tonight you were my closest friends .
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I kinda love you .. somehow

2011-12-18T00:59:00.000+02:00

I wish I had something to say , I don't . I opened a bottle of wine and God is my witness I drank that sweet nectar of the Gods in less than 15 minutes . I am slightly dizzy , today I found that a friend of mine is in Oman , and she is even calling that foreign country " her new home " , I wish I could be glad and have a sip in her name but, fuck it I am Jack , I am just sad that I lost another girl . Damn you Oman ! For taking that girl .... Neah.. I am kidding , I am glad for her , I care about that woman and sincere being at this moment in time and space I wish her all the best , so be good take care of yourself and don't forget your burka ! Recently I lost my fucking conscience .. Yeah.. I know.. I thought it was lost since I hit puberty ..it seems not .. I fucking gave a big head to the sink in the bathroom .. I mean first was the sink and than was the bathtub , the result was a pretty nasty mark on my forehead ( it looks kinda sexy , I like scars , now I can brag about fightin' a pink cyber unicorn ) . My doctor said I don't get enough sleep and I am low on stamina. I played for the last two weeks Skyrim like a Dragonborn ... fuck it I even dreamed that I fus ro dah a bitch ... never mind ... I forgot that this blog is not watched by guys .. I mean I know that some people accidentally come across this gibberish but I am like.. 110% sure that I have two readers . Two.. psycho readers .. watching me..watching what I am writing .. I am desperately trying to sell my desktop and to buy myself an notebook to begin writing my novel , I wish someone could just buy this gaming rig once and for all .. and deliver me from this vice called gaming .. I love games .. but I know there are not the best choice for me .. As my father said ( translated from romanian ) " Are you fucking gay ? Get a girlfriend and come visit us ! That's what a guy at your age should do ! " Poor father he does not remember that faithful day when he caught me in bed with a girl 4 years older than me.. or that time when I brought home a girl and he shouted " what the fuck is my home a brothel ? " oh.. good times.. I do love my parents ..all of them .. Anyhow .. this is it boys and girls .. I am finishing my bottle of grape juice and plunge in the world of magically dreams where I can be what the fuck I want to be ..that unless a big fat black chick is trying to rape me again .. no seriously I had a nightmare about a black fat fuckin' chick full of pentagrams carved into her skin trying to rape me . I will Fus Ro Dah any bad dreams and if that doesn't work I shall call my dragon to help me ... I fuckin' love Skyrim.. is magical . So if you didn't understand anything about what I was talking about.. is ok.. I am the one with no alpha waves in his right hemisphere .. just watch this video and omg is so fucking cute I could die ... Love you .. sincerely .. I am so fucking alone right now but I feel that I owe you so much .. I love you all !

Meh..

2011-11-05T04:31:00.000+02:00

So here I am again , talking to myself and to you my dear one and only reader. It's been some time since I had something to say , something that I would wish to say to someone or maybe just to myself , today I am maybe just a little more pissed about the society in which me and you must live . I see the lack of respect and that joyfully stupidity on most of the people faces . Those little pathetic excuses for humans are happy or sad with their insignificant lives , I am more and more a traveler ..of both time and space .. in this poor excuse of spontaneously existence . Sometimes I wish I was never been born at all , I saw too many atrocities that maybe somehow affected my mind to the point that I can not see the world as a place where I need to find my happiness . This world is driven by factors I can't rely to , we live in a decadent society driven by clowns and I can no longer laugh at their bad jokes , I wish I can find a place where I can be alone with my thoughts, I need to find a purpose worth fighting for . You see, I can't close my eyes knowing that people are freezing to death, I can't eat when I know children are dying of starvation, I can't laugh when old men shed tears, I am utterly disgusted for being a human and taking part of this new social slavery imposed by our society . I know I can't change anything , and maybe is nothing meant to be changed because maybe I am the lunatic and is not your fault that I am crazy , but sincerely I would want to push that " end of all things button " so fucking bad .. I can't feel your tears, I can't relate to your problems when there are bigger issues which nobody tries to overcome .. I am too small to make a change , and I will probably never be able to make a difference . I am not complaining about my life , I am content with what I have, I am at peace with my own self , but not with the world I am part of . I just want to fade away , close my eyes and wake up when our race will not evolve from wars and murder , when we could just get along with each other , you may say I am a dreamer , maybe , but I am not the only one . Now please excuse me .. is late .. and I just want to sail away , from you my dear , from this world and from this whole realm of ignorance . Jack

Lock you doors ☺

2011-09-18T23:07:00.000+03:00

Well well well... Hello there my sweet innocent reader , I am Jack as you may already know, proudly presenting you a funny story. So tonight after a couple of beers I am sitting alone at the window listening to some good old Johny Cash when someone is forcing my door . I looked amazed and with a grin smile on my face I took out my switch blade , unlocked the door and with a state of mind saying " come at me bro " ( I have a vital of 100% and with another 20% booze bonus ) .. but there is nobody there . Mindfuck I say.... what the fuck was I drinking... nothing extraordinary , just plain beer , the drink of Vallhala's gods . The lights were off ( the lights are turned on by motion sensors ) . Well it seems we have a ghost / vampire / entity of unknown source , trying to enter my room . " ha ha " I say in my mind thinking about what is my plan when I will meet a being thought to be supernatural : rape . So I unlocked my door , pulled up a cigar , light it up and praying to god that my neighbor is not trying to enter my place I am sitting here and wait for the one which tried to brake into my place to enter , " come at me bro " I said in my mind while pouring another glass of beer ... I am Jack god of nothing and bringer of futile posts , bringer of sorrow ..come and get me... So..at least until someone breaks into my mansion ( and will probably be stabbed and raped ) I am saying to you goodnight ( because here..right now is fucking late ) and have a good time.. life is nothing more than a game with awesome graphics but shitty gameplay .

fuuck fuck fuck..and bla...I am too drunk to give a fuck

2011-09-12T00:08:00.000+03:00

So.. I got my beer .. I got my cigars .. I got my head on my shoulders but my mind is gone . I am writing this ,slightly drunk , I was thinking about a name , a name for a new mask , people love masks , they always do , I have a bad habit of making them from used, or not , t-shirts , I like making them creepy as fuck , because I want to express what I am .. I want people to see that I am the guy which in his spare time is looking for new ways to improve a pipe bomb or that guy who will fucking love a zombie apocalypse just because he is really tired of this life ,, this routine .. this modern slavery . Don't get me wrong , if you see me you won't notice that I am abnormal , as a matter of fact I am not , I am just thinking ahead of my time , you know.. 2012 and the end of the world , I want to be prepared . Eh.. maybe I got too much time on my own and I am in need of a girlfriend to rule over my life .. let's go shopping .. let's watch that romantic movie , let's go out with my friends , let's pretend that love will be more powerful than your strong anarchistic desires and you will be nothing less than a small man , obedient at his most . Fuck love my friends , love is the definition of " I want my mind to be fucked at another level " ... maybe I am looking for some mindfuck .. who knows ..certanly not me , I just created another mask .. it's more metaphorically than poetry .. Jack's cutting a t shirt creating a mask , that R. will use in his daily life . I am used to smile when I will just want to smash someone's face , I am used to go along with the society's needs... but maybe one day I could be me .. and I shall dance around the fiery flames like a madman , oh how I will dance the dance of the death and sorrow . Fuck my friends , putt me in chains and lock me away , I am doctor Jeckyll mr Hyde and his brother in law .. Jack Crowley . I am out because I am too drunk to fucking correct all my english mistakes , I am a fucking romanian mother fucker , so please spare me of my non sense .. I can't write talk and make poetry like this while keeping an correct vocabulary . See you next time you perishable waste of time and space .

2011-08-31T00:53:00.000+03:00

Hi, my name is Jack , I am R.'s alter-ego , in many ways I control his life more or less, I helped him in many situations, he's my creator but now I am his owner.
And for today , Jack will tell your sorry ass motherfuckers how to man the fuck up and take matter into your own lousy hands .
First of all , if you are a girl , than you are practically doomed to an existence in complete and absolute intellectual darkness... I was just kidin' don't let your ovaries boil to much ..
So first of all you must realize that for your own self YOU are the center of YOUR universe, I mean things actually are like this...* I am not joking
Let's take an example : your friends , family, job , and everything else revolves around you from your own point of view . Don't let others tell you that your sorry ass is not the most important thing in the world ( I was referring to your person , not to your ass ). Don't let others to take your place, don't let them rule your life ( you don't want to be a lousy satellite when you can be the motherfuckin' Sun ! )
It's a problem with some of us which are more sensible and more dependent, some of you use to love another person so fucking much that you let them become the center of you own existence . Now that is a fucking problem kids , and let me tell you what Jack told me not to do : Do not let someone become more important than you ! . I mean this can have many twists, offcourse that when is a life or death matter you are allowed to jump in an active volcano to save a damsel in distress, but don't let that damsel in distress or that silly ass prince charming make you want to jump in a volcano because he doesn't give a shit about you anymore .
I say : Take control of your feelings , be cold , be strong , be like Jack . Even though pools shows that Jack is seen by the women as an chauvinistic pig crossed with a monkey , he's right and he does bang chicks like is no tomorrow , you can't count on that !
The truth is that when you let someone else control your feelings, or when you trust them with them , you sign your own sadness contract . So you can moan and cry, or you can say fuck this , I just read a nonsense post on a madman's blog about how my life shouldn't be so miserable because of that idiot/bitch and I have a strong feeling that I should just let this pass and enjoy life , enjoy the company of my friends or why not enjoy alcohol drugs and prostitution (remember kids use protection !)
So I know I will have probably two or three readers , I will be most gratefully If I could see a comment down below , or I don't know a sign of life , because frankly I am tired of writing this and think over and over again that nobody makes use of my manly wisdom .

Just Hopes

2011-08-15T21:38:00.000+03:00

This is the place where R. grew up, I enter and take small steps on this plane ,far in the distance I can see the forest , I pull a cigar from the pack and light it up, inhale, let's take a walk together , shall we ?
We are walking on the same road R. walked so many times , I can almost see him and his brother heading to the river , pass the forest , on that big yellow hill with a "V" on it .
I lay down in the grass and I am starting to watch the sky , is not night yet , the sun is setting on my left and crisp red rays shine desperately from the clouds . At my right there is nothing except the plain and my shadow stretching on the grass like a memory soon to be forgotten . I open my beer bottle and take a sip , the first cigar is history but her cancerous smoke still rises to the sky .
" I fuckin' miss you people " Shouts R. from the depths of my conscience .
The Sun is going down on the other side, small bugs are crawling in the grass next to my head , I light up another cigar and lay down watching the sky again . I am feeling small , I suddenly know that even If I write this in the instance I am seeing those things you wouldn't be able to enjoy what I am feeling .
The others..the world doesn't belong "here" this is a forgotten place , an cocktail of memories , feelings and images , and to feel what I am feeling right now you will need all the ingredients .
"You" are my friend now .. come next to me so I could tell you stories about ancient battles which took place here , or how in that forest something followed R. and his brother for almost 2 miles , or how deers are coming out from the forest to greet the lone travelers or how about those hidden treasures my grandpa use to tell me about , the ones that have a bright flame just above them , and if you lured by the flame would dig them up , demons will come from and steal your mind making you insane.
There is no word to properly express your feelings, I will end this here , there is just me and the sky . I want to fade away in the memories, nothing is like it used to be , knowing this I smile at the new Moon and drink a beer in her name .

Don't let me be misunderstood

2011-08-14T00:39:00.000+03:00

Hi, my name is Jack. Usually I meet people with a grin smile and act like I enjoy their company, usually I eat girls souls and play with their feelings,usually I write my stuff while being drunk or high...today I am sick of me. I can't believe girls or people in general would want to hang out with me..
Tommorow I will visit my grandmom, the person who raised me at my beautifull countryside ,I miss the old times,life was so simple yet so good, I wish I could have the talent to tell you about things,funny things, I did while I wondered that land. But let's make this short, I miss someone right now, is nothing I can't handle but IWould surely be better without this feeling. My happiness shall not depend on someone or something...yet I can't be really happy without this person . Today my soul craves but I can assure you I am working on this, and when my mind will return I wil be the same jackass everybody knows.
I fucking miss you , silly girl , you stone cold killer of joy.

Reach out touch faith

2011-08-10T17:53:00.000+03:00

Wait..wait a second , must light up a cigar..
So many of you ( probably none ) are wondering why do I like this girl , I mean I am the Jack , I do not like girls and in the most chauvinistic manner I just use them for my own hedonistic pleasure . Well I like her because she succeed to be more bitchy than any other girl before , I tend to be sincere to girls, and when I like them I usually go to them ..and say it .. ( Yekshmas ma name is Borat , I like you , how much !? ) Well this time something was wrong , she didn't reply with the characteristic smiley face and "I want you in me" phrase , actually it was ice cold and kinda offended that I had the nerve to tell her that she's damn hot .
you know what .. I still didn't light up that cigar.. must..get..cigar..good.. good now I am smoking like a rastafari . Well the girl had some issues she likes video games , listens to good music she's pretty hot and the most important thing she's a smartass .. I mean literally she knows what the hell is doing .. this thing was contradictory to my beliefs and sometimes I just like watching her ramble :|about work and stuff related to work .. stuff I must know ..and probably don't .. just sayin'
Well enough about her because she will probably read this stuff and will puff up like a puffer fish thinking I am all into her . Thing which is not entirely true , I like her , I like talking to her but it feels like she's so far away and I can't reach out, while ..others are lurking and waiting for a chance .
So right now she's out there with a guy watching a movie or eating something , while I am writing this , more for her than for me , and I am wondering .. how and why am I doing this ? Do I really like this girl so much that I am doing something because she likes or am I really doing this because I enjoy this and I don't want it to end .
I don't know, and probably YOU shouldn't know, now I am going to drink a beer and play the waiting game . Outside is pouring, I couldn't resist at work .. I went at work at 6 AM and call it a day at 8 AM .. I almost felt asleep five times and fuck me sideways if I won't go to bed at 9 tonight .
So the song for today is Depeche Mode - Reach out touch faith . Enjoy it and thanks for reading what I had to say . You will enjoy it more after she will stop talking to me, I bet that .

Let's burn the world together

2011-08-08T23:27:00.000+03:00

I welcome myself back to the internet , while you are reading my words of wisdom
I am probably riding my pink turbo unicorn to the dreamland to meet my damsel in distress and kidnap her ... I do that more often than you think .
Well.. about what should we talk tonight ? About the fact that I drank so much that I sang Zombie by The Cranberries on my way to work .. at work .. at my coffee brake .. at the phone ? Or should I talk about a girl who pretty much toked over my mind ? Hm.. I bet you would want to read about that foxy lady with the power to amaze the Jack .
While the last subject is pretty interesting and funny , because I always said love and feelings in general makes you look dumb , act dumb and ..as a matter of fact I already did some fucking dumber than dirt things.. I can't help myself to wonder about this fuzzy feeling that runs like a drug in my veins . I like the feeling and I am willing to try it some more , need some more of this stuff.. eh fuck it I want it all . I will be the Scarface of the feelings and were you silly beings are failing and burning in flames I will succeed , and you know why ? Because I am that chauvinistic narcissistic fella that didn't believe in silly feelings .
So let's do this and after that scream " all the humanity " when the Hindenburg Jack will crash to the ground . All hail to me and my new hobby ..soul archeology.. digging little fragments to crop something I thought it was lost ..or is it really lost ? We shall see !

To be continued

Also I am sorry for not writing more and also I am sorry for the mistakes ( no I am not .. if you find a mistake I call it a trademark )

Ain't got nothing

2011-06-04T02:37:00.000+03:00

My dear reader , I am smoking a cigar , drinking a glass of cold wine which gives me shivers down my spine , I just opened the window and some birds are singing in the night . The smoke of this sweet cancerous flaming bonbon makes me think about things a puny human should not be allowed to think of .
I am wondering why I have this lack of emotion towards people in general , the ones that are feeling this mostly are the girls which have the bad luck to met me .
I like to consume and move on , but lately I become more and more bored of this , I need a bad woman .. I need a challenge , I am sick of the first 4 levels , is like a demo , now I need to move one , aim higher ... but .. eh .. enough with this madness .
I meet some new cool people, I moved out on my own , I am dating two girls , I am drinking wine , smoking a cigar and enjoying my sweet free time .
Now people I am going to take a walk outside of my headquarters and see what is up with this old medieval town late at night .
See you on the other side , and remember : there is no reason to ever feel alone or down . I am going now my dear reader , but I am living you with this song :

Not posting and things like that

2011-05-02T23:36:00.000+03:00

Hello people , due to popular request I am back with a little post . Currently I am trying to maintain my stamina for tomorrow's day work . I am deeply sorry I didn't do something legendary or even epically enough to write it down. I was just working sleeping , banging two chicks at a time , drinking tiger blood and checking my Adonis DNA like a master warlock . I wonder how many of you will get that joke.. It's pretty sad because I can hardly find someone who will get a joke about something like this , or an internet meme / sensation I am being ostracized by my own jokes . U Y NO Understand them ? Maybe because I aim to high.. yeah.. maybe I am becoming an hipster joker not using the normal mainstream " yo mama " jokes .. eh fuck jokes , let's talk about love and how love can make you dumber than dirt .
For my audience ..which consist of two 13 years old girls , The Easter Bunny and probably an ex stalker girlfriend .. which by the way almost broke my fingers last time we met ( yeah I am talking about you .. you are one crazy little sexy girl ..but you're crazy ). .. almost lost my idea , so we were talking about love , fuck love , makes you act dumb and silly , period .
But for those which in their sublime ignorance can still feel such deep things I can only envy you and say this : " enjoy it brothers and sisters, and just for you I summoned the King ! "

Peace

2011-03-28T01:03:00.000+03:00

           I wanted to talk with someone tonight , with an complete stranger , with someone I wouldn't meet again . I don't really had a subject , I just felt the need to say something and than forget about it .
The only person I felt that would understand me, was me though, I don't want to sound like an 12 years old with a social disorder , but sometimes is better to talk with yourself than to try to explain feelings to another human . My theory is that every night I die and every morning I am reborn as a new individual , sometimes with a headache , and with my hair pointing to the four corners of the earth simultaneously .
I am listening to Johnny Cash, and I am asking myself over and over again , what am I really writing , I can't describe my feelings , and I know that no sane person should give a damn about my state of mind ... the epiphany you have after drinking four beers and smoking five cigars ... the love you want to share, that wisdom of a mad man that you poses , ah we humans are so funny , and you know maybe one time somebody told you that you are not the center of the universe , that others are more than you will ever be , that your opinion doesn't matter so much , and that you must stop being so selfish from time to time .
         I say... you are the center of your own universe , and for yourself your opinions will count more than what others will tell you in their life time , be what you want to be , be simple and humble though . Is better to let others discover that you are more than meets the eye .
        I am a simple guy , possessing a simple mind , people call me stupid and ignorant , girls are telling me that my chauvinistic way of life will make me end up alone with a broken heart , begging some attention, but I am the center of my universe , my world is spinning in the opposite direction , I am and I will be Jack forever and after , and no matter what you will say , I will still love you as a brother or sister, as a human .
Good night my friends and foes , my heart is pleased and my mind is blessed , tonight we shall remember the legend of Johnny Cash .